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is there.......an actual yellowjackets secret episode
#why do i kinda believe it wait#i need cabin guy backstory and they promised me jason ritter this season#showtime app apparently says new episode coming july 1 sam hanratty#is holding a clapper that says episode ten in an insta post is this actually fucking happening rn
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The thing with shadowpeach that makes me sad sometimes is that it can feel one sided …
I’m pretty sure it isn’t, but we don’t have a confirmation
not verbally, no
#ngl anon i do not believe it feels one-sided#nor that lmk has left it to be one-sided#macky is just more verbal about his feelings compared to swk who shows his reciprocation through actions#swk is an 'actions speak louder than words' kinda guy#we SEE him trust mac to help in s5 long before he verbally/indirectly says he does#we see him reaching and looking back long before the s5 hand reach#but even that isn't verbal!!!#swk has not said with real words that he cares just yet#but his ACTIONS!!!#oh his actionsssssss!!!!!#shadowpeach#lmk#asks#this is why i have hope anon <3#don't be like macky and wait for the words#let him be the down bad obvious/oblivious one
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You know .. I don't know why people only limit their option/thinking to "is Yorishima the grandpa or not?" and start rethinking everything from that angle only ..
Not to say this idea is wrong or right more like ... I find it kinda funny that people don't see Yorishima as anything but that .. that that his only purpose in the story either to serve as "fake grandpa" or "be the real grandpa" and see no other purpose or different role to him which's amusing in a way ..
It's like being blinded either directly or indirectly to other ideas which might be the real goal by Midorikawa-sensei, until she come and say that his role is actually different <3
Is him knowing Reiko for sure/weird familiarity between him and Natsume only serve the point of "fake/real grandpa" .. is that the only role and option opens to him story-wise ?
Some might say that then if not that one then what other options/ideas for him story-wise ?
I can't be the only one considering other ideas/theories about him related to Reiko aside from the grandpa one, right ?!
Like for example ...
him being the brother of the real grandpa so he's Natsume's uncle
him being Reiko's killer
him being a firsthand witness to the story of Reiko and her husband even how she died and by who thus hated the exorcist world and distanced himself ever since
him being the one who took care of Reiko's daughter/Natsume's mother after Reiko's death till she married and protect/hide her till then
as for what I believe personally, well, let's say so far for me he's not the grandpa for sure so I'm looking at things from that angle. so, I do consider all those options even tho I lean to a certain one maybe but can't say for sure yet ...
I'm only saying that Midorikawa-sensei has many options for him story-wise than what people actually assumed the first time and locked him down to only that to consider what else might be there for him.
there might also be an option I hadn't considered yet for all we know so far <3
#natsume yuujinchou#natsuyuu#natsume reiko#Yorishima#I feel like .. if we look at Reiko's story and hints be it for her husband or overall .. you'll see many ideas#even tho I don't even know what other people think of Reiko's story or assume it is ..#since all might have different ideas then work other ideas from there#because I admit because of my own Reiko's theory I do look at things from that angle sometimes since so far nothing denies it#maybe that's why my reaction to Yorishima is kinda different#that I believe not once I assumed he might be the grandpa#knowing Midorikawa ... we can't trust anything at all till the last moment ...#Yorishima serve another purpose to the full Reiko's life reveal ..#he's another piece another hint another foreshadow serving a bigger picture ...#now the only last missing piece .. is the grandpa himself then everything will unfold mostly ..#and the reveal is closer to us like no other time .. will it be from Yorishima's mouth himself or be it from someone else ?#now we just wait and see ...#me start rambling again ><
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you say they can’t put telepaths in marvel rivals, yet we have some very credible leaks that jean grey and emma frost are gonna be in the game soon.
that being said, jean has telekinesis (and the phoenix force) and emma has her diamond form. telepathy is all charles has, lmfao. odds are pretty low for him, but maybe not zero if they give him telekinesis!
if yall have me say he got psionic blasts one more time i am going to scream HE HAS MORE THAN TELEPATHY . LIMITED BUT HE HAS IT <- he has gone against sentinels and disabled armies with it before HE CAN FIGHT I PROMISEEE
and technically they did give him telekinesis in krakoa (and very weak telekinesis sometimes before krakoa) so .... not my fave move but he does have that ...... and ig they give him a gun sometimes ........ last resort type shit but he has options ..
#snap chats#area man gets too passionate about charles xavier more at 12#also did i not say emma had her diamond form or did i delete that tag#omg no i deleted the tag fuck my life. please believe me i did say emma had her diamond form i didnt think anyoned care tho#but with charles. as i said before. he has more than telepathy ...#limited but .. it exists options exist ... he can also Arguably control machinery#i say Arguably cause im still figuring out how he controls machines he says he does with his mind#then he can Also read like ??? SOME kinda waves in sentinels ??? that was a thing im p sure#BUT YEAH NO LISTEN this is what im saying when i say he could be a support character and not a duelist#as if anyone was contemplating duelist charles ........#lol i love how i call 'vanguards' tanks and 'strategists' supports but i stick with duelist for damage. sorry duelist better#anyway let charles be support it'll never happen because this game hates me but i can dream#listen im just saying maybe charles can have a move that disables machinery or something#like punisher or iron man... maybe like a temporary lock on weapons... just one target#lmao wait im just thinking of sombras ult from ow arent i. yeah fuck it why not he can have a disable-all-skills ult idc vejRLKAERJE#sounds bout right for how sneaky he is sometimes .....#his left and right clicks could lit just be psionic blasts of varying strength and speed#doesnt even have to do physical damage ... mental damange .... what the difference right the brain sayin There Is Pain anyway..#maybe charles could have a sonar ability that lets him (maybe nearby allies too) see through walls for like. three seconds... 50M range....#like yk what i mean he can sense where people are thats my idea...#LIKE LET ME COOK MARVEL LET MEEE IN <- dont ill make him busted or horrible there is no in between
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Every once in a while I think about the ship I've been obsessed over for close to two years now and feel like I'm ascending to another plane of reality. Like sometimes you just encounter a ship that hits every single mark and is perfect in every regard and you're left stunned how something like that can even exist
#Anyways I'mma put the actual inane ramblings in the tags#Medic and Engie make me so ill every time I think about them for a while I feel like tearing into things and biting people and throwing up#How something like that can exist completely defies me#I don't know how something that perfect can exist#I'm typically a multi-shipper and while I still kinda am I honest to god don't really care to write other ships#Not cause they ain't good (they are pretty damn good) but because Engiemedic is just on another level#Like dammnnn!! that's why I've spent so long writing a fic about them!#I can't fathom it honestly how characters like that can exist#They're like a slightly warped reflection of themselves#They're both intelligent mentally ill lunatics with no morals whatsoever#The only thing is that Engie is marginally better at hiding it#If you go into headcanon territory than WHOO!! OHH DAMNNN#Like what gets me the most about Engiemedic is how they're so similar#They think and exist on the same wavelength#In tune with each other. Their neurons braided like wires#If I start talking about how the machine and the flesh are not opposites but rather one in the same we gonna be here all day#I just can't...believe the ship exists#Like man how does this happen#You want humour? Goofy wacky experiments and silliness of them violating several conventions#You want angst? Hell yeah they've got plenty of it#Fluff? Buddy I start wailing and sobbing if they accidentally brush hands while working on stuff#I could write about them for ages and not get bored they can fit in every circumstance#They make me SICK they make me CRAZY I love them so so much#They would do anything for each other#I look at what they have and I can feel like I understand what love is#I need to write more oneshots and minifics about them they're so flexiable and fun#Can't wait to do parallels with them in these upcoming chapters#Either way GODDDDD I love these two so much I could go on for hours about them#especially if I'm allowed to talk about headcanons#sp-rambles
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This is like half of a ‘we’re so back’ moment with the brown suit like he still has black hair but more importantly why are his buttons gold now
#snap chats#is his hakuho pin gold too or is that lighting ??? makin me ask a lot of questions rgg ….#anyways. we’re. kinda back ????????#AGAIN brown suit my beloved but why are th buttons gold now theyre originally black#and then the black hair.#rgg please bro you can do it i believe in you to use the best color palette for mine#WAIT HIS SUITS NOT EVEN THE SAME KIND ANYMORE ??????#its like daigo’s suit …. it only has four buttons instead of six …..#rgg what the fuck is going on over thre#EDIT: WHY ARE HIS DRESS SHIRT SLEEVES WHITE NOW HUH ???#this is like when i wanna redraw how i draw mine or daigo or masato and change something a lil#but this is their fuckin character WHAT ARE YOU GUYS DOING
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Gear 5 luffy's laugh is so contagious I just hear the drums and go insane how does this work. What did he do to me
#i still cant believe how much this new opening theme goes off.... DREAM SAVE ALL OF US 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻 AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH 💥💥💥💥💥💥#wait a second. the robot attacked 200 years ago. the void century was 800 years ago no????? what#oh see it was made 900 years ago.... but why did it attack 200 years ago then.... what happened#it is still so funny how they made evegapunk einstein but with some cunty long legs#200 years ago they gave rights to the gyojin!!! i see i see ✍️✍️also i still wonder why law and kuma have similar hat and pants designs#like there is NO WAY that much similarity isnt done on purpose. NO FUCKING WAY!!! I NEED ANSWERS!!!#are they annihliating cp ships akdhakskd yeah vegapunk letsgo#also the opening song is about dreams and the end one is about luffy reaching shanks...... havent got a clue why but there it is#talking tag#watching one piece#episode 1098#also is lucci named lucci bc it kinda sounds like luffy. SERAPHIM KUMA HAS HIS DEVIL FRUIT???? vegapunk could only make zoan fruits????#also wdym when cp0 acts it means its some historic event. lucci is like 25. where are the experienced people here#sentomaru works for vegapunk??? maybe i forgor about this tbh also do theu have a doffy seraphim??? the fact they have animal names....#stussy letting kaku get hurt akdhsjsn oh atlas has lamb ears..... and lucci said she is is prey... no..... the foresahdowing :(#lucci you fucked up she just gave luffy food... that a death sentence look what happened to kaido#episode 1099#<- oh my god btw. god. jesus.#why is akainu telling the cp0 what to do or thinks he can do that... thats the world gov... also thinkng about how garp should fight him#and not luffy.... because of ace you know... i still wonder how did sengoku know who ace's father was... there is only one man who knew....#everyone trying to stop them from fighting ajdhsksjks two rabid dogs fr#LUFFY TAKING OFF HIS JACKET WHEN LUCCI ASKS FOR HIS WANTED SIGN!!!! GO OFF KING!!!! SLAY!!! THE CREW SAW HIM!!! FINALLY!!!#i have been smiling since he started the transformation this is so sick...... i have got a case of the luffy brain#zoan fruits steal the personality of the user when they awaken ✍️✍️ luffy???? nami being the only one who saw gear 5 <3 twins manifesto#robin being so shook about luffy being a god ajdbjansk wdym devil fruits exist because people wish for them. fairy magic real????#WHAT DO YOU MEAN THEY ARE FROM ALTERNATE REALITIES WHERE SOMEONE DREAMT ABOUT THEM??? DOES HE TRAVEL THRU REALITIES FOR THEM???#jinbe has been making this face 😧 every episode three times it is amazing ajdhaksnsk poor man... now he sees a kid angel version of himself#after seeing hia captain turn into a god... he is gonna get a stroke OMG SENTOMARU WE JUST GOT YOU BACK#episode 1100#<- CRAZY. INSANE. OH GOD. ONLY 12 LEFT. THATS A WEEKEND!!! I CANT DO THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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god tywin lannister deserved worse
just remembering elias death and i wanna puke and the way tywin talks about elia and what happened is so damn gross
but rip tommen and myrcella we all know what’s about to happen in the next book :/
the cycle of violence just keeps spinning and damn you tywin for beginning it
(i got a bit crazy in the tags 💀)
#rest in peace elia and rhaenys#i’m one of those crazy ppl who thinks jaqen h’ghar is aegon 💀#literally lost the teeny tiny amount of credibility i had#anyways i think doran’s in on it and i think rhaegar switched out asharas child for aegon paralleling the baby swap jon does#the pact made in braavos about viserys and dany marriages is a half truth half lie#and arianne being sent to faegon is simply doran testing his heir. if she messes up then whoever’s spying for doran will correct her#gerold dayne knows too much that’s why doran thinks he’s too dangerous#but this would make the dornish plot sooooo much more interesting and would show that no doran hasn’t been doing nothing#it would also automatically make the daynes more important#jaqen (aegon) was in kings landing to kill robert but got caught by varys. syrio was sent to find him. ned cleared out the black cells tho#saving aegon in the process. fun how we’re actually introduced to this character through lyanna starks mini me arya#aegon was able to kill robert with a boar tho so mission accomplished.#now he’s in old town trying to hatch his dragon egg. the stone beast taking flight in danys vision is aegon being symbolically depicted…#..as a spinx#i’m crazy delusional. but ppl who think faegon is actually aegon are even more delusional than me#plus the real aegon being alive fulfills the suns son part of quaithes warnings#i like this theory bc it makes the dorne plot more interesting and it explains whatever is going on with jaqen h’ghar cause he is sus#yes yes i know i’m delusional 💀 i just think it’d be a very interesting twist#kinda hoping no one sees this post at this point bc i know no one will take this theory well lol#i do think this theory can be supported by the text tho#and cerseis throw away line about ned stealing asharas baby would suddenly become peak foreshadowing#barristan comparign dany to ashara would also be peak foreshadowing bc ashara would take the place of gilly in this parallel and she was dis#dishonored by someone at harrenhall. likely aerys and then she turned to a stark probably brandon for comfort#tbh i think it was ashara who lied to brandon about what happened to lyanna. perhaps she was trying to mess with brandon’s wedding and#was trying to get back at rhaegar for humiliating elia at the tourney. i highly doubt it was baelish who lied to brandon cause brandon#has little reason to believe him and no reason to trust him. ashara tho? arthur daynes sister and elias lady in waiting? also his lover?#anyways varys the spider potentially stealing aegon away (if he did take a child it was the false aegon) is there to parallel the others#who ride ice spiders taking crasters sons. tbh i think it was aegon who decided he wanted to train as a faceless man so he could get revenge#on his own terms. and the sea lord of braavos at the time was in on it and helped aegon with his plans#the unveiling coming up is going to be a lot more important than arya just reclaiming her identity. yes im delusional lmao. rant over
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is episode 8 the domitian arc ? more on this and EVEN MORE narratives i’ve been ignoring that the show said “actually,,,” about in 5
#hermes staying domitian’s hand… hermes’ face a flash of discomfort when he was torturing tenax… hmm. character growth.#WHAT WAS THAT HERMES. WHAT WAS THAT LOOK. NO GIRL GET BACK HERE I CANNOT ALSO DO THIS NARRATIVE OF YOU NO LONGER ABLE TO PULL HIM BACK FROM#THE BRINK OF HIS CRUELTY WATCHING HIM CHANGE AND SEEKING OUT SOMEONE ELSE IN HIS NEED AND FEAR AND ANGST. NO BABY GIRLLLL#I DON’T WANT TO WRITE A HERMES POINT OF VIEWWWW OF THE SIX YEARS HE SPENT WATCHING DOMITIAN BLOOMMMM INTO HIS POWER AND CORRUPTTTT because.#correct me if i’m wrong but in that very first scene that was a young hermes in the white right he watched domitian give his speech and saw#his father to truly see him the whole time as hermes has seen his brilliance.#NO I ALSO SAW THAT GUARD’S HEAD FOLLOW HERMES oh i hate it here. you know what i also hate? i need domitian to be successful for tenax#but also i do kinda like titus… NOOOOOO NO KILLING TITUS DOMITIAN I JUST SAID I LIKED HIM!!!! DOMITIAN!!!#oh. ohhhh no. OH NOOOO okay listen we can redeem this. we can have the whole turning point of the narrative be domitian’s mercy of hermes#the ultimate staying of his hand. proving he’s not entirely gone that hermes & his love still means something. do i think this will happen#no absolutely not. before he can kill his brother domitian has to kill the only other living person he loves perhaps more than titus if he#could ever realize it. (a brief interlude to yell LET’S GO LESBIANS LET’S GO HI IRIS) domitian… please spare him… OH WAIT HELLO THE BLOOD!!#ALSO a brief interlude to say i knew it was coming but ELIA’S SPEECH ABOUT LOVING INCITATUS??? I WAS ON THIS INCITATUS SHIT WITH THE LITTLE#NOD THEY HAD WHERE SCORPUS CALLED HIM TO BEAT XENON OH MY GOD I CAN’T BELIEVE THIS!!! elia’s going to crush him. incitatus won’t listen.#scorpus is going to die twice once when they call elia’s name instead of his and then the second time when the scorpion bites him again#(he kills himself and tenax finds him. sorry to give everyone absolutely maximum damage here but uh. that’s how i can see it going down)#or alternatively worse: after killing titus who at times he loves and hates in equal measure (if y’all don’t think I have some UNHINGED#brothers quotes. we’ll keep mum here about why but suffice to say it is. relevant to other fandoms. and thus i have a Collection) the last#thing domitian has to do is kill hermes. and this one is both out of betrayal but also love because I think somewhere in here titus’ queen#berenice plays a role because domitian’s hatred of the jews probably comes to play a role and I think titus would show up and protect her#like Domitian engineers some kind of a situation where in theory titus could escape alive or beat him but he can’t do that & save berenice#and so of course he saved berenice. or she dies in his arms and he goes mad with grief and any way you put it berenice is the trap & titus#happily crawls into the lion’s mouth to save her for love of her etc and domitian sees him die for it. he gives titus every chance to come#back to him to work with him to be what he wants him to be and he always chooses himself he chooses love and domitian can’t understand even#when it makes him weak. and then he sees hermes dirty and emaciated and still terribly terribly beautiful and feels such a pang of longing#and love that he decides he has to die because he (domitian) cannot be weak. he cannot have any of it. also giving domitian worse paranoia#than he already has because if you kill your brother the one person who should always love you—support you—who can build me a new brother—#you’ve gotta generate some MAJOR issues. namely trust issues. and if he kills hermes they’ll be even worse. so like ideally To Me domitian#wouldn’t kill him but i do very much see the symbolism of cutting off his last earthly tie & desire to ascend to the divine imperial throne#those about to die
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Hm...
#not to be really clearly be someone with Issues on the murder prison sideblog but I've never been this deep in a community before#I always sort of rest on the sides#I still do to some extent really#so I'm just kinda waiting to be attacked#if that makes sense?#like#I feel like a fraud who's tricking people into believing that im not a fraud#and once people find out im actually a stupid horrible person I'll be chased out into the woods#...god is this why I keep on getting Kazui in those quizzes?#but like- you guys have stuck around for this much of my ramblings but how much more? When do I Start being annoying and pretentious?#has it already started and I just havent realized?#in three months will I wake up to a callout post for something I never realized was a problem?#I dont know...#vent
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I forgot how exhausting it is to sob, actually scream cry. it feels good and bad. my eyelids sting. i keep trying to get up and do things but everything just makes me feel sick.
#i know grieving is kinda universally difficult but like#the last time i truly needed to grieve sometjing was so long ago#this feels new again and its so hard#i just. i just keep turning around expecting to see him there#waiting for me#like it was all a bad dream#because it all happened so fast.#the animal er visit was like two hours tops. i thought id take him and theyd fix him up#get him home#i had no idea i needed to make that decision on the spot#really i had like five minutes to think about what to do for him#it was nightmarish honestly maybe thats why its not sinking in#it just all felt so cruel#i dont. i didnt want to believe it to be true#i still donr#please come home to me max#please come back i dont care if you bite me or bark at me#please just let me see you one more time
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#personal#internets#at this rate I've unfollowed both of the kinda.. 'controvercial' blogs I've been following#since there was a good chunk of actually good takes about how bad media is now and society and braindead internet 'activists' that-#-had it too good in their western countries and NEEDED to invent the reason to bully and excile people#could honestly resonate with it despite some other posts causing genuine pain. but mostly about terribly handled media#like you know that thing when corporations do terrible ass rep to pretend that they care for minorities#or artificially fabricate online backlash against their new actors to show investors that people show interest for their product because-#-of all the clicks on their article?#like discussion of this kind sorta keeps me sober#as a person with BPD I get contaminated by opinions VERY easily and as an autist I will believe everything if it is put together 'logically#that's why I HAVE to be exposed to every possible opinion so I am forced to make out my own rather than being swayed anywhere#but at this point those blog became kinda.. bad? like they don't just have 'opinions' but they hate just to hate#but now my dashboard and recs are full of exclusively things I can fully agree with and I am scared that it will rot my brain#like.. emotions are always the same. where is the 'wait WHAT' effect? where is anger? where is self-reflection?#but ALSO I realized that 'those' blogs are no better than those western 'warriors' I despise and they become narrow-minded too in the end#they advertise themselves as 'open to debate' only to always sway debate into trying to win and not into actually discovering the truth#I cannot trust any side because they're all narrow-minded and hostile but I cannot trust people without any side because-#-they're fence-sitters without morals that side with the winner#is there a secret third thing? like is there a way to not take a side but to still HAVE ideals and opinions?#my problem is that if I am not exposed to people that trash everything I value I forget why AM I valuing [a thing] to BEGIN with#and that won't do will it
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i have to figure out what i wanna study so i can get into university and get a job and a future and stuff😭
#rip#girl what do i do#wwjd what would jesus do#idk why i said that i dont believe in jesus#im thinking biology or chemistry because im a nerd okay fine#im not good at it. i like it#but theres a lot that i cant get into bcus i havent taken the classes i need so in that case id have to wait a year and take them b4 applyin#but some i can actually get into without taking a year off to take classes first#and at first i really wnated to go to this one university that ive dreamt of since i was toung#but. you have to be Smart#and im not. that#so yeah unfortunately im not gonna reach that goal but its fine cus ive kinda changed my min#now i wanna go to another universtiy thats further away from home#but yeah
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why does writing doctor who fanfic always ends me up googling british railways
#always is an exaggeration#but it's weird that it happened twice#and like i have to get so indepth every time why#i mean i dont Need to#but it feels important#me 14 in one hand yaz in the other in...........wait where is the support group#i kinda assumed london since most companions seem to live around there but that kinda sucks for our sheffield-liverpool team doesnt it fhkg#this is the reason yaz gives for never coming#not even unreasonable#maybe they move around#they probably move around#also everyone: we can just use facetime! yaz: i cant read suddenly i dont know#anyway me with 14 in one hand yaz in another sneaking out of support group like how do i get these two to the doctors house now#okay they GOT here. and im assuming yaz doesnt have a car but does the doctor#probably right?#yaz watching 14 drive: this is just wrong. who are you. alien impostor. i dont know you#14: i can drive! ive had cars!#yaz: dont believe it. never told me#shes so mad its really fun to write#as gracious as she is when she wants to be. when she DOESNT want to be. she uses all those same things she was gracious about earlier#and shes like AMMUNITION#i love her
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tfw you’re just trying to look up some current affairs and end up on a late night wikidive instead
#s. so. haze season has finally returned huh……. i completely forgot it was a thing tbh#can’t believe *the* haze has its own wikipage tbh… of all things to have a page why *that*???????#and there are even pages for almost every year of haze. like lmaoooooooo who had this much free time to document it hello~~~~???#but man~~~~~ i hope my bro’s doing aight in this with his military training and all… i hope they’re giving him sufficient water breaks#nah wait he’ll be fine. he’s physically fit. he can survive a workout in the haze… probably. provided it doesn’t get worse. ahaha…….#hm. but. anyways. stay safe and hydrate yourselves if you’re affected by *the* haze. drink water!!!!!!!!!#h e lp wait i forgot about the thank you for the clean air page im c r y i ng#2015’s haze was quite the time though……. i just remembered my then-friends sending a voice mail to our chat group to manifest school closure#and t h e n sending a follow up recorded cheer of ‘nO SCHOOL!!!!!!!’ when school was (indeed) cancelled due to the weather#g o d i haven’t thought about them in a long while… i hope they’re doing fine these days#oops forgor to disable rbs for a bit this app is kinda annoying tbh
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#i’m so devastated for such. selfish reasons#i looked forward to celebrating festa with everyone so much#but instead i’m grieving a sibling and it feels wrong to engage with anything#even though i know it’s okay to do so if i want to#it’d definitely help take my mind off things i guess#but it’s kinda like that thing of ‘how/why would you be celebrating a boybands anniversary when your sister has just died’#and that’s what holds me back#i’ll never get this day back but i’ll also never get my sister back either so it’s just like ¯\_(ツ)_/¯#i think i’m in the anger phase first#at the universe for timing it this way#for letting such a shitty thing happen right before a day i was supposed to be really happy and festive#i appreciate the messages some of you have sent me#trust me they’ve been helpful#also maybe this is corny to mention but i really do believe bts shows up for me exactly when i need them most#and yesterday while i was at home waiting for confirmation of my sister passing is when jungkook went live on weverse#when that notif popped up i was also laying in bed and i felt so comforted by his presence in that moment#it was like he was just Being there for me even tho he was just trying to go to sleep#but he provided me with a distraction even if it was just briefly and i’m never gonna forget that#he was like an angel to me in that moment and he didn’t even know#he just wanted company and he has no idea how much i needed him in that moment#i’d never felt lonelier or out of the loop while than during those hours and him going live for a bit felt like i was being looked after#the official time they called her death was about 15 or so minutes after his live turned was off#so i just appreciate being distracted during the time leading up to then#maybe that’s all super silly and parasocial but god! can anyone blame me#i’m just seeking comfort anyway i can at this point and bts always always always delivers#that’s why i’m so sad to be missing out on so much today#anyway this is way too long and i am just waiting for that performance to come out#i miss them and i miss everyone
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