#and that’s what holds me back
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#i’m so devastated for such. selfish reasons#i looked forward to celebrating festa with everyone so much#but instead i’m grieving a sibling and it feels wrong to engage with anything#even though i know it’s okay to do so if i want to#it’d definitely help take my mind off things i guess#but it’s kinda like that thing of ‘how/why would you be celebrating a boybands anniversary when your sister has just died’#and that’s what holds me back#i’ll never get this day back but i’ll also never get my sister back either so it’s just like ¯\_(ツ)_/¯#i think i’m in the anger phase first#at the universe for timing it this way#for letting such a shitty thing happen right before a day i was supposed to be really happy and festive#i appreciate the messages some of you have sent me#trust me they’ve been helpful#also maybe this is corny to mention but i really do believe bts shows up for me exactly when i need them most#and yesterday while i was at home waiting for confirmation of my sister passing is when jungkook went live on weverse#when that notif popped up i was also laying in bed and i felt so comforted by his presence in that moment#it was like he was just Being there for me even tho he was just trying to go to sleep#but he provided me with a distraction even if it was just briefly and i’m never gonna forget that#he was like an angel to me in that moment and he didn’t even know#he just wanted company and he has no idea how much i needed him in that moment#i’d never felt lonelier or out of the loop while than during those hours and him going live for a bit felt like i was being looked after#the official time they called her death was about 15 or so minutes after his live turned was off#so i just appreciate being distracted during the time leading up to then#maybe that’s all super silly and parasocial but god! can anyone blame me#i’m just seeking comfort anyway i can at this point and bts always always always delivers#that’s why i’m so sad to be missing out on so much today#anyway this is way too long and i am just waiting for that performance to come out#i miss them and i miss everyone
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renaissance dogys
characters belong to @canisalbus
#i love i loveeee ludovica sm shes so cute. ive only known her for 5 min but i fell in love with her design and i love her friendship#with vasco ^_^ i think them having each other makes hiding their sexualities a little less lonely so thats sweet#ik in modern au shes considered an old friend of vascos but i originally assumed she and vasco fake dated in college or smth#to get their parents off their backs until they came out properly and continued to stay in touch as friends after LMAO#im not very familiar with period fashion so i had to look at renaissance costumes as reference. but i have to admit i love the#high waistlines used in some of their dresses.. i have a minidress with a similar high waistline pressed against the chest and sleeves#also if u squint machete is holding a little paper bag in the 2nd photo which is supposed to be his lunch courtesy of vasco <3#idk what ludovica would wear in modern au but i thought poet shirts might suit her because theyre like somewhere evenly between#masc and femme. to me anyway.. based on observation lesbians seem to love poet shirts and i think she looks good in one#these are all shitposts.. ill draw serious art of them one of these days i promise#i listened to fools rush in and it reminds me of them.. especially when it goes 'though i see the danger there / if theres a chance#for me then i dont care' like its so poignant and bittersweet.. a little indulgent when u think of those small moments they have togethr#save me gay catholic furries... gay catholic furries... gay catholic furries save me#my art#myart#doodles#fanart#others ocs#canisalbus#fur#furry art#machete#vasco#vaschete#ludovica#sfw fur#furry#anthro
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It's about who.
#like hozier said:#if someone asked me at the end I'd tell them “put me back in it”#darling I would do it again if I could hold you for a minute#darling I'd go through it again#I would still be surprised I could find you darling#in any life#hozier wrote francesca for lokius#I have unintentional manifestation skills apparently so I had to put them to use before the finale drops#needed lokius nation to get a kiss no matter what#why was the hardest part about this piece drawing the spaghettification#almost gave up on it because of it#loki#loki series#loki season 2#lokius#lokius fanart#loki fanart#loki mobius#mobius loki#loki laufeyson#my art#digital art#fanart#illustration
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thank u canon plant nerd megumi for my life
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#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#megumi fushiguro#itafushi#fushiguro megumi#yuji itadori#fanart#jjk fanart#jujutsu kaisen fanart#itadori yuuji#megumi#yuuji#middle one FOUGHT oh my god#angle/arm position/watering can/expression NONE of it wld go right#took 2 hours to get the lines only to realize upon laying down flats that it was still Completely off#so i took a break to bake an entire cake came back n finally it started cooperating#tbh idk if im still shaking off ytd's weird funk or what but this took ages longer than it should have#but its ok bc florist/botanist/general plant nerd megu is free serotonin 2 me#i could not decide on one apron 2 give him#but then i remembered he is th type 2 take his hobby Very seriously of course he would own multiple#looks at the hydrangeas listen . listen I Know i ws bemoaning having 2 draw so many cursing their name etc etc#but u dont understand he had to be holding one he just had to. he told me so. he held a gun 2 my head and said U Know What To Do#and i said ok ok ok ok#there r only 2 i survived#and i wld do anything fr him as we well know . cuffs his jeans puts leaves in his hair <3#jjk may have given me trust issues depression anxiety etc but it Also gave me flowerboy megu and i think that balances it out :)#edit added the bonus here bc reblogs dont show up in the main tags enjoy itfs gross flirting mwah <3
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every now and then i look back on this GIF i have of nalu during tartaros arc and cry about how this particular scene alone solidifies the beauty of their relationship (natsu holding lucy's hand gently in the face of chaos and panic did wonders to my heart)
#i make it a commitment to rewatch this whenever i miss them#this was The nalu moment for me#my roman empire#no because obviously if they didn't want to get separated natsu should've grabbed her hand a bit more aggressively. locking fingers and shi#BUT NO. he shifted his approach and took her hand GENTLY AND THE BEAUTY OF THAT CLOSEUP GETS TO ME EVERY TIME#he was so gentle 😭#it gives me so much butterflies. i love this scene so so so much#YES I MISS NALU and in going crazy about them Again because 100YQ is back#it's his hand istg. the way his hand desperately tries to reach her and then it shifts to hold her hand like that#because what was bro trying to hold... he didnt grab her hand. he just held it. and i lose my mind thinking about this every time#i lvoe them in case i wasnt clear enough#nalu#fairy tail#natsu dragneel#lucy heartfilia#natsu x lucy#ft thoughts#mine
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Prompt 112
Once again, you know who is underutilized in DCxDP crossovers? Battinson. Skrunkly shivering boi. Who we should definitely give children to care for.
Did you know that Jason canonically had a brother named Danny? Well you do now, and it should also be used more.
We all want to give Battinson a robin, so why not give him four for the price of two. He of course gets Dick from the circus- he’s never going to go into public again, this was the first time he’d gone to do something out of his comfort zone for a while and look how that turned out.
And on one of the nights that Dick has to stay home (Alfred insists he must finish his homework if he wants to go out on patrol) Bruce returns to the batmobile to find not one child, but two. Is Danny reincarnated? Just appeared one day? Who knows, but he’s here now and going to protect his little brother.
Bruce might have tears in his eyes when they both hit him in the kneecaps and bolt because even with the armor it still hurts. How he manages to grab both kids he’s not too sure, but he ends up getting them food after they put the tires back. He also doesn’t understand how he’s convinced them into the car but they’ve both conked out and maybe he’s panicking and needs Alfred-
D-Dick why is there another child here? He’s the neighbor, cool cool. W-what do you mean he’s home alone, he’s like, 4?? What do you mean he’s been alone for a week now???
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Alfreeeeed-
#dcxdp#dpxdc#prompts#battinson#Bruce is a skrunkly lil meow meow the kids feel bad about hitting#Danny felt bad the moment he got a taste of the dude's emotions#Selina returning to Gotham covered with cats clinging to her:#Bruce covered with several small children:#“I have a problem with strays”#Alfred is so tired#He comes back from getting groceries for dinner to three new children#all sprawled out on the couch with Dick and Bruce and a movie credits on in the background#they were watching Gray Ghost and eating shredded cheese#Dick a ten year old: Hi there tiny neighbor you are alone and that is bad so come with me please I have snacks#Tim a five year old who has never been taught stranger danger: omg sure Robin#Dick: What#Tim holding his hand: :)#Danny looking at Batman: He gonna cry :(#Jason: No he aint#Danny: You can feel the misery#Danny: It's like kicking a puppy :(#Jason: Shit u right#Both of them looking into the Batmobile now that the door is open: Why is there a box of coloring books and a kid carseat#Omg it's bat themed#There's also a blanket#Why yes it is for long patrols#Also random but I feel like Battinson would be aided by a longer cape#Let battinson become a batblob and disappear into a corner
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about illario working with the venatori, we can't forget that elgar'nan gifted him blood magic, so I do think that he somewhat influenced him and that's why he's so much more vindictive and jealous in comparison to tevinter nights. I don't mean that he's being mind controlled, but it's a bit like cyrian, a god just amplifying those negative emotions in you and promising power and glory can push a person to that edge and to make stupid af decisions.
im also not forgetting that zara line in inner demons where she talks about an envy demon. like. why an envy demon in specific...there's THINGS between zara and illario that were not shown
no literally if you get me talking about illario + envy + the possibility of getting him possessed, you will have me here for fucking ever. a non mage doing blood magic (any magic at all) is really weird and interesting to me and i don’t remember an example of this happening before (feel free to correct me tho lol. i’m discounting possessions and dwarves)
i had started wildly theorising after bloodbath that he had been possessed and he was tapping into the fade using an envy demon. especially like you said, zara mentions it, AND because i swear there’s a codex in the ossuary where it mentions an envy demon whereas spite is obviously determination, right? so i thought it was a breadcrumb trail to a big “illario is being influenced and doesn’t even know” reveal— same as you anon like great minds am i right— but i’m not sure there is actually any evidence of that lol. like maybe if you squint but i do believe it was explained away by “oh yeah, and elgarnan let him do special blood magic”
it does also make sense to me that illario can only control lucanis, due to being part of the same family. a bloodline thing, and it is very poetic to me that their shared family connection in caterina is what allows him to control lucanis, even for a moment lol. spite being the extra magical boost that lucanis needs to block that out ALSO makes sense to me so i’m not too fussed abt these details lol🤔
the envyllario in my heart also gets spectral weapons for himself. lucanis gets wings, illario gets talons, PLUS green-purple are complementary colors so it would have been really fun to see them clash with their spirit/demon-powers. the talon thing is also a kind of reflection of his end-goal desire, how envy demons already have those freaky hands, and it manifests as claws and is a much more aggressive, strength-augmenting manifestation (as opposed to manoeuvrability and speed-augmenting that spite’s wings give lucanis.) anyways that's what the diagram above is supposed to be (this is extremely hot to me)
#have been waiting all day to get out of work to draw what i have not stopped rotating in my head#also drawing is not totally clear yes that is lucanis using one hand to hold back illario trying to claw at him yayyyyyyy#illario dellamorte#lucanis dellamorte#my art#dragon age#veilguard spoilers#sorry. i was going to reply to this yesterday but my friend finished the lucanis questline#we were discussing this for a bit so the reply is a little more in depth and thought out#also both of the remaining dellamorte heirs both being possessed is fun to ME .#forget house dellamorte being cooked we HAVE to make sure they’re burning and smoking and potentially even on fire#i wish we got to make the crows actually confront what a possessed heir would mean#but that is largely overshadowed in the game by caterina’s kidnapping#and also feels underused because nothing of note goes terribly bad#he doesn’t even draw any blood when spite tries to kill illario#truly wish lucanispite would have gone out of control and killed someone. idk who tho#maybe. lol. jacobus come here. i need you to die tragically
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what do you mean it’s almost ruins 1 year anniversary what do you mean stop talking
#fnaf#fnaf art#fnaf fanart#my art#five nights at freddys#fnaf gregory#fnaf cassie#HOW HAS IT BEEN ALMSOT A YEAR… WHAT#ruin was the first game i got to watch live when i was getting back into the fandom#it had such a choke hold on me#hey steelwool you should give us closure on their story please please PELASE PELASEPLEASE
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"Mama!"
Guess who they all saw behind them :")
#spy x family#twiyor#loid forger#anya forger#james forger#jamie forger#family#cozy#what can i say#i wanted to do some storytelling#also i was so stuck with the bg i just gave up at one point#i'm on a mission to finish all of my old wips#so that there's nothing holding me back dsihfsd
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ivan and till have their first kiss, an alternate ending 💕
please look at this comic for context and Part 1!
#suggestive#ivantill#ivan#till#alien stage#alnst#erm. hey guys. i can explain#my feed has been feeding me too much angst ever since the nyc cards so i had to Do Something#some notes as usual. this is what i imagine what mutual ivantill is like#i am a firm believer that when till realizes his feelings for ivan he will pursue those feelings without hesitation#but bc till is a romantic he wants to do it properly (that’s why the way he approaches his first kiss seems gentle)#sure on a surface level i would say Ivan just wants to get to it1!1!#but despite his teasing ivan would be a mix of sweet and intense since Till reciprocated his feelings and doesnt have to hold back anymore#a true yearner at heart. bless that boy#they really shouldve been at the clurb 💔#ctrlzxoo art
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as you asked, and nothing more
#featuring zeus accidentally catching feelings bc i think thats fun#whats more fun than a god losing what they want because they were playing games#hurr hurr ill make a bet to seduce a little king so i can win a game against my wife. wait why am i sad that he got back home#why am i so fucking upset that he's with his wife and doesnt seem to miss me at all hold on#zeus/odysseus#zeus x odysseus#zeus#odysseus#my art
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Good Morning, World.
[First] Prev <–-> Next
#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#wei wuxian#jiang yanli#jiang cheng#'Good Morning World' because to wwx the jiang household is what grounds him. It is his burrow and blanket.#The familiar soup and banter is his home. The familiar arguments and tension are also his home.#Notice how quickly he throws LWJ to the side once he has JC back in reach! 'He was so boring; I wish *you* were there!'#WWX is very quick to constantly remind himself that he fits within a very specific power structure and role.#He pushes boundaries but almost always only the boundaries that he knows he can push against.#Sitting here now and realizing that if WWX did take life more seriously and act more diligent he would totally usurp JC.#Because the contrast with Them (tm) is wwx is the one that gets in trouble and JC is the one that sticks to the rules.#That responsible appearance especially in contrast is the thin line that holds JC's self-esteem together.#And lets be fully honest. From JC's perspective the last week was also extremely intense and stressful.#It truly was a feat to travel so far so fast despite also being exhausted. Never knowing if it is all in vain.#JC said with his actions 'I would move mountains for you and dig through stone with my bare hands if it meant reaching you.'#and WWX said '[read]'#It's about wwx chronically asking 'why would someone care for me? I'm always tool to be used' than accepting that people love him.
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staring contest between luffy vs nyan-chan who's winning
#one piece#fanart#my art#monkey d. luffy#asl brothers#revolutionary sabo#portgas d ace#idk why ace is looking mad either#i started drawing this around midnight and idk what past me was thinkinh#the sketch was supposed to be sabo and ace yelling at luffy to come down#but when i did the line art it didnt look right#so now ace is angy and sabos trynna hold him back#tbf i like this look better but i still dont know why ace is angy#up to your interpretation ig
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A man should have conservative lips. You can't let some random girl kiss you!
LOVELY RUNNER 💛 (2024)
#lovely runner#kdramaedit#kdramanetwork#dailyasiandramas#kdramadaily#my edits#userlab#kim hye yoon#byeon woo seok#while watching i felt happy whenever they kissed but as i kept having to go back and make more gifs for yet another kiss#i was like i know that's what's expected of you as a male lead but tone it down sunjae-ah...that's too much work for me😔#i feel like i've skipped through the entire show 5 times since the finale just to get all these time stamps fjdkjkf#and yet while making the proposal kiss gif i realised i forgot that scene in my face holding set :(((#i always end up doing compilation sets and then i'm like why do i do this to myself fdghjkdfg#mine: lovely runner
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wanted to practice some more intense angry expressions and what better excuse to further my agenda of giving megumi the emotional catharsis he deserves
#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#jjk fanart#jujutsu kaisen fanart#fushiguro megumi#megumi fushiguro#yall know tht one juuzou panel gjkgdghjkdfhgjkgd#guess what was my ref fr bottom right#i think megumi deserves to scream real guttural at least once#i think it would be good for him and i certainly would not complain to see it#i love stoic emotionally constipated characters dont get me wrong but also like. come on. points at the 'whatever!' scene#he's so GOOD when he gets to be expressive like PLEASE#anyway i once again have to do everything myself in this house when it comes to this kid#so i am treating myself to 4 flavours of angry megu#here we've got a fine selection of enraged ; holding himself back from clocking a mf by a thread ; seething ; and tortured :D#the classic capricorn emotions#real talk tho anger is Hard to draw#also bad fr the state of my skin probably with the way i was subconsciously Making these expressions as i drew#gna give myself wrinkles at 24 i had my brow furrowed so deeply
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Chen Bowen as CHEN YI & Chiang Tien as AI DI KISEKI: DEAR TO ME (2023) behind the scenes
#kiseki: dear to me#kisekiedit#kdtm#kiseki dear to me#ai di x chen yi#chen yi x ai di#chen bowen#nat chen#louis chiang#chiang tien#jiang dian#userspring#userrain#userspicy#uservid#userjjessi#pdribs#*cajedit#*gif#they were told 'show your chemistry to the camera' and they just turned into chen yi and ai di.#this is so intimate i feel like im not allowed to look at it....and its SOOOO them....#it's giving post-canon tenderness to me. like....ai di being allowed to relax into chen yi and show him all his love in simple gentle ways#and chen yi accepting all of it and being glad and grateful that he simply has ai di in his arms#plus that little bit of possessiveness from both of them. the hand at chen yi's throat and the neck kiss#and chen yi holding ai di closer and smiling into it. letting ai di do what he wants to him as usual#the way its both 'i love you' and 'you're mine'#ITS ALL SOOOOO CONTENT AND FAMILIAR AND COMFORTABLE AND HAPPY AND FULL OF BELONGING#i really enjoy the bts bc you just watch them shift into their characters within half a second and back to themselves over and over#Thats not even nat and louis i swear to god they transformed. actors who act.#i miss giffing them often.....hopefully ill get back to that after my move....u would not believe how many adjustment layers these have
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