#why didn't i do this sooner?

[fandomsarefamily1966]

Me, thinking about George Harrison: Why was everyone sleeping on him while we still had him? WHYYY

Me, thinking about Neil Peart: Why was I sleeping on him while we still had him? WHYYYYY

[asher-is-a-idiot]

THE ASK BOX IS OFFICIALLY OPENED!

[dailyrandomwriter]

Day 563

Something in my brain clicked in the past two weeks.

A good portion of it was because of the ADHD medication, but not in the way most people would assume.

Here is the thing about taking ADHD medication, and having it work for you, after years of thinking you’re just kind of hopeless.

First, is that you realize that the long periods of time it had taken you to do fucking anything is not normal. Sitting like a bump on a log for 30 minutes, one hour… two hours… an ungodly amount of hours isn’t something most people do.

Second, this explains why my co-workers can have a job and have kids. I still think having both for myself is an overwhelming idea, but I now have a better idea of how they can manage it, because there is more time in the day than I realize.

Third, I am not as hopeless as I thought I was, and I’m slowly learning I am also not as lazy as I was led to believe.

Finally, having the medication work so starkly has given me permission to say, yes I have ADHD and I should email/text myself a reminder before I forget (you dumbass). Yes, I will call myself a dumbass, because for the past 20+ years I have unconsciously lived my life like I wouldn’t forget something the moment it left my brain matter. 

To be fair, for the most part, my memory has always been relatively good even outside of my fixations. There is a reason why I can do my job, because I have a good recall memory, however, I have a bad short term memory. If I get interrupted in the middle of doing something or I get told to do something but cannot do it right away there is less than 50% chance I will remember to do the thing.

Which was why, coming back to work, after a second week of being on the medication I decided, fuck this, I am emailing myself so I won’t forget. At least a dozen of those emails in my work inbox are probably from me. Either because I got interrupted and wanted to remember where I was at, or because I said I would do a thing but not doing it right that second.

It took a load off my brain I didn’t know existed, and it’s a practice I really need to learn to do more in my personal life.

(I also should maybe warn my co-workers to stop messaging me with tasks and email me instead as a default.)

[digitalclaws]

The devil on my shoulder: "Why don't you make one of K-"

UGH OK FINE. FINE! Custom Kieran Pokedoll plush tags.

[hey-hey-j]

"So BroZone wants to turn this into a real battle of the bands? Then let's battle!"

(★ my Kofi)

[lunewolf13]

Spilling Tea Part 7 (final):

All the Robins (minus Jason, who left early) are sitting criss-cross applesauce on a plush carpet, summoned by Dick Grayson to play "truth or dare but without a dare and you can choose what to spill."

Dick: Tim, you're the only one left.

Duke: The best for last, as they say.

Steph: Yes Tim, please share us your most recent shenanigans.

Tim: Well, this wasn't recent per se. This actually happened while I was hunting for clues all around the world.

Steph: You already told us about the spleen thing.

Tim: Yes, but did I tell you about the piña coladas?

Steph: The what?

Tim: So me, Cass, and my team of assassins all walk into a bar.

Dick: Tim, you're not legally allowed to drink. Then, or now.

Tim, who is currently 19 years old: They didn't check our fake IDs, if that makes you feel better.

Dick: It really doesn't.

Tim: Anyway, we go to this bar. Live it up. Celebrate. I think it was a holiday. I order a piña colada. It tastes good, so I order another one. Next thing I know, I wake up in a dumpster in Argentina. Mind you, the bar was in Cuba.

Duke: Dude...how much did you drink?

Tim: I dunno. I stopped counting after six.

Dick: Six??

Steph: Why didn't Cass tell me this lore?!

Dick: Why did Cass let you drink? Wait, did she drink too??

Tim: No. She went back to our hotel early. That's not all that happened though. I wake up in a dumpster, with the access codes and schematics of France's in my pocket.

Dick:

Steph:

Duke:

Damian:

Dick: Timothy Jackson Drake-Wayne!

[dykedvonte]

wanted to say I appreciate your nuanced takes on MW and especially Curly. i don't get the claim that the fandom is full of Curly apologists when majority (esp yt and tiktok) say he's worse than Jimmy. Yes there's commentary about bro culture defending people, he def messed up in trying to placate Jimmy (tbh "we'll fix this" sounded more like trying to keep someone prone to outbursts like Jim calm and not hurt Anya/himself) but I don't think he did nothing to help Anya, since she continued to confide in him and he had less than a week to resolve it before the crash (I also don't get everyone saying he knew for ages when it seems like Anya told him that same week). I get Jimmy's a pos but saying stuff like Curly should've known he'd crash the ship or that Jim had a criminal record he ignored, reducing them to obviously horrible villain and willfully ignorant sidekick feels like a disservice to the game. If your best friend turned out to be horrible, what would you do in a confined space in the span of a few days to respond? I'd say some of the horror comes from trying to do good but ultimately failing, Curly's state after the crash is meant to be tragic horror not revenge/punishment

Thank you and this is what I want to get across.

A lot of information we have to supplement when it comes to how long things have been happening on this current ship. I think people try to add on to the horror and negligence by making things more obvious so it can feel like it was easier to avoid when, true to life, its not. Jimmy clearly didn't deserve or appreciate what Curly did for him in getting him the job, but do you think if Jimmy was that big of a menace on Earth he would've given him a position where he could have that level of power over people's lives? There's something in the fact he specifically chose to pick a position so close to himself where he could watch Jimmy.

I hate the bro code argument because that is a whole can of worms people really don't get. That sort of mentality is born from the general respect and preference of male matter over female ones. Curly is clearly not that guy, he is absent minded about the issue and inadvertently dismissive but he clearly believes Anya, he just can't understand what she's going through. It's an onslaught of information that no one really reacts right to. Additonally, the entire discussion of her assualt plays to heavy into the idea that there is fault outside of the perpertratior when it comes to SA. It's too close if she only did this or if Curly had protected her better but the fact of the matter is Jimmy did what he did. He did it before any of the conversations with Anya about it and it's why her behavior seemed to change so drastically in those last two days.

He has other conflicting thought and while his role as a Captain should've taken over, people act like it's not a very human thing to have such a toxic presence cloud your judgement. It is never easy to separate friend from coworker once that connection is formed, you want to help them, especially if they were friend first and for a long while like in this case. It's not right, but people act like it would be easy when the game clearly points out that no choice is easy to make, especially when you have to make it for more than one person. You have the weigh the consequences, look at all the options and make a plan. People can headcanon and decide how long things where happening, but if we look at what we were presented through the characters eyes, the only person given time to do that was Jimmy.

He waited two months after the crash to appoint himself Captain. Every time a problem was brought up he immediately took action and refused to sit on it and find a better solution. I think it's important to look at the warped way Jimmy takes initiative where Curly didn't as it works as a good contrast of why you don't just run in to "fix" things. The quickest and easiest option may not be the safest or most beneficial. I think some thoughts on the game suffer from the black and white thinking the game doesn't operate on along with us being voyeurs. We see what exactly led to what but the characters don't. They don't have the hindsight and foresight we do and even ours is scrambled by the non-linear story telling.

Like it's hard to talk abuou those grey zones without sounding like an apologist because you're explaining why taking responsibility isn't easy. It's not and it's weird to act like it would be in a scenerio that led up to the events of the game knowing what we know. We see all these characters in such isolated moments with various things before, in between, after and even during we aren't privy too. The idea that Jimmy is worse than Curly heavily banks on the words Jimmy was saying to Jimmy before he crashed the ship. That whatever happened on the ship was his responsibility to bare, which is true due to his position. But, are they not still not responsible for taking the actions Curly then must bare?

Like i feel like people think that these are situation that become easier with age or when you are in a postion of authority and they aren't. You don't lose your biases or gain some sudden knowledge that makes it easier. It just becomes more tiring as you keep dealing with it. I would be first in line to say Curly fucked up and should've done more but the idea he knew how bad it could get or he really saw the worst in the people around him and ignored it pretty much ignores a huge aspect of his character and the game.

[vox-solaris]

Praise the Omnissiah!

[54625]

FITMC TOLD ME TO SHUT UP

dude why the fuck have I just been silently lurking for the past year chatting is so much fun literally what have I been doing this whole time

[transdumpsterfire]

the fur is floofed :3

[daily-flowey]

Day 314

[lynn-tged-posting]

tged webtoon ep 170 spoilers and thoughts that i am again late on because im literally in finals week and i'm actually supposed to be studying/working right now but i can't stop thinking about tged so here we are, and more below the cut

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okay okay i thiiink i liked this episode better than last weeks episode,,, concise but sweet and i liked the panels this week!!

ESPECIALLY THIS PANEL THE HOPE HE GETS WHEN HE REALIZES ARTANIS CAN HELP CIRCUMVENT THINGS UNTIL HE FIGURES IT OUT

his wide eyes and the light all over the panel im gonna sob WAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHH i love hope i love when characters regain hope its so AFLKJSDLKFJSLDKJFLSDF EEEE HEHEHEHE

also more snippets of credos!!! since we know for certain that the demon king of back then was also an isekai'd person, maybe they were a meteorologist, and that combined with the demon king's existing abilities? or possibly an environmental engineer?

there's a good range of jobs/career paths that involve weather forecast and farming specifically,,, there is such thing as an agricultural meteorologist? i wonder what degree that would need? i think that would definitely involve some kind of environmental science,,, we've probably got another stem kid on our hands!!!

i'll probably talk more in depth about that in a future post where i compile all the stuff we know about the prequel (the one i mentioned i'd make last week lol) (it's delayed bc i have finals aahh) but until then, back to episode yapping :3

ARTANIS IS SO SO CUTE WAAAHHHH

i'm actually very glad she's so willing to help,,, though i do wish we got to see more of her thought process/her history, i'm glad we got lyra's later in the ep as lyra's story worldbuilds + fleshes out their reasoning more which is good! but i wanna see artanis specifically,,, im curious abt the extent of her abilities!!!

also lloyd i think you just need to cut ur losses man HAHA

"you're so mean" javier says to the most selfless fucking bastard on this earth rn /lh theyre so silly

ALSO JAVIER BEING THE PROTAGONIST THAT HE IS AND LLOYDS REACTION LMFAOOO

we are getting silly expressions besides the gruesome ones which i am very happy about ~ lloyd looks so fucking serious here HAHAHA

ALSO LYRA'S . PAST EXPERIENCE WITH HUMANS IS SO SAD IM. GHGHGHHH AAAGHHH SHE JUST WANTED TO HELP THEM i think the timing and pacing of this was just right ohhh,,, her expressions im gonna bawl

i can't even begin to put into words how tragic and yet how unfortunately real this is. there are a lot of people in the world who let fears and rumors take control of their actions and it results in innocent people getting hurt simply for being who they are,,, lyra didn't even say a word! she offered food and they reacted with threats to kill her,,, ghghghghgh. i hope she enjoy her time on the frontera estate i hope that helps,,,,,

and lloyd reacting to this story by fucking BAWLING is LAKDJFLSKJDFSDF ITS EVERYTHING TO ME

"yeah i've heard this before" is sobbing his fucking eyes out yeah i know what you are you fucking EMPATH

and then him additionally saying that he wants to make sure these kinds of stories don't happen again WAAAGHHH WAAAHHHHH lloyd u know whats up i love you

ALSO ARTANIS LOOKS SO FUCKING DONE WITH HIS SOPPING WET ASS HAHA

lastly this final bit was fucking hilarious HAHAHAHAHA "oh so ur a demon king too,,, that explains a lot,,," "what." LMFAOOOOO

I LIKE LLOYDS FACE A LOT IN THIS PANEL HAHAHAHAHA

i like that this episode chose for more deadpan/lowkey angry expressions instead of the usual exaggerated ones its a good change of pace,,, YAY

anyway that's all from me this week!!! see y'all next time heehoo

[lastofthe20thcenturygirls]

two people too closed off to everyone met through their love for a game she was the first face he saw they fell in love both of them not being people of too many words never could tell each other to be with him she ruined her reputation they got separated due to circumstances had a child born out of love couldn't meet again due to people this time neither of them could raise their child not together nor alone a child who would grow up to feel next to nothing for them one spent her life succumbing to madness and illness the other living in guilt and loneliness... a tragedy if there ever was one

[poorlittleyaoyao]

People portray NHS as having A Defined Plan all along as soon as he found out but wwx's deductions seems to think he was adapting on the fly and winging at least some of it even as he put pieces in motion and that using mo xuanyu was a relatively late decision. of course this is just wwx's thoughts since nhs being behind things is technically never confirmed in the novel

Yeah, I... find myself in disagreement with many commonly-held NHS headcanons, this being one of them! There is no way that NHS could possibly have Meticulously Lined Up The Pieces Just So because there is just too much variability. In novelverse, he couldn't have anticipated WWX's initial interaction with JL, WN's reappearance (how? did he instantaneously transport himself? from Jinlintai? to Dafan Mountain?), WWX being recognized by LWJ, Wangxian's continued partnership, or JGY arranging the kidnapping of a bunch of teens to lure every single sect leader to the Burial Mounds to murder them. The Wangxian stuff--the core component of the WHOLE STORY!--is only previously known to LWJ! Not even LXC knows about the song! He figures some stuff out on his own, maybe facilitates one hell of an inciting incident in the form of convincing MXY to resurrect WWX, and then exploits the ensuing chaos like a motherfucker.

Honestly, I kind of like it better if MXY Just Did That and NHS gleefully seized the unexpected opportunities that presented. Like, maybe he released the arm hoping that the Twin Jades would be the ones to investigate, accurately predicting that LXC would recognize NMJ and would be willing to keep the discovery secret from JGY if his didi insisted on it. And then surprise! WWX has entered the chat and he's got some unresolved personal drama that NHS can work with!

In CQL, however... okay, so TECHNICALLY he doesn't need WWX for anything NMJ-related, especially since For Legal Reasons There Are No Zombies. But in that canon, JGY is WWX's final curse mark. By having MXY summon WWX in that canon, it ensures both Maximum Chaos For JGY To Deal With and guarantees that JGY must die. Not only die, but die in a way for which WWX is at least indirectly responsible! WWX is curse-bound to lay the groundwork there, which is kind of a fucked-up task to delegate to your friend! Also, NHS in CQL canon can reasonably expect Wangxian to become allies since they were known to be besties (NHS third-wheeled their Yin Iron fetch quest himself!) and LWJ tried to save WWX from falling off that cliff in full view of everybody. In fact, there's a line in Episode 2 where WWX speculates that the Fairy Statue simulacrum they fought (the ACTUAL statue having been sealed during the aforementioned fetch quest in front of NHS) was created deliberately to lure them there by the same person who released the blade spirit. CQL's NHS could be a mastermind... just a very slow-acting one, because. 16 years. Nothing whatsoever about that plan needed 16 years.

[the-stove-is-divorced]

Remembering I can draw fanart for my own fics, SO BEHOLD! The most mentally sound halves of a fusion imaginable! Technically a redraw of art I did way earlier for the same fic! Flexing my art muscles and thinking about these two is good for the soul. Love them. Bastards to write though. I can't wait to write them fused back together, but we're not here yet and it's AGONY.

[purgaytorysupremacy]

oh nuts. a life experience has given me a new layer of perspective on Cas's homosexual declaration of love to Dean.

recently I had occasion to tell a person I had feelings for them knowing full well they didn't feel even a twinge of the same thing for me. while the whole thing was a decidedly unpleasant experience, I kept laughing at myself internally bc I didn't want to say "the happiness is just in saying it" like fucking Castiel over here. (we don't need to talk about it, it's fine.) (I am happier having said it and it's kind of bullshit, but I digress.)

because the thing is, the happiness isn't in just saying it, right? the happiness is in the having. I made a whole TikTok "proving" that the Empty didn't come for Cas when he confessed his love, but rather when he realized Dean loved him back. even for Cas, the happiness was in the having, not in the saying, however brief it was.

and I've always been one of those people who rolled their eyes at the whole concept. why would the happiness be in just being, in just saying it, if it's right there in front of you to have. and then it hit me like a tonne of bricks (as I was washing my kitchen counters).

Cas really didn't think he could have Dean.

at all. in any capacity. he really, truly, and honestly felt to the depths of himself that Dean did not have any twinge of similar feelings, that this really was a Hail Mary shot-in-the-dark. and I think me, personally, really didn't understand that about Cas. that his belief in his love being unrequited was that unshakable.

something else I've been pondering is how audiences have so much more empathy for fictional characters who share traits that IRL they find objectionable and unappealing. but the thing is about fictional characters is that we follow them around in their most private, vulnerable moments. we see Dean mourning Cas when he dies, literally killing himself because he can't live without him, but it's so easy to forget that we're the omniscient ones here.

Cas never knew.

Dean's whole thing was pushing him away, keeping him at arm's length, making it seem like whatever heroic thing he does for Cas he'd do for anyone. he downplays how important it is for Dean to share the Deancave with him, to show him his favourite movies, share his favourite songs. he acts like the things Cas does for him don't mean that much to hide how much they do mean. he uses "we" whenever he even gets in the vicinity of expressing a feeling. "We were worried." "We're glad you're back." "We needed a win." "You're our brother." The audience knew the difference. We saw how he'd clench his jaw or swallow hard or make a face that said "God, I'm being such an idiot". Because we saw him in those little moments. We got to see the cracks in the mask.

but Cas never knew.

the self-hating angel of Thursday was never going to think it was all a way for Dean to protect himself. obviously, that's the delicious tragedy of it all, but what I think I realized at the end of all that is Cas confessing his love to a Dean who didn't love him back wouldn't have worked. Because the happiness really is in the having. If happiness was just in saying it, then The Empty would have come before Cas even finished getting the words out of his mouth.

so Cas's plan wouldn't have worked if Dean didn't love him back.

this is just me yapping on about my own nonsense, but I do think it's really interesting. there's contentment in "just saying it". there's freedom and relief and an unburdening. I think one can argue that it makes being happy in the being easier. there is certainly some joy in telling a person you think that highly of them. but true happiness?

nah.

true happiness is always going to only be in the having. Cas didn't understand the difference until he experienced it, and by then, it was too late.