#while totally understandable for people who recognize the blog

[each-uisge]

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[angelwowings]

Hi so uhm I don’t usually post this type of stuff but about this and this.

This is a serious post of how this fandom has dehumanized me and mistreated me for my symptoms I cannot control

Tw: misogyny , ableism , mistreatment, bullying

A lot of people know that I was called out for bull shit friend group drama like a year ago. Adults are still shit talking me and my friends. Something I’ve noticed is that the appear to especially dehumanize me for “not caring about the damage I did” which is not Tue in this context. I do not feel remorse for a lot of stuff I do or shame or empathy and I am “recognized” with conduct disorder and extreme behavior issues + npd. So yeah I do not care about the harm I’ve caused I’m not able to because my brain won’t let me it’s totally understandable if people hate me for that but guess what?

They praised the other person for the exact same thing and said it’s okay to not feel empathy and remorse since they can’t. I do not have aspd but I do have issues with empathy and npd I don’t Talk about it a lot since it’s personal. But I’ve recognized the pattern in this I’m a teen “girl” (I’m not a girl I’m trans) and the other person is amab adult. I have a word that describes this perfectly misogyny! This fandom especially the adults (not any of my friends or mutuale You’re all very nice 🙁🙁) has absolutely dehumanized me for my symptoms the exact same symptoms they praised other people for. Mind you alot of the stuff I said was during a psychotic episode where I couldn’t think logically and insulted people because I thought they were going to hurt me since they triggered something in me. That does not make it right! And i know that but why does everyone accept for me get the pass? Why does everyone get accepted for their symptoms expect for me? Talking about not the perfect victim I am a very ugly result of what happens to a person when it went to extreme trauma I’m not a fawn I get aggressive and defensive and rude because I’m scared but no one seems to get that and just call me fucking evil.

I mean it has come to the point where I was dehumanized so bad some people were too scared to interact with me or be publicly associated with me because I was seen as a monster by half of the fandom. I was only fucking 15 and I’m still only 16. There’s still the same adults that refer to me and my friends as “angelwowings Group” as if I control people like hello what? My friends are their own people are you insane? Oh and let’s not forget the time people full grown adults btw blocked people who interacted with me! No they did not do anything besides interact with me and get blocked. People were scared to interact with my publicly but even then my friends still supported me.

And guess what? A lot of people I’ve met who saw the whole thing go down said you guys were sick for making a whole blog about me hating me and making posts AS ADULTS while I was 15! And I couldn’t agree more! Every adult who has interacted with that account in the way of boosting it is sick because everyone knew my vents were in there and did not care about leaking a 15 year old vent.I could go on and on about how much I got mistreated for my symptoms by this fandom

You can call me ableist all you want but In the end a lot of you were fucking ableist towards me! Oh no how dare I be a mentally ill teen online that is perfectly capable of being calm and civil unless I’m triggered into something caused by my symptoms! Oh no how dare I?! How dare I have a flight or fight mode! How dare I get aggressive when threatened! Oh how dare I not be the perfect victim! Sorry for not being your perfect victim? But guess what!

I can recognize on that I was hurting people from the doc and it was stressing them. I didn’t mean to hurt any of them that was never my intention I never wanted to hurt people so I thought I never did in the first place but I did. So I apologized to them I talked it out and realized that no matter if I was in the right or wrong I still hurt people and I need to make up for that wether or not it was intentional or not. People were hurt through me and I don’t want to hurt people especially not kids. Although I cannot feel shame or remorse for the stuff I said I can recognize that they’re wrong and take accountability for it. No I do not feel sorry for all of the stuff I said to that one adult because guess what? I’m not able to neither is he! So why did everyone get mad at me for having the same reaction? Would they not understand why I acted this way? They understood so well with the adult man so why not turn everything around when I “female” kid does it? Odd isn’t it?

I’m tired of not speaking up about this I’m not evil or ableist or whatever else you people I don’t know have called me. I was 15 going through a psychotic episode where I got triggered and did awful shit. Not an excuse at all but I was not evil none of the stuff I did was because I thought it was fun or because I was bored I’m 16. Get that through your big skull thanks.

[darcytaylor]

I recently found your blog after hearing you mentioned on a discord I joined. I’m very glad I have. I’ve got very caught up in speculating the ship and it’s become draining and, I realise, unhealthy. After reading back over last few weeks, I’ve enjoyed your observations and insights, I have come to the realisation that we really don’t know anything for sure, it’s all speculation. And, as a fandom, perhaps avoiding certain realities by changing narratives. As a result, the fandom has become so whipped into a frenzy. So, it’s been a refreshing wake up call reading your blog.

Regarding Nicola and Luke, I have some thoughts I’d like to share ( for no other reasons than it feels a safe space to share and perhaps for others to read and acknowledge they’re normal human beings like us) I actually really feel for Nicola at the moment. She’s at an important stage in her life. A point where you may be thinking about where to go next and what you want for your life in the future. She’s a very giving, nurturing person, we can see she cares and supports her friends. My hope is that she has strong support back as her life is changing. She’s certainly in the spotlight and I think she’s at risk of overdoing things and burning out as she finds her way up. She’s appeared overwhelmed at times recently. This is my intuition.

re Luke, I hope he’s doing well. I’m very fond of him. He’s been very quiet and has had a lot of negativity on him for his life choices . I do think he’s made some unwise choices. Which. I think may have been impacted by the pressures of being a lead, perhaps personal pressure to change his outward appearance, a long term relationship break up, and then all the promotions. As an introvert, I feel this may have overwhelmed him? I also wonder if he’s afraid to take the next step ( like Nicola has) as it may impact the dynamics of friendships/relationship in terms of his and their own status ? It can be very hard to navigate higher achievements if you’re moving forward more quickly than the people in your life. There are always feelings involved from each side, both good and bad. So maybe it’s easier to stay lower key. Who knows? But I do feel , again, just from my own intuition, that there’s a lack of confidence behind decisions made, which is sad to think.

Thank you for reading if you’ve got this far. It has been quite cathartic to write it down before I take a step back, and remain hopeful for them finding true happiness, however that looks.

Sorry for the late response to this ask! I’m really glad you found my blog and that it’s given you a bit of a wake-up call with all the speculation going around. It’s so easy to get wrapped up in fandom drama, especially when narratives keep shifting and people start projecting their own feelings onto public figures.

I appreciate your insights about Nicola and Luke - just from reading your ask, I can see you have some empathy! Nicola is at a pivotal point in her life, and having solid support as she navigates these changes is incredibly important. It’s tough that she doesn’t live close to her family, but I know she views her friends in London as family because of that (she said that in an interview once). The pressures of being in the spotlight must be overwhelming, so I totally understand why you’d feel concerned for her well-being.

As for Luke, the pressure of being a lead is a lot to handle, especially for an introvert. Your intuition about his lack of confidence is an interesting take that I haven’t really considered, but I have wondered if he’s trying to figure out what kind of actor and celebrity he wants to be.

It’s definitely good to take a step back and process everything going on. It’s completely valid to care about their happiness while recognizing how wild their situations are. Here’s hoping they both find what they’re looking for in life, however that looks!

[duckprintspress]

Round Table Discussion: Grammar Pet Peeves

Today, March 4th, is National Grammar Day! Last year, we celebrated with six of our favorite grammar quirks. This year, we’re going to the other end of the spectrum: we had a conversation with our editors and blog contributors about grammar things we hate. They may be technically correct, but that doesn’t mean they don’t make us crazy. Eighteen people, many anonymous, contributed to this discussion.

Dangling Modifiers

boneturtle: Dangling modifiers, hands down. Even when I can decipher what the writer meant based on context, it viscerally hurts me every time. When I am editing I have to stand up and take a lap around my apartment when I hit a dangling modifier. Remind myself that I am here to help. Learn more about dangling modifiers.

Commas

anonymous: Commas are not difficult! Commas end phrases. Full stop. That’s all they do. Is a phrase necessary to the grammatical coherence of the sentence? if the answer is yes, no commas because that phrase hasn’t ended. If the answer is no, commas! comma hug that bish if it’s the middle of a sentence. The difference between grammatical and informational is whether or not the sentence makes sense without the phrase. 

Examples: 

The man who ordered the six double anchovy pizzas claims to have a dolphin in his pool. 

You need “who ordered the six double anchovy pizzas” because you need to identify which man you’re talking about. The world is full of many men. 

The ancient Buick, which Madeleine purchased via Craigslist, belched black smoke whenever she pressed the accelerator. 

We don’t need to know how Madeleine purchased the car for the sentence to make sense. You don’t even meed “Madeleine” for the grammar to make sense. Therefore, hug that phrase! 

(a comma on each side of the phrase) or give it a dramatic send off with a comma and an end punctuation. (i could go into conjunctions, too, but those are a little more complex, and if you were taught them properly, i understand not getting the comma use 😂 ) 

Prepositions at the End of Sentences

Tris Lawrence: There was a dictionary (Merriam-Webster? Oxford? idek) that posted recently on social media about how the rule about not ending a sentence with a preposition came from English scholars trying to make English line up with Latin, and that it’s totally okay to do it… and I’m just wanting to point to it to yell THIS because uhhh trying to rework sentences to not end in a preposition often creates clunky awkward things (my opinion, I recognize this).

D. V. Morse: Ending sentences/clauses with a preposition. Well, not doing that is supposed to be the rule, but depending on the sentence, it can be a convoluted mess to try and avoid it. Winston Churchill famously told someone off after they “caught” him breaking that rule, saying, “This is the type of arrant pedantry up with which I will not put.” (Yes, I had to look that up.)

Pronoun Confusion

anonymous: I hate playing the pronoun game when reading. I hate it in life when someone comes up to me and tells me a story involving 2 people of the same pronouns and stops using names halfway through, and I hate it while reading too. Nothing makes me fall out of scene more if I don’t know who just did/said what. Use names. That’s why we have them.

Nina Waters: epithets. If I know the characters name…why? Also, when people use “you” in third person writing. There are times I’ll allow it as an editor/times when I do think it’s at least acceptable but not gonna lie, I absolutely hate it.

anonymous: My pet peeve … I read hundreds of essays in a given month for work, plus a whole lot of fanfic for fun. A rising issue that I have noticed in both places is incomplete sentences (lacking subjects, typically). I think it’s because people rely on Google’s grammar checker to tell them if something is wrong and…Google doesn’t check for that apparently. I’m increasingly convinced that my high schoolers simply weren’t taught sentence structure, because when I ask them to fix it they almost universally say some variant of “I don’t understand what you’re asking me to do.” Therefore, it might be punching down a little to complain about it. I’m not sure. It does drive me nuts though. Lol

“Would Of”

Neo Scarlett: Not quite sure if that falls under grammar, but I hate hate hate when people use “should of” instead of should’ve. Or “would of.” It just makes my toe nails curl up because it may sound right, but it looks wrong and is wrong.

Semi-Colons

Shea Sullivan: I saw a list punctuated by semicolons recently and that made me froth at the mouth a bit.

anonymous: I think any editor who’s worked with me knows that I have a pet peeve about using colons or semi-colons in dialogue. Or really, any punctuation mark that I don’t think people can actually pronounce. Semicolons can live anywhere that I don’t have to imagine a character actually pronouncing them.

English isn’t Dumb!

theirprofoundbond: As a former linguistics student, it bugs me a lot when people say that English is a dumb or stupid language because it has borrowed from so many languages. What people mean when they say this is, “English can be really difficult (even for native speakers).” But I wish people would say that, instead of “it’s dumb/stupid.” Languages are living things. Like other living things, they adapt and evolve. English is basically a beautiful, delightful platypus. Let it be a platypus.

Dei Walker: I remember seeing somewhere that English has four types of rules (I’m trying to find the citation today) and everyone conflates them. And I guess my pet peeve is that everyone treats them equally when they’re NOT. There are rules but not all of them are the same – there’s a difference between “adjectives precede nouns” (big truck, not *truck big) and “don’t split infinitives” (which is arbitrary).

And, because we couldn’t resist, here are some of our favorite things, because when we asked for pet peeves…some people still shared things they loved instead of things they hated.

Oxford Comma

Terra P. Waters: I really really love the Oxford comma.

boneturtle: me: [in kindergarten, using oxford comma]

teacher: no, we don’t add a comma between the last two objects in a list.

me: that’s illogical and incorrect.

anonymous: I will forever appreciate my second grade teacher’s explanation of Oxford comma use: Some sentences are harder to understand if you don’t use it, but no sentence will ever be harder to understand because you do use it. Preach, Mrs. D

anonymous: I am definitely Team Oxford Comma. I even have a bumper sticker which says so

Other Favorites

Shea Sullivan: I adore the emdash, to every editor’s chagrin.

Shadaras: zeugmas! I think they’re super cool!

Shea Sullivan and Hermit: I use sentence fragments a lot. Fragments my beloved.

English Grammar vs. Grammar in Other Languages

anonymous: so in English my favourite thing is the parallel Latin and Saxon registers because of how that affects grammar, but in Japanese my favourite grammatical thing is the use of an actual sound at the end of the sentence to denote a question, as opposed to how in English we use intonation? Also how in Japanese the sentence structure requires reasoning first and action second in terms of clauses. So rather than go “let’s go to the cinema because it’s raining and I’m cold,” you’d go “because it’s raining and I’m cold, let’s go to the cinema.” (My least favourite thing is the lack of spaces between words in the written form but that’s purely because I find that level of continuous letters intimidating to translate.)

I also love how Japanglish in the foreign communities in Japan starts to develop its own grammatical structure as a way of situating yourself in this space between the two languages. It’s used as a call-sign of belonging to that specific community, because in order to make some of the jokes and consciously break the rules of English or Japanese grammar and/or choose to obey one or the other, you’re basically displaying your control over both/knowledge of them. Like, the foreign community in Japan is often a disparate group of people with multiple different native languages who are relying on their knowledge of at least one non-native language but often two to signify their status in the group as Also An Outsider and I think that’s really interesting.

Nina Waters: Chinese and Japanese both drop subjects, and Chinese doesn’t have like… a/the… Japanese doesn’t have a future tense… Chinese kinda sorta doesn’t have tenses at all… (these are not pet peeves, btw, I love how learning a language with such different ways of approaching these things reshapes my brain). Chinese also doesn’t really have yes or no.

There’s a joke somewhere on Tumblr about that, though I actually think it’s about using “a” versus “the,” like, someone was giving a Russian speaker a hard time after they said “get in car” and they were like “only you English speakers are dumb enough to feel this is essential why would I be talking about getting into any random car of course I mean our car wtf.”

anonymous: on the subject of other languages, epithets are also something that happen differently in other languages. In French repeating a word (names included, and sometimes even pronouns) is considered bad writing. As in, way more than in English. Going by how grating the English translation of the Witcher books was to me when the French one was fine, I’d say it’s the same with Polish, at least. It’s also very interesting how brains adapt to writing styles in other languages.

What are some of your favorite and least favorite grammar quirks, in English or in the language of your choice?

[maxdibert]

I started reading your fanfic, and to be honest… I usually don’t read het. It just doesn’t interest me most of the time because it almost always turns into some heteronormative bullshit where strong female characters end up bending over backward to worship some alpha male. It’s an awful trend in modern stories.

And in fanfiction, self-insert ships like character/reader are even more off-putting. They just scream low-effort writing or feel like those cringy TikTok plots where the main character is a total Mary Sue.

BUT!

Your work caught my interest because I’ve been following your blog for a while now, and I absolutely love your posts—your character analysis, everything. There was no way I could skip this one. And holy shit, I’m so glad I started reading!!

First of all, this is the most book-accurate Severus I have ever seen in fanfiction. And since I pretty much only read fanfics for Snape, I can already give this a 20/10. I’m losing my mind over how natural and canon-compliant he feels. It’s just perfect.

I also wasn’t expecting much from the main character, but she’s absolutely delightful. I love how alive your characters feel—it’s not something you see often, but you nailed it 100%. I’ve only just started, haven’t even read half of it yet, but I’m already obsessed. I’m even forcing myself to read slower just to suffer a little less while waiting for new chapters. :3

And another thing—I never realized how interesting a wizard/Muggle dynamic could be. I’ve come across similar stories before, but they always focused entirely on the magic. But here (and I REALLY hope this happens!!!), the main character might actually get to introduce Severus to the Muggle world!

I’m only on chapter 6, and that alone was enough to leave me seriously impressed—especially considering I already had high expectations, and you completely lived up to them! There’s still so much ahead, and I really hope it stays just as amazing. 🤌

It's funny because there are literally people who stopped reading the story precisely because the FL had "too much depth" and "didn't feel like a reader insert anymore," so they just went, well, goodbye. I totally respect that, but it made me laugh because, honestly, I can't conceive of a longfic where both characters don't have some level of depth? But in the end, it's all a matter of taste.

Anyways, I read this comment yesterday, but I didn’t have time to properly respond and tell you how much your words moved me. Because honestly, I don’t usually read much het anymore either, precisely for the same reason—or I just don’t read romance at all because the dynamics often feel problematic to me. So, I completely understand the caution when approaching something outside of what you usually read, and the fact that you stayed and kept reading seriously flatters me so much.

Also, girllll, keeping him in character is so hard. Seriously, if I take a while to update, it’s not out of laziness—it’s because I really need to have my mind in the right place to make the character feel realistic and respectful of canon. It’s something I struggle with a lot, and being told that he truly feels canon-compliant is literally the best compliment I could receive because I put so much effort into it. I honestly reread my chapters, delete things, rewrite them, and then delete them again because I feel like they’re coming off too OoC. I know I can’t make it 100% in character, but I try to stay as faithful as possible, and having that effort recognized and appreciated genuinely makes me so happy—I won’t even try to deny it.

As for the FL, I didn’t want her to fall into the typical trope of taking over the story because I really intended this to be more of a character analysis of Severus. But at the same time, I didn’t want her to feel artificial either. And while, as I mentioned, some people don’t like that, I need to give the characters I write a personality—otherwise, I get bored. I’m really glad she doesn’t feel overwhelming to you—that’s important too, though she is meant to be a bit insufferable at times, lol.

And yes, I’ve also read wizard/muggle stories, and the problem is always how the muggle suddenly gets thrown into the magical world and all its lore, which is something that’s already been explored extensively—not just in fanfiction but in the original series itself. When I planned the story, I told myself that the muggle world, and especially the dynamic between wizards and muggles (which is so underexplored in the series), would be one of the main themes. One of the things that becomes clearer as the story progresses is not just the cultural but also the moral and ethical differences between the two worlds, and how wizards tend to be much more rigid and conservative in that regard. It’s something I really wanted to write about and explore because I find it fascinating, and it’s a shame there’s so little information about it—Rowling never really took the time to explain how these things played out in those contexts.

Severus, besides being a half-blood, actually grew up in a muggle environment, even if he later rejected it, denied it, and, in a way, hated it because it was a part of his father, whom he despised. So, I also saw it as a great opportunity to explore that returning to one's roots trope—to some extent, coming to terms with them, because at the end of the day, in order to start healing, we have to reconnect with our childhood selves.

Anyway, thank you so much for this wonderful review, seriously. Messages like this give me so much motivation to keep writing, especially because, as I always say, I’m not a professional, nor is English my first language. So, in a way, it’s a challenge, but it’s also a form of entertainment that’s meant to be enjoyed. So, really, thank you, and sending you a huge hug! <3

[doomsdaydicecascader]

What would you say was the thing that really shifted your opinion on postcanon stuff? I remember reading your long form posts about it and finding them pretty eloquent and interesting given the information I had (and I admit they did nudge me to me to end up not reading the epilogues along with the sheer length and my own squeamishness, though of course you also gave them their due when you felt it was fair)

if i'm being real, it's primarily interaction with other homestuck fans - my social media spaces tend to be pretty heavily curated, i basically only follow people i trust to be intelligent, since like. there is a level of comfort and complacency with social media? i don't like following new people, i don't like unfollowing old people. so i just dont branch out that much.

but i joined the mspfa discord in........ may of last year? while i really enjoy playing the role of like, i compared myself to solaire of astora once. guy who is there to help. i enjoy doing that, there is fun in that. i have spent many hours over the past months explaining homestuck plot points in ways that basically only i would and it is largely, pearls before swine, because the fact is that people dont want to understand post-canon, they don't want to like, pick at it critically, to understand why the decisions were made, they want to hate post-canon. and this is a very critical difference between me not liking post-canon and the majority of people hating post-canon.

and there is something to be said about experiencing homestuck as it is perceived by other people, to really solidify what i liked about homestuck post-canon, because there was stuff i liked to begin with. and seeing people who hate it without good reason frustrate me! genuinely, if you had to see the same "i heard jade has a dog penis" discussions every 2 weeks from some sprout who showed up only to be mad, you would start to defend it too.

like, i actually delayed that second blog post at the time because hatred for the team was flaring up again, for whatever reason, i don't even remember. but i remember putting it off because i didn't want to contribute to people who were blindly angry about homestuck^2

there are reasons to not like post-canon, lord knows there are plenty. i actually stand by basically everything i said about it not actually working and the times where it goes too far. in the second blog post, not the first one. but like, there is a total and all-encompassing difference in what the conversation is, "yeah, the meat and candy thing doesnt really work and dirks graphic suicide is ill-considered at best" doesnt matter at all when the level people are operating on is "say a plot point as a joke, make people mad, have fun circlejerking over how bad it is"

part of it is also that in the process of writing my own comic, it kind of comes with the territory to be less precious about the characters. like, team slime, my home discord server, watches movies every saturday. for a while, our theme was musicals, and eventually, we watched hamilton. and i realized that lin manuel miranda writes alexander hamilton in the exact way i am always afraid i am writing jane and vriska, like. just. truly relentlessly protective of them. and so being less precious about these characters means recognizing the flaws therein, not being afraid to write them just being kind of disasters. i still am pretty precious about them, but its a work in progress. you gotta get your hands dirty with them, and that puts it in context of respecting when others do the same

like, there are still a lot of really glaring flaws in post-canon, dont get me wrong, but theyre not insurmountable, and it helps to have spaces like burning down the house for me to express directly like. what i wanted out of homestuck. post-canon is not what i want it to be, but when has homestuck ever given anyone what they wanted without any complications whatsoever

and i think it is genuinely capable of being extremely good - this recent update (yiffy overlooking the rosemary drama) is extremely choice! i genuinely love how everyone involved is characterized, the panels are flashy, it puts to bed really stupid shit, like. its unbelievably fucking good how the problem kanaya has isnt "rose had another kid with jade in secret, our marriage is in shambles" but "jane knows about this kid", like. the absence of infidelity conflict is refreshing and says so much about everyone involved. and i have been thinking nonstop about how rose and jades daughters takes after caliborn of all characters. like. "you hope they eat each other alive" with the perspective of like, a caliborn grin is such an INSANE direction to take yiffy! holy shit! its awesome!!!!!!!!

[chaotic-on-main]

I love your Unspoken Words series so much! As someone who goes nonverbal from time to time when overwhelmed. This is also why i ask anonymously, I am feeling a bit too much of everything and seeing my name on your blog makes me nervous.

i just really appreciate the whole story and i just love how everyone is so understanding and supportive and nobody demands she „just talk“. Levi taking sign classes had me crying, seriously.

You posted you were open for prompts. It‘s a bit self indulgent, but I would be interested how Reiner (and maybe some others) would react when they either catch you reading smut or randomly grab one your smut books that you annotated. (I am not asking for explicit stuff, just how they would react to you reading that kind of stuff).

Oh my gosh thank you so much for saying so!! 😭 Unspoken Words has definitely been my little baby for a while and I'm really glad I portray nonverbal people to your liking! I am just obsessed with the fact that Levi's love language would be acts of services so putting in that communication barrier really puts light on their interactions instead of words, for the most part lol.

I totally know how it feels to have everything feeling like a little too much, believe me. It's overwhelming, so it's totally okay to stay anon! Though, I am sorry you're feeling like that today. But if you'd like, I'm perfectly happy to have you in my DMs. This will always stay a judgement free zone. 💕

These were really fun to think about! I'm not used to writing most of these characters tho so I'm sorry if my hcs don't line up. 😅

No actual smut is mentioned but there are some suggestive themes!

How AoT Characters React To You Reading Smut:

Reiner ->

oh he is SO shy about it

like he does a double take as he walks by you, all curled up on the couch with it wide open and you're so enraptured you don't even notice

"What are you reading?" he can't keep himself from asking but his face is so flushed and there might be a little stuttering

when you tell him about it, he's doing his best to stand straight and keep a level voice

he's also a little curious though, and will ask something along the lines of "Would you want to try this out sometime?" while he rubs the back of his neck awkwardly

Armin ->

he accidentally finds your collection when he's looking for a specific book

he thumbs through it curiously because he's just like that lol

at first, he's incredibly shocked to see that you're into that kind of stuff

but then he gets a little self-conscious because he worries that he might not be giving you what you want

you have to force it out of him because he's ruminating in silence and when he finally says something, he's all blushy and not looking you in the eye

Jean ->

HE'S SO SMUG ABOUT IT

he grabs it out of your hands and reads out some passages in a teasing manner while you're fighting to get it back

but then he comes across the filthiest thing he's ever read and it shuts him right up, turning into a mess and his words are all jumbled lmao

I also see this man looking over the top of it and is like, "C'mon, we're trying this out right now." and then grabs your hand and pulls you into the bedroom

Hange ->

they are so excited to see that you read these BECAUSE THEY READ THEM TOO.

I imagine they catch you reading it and recognize it right away, going all "OH I'VE READ THAT ONE. What do you think about _____?"

and they start overanalyzing it all out loud while fingering through the pages

it's kind of a mood killer (affectionate) but it's funny to watch them talk about these crazy scenarios and you laugh too because they are quite silly when you think about it

Levi ->

he sneaks up on you one day while you're on the couch reading and he starts reading the page you're on over your shoulder

his sudden voice makes you jump out of your skin and snap the book shut

"Is this how you spend your down time?" not accusatory tho, genuinely curious even though his voice comes out bored lol

he says nothing else as he raises an eyebrow at you then walks away

only when the next time you get down and dirty with him do you realize he must have been looking through your books and seeing what you liked and didn't like from your annotations in the margins

he's a really fast learner

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[autistic-crypt1d]

Stargate SG-1 Live Blogging:

Season 10

I can't believe it's almost over!!

Seasons: 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9

Updates:

- Flesh and Blood

- poor Vala man, this is brutal

- Adria has been horrifying from day 1, girl gives me the creeps

- that shot of Sam entering the hanger is so sick

- LETS GOOOO

- hang on a damn second, 2nd tiny Adria is played by the same girl who plays the spoiled princess in that one SGA episode with John and Rodney!

- Morpheus

- "and you say I'm hard to understand" XD

- "because, you are also a tortus" I love her

- OH MY GOD ITS THE SLEEP ONE

- "kindness" *SLAMS BREIFCASE CLOSED* XD

- the dichotomy between Sam and Daniel fighting for their lives and stuff while Mitchell and Teal'c are chasing a lizard is so funny

- LET'S GO TEAL'C YOU GOT THIS

- Vala passing 😭

- PFFFFT

- she just completes the new team ya know?

- The Pegasus Project

- Alantis!!!

- "oooo, we weren't gonna tell him that" XD

- NOT THE LEMON XD

- why tf did she say sparingly like that

- Mitchell and McKays interactions are really funny

- oop, gave yourself away

- THE LEMON

- HELL YEAH

- Insiders

- Ba'al is such a dweeb

- god I hate Barrett so much

- the green screen glare is so bad in the office scenes oml

- Uninvited

- YESSSS IT'S THE CABIN ONE

- "I was a big boy in my youth" XD

- the duck calling 😭 god this is painful

- love this episode, so good

- 200

- oh god, this one

- maaaan he's got his tiny glasses I forgot

- Teal'c shirt being open XD

- THE BLINKS

- the Farscape reference XD

- THE JACK O'NEILL AS CAM'S DAD BIT

- THE PUPPETS

- Counterstrike

- aaaand back to the Ori

- Daniel and Vala talking about Adria and Sha're 😭

- Memento Mori

- nooooo this one hurts my heart so much 😭

- "it's time to come home" AHHHH 😭

- Company of Thieves

- I really don't remember anything from this episode atm

- I'm guessing this is Lucian Alliance shit

- yup

- Sam twisting the tool like that is so funny, she's so goofy sometimes

- The Quest: Part 1

- oh my god this one

- "we wouldn't dream of stealing it!" *immediately after* "we have to steal it" XD

- love the tavern lady

- oh god the weird ass Adria/Ball scene is coming

- "assist us or I will squeeze you through these bars" XD

- the dragon cgi is so bad XD

- The Quest (Part 2)

- everyone ducking behind Adria is so funny

- oh my god even the cave exit cgi is bad XD

- PERHAPS PUFF

- Teal'c manhandling Ba'al XD

- HELL YEAH SAM

- Vala being on the verge of tears about Daniel

- THE VEST GRAB 😭

- Line in the Sand

- oh I love this one!!! Primo Sam and Cam content

- HEN?!?!?! Bro I totally forgot this actress is in this, can't stop seeing her as Hen

- I also recognize the dude with her from something

- that portable ring platform is SICK

- Sam 😭

- these scenes with Sam and Cam are just so angsty and amazing and I eat it up

- HELL YEAH TOMIN

- the macaroon sceneeeee

- they're so siblings istg

- The Road Not Taken

- ah man this one

- man Cam and Sam have a major thing with this particular device istg

- I'm sorry I'm just so tired of alternate reality episodes 😭

- them having all talked to an empty room trying to keep her company is so cute 😭

- the hug!!!!

- The Shroud

- ah yes, prior Daniel

- Jack!!!

- Daniel and Adria smooching is so weird

- "have I ever let you down- don't answer that" XD

- "hello!! Merlin!!!" " hello!! Oh yes! Merlin" the way he says merlin is so fucking funny

- "I though you of all people would believe me!" "Why?! You, of all people, should know that I don't believe anything anybody says, even if I understand what they're talking about!"

- THE SHIMMY

- god that scene is so funny

- LET'S GO DANIEL

- Bounty

- omfg is this the space heist one???

- IT ISSSSS

- well sorta, I call it that cuz they sneak on board and sneak out (sorta) but ik they don't actually steal anything. Planting explosives is close enough ok

- I still think it's really funny that a big underlying plot of seasons 9&10 is a fucking space drug cartel

- oh GOD I forgot this is the fucking reunion episode too XD

- NOW WHO ARE THESE ALIENS?!??!

- BRO HE'S BACK, they really brought this dude in as 4 different characters in 3 shows, 2 different ones in the same one!

- her leading him by the tie is so funny

- Vala adjusting herself after being sent flying is so Vala

- Bad Guys

- OMFG ITS THE MUSEUM ONE

- Daniel and Vala bickering is so funny

- I love Cicero

- Daniel being terrible at this is so funny

- even holding a gun nobody is taking Daniel seriously

- "don't eyeball me" XD

- "murderous rebels" XD

- "who's calling?" HELP

- this episode is so fucking unserious and I LOVE IT

- the bubbly sound of their guns is so silly

- Talion

- I remember this first part but nothing of the rest of it yet

- "where are you going?" "I am leaving. You are about to explode." PFFFFFT

- OH ITS THE ONE WITH THIS DUDE

- "that's easy, we trap him, lock him in, and threatened to let Teal'c kill him" effective plan XD

- Cam getting his ass beat by Teal'c is funny but also sad

- "you are the son, I never had. I could not be more proud" STOPPP 😭

- Family Ties

- oh god, Vala's dad

- LITTLE PAPITO

- god he sucks so bad

- I feel so bad for Vala

- he's actually the worst

- the jewelry box 😭

- girls night in 😭 I love them so much

- OH MY GOD THE VAGINA MONOLOGUE

- THE TWITCHING SMILE

- THE SLIDE

- Dominion

- all the guns getting pulled out at once is so funny

- aaaaaand Adria

- her little wave to herself

- THE CHIN TURN

- Unending

- oh wow we're at the end!

- the Asgards dying makes me so sad

- the mass suicide is so fucking sad stopppp

- "you are the fifth race" stooooop 😭

- "you have earned my respect, and my friendship" STOOOOOP 😭

- THE HUG

- is Teal'c wearing a watch?!?!?! I know that everything is on fire rn but like, is that a watch??? Does he normally wear a watch?

- "I'm gonna go crazy, and I'm taking you with me" XD

- "The computer is wrong"

- it's wild seeing all the stuff appear in Daniel's room

- oh god this scene

- the only real, honest thing he says in that whole rant is the part about her flirting with him at his expense. He doesn't wanna get hurt again

- I just noticed that Sam was wearing Vala's hair clip at Christmas dinner 😭

- Sam's chello playing is giving me chills

- 😭

- off topic but Teal'c is just really pretty

- Vala's little tiara

- the final chevron lock 😭

- THE GROUP INDEED

- THE FINAL GODSPEED

- AHHHHHHHHH

- I have to say, as much as I dislike most of seasons 9 and 10, I love this show. I love it so indescribably much and it changed my entire life. I wouldn't be the person I am today without it as dramatic as that sounds. This show made me love sci-fi, it made me adventurous and it made me curious. Stargate is about hope and wonder and it gave me that.

- I'm gonna be watching the movies next so here's the next link

The Ark of Truth

[varsex-pride]

How do you define sex identity? Is it a synonym for sex? If so, how would you define them in relation to varsexness?

So far I've came up with this, but I don't know if it is good or not:

Sex Identity: An identity formed based on one’s assigned sex/gender at birth, their current/desired/planned sex characteristics, their body, being gender-diverse/variant, a result of injury/illness, and/or aspects associated with varsexness.  

Just like gender modalities, gender identities/expressions, genders, and attraction-based identities (including m-spec and a-spec), sex identity and sex exists on a spectrum along a continuum. Meaning, someone can have one or more sex identities or lack one and it may be fluid or static for one or more reasons or no reason at all. 

Sex Identity (or sex) should NOT be conflated with gender modality, gender/sex sonance, sexual identity (or other attraction-based identities or the lack thereof), and gender identity/expression, although it can be interconnected and influence with one or more of them. 

I appreciate that you're trying to define it and want us to comment about it. I'm going to comment and try to define it by myself.

sex identity could be multiple things, just like the meanings you listed. however, since it's scope is so ample, when we use sex identity solely and the context talks about the body, it's often to show that the physical body exists regardless of the words we use to denominate or classify it. does that make sense?

sex identity is used less formally than gender identity, and it's more common to see the noun phrase "sexual orientation identity" than the univocal concept "sex identity", at least when used among mainstream activism. because in media and nowaday lectures aimed at people who don't understand much about the community, or from countries where the word gender is unusual, "sex identity" can appear as synonymous to "gender identity". tbh it's confusing to use this term deliberately, and I've seen people using the word "status" instead of identity. however, in the official languages of my country, "status" is more associated with the law, documental things, or computational stuff. that's why I don't use it a lot.

"intersex status", for once, is a term to refer to intersex as an identity, while "intersex variations" to refer to bodily traits (internal/external, and internal here means inside the physical body, and external refers to the apparent traits) or given condition or a set of conditions. status can be recognized by oneself and by others.

about your definition: sex identity in our blog is used totally separated from gender. you can gender your sex traits, and gendering one's sex can be a form of sex identity (eg. I possess a male nipple and a female nipple; I have male genitalia despite producing female gametes). when you gender your sex traits, it's about bodily autonomy and identity self-determination. it's an option to use specific language (eg. my nipples are differently sized; I have a cavernous large phallus despite being oogenic/macrogametic). it should be noted that when using specific language, not everyone will know what those words mean, typically usual to medical studies, and some of them are opt-in like referential language, because it's arbitrary or biased to talk about a indeterminate quantity in a given population. not everyone with a phallus will perceive it as penile or clitoral, or call their pectoral parts as chest or breast, for example.

is sex modality an identity? it can be a descriptor and an impermanent identity that one avoids using situationally, for example. but it definitely can be an identity, or just a relation between how one previously was and how one currently is, between the desired sex traits and current sex traits. it can be about sex sonance too, if one interprets it's tied to.

varsex is sex variance, meaning that it's a dispersion from the expected sex traits. in simple terms, in encompass intersex and altersex statuses. does this stand beyond status? certainly! a group of two people is sex-diverse, regardless of their sex identity. how does that make sense? because even twins are different, so is our genitalia, they all appear dissimilar. except when we talk about groups of people classified by identity or defined with more ample criterion or wider scope. for instance, these two individuals can both carry vulvar tissue. but that depends on how we interpret the word diversity. oh, and there are protsex/protosex people as well, they may or may not be varsex I guess.

sex identity is sex? it depends, it can represent sex. but they are different things. if sex is defined by gametes we produce, are sterile/infertile people exempt from it? it really varies of the context you're using the word sex.

spectrum may not be the best analogy. and: gender & sex can be the same thing for some people. for once, intersex is the gender of many people, and man is the sex of many people too. despite that, they can be distinguished and therefore different things. we can say they can be interconnected or influence each other, but the names/labels/terms are often used documentally and it's inescapable to use them interchangeably sometimes. it's understandable to use only one word for both things, especially when there's only one word in a given language for either sex or gender of theirs.

questions: is "result of injuries" applicable to endogenous traits (since you mentioned illnesses) or specifically about artificial/surgical intervention (therefore mutilation)? would physical changes apply? would it include willingly wanted/planned modifications?

[diabolikpersonals]

I am not certain yet that I want to call out specific blogs (last time I did that it got WEIRD) but it has been a while since we've had a discussion about reposting art as a fandom, and someone asked me to comment :')

I've been in the fandom long enough to see art reposting cause plenty of problems, and I've also been a victim of it myself, so I hope I can help someone understand.

So, fanartists, right? You might not be aware if you're not an artist yourself, but a lot of artists dislike it when you take their work and post it somewhere else. Plenty will have something like "DO NOT REPOST" written right there on their page. Even if they don't, that does not mean that they allow reposts.

There are plenty of reasons why an artist might feel this way, but to name a few common reasons, it could be an issue of credit or publicity: imagine you put hours of work into a piece of art, but another account posts it and they're the one who gains interactions, followers, etc. Even if that account mentions you as the artist, people aren't necessarily going to seek out the original artist. They're probably going to interact with the repost that's right in front of them. Can you imagine that feeling? Like, "Why is this person building a social media presence based on my work, and the work of other artists?" Interactions aside, it's really frustrating when you put a ton of effort into something and you're not recognized for it.

To name another reason, an artist might only want their work to be published in one particular place. This is often the case for me too, actually; I only want my dialovers fanart on tumblr, and I never post it on my twitter account, because I don't want it there. Another medium but still relevant: I don't want my youtube videos exported to other sites because if a lot of people view those reposts, I lose money that I would've gotten if they had just watched my video. Maybe there's a certain type of user that you don't want your work to be exposed to, or maybe you just don't like a site and you don't want your work there. This is something an artist should be able to decide for themself, and it's not right for you to put their art in places they didn't consent to putting it.

It's a case-by-case basis, of course, because different artists have different feelings about it, but generally, you need to obtain permission from an artist before taking their work and publishing it yourself. You can just ask! It's totally normal to ask. Worst they can say is no. Plenty of artists do allow reposts, and if they say that they allow reposts, then go for it!! But if they don't have "reposting is ok" written anywhere, and if you didn't ask permission......then that's not okay. You need to respect artists a little more than that.

Because you know what artists do when they don't feel respected? When their boundaries are crossed, and people post their work without permission?? A lot of times, they delete their stuff, they move their work someplace else to try and evade reposters, and sometimes they stop drawing for a fandom altogether. If you've been in the dialovers fandom for a long time, this has absolutely happened multiple times, whether or not you were aware of it. If you know which repost acc we're discussing here, you might've seen some of their posts say something like "artist is no longer active." And it blows my mind, because I was there when they became inactive, and more than one of them because inactive because people reposted their art! So, besides being disrespectful, it also leads to less dialovers fanart.

But anyway, most of you reading this probably don't repost art, so the more useful thing I can tell you is that I hope you can support artists by interacting with them rather than repost accounts. If you see a repost acc and like the art you see, and if you want to see more of it, seek out the artist's original account instead.

unfollow art repost accounts. seek out and follow artists instead. they are out there. they are awesome. change da world… my final message. Goodb ye.

[joaquinwhorres]

hello everyone!

after taking a step away from tumblr, I realized I still want to create here, but I'm not in a mental place where I can have silent followers.

I totally understand where silently following comes from. There are times where I've been a silent follower. But right now when I'm feeling isolated, it's not good for me to see my follower count and then have so little interaction. My brain jumps to the explanation that nobody on here cares about what I post unless it's the hyper specific content they want. And while I've also been that kind of follower, I am in a place where I need a community and not necessarily people who just want something from me.

If you are a silent follower for whatever reason, I see you, I value you, and I want to direct you to my AO3 & FFN (as anna-phora). You can stay up to date on all of my writings there without the pressure to interact :)

I will be cleaning house of my followers who have not reblogged, commented, asked, chatted with me. If you are someone who wants to follow me here, I just ask that you do some of these things so that as I go through my list I recognize your url. This doesn't mean go on a commenting or reblogging spree, just a chat here, a reblog there. As a note likes don't do much in terms of fostering a connection, so I don't consider them as a means of interaction. If you're a liker, I want to encourage you to just reblog even with no tags or comments. Or comment a heart. But just like, show me you're a human and not a bot.

I know people have lives and it's the holidays, so I will be going through and cleaning house of obvious bots and inactive blogs until Dec. 23. One month from now I'll be doing the official purge.

[multibodied]

Oh yeah, I didn't think about that part, yeah, it would make sense that there would still be some kind of hostility/skepticism towards androids for 10 years or more, it would just be fun to imagine Emma being among the android lovers, which is why she feels crazy not liking androids … ok it's not fun, but oh well

About Canada, I think that when a couple of years later, androids filled Canada, Caroline and Emma decided to move to a more remote place, I can also imagine that Emma was homeschooled so that she could not cross paths with androids, but these are just thoughts. Also, I believe that Caroline and Emma changed their last surnames so that they would not be recognized, so to speak, to start a new life, so when Emma grows up, almost no one recognizes her as former hostage Daniel, although there are people who somehow recognize her as Emma Phillips

Now about what Emma's job is, before I came across your blog, I thought that when Emma grew up, she would be a scuba diver (although I think due to bad associations of the pool, Emma will be afraid of the water until she processes her trauma) and will make a blog about it, but a marine biologist will also be suitable, she will make videos about different types of fish, in a simple and humorous format, so that people understand the information well (Emma will also delete comments that recognize her as a “PL600 hostage”). And about the old blog, she deleted it, maybe because of annoying comments, or she just wanted to start over, in any case, she was tired of her old blog

Also, I imagined that Emma would interact with an android who is associated with her profession, she tolerates them and talks to them on business, but gradually, it seems their relationship is becoming closer, the android is pleasant to talk to, they are really cute, and their jokes makes Emma smile, for the first time in so many years, Emma begins to treat this android more friendly, perhaps she even thought about inviting them to a friendly meeting, but … every time, at such moments, Emma remembers Daniel, and how it all ended, her brain says “all androids are dangerous, why do you think that they will be any different from him?”, so Emma begins to keep her distance, she communicates with them normally, but not as often as before, the android does not understand what’s wrong, they are saddened such behavior from Emma, ​​and they don’t understand anything, but Emma … she just can’t forget what happened to her at 10 years old. Honestly, there is no telling how long it will take for her androphobic thoughts and fear to disappear, maybe Emma will be able to overcome herself and there will be a block between her and the androids, or she will completely drown in her hatred of them

Love it

And same, I can totally imagine Emma being homeschooled (even within the game it seems possible) for a while in Canada, although maybe she'll eventually get to the regular school.

Love your take on her instantly getting wary of any closeness and desire to create a distance

They'd probably change their surnames to Caroline's maiden name

[cherryblossom-heart]

Honestly, my personal opinion:

Every time i read an angst AU like “Who is she?” i get a little bit worried about people asking for good endings no matter what, even when topics like cheating or misogyny are involved in the plot. I understand that some people can’t handle angst, (and the appeal of a shitty man changing for you is something that gets to a lot of girls) but then… maybe they should prioritize reading comforting fics before diving deep into angsty stories to the point of begging the authors to change the direction of the story (not saying that that’s the case with your audience! It’s just a general opinion).

I don’t blame authors for doing their best to please their audience and I think they deserve to be recognized regardless for their creativity and effort. But sometimes the good ending just doesn’t make sense with the plot and belittles the MC, who ends up looking like a doormat. Anyway, I know one’s consumption of fiction doesn’t necessarily reflects their in-real life behavior, but seeing this kind of push for forgiveness in favor of shitty men sometimes makes me go PLEASE, STAND TF UP in comments sections in tumblr lol

Hiiii lovely! I totally get what you mean and I share your point of view to a degree. I personally never advocate for a happy ending all the time as I end up dissatisfied as the men never earn forgiveness (in my eyes) and I like reading stories that are somewhat realistic in terms of the characters personalities and reactions. On the other hand I can also see why people would want that type of ending, fanfics are here to bring us comfort after all. It is a little hard as an author because I don’t want to disappoint my audience. I honestly don’t have a whole storyline planned when I post these, it’s just whatever happens happened but still. Either way I just want you guys to have a good time while you’re here but I dont like making my MCs to be seen as weak or without a backbone as we don’t tolerate shitty men on this blog!!! I feel like forgiveness requires so much complexity for characters and unfortunately smaus are not a good fit for that. With all that said just a quick reminder that it’s ok to want a happy ending but don’t take shit like this from men or anyone irl!!!! You deserve better ❤️

Thank you for your ask, I really enjoy seeing you guys opinions ok my content and this is always a safe space to share your opinions ❤️ (As long as you’re respectful of course)

[spookythesillyfella]

Thank you for everything you have done on this account I want you to know from my perspective that I care about you not just for your incredible artwork or your High Voltage AU.. but for who you are as a person. I’m not here to sugarcoat things or throw out empty compliments because I know it’s easy to think words like these are “overused” or “cliché” but honestly you’ve been someone who’s made me feel like it’s okay to open up and vent. You’ve seen me completely unload on my own blog and that sense of acceptance means more than I can express since at least when I feel my lowest to a breaking point on some other end there's another person who understands me somehow. I’m not saying we’re exactly the same since our lives and situations are clearly different but I can see a lot of your struggles, just as I’m sure you recognize some of mine. Ever since I started following you I’ll admit I’ve been nervous (still am) I worry I might say or do something wrong that could upset you or drive you away.. It’s a constant fear of making a bad impression but I really do wish I could get to know you better! I’d love to show up here more often, talk about your day, your interests, or anything you want to share. Even if you feel like you don’t stand out you’ve made a meaningful difference in my life and that’s something I’ll always appreciate. I know things are getting tough for everyone right now though I want to remind you that your life is valuable and you’re worth so much. I care about you deeply Spooky and I truly hope things start to feel better for you soon - 💌🩷 (You can figure out who this is by the emojis) P.S don't feel you need to EVER reply to this inbox or anything I send you. This isn't a message to tell you to "stop venting" either. In fact, Your venting again is what helped me realize I am allowed to express myself at times even if I do delete it all haha. Stay safe and I love you /p

oh . thank you deary

ill admit that i dont exactly have the capacity to answer thiz ask – my sad excuse of a vocabulary paired with my constant struggle to find the right wordz

i totally get why you're scared but . truthfully . and i mean every word . you could probably threaten my safety and id still love you incredibly much – you've genuinely helped me overcome a lot of my troublez . not just through your fantastic au . but through you just being a person

ive felt a little less hezitant talking about whatz bothering me on the internet – a sort of echo chamber doez feel nice to scream into every now and again to blow off steam – and . while you're right in saying that our strugglez are definitely different . i still feel genuine support whenever you talk about your own strugglez ; in my eyez . i see thiz az solidarity . i suppoze

and . though it might not eaze you . i do have to say that you shouldn't worry about making a bad impression around me – if anything . i have the same fear regarding all my friendz too ; wordz are so hard to work out and phrazing can be such a hassle . i certainly know that much hehe

itz quite alright if you can't bring yourself to come by more often – i don't expect people to show up in the first place – but i do want you to remember that im alwayz thinking about you ; you're such a wonderful friendsibling and talking to you makez me feel at eaze . so no matter where i go i alwayz have you in the back of my mind . much like the rest of my online siblingz

take care . and know that thiz too shall pass eventually – "I know it's storming now; that the puddles made up of your own tears are expanding. But you should remember that, once the rain is over, greener pastures will bloom. I hope you'll be there to see them blossoming, instead of remaining hung up in your room..."

[violexides]

switching blogs for this but i was bitching about the betrayal of realizing ex-friends are hardcore Zionists while simultaneously self-identifying as a 'leftist' and how that scalds as an Arab leftist lol (vs someone who seems to think that being neurodivergent and like, wanting gay marriage makes them the leftist of all time). anyway back to scheduled programming

something i think about heavily whenever i find myself trying to sympathize across lines (a la "no revolution exists without the masses" talk that leaves you straddling between recognizing that workers on the ground should unionize regardless of geopolitics but also seeing that there are hard lines that delineate a leftist from a fed) is like... when we say free Palestine is our red line we literally mean that as clearly as possible.

b/c if folks have sat around the last yr and never got radicalized to realize what "israel" is doing, they never possessed an actual understanding of what "america" did to Indigenous nations. their keyboard shortcuts turning australia into Aotearoa are for naught because they don't really know what that means. they never understood that the united states of "america" ruined Iraq. if they are backing "israel" they probably can name five African countries total and they think that Whatever Someone Did To Make Africa Like That is bad, but they don't know the names of any substantial political figures in Africa and they don't know that Africa had any leftist political movements and they don't know anything about African culture except their general perception that it's probably homophobic and backwards down there. they'll reblog that one post about how people blaming Appalachians during any natural disaster bc they voted red is bad (which is a good take to be clear) and then immediately talk about how they see the MENA region as a desert wasteland where a Bad Muslim will shoot you on sight because you have a mullet. if you don't realize what "israel" is doing you will literally never actually learn about China or North Korea like you're still stuck on the ABCs because it literally could not be more clear that "israel" is committing genocide and is bloodthirsty to massacre people in all Arab countries. but they are still stuck on their ABCs, mare, c'mon, they haven't even found out Arab people are people yet!

And i realize that's harsh and also maybe counterproductive because, the point can be made that Zionists are smart. or some of them are. some Zionists do know and care about these things! but my point is that a Zionist who knows who Lumumba is doesn't care. a Zionist who has cross posted about Land Back on their instagram story doesn't actually want Indigenous people to get their land back, they just kind of want to stay in the limbo where nothing of the status quo changes. Zionists know enough to know that the US should be funding public education and disaster relief and universal basic income but they want billions to support "israel" and Ukraine because they read about the Monroe doctrine when they were a gifted kid and school and think "america" isn't doing enough to protect folks over seas.

and all of this relates back to being a leftist (Marxist or anarchist or some other niche and esoteric sect, I don't care) because the tax dollars spent on bombing children were taken from the working class masses of the country who are getting evicted into the streets because nobody told them they had a hearing and then getting thrown in jail because their tents looked like The Big Bad Encampments and they were dark and dirty and gave the cops a mean look. The same cops were trained with the same procedures as the people bombing children oversees, and they're talking about a union that they've got like it matters. my university won't do shit to inform students about the food pantry and will fight back against contraceptives on campus but they'll wine and dine Lockheed Martin with the money they pried out of the proletariat. The colonists of "america" enslaved Black people from Africa and the Europeans tortured the Congolese and named a whole country after the materials they wanted to extract out of it and destabilized Rwanda for decades and decades to come and that's just the tip of the ice berg and all of it, at its core, involves labor and control.

and all of this is maybe just my rage for the genre of white folk who are disabled/queer/neurodivergent/some kind of legitimate issue that they use as their card of being The Most Oppressed Ever, who are Zionists and after october 7th scrubbed their entire online life clear of any acknowledgement that Arab or Muslim people exist outside of backing "israel". people who circle jerk in their own misery and could never get out onto the streets to do something about it because the big scary Black/Brown people and their inaccessibility in talking bad about genocide supporters keeps them shivering in their blankets made by a worker somewhere in a country they couldn't even find on a map. None of them will ever know what it was like inside a Palestine encampment, knowing that there was collaboration and food and love and protection. Their leftism mirrors the vague talking points Harris used before she finally begrudged into giving a party platform that just shows how Democrats aren't really on the left anymore - but sorry I forgot talking bad about Harris makes me a fake leftist that's my bad guys i love #women and #abortion and #genocide. I forgot that I never had the heartbreaking difficult liferuining experience of having Thanksgiving dinner with my white conservative grandfather ! mostly because my grandfather was thrown into prison in Iraq and then died a few years after his release for reasons i blame the prison for. And my other grandfather might die because of "israel". but i'm sure it's been a really difficult year for the white people out there fs lol

This isn't much of an intellectual rant but it just drives me crazy, actually being out in my community and talking to people and then seeing the folks on here I used to look up to when i was like a literal child on the internet as like Cool Leftists stumble around trying to defend "israel" as it massacres children. i believe in the core of my soul that in order to have an actual revolution we need to unite the masses of the working class and in that sense i do hope that i see some of these people evil as they might be on the streets. But I also hope that they spend the rest of their lives in the state they must be in now: lonely and scared. because they never knew what community meant. they never knew what freedom meant. and i hope that someday they figure it out, just for the sake of people as a whole, and never, ever, ever forgive themselves. and that's the kindest way i'll end this.

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Clumsy Smurf has autism

(originally posted as a blog post on the Smurfs Fanon Wiki, now reposted onto my Tumblr.)

A. PERSISTENT DEFICITS IN SOCIAL COMMUNICATION AND SOCIAL INTERACTION ACROSS CONTEXTS, NOT ACCOUNTED FOR BY GENERAL DEVELOPMENTAL DELAYS, AND MANIFEST BY 3 OF 3 SYMPTOMS

A1. Deficits in social‐emotional reciprocity; ranging from abnormal social approach and failure of normal back and forth conversation through reduced sharing of interests, emotions, and affect and response to total lack of initiation of social interaction.

Poor social imitation

The example for "poor social imitation" is "failure to engage in simple social games." Clumsy Smurf has difficulty figuring out what other Smurfs are doing and going along with it. He's often seen being confused by the other Smurfs' behavior, and not quite fitting in.

A2. Deficits in nonverbal communicative behaviors used for social interaction; ranging from poorly integrated‐ verbal and nonverbal communication, through abnormalities in eye contact and body‐language, or deficits in understanding and use of nonverbal communication, to total lack of facial expression or gestures.

Abnormal volume, pitch, intonation, rate, rhythm, stress, prosody or volume in speech

This mostly applies to the 1980s cartoon. Clumsy Smurf's voice in the 1980s cartoon has unusual intonation and rhythm.

Abnormalities in use and understanding of affect (note: responsive social smile should be considered under A1, while affect that is inappropriate for the context should be considered under A3)

One of the examples offered for "abnormalities in use and understanding of affect" is "inability to recognize or interpret other's nonverbal expressions." I am not quite sure how to describe how this applies to Clumsy, but it does.

A3. Deficits in developing and maintaining relationships, appropriate to developmental level (beyond those with caregivers); ranging from difficulties adjusting behavior to suit different social contexts through difficulties in sharing imaginative play and in making friends to an apparent absence of interest in people.

Difficulties adjusting behavior to suit social contexts

One of the examples offered for "difficulties adjusting behavior to suit social contexts" is "unaware of social conventions/appropriate social behavior; asks socially inappropriate questions or makes socially inappropriate statements." This is something Clumsy does a lot. I can quote multiple moments from the 1980s cartoon alone- "Gosh, Brainy, your trap is the most terrible of all!" "You've already written enough books for two brilliant careers!" etc. In Smurfs: The Lost Village, he does this quite a lot as well- telling Smurfstorm that Gargamel made Smurfette, speaking out loud ("Isn't this exciting?") when the Smurfs are supposed to be being quiet and stealthy, impulsively yelling out "I RODE A DRAGONFLY!" to Papa.

Difficulties in making friends

One of the examples offered for "difficulties in making friends" is "does not play with children his/her age or developmental level (only older/younger)." Clumsy does have a few friends his age. But in multiple episodes with the Smurflings, he's seen just hanging out with them and they like him a lot more than they do the other adult Smurfs. They seem to see him as a friend, rather than a boring adult, despite his age.

Another example offered for "difficulties in making friends" is "has an interest in friendship but lacks understanding of the conventions of social interaction (e.g extremely directive or rigid; overly passive)." This fits Clumsy's relationship with Brainy perfectly. Brainy is incredibly directive and rigid and bossy, and Clumsy is overly passive. In The Smurfiest Of Friends, Clumsy also leaves a party thrown for him in order to go find Brainy, leaving his other friends behind in favor of the friend who said he didn't like him anymore.

B. RESTRICTED, REPETITIVE PATTERNS OF BEHAVIOR, INTERESTS, OR ACTIVITIES AS MANIFESTED BY AT LEAST 2 OF 4 SYMPTOMS:

B1. Stereotyped or repetitive speech, motor movements, or use of objects; (such as simple motor stereotypies, echolalia, repetitive use of objects, or idiosyncratic phrases).

Stereotyped or repetitive speech

One of the examples for "stereotyped or repetitive speech" is "repetitive vocalizations such as repetitive guttural sounds, intonational noise‐making, unusual squealing, repetitive humming." In the 1980s cartoon, Clumsy Smurf makes a lot of non-word noises in reaction to things. He also, more relevantly, has a habit of singing and humming to himself while doing things. All the Smurfs sing the Smurfs song, but Clumsy sings and hums more than the others, making up his own little songs that are only heard for brief periods of time in one episode each.

Stereotyped or repetitive motor movements

One of the examples offered for "stereotyped or repetitive motor movements" is "repetitive hand movements (e.g., clapping, finger flicking, flapping, twisting)." In the 1980s cartoon, Clumsy makes a lot of repetitive hand movements to express emotions. When he's happy, he claps, flaps his arms up and down (flapping one's arms up and down is the most stereotypical stim out there, and he is shown doing it in his model sheet for the 1980s cartoon), and pulls on his hat.

Another one of the examples offered for "stereotyped or repetitive motor movements" is "stereotyped or complex whole body movements (e.g., foot to foot rocking, dipping, & swaying; spinning)." When happy in The Secret Of The Village Well, Clumsy Smurf jumps up and down while clapping. In the episode Clumsy In Command, while thinking, he gently bonks himself on the head with the purple pandyroot stick, and doesn't seem to be aware that he's doing this. In Smurfs: The Lost Village, when he gets really stressed out in the caves, he curls up into a ball and starts rocking back and forth.

Another one of the examples offered for "stereotyped or repetitive motor movements" is "abnormalities of posture (e.g., toe walking; full body posturing)." In the 1980s Smurfs series, Clumsy's natural standing posture is different enough from the other Smurfs that it's pointed out in his model sheet. His legs are straighter, he leans back a bit, his shoulders are held a little higher, his hands are more splayed out, and his smile is wider.

Stereotyped or repetitive use of objects

One of the examples offered for "stereotyped or repetitive use of objects" is "nonfunctional play with objects (waving sticks; dropping items." In All The News That's Fit To Smurf, Clumsy states that he enjoys picking up his rocks and dropping them in order to hear the sound that they make.

B2. Excessive adherence to routines, ritualized patterns of verbal or nonverbal behavior, or excessive resistance to change; (such as motoric rituals, insistence on same route or food, repetitive questioning or extreme distress at small changes).

Adherence to routine

Another example offered for "adherence to routine" is "unusual routines." Clumsy Smurf keeps things clean, like, a weird amount. He washes every rock he finds after he gets it (Papa's Wedding Day), washes his rock collection routinely (Jokey's Cloak). In The Comet Is Coming, he took a bath when he thought the world was going to end because he had to be clean for the big event- even though it doesn’t really matter if you’re slightly dirty at the end of the world. The example in The Comet Is Coming cannot be explained by his low intelligence, as he was under the effect of the intelligence serum at the time.

Rigid thinking

One of the examples offered for "rigid thinking" is "inability to understand nonliteral aspects of speech such as irony or implied meaning." This is a very common thing that Clumsy does. He doesn't understand when other Smurfs are being sarcastic or rhetorical, and he doesn't understand metaphors. In the episode The Astrosmurf, he responds to Brainy's metaphorical and rhetorical question of "Where were you when brains were handed out?" with the very genuine answer of "Gee, I dunno. Maybe I was with you, huh, Brainy?" In the episode The Littlest Giant, he doesn't understand the metaphor "Size is a relative thing." ("Uh, gee, Papa Smurf, I see now what you mean. Size is a relative thing." "Very astute, Clumsy." "Uh, yeah, it's a good thing Simon has big relatives!")

B3. Highly restricted, fixated interests that are abnormal in intensity or focus; (such as strong attachment to or preoccupation with unusual objects, excessively circumscribed or perseverative interests).

One of the examples offered for B3 is "interests that are abnormal in intensity." Another example offered for B3 is "preoccupations; obsessions." Both of these apply to Clumsy Smurf's rock collection in the 1980s cartoon. Clumsy Smurf collects rocks, he loves his rock collection, and it seems to be his main interest. In multiple episodes, other Smurfs see rocks and think of Clumsy- in The Comet Is Coming, Papa Smurf tosses a rock into a pond, and Sassette says "I hope Clumsy didn't need that rock for his collection"; and in Poet's Writer's Block, Poet tells the Wildebeasts to leave his goodbye letter under a rock, because he knows Clumsy will find it if it's under a rock. In Papa's Flying Bed, when Clumsy falls asleep and his dreams start controlling the bed, reminding him of Greedy's cooking or Smurfette doesn't do anything, but reminding him of his rock collection immediately makes him start dreaming about it. I repeat, it was easier to make him dream about his rock collection than it was to make him dream about Smurfette, the girl who he has a crush on.

B4. Hyper‐or hypo‐reactivity to sensory input or unusual interest in sensory aspects of environment; (such as apparent indifference to pain/heat/cold, adverse response to specific sounds or textures, excessive smelling or touching of objects, fascination with lights or spinning objects).

One of the examples offered for B4 is "in all domains of sensory stimuli (sound, smell, taste, vestibular, visual), consider: atypical and/or persistent focus on sensory input." In A Bell For Azrael, he gets so distracted by the sound of bells that he nearly gets run over by a cart, and then gets so distracted by the sound of bells again that he completely ignores Brainy.

C. Symptoms must be present in early childhood (but may not become fully manifest until social demands exceed limited capacities)

We cannot apply this to Clumsy because we don't see much of him as a child, but from what we do see, he seems to have been the same as he is now, just smaller and quieter.

D. Symptoms together limit and impair everyday functioning.

Clumsy Smurf's symptoms limit his ability to communicate with the other Smurfs, as he often doesn't understand what they're saying. His difficulties with friendship cause him to be easily manipulated by Brainy. Being distracted by the bells in A Bell For Azrael nearly got him killed.

Other

Edited to add after I found a PDF of the full DSM-V: According to the DSM-V, "Many individuals with autism spectrum disorder also have intellectual impairment and/or language impairment (e.g., slow to talk, language comprehension behind production). Even those with average or high intelligence have an uneven profile of abilities. The gap between intellectual and adaptive functional skills is often large. Motor deficits are often present, including odd gait, clumsiness, and other abnormal motor signs (e.g., walking on tiptoes)."

In conclusion

In conclusion, Clumsy Smurf can probably be diagnosed as autistic in official canon Smurfs media using the DSM-V diagnostic criteria for autism. He doesn't have nearly as much supporting evidence as Brainy does, but he does fit the criteria.