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My brainrot today is thinking about just how incredible for a character Eowyn is.
Genuinely. The series might not have many female characters but the ones we do get go so fucking hard.
To me, Eowyn is literally the definition of defining being a woman for oneself. She rejects the roles she is given despite acknlowdging the importance and its mostly because she knows part of the reason is that she is a woman.
The reason why she is obsessed with Aragorn isn't because she loves him but because she wants what he has. She wants the freedom and courage and bravery that Aragorn has at every turn. She literally has multiple conversations during the Two Towers about how what she fears most is a cage. All this girl wants is the freedom to be and not be forced into a role. The best thing is that she literally gets that.
The segment of Return of the King about Eowyn and Faramir is literally about her piecing together what she truly wants. She doesn't want Aragorn. She wants freedom and the ability to choose. Faramir does nothing but encourage that in her. Their love story is literally one of the healthiest love stories I've seen in a long time because at the heart of it, their love is a place to return home to for both parties. Both go off to lead and help their people for a considerable amount of time before returning to each other but that does not diminish their bond. Even Faramir, I believe, falls in love with her bravery and dedication to her loved ones. The reason she went to Pelenor Fields and Gondor with the troops of Rohan was because she had things she wanted to fight for. She wanted to fight for herself, her people, and her loved ones. She is the one who protects Theoden after he is killed so that his body gets the treatment it deserves. She encourages Merry and helps him go to the battle because she sees her struggle in Merry. They feel helpless standing around when there are things to be doing.
Let's also not forget the fact that she was around Grima Wormtounge just as much as the King was. She was exposed to the same poison and awful words that eroded the king. It's even implied that her care for him is part of the reason why Theoden was savable when Gandalf showed up. She had the same power and bravery as everyone else even if she didn't see it in herself.
Then at the end of the day, SHE decides where she wants to go and what path she wants to walk. She walked the path of a warrior. The path of a princess/ruler. The path of a caretaker. But in the end she decides which elements truly mean something to her outside of gender definitions. That is what makes her character so incredible to me. In this she literally kills one of the biggest enemies in that battle with such a badass line.
#i could talk for ages about how i see the struggle of defining being a woman for oneself in her#she rejects the feminine roles given to her but she also doesnt quite want the masculine ones#she just wants the freedom to choose and have the same respect that men are given#she doesnt want to be belitted because she is a woman#thats literally what Faramir gives her and why she stays with him#Faramir loves her for her not anything else#he respects her as she does him#i am someone who is a woman but rejects the definitons of being a woman because they are toxic and caging#all i want is the freedom and respect of being a HUMAN being#i lend more masculine because that is where that freedom is more often but i also see how toxic that relam is too#niether side is good which is why i choose my own path and defintiom#the fact that eowyn gets such a similar story in a series written by a man in the mid 1900s is incredible#i am someone who would love to have more female characters but i do not want them at the expense of them being proper characters and humans#ive read a lot of fantasy women do not always get the agency they deserve#i would rather take fewer well written women then a bunch of poorly written female characters#lotr has that#eowyn arwen and galadriel are all given agency and the space to be their own individuals which makes them incredible characters#thats what i want out of books and ficition#god im making myself insane about my own thoughts lol#i could talk for ages im not kidding#eowyn#eowyn of rohan#lotr#lotr rambling#lord of the rings#the two towers#the return of the king
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Since Ichigo dies at about 15, and Hatake get their marks at like 14? what do her clan markings look like? 👀
OHHH OK THIS IS ACTUALLY A WHOLE THING, SO,
Ichigo got moon stripes !! It's also known as the story teller stripes, and is the traditional tattoos of the Hatake clan's religious leader and story keeper. Which Ichigo does end up in training to become!
There's actually a bit of drama with the fact that Yuki, the current clan shaman, is so old (she's in her 70's, which is basically like being in her 120's for a shinobi), and she's only now picking an apprentice in Ichigo.
Yuki did actually have an apprentice before, who was fully trained and set up to take up the position whenever Yuki died— but they were one of the 5 Hatake to die to illness the winter before the Hatake were summoned to iron court (which is the event that got the ball rolling on the Hatake joining Konoha a year or two later)
Yuki settled on Ichigo being her next apprentice relatively quickly after that, but wouldn't actually tell anyone about it for some more years— stubbornly staying quiet on the topic even when pressed with increasingly stressed and worried questions about it. Ichigo was only about 8 at the time, but Yuki set to training her just a little bit under the table
It was easy enough, when Ichigo was always happy to listen to her stories and gossip about past and present events. Ichigo kind of ended up soaking in a lot of things she'd be expected to learn in the role (religious rights / mythos of spirits and gods / traditions and why they do them / stories passed down through the family / etc.) naturally throughout the years.
Finally, Ichigo turned 14 and lead her first hunt— the marker of a Hatake coming of age. Afterwards, it was Yuki's job to give her the stripes Yuki deemed to 'fit her best,' which is ofc when she gave her the moon stripes and officially announced her plans with a "teehee congrats <3"
It wasn't actually too much of a surprise to those who'd been paying attention to what had been going on, but still caught some off guard. Ichigo had been "training" for like, 6 whole years at that point, without even realizing it. So she was honestly pretty well into her education on the roll, and would probably only need a few more years afterwards to be deemed officially ready to take it on
But then ofc, she dies a year later. And Yuki dies in very quick succession. (Losing her third apprentice, and so old already, had done terrible things to her heart and spirit) And with both of them went a very large portion of the clans history.
Others in the clan, of course, still knew plenty. Yuki's teachings had not been for Ichigo alone, and many had sat by her side and listened to her stories as well. But no single person knew as much as they had or had been in the same position of authority to do things like honoring the spirits of their ancestors or assigning Hatake stripes to their young.
In their deaths, Haruka had to take up many of their duties, mostly by default via being the highest other figure of respect in that regard. But they lost a lot.
There's some sort of interesting point to be made that the Hatake's religious leader wears tattoos that symbolize a red moon. And that Kaguya-hime is among the gods they pay respects to.
I don't really have any real thoughts on it other than going "hmm." and writing that down to reference later, but like !! That's something
anyways Yuki herself is also pretty cute, I find myself enjoying her immensely, so take this art I drew for her the other day that I've been looking for an excuse to post:
#THANK U FOR UR ASK I LOVE TALKING AB MY SILLY LITTLE GUYS IT MAKES ME HAPPY THAT UR CURIOUS ENOUGH TO ASK#one day I will get far enough into writing one step three steps and then I will laugh maniacally as I write Ichigo going#“well Im not really supposed to do this but !!” as she tries to assign Kakashi his own Hatake stripes#and does a ritual she doesnt realize she's technically more qualified than most of her other clanmates to do#via painting them for kakashi#itll be fun !!! I have art planned for it too#give kakashi his own stripes !!!!#he deserves it !!!!#yuki herself is a bit of an easter egg for me I must admit.#bc shes actually a very old original oc of mine I just made into an old lady for this#she has a twin brother (dead here)#which I think plays nicely into this sort of “the Hatake's have a pair of lucky twins every generation” thing#that Ive had going on in the back of my head for a while#Yuki had a twin / Haruka had a twin (tbrm's mother) / Haru and Hiro#theres one for about every generation or every other one#I think it also reflects interestingly on their low birthrates and fertility issues#Bc even while they have that going on theres ALWAYS a pair of “lucky Hatake twins”#i think its fun#and then we get to sakumo / kakashi's generation and theres no more twins. damn. no wonder the hatake died they lost their lucky twins :(#naruto#naruto oc#hatake oc#hatake clan#hatake clan lore#wolves of the woods#hatake ichigo#hatake yuki#birds art#birds ocs#hatake
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"m-m-momo's costume is too revealing!" STFU. as if this isn't the same fucking thing. the only difference is that she has boobs.


#i know a lot of people might say its for the malegaze#which i can definitely understand! but she is give sm shit she doesnt deserve to get#especially because her outfit was designed FOR her quirk.#xoxo august.#bnha#mha#my hero academia#boku no hero academia#kirishima eijirou#momo yaoyorozu#kirishima x reader#bnha x reader#mha x reader
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Colonialism Apologetics? In MY Space Mecha Kids TV Show? MORE LIKELY THAN U THINK
I will soon #discuss this but for now I'm just pissed off by it like really TV show? REALLY?
Wait also this is totally unrelated but I am still thinking about the Voltron Show episode where like I really do think they could've stumbled upon something interesting about 1: the fact that the Paladins suddenly become these like. Objects. Symbolically speaking. And then to the resistance movement there is a tension because they're not actually like. Doing shit. But then the paladins themselves feel objectified
Idk like there's so many things that you could do there that would be pretty doable to handle for the audience and keeping the tone of the show! Have Shiro feel uncomfortable with the Shiro The Hero [TM] persona because it reminds him too much of the Champion!
Have the rebels like in the Blade of Marmalade or Olkarion or other rebel outposts (which we barely even see because the show dgaf about the people fighting for freedom jfc) feeling some kinda way about it! A FUCKING MARVEL MOVIE DID THIS!!!! THAT'S HOW SIMPLE THIS IS TO DO!!! (I watched the first Captain America movie for the first time last night. It is extremely simple and very pro military. BUT IT UNDERSTANDS HOW TO DO WHAT IT NEEDS TO DO)
Like idk have Loverboy Lance be tied to Lance's own insecurities about what he brings to the team AND the war– have him feel some kind of way about being portrayed like that as MORE than just jokes!
Don't even get me started on Hunk this fucking show is so awful to Hunk
HAVE ALLURA REALLY GET TO GRIPS WITH THE FACT THAT SHE'S GOT TO PLAY A GUY WHO SHE IS BOTH VERY SIMILAR TO AND ALSO HE IS PART-GALRA, THE SAME GALRA WHO KILLED HER PEOPLE! IT'S A REASONABLE HESITANCY TO HAVE! IDK! IT JUST PISSES ME OFF MAN THERE'S SO MANY THINGS THIS SHOW COULD DO BUT DOESN'T
#voltron#liveblogging voltron#voltron legendary defender#liveblogging#vld#princess allura#allura#allura deserves better lowkey bc the way they were like “Oh she should fall for the space colonizer who lowkey fetishizes her culture”#They said “Yeah he wants to revise her people's history to fit her needs and she's INTO HIM” like stfu it is not even a little convincing#AND AND AND the way they just. Eradicate Olkarion and then PRETEND IT'S A NEW BEGINNING#prince lotor#vld lotor#lotor#Lotor pisses me off as a character bc he is so obviously flawed#Like he has this whole idealized version of what his role is#Like when he's like “I worked WITH the people we colonized” HOMIE YOU STILL COLONIZED THEM#THE FACT THAT THERE WERE COLLABORATORS TO YOUR REGIME DOESNT UNDO THAT#So help me god it would be a GOOD THING for a character to be like this BUT THE NARRATIVE REINFORCES IT#THEY NEVER BOTHER TO QUESTION IT#And again I am just. Like the fact is it would've BALLED OUT to question Voltron's role#“This superweapon has aligned itself with the colonial empire's status quo” AND THEY DON'T DO ANYTHING WITH THAT?#THE DOMESTIC TERRORISM ORGANIZATION GOT NEUTERED SO HARD TOO LIKE THE BLADES OF MARMALADE WERE REVOLUTIONARY ONCE#This show does NAWT care about revolution or liberation which like. WHY WRITE ABOUT A SPACE COLONIAL DOWNFALL WHEN YOU DON'T CARE#All those alien planets they allegedly free WE LEARN NOTHING#WHO ARE THEY#I WANT TO KNOW#Putting my headloss in the tags because I'm spiraling over this shit fr#keith kogane#lance mcclain#vld lance
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RE: Your post on the AU of Jimmy being in the cockpit rather than Curly.
I think that Curly would think that Jimmy was reaping what he had sown, but in a way would feel a twisted sense of relief that Jimmy was brought down by his own actions rather than Curly himself having to be the "executioner" in the situation, so to speak.
With "taking responsibility" and the fix-it mentality that he and Jimmy share being the overarching theme, compounded with Jimmy flat out insinuating that all of his crimes on the Tulpar will be "Curly's tragedy" in that one scene, I think Curly would almost find comfort in the irony that the choice was forcibly taken away from him. Which in itself is messed up, but it might be a bit cathartic. There's an interesting polarizing dynamic within Curly's relationship to his own responsibility in that it's his greatest burden and the thing he, too, avoids the most.
I don't think Curly would find any relief in this actually. While Curly didn't/doesn't like the responsibility he had, he defiantly doesn't avoid it, he just goes about it in a weird way.
A thing I noticed is that its less about taking responsibility with Curly and really what that responsibility meant objectively and then subjectively to Curly. The leniency that he applies to Jimmy also applies a bit to the others as well. He thinks his responsibility is more towards keeping the peace and things in order more than dolling out punishment. He has even more choices to make and responsibilities as he literally has to make sure they survive/ration long enough to be saved. Or figure out how to save them himself. The correct issue with Curly and responsibility is the prioritization in his head. He sees the big picture and prioritizes that. He doesn't notice the little things that he should but it's not a active dismissal, perhaps not even conscious despite how dismissive he seemed. He takes too much responsibility, espcially in regards to Jimmy, and I think this situation is when he realizes that is also a bad thing as he can't "fix" all of his wrongs.
I think he'd regret not making a choice, because in the end this happened because he wouldn't directly choose who to comfort and help. He tried to help both and ended up doing nothing for either and letting Jimmy fuck them all over. In this scenario/au he's thinking about all the times he let Jimmy inadvertently make his choice, and how he chose to let it happen. He regrets all of it and would be so bitter that he was giving his choice up for so long. He chose wrong and it affected everyone. The only thing he'd find cathartic is the fucked up truth it will never happen again, not with Jimmy at least.
But he's not happy he's getting joy from that. I think it's a point not a single character other than Jimmy is depicted at deriving joy from another's pain. Even Swansea is being more sarcastic when he cheers on Curly about crashing the ship and ending his sobriety. He's happy Jimmy was forced to take responsibility, but this? He wanted him to learn a lesson and do something with himself, this is hollow in a way it's just embittering. Jimmy didn't get what he wanted, he can be happy about that but no one else did. This isn't justice or closure for Anya, he's stuck in a place he was so desperate to leave with even more pressure on his shoulders. Daisuke is just a kid and Swansea doesn't deserve this after all his year making himself a better man.
Like in his sections, Curly is preoccupied thinking about all the responsibilities he has, taking on things he shouldn't have to and trying to keep the peace when he doesn't have peace in his own mind.
#i think the idea that Curly did nothing is both true and also not for he did something but it was nothing in the bigger picture for Anya#he put himself between her and Jimmy but that just prolongs the ineviabiliy of their interactions when he cant hence the seen where she tol#Jimmy. He thought he was helping by being honest but it just made Jimmy panic harder and flip on him because Jimmy doesnt plan like Curly o#anyone else does for that matter hes so short term. Curly also is in a way but its also hes concerned with the long term to far away#either way he did nothing for Anya directly which is the problem as hes not direct in social situations while Jimmy is overly direct to put#it lightly. I think the irony is more so in the fact that he understand the dead pixel now and can't choose not to see it. rather than any#thing with Jimmy choosing to do this. It's like the point is he has to kinda be the person he was to Jimmy but to deserving people and#realizing how bad their dyanmic was and not to fall into the same placating behaviors and maybe prioritize his choices because in a way Jim#already took away his choice by doing literally anything he did in the story because the only choice would have been to punish Jimmy atp bu#hoped he could find a better option backfired then and it still backfired now#ask#enigminho#mouthwashing#mouthwashing game#curly mouthwashing
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kinda haunted.
#notsure if susies outfit has pockets but she needs them for her health so i gave it some. yay ^_^#pikart#pikocs#i still havent quite gotten to it just yet but. thinking abt her and this dumb fuckiggggg bupy.#yea shes kinda super haunted cause thats just how shes gonna inevitably end up after. waves hands.#but she also has Another Secret level of haunting which is. This Thing. kind of enabling her to be worse in every possible way.#always so hard talking abt her. Everything Bad Happens To Her All The Time. she is literally being so brave about it.#she just wants to chill out but theres more to Take from her and theres more she Should Take from Them bc doesnt she deserve it?#right? right? it all kind of loops back on itself; fights with itself; and there she is in the middle of this huge screaming match-#-and at this point shes so goddamn tired; if itll get you to shut up for 5 fucking minutes fine. Fine! Whatever! She doesnt care anymore!#anyway the real reason shes like that is because shes in a nigh constant state of overstimulation and honestly.#shes being incredibly reasonable abt the whole ordeal all things considered.
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Valkyrie HW because i have problems
#risk of rain#ror#my art#She just really deserves a cape#doesnt matter which kind#also HC that those weird boots are just augmented legs
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ros says that she believes that ppl can get respect through both fearful (by having everyone fear her) and loving (by embodying their own hope) means but she feels as though shes been forced into going down the fearful path cause of how everyone treats her
pili then says that this is why he doesnt think he and ros can ever get along cause they have such fundamentally different mentalities cause he thinks fear is the only way to get ppl to respect others and that you cant fix the unfixable
ros tthen reasons that you dont need to fix someone to be friends with them and that nobody has the right to fix others just that if they were nice then they could get along and points out how pangi and pili get aling (also someone else but i didnt hear)
pili then says that pangi respects him cause he knows that he cant beat him and they get along well cause of that, ros then points out how clown is nice and how pili is comfortable with him and pili says he just has a weird obsession with him
pili then says that being nice means that you get stepped on and ros points out that pili saying that implies that he thinks ros is weak which she doesnt think is fair and asked who shes let step on her and pili says he doesnt know
ros then points out the kingdom and how theyre so locked in cause of her kindness, pili then says that hes more of a loner and ros asks wouldnt he wabt to be part of something
pili then says that ros hasnt been gone through what hes been through and that hes cursed with misfortune, ros then says that hes sorry to pili but points out how shes surrounded by death as well but in a different way, pili then says that its different cause ros is still here but all it takes is a creeper
ros then says that pili should start thinking of the present and that pili should start valuing his comrades instead of thinking things like "if flame dies tomorrow im cursed" as an example, pili then reasons that thats the exact reason that he distanced himself from pangi cause he doesnt want him to die
ros then says that if pili needs to kill then the whole realm can help him but pili reasons that the keepers of the realm wouldnt allow it, that foolish was the first and last given death he can have
ros theb says that if pili just opened up to the others on the realm then they could help him, pili then says that he doesnt look for payment wheb hes being helpful, ros then told pili about how happy flame was when pili helped him and pili says he just did that cause he wanted to hang out with flame
ros then tries to relate to pili by saying how she feels useless and pili then says that everyone has their own strengths and intelligences and gives him helping sausage as an example, that his building is equivalent to pilis killing and that building is what makes ros ros and that hes not calling ros weak its just that her strength lies somewhere else
ros then says that even after this conversation whatever hapoens will happen and pili agrees and that hes so excited for clown to kill him and ros asks him why hes so excited and pili excitedly says why wouldnt he, clown is the best fighter and hes gonna get beat and hes gonna get humbled and experience ego death
pili then says that its not cause hes a clown fan, its cause he just loves getting humbled and will always fight the strongest player on any server hes in and ros asks hypothetically what would happen if she was the best pvper on the server and pili replied that he would have to go after her
ros then asks pili why hes been targetting her and pili replies that its cause he was just looking for a way to provoke clown, ros then asks if thats really it that he was just targetting her cause of clown and pili replies theres actually more than that and ros asks for a percentage which is
50% cause of the day 1 bullying
20% cause he was bored
20% cause of clown
10% cause she was just there
ros said okay after each percentage and pili noted that ros sounded offended when he said that he killed her cause of boredom and pili says that he just has a different definition of fun from her and that he knows its messed up and pili says yes
ros theb asked if hes been through therapy and that theres a thing in therapy where the patient reasons out why he wants to kill ppl and asks what he would do if someone killed pangi and he said he would get revenge, ros then asks about bad doing it and pili thinks that thats exactly what bad wants cause of bads actions and that all he wants is his little telenovelas and tells her about bad insinuating that he has a crush on someone cause he made the mistake of saying hes interested in someone and ros asks if thats why bad said that ros should take pili out on a date and pili said yes and expanded on what happened
ros then says that pili desires closeness with someone and that he feels strong emotions amd that he also inspires strong emotions in her (mainly anger and the like) but that while he wants to inspire fear and destruction she wants to inspire hope and protection and that she dislikes pili insinuating shes weak and thats why she keeps retaliating against pili and pili says he didnt even notice that and ros said thats exactly what she meant and pili apologizes then says that he can be too honest or too much of a liar, pili then says to not try to understand him cause of that but ros says that she does understand him
ros tthen says that if theyre gonna continue their rivalry to wait for a week while she continues building the castle which pili was upset about cause he cant wait to get killed and ros says he should make the most of the week and that he should fix things
pili then says that whatever happens in the week is exactly what he wanted and to not worry about him, ros then says that theyll make it a fun thung but also maybe that he shouldnt be killed cause hes on his last life and pili tells her not to worry about it and that they can just kill him if they wanted
ros then kills some mobs and says that death is everywhere and pili says that death doesnt matter until its someone close to you and ros says that pili has done a good job in that respect cause none of the ppl close to him have died yet and pili agrees saying that pangi hasnt died yet then told to ros to be careful about pangi cause hes gone unstable cause of something pili caused
they tthen say their goodbyes and pili says that he cant wait to hate on ros tomorrow and ros remarks on that and pili says that its a good thing cause their rivalry pushes them to their best like batman and joker from the lego series and ros agrees and that shes gonna watch it
they then say their goodbyes fr
#liveblogging#watchblogging#not ls#pov: ros#vod: Secrets are afoot on the realm🎀 | !d !s !merch#god i love their yap and their dynamic theyre such foils#i think the thing about pili is that he doesnt look down on her generally#but he does look down on her on the things that ros doesnt want to be looked down on#which fuels ros' antagonism and drive to retaliate against him#cause you cant just say that kinda shit and not expect the other person to hate you#and pili is just kinda. underestimating her in general even in her anger against him#assuming hes telling the truth which i think in this aspect he is#and yeah no wonder ros gets so mad at him lmao considering shes been really respectful of him#anyways i hope ros and not clown is the one to kill him she deserves it#over and over again if it helps get the point across to not underestimate her
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Studying social work means that i will never have any faith in a mental health provider ever again. Ive seen the type of people they give these degrees, the standards arent existent
#there are people in my classes that i dont think should be allowed in the general public#let alone have a job in working with vulnerable people#ive had classmates WHO ARE STUDYING SOCIAL WORK#AKA THE 'PEOPLE ARE PRODUCTS OF THEIR ENVIROMENT AND DONT JUDGE PEOPLE FOR WHAT THEY NEED TO DO TO SURVIVE' FIELD#say that homeless people dont deserve fresh food (thats being donated to homeless shelters)#ive had classmates say that it shouldnt be up to the food banks to supply people with milk and that people need to buy their own#someone told my friend (who has cp and that affects her speech) that she needs to talk faster so she doesnt ruin a group project grade#(there was a time limit)#same friends mom works in the tutoring center and she was going to her moms office#and one of our classmates asked her if her disability made her stupid and if thats why shes going to tutoring#a different classmate said that my friend reminded her of her cousin with down syndrome#(which obviously isnt an insult but she meant it as one)#and thats just the mean stuff#one of my classmates faked a baby and pregnancy and stole another classmates (who was actually pregnant) ultrasound pics#shits wild#like bro what are you even doing here if you dont want homeless people to have fresh food#i feel like thats the bare minimum for social work#max thinks shes relevant
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Please god take her suffering and give it to the men in the show
#rhaenyra targeryan#rhaenyra targaryen#hotd#house of the dragon#did i tag rhaenyra twice whoops#TAKE HER SUFFERING PLEASE#SHE DOESNT DESERVE IT#i wanted to hug her the whole episode#hotd s2#a son for a son#hotd season 2#hotd spoilers#season two episode 1 spoilers#well its images but yea#im just gonna tag any of my posts which have photos/writing from s2 as spoilers in case
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liking Reed has irreversibly changed my relationship to fiction because now i'm automatically sympathetic towards villains.
the villain is planning and plotting to keep the love of their life by their side? we love to see a motivated individual take charge of their life. villain is planning to destroy the world? yesss king, omg you're absolutely cooking. the villain has a sad backstory and is incredibly messed up by their trauma? even better. i love you so much, i want you to find peace and happiness and/or fulfil all of your dreams and wishes. (this includes destroying the world.)
#s-class heroine spoilers#a transmigrator's privilege#the perks of being an s class heroine#reed#liking reed has made me so much gentler towards villains and characters who are horrible people in general#when he tells ailette 'interesting. you still want to save me even after all ive done?' and im like yes king you still deserve kindness 😔#reed's such a fun guy because im sure that on some level. after being taken advantage of for all his life he just doesnt seem himself as#someone to whom kindness is given to. kindness is something you give to others but not to (MASSIVE SPOILERS) tesilid argente#but more importantly hes just really mad he wants and needs to break some shit#and after so long of repressing things. no wonder lol#anw this was prompted by me reading a webtoon whr the villain is outwardly gentle to the FL whos his fiance#but actually plotted to make her grand plans fail so that#she wouldnt become so obscenely rich that she could break of their fake engagement as planned#which is so interesting to me#bc yes hes manipulating and controlling and wtv and their relationship is not healthy and is doomed#but also hes unfailingly made her comfortable in his presence. she doesnt see him as a threat at all and relies on him sooo much#which is cute! not in real life but very cute conceptually#get you a man who makes humanity almost lose the war against demons because he doesnt want to lose you. lmao. whats wrong with him#just go confess to her properly you idiot. youre the fiance 😭#this is about 'hiding the archduke's humiliating history'#funny guy. i hope we get more screentime of him. i hope the FL falls in love with him. <- delusional
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MC is such a genderless being inside my head, unless If it's someone OC, that when I see them being referred to as "she" I go "!?!??!?!??" And completely forget MC can be a woman. Not only but MC can be, get this, a cis woman.
Essentially I've been stuck inside my little transgender brain for so long that I forgot that cis women MCs can be a thing and some people don't fuck around with gender in the game, which is weird because Our Life is the genderfuckery game for me so cis players are always a jumpscare to me lmao
#our life#olba#misty talks our life#our life now & forever#olnf#me when people can make cishet mcs in the mc can be whatever you want game:#this isnt a complain i just forgot cis people were a thing#“why doesnt this apply to cis men” because if it's olba is going to be gay and i likey#or if it's olnf because of qiu#unless you have a cis man mc for tamarack which......sure but like....ahe deserves a wife#yeah she can date cishet men should she only be with mcs who are men? no
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Solas (trying desperately to condense his time there into a story), sera (used to finding spaces for herself in places with very little, will take what she needs because its never given), and vivienne (Insists upon herself. and other people giving her space and recognition because she knows what happens when she doesn't have that) being the ones to really make a space Their Own in skyhold makes me surprisingly emotional.
#sera and vivienneeeeee i love you so muchhhhhh#solas too i fucking guess. samahl is going orz and im going begrudging thumbsup#personal /#dragon age blogging#cassandra: hardly anything but something to fight and somewhere to sit. insistent upon work and guilty for anything else#the iron bull: a space designated for something which kinda reflects how he lives his life i think. feels more comfortable when theres line#also literally he can hang with his bros there. the lines are this is the space to relax and get drunk and have fun. he clings#blackwall: in the stables bc he doesnt deserve anything else (to him) but still manages to put himself into it a little bit#cole: literally a hallway. liminal space.#dorian: library which has a use. something to do so he can feel like hes doing something and show everyone who doubts him that hes doing it#cullen: bro..... ur room is FALLING APART. worry less about your infantry and more about the commander getting brained by falling beams#aka takes a room because thats what is proper but specifically neglects picking one that will give him any comfort whatsoever#varric: literally the entrance. an extension of being in the hanged man all the time. being where things happen and information is passed#josephine: makes it her own from the very beginning but thats by design. presentation forward. what would it seem like if she DIDNT#leliana: literally just the highest point. for the birds. she hardly has a desk but we still find the most correspondence there#find her Own secrets as others pass through
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One side effect of the autistic sense of justice for me is going insane over justice and vengeance as concepts in themselves whenever applicable in media.
Which unfortunately means that thinking about justice dragon age for too long (especially with the post inq takes on spirits) makes me want to rip my hair out.
#i can't reconcile with the idea that vengeance is a corrupted 'too much' version of justice im sorry i'll always believe in Anders simply-#being stupid and catholic about it (affectionate)#It just. even if we're strictly viewing one as 'more violent' . that idea is.. not quite 100% applicable? kghfdhg 😭#it strictly depends on what is the driving force right? what are we avenging/ seeking justice for#and if violence for it is called for- then well- that response would be /Just/ just as much as it'd be an act of vengeance/retribution#if not more#Thing is Justice is the one type of spirit we've met(that i remember) that's intrinsically tied with morality by his very nature#/you can be wise and immoral or compassionate to people who very much do not deserve it etcetc#(i hate Mythal as benevolence ((SHE WAS A SLAVER)) -> retribution as much as i hate all evanuris lore but shes a good example of this)#but Justice? Justice to be Justice has to be objective#which IS BORDERLINE IMPOSSIBLE to apply in the real world outside the fade. which i suppose is where you CAN bring vengeance in.#vengeance as justice but looking at the world through a subjective lens. Since Vengeance and Justice CAN be two sides of the same coin.#Vengeance can be as Just as you make it- it's just that /unlike/ justice- it doesnt have that same objective moral tie.#ie how you get someone like elgar'nan on the opposite end of the morality scale being called the god of it#but dragon age overall has the most wack and muddled sense of that all these words /concepts-#mean/are meant to convey that im starting to feel like im losing my grasp on the english language overall 😭#bc even after this entire philosophical talk - anders' justice-> vengeance as a transition makes me go???#at that the fuck elgar'nan 's deal was supposed to be originally then? certainly not justice. unless maybe we mean justice as in law??#BUT THAT'S A WHOLE OTHER CAN OF WORMS. DO YOU SEE WHAT I MEAN.#veilguard spoilers#dav spoilers#for the mythal thing#elluin wotr and whatever the fuck he has going on with calistria and iomedae save me from this. save me ellu
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I know that this is a very unpopular opinion but hear me out!
I think not enough people consider Corvo as an unreliable narrator. We see the story from his point of view and all we know about Jessamine Kaldwin comes from his perspective. So, to think on that, do we really know how good Jessamine was as the Empress?
I know that she is usually portrayed as a good person if not a saint but what if it wasn't that way? A lot of people in the streets are indifferent towards her image, if not hostile; the situation with Delilah; how both Geoff Curnow and Corvo are treated because of their nationality; two hatters recalling how greatly Corvo dealt with workers uprising under her command – a lot of things are a tell-tale signs that something is not quite right.
And at this point I have to clarify that I'm not saying things like "boo no I hate Jessamine". No, it's actually quite the opposite, I love her character. But the way it is usually portrayed seems to be so dull and static. Let her not be a saint.
Let her be manipulative. Let her tell Corvo that "he is not like other serkonans, he is sooo special and that's why he is where he is and not somewhere deep in the silver mine", while being (just as any nobility in Gristol) not very welcome to any outlanders.
Let her be power-hungry and afraid to lose this power. Remember a bonecharm in her hidden room in the Tower? Who knows how it ended up here! Maybe she knew (or felt) that Delilah was coming, capable of overpowering and taking everything from her. Maybe Jessamine was so afraid to lose her posh life that she was ready to use some kind of a black magic!
Let her be disloyal. Obviously, she and Corvo developed some kind of codependency. But along with that, she was the Empress so who could stop her from having an affair or two? And Corvo was just the safest option, with a way less unnecessary risks and questions.
Let her be an imperfect person.
Obviously, Jessamine could be easily born a perfect ruler and a perfect loving woman for her chosen one and her daughter. But maybe she had to learn it the hard way.
Maybe she changed along with Corvo. Maybe the plague was a critical point for her character, maybe those months without Corvo made her rethink a lot of things.
And isn't it tragic, finally understanding and becoming the Empress everyone wants to see in you, just to be killed the other day, because all those changes have been seen as a weakness? Have nothing but faith in your closest one, faith that these people will be more wise than she was?
Give her some development, give her some motion! She could easily be a saint, static point. But in my opinion, she deserves to be not perfect but in constant motion. Trying and learning, understanding and making mistakes. She was too young when she became the Empress, she was a part of gristolian nobility, not so kind to anyone but themselves, she literally had no prerequisites to become a good person. And yet somehow she did.
It's always so easy to be a "saint" from the very beginning. And it's always so hard to learn how to become one.
#dishonored#jessamine kaldwin#imo all women deserve to be evil#(as a treat)#and esp disho women#ngl i kinda feel as a great part of Emily criticism could be applied to Jess as well#which doesnt make either of them a bad character#just as a fact#oh and also - while im still there - its not a bad thing to write Dauds development as a reaction to her death#but i feel like it was rather a reaction to the *changes* that her death triggered#i understand that she is a “woman in the refrigerator” trope in canon but we all are better than this#so again imo but it would be better to concentrate Dauds character growth aroud those changes and leave this poor woman alone#i really want to write a separate post about him rn lol#anyway thanks for coming to my ted talk#dt (stands for doni talks)
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breaking the creative dry spell with elaborating on blorbos shit awful ethics again 💜💜💜

also this is just one of my fave shots of him. freshly lobotomized, covered in blood, deeply pissed off. great all around time i just wish it wasnt directed at my favorite intellect devourer 💔
anyways. content warning for descriptions of sadism and torture
this guy is a pain freak! to no ones surprise but im making you all check this shit out anyways. it rarely comes up in discussion because i USUALLY talk about how dirge bounces off of other named characters, with whom he has the greatest range of interesting interactions, and most of those interactions dissuade his sadism by virtue of him Giving A Shit but god the lobotomy did NOT fix that particular hobby of his at ALL
ill start with the fun ones first. dirge classed into warlock pre tadpoling, and specifically was a great old one warlock, meaning hes been practicing psionics for a VERY long time. and god does he love that shit. years of managing the Urge and careful studious dedication to death cult religious doctrine forged his will into quenched steel, and being on the receiving end of any of his psionics really makes you fucking feel it. dirge absolutely DELIGHTS in the experience of subjecting someone to his domination because he enjoys the panicked wriggling feeling of someone trying to flee but realizing theres nowhere to go because hes carving a path into their head. his patron itself is a star and, deriving his powers from it, his psionics themselves carry the sensation of irrepresible unavoidable crushing gravity. his willpower quite literally squeezes you until you start cracking open. another tactic hes fond of, and one he used to dominate the elder brain, is to compress the entirety of his willpower through psionics into a single point smaller than a needle, and then watching it puncture clean through a victims mental defenses like they arent even there. when hes torturing for pleasure, and not business, he makes a point of encircling their mental defenses and then steadily increasing the strain he places on them from all sides so he can watch the cracks start forming, and then breaks their will in one clean snap before digging through their mind for choice tidbits of information. whatevers leftover when hes done scavenging usually isnt enough to rebuild someones psyche from the sheer psychic trauma, which is all well and good because he typically doesnt let them live after anyways.
the lobotomy took out most of that particular skillset but a combination of practicing on absolutists (he uses illithid domination often enough to get the True Soul tag before even leaving the emerald grove) and tadpole skills has him getting back into the general swing of it
physically he enjoys the sensation of pain QUITE a lot. hes very sensory seeking and pain as a stimulus is "loud" enough to block out most other senses if its severe enough, so he enjoys it as stress relief. he also quite enjoys inflicting novel forms of agony onto other people. when he isnt playing nice and acceptable around people he cares about, dirge has a very strong cruel streak. if he gets the chance to indulge it at all, itll typically be with the last surviving member of an attacking enemy group, with the rest having been used to satiate his impulsive craving for gore and destruction. he particularly savors forms of emotional torment, bolstered by his sharp insight and overwhelming charisma. pre tadpole he did hobbyist vivisections to pass the time between his duties, and while thats fallen off post tadpoling, he still enjoys many of the skills and what they can inflict upon people. when dirge decides to indulge himself, he can get downright hedonistic about it, and his sadism streak is one of the clearest examples, drawing out a short stint of combat into a long, excrutiating death. he savors being the catalyst of suffering and treasures the experience of the myriad ways an individual can respond to torment. in particular he favors methods that draw blood or burn as the smell of bloodletting or charred flesh are particularly satisfying to him, but he does find enjoyment in being in close enough proximity to smell the way stress and fear affects the scent of their sweat. he enjoys flaying skin and carving open bodily cavities to expose organs to light and air, he enjoys carefully severing tendons and muscle groups just to watch someone in a panic try to flee anyways, and while he isnt super hype about raw bone marrow he DOES find the experience of cracking small joints to be particularly satisfying. dirge rarely goes for anything on the face because he wants to see the expressions they make, and only starts damaging that area when hes close to done playing with someone.
he enjoys when people try to beg, or plead, or bargain, because he takes small petty pleasure in exercising that kind of power over someone, just to deny them and bluntly inform them that this only ends when he feels like it, and driving home that state of utter helplessness. if hes feeling particularly understimulated, he'll force his way into a victims mind just to cram himself into their sensory perception so he gets front row seats for the agony he inflicts and his victims subsequent emotional response. he'll also do this if someones feeling clammy or stoic and not producing the kind of visible reactions hes hunting for, and he WILL freely transition to psionic torture if physical methods arent cutting it. he rarely, if ever, has to do the reverse because a combination of Urge-born madness and god ensconcing willpower typically means a victim isnt capable of meaningfully surviving it, allowing dirge to freely set the pace for whatever sensation hes hunting for
poison for dirge is more like a torture seasoning than a full meal in itself. its like a fun like extra spice sprinkled in for his enjoyment. he has a fondness for paralytics and neurotoxins, but still retains a healthy admiration for blood cell destroying animal venoms. conotoxins are a quickfire way to learn a lot of upsetting biology really quickly as you find out, in detail, exactly what a cone snail can do to your body and how fast itll happen, and if your really unlucky this will be a hands on learning experience.
if hes ever upset something traumatic happened to a companion, its rarely about what happened and more about it happening to someone he cares about. dirge is typically very upfront about this aspect of his personality, and fairly consistently behaves morally worse when people like karlach and wyll arent around to implicitly encourage him away from it, but WILL engage in petty self serving sadism when its a target he feels will garner no objections (cazador has an Extremely Fucking Bad Time) or he feels its a small enough infraction to go unremarked on (minor annoyances and irritation WILL manifest as deliberately non lethal attacks meant solely to inflict pain). a general willingness to capitulate to the requests of loved ones, even if they arent physically present (dirge abstains from being an ass to the tiefling refugees even when karlach and wyll are at camp) and a habit of avoiding rocking the boat (dirge typically only needs to be told off once or twice about his bad habits before he takes the lesson) means that despite being very openly sadistic, he rarely pushes the people hes around into being uncomfortable with him, and everyone else has to sit there and weigh their moral code against a loved one who can, will, and often has literally gone to hell and back for them for no other reason than they asked him to do so.
fun times! what a guy
#dirgeposting#jaheira literally takes what she can get with this guy. you gotta lower your standards and meet him where hes at#and rn her standards are ''dont do it in front of me or my kids'' to which dirge says ''👌👍''#it helps he has a soft spot for kids because he doesnt have all that catholic guilt about thinking he deserved child abuse anymore#the tadfools rly lucked out on getting the worlds most people pleasing serial killer fr
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