#which i SPECIFICALLY remember because i remember her taking the doctor's body and it Doing Something to my ten-year-old mind

[dyketennant]

i haven't been able to stop thinking about this since i saw it

[citruswriter]

Hello, sorry in advance - my English is VERY bad😭💔

have problems with blood pressure, which often makes me dizzy, and yesterday in the bathroom because of the pressure I lost consciousness and fell - my mother was very scared, and we waited another half hour for an ambulance🤣

(everything is fine, I got tangled in the bath curtain and it saved me my head from a concussion, but I sprained my neck, hit my nose and got bruises all over my body)

I would like to know how the bayverse tmnt(individually) reacted to the fact that there was a crash from the bathtub, the door was locked, and when they managed to open the door, their beloved was lying on the floor, her feet on the edge of the bathtub, and the girl herself was lying unconscious, confused in the bathroom curtain on the tile floor? 🤣

Will they scold the girl for her habit of locking doors, or will they wash her themselves after this event, idk

(please guys take care of yourselves especially if you have the same health issues as me 🙏)

Bayverse Turtles x Fainting Disorder Reader

Listen with me! ↠ⁿᵉˣᵗ ˢᵒⁿᵍ ↺ ʳᵉᵖᵉᵃᵗ ⊜ ᵖᵃᵘˢᵉ

A/N: Behold! The singular ask that survived the Tumblr askbox purge. It's ok dear! It took me a bit to decipher the ask but I think I've got the jist of it!

Leonardo x Reader 🧡

Heart attack the first time you fainted. Warn a guy if you have a fainting disorder will ya?

Internally screamed while carrying you to Donnie to see if you need the hospital. Deep breath of relief to find out, no you don't.

Please tell him what you have and how to help. He's just one big ole softy and he loves you and wants to make sure you're safe and comfortable.

Scolds you every time you lock doors. He understands your wish for independence and privacy but either you leave the door unlocked or he breaks down the door. Your choice.

Can be a bit overbearing at times so don't be surprised if you need to have a talk with him at some point. Let him know you appreciate his effort but it's just a tad suffocating.

Probably knows your medical history like the back of his hand. Wants to know everything to be helpful so you've probably told him something about something at some point and now he has it all memorized.

Call him while at the doctor's office if you forget. He'll think it's amusing that you forgot your own medical history but will still happily tell you what you forgot. He enjoys feeling useful.

Constant stash of water and snacks in his room and kitchen specifically for you. If anybody else touches it, they are required "by law" to replace it or else they get ha'shi treatment.

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Raphael x Reader 🧡

Literal panic attack the first time you faint around him. Screaming for Donnie and asking if you're gonna die.

Don't be surprised if he yells at you for not telling him. He's not trying to be mean, you just scared him is all. Just let him get it out and eventually he'll calm down and apologize for yelling before holding you in his arms.

This man ain't gonna remember shit about what ever the fuck you have. He'll remember the name and that it's a fainting disorder and that's probably it.

This man already has a water bottle stash but he happily lets you access it whenever you need to. Hydration is good!

Not afraid to break your door if you lock it. What if you faint face first into some liquid and then drown and die? Hm?! He loves you too much. You're not allowed to die. Leave the damn door unlocked.

Another turtle you might have to sit down with and have a "I appreciate your effort but you're suffocating me" talk with.

Probably has a note on his notes app labeled "Tiny's Medical Shit" with some basic information on your disorder and how to help with dizzy and fainting spells.

His room looks like it's absolutely baby proofed with the caps he puts on sharp corners and with all the pillows and blankets on his floor but really he's just doing his best to keep you safe and injury free.

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Donatello x Reader 🧡

Worried the first time you faint around him but not all panicky like Leo or Raph. He might softly scold you for not telling him about your fainting disorder though.

Faint proofs his lab. He wants his baby in his lab with him but that wasn't exactly possible for awhile so he had to faint proof his while fucking lab. Please praise him for it, he desperately needs the validation.

As soon as he knows you have a fainting disorder, he looks up what it is and suddenly knows more about it than even you do. POTS, narcolepsy, it doesn't matter. He knows more than you now.

Will love you for eternity if you call him while at a doctor's because you forgot something about your own medical history or just don't know the answer.

"Hey Donnie?" "Yes dove?" "How many times would you say I've fainted in the past month?" "Twenty-seven. I have it all documented. Why? You at the doctor?" "Yeah. Figured if anybody knew the answer to that question, it would be you." "Well you were correct. I love you, dove." "I love you too, my love. See you tonight."

He doesn't care if you lock doors. This man knows how to pick a lock in twenty different ways. He also knows that, if push comes to shove, he can easily just break the damn door down.

Lots of water and snackies for you in his lab. Nobody tries to steal from your stash. Mikey tried once and had to deal with scary Don for few solid minutes. They know better now, lest they incur the wrath of Scary Dontron.

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Michaelangelo x Reader 🧡

Surprisingly chill the first time you faint around him??? Like why the fuck is he so calm???

He does his best to study up on your disorder but, much like Raph, he knows what it's called and that's about it.

Has a "fainting spot" for you in his room that's essentially just a nook in his room with extra fluffy blankets and pillows with a basket of water and snacks within reach. Whenever you faint, he places you there and stays close by until you're awake and conscious.

Doesn't worry too much about locked doors. He'd prefer if you don't but he understands that he can easily bust the door down if needed.

If you're clingy after a fainting spell, this man is gonna eat it up. Need him to hold you? Course baby, come here. Need some kisses? Who is he to deny you? Need some head rubs while you bury yourself into his arms? Why it would be criminal to deny you!

He isn't the best at keeping up with all the fun facts about your disorder but he's surprisingly fantastic about tracking your fainting spells. Like, it's Donnie level tracking. He may not know the ins and outs of your disorder like Don would but he can indeed tell you that you've fainted three times this week.

Will chirp if you call him at the doctors. He can't promise he'll know the answer to your question but the fact that you thought of him and called him still warms his heart. Prepare for him to cuddle and scent you when you get home if you do this.

I'm so sorry for not writing guys. I've been in Ao3's embrace for the past few days. 🤭😂

[raven-at-the-writing-desk]

I remember in the game, like during Riddle's flashback, Mama Roseheart says that a food was full of something that would make him smarter. But that kinda sounds like something from a factoid. Do we know if she's actually a qualified doctor?

Mrs. Rosehearts is a licensed medical mage. We have no reason to believe she isn’t, especially not when Riddle cites her occupation as a reason for her being well-respected in their community. Why would Riddle and their entire hometown perpetuate a lie and revere a woman if she’s not in such a powerful position?

I don’t think the scene you brought up is as much of a “gotcha” as it may seem to be. It might give the impression that Mrs. Rosehearts is one of those pseudoscience peddlers, but only if you take her dialogue at face-value and consider no other context.

Firstly, it’s important to note that Mrs. Rosehearts claiming the birthday cake has lecithin-rich ingredients, which will “make [you] smarter” occurs in the Japanese text.

The localization is more specific and has Mrs. Rosehearts instead claiming that the lecithin will “improve cerebral function”. Between JP and EN, EN actually provides the more nuanced wording this time.

The reason she says this is because lecithin DOES play an important role in cognitive function. It is necessary to make choline, an essential nutrient to then make acetylcholine. Acetylcholine, as it happens, is a neurotransmitter that conveys messages between the neurons and all cells in the body. In the simplest terms, lecithin is vital in brain function and memory development. If Riddle doesn’t get enough lecithin, it could legitimately impede with his studies, since the brain wouldn’t have what it needs to support optimal learning.

It isn’t pseudoscience, it’s real science and you will find numerous studies that back this up. The only reason it comes off as “fake” is because Mrs. Rosehearts grossly oversimplifies the explanation in her dialogue. This most likely happened because 1) adults tend to talk to children this way, especially to make less desirable food sound more appealing (which is the case for Riddle’s mom) and 2) the Twst writers know that most of their general audience don’t want to sit through a long lecture about how lecithin is converted to other substances to support the brain.

Mrs Rosehearts doesn’t actually mean that she believes Riddle will magically become smarter if he eats food with lots of lecithin in it. She most likely means she wants him to eat ultra healthy in general because the alternative, junk food, won’t give him the nutrients he needs for the high amount of studying he does.

[expectiations]

I can't believe it's been four months since we've been given the absolute gift that is the NineRiver audios. I remember weeping at 1 am over them and just melting at the way Nine became the most protective, most gentle, caring person after understanding River. Oh to be able to listen to Star-Crossed again for the first time!

On one note, I have seen people claim that for this particular regeneration, they're in a QPR. I object, but that's not what I started this post for.

Just like what is said in this post, the Doctor and River constantly fall in love with each other because River is River and the Doctor is the Doctor. They just click. It's evidenced by this specific pairing too. Sure, Nine may have been brash and rude to her at first but it changes once he processed the fact that apparently, he'd open up enough to marry someone in the future.

I may have said this before but one of the things I love about Archipelago is how it dispels any notion that the Doctor is forced to have sex with River. I have seen too often enough the (loudly incorrect) takes over that idea which irks me out because frankly, which version of Doctor Who did they watch? Cause it was clear af that the Doctor's very much into her and is always the one who instigates physical affection—cheek kisses, nose bump bops, see-you-next-adventure kisses, etc. Their marriage isn't built around sex. There is mutual trust and respect (and steamy, hot sparks) between these two. While some have chosen to gleefully point out that they're in a QPR, once again I respectfully disagree. If you insist, just scroll away.

I also love how he tries to understand, to *know* her. He reads her diary and tries to fathom the timey-wimey life they lead. He is basically acting the way any other regeneration of the Doctor would when they meet River, except this one is fresh out of the Time War and the wounds are still too raw and the loathing still too loud. Not that it got better by the time they met in the Library but relatively and all that.

Have I mentioned that I melt over how he's also *reaaally soft* with River? When River cries out of disappointment, he asks her what's wrong. She tries to 'hide the damage' but he shushes her and tells her to tell him what is wrong. When River tells him he should have left her in the time storm, he quietly tells her that that was never going to happen. And mind you, that was even *before* he read her diary.

For an endless moment, they had their happily ever after. They got to grow 'old' together. They got to exchange secrets no other version of the Doctor or River will *ever* know. And while there are conflicting interpretations of the part where River says 'they finally lay again together', I choose to believe they somehow found a way to have sex. Although I wouldn't be able to comprehend how considering they had crystals all over their bodies but unless I'm taking things literally, it's River and it's the Doctor and between the two of them, they're very much likely able to work it out lol

The penultimate part for me was right before they reset the timeline. When River told him that it's *the most romantic thing* he's ever done, that he's not just doing it for the timelines but he's doing it for them. He's giving up everything they had for everything they will have. And he responds that if it works, he'll have a lifetime to prove otherwise.

Oh and did I mention that I started sobbing uncontrollably AT ONE AM IN THE MORNING when I realized that their time together has left an indelible imprint in the universe??

Literally peak soulmate-ism.

[alexendria-rose]

~The love Between a sorcerer and an ex assassin~ 3

Part 1, Part 2

A/n- so this is a little bit of the readers childhood past, this is mostly what the chapter is about. It will be a lot, I won’t go into specific details because that’s too much but I will basically be stating it. And yes the avengers do break up in this and I know it doesn’t make sense since Thor hair was already cut and Stephen isn’t in any of it but ya know it’s a fanfic so cut me some slack lol but most of it from here on out should be accurate. Also more of Stephen and readers slow burning love.

Warnings: cussing, Childhood trauma, SA, assault, PTSD, the inability to have children:(

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I never should’ve gotten involved between Tony and Steves fight. And now here I am hiding out in the sanctum, knowing Stephen would take me in. We’ve gotten closer in the last couple months-him not getting involved with either sides. Well unfortunately for me I was; especially on Steves side, where I was a walking criminal now and didn’t know where the others were-before I got onto that stupid jet; Stephen decided to get me before I got to far into the fight. The fight against the only family I knew triggering me in ways I didn’t even know. I couldn’t sleep knowing the avengers were split up and no longer had that family bond that we all once had. It was rough- not being able to go to Natasha and rant to her about this going around in my head. Now I was stuck with my thoughts- my childhood/the red rom triggering all of it; thinking about how it all started when I officially became a widow and there was not turning back,

“No please don’t!” My 5 year old self cried, the tears rolling down my cheeks as they pinned me down to the gurney. The doctor pinned my wrist down before putting a cuff on both of them.

“This is for the better. Dear child.” The doctor shushed me before patting my hair in a disgusting manner. “We’re just going to do a small procedure…” he whispered harshly. The other male opening up my small legs. I sobbed loudly wondering and pondering what procedure they should attempt to do-I was just a child not realizing that they were about to take the ability of not being able to have them myself. The doctor sticks the needle in my neck-me screaming at the pinch before realizing the black around me.

The fact that Draykov had so much faith in me at such a little age-made me sick to my stomach. Five years old I got the involuntary hysterectomy… most widows didn’t get those until they finally graduated but he knew I didn’t remember much of my family being the youngest widow; easily brainwashed it was like he kept me as a little trophy to prove to the other girls that I was smarter, swifter and better then them which made me an easy target for the girls that were jealous of the “great treatment” I was getting-not knowing being the favorite was ten times worse.

Draykov watched as I continued to fight the widow in front of me, my small arms and tiny body that was not even reached to full adulthood-just merely 12 years old, fought a widow much bigger then me; much older, more experienced. But for me-I was still quicker, faster and had much more advantage than her. I swept under her feet making her fall harder onto her back punching her across the face in the process knocking her out in an instant. Draykov starts clapping slowly making his way towards me before grabbing my chin- his thumb caressing my lip.

“Good job little one, look at you go.” He voice dripping with venom and poise. The way his eyes flicked up and down my body with the very exposed tightness of the suit clinging into the youth of my skin. I shake slightly under his touch, terrified as I stared at him.

“Thank you.” I mumble trying to stop the shake in my hands as he stared at me. The other widows watched in distaste, Natasha was the only one who looked at Draykov with disgust and anger in her eyes at the situation. God how badly I wish I can run away from this with her. Draykov grins at me his hand moving down to my waist caressing it with a soft touch but a disgusting one at that.

“This is why you’re the best widow my child.” He whispers lightly his hand resting on my waist. “You’ll get your reward later.” My stomach drops knowing exactly what that “reward” implied, something painful, something I’ve always wanted to stop but never could knowing it would just lead to torture rather than death. Draykov pats my hip before moving swiftly away from me. Natasha looks my way as the tears start to cloud my eyesight before looking at the widow that was unconscious below me- I quickly blink the tears away trying not to let the emotions fall knowing that punishment would eat away at me, I couldn’t be a weak widow-

The memory often ate me up, it hurt me that I couldn’t stop it but hurt more that I was just a child. A grown man idolizing a child that way… I laid in my bed staring at the wall before slightly gazing at the alarm clock near the bed- oh wow that’s lovely it’s already 1:00Pm and I’m here doing nothing. I sigh loudly taking the blanket off my body, my body shivering from the heat that was taken off my body but the cold hitting my exposed skin instead. My head pounded as I sat up too fast, the memories that sat in my head were knocking against my skull. I didn’t even notice the dry tears on my cheeks nor the red dark circles under my eyes. Why did the avengers have to split up? Everything was good, everything was great until that moment that everything went down hill for the team. And here I was hiding out in the sanctum because I was a literally criminal now; well I guess I’ve always have been… I guess it’s a different kind now huh?

I feet pad towards the kitchen in the sanctum rubbing my red eyes from the lack of sleep.

“Well good morning sleeping beauty.” I jump slightly at the voice turning around to face the only voice that I knew better then ever now.

“Why do you do that!” I groan towards Stephen. He chuckles lightly walking towards me as I lean against the counter. He stands right in front of me-way too close where our bodies are basically touching but reaches above me grabbing a mug a smile on that stupid smug face.

“For an assassin you really don’t seem to focus on your surroundings.” He laughs softly before moving his body away from me. Suddenly missing the closeness- nope can’t think of that. I roll my eyes at him before turning around and grabbing my own mug.

“An ex assassin.” I mumble lightly watching Stephen grab the pot of coffee pouring some in his mug, I bring my mug out giving him pleading eyes. “Can I have some?”

“You can,” he quicks an eyebrow giving me his teasing stupid smile.

“You know what I mean!”

“I know what you mean but you’re not saying it right.” He laughs moving the pot away from my grasp, I move my way in front of him trying to grab the pot from his hand but he moves way up so I couldn’t reach it.

“You’re an asshole. You know I could just flip you. Remember I’m an assassin.” I mocked him from what he said from earlier.

“You know that’s an unfair advantage. I’m just looking for one word.” He jokes looking down at me with a grin on his face. I try to jump up to grab the pot but he keeps it out of my reach before I end up tripping on my own toes because of my own stubbornness(can’t believe I use to be an assassin) Stephen uses his other arm catching me in the process of me basically almost falling flat on my face, my face close to his and his close to mine. My hand automatically placed on his chest as I looked at him. The tension obviously there from the way we both freeze from the contact, the intense eye contact. My eyes flickering all over his face, his doing the same as both our breath hitched at the same time. His head seemed to move closer to mine, my head unintentionally moving closer to his before realizing the situation; I grab the pot from his hand pushing my body away from him as quickly as I could. He clears his throat noticing the way I was hastily pouring the coffee in my cup trying to escape this situation.

I didn’t understand how Stephen made me feel these things. The way my heart always sped up around him, or the fact whenever he got super close my mouth would go dry, or whenever he would sit at his desk while I read my eyes would always linger towards him. Was it just strong friendship feelings? Maybe… but it was different that’s for sure. Something I haven’t felt before, but it also felt wrong. Part of me knew what I was feeling but that also scared me. Knowing I told myself that I would never get close to someone like that. Never. And I mean never.

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“Y/n. It’s a go.” The widow whispered into my earpiece. I brought the sniper up to my eye as I watched the person I had to take out. I didn’t care for who it was, my brain felt blank, as I just followed instructions. Yelena stood next to me as she stared at the same girl. I look towards Yelena and nod silently.

“Ready.” I mumble. Yelena nods back, focusing on the mission on hand.

“Fire on the place of three.” Yelena mumbles. “5,4-“ suddenly the alarms start ringing and kids start shouting. “She made us, target deployed smoke.”

“She’s on foot with the package. Stay high. Yelena and I are going to ground.” I mumble into the earpiece placing the sniper down as does Yelena. Before we start repealing from the roof onto the ground. We unhook our things before dashing towards the woman on foot with the package. We kick down the door that she moves across the woman getting hit with a car in the process. Yelena sees the package immediately going towards it, I run towards the woman tackling her down so she could grab the package, the woman starts to tackle me back before landing a hard punch on my face kicking Yelena legs in the process and grabbing the package back, she grabs Yelena hair pulling it back trying to get her to drop the knife but she also grabs a the thing from the package spraying it in Yelena face. I grab the woman while Yelena looks lose all the suddenly. I grab my knife before stabbing the woman in the stomach, and Yelena snaps her head towards me.

“Y/n stop!” She yells, the woman lays still looking at both of us, as I stand up to look at Yelena.

“Spray her with it.” The woman grunts out. “Free the others.” She manages to gasp out. Yelena looks at me as I glare Yelena the antidote holding close to my chest. Yelena grunts before trying to grab the bag from me but I kick her down grabbing my knife- not knowing what I was doing I start to lift my hand to stab Yelena but she was able to grab the antidote before I could spraying it on my face. I gasp out loudly dropping the knife in the process looking down what I was doing; wait where was? What was I doing? Yelena?

“Yelena?” I gasp out looking down at her, tears welling up in my eyes realizing I was about to kill the only kind of sibling I had.

I scream out loudly as I sat up from my bed. The sweat collecting on my forehead-actually everywhere on my body. I gripped the bedsheets as the tears welled up in my eyes thinking of the awful memory of being mind-controlled. All the evil things that draykov did while being mind controlled. How much he took advantage of that situation. My bedroom slams open revealing a very worried and scared Stephen. My hands start to shake as I look at him trying to form some sort of words. The tears trickling down my cheek. He rushes over to me moving himself on the bed before holding me close to his body. I grip onto his shirt my eyes wide in fear, he rocks me trying to calm my shaking form.

“It’s okay. I’m right here.” He consoles running his shaky fingers through my hair holding me close and tight; I feel my body relax from his warm and gentle hands running through my hair. I sigh deeply sniffling softly.

“I wish it was just a nightmare.” I murmur out calming down my breathing and my trembling. He places his head ontop of mine.

“We don’t have to talk about.” He coax me softly his voice gentle and tender as he continues to rock me and hold me close. “Just relax, I know you haven’t slept in days. I need you to sleep.” He moves his hand to my back rubbing gentle motions to calm me down. I take a deep inhale breath appreciating the fact that he wasn’t forcing me to talk but rather worried by the fact I was indeed not sleeping well. He lays down against the bed more, my head on his chest as he continues to rub circles on my back and his moving through my hair. I close my hairs enjoying hearing his heart beating against my ear, and his soft breaths included in so.

“Don’t leave.” I muttered sleepily holding him close as I feel the sleep overcome me.

“I won’t. Im right here doll.” He whispers before the sleep finally overwhelms me.

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The feeling of two strong arms around me, the soft patterns of breathing overshadow me as I start to stir slightly; I open my eyes to see the familiar cheekbones and facial hair that I’ve become accustomed to. His lips slightly parted from his soft breathing, his chest heaving up and down, and the way his nose scrunched up at whatever dream he was having; made my heart fluttering. He slowly opens his eyes sleepily looking down at me, he hums gently rubbing my back gently.

“You okay?” He says in a murmur but in a raspy sort of way. Who knew his voice could go even deeper. I nod shyly not use to being this close to a man(well consensually…) I had to admit this was the best sleep I’ve ever gotten- well ever.

“I’m okay.” I whisper quietly. “Thank you.” He closes his eyes leaning his head back a small smile coming up to his lips.

“Anything for you.”

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A/n: LET ME KNOW IF YOU WANNA BE ON TAG LIST. LOVE YOU ALL. please let me know if you like this btw I want to see love in the comments!!

[queenofmalkier]

In regards to the arrow removal, I think a lot of people are not considering the context in which Nynaeve made the decision. And I am here to defend my wife, obvy.

For starters - they're going to Egwene, who Nynaeve refuses to think of as anything but 100% FINE AND OKAY AND DEFINITELY NOT TRAUMATIZED. And Egwene can channel which means she can heal.

Nynaeve spent enough time in the tower to basically see the impossible compared to her knowledge of healing before. Suddenly a lot of her knowledge is irrelevant because the one power can fix things better than she can with traditional medicine. Nynaeve is stubborn, but she takes healing seriously. She'll always choose the best option.

That informs her decision. The most important thing is getting Elayne off the active battlefield and to Egwene for healing. The closest I can think of is Star Trek - you wouldn't treat a wound when in ten minutes it's going to be gone, you just need to get the injured person to the doctor.

(Side note but I don't believe she had anything on her to even treat a wound at the time, either, given the sul'dam costume.)

Now, I've gone through a lot of first aid training due to various jobs I've held, so I'm right there with everyone saying not to take it out! You do not take the thing out. Never, ever, ever. Pulling/pushing it out can cause more damage and more bleeding and no one but a medical professional should be touching that sort of injury. This is a modern approach though! Remember, context.

I've seen a lot of people talking about her breaking the shaft before pushing it through, but that would actually be worse. There's no way to cleanly break the fletching away, which means by tugging it through she'd be introducing splinters of wood into the wound. Also the breaking is in regards to arrowheads, not the fletching.

The fletching (feathers on the back) is not actually the dangerous part of the arrow. I've seen some people say it was a crossbow bolt, but either way, from what we were shown the arrowhead itself had exited Elayne's leg already. If that was the case, pushing the shaft through wouldn't actually be harmful to her. It would hurt like hell, but it wouldn't cause any more damage.

I tried finding some actual sources for this specific scenario, but unfortunately most articles are focused on removing the arrowhead and not the shaft (and were also paywalled, boo). The closest I found was information from U.S. Army Surgeon Joseph H. Bill who essentially catalogued American Indian arrows as a way to determine the best removal technique.

He advised not applying traction to the shaft due to the likelihood of the arrowhead coming lose and remaining in the body, but I couldn't find what he advised if the arrowhead had already passed through the body although I did find this quote "An arrow may be pushed out as well as plucked out."

I DID find this lovely gentleman giving a very in depth discussion on medieval arrows as well as removal techniques and some of those are shove it through and hope for the best. (He also mentioned that healing the infection was what doctors and healers handled rather than wounds which... wow. Remind me to never be a medieval soldier in case I ever get that longing.)

So, yeah. I trust Nynaeve was right about her approach to the wound, and I feel like this is a case of a modern audience not trusting her knowledge because of our own knowledge of how those injuries are approached currently. I do think the scene could have been improved (in that regard) if they had Nynaeve explain her thought process, but overall, we got the point: Nynaeve felt like an utter failure, she couldn't help her friend, she couldn't do anything with all her alleged power. What good is she to her friends?

[lazymonth]

More art for Wondergøtten crossover and Bible accurate Dr Facilier. Concept of Truila outfit that match with The card holder

Have a reference from Turbo outfit concept specially Doctor Vøodoo’s one made by the creator of Wondergøtten @danisha-tdh ( I’ll give a credit to the creator of this concept every time 👍🏻 )

Dr Facilier kinda have a little bit of customize because I never see him in full version as The Wheel of Fortune. So, I find everything I can about his design mixing him with The Princess and the Frog’s style

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Also, have a little fact here about how it choose Tarot card for each of the characters. Mostly I picking it from what Tarot meaning is match with the characters backstory ↷

( sorry for my bad English too </33 )

Truila as Wheel of Fortune : Journey through life’s cycles, turning points, and the beauty of embracing change. All this meaning is match with her backstory about how Truila’s life changed completely after she hacked her own game. It’ll never back to the same but she need to live with it no matter what. It’s turning good or even worse she can’t design it

Cassie Kane as The Emperor : Leadership, power, authority, and success in the material world. It’s a good describe words of what Truila has become after disguised herself as Cassie. When it’s the first time she’s winning, Cassie quickly full with ego and doing anything to win again and again. Stuck in the short joy of wining like a drug… in other words she has become what Turbo has been

Richard as The Tower : Danger, crisis, sudden change, destruction, higher learning, and liberation. Both of the twins were at the peak of their lives before Truila make it all fall apart and make their game need to be unplugging. They not even have a chance to prepare anything it’s like just a blink every thing their have is all gone. Sadly they’re not going to the “ higher learning and liberation” part yet

Rogers as The Chariot : Determination, willpower, and the ability to overcome obstacles on our path to personal growth and success. After The twins lost everything they need to stand by their own self living the new hard life being homeless for over 10 years. But their have a hard determination on one thing… make Truila pay for what she have done ( bonus : The twins are not specific about which one is the older or younger brother but indeed Rogers is giving the older brother energy by take care a lot of stuff. So, this card might be match for him )

Octane as The Hermit : Will, he’s actually not my character but he’s my friend Oc @-itschr1spy but I just gonna describe a bit about how he match with The hermit. Octane is depressed guy his body and code has be ruled by the effects of Turbo-time getting unplugged. So, he’s match with The reversed Meaning. Loneliness, paranoia, isolation, bring reclusive, withdrawal, anti-social, restrictive, paralysed by fear. And why it’s need to be reversed? Well, as I remember what my friend say about concept of Octane he’s the opposite of Turbo ( maybe? )

[disabledstraydogs]

For the ship ask game:

Sigma(Autism, ocd) and Nikolai(adhd, bpd, and schizophrenia)

💮🪷🌹🌷🌲

Long post up ahead! Also using they/them for Sigma (ngl I was so close to using she/her for Nikolai then I remembered that this is not about the fem DOA agenda).

💮- If one of the characters in the ship are having a bad disability day how long does it take the other(s) to pick up on the fact that they're struggling? Are they good at picking up on the signs, if not, is there a point that they do notice without being told?

Hmm, this is an interesting question. I think Nikolai is better aat picking up on body language than Sigma, so if Sigma is having compulsions and/or is overwhelmed Nikolai picks up on it and carries them out of wherever they're stuck in.

Sigma on the other hand is not very good at picking up on subtle hints, they only seem to realize when Nikolai is having an episode which does make them hate themselves. It's ironic because Nikolai isn't one to hide his emotions or his mental health (if he's suffering everyone within a 10 mile radius will know), it's just that Sigma's autism can impact how much they can pick up on, how dedicated they are with work and how rapid Nikolai's mental health can change, it doesn't give them a lot of opportunity to notice.

🪷- If all characters in the relationship are disabled, what would happen if all of them were having a bad disability day?

This is a complex situation because usually when the other is in a bad place they both want to care for the other. They will go to lengths to try and help, but usually this makes them both worse and/or can lead to arguments. Because of this a third party is usually brought in to make sure that they're both okay and coping.

🌹- How did the people in the relationship find out that their partner(s) are disabled? Was it a shock? Did the disability happen while they were already in their relationship?

I think for Sigma they've always known that Nikolai struggles with his mental health, so when Nikolai opened up about his diagnosis they took the time to research each disability and make sure that they were prepared (or at least as prepared as you can be for these types of things).

Nikolai picked up on Sigma having autism pretty much instantly, although given that Sigma wasn't created until recently, they don't know they're neurodivergent until Nikolai asks them about it directly. Sigma then goes to a doctor and starts a diagnostic process soon after.

However Nikolai is not ready for the ODC diagnosis, although when he thinks about it this makes sense, but he hadn't thought about it too deeply considering that he doesn't know a lot about OCD.

🌷- How does being disabled imapct their love life? For example does it impact their date nights, activities they can and can't do as a couple, ect. (Note that this isn't a NSFW unless you want to answer it that way.)

Yes, pretty heavily. If they want to go out anywhere Nikolai has to be near an exit and against a wall so no one can sneak up on him from behind.

Sigma can't do places like movie theaters (too overwhelming sensory wise), Nikolai doesn't do well in the dark, Sigma doesn't eat specific foods from specific places, even being at home together can be an issue because Nikolai gets bored of being in the house too long.

They're still trying to work out where is the best place for them, but currently open nature based places (ie parks and fields) are a safe bet.

🌲- How do they accommodate eachother? Do they have a routine that helps with this? Do they do this consciously or subconsciously?

Nikolai is very much aware of how he accommodates Sigma, making sure that their spaces are clean and orderly, his natural instinct is to make a mess and be as loud as possible so he sometimes finds it hard to mellow himself as to make sure that Sigma is comfortable.

Sigma is also aware that they're making accommodations for Nikolai, with autism it's hard to put someone else first sometimes so it's a very deliberate thing that they have to do. The issue is that Sigma has had no prior experience being in a romantic relationship so they research pretty much everything before they do it. Nikolai finds this adorable and has told them not to worry so much (this only makes Sigma worry more) but their efforts are appreciated and acknowledged.

[oldsargasso]

ep 3 stream of conscious thoughts!

so I went and rewatched ep 2 in the hopes I might remember who is who🤞With the ending reveal that Tyme is working against the gambling ring, the way he listens to the woman in the hospital about how she lost her son to debt makes more sense now. Wondering if Tyme knew the son specifically, or someone like him - he obviously has a personal motivation to take out Great's family's business. (thunderstorm while she's talking - coming back I don't think we got a thunderstorm in ep3?)

also the fakeout on the identity of the dead guy is so perfect even second time around

I never noticed the hospital logo before; the cross with a heartbeat rhythm going through. subtle!

also how is Tyme literally looking in a mirror yet is surprised to find Bee behind him when he turns around. he must've really been focussed huh

the high-pitched flatline whine during serious moments…god this show is so good

okay NOW i'm gonna watch ep3

is that the body from ep2's first scene? my interest in the brother character (??name I should remember) would go up immeasurably if he was secretly a serial killer ngl. probably more like he's revenging his brother by killing his killer the same way which is also pretty good. coming back to remind myself his name is Tonkla.

oh Great asked him? hmmm.

bed #4 you love to see it!

so Tyme has a bit of a saviour complex. or control issues (relatable). Dr Den might be a little too emotional for this part of the job though

Great has a pool table in his place? I desperately need a floor plan of his apartment. how is he living like this. not the #4 ball as the phone shows 11:01 this episode was like SEE. DO YOU GET IT YET. idc I love it

do we think Great is a little dumb? if I thought I was seeing things and recently acquired a headwound I would definitely be seeing many doctors immediately. oooh LUCKY there is one doctor already on the case it seems

(so Tyme just showed up at Great's school - how does he know where Great goes to school/when he's there - and asks a random student to give Great a drink from him?)

"can you forgive me Great?" omgggg. vision of the future or a divergent timeline orrrrr.

I don't care if the flirting has ulterior motives it's adorable and I love it

so Great's ~episodes~ are 100% being used to get him to alter his actions/path to move toward Tyme. I like the theory that it's future-Great coding out manipulating his past self but also I enjoy the idea that it's someone else (Tyme himself?)

Tyme clearly thinking "okay so it's you…who should be a psychiatric patient". personally I would've been like let's go to the hospital and get an MRI or something but asking your friends is doing something too I guess

P'Tyme 🥺

I love how much interaction we get of Tyme and other staff in the hospital, so we get to see the different sides of him. the way he and Den are together is DELIGHTFUL.

fascinating (and feels a little like we're getting dessert first) that it's only ep3 and we're already getting the characters talking and linking things we as the audience got to do earlier, like the heart patient who mentioned 4 minute future to Den.

Tyme's already asking "why 4 minutes?" this show is so good to me. I have medical-related theory that I generally feel like the show will go for, but I'm interested to see how it plays out

they're on a date your honour. what if Tyme was hungry though. circling back to my "is Great just dumb" question because clearly it's going through Tyme's mind rn. I think it's just a matter of privilege in this case though.

Tyme's a nerd too. control issues peeking through!

(the need I have for a terrible cat soft toy is ever growing)

the juxtaposition of Great's (bright red) car against the dilapidated fence around Tyme's house…chef's kiss. I love that they're having a little conversation about their different statuses.

the way they perfectly captured the awkwardness of sitting in the car at the end of a date lmao. the heaviness/weight/don't know what word I mean in the way Great moved his arm was perfect.

(not really relevant to this scene but do we know how old Tyme is?)

Great truly living out the stereotype of held a guy's hand once and is already picturing their life together

it's interesting that they said specifically 4 minutes into the future but Great is clearly seeing more than that when he is with Tyme. they're gonna kiss and then Tyme's grandma is going to be standing there like :| OR NOT LMAO she's not even looking you can still go for it my guy

you may have ONE of the many cat toys we won

I know it was mostly a pause for emotional processing but good to see Great is the wait until you're inside kinda guy

my girl better be getting very richly rewarded for all the work she is doing to take down this gambling ring. I hope she gets to kill someone

NOOO. jump into the water!!

feel like the chief could've handled that better. and more privately. that was like textbook suspicious

omg that zebra artwork!!

okay I zoned out let me start this scene again. this couldn't have been a phone call? oh I guess not lol

couldn't even close the drawer properly smh rookie move

he's a cop!!! dude. not only is he grieving he's high af right now.

I'll be honest I skipped the sex scene so if it had important character work or something let me know

Tonkla's definitely using sex to foster intimacy I just hope he's doing it in a manipulative way

I guess it makes sense that they all go to the same school. a case for divergent timelines I think re: the identity of the deceased

smoking and watching traffic in his underwear, Great has the most relatable hobbies

ohhh progression!!! 11.02. two more minutes to go?

look at Great using 2 colours for his little brainstorming. now that is organised. I like how he immediately calls tyme like. maybe he's at work. (I think the "sex?" note should be screenshot and used everywhere)

"do not hurt her under any circumstances" except for she already got shot so

well I guess the good doctor is at work in a way. is this the most soundproofed open hallway in existence?

was that a look of recognition or not. I guess not. okay Tyme!!! we love a man of action with a brain.

ughhh is it next Friday yet.

[scarlet--wiccan]

Hello! I was wondering, what would you classify as the outfits defining the different eras of Wanda? Like her first, classic, Wada, and Dauterman outfits.

Well, I think you've kinda answered your own question. Wanda's had lots of costumes, but her most iconic ones can usually be attributed a specific artist's work on a specific book. She didn't really start changing up her look until the 90s, but I would say that her most iconic outfits, outside of the classic one, really are the Pérez dancer costume from Avengers (1998), and Kevin Wada's design from Scarlet Witch (2016). A lot of her other looks are more short lived, or just not well-remembered. The new one's made a big splash, but it's too soon to say what kind of staying power it'll have.

Some of those short-lived looks are actually my favorites, though, so I want to do a brief history of Wanda's costumes. This is only going to be from the main Earth-616 continuity, and, full disclosure, I'm cribbing most of these images from uncannyxmen.net's costume gallery.

The classic Scarlet Witch costume has had several variations over the years. She consistently wears some version of this outfit from the 60s through to the 90s, but there were often changes to the style and cut of her garments. She wore a wimple-like headpiece in her early appearances, and traded it in for the now-iconic M-shaped diadem in Avengers #36, published 1966. She also went through a few maternity versions of her costume during her pregnancy in Vision & The Scarlet Witch (1985).

Wanda's first major costume changes were actually the result of possession or mental manipulation-- when possessed by Chthon, Wanda takes on a ghastly appearance and her clothing transforms into a dark red bodysuit with a tattered cape, sans headpiece. [Avengers #186] Later, while under Immortus's influence, Wanda cuts her hair short, ditches the headpiece again, and dons a red-and-black costume with a dramatic purple cape. [Avengers West Coast #55]

Wanda began changing her look more frequently in the 90s. During the late run of Avengers West Coast through Force Works, she wore a red dress over a black one-piece, with a necklace, gloves, and boots-- no headpiece. This is the first real costume change that she made of her own volition. She also had a brief-lived costume which first appeared in The Crossing, that drew more inspiration from the magical characters in Doctor Strange.*

The Pérez design first appeared in the opening storyline of Avengers (1998). In an alternate reality conjured by Morgan le Fay, Wanda and Pietro both appear as sterotypical "gypsies." Wanda later adapted her her outfit from this world in a contemporary costume. This was intended as an earnest representation of Wanda's cultural identity, but it fell quite short of the mark. Alan Davis later designed a more conventional superhero suit combining many of the same elements, without being an ethnic costume.*

In the early 2000s, Wanda debuted a set of red body armor with that combined fantasy aesthetics with a superhero silhouette*. This what she's wearing during Disassembled, but it's not well-remembered, perhaps because of the understated color palette. Wanda returned in Children's Crusade wearing a slightly updated version of the classic costume, with a halterless one-piece and cowl-neck cloak. I think this is the version most people refer to when they draw her classic suit, so to that end, it might be the most iconic.

Wanda had another rapid succession of costume changes in the 2010s, starting with the knee-length red dress with built-in gloves she debuted in Uncanny Avengers (2013).* In the Uncanny Avengers 2015 miniseries, she and Pietro both donned new, but very short lived, futuristic costumes for a brief adventure into outer space.

Then, in late 2015, Wanda received her first solo title in two decades, and it came with full aesthetic overhaul. Kevin Wada designed a collection of looks inspired by witch-house and dark romance fashion trends. This was eventually streamlined into a cohesive superhero suit for other ongoing comics, with an ornate red bodice and jeweled diadem.

In 2022, Russell Dauterman designed Wanda's look for the second annual Hellfire Gala event, taking heavy inspiration from the silhouette of her Crossing costume and the darker, more ornate aesthetic of Wada's design. A slightly simplified version of this look became Wanda's main costume in Scarlet Witch (2023) Most notably, this design incorporates the same magical galaxy effect from her son Wiccan's costume into Wanda's skirt and hair, signifying her mastery of chaos magic. Whether or not this costume lasts, I believe that the dark, bejewelled aesthetic and galaxy effect will continue to define Wanda and Billy's looks for years to come.

*these are my personal underrated faves

[forgotten-retrouvaille]

Meta + recovery

Going to cut this because I have an insane amount of thoughts on this.

She was pretty much forced to recover and cope in different ways from what she would have usually done, and find support in something different.

Jill would have tried to cope by doing whatever work she could, or just keeping herself more isolated so she could work through things easier, because her trust and control issues were SO much worse after RE5, and she would have found being able to choose anything and everything for herself something she would have used to help work through the trauma she experienced.

If she couldn't be in the field - and this is what I already headcanon for her - she would have requested files and paperwork, anything she could work on and do within the BSAA, acting more as a backup/support agent, even though she would have absolutely despised it; just to help herself work through it.

Not only did she have the mental reminders of what she had been forced to do, constantly rethinking them over and over again, but she also had the physical reminders. Her now-blonde hair, and the scars on her chest especially.

She would have had to work so much to conceal those, just because she didn't want any kind of reminder of what had happened to her. She would have had to dye her hair - and every time the blonde showed through it was yet another reminder when she was just starting to forget; and she would have to redye it again all while working through her own reactions to it.

Same thing with her chest scar, she can't really wear the clothing she was used to, she would have had to wear shirts with high collars, anything she could pull up or use to hide the thick scarring there, because she didn't want to remember and she didn't want anyone else to see. Jill would have kept it secret from everyone except the people who already knew - and would never reveal it to anyone with the exception of very few .

Every time she got dressed, every time she looked in the mirror she would see that scar, and it would bring back those horrible memories she kept repressed.

There could be a strong possibility she would have suffered with a lot of body dysmorphia after the whole P30 event, like she would look in the mirror and have to affirm that this is her, it's really her, that she has control specifically and nobody else has control.

For three years she was the only one to hold onto her own sanity and her own humanity which had been taken from her due to the P30, she would have spent every night exhausted but unable to sleep.

During the first year, she would have held on so much to that hope and been the only person to help herself, every night would have been spent unable to sleep even when she went through rigorous training every single day until her body got used to the p30, so eventually she just got so exhausted to the point she struggled to keep herself awake.

She was the only one who would let herself be treated by, after every training session, and even after she was rescued, she wouldn't really allow anyone to patch her up or try and help her because she got too used to that independance.

Her trust is fragile and shatters so easily, it takes forever to build her trust but it's fragile, it can break in a split second. She never talks about the events of Kijuju except to those she trusts the most .

When it comes to her first half year or so of recovery , Jill was extremely hostile towards those she didn't already know super closely , and for once had the chance to refuse things, and it led to her basically denying all medical treatment by people that she didn't know , and medications were alongside this as well. A lot of them just simply don't work on her anymore after everything she's been exposed to , and even when it came to those she knew - Rebecca specifically , Jill would tell her that she could only come into her ward if she came in as a friend and not as a doctor .

She was pretty sick of all the poking and prodding and it didn't exactly help, especially after that was the entirety of those three years when she was being experimented on/controlled, and has huge , huge issues when it comes to control nowadays - she has issues when people outright command her to do stuff, and tends to be hostile right back. She often feels like she needs to know that she's in control of the situation, and that choice is still freely hers .

[hollow-keys]

This is kinda random. But as a fellow Jason enjoyer and classic Doctor Who enjoyer. What do you think about the difference in narrative treatment and framing of Adric and Jason? They both got blown up (in the 80s) trying to do something noble that didn't really mean anything (the ship wasn't going to wipe out humanity/Sheila betrayed Jason to the Joker for trying to save her). Adric is characterized as not well liked by his peers and Jason is but post-mortem the treatment of Adric is very much a tragedy. They didn't feel a need to aggressively (pretty much every time mentioned) victim blame Adric (as far as I remember I haven't done a proper rewatch, outside of that one bad audio drama that I refuse to engage with) to justify future companions. Not even future teen companions. Meanwhile Jason was seemingly loved but post-mortem was incredibly disrespected and victim blamed by the people who allegedly cared for him. Most mentions of Jason were accompanied with an element of victim blaming.

Also interesting that in Doctor Who the Fifth Doctor thinks that Adric's 'deprived, delinquent upbringing' makes him naive. (There is logic to it. He would likely to be more used to desperate people than malevolent in his difficult situation. Also in this specific case, his trauma seemingly involving a lack of food the robot body no food requirement would make sense.) While Batman says Jason is destined to be a criminal and then characterizes his death as recklessness when there is actually a stronger argument for Jason's death as being the result of naivete. Him trusting in Sheila.

I have thought about Jason and Adric parallels! I'm not familiar with EU Adric content so I can't (yet) comment on it, but I will talk about how the show deals with it.

Adric's death isn't really dwelt upon as much as you'd expect. There's no "Lonely Place of Dying" arc for the Doctor, there's no spiral, he even directly says that Adric wouldn't want them to mourn unnecessarily (which I assume means get lost in grieving rather than meaning any mourning is unnecessary). This is partly because the show, at the time, wasn't really concerned with pulling at your heartstrings too much and following through emotional development plots. Sure, you'd get sad moments, but they wouldn't really deal with them properly after it happened (Katarina's death, Jamie and Zoe getting their memories erased, Turlough's suicide attempt, etc). It's also because the Doctor is a very different, and tbh more emotionally stable character. He's not preoccupied with his own grief or (at least in the Classic series) at risk of going off the deep end without people around to ground him.

Batman, by contrast, was originally more stable but as comics got darker when the Comics Code Authority's censorship got less stringent and writers also actively wanted to fight against the perceptions of comics as childish, he became darker and more brooding, so the writers actively wanted to dwell on traumatic moments where Fifth Doctor era Doctor Who didn't. So part of the reason we didn't get a victim blaming arc for Adric was because they just didn't talk about it.

And Adric didn't have a replacement character to take his role in the narrative. Sure, the Doctor got new companions but none of them took Adric's role. They weren't trying to tear him down to lift someone else up like "See, aren't they so much better at being Adric?"

So yeah, outside a few scenes, Adric doesn't get dwelt so there's no real opportunity for the writers to victim blame him post death, but Jason became a ghost in the narrative that haunted Batman, and a character for Tim to supercede, which gave them a lot of chances to shit talk him, which they did take.

Additionally, Jason got resurrected (which was a decision that wasn't made for his character but rather to create a new villain for Batman) so to justify this darker turn, they made a point of going "See, he was destined to be criminal. Here's all this foreshadowing." Well, it's less foreshadowing and more backshadowing since it was inserted after the fact. Adric doesn't have that.

There's really nothing to motivate them going "See, Adric was always bad and he's worse now." He's just a character that a lot of people didn't really like who's only really remembered positively in the context of his death. Which is apparent in Tales of the TARDIS where Five and Tegan can't seem to say anything nice about him.

FIVE: "He was so..."

TEGAN: "Oh he was a nightmare."

FIVE: "He was daft and silly and sulky and... He was just a kid."

I've talked before about how I don't like how certain DW writers will make the Doctor straight up unreasonable to his companions or overly mean, and how Adric was treated def falls into that sometimes. Like yeah, him and Five arguing over going through the CVE to get home in Earthshock is in character tetchiness from the Doctor, but Five calling him a naive idiot in Four to Doomsday without giving him a chance to explain himself (which you brought up, and I thought the writers had him side with the villain for no reason but you do bring up a good point about hunger, I wish his motives were more focused on in narrative and he was given more sympathetic characterisation) and Five berating him for losing control of the Total Survival Suit in Kinda was just unnecessarily mean to me and I think part of it was because the writers just didn't like Adric so the Doctor didn't either I guess.

This moment is another case of that because that's not how you talk about a teenager who died violently in an attempt to save people, one who was also smart and determined (along with his negative traits). The writers just don't seem to notice it as mean because they don't like him.

Which is more in line with how Jason is talked about post death. "Yeah, we don't like him but his death was sad." Noteworthy that this is written in retrospect in an era where DW is much more concerned with ~emotional moments~ and it was written by RTD, who is A Fan of a Certain Generation who probably never liked Adric and can't bring himself to describe him nicely in any way (but still wants to use his death to pull at people's heartstrings), so of course Adric gets more of the Jason treatment.

And that, fundamentally, is the fate of Jason and Adric. To be disrespected as characters but have their deaths used as Emotional Moments (please get out the violins) by writers who don't see them very sympathetically outside of that.

I hope that wasn't overly long or meandering, thanks for asking!

[lyramundana]

Poly Minsung au

My oc for stories and drabbles with minsung throuple will be called Vivi or Violeta, because I prefer using ocs to self-insert in fics rather than myself. She has a specific physical appareance in my mind and personality, but I won’t get into detail unless it’s a full fledged story. You’re free to use Vivi to imagine it’s you. Now that said:

Vivi is the real boss in the relationship. Sure, the dominant role gets passed down from time to time because they’re all a bunch of switches (although Minho tends to take the role of dominant more often), but when it comes to pleasure and some trivial stuff, she calls the shots. She has the unique power of turning both of them into bratty, whiny babies that can’t take a single decision without her. Of course, this only happens when she’s around. If she’s not, the role of baby jumps from Jisung to Minho depending of the mood. 

A sexy example: Sometimes she doesn’t join in the sex and instead just sits back and enjoys the show while the boys are at it, pleasuring herself. Minho is railing Sungie into the matress, grunting and groaning like an animal, and the younger boy underneath her with his head buried in the pillows and outright crying out in both pain and pleasure. But as soon as Minho feels his peak closing in, he hears a firm, dark voice speaking to him from the seat.

“Don’t. It’s not your time yet”

And Minho, dominant, rough and so manly Minho, holds unto every single fiber in his body to not cum. Because it’s not his time yet. Because he may have the upper hand on Jisung right now and is free to break him, but in the end, it’s only HER who tells them when to let it go and when to hold it in. And if they fail, well...the punishment isn’t nice. He almost shivers when he remembers the two weeks they had to went through not being allowed to touch her in any intimate way, only hugs were permitted. They relieved themselves with each other frecuently and believed they could resist perfectly without her participation.

But like I said, they’re switches and the roles in their dynamics are constantly changing. And so when the point came where none of them felt in the mood to be on top or order around anymore, they realized their nightmare. Let’s say they make sure to not disobey her since then. 

A normal example: They’re usually independent and capable of filling their basic needs themselves, just how they’ve done for years when they all lived together, but somehow when Vivi enters the picture, they can become utterly useless without her. It’s not always of course, at least from Minho’s part, but there are time when they even ask her which type of shower should they buy or, the most audacious one, to dress them up because they “forgot” how to do it. She even has most of their food orders in places memorized so she can purchase them for the three of them because her big babies just don’t feel like talking to other people. When they’re shopping, they tend to grab her by the hem of her shirt/jacket unconsciously and follow her around like little ducks, or sneak inside the cart to be pushed around. They ask for permission. “Vivi, should I buy the blue or red one?” “Vivi, can we get puddin on the way home?” For fucks sake, she almost had to accompany them to doctors’ appointments like a mom.

@channieandhisgoonsquad

@moonlightndaydreams (tagging you on old shit because why not)

@sweetracha

Tagging my favourite minsung supporters bitches. Feel free to add your own ideas to this or share your opinions.

[altheterrible]

Vindicated (I'm not selfish, I'm not wrong)

I’m not sure how long I’ve been dealing with right shoulder pain and instability, but I remember it was already a known, old issue when I started working at the museum in September 2022. So let’s say it’s been 18 months. It’s probably been longer, but my memory is shit.

When I first mentioned it to a doctor in late summer 2022, she told me to take up weightlifting to strengthen my rotator cuff and help with weight loss (a problem for which I was not seeking advice). She did not offer specific advice to help me do that, and then shortly thereafter, she left for a different practice out west. I got switched to a different doctor, who failed to send a referral to PT for three months despite several reminders. When she transferred to another office in December 2022, I was blessedly assigned to my current doctor, who both listens to me and sends referrals and prescriptions out in a prompt manner. He had me in PT by the end of January.

I worked on my shoulder in PT until mid-April, when insurance refused to pay for more sessions, citing that my condition was stable. This was true, I did hit a plateau in my progress then--but my arm still hurt constantly, I could still feel what felt like bones shifting around when I moved, my range of motion was bad, and my shoulder would still “slip out” and lock up a few times a day, leaving me unable to lift my arm higher than my chest. Still, insurance said if I wanted more PT, I needed to see an orthopedic specialist and get a diagnosis that would qualify me for more sessions.

Seeing an ortho took a few weeks. I eventually got into a community orthopedics clinic at the end of May. The doctor I saw there was hyper focused on my weight and my self-harm scars, which he mentioned several times AND wrote about in my chart. He diagnosed me with “too fat and out of shape to lift her own arm,” essentially. He said all I needed was to keep doing the home exercises I’d been given in PT to strengthen my rotator cuff and soon I’d be all better. He said I didn’t need more imaging.

So I did those fucking exercises all summer. And yet, nothing improved. In fact, the pain and instability increased. It felt like my shoulder was becoming dislocated upwards of 20 times a day, leaving me unable to move my arm without severe pain. Whenever it happened, I’d have to physically push on my collar bone to get my arm working again. All summer and into the fall I muttered “my insurance company says I’m fine” every time I had to fix my shoulder, take OTC painkillers (that I’m not supposed to use because of my kidney function), or couldn’t sleep because of pain.

My insurance company’s treatment plan didn’t work out, surprisingly. I repeatedly found myself in tears due to the pain that simple motions cause me. My shoulder ached at a constant 4-5 on the pain scale, and the pain radiated into my collar bone, my top rib, and down to my wrist. If I moved my arm wrong, I’d drop what I was holding. I started walking around just constantly shaking my arm trying to get the joint to settle in a less painful way. There was no less painful way.

My primary doctor finally took pity on me in September and ordered the MRI that the ortho didn’t think I needed. It took 3 months to get an appointment. Three more months of grinding pain, tears caused by simple motions, and frustration at my useless body. Three more months of telling myself to toughen up and stop being a baby. Three more months of people rolling their eyes because I was being so dramatic about “a little joint pain.”

Well, I  finally got in for my scan Wednesday. The results posted Thursday morning.

The MRI that ortho did not think I needed showed the following: 

Superior tear of the right shoulder labrum.

Posterior tear of the right shoulder labrum.

Anterior tear of the right shoulder labrum.

AC joint degeneration.

Fluid in the AC joint. 

Tendinopathy in 2 tendons of the rotator cuff.

The labrum is what keeps the shoulder joint stable. Mine is torn in 3 places. Which means, all these months I’ve been saying, “It feels like my shoulder is dislocating constantly and the bones are grinding together”, they WERE. That is EXACTLY what has been happening. The bones that make up my shoulder joint are so loosely connected that they are slipping all over the place, causing injury to nearby muscles, tendons, and ligaments. 

For 18 months. At least.

I now have an urgent appointment scheduled with an orthopedic surgeon, because I might need surgery. Physical activity is a no-go until I’ve been evaluated and cleared for PT, and PT has to be done  incredibly carefully if I can even do it.

I’ve been actively trying to get this taken care of for a year, during which I’ve been in constant, grinding pain, sleep deprived due to being woken up all night by pain, and damaging my kidneys by taking the forbidden NSAIDs. I’ve made changes to my wardrobe--I wear front close bras only, now. I’ve changed how I sleep--used to sleep on the right side, now it's the left side only. 

And all of this could have been avoided if someone had taken me seriously last September.

Which is infuriating.

But also. The VINDICATION I feel.

I want to rub my MRI in the face of every person who rolled their eyes at me for “whining about a little joint pain.” I want to staple it to the forehead of the doctors who told me I just needed to lose weight. I want to put in on my refrigerator and point to it every time my sister implies I’m being dramatic or lying when I say I can’t do something, like put dishes on the top shelf or carry a heavy box.

Fuck all of them. Fuck every person who told me “just take some Aleve and get over it, it’s just joint pain, welcome to getting older.” Fuck every person who expected 100% from me on days my arm bones were grinding together and I had pain radiating to my wrist and my sternum. 

Including me! Fuck me and my stupid need to persevere! I’ve pushed myself so hard the last year, because “I’m not going to let a little pain stop me!” even though “a little pain” sometimes had me crying and stopping would have prevented that. Yeah, I was failed by a lot of doctors, but I think it’s also partly my own fault that the damage is as bad as it is--I should have set more boundaries and had the backbone to listen to what my body was saying instead of people pleasing and trying not to make waves.

Fuck grinning and bearing it. Fuck putting up with pain because it’s easier for everyone else. Fuck doubting myself and taking the word of doctors over my own lived experiences. Doctors know medicine. I know how much this pain is affecting me. If we worked together, imagine what we could accomplish! 

Yeah.

On a different note, I have more pictures of the inside of me.

Gross.

[methylphenidatedreams]

my dream last night had multiple parts that were all scrambled together, but i'll try to tell it chronologically.

okay, so: the justice league were on a mission on a spaceship/satalite, which the robins running amok through the station. and by "robins" i mean they were literally all called robin and were there as even younger kids because the "main" robin, or the one that the justice league thought was the only robin was a fairly young jason. there was also two infants dressed up like robin that had gotten toted around through this mess in a hover/drone pram. the robins were supposed to have been planting explosives throughout the ship but had gotten into trouble and scattered. the justice league found jason tied up in wires, missing half his explosives, and with two babies hovering over him and batman just sighs. so loud.

okay, part two: the infants have grown up into kids now and are running around getting into adventures with doctor who. their mom is donna noble who is still missing her memories. one day she follows them into the tardis and manages to convince herself that it's actually just a themed elevator that takes her to different levels like in a haunted mansion. anyways the "level" she is taken to is a destroyed castle in the middle of a hellscape where she meets the doctor who is wearing a crown made out of candlesticks and holding a candelabra while being chased by a dragon, so he is then nicknamed "candlestick man" by donna.

she manages to get back her memories, probably because of something to do with the dragon's egg, but because her memory has been so tampered with she gets like, dementia i guess and won't be able to remember the context of big emotional moments with her kids. but it also might have something to do with the doctor because one time when she's trying to pick up the twins (who are probably off fighting crime with their siblings let's be real) but forgets where she was supposed to get them at and starts walking through the park looking for them and finds, near where the viewer (me) just saw something disappear from the area. anyways, donna walks along the edge of a hill and sees on the shadow a giant stickman made of ribbons pinned to the grass. she looks at the stickman and feels the same discomfort you feel looking at chalk outlines of bodies and she knows that A) something terrible has happened and B) the doctor was involved.

donna continues walking until the ridge flattens out again and there is a tent some distance away. donna crawls into the tent and sees it's empty, but feels that if she keeps going all the way to the back she will find something or someone that's hidden in space and time. she keeps crawling but feels something grab her ankle and yank her back but i woke up before i could find out what it was

misc parts of the dream:

-the doctor had heart problems and went to a hospital that specifically treated space or magic related ailments

-a one point the robins (including the twins) decided to climb into cages so the 13th doctor could kick them around an abandoned department store because that's fun i guess?

-it was 13 who was in the tent in another time

-in the dragon hellscape there was screaming out in pain. his name was Abraham A something but he went by abe. he was of pakistani decent and some british government agency was using him to track down the doctor. at first he had done so willingly but now he regretted it and wanted to help the doctor and the nobles

-i don't know what the twins names and genders are (i thought they were a boy and a girl but the doctor liked to refer to them as "the girls!"). but they both had brown hair and light skin. there was one with a ponytail who was taller than the one with short hair.

-if i remember anything else i'll add it

[duhragonball]

JoJolion Ch. 50-53

This is the "Vitamin C and Killer Queen" arc.

I went over this a little last time, but the idea here is that the leader of the Rock Human smuggler group has come to the Higashikata home to find out who killed all his guys, and as he interrogates Norisuke, he starts explaining his beef with Yoshikage Kira and Josefumi Kujo.

But the audience doesn't know much about Kira, and even less about Kujo, so this arc takes us all the way back to the day they met in 1997. Josefumi and his mother were at the beach, and he wandered out too far and fell in the water without knowing how to swim.

What's important about this is how his mother reacts. Leading up to this, Kiyomi's not even watching her kid. Some guys start to invite her to a party but they see the toys and realize she's a mom, so they ditch her. Then she takes some pills and calls in sick to work, and they tell her not to bother coming back, because she does this all the time. Kiyomi says she'll "start working hard"..... tomorrow. We're left with the impression that she's made and broken this resolution many times before. Also she's got divorce papers in her purse.

Basically she's a hot mess, completely unprepared for the responsibilities of parenting, and when she finally realizes her son is drowning she... hesitates. I don't want to read too much into this, but it's like she's thinking she might still make it into that party she was told about.

Seriously, though, whatever's going through her mind, it's like she's actually debating whether this might be a good off-ramp from the whole motherhood thing. Just let nature take it's course, and she can go back to her old life. She eventually comes around and tries to help him, but the fact that she waited so long is....

No, wait. She didn't have second thoughts. I've just always took that for granted. Kiyomi just thought she had waited long enough for him to be too far gone, and then she called for help so people would find the boy's body and write it all off as an unfortunate accident. Holy shit...

I say this because when he gets taken to the hospital, they say he was in the water for like twenty minutes. He must not have been under for the entire time, but thrashing and struggling to get air. And we'll later see that Josefumi remembers seeing his mom watching him and doing nothing to help. For twenty minutes. Fuck...

Anyway, the doctor who take care of Josefumi is one Dr. Holly Joestar Kujo. She's less worried about drowning and more worried about a head injury he sustained while he was in the waves. There's a blood clot, and she needs help to remove it...

... from her son, Yoshikage Kira. She knows about his Stand, and I get the sense that she's done this before. Kira is annoyed that they'll be late for the movie they were going to see, but he plays along.

Couple of things before we move on.

First, Part 8 Holly is hawt. Just throwing that out there.

Second, look at Kyo's giant hat! That's adorable. I don't know why Kyo and Yoshikage are wearing basically the same clothes as kids that they wear as adults, but it is pretty cute.

So Yoshikage uses Killer Queen. Specifically, he uses "Sheer Heart Attack", which sends lots of tiny Stand tanks into Joesfumi's bloodstream to find and break up any clots. This is a reference to "Sheer Heart Attack" from Part 4, except the application is different. In Part 4, SHA was a remote unit of Killer Queen, capable of pursuing heat sources and destroying them with a powerful explosion. In Part 8, SHA seems to work like Soft and Wet's soap bubbles, except they're little tanks instead of bubbles, and they explode.

Kyo told Josuke a while back that Killer Queen also used bubbles, but this scene appears to contradict her. Maybe she just meant that the tanks were similar to the bubbles, and the image we saw of KQ with bubbles was just Josuke's imagination trying to picture it.

Anyway, Josefumi is out of danger, and Kira informs Kiyomi of this, but he gets the sense that she's more afraid than relieved. He decides to go see Titanic by himself, since Holly will probably be busy a while longer.

Flash forward to 2009, after Kira has learned of the Rock Humans and their Locacaca Fruit smuggling operation. He's been spying on the baseball stadium, and he got recordings of a ball player with a bad shoulder eating the fruit and getting healed. Now he's pitching fastballs like nothing was ever wrong with him, and he wears masks to all his games because his jaw turned to stone and crumbled off his face.

Kira is convinced that this fruit could help his ailing mother, and he plans to steal some. But he needs the help of Josefumi Kujo, so he approaches him and shares his findings. He does not explain his reasons at first. He just says the fruit could be worth a lot of money, but Josefumi already knows about Holly's illness and figures Kira must be too proud to say why he's really doing this.

Now that I think about it, it seems more like Kira was testing Kujo to see if he would volunteer for this heist just to repay Holly for saving his life. Because that's exactly what Josefumi says. He's been grateful to Holly ever since that day in the hospital, and I think Kira already knew this, which is why he approached Josefumi in the first place. He needed help to pull this off, and he needed someone who shares his motivation.

Also, Josefumi has a clever idea for stealing the fruit. His Soft and Wet powers can be used to graft branches from one tree onto another. So they don't have to bother swiping an entire Locacaca plant from Aisho. That would attract too much unwanted attention. But if they can distract him long enough to just steal a branch or two, and graft other branches in their place, then the Rock Humans won't even notice anything's missing.

Thanks to Kira's spying, they know Aisho Daienjiyama's routine pretty well, and I guess he always goes to the drug store at certain times while he's moving the fruit around. They manage to convince him that there's this super great brand of eye drops and he buys the last box. I'm not sure what the point of this is, or how they could have known it would work. I mean, Aisho got anxiety, so they're probably playing on that, but this seems like a long shot to me.

From there, he goes to an intersection and Kira arranges a motorcycle accident by using Killer Queen to blow out one of the tires. This, and maybe those eyedrops, keeps Aisho looking away from his case. Maybe Soft and Wet did something to the eye drops? I don't know. I suspect Soft and Wet definitely did something to keep Aisho from hearing Josefumi from sneaking up on him and opening his case. He quickly yanks off some branches and grafts new ones on, but this seems like noisy work to me.

I mean, he even takes out a phone and a knife so he can whittle the new branches off to make them look like the branches he removed. I mean, he'd have to do it this way, because it's the first time he's gotten to see the plant up close, but this must be taking forever.

But it seems to work. They take the branches and graft them to a tree somewhere secret, and now they just have to wait for the branch to produce fruit. In the meantime, Josefumi meets Holly. This is before she ended up in the hospital, but her mind is already starting to go. She starts out knowing he's a guest, but then she confuses him for Yoshikage, and thinks his hair is a new hat Yoshikage bought. She's distraught, but there's nothing anyone can do.

It's kind of bittersweet, because at least Josefumi got to meet Holly and thank her for saving him as a kid, but she's too far gone to really understand what he's saying to her.

Later, the boys discuss their plans on a sailboat and Kira says they need to stay away from their grafted branch until it's ready to harvest, and even afterward, they need to be careful, lest the smugglers find out what they've done. Kira notices Karera Sakunami watching them from the dock, and Josefumi has to explain that she's a girl he knows from school who has a crush on him, and she's been stalking him ever since.

This seems at odds with Karera's portrayal in the Love Love Deluxe arc. Not that I'd be surprised to hear Karera was dishonest, but she had a photo of the three of them together, like they were in cahoots. Also she knew the name of the Locacaca plant, and acted like she had something to do with the plan to steal it. And maybe Josefumi told her a few things, but the way he's acting here, it's like he barely knows her at all.

Then it turns out that the Rock Humans are aboard their boat. I don't know how this could have happened, since the Rock Humans are particularly vulnerable to drowning, and neither Damo nor Yotsuyu have abilities that would allow them to sneak on board like this.

Also, Damo says that the date is "Friday, August 19." That... makes no sense. August 19, 2010 was on a Thursday. August 19, 2011 is on a Friday, but this scene can't be happening then, because the earthquake happened on March 11, 2011.

I mean, this moment has to be on March 11, 2011, because the earthquake happens right at the end of it. Damo says it's been 10 months, 18 days since the boys stole the branches, and that would put us around... April of 2010? Maybe the months are in a different order in the SBR-verse.

The main point Damo is making is that it took them a ridiculously long time to even notice the theft or to track down the thieves. The branches that Josefumi grafted on were slightly heavier than the ones he removed, so even though the Rock Humans checked the weight before and after a transaction, they didn't see the increase as a problem. It wasn't until the plant wilted that they noticed the branches were different. Then they had to figure out who stole the branches, which basically involved looking up every sick person in Japan. The search took four months, but eventually led to Holly Joestar Kira, whose son just happened to be on the same cargo ship that carried Rock Humans and Locacaca trees to Morioh in 2009.

Damo incapacitates them both with his Vitamin C Stand, and starts torturing them by cutting their liquefied bodies with a folded 1000-yen bill. This is the same thing he's doing to Norisuke in the present-day, by the way.

Damo offers to let one of them live. He figures Holly's doomed to die anyway, so Kira and Kujo are the only loose ends. Even so, this theft has opened his eyes to the tiny flaws in his smuggling operation, so he feels somewhat responsible for this. So he'll spare whichever one of them tells them where the branches have been hidden. He figures Josefumi will crack first, since it's not even his mother they're doing this for.

And as he continues torturing them, Josefumi thinks back to his mother watching him die, and reflects on how he's been abadoned his whole life. So maybe it doesn't matter if he's the one who does the abandoning this time...

But before he can talk, Yoshikage apologizes for getting him into this mess, and tells him to make a run for it as soon as he has the chance. Then he bluffs to Damo, telling him that he has allies. Damo doesn't buy that, but Yoshikage reminds him that he doesn't even know where the branches are, so there's a lot more he might not understand about Kira's plan. Then he calls over Karera from the dock, and that confuses the Rock Humans enough to distract them.

I'm not really clear on how all this goes down, but the bad guys find Josefumi's phone with Karera. I thought it was on the boat, though. Yotsuyu subdues her, and then finds a pair of Sheer Heart Attack bombs in her hair. They go off, destroying pretty much everything in this panel except for all of the people? I guess? Killer Queen: It Just Works.

Josefumi manages to bring Kira back onto land, and he heads for the spot where they grafted the branches onto a tree. He confesses that he would have told Damo where to find it if Kira hadn't acted when he did, so he pleads for forgiveness.

He picks the fruit off the branch and offers some to Kira, but he's too far gone. Damo cut out his liver while he was torturing him, so he's in pretty bad shape.

So Josefumi uses Soft and Wet to cut up the fruit into pieces and force them into Kira's mouth. His wounds heal, but it's Josefumi's body that suffers in exchange. He realizes that the parts of his body that touched Kira's are turning to stone. Somehow, the grafted branch is producing different Locacaca fruit than before.

But it's not enough. Kira has other injuries that Josefumi didn't see before, and one treatment won't fix them all. Then the Aphex brothers show up to finish them off, and Josefumi has to fight them for a bit. I guess this tells us where Josuke got his fighting skills.

At last, Josefumi decides the only thing left to do is to feed Kira another fruit and lay on top of him. He believes this will save Kira at the cost of his own life, but he prefers it this way, for Holly's sake, and because he feels like he's been living on borrowed time ever since that day he almost drowned.

Then the tsunami hits, and the fault lines move, and Yotsuyu and his comrades have to abandon their search for Kira and Josefumi.

And that... pretty much takes us to the first chapter of Jojolion. Kira and Josefumi were buried together, and one of their intermingled bodies was discovered by Yasuho Hirose. She named him Josuke, and they later discovered the other body, which they believed to be Yoshikage Kira. In truth, I don't think it's quite accuracte to say that either body is Kira or Josefumi at this point. They're both blended bodies, and one is alive and one is dead.

Yotsuyu was lurking on the Higashikata estate because he was trying to track down the branch, and Josefumi, and any other answers he could find. And when he never came back, Damo seduced Hato Highashikata so he could infiltrate the mansion and find out for himself.

Speaking of Damo, he's still torturing Norisuke in the present, but we'll check up on him next time...