#where my parasocial girlies at

[planned-obsolescence]

Me to the Ayomy fic that was just added on AO3.........

[sugaggukkie]

BROOOOOOOO WHY IS NEW JEANS SO FUCKING COOL⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️

[punk-o-ween]

☆ PUNK-O-WEEN’S INTRO POST ☆

creds to @wrestlesource for the pfp and @riottsrph for the icons!! ur amazing!!

☆ _______☆ old users: selfryedxpunk -> imnotselfryed -> punk-o-ween (itll be changed back to this soon!!) -> motor-city-selfryed (will probably be back to this later) ☆ _______☆

i change my theme so often oops… PUNK-MAS WILL BE BACK SOON (around december i just love the username punkoween….)

----☆ go follow my bestie westie pookie wookie @dykekota shes so silly ^_^

🍎 hi im zari !! welcome to my blog! this is where i post about the only things that matter (my hyperfixations)...you may know me from my art side blog, where i post my artwork there! (or you embarassingly know me from my live blogs)

🍎 im a multifandom girlie! i REALLY REALLY REALLY love MCR (my chemical romance), green day, and WWE…they are my special interests! but you will find me reblogging/posting abt other things as well, especially good omens. i'm also now trying to get into criminal minds! thank spencer, emily, and penelope for that LMAO

----☆ my current hyperfixation is the motor city machine guns !! i could yap abt them forever... (send links of their matches if u want! trying to watch a lot of them) my tag for mcmg content is #zari watches mcmg! 🦇 and #mcmg

🍎 i usually live blog for raw, smackdown, nxt, and all the pay per views/PLEs they may have! the tag #wwe lb is where all of them are (beware LMAO)

----☆ wwe beloveds: cm punk, drew mcintyre, motor city machine guns, hangman adam page, the hardy boyz, aj styles, joe hendry, zachary wentz, edge, bret hart, shawn michaels, diesel, bianca belair, naomi, jade cargil, seth rollins/the shield, r-truth, cody rhodes, damien priest, kevin owens, aj lee, lita, rhea ripley, roxanne perez, iyo sky, liv morgan, zaria, jaida parker, etc <3

🍎 i do want do mention that i do kind of have big hyperfixations or parasocial relationships (not in a weird way) with people (mostly cm punk, billie joe, and gerard way atm) so if that makes u uncomfy please block me now 😭 (plus i do ship real ppl as a joke/apart of kayfabe haha, specifically punkintyre, piper and chelsea, etc)

----☆ other faves: laufey, radiohead, mitski, the beatles, queen // other interests: guardians of the galaxy/marvel, doctor who, the last of us, hamilton, etc

----☆ shoutout to all my moots! if you want to be friends/moots, just ask!!! i would mostly want it to be within my age range (13-18) but i don't mind adults being here as long as you know boundaries!!

----☆ special shoutout to @utterlyinsanee, my terror twin @ayeeitsali, @starrycourtss, @fantasticalleigh, @d-lanx, and @little-miss-dilf-lover u guys r some real ones, tysm for being cool :-)) (if this is weird pls lmk and ill remove u)

🍎 if you want to follow/catch me on other sites, i have a youtube, pinterest, discord, bluesky, and airbuds! all by the name of @/selfryed <3

☆ _______☆ shutting down.... ☆ _______☆

[sirenlulls]

sweet → r. keating (b. skeetz)

pairing —robert keating x fem!reader social media au

summary —where your boyfriend loves annoying you online and people lose their minds

it's so sweet, knowing that you love me. though, we don't need to say it to each other

liked by evehewson, ryanmcmahon_15, and 20,917 others

bobbyskeetz some bassist twat. lake. an ispíní mor. a homeless woman and a cat. bláthana. and some very beautiful lads

yourusername the cat was cuter than you

bobbyskeetz who are you again?

yourusername your ex 🫶🫶

username my parents

yourusername guys don't be fooled by the hard guy act, he bought me the flowers 😁😁

bobbyskeetz i'm sorry but i can't support parasocial relationships. this has to stop.

username i need a relationship like theirs

username sorry mr skeetz but i want to marry that homeless woman

bobbyskeetz oh don't worry about it lad i'm gonna take one for the team. saving the general population and all that

ryanmcmahon_15 you're a very beautiful lad yourself

evehewson a very pretty homeless woman*

yourusername marry me.

liked by gracieabrams, lilamoss, and 1,106,723 others

yourusername dolce and gabbana. food. a smelly burglar. a tipsy gal. a bathtub of drunk gals. vogue. banger. bassist twat. delicious strawberry.

bobbyskeetz thanks for the breakdown, didn't know what i was looking at before

yourusername you are very slow 🫶

bobbyskeetz that bassist twat looks rather dashing

yourusername whatever you need to tell yourself girlie!

bobbyskeetz whoa who's that in the last slide

yourusername pretty sure you said she's a homeless woman?

bobbyskeetz .....a pretty one?

yourusername eve said it first 🥱

evehewson get in line xx

evehewson ur so cool and hip

yourusername ur so rad

maisiehpeters mother!!

username cornelia street supremacy

yourusername lover is such an overhated album

username REAL OMG

liked by lizzymcalpine, bellahadid, and 2,102,611 others

yourusername happy anniversary to the biggest bassist twat in the world, the bane of my existence, and the real reason that taylor swift wrote lover (she told me herself) glad it's you who kicks me off the bed every other night ❤️

username wait how long have they been together?

username 7 years

username WHAT.

devonleecarlson ur so perfect..... and he's there! jk, lots of love to u both ❤️❤️🫶🫶

bobbyskeetz jeez, props to me for hanging on this long

yourusername .......

bobbyskeetz love you ❤️

yourusername love you too 💞💞

yourusername omg he can be nice in public?! 😱😱😱

sirenlulls mother and father fr

whoetoshaw will never forget seeing them out of the gig last year

sirenlulls OMG WITH HER GIVING HIM THE FLOWERS I NEARLY FORGOT THAT WAS SO CUTE

whoetoshaw literally made me believe in love.

username she's a 10 but she calls you a bassist twat

bobbyskeetz still a 10 tbh

liked by graciebrns, shayrudolph, and 20,981 others

bobbyskeetz can't believe it's been 7 years and you're still too cool for me. 💔 happy anniversary to the most beautiful person i know. you're my favourite person to play bird bingo with, my forever hiking partner (no matter how much you might complain), the only person i ever want to boot off the bed in my sleep, my homeless woman. please never realise you could probably bag a model and just stick with your bassist twat instead ❤️

yourusername WHAT TJE FUCK

yourusername my post just seems like shit now

yourusername i actually hate you wtf

yourusername no i don't

yourusername you might be a bassist twat but trust you'll always be my favourite

bobbyskeetz nicest thing you've ever said to me

sirenlulls @whoetoshaw THE CAPTION?? GIRL THIS IS SOME FANFIC SHIT WTF

whoetoshaw babes im crying and it's not even for me what is going on 🥹🥹🥹🥹

username "MY homeless woman" "YOUR bassist twat" im actually going to jump in front of a train

username shutting up the bitches who says they're together for coult real fast

username no you don't understand you guys are so special to me

username they're my babies (they're 23 and im 16)

[rentalboos]

Watcher has lost almost 100 thousand subscribers

Hi babygirl, thank you for your 6 new messages, I love that you think my opinion is this important, though I genuinely don't quite get it. I'm not even a Watcher fanaccount, like, I have maybe two followers who even know the channel. What beef do you have with me lmao Since you're so interested in it though, I'm going to give it to you! FOR FREE! Since that's so important to you!

Here's the tldr: You're on anon sending hate, so you already know you're in the wrong and everyone else knows it too!

Great. Now that that's covered, here we GO! My precious opinion that you value so much! For free:

I'm sorry it offends you that I have the 5,99 to pay them and am doing it, but like. Do you do this with everyone? Do you go into people's DMs (no of course not, you only hate anonymously, wonder why that is!) to yell at them about subscribing to Twitch streams? Spotify? Youtube membership? Patreons?

What about this offends you so? That a bunch of youtubers had to make a tough choice between "we have to stop creating the art we want" and "we could try and keep creating the art we want, but we'll need to get paid for it" and chose to try and get paid for it? Is the offense, to you personally, that other people will still get to enjoy the content they like, opposed to absolutely no one getting to? It certainly can't be that you, personally, can't access their content anymore, because, quite frankly, I doubt you actually like it very much.

As for your five billion questions for why this makes you racist: You singling out Steven makes you racist. They founded this company together and they doubtlessly made this decision together and the narrative that is currently spun of "Shane (the white dude) would never, his evil non-white co-workers are forcing him to!" is .... extremely parasocial, and wildly random and coming out of nowhere.

Except for all the parts it's not, because of COURSE. Of course the evil guy and the guy who creates content "no one wants to fund" and who now everyone calls "boring" and who now has viral hate tweets saying he's "dragged Ryan and Shane down", is the asian guy who's pushed for diversity on the channel from the very start.

Like, he's well aware that his shows are the least popular. There's a reason for that, sweetie, and I promise you, it has to do with the fact that they've focused on diversity and quality rather than shittalking in front of a camera. And I'm not even a Steven girlie, I'm a Ghost Files ride or die, baby!

But this narrative that he's "homophobic and racist" because he said in a podcast once that he chooses to stay friends with people who sometimes sprout ignorant views, that's like- Get a fucking grip. I know y'all haven't reached adult life yet, it is painfully apparent, but there comes a time in life where you'll have to realize that sometimes the people around you aren't as socially aware or educated as you, but in their nature good eggs, and you can, of course, choose to drop their asses, if you don't happen to be otherwise connected to them in an adult environment, where jobs and friend groups often overlap or they're part of your family or family's circle, but the far, far better choice is to be their friend and educate them. Because that's the best way the ignorant views become less ignorant. That's literally what he's been saying in that podcast ep, by the way. I don't need to "google" that and I don't need your twitter links, I was there when that episode dropped. I listened to it as I did the dishes. I was applauding Steven for putting in the time and effort and energy to DO that with people, because I oftentimes find myself too scared to have the conversations he is having.

Watcher has donated to queer charities. They sell queer merch. They have queer employees. Their fanbase is mainly queer. He's not homophobic, y'all are insane. If any of that would go against his values, he'd a) not be in a company with Ryan and Shane, because they wouldn't be having it and b) wouldn't stand up for, employ and cater to queer people. He'd be out with the homophobes, telling us how Jesus died for our sins or whatever.

He's also not racist which- duh. Before I even knew Steven Lim, I already knew this is something he is incredibly(!) sensitive about, he literally hates racism (And I don't know if you noticed. But he's very often the target of it, you absolute bufoon) and specifically went into Watcher to be able to help marginalized voices have a platform. That was his goal for Watcher that he couldn't properly fulfil in Buzzfeed. I know that. Because I was there from the start and actually listened to them talk. And it was stated and proven many, many times.

Y'all so eager to jump on a hate train and take shit out of context, it's pathetic. And "homophobic" good God, he had a book on his bookshelf. Wow. I have Harry Potter in three different editions on my bookshelf, I've learned reading with them. They have tear stains on the pages where Dumbledore died. You're gonna say I'm a transphobe if you see them in a photo? Gonna go ahead and call me, a trans guy, a transphobe now? Knock yourself out. Because I'll care about that about as much as I care about how many angry little kids are unsubscribing from Watcher rn: Not even a little bit.

You're whining like little bitches in random fan's inboxes, are throwing insults, false accusations and racism around to stirr the pot, you're coming for Steven as if Ryan and Shane aren't literally HORRIFIED by y'all doing this in their name to someone who's their close friend. As if Watcher would even exist without him, when he saved it from going bankrupt in their first year, when Ryan and Shane couldn't be arsed to step up and figure out how to run a company.

You weren't paying them anyway. I'm subscribed to their Patreon at the highest tier, because I know good art doesn't come free and I knew they were gonna struggle on Youtube views alone and I enjoy their content and want to help them keep making it. I don't expect anyone to be able to do that - And they don't either. They also don't expect everyone to pay or be able to pay for their streaming services. They're currently working on responding to the feedback and make things more accessible. They certainly didn't handle this perfectly and they certainly didn't want to make this choice if they had another one. Neither of the three.

You won't pay for it. That's fine. That's literally all there is to it. There's no need to sling this shit around, but you're doing it anyway. Not because you care, but because you're having fun with it. Well, go ahead. The more hate you send, the more I know I'm standing up for the right people.

[mothmanwouldnever]

Today has been wild. My family called me to check up on me in the morning, because of the news of Liam Payne’s passing as if he was someone I knew personally.

People I haven’t talked to in years messaged, because they remember me as the token “One Direction girlie.”

In the light of everything that has recently come up about him, it’s really fucking weird to comprehend what happened. This band is something that shaped 90% of my teenage years in a way that cannot be fully described. I have friends who I found through this band, I have a tattoo for one of their songs, my first understanding of a true community was through 1D meet-ups to listen to their new album. The parasocial relationship people had with 1D has books written on the subject, if you ask a directioner they will tell you where they were the day they found out Zayn was leaving the band. This fandom shaped childhoods in every sense. Many still believed in a reunion in a far away future.

If you weren’t in it, this might be weird for you and I get that, but what you’re seeing is inner teenagers grieving something they didn’t know they could lose or would care about, and many of them found out through an absolutely vile article. People are not only sad about a young celebrity’s passing, but many are for the first time reconciling with their own adulthood and mortality.

[randomfingthings]

lando lives rent free in so many people's heads in this fandom that i'm honestly embarrassed for them. like i'm not even particularly a fan of his, i like him well okay but he's not one of my faves, but he really isn't any better or worse than any other driver. it's like they've built up this mythical version of him in their minds where he is this awful person/terrible teammate/overrated driver or whatever and every time he proves them wrong their parasocial hatred of him grows and it's become this endess cycle. as someone who's kinda neutral on him it's a fascinating phenomenon to watch. like seriously people go outside and get some air and concentrate on just supporting the drivers you like.

'Concentrate on supporting drivers you like' Yes exactly well said anon!

Like understood cause I'm a Ferrari fan (sufferer) more than a McLaren girlie but the lando hate is so outta nowhere (he's about the same like you said, and even ranked higher with principles ranking than hamilton/leclerc 👀 and drivers ranking over both Ferrari's 👀👀(😭)) plus he has done basically nothing besides be silly and goofy, oscar/danny/ carlos have said nothing against him as a teammate to my knowledge

He lives so rent free, he may own the land 😂, he could charge the haters rent and make bank 😌

[justallihere]

AHHHHHHHHH

Before I get into my thoughts(I freaking LOVED this chapter): I hope you find this amusing. I took a post-work nap and was super excited to hopefully wake up to the new update... I then had a very strange dream involving me reading the new chapter but it took a very strange and morbid turn where a lot of people ended up dying in your fic? 💀 I was very confused 😭 bc at some point it wasn't even FW-related anymore, it just had the characters and they were all dying and then i was fighting for my life trying not to die???? I blame the mix of caffeine I had before my nap and my chronic pain. Safe to say i woke up sweating and very confused BUT i grabbed my phone and was very happy to see the notifications for the update.

Moving onto my thoughts (Alli, the way i was LITERALLY screaming throughout the entire chapter) Strap in for a LENGTHY ask. I just love you and this fic so much can you tell my parasocial relationship might be getting out of hand

Xaden woke up and was like "Where is my wife and why isn't she here and in bed with me so I can secretly cuddle and admire her beautiful face and hair 😞", man is whipped

Violet being very grouchy and uncomfortable bc she is in pain and probably didnt sleep well? Honestly so relatable bc i was like, same girlie same. I love how you continue to highlight how Violet deals with chronic pain and how people around her are stunned by how she continues to function (i.e Garrick) It's so realistic and I love it (looking at you RY, some days ppl can't just push through and put it inside a box all the damn time) Xaden is so in tune with her needs, he's frothing at the mouth for the chance to take care of her

“It’s called taking care of you. My sincerest apologies if you’re unfamiliar with the concept.” I FREAKING SCREECHED. The fact that Xaden verbalized this to Violet's face, it just shows how he is already starting to try to re-write the narrative between the two and their relationship

Even though you already gave us the snippet of the divorce convo, I still ate it up, I can't get enough of these two!!!!

Big brother Brennan coming in clutch and telling everyone that she can only stomach fruit so Violet doesn't have to do it herself!!!! wonderful detail and it shows Violet that Brennan cares and remembers. He's trying Violet!!!! But Violet still hasn't forgiven him and I am living for it. Make him suffer girlie

I am so honored that my comment has now contributed to this fic 😭. This will be my Roman Empire for a HOT second. Of course, Xaden was able to deduct that she's good with poisons, its only right 😌. I imagine this is the progression of Garrick's face during this (🤨🤯😧😳) and Brennan has the biggest internal grin 😭 I am a sucker for older siblings being proud of their baby siblings

DON'T PANIC, THE BOOK OF FABLES WAS MENTIONED. WE ARE SO CLOSE TO THE REVEAL!!!!!!! Brennan is stirring the pot whether he knows it or not. I'm cackling manically for the havoc that is about to be unleashed on their poor souls.

Did Xaden want to wring Brennan's neck for talking about the wyvern? Or he is secretly happy that he didn't have to do it himself. I remember there was an ask about how in the contract Tyrrendor wasn't allowed to disclose that information to Violet?

freaking frack... Xaden taking care of Violet will always make me weak. The fact that Violet lets him???? Girlie deserves to be pampered after the absolute shit she has and will go through

“Have you ever considered that I like putting my hands on you?” Xaden asked.  -- I would fold so fast, Violet is so strong 🫡. Xaden is so in tune with her nonverbal cues. She doesn't have to say a word and he's ready to be at her service. Man is down BAD for his wife and I am fully supportive of men being absolute simps for their hot wives

the fact that we get the backstory to how Xaden learned to braid and how Sloane MADE him redo it until it was good???? *chefs kiss* Of course Brennan would do Sloane's hair. He needed it as much as Sloane needed someone to do it for her. I am SOBBING. How do you keep making me feel things Alli??? I DON'T DO FEELINGS!!!!!

Deigh feels like a pseudo uncle or older brother to Andarana and I am LIVING for it. Andarana's like "Mom and dad need to bone so I'll make Deigh hang out with me" 😭

Of course, Violet comes up with a new way to implement runes. THATS MY GIRL! You are a genius for thinking that!!! (unless that's canon then please ignore me. I think I've reached a point where fanfics almost become canon for FW and I can't differentiate them rn)

 "Disappointment washed over him, entirely illogical; he liked the sight of her wearing something that belonged to him." You poor soul Xaden. Its only downhill from here. Emotions are never logical smh

"For that alone, Xaden didn’t complain when he took the gloves, and Liam just grinned like he knew it." I bet Xaden would murder her brother if he wasn't important if it would ensure her laugh and smile like that

geez. if you read through all of this and still answer me, thank you 🖤🖤🖤🖤 (I'm re-reading this and realized I actually wrote an essay....) I hope you can rest up this weekend and take it easy!!!!

I also took a bomb nap before posting this chapter yesterday, I love that we were on the same page about it 🫶🏻 (also it’s not parasocial if it’s reciprocated, we’re besties now)

So many beautiful thoughts here thank you!!!!! Xaden is a simp and he and Brennan are NOT prepared for Violet to find out secrets and start demanding answers from them. They should be more scared than they are

I like to let Garrick learn some new scary fun fact about Violet every so often, it keeps him humble. He deserves to be scared of this woman half his size (and as soon as he figures out that keeping her happy means Xaden will do anything, he’ll take so much advantage of it. So will Mira when she starts spending more time with them).

Deigh has been roped into this strange little family and he’s like “okay this is fine I guess” because he respects Tairn and Sgaeyl and also likes Andarna but is a little scared of her at the same time

Honestly the runes in the book confuse the fuck out of me, I tried my best, I don’t think it’s canon but Violet strikes me as the type to have all these extravagant ideas about how to use them except she’s not good enough with them yet to do it herself so she asks Xaden who will do literally anything for her

[simplydnp]

💼 and 🙅🏻‍♂️ for the ask game! :)

💼 what's your fave Dan and Phil project?

a product of when i joined but i'm such an ii girlie. known parasocial content creators dan and phil create an entire stage show about 'giving the people what they want'--implying but never directly mentioning what fans Really want from them, but interrogating it anyway with asking do you really want this? whats the impact being in 'control' of their actions? do you want what you want, or what they do? it's such a great personal deconstruction, as they were yearning for living their truths and worried about the outcome of it, but also for the audience, in recognizing the parasocial nature of the connection, but not demonizing it--instead reprogramming it to be about getting joy from their joy and seeing them more fully as people. but then! also meeting in the middle with them saying 'we just want to give the people what they want', where we just want them to be happy. i think it's taken time for them to completely internalize the full extent of that desire, but it was an essential step in the unfolding of their future. the era ii existed in is so important to their story--and their relationship with us. the way it led into their coming outs & personal journeys... augghh. it's like a movie level story beat. truly, no one does it like dan and phil.

🙅🏻‍♂️ Are there any videos/series on DAPG that you don't like?

in some ways this is hard because i never thought we were gonna get content again a year ago, so i'm really grateful for anything. however. i still have eyes. and ears. and opinions. i'll keep this recent as my memory isn't at its best rn.

the brothers video from earlier this year. i've ranted about it before, but it is unwatchable to me. i have a personal vendetta against the 'teaching dan to speak' video from gamingmas, as it was my birthday upload and it was extremely mid and boring and they hate me personally 😔 lots of people are coming out as sims haters and i'm just really indifferent about it. the only storyline i really care about is dab & evan's, but mostly as a proxy for dnp exploring themselves. i don't have gameplay gripes cause i don't play the sims. it's not my favourite series (though there are great episodes), but i don't hate them.

send me phandom asks!

[wetcatspellcaster]

Same BG3-> dragon age anon: you said you liked to talk about it last time so please give me your full opinion if you are passionate🫶🏽 many thanks

hello anon!

this is a very open-ended, and dangerous question! to be honest, there is a lot to dismantle and unpick about Dragon Age until there's nothing left to enjoy (I actually love critiquing it though, jokes on them I love to be a hater). But! If I'm focusing on the positives!

What Dragon Age is to me, is 'what I wanted skyrim to be when I played it'. This is no shade on Skyrim, it's just that that was the first fantasy rpg I ever tried, and I'm just not a sandbox girlie. I got increasingly frustrated with Skyrim, claiming I wanted to feel like I'd impacted the world and that my decisions had consequences. What I wanted, in hindsight, was D&D, but my friend turned to me and said 'have you played dragon age?' and thus a mental illness was born.

I honestly think BG3 knowingly borrowed many of the things Dragon Age is still loved by its fandom for. I also think it did a lot of them better, simply through the grace of being 10 years newer than Inquisition (and not being owned by EA!) But for me, the split between 'adventuring' and 'home space cutscenes', the focus on companion quests, relationships based in approval, and romances are all things that are done in a clear understanding of what made Dragon Age so popular. BG3's endings for each companion are more starkly contrasted and nuanced, but I liked playing Dragon Age and seeing my games altered depending on my choices. Again, here I'm not saying Dragon Age is perfect! I think the BG3 romances are more solid across the board compared to Dragon Age, and the only game that I think has a comparative '100% hot' rate is Dragon Age Origins. But the reason there's such a huge crossover in the fan bases is bc Dragon Age did a lot of it first! Bioware as a developer is heralded in academic video game criticism for being one of the first studios to encourage parasocial relationships with its fictional characters, and to use affective relationships with these figures as a way of deepening your immersion and the perceived 'realism' of a videogame world.

My other favourite thing about Dragon Age is it's buckwild wizard politics! Mages (in the first three games) are placed in 'circles', which are essentially magic school prisons bc mages are too dangerous to be out in society. The tensions surrounding 'mage rights' are the subject to many memes in the fandom, but I think it's genuinely one of the most interesting parts of the world that runs through all 3 games. The concept of the Circles really appeals to the part of me that occasionally falls prey to Dark Academia (and one of my fave authors NK Jemisin agrees with me, she used them as one of her inspirations for her award winning series The Broken Earth!)

I think the reason I write fanfic primarily for videogames is because the nature of gaming code and the way videogames work as texts means there is always gaps left by the slightly utilitarian approach to storytelling (dialogue options you wish you could change, choices you wish you could make, parts of the world you wish you could explore more directly). My first fic ever (!) was a Dragon Age fic about the Rite of Tranquility, an aspect of the world that is often quite plot relevant but then never really dug into bc of who the protagonists of each game are, where mages are cut off from the dream realm that gives them their magic forcibly, like a cauterised wound. I really loved this element of the story as a fantasy device, and I daydreamed about how that experience would impact an individual... 3 years later, covid hit, and a fic was born!

so yeah! I just think dragon age is neat! and in typical-me fashion, I like the way its wizards work :)

[royallygray]

incoherent as shit rant below, proceed with caution:

in the past 30 minutes I've become really fucking unhinged and like I'm releasing the darkness inside slightly more because I'm making statistically more jokes about techno dying which was and is a very traumatic thing for me and its definitely something when you literally do not properly express to other people that you are grieving so hard that your soul desperately hurts because you have one (1) person who is nearly as obsessed with dsmp as you were and you weren't close to them and it'd be weird to absolutely sob together because oh my god like

y'all this was supposed to be a post explaining why I should eat because I'm having more unhinged thoughts but genuinely we should also at some point address how Techno's death absolutely destroyed people

like

There are so many layers to it. Firstly, it's a content creator that you don't know in real life, so there's the weird parasocial thing going on there that isn't *that* socially acceptable but whatever.

Secondly, it was 2022 and we were like. *just* getting out of Covid restrictions

Thirdly, it was during the summer, where I had little to no contact with friends because I just fucking forgot they existed

and like I had friends that USED to be into dsmp but like. no one that had fallen so fucking hard. I feel so fucking hard. and the only one that had fallen half as hard as me I wasn't close with.

Also recently they've told me that they go by they/them which is the least surprising thing ever

honest to God it was surprising when they told me that their pronouns were she/her

Anyways.

holy shit okay I can't think anymore genuinely

this is

I don't expect anyone to see this other than Mysterious and Peri and honestly yeah

Um

like I have more to say about the god awful effects of Techno's death on me especially as someone who was a minor when it happened like ong it's so bad

just holy shit

but my brain gets more ADHD the more I like try to focus

it's like those movies or something where you try to focus on something but it turns into a bunch of puzzle pieces and then those puzzle pieces aren't actually a part of the puzzle but instead an association that are actually a whole NEW puzzle and you can attaxj that puzzle

I should delete this post

it's okay

is it

is it really

I'm fucking crazy holy hell I need food

okay. so

mission: get off bed

I had the thought this morning of doing a grwm but like on Tumblr through text right

and it was just "pants. where the fuck are pants. where the fucking hell are pants. ooh new pants. there's a tag. where the fuck is scissors. where are scissors. where are scissors" bro I spent about five minutes that I did Not have looking for those scissors

and then I was like "where bra. where the fuck is my bra- no not that one I want the other one because it's BETTER"

id be such a good grwm artist person

like

what do you mean you wouldn't watch that

I should be a comedian

Jesus christ

I actually sound high

not like I've ever--

actually I have

I have been around someone who was high

Jesus christ

also I'm gay as shit

I'm a chicken

bawk bawk

anyways I had to fucking tell this person that "no, edibles are not just gummies, they're literally cannabis. they're literally hard drugs"

in her defense she was getting over a bad breakup but eh like Jesus how did you

girly do your research

like I didn't know that edibles were made of cannabis but I knew they were literal drugs

anyways good on her for stopping when I told her

she was literally terrifying I was terrified for her she was not ducking okay like oh my god

anyways I gotta like. stop. doing whatever this is

so I'm gonna end this post

hi to anyone who made it to the end of this

say chicken waffles in the commentsif you made it this far

[heartsbreaking]

*  ANSWER  TWENTY - ONE  QUESTIONS  ! some questions may be ‘ ??? ‘ instead of answered.

NICKNAME  :  idk dude

REAL  NAME  : nico (i mean its my chosen name if y'all want my legal first name you TWO of my muses have a variation of it if you guess)

ZODIAC  : scorpio

HEIGHT  : 5′4′’

WHAT  TIME  IS  IT  ?  : 5:55pm

FAVOURITE  MUSICIANS  /  GROUPS  : arctic monkeys, olivia rodrigo, taylor swift, chappell roan, rafaella, sabrina carpenter, maisie peters idk dude i've really been vibin with girly pop pop recently but then i'll have days where i only listen to rock or musical theater

FAVOURITE  SPORTS  TEAM  : no <3

OTHER  BLOGS  : yes a few :))) they are listed in my site

DO  I  GET  ASKS  ?  : occasionally

HOW  MANY  BLOGS  DO  I  FOLLOW  ?  : 271

ANY  TUMBLR  CRUSHES  : i have a parasocial relationship to my mutuals

LUCKY  NUMBER  : 13

WHAT  AM  I  WEARING  RIGHT  NOW  : yellow shirt and my house sweatpants babyyee

DREAM  VACATION  : rn i just wanna spend a month doing nerd shit around greece or italy alone or with the friends i do not have but yearn for

DREAM  CAR  : i dream of functional public transportation

FAVOURITE  FOOD  : rn rice in all it's forms is really hitting

DRINK  OF  CHOICE  :matcha lemonade or coffee

LANGUAGES  :  english, used to be semi fluent in spanish but have lost a lot of it since i stopped speaking regularly, a little french, a little latin

INSTRUMENTS  : guitar (mediocre), bass guitar (also mediocre but slightly less mediocre than i expected considering i picked it up this summer)

CELEBRITY  CRUSHES  : melissa barrera, kathryn newton, aaron taylor johnson, madelyn cline, madison bailey, oliver stark...dude the list goes on and on i'm incredibly bi.

RANDOM  FACT  : i cannot be allowed on ebay dot com or i buy american girl dolls.

i stole it from @gingerspiice

[khaleesiofalicante]

Firstly, thank u for sharing stuff about yourself. I did wonder a lot what u studied and I'm glad that mystery got solved. Were you a little disappointed in realising that there was math in your field as well?

( Also a little out of topic , I know u dont like math, but can i make a case for it by saying that the reason math gets a bad rep is that it feels like u either get it or you dont. But once u kinda realise that math is like this one thing that is consistent. Like there are some absolute truths in here that wont change whether youre in space or earth , or youre an ant or a human. Those truths can lead to relations , now. I know its disappointinhg , frustating and agitating when u cant find the relationship you need for some particular question. But u can still try and find a relation, what u may end up with maybe not the relation u need but its still correct. You did find another truth , it maybe just wasnt one you needed at the moment. Math is beautiful like that , its like a prism that u can look at from all angles, sure the rainbow might come out under specific circumstances but its still a bloody cool shape and form. I hope this atleast makes you and maybe anyone else think of math in a little different way. )

Also you're the youngest that breaks a lot of my younger siblings stereotypes as well. It's so cute you're all earthy , would be so in character if your horoscope was a earth sign too. I love ur weird obsession with the number 21 .

I will take a chance to tell you sth about me as well for no reason other than u said it's okay to.

- I'm the oldest in my family, extended family as well.

- My name means a little brook or lake in my native language .

- I was the head girl of my school and my first and only high-school boyfriend was the head boy.( who i initially hated)

- i used to be really scared of darkness and ghosts and now i have learnt to live with them both .

- my favorite fruit ever is cherries.

- my life mantra is live and let live but sometimes people misconstrue it as i don't care , which isn't true and i hope people i love know that.

- im very very close to my family and will fight anyone who disrespects them.

- You're my first parasocial relationship that i am a little too into. I'm usually very private about my fanfiction interest so the first time i told my then boyfriend about how much i loved u , he was a little scared of my groupie behavior and told me to not be stan from the eminem song which made me a little scared of how i might be coming off. But u truly inspire me and my mom sends u wishes as well. ( the mom bit was a recent one)

- I'm also a nerd fighter ( we are very pro nerds and fight world suck) which is just the community that John and hank green have online.

- if u ever visit where i lived ( rn it's london, ) i would die and faint .

- when u write ur book I'm gonna buy 20 of them . 4 for me , 10 to give away to my loved ones and 6 to give out to stranger on the street because people need u to in their lives.

First things first. I'm not bad at math, I just don't like it 😂 I'm a humanities girlie through and through so not having to write an essay answer irks me. What do you mean I have to fuck around with numbers and you'll grade me on that??? No thanks!

Also you're cute for defending math so much (Other Max much???)

I was indeed SHOOKETH to find out about math (or stats rather) when I did my degree. And it was for a whole semester too. Fuck them, seriously. Should've warned me. But I like research so it was okay I guess :(

I'm a fire sign, bebe!!!

Thank you for telling me about yourself!! (You didn't say your name though or what you'd like to called here!)

It's cute that your name is called little brook. Max's name means great stream 🥹🥹

HEAD GIRL AND HEAD BOY???? WHAT FANFIC-

I am proud to be your first parasocial fanfic author person. And thank you for the wishes from your mom! I love wishes from mothers hehe.

I've always wanted to visit London (just not high on the priority list right now). But my sister moved to England last year so I will def visit sometime soon at least to see her 🥺

Thank you for all the love! I am trying to find more time to think about my book. It's difficult when there are so many work tasks and fics to write about. I need another vacation for it hehe. But here is a tidbit, there is a character called Radio and he is the best boy!!

Sending love 💖💖💖

[alphabetboyluvr]

hi Holly. I just want to appreciate u. u don’t have to reply but this is more just a message to you.

I think ur the best person I have a parasocial platonic relationship with. Not only do you write the best stories (my heart beats for BD) but you also are the best most good intentions, good morals, person.

I like that you constantly update us on your work, your thoughts, and other stuff. It’s like you’re the teacher who engages with her students and tells her kids “guys the marks will be released Friday”, doesn’t take a long time to mark, doesn’t bat around the bush, etc. You never alienate your readers which I feel like a lot of other authors do. I love how appreciative you are of ur readers and friends

Also thank you for posting about Palestine. This is what made me wanna write the message. Im currently typing through tears as I just watched a kid cry because he saw the bombing in Gaza. His trauma is already started and he’s just 3. Thank you thank you for being a good soul. A true girls girl. A true citizen who wants the best for her world. I value you a lot. I love that you’re another girl who has big boobs ( I have a H cup girl it’s fucking horrible but I love that I get to be appreciated through ur stories) , thank you for being so creative, thank you for just knocking it out of the park.

U deserve nothing but the best. Please keep your standards high because you are of the highest standard. I love u girl

<3

honestly i could have cried reading this, what a gorgeous display of kindness 😭 thank you so much.

this is a long answer so I'll add a read more haha

I think (in a way) I also have sort of a parasocial relationship with you guys - I'm often shown such generous amounts of love and support and it's a dynamic that I don't really know how to describe. we might not know each other and yet you all see such a huge part of my personality that a lot of people don't. you hear of virgo boy and of the little trips I'm going on and all sorts of intricate details and yet if you were to see me in the street, you'd probably have no clue of who I am 🥲 sometimes I wonder (when I go to army events / bts places) if I'm talking with people who have read my fics but we collectively have no idea. its a strange little life to live, but one that I enjoy.

in regards to Palestine, and the humanitarian crisis in Gaza, I'm deeply horrified by what we're witnessing and am devastated at my government (alongside other western nations) facilitating what's happening. if all I can do is spread awareness or write letter, then you best believe that is what I'll do.

I'm afforded with such kindness that it only feels right I should reciprocate that - I keep you guys updated because it keeps us all happy haha. I love doing teasers and getting that initial reaction from you guys, it's so much fun, honestly. while I write for myself, I'd be a total liar if I said I didn't care for other people's opinions. your input is important to me!!

I've friends in all corners of the world, of all faiths and diverse backgrounds, and the idea of any of them experiencing such horror for the simple fact of where they were born is unthinkable. the people suffering are daughters, sons, husbands, wives, siblings - they are people and they are loved and it is barbaric to see what is happening and not feel strongly about it, in my opinion.

we all deserve the right to safety, freedom and a comfortable living environment. i don't really think my views are that groundbreaking, but I'm glad to know many of you feel the same ♡♡

honestly the big titty agenda part made me laugh so much!! I've been wearing a posture corrector lately cause the girlies have just been a nightmare 🥲 and the titty worship in my stories??? comes from experience!!! you'll find someone who appreciates them, as well as appreciates you, I promise 😭

thank you so much for your message - honestly you've no idea how much it means. have the loveliest day!!!

mwah x

[starsomens]

Anon from the group chat heere

That girlie deactivated the accs she had for Bad Omens but called me to say that even though she's not into them anymore we can still be friends 😶 ingl, I get an off vibe about this situation that she just doesn't like them anymore cause Noah was seen with someone but I like to think that I'm a sympathetic bitch so I'll try to talk to her and tell her what you answered, thank youu, Star💋💋💋

🧍🏽‍♀️🧍🏽‍♀️🧍🏽‍♀️

With respect and love: your friends mindset needs some adjustments:…

I’m gonna go in a little little bit of a rant here because that is just ridiculous. If you can’t handle this concept, I don’t even think you should be into band or finding new band with Mail members if you’re gonna act this way.

Listen, I’m more than happy to help and I feel like I gave you an appropriate answer. However, I have to say something about this because that is not only stupid. It’s ridiculous and immature because you see an artist that is around on the opposite. Gender you’re just gonna not like them anymore? That’s so fucking stupid, here’s my thing unless you dated this person and they did you dirty why the fuck do you care. Respectfully he’s not gonna date you the closest you’ll ever be to him is probably in VIP. Maybe he comes off stage and touches your hand but just because he was around a female artist, does not mean anything, because how does that affect your life personally????

Are you gonna go through a divorce? Are you gonna fight for custody of your kids? Are you going to die?? No!

This is why parasocial relationships are so toxic because you see what happens then the artist, you no longer like them you don’t like who they are as a person and you don’t like their music and it makes no fucking sense. grow the fuck up and be realistic.

You want Noah to be your boyfriend? Find someone who is close to him because we need to be realistic and logical. It’s not going to happen the closest thing you’ll get is someone who looks like him

I say this with love and care because this mentality will have such a bad effect on people ans their mindsets. my thing is everyone has gone through it at some point. I went through it when I was younger, but I’m over it. I still think Noah is attractive.

will I be slightly sad once he gets into relationship? sure, because I’m delusional and I think I’m gonna have my Wattspad moment where he looks at me from the stage and picks me from the crowd But it’s all in my head. I know where to draw the line

Noah would not notice me would he ask me out on a date or give me flowers in a crowd of 1000 people. please be realistic for your sake, and for other people sake, mainly your friends.

So, with all the love and care, please reevaluate your choices, and the way that you think about celebrities and artist🤎

As for you anon, you get an off vibe because it’s something so off that typically is a little weird due to this kind of jealousy kind of thing being towards an artist who doesn’t know half our existence…. but I’m glad I can be of help against this is not to degrade her or belittle her but to try and make some sense out of this because really it’s not healthy and it doesn’t make any sense but I hope all goes well

[nonoqy]

i don’t know, i’m just wary of hannah’s intentions behind dropping them. it is very sudden to publicly cut ties with someone you were calling your brother a week ago, and yet she’s still following and refusing to talk about punz, despite punz’s allegations being way more serious. so she’s dropping george for drunk mistakes but standing by punz despite rape and racism allegations from an ex girlfriend…..?

hannah didn't even really speak about it yet, she said she'll talk about this when she's ready, and whatever bits and pieces of her opinion we get now are only bits and pieces. she's obviously very angry about all this and i would too if a man i considered my brother hurt a young woman and then instead of profusely apologising doubled down on saying I would never do this I'm not the bad guy She's doing this because of the hate train. you didn't plan for this to happen but it happened and now you need to say you're sorry 😭 so i think her anger is justified.

i also think she's completely shocked by this situation

but i also think she might've revisited some of her interactions with george and was like Oh. cause that's what i did with that bit of calling ludwig's mother during that one banter ep, i see it in a new light and even though i dismissed it back then, i feel really put out by it now 😭 hannah might feel the same way and this might add to her feelings <- this all sounds so parasocial LFBWHRJQJSJ ive just been introspecting a lot and asking myself What do women around them feel? and so that's where i ended up sorry if it's too parasocial obviously it might not be the case at all

saying hannah trusts punz and refuses to talk about him is a Lot like i just don't think the girlies trust any of these men Completely right now. she might speak about punz when she streams next time (cause i imagine she'll mention george at least) but To Me. i feel like george was a good friend to her and she loved him a lot. i think that's why she's hurting so much about his situation in particular. i actually don't know what the fuck i think about punz's situation myself, it's so unclear to me and i don't know what i would say either

and implying her intentions are to preserve her place in the streaming world is lowkey crazy. she stuck by them during the drapture and she got so much hate for it. she wasn't even close with them until after the face reveal and yet she stayed by their side. hannah is a very loyal friend. she could've easily distanced herself like a lot of other streamers but she didn't and that is exactly why her reaction right Now is more impactful for me. and don't even say this is more blown out than the grooming allegations and that's why she's doing it like No. like i said, even if we only knew about the andi comment she would've probably still reacted the same way because she just does not tolerate misogyny around her and that is completely valid