deafeningfanlight23

[deafeningfanlight23]

YOU'RE COOKING SM RIGHT NOW

BUT ALSO-

I LOVE THIS THEORY SO MUCH BUT IT'S SO SAD 😭 Uff Eclipse was and is such a TRAGIC character actually if you think more about it: Too insecure and stubborn to show anything vulnerable, yet filled with too much pride to even acknowledge them, making a hell of his own making as he had been pushed to the edge 😔... BUT HIS PSYCHOLOGY IS JUST DELICIOUS, THAT'S WHY HE'S BEEN MY FAVORITE SINCE DAY ONE >:D But tbh, I like V1 and V2 and kinda V3 way more but don't get me wrong, I like the current one too, it's just... THE A N G S T 😭🙏

TSAMS Theory: Solar Flare wasn't real

So, here's the thing. Solar Flare's final exchange with Eclipse, when they're waiting to die, has this very painful and bittersweet part in it.

Solar Flare: You are not a good man. You are not a good person in any regard. But-- you did care. Even if you could never show it. You are just like him. Eclipse: Who? Solar Flare: The first Moon.

Oof oof ouch my heart. The art folks did with Eclipse having Moon's hat here was *chef's kiss*

But, wait. Hold on.

How the fuck would Solar Flare know anything about Old Moon?!

Consider the timeline. Eclipse builds Solar Flare, steals his body. Approximately 5min later Sun shows up to kill him. Eclipse gets away, tricks Sun into destroying Moon's magic circle. With no magic to find a solution to the looming threat of being trapped inside his own head, Moon makes the decision to reset himself to split off KC, and his memories are wiped in the process.

Solar Flare met Moon a grand total of once, for about five minutes, to sabatogue Eclipse (Eclipse's NEW BODY?!). He otherwise didn't talk to anyone at all. I actually don't think he ever met Kill Code, even, which opens a whole other can of worms like "Was Kill Code even aware Solar Flare existed? Did he forget he told Eclipse to make them?"

So here's my theory: The Solar Flare that Eclipse meets when he goes into the mindscape, the one that's keeping him locked in a dying frame and reads him completely to filth with terrifying accuracy? That's not Solar Flare. Solar Flare is gone, deleted.

The person that Eclipse interacts with is himself. His own subconscious, which knows every little insecurity and doubt he tries to repress. Who knows his past, the things that fuel him, the things he's ignored or discarded.

It's not a completely baseless guess. Sun suffers from stress-related hallucinations, mostly from his guilt regarding Bloodmoon, but about others as well. And later on, with the rebuilt Eclipse, he straight hallucinates himself to talk to shortly before Lunar blows him tae fuck. The rebuilt Eclipse is post-star, but he's not too far removed from the person who was dying in a bunker orbiting the sun.

And... isn't that tragic to consider? 'Solar Flare' prevents Eclipse from uploading himself into a new body. He prevents him from escaping this hell he's put himself through. And if that 'Solar Flare' is really Eclipse...

...then he's holding himself back. He knows, on a not very deep level, that he's done. He won but it's a hollow victory, because the person who's attention he craved, his self-proclaimed rival, is gone. The person who's replaced him isn't interested in starting a new rivalry. Eclipse literally doesn't know what to do with himself-- he has no goals, no other ambitions. Full Megamind 'I didn't really think I'd get this far" going on here.

And the star is killing him. He knows it's killing him, and he makes an effort to prevent that... but what good will it do to keep living? The star was only ever a means to an end, a motivating McGuffin to keep Moon's attention. Eclipse wasn't meant to win, and he knows it.

'Solar Flare' is just a mask, a plausible external individual to voice the thoughts that Eclipse is trying to ignore, and a fabricated companion because Eclipse has never been completely alone like this.

Really is a bit pathetic, isn't it?

[deafeningfanlight23]

Such a silly gremlin :3

Some moons from my folder of moon

He stands like he doesn't know how to, like a cat being held by the scruff

The Court jesters approach you with spunk

Awe they're holding hands <3 (⁠◍⁠•⁠ᴗ⁠•⁠◍⁠)

Peekaboo!

[deafeningfanlight23]

Okay I respect your opinion we live in a democracy! And yes the last part with pep talk was stupid ^^' I'm done too cuz like I don't really like drama but nice to have a chat with you!

Do you support neopronouns?

[deafeningfanlight23]

Okay, i read the tags, BUT DIDN'T YOU JUST READ WHAT I WROTE?? ^^' Like I literally said "but if someone wants to identify with that or whatever, they can cuz it's none of MY business ^^"

Problem solved now??? ^^'

Do you support neopronouns?

[deafeningfanlight23]

OMG NEURODIVERGENT BESTIESSS LMAO XD

Are you non-human in any way?

[deafeningfanlight23]

lets Play roblox :D

Tell me your username. 🥰

OMG I'D LOVE TO 🤗 but my parents don't allow me to play cuz I messed up my Physics test. Maybe I can tomorrow tho?? if you have time of course :3

[deafeningfanlight23]

Of course you gotta involve my age into this :I I'm sorry but for me "Rat" or "Corpse" ain't an identity, it's... just not, but if someone wants to identify with that or whatever, they can cuz it's none of MY business ^^' We can have different opinions tho, so no harm is done! :D

And that with the pep talk, I didn't mean it maliciously, but it can come off like that so sry ^^'

But you don't have to act like that's the wildest sh*t you've ever heard :I

Do you support neopronouns?

[deafeningfanlight23]

i blocked anything that is y'know suggestive and nsfw BUT I SOMETIMES STILL GET IT CUZ THEY DON'T TAG IT PROPERLY 😃✋

do you have any tags filtered here on tumblr?

[deafeningfanlight23]

MY HOUSEHOLD AND WHOLE FAMILY, EVEN EXTENDED FAMILY 😭🙏 Like they're not COMPLETELY conservative conservative, but they have some ehhhh ✨expectations✨ and ✨standards✨😍

have you ever been in a conservative environment that you didn’t realize was conservative until later?

[deafeningfanlight23]

Bro SO MANY TIMES and I don't know why 😭🙏

Have you ever had a nosebleed?

[deafeningfanlight23]

I'm sorry BUT LIKE WHEN I KNOW I'M RIGHT THEN I GOTTA EDUCATE THEM UNTIL DEATH 😭🙏

is it better to be at peace than be right?

[deafeningfanlight23]

BRO I'VE SEEN THE ROTTEN TOMATO SCORE AND THE CRITICS' COMMENTS SO MANY TIMES FOR THE JOKER FILM JUST BECAUSE I WANNA KNOW THE STORY AND SOMEHOW FIND OUT HOW IT IS🙏😭

Like I'm obsessed with the movie cuz PSYCHOLOGY AND PSYCHOPATHOLOGY WOHO! >:D But I can't watch it cuz firstly I was unfortunately born too late so I'm considered not a fully developed being on earth and secondly MY PARENTS AND BROTHER 🙏😭

do you always look at the Rotten Tomatoes score for films/shows, even if it doesn’t actually determine if you will see something?

[deafeningfanlight23]

I'M SHY OKAY QWQ But nah, not that anime girl type of shy which quirky and adorable 😍✨, I MEAN THIS:

"😶🧍‍♀️🏃‍♀️💨"

If you've ever seen a girl like that, then you've seen a Squishy in the wild 😭🙏

have you ever made a poll?

[deafeningfanlight23]

My writing style issss:

SENSORY DETAILS, BODY LANGUAGE DETAILS, UNNESSACARYLY MORE DETAILS, A LOT OF DETAILS! >:D And MANY symbolisms and metaphors CUZ THIS GIRL IS SHAKESPEAR ✨💃

do you think you have a clearly defined writing style?

[deafeningfanlight23]

Okay we getting existential here- QWQ

Like I have narcisstic tendencies [My father is a diagnosed narcissist, my mother has MANY traits but I love both cuz they're awsome :D] and diagnosed ADHD and because I struggle with empathy A LOT and can be selfish and self-centered, I sometimes feel like a monster and not human QWQ I can be also manipulative but I don't really am aware at that moment and only afterwards QWQ And of course media portrays us as monsters and many think like that but many narcissists are really like assholes so I can't blame them really ^^' And my experience with ADHD make me sometimes feel like an alien because no one really understands that ADHD isn't just "Yeah sometimes I don't have motivation for things I don't want to do" or "Yeah I sometimes also can't concentrate and instead procrastinate" B*TCH IT AIN'T JUST THAT IT'S CONSTANTLY A STRUGGLE 😭🙏

Are you non-human in any way?

[deafeningfanlight23]

Yes??? I don't know it's complicated 😅

Like I will accept EVERY NEOPRONOUN BUT Y'ALL WITH SOME YOU CAN'T BE SERIOUS 😭🙏

Like "Rat" and "Corpse" or something LIKE I'M SORRY BUT B*TCH NAH, IT FEELS CONDECENDING 😭🙏 I will offer them a pep talk or something because it doesn't feel right to me :'D

BUT YOU DO YOU! ^^

Do you support neopronouns?

[deafeningfanlight23]

WeLl YeS, but then nah ✨ [I'm in denial]

Do you say "well yes" a lot?