#when i was 13-16
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Think i might’ve accidentally re-traumatized myself by looking thru old messages
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i'm dying my hair black and watching the new dan and phil video. what year is this
#ramble#actually i wasn't allowed to dye my hair black until i started doing it myself when i was 17#my mum thought i would look too scary so she'd only do it DARKEST BROWN#i do look scary with black hair but that's the point#i jUST REALISED I NEVER POSTED MY POLAROID HERE#i'm a lucky bitch who got the jacket before it sold out#bc i was 13 and 16 when they toured and couldn't afford the jackets or hoodies then#now i'm an adult with a job >:)))
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Yk I don't think ai art will ever really substitute real art. Like I don't think a future like that is possible, and if I'm wrong, we'd be living in the saddest, most depressing version of reality.
The thing about ai is that it will never be able to tell you a story in the way that an artist who actually drew the image will. Even my old drawings I did at age 13 with the wonky poses and huge anime eyes could tell you more of a story than ai ever could, even if it was just a very human story about a kid who liked soulcalibur iv and wanted to draw her ocs. If I'd only been messing with ai back then instead of picking up a pencil, imagine how sad it would be to look back and realize the art said absolutely nothing about me or my personality or intentions or where I was at in my life and with my skills.
It might look pretty. Maybe. But that's it. The result is shallow. You can't read into it, you can't think about the person behind it, because it says nothing about them. It's honestly the saddest thing. I hate to think about a future where people only want to produce ai art because it just sounds so empty. You can see none of yourself and your tastes and your history in an ai produced image. I think that's what people mean when they say ai art is souless and has no human behind it, because even if a human used the ai tool to generate it, there's none of themselves in it.
Real art feels more like an inescapable mirror. An amalgamation of the things you love poured into every line and brushstroke. A frankenstein of everything in the visual world that has ever inspired or fascinated you, built up over a lifetime of learning and repetition. And the more you learn and the better you get the more it grows and the more of yourself you can see in it, the more it looks back and screams at you the story of who you are. If your art doesn't feel like a living thing your hands have birthed then what's even the point?
#I still have a lot of my old sketchbooks(I was just looking through them ajkdshksd)#where I scribbled over the years. when I was 13. 14. 15 16 17#it's such a unique feeling to look back over your old highschool sketches and just. understand#yk?#real art creates a beautiful and unique connection with yourself#there's a relationship behind it#but if a machine produces most of the work for you.......#there's just so much you miss out on#I think the most valuable thing abt art isn't even how good it looks to others or even to you#but the relationship you form with it#and I just think humans need that#there's a reason why something like 'art therapy' exists#even when creating art is frustrating or when it doesn't turn out how you imagined it#the process of creating it forms a relationship and understanding of the world and of yourself#that you wouldn't get if you took the easy path of typing a prompt and hitting a button a couple of times#sleep.txt#anti ai#anti ai art#and that's not even to mention how much we miss out on when analyzing art#bc analyzing art made by a human can give you so much understanding about a person and the world around them#while analyzing ai will only give you more understanding of the machine. the program that produced it. not of the person#which is also really sad and cold
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i'm used to the "hal cannot be anything other than 13 and there is no room for nuance on this matter" argument but the other two statements are so confusing to me. what
#honestly if you see him as an eternally 13 year old character idc that's your own interpretation. do what you want forever#but i think it's a stretch to say he's ABSOLUTELY thirteen...#if anything he develops beyond the personality of dirk at 13 and becomes a distinct person in comparison#is growing changing and learning not indicative of aging?#dirk even says ''In the years since we've both evolved somewhat''#he does then say that there's a maturity gap which you could take at face value#but imo he has a lot of motive to paint hal as an immature version of him to distance his actions from his own#dirk is NOT unbiased so i personally don't believe him when he says this#do i think this makes hal 16? i'm not so sure because he IS still an AI and nobody can say how one would age#but i don't think he's trapped as a 13 year old forever like a lot of people seem to think
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The Untamed | Episode 36 [Drunk Lan Wangji And His Chickens]
⤳WangXian’s Favorite Scenes [19/∞]⬿
#the untamed#cql#theuntameddaily#the time lwj asked wwx to get married but he didn't understand#come to think of it lwj was doing some research on wedding offerings. why do you know about the chickens?#i'm sure that wouldn't be in the gusu rules...#like when you are ready to get married but you are widowed without getting married and 13/16 years later your almost-husband was alive#and you have to get drunk to be able to give him some fat chickens#but at the end of the day wwx is stupid and doesn't know#today i used a new filter for editing. i don't know if it's called that but 🤷♀️#wangxian#wei wuxian#lan wangji#my gifs#mygifs.scene
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i try not to let dumbass fandom disk horse take up any space in my mind but now on behalf of the percico side of the fandom that had to deal with that entitled negativity i wanna write a percico drabble
actually the smuttier and more offensive the better
#i’m gonna open up the inbox for just tonight for the smallest of drabble ideas. just a small thing. also i’m gonna rant in these tags rq#full stop i’m like. done with Minors Online#not like the 16-17 year olds that follow me & are chill & mind their business but the 13-14 year olds who debatably shouldn’t even be here#who just plow through all fandom/online safety & etiquette & don’t just behave like a Dumb Kid Online#but instead the worst breed of entitled inconsiderate leech to fandom spaces imaginable#just screaming ‘i’m a Minor xyz character’s a Minor i can leave anon hate i can shit on artists i can do whatever i want I’m a Minor’#like where are your parents and do they neglect you because you’re insufferable 🧍#okay damn that was harsh i apologize. i do wanna be the bigger person as an adult who like. works & goes to school & stuff#i don’t even care when these people bother me because it’s like…okay? but when they bother other creators that bothers me more#anyways yeah i’ll leave this rant in the tags and fandom tag it fuck it#percico#pjo
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*Ages of this post based on information from Jason and Tim's original runs in the 80s, as im still in the process of reading the comics and I respect original runs more anyway
Jason was 12 (pre-crisis, not contradicted) when Bruce adopted him at some point after Dick left, and Dick had left Wayne Manor for about 2 years by the time Jason died (Batman #436) making Jason 14 at death, to turn 15 that year if his birthday is August 16th
Tim is 13 when he introduces himself after Jason's death (Batman #441)
They have like, a 1-2 year age difference
Jason returns to life 6 months after his death, spends 1 year in the hospital, then 1 year on the streets before someone recognizes him as Robin, then 1 year with the league of assassin's before being thrown into the pit (Batman Annual #25)
A total of 3 years with Jason running on just instinct and muscle memory before being healed by the pit
Therefore, Jason, while physically older, is largely missing 3 years of his life
Jason is younger than Tim
Thank you coming to my ted talk
(Dont take this seriously please bcksbdjsnks)
#tim drake#jason todd#red hood#dc comics#batman comics#sometimes i see posts saying jason attacked a kid when referring to the titans tower attack on tim#jason is very much still just 1-2 years older than tim#at the absolute barest and most unreasonable minimum tim is a 16 yr getting attacked by an 18yr#as jason was 18 when put in the pit. im gonna take a wild guess here and say he spent awhile training and planning instead of immediately#starting the red hood arc#so for fun i decided to take the age situation to its extreme and say jason is younger lol#ever since jason attacked. Tim has been in a semi time loop to be 17 for the rest of his life#and is just getting younger than jason instead of aging. this is so sad#im like 100% “jason is younger than tim” has been said before by others its just so fun to me.#and i like taking a million pictures for reference whike reading comics and then getting to use those references#comic reference#OR. jason could've been 13 going on 14 when he died. which is so devastating to think about i choose not to#but it Is a possibility#timelines are so hard to think of without exact dates
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i had this in mind a few days ago while running on 2 hrs of sleep
decided to finally draw it lol
i have some more ideas in mind of them that i will hopefully get to get around drawing
#one piece#trafalgar law#monkey d. luffy#eustass kid#so the idea is like maybe they got to know each other as children cus they somehow lived in the same neighbourhood/got sent to the same#daycare right and the first day they met it seemed they already got like beef with each other#but its ok its their version of bonding :)#they definitely shit on eafch other with no hesitation#they still have their own respective groups (crews) but they just hang sometimes for no reason#like they get put in the same place at the same time. whoever is with them will be the unfortunate victim.#they still care for one another ofc just in their own roundabout way#i do still have some things i need to think about like do i still want to make law a sick boy#i mean i know i made him p pale in that drawing#cause im a sucker for whump ok#but then again waht am i making him sick with. is it gonna be chronic. is it just an unfortunate one time thing.#also if i make him to still be a sick boy theres gonna be a period in which luffys gonna be taller than him by the time theyre around#10-13 y.o. and then law just shot up like a beanstalk from 15-16. luffys gonna grieve. but its ok luffy you can be taller than him at 40#maybe#also the damn designs#law do you already have a beard by the time youre 16. it was not mentioned in the novel. i am conflicted.#also kids hair is fucking wild i almost cried drawing it#he doesnt wear lipstick in school. he does when hes hanging outside tho#luffys the most straightforward one i mean come on look at him#laws the one giving me headache cus fucker is canonically a 26 y.o man with facial hair#fanart#my art
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i love making trans headcanons and thinking abt hrt timelines and acknowledging the diverse lived experiences of trans people. many could benefit from trying this
#steph transitions as a kid + is on blockers by 12/13 and hrt by 15/16 i think#<- do not ask why solomon lets her do this there are hyper specific hcs at work that u cant imagine#lex starts (diy) hrt around 15-16 w/ help from steph i think. courtesy of ziggs weed and gender dealer#hailey @ 18 or 19 bc of her parents and then. well. scary to be more visibly gnc + change hard#some say that paul is still out there waiting for his egg to be cracked#probably late 20s-early 30s when someone finally tells him that estrogen wld fix him#much to consider#scraps
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I'm loving the polyamorous representation but does it have to be PEDOPHILIC???
#sadie kane#tkc#the kane chronicles#walt stone#anubis tkc#saltnubis#saltnubis slander#I'm looking through sadie posts because I LOVE HER#and I wanna be like#awwwww#but at the same time#ewwwww#sadienubis or whatever they're called met when she was 12 and he was... however old#they got together when she was 13#not to mention with a 16 year old too#like#Anubis is creeping on both of them#walt is slightly creeping on Sadie but Anubis is so much worse#do we think whatever happened with Anubis and Walt counted as Anubis grooming him???#idk#i just actually hate the way this played out#tw pedophila mention#pjo#rrverse
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is it okay to be a shotacon(to fictional characters only) despite being around 12-15 yourself Σ(っ °Д °;)っ
i feel guilty to be thinking dirty thoughts about characters i like that are my age (12-15) (┬┬﹏┬┬)
i really cant control my own thoughts huhu .·´¯`(>▂<)´¯`·.
There's nothing wrong with having those feelings about people your own age. And there's absolutely nothing wrong with having those feelings towards fictional characters. It's normal to feel those things at that age, and there's not anything to feel guilty about.
Hope you make peace with it, nonny!
#asks#anonymous#like it really is sad what that kind of mental policing can do to you#but its not gross to have a crush or be attracted to a cartoon character#and especially not at that age oh my god#i think i was about 13-16 when i was wilding out the most as far as fictional characters went#and it was fun to just be silly about them lol#me and my best friend wrote really bad self ship fanfics that we passed back and forth throughout the school day#we just had fun with it#sip answers
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Charlie and the Puppet. Charlie kind of gives me 80's goth teen energy tbh so I drew a lot of her design from goth fashion trends at the time.
#shes like around 16 here#charlie emily#the puppet#the Marionette#fnaf#my art#fanart#five nights at freddy's#honestly i kind of loved it when ppl named the puppet the marionette and characterized them as being this mastermind puppetmaster#think ab it... she/he charlie. bc im thinking about it#this is basically going to become an au huh bc ive got a LOT of personality hcs for the dead kids#i like to think shes that cool older kid that the younger kids kind of admire but really on the inside shes just pure panic#three of the ghost kids r older siblings in their own way.#charlie is the older sibling figure not bc she has anything under control (he does NOT lol) but because hes literally the oldest#gabriel is an older sibling figure not only because hes the oldest but because hes susie's older brother.#he puts a lot of pressure and responsibility on himself post-slaughter and takes it upon himself to take care of the others#cassidy is the older sibling figure of CC because a shes 13 and hes like 8 and b shes a little protective of him#oh my GOD i need to get to learning how to make comics bc the IDEAS i HAVE..
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I finally finished Dungeon Meshi and i love how the new Era of Fantasy in Anime/Manga brought me back to an old passion.
i havent bought a Manga in 15 years and here i am with my Frieren, Dungeon Meshi and Witch Hat Atelier Volumes getting excited to buy a new one, being involved in fandom culture and searching for fanart and cosplays.
i missed it. i missed me.
#Frieren#Dungeon Meshi#Witch hat Atelier#Thanks for bringing me back into Manga and Anime#I havent felt this excitement in a long time😭#It's like i'm 10 year old again reading Naruto learning the hand signs#or 13 and running to the bookstore to get the Elfen Lied collection thats on Sale#or 16 visiting my first convention#i already had a vocaloid revival this year when i went to an ADO concert but it really is time to revive little me her “cringe” interests#honestly being able to be excited about Anime again just makes me Emotional#manga#anime#I cant wait to go to a con to find stuff for the content i consume. to talk to cosplayers. share theories😭
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Ultimately I KNOWWW being born in 1997 means I'm not really a 90s kid, I didn't grow up in it, but I STILL do remember the turn of the century (however very very vaguely it is) and thus. People born in 2000 and later will always feel young to me. So I will continuously be surprised when I hear that someone I know was born in 2000 or later. Such is my affliction.
#speculation nation#back when i was first on the internet 2000s babies really did feel so young...#see when ur 16 a 13 year old is practically infantile... and my brain just never moved past that.#of course when i meet a 24 year old these days im like yea we r peers. of course. not much difference between 24 and 27#but My God... then i learn they were born in the year *2000*... and my entire life is changed...#im just being dramatic lol but it still does feel weird. ah well.#im the one with a 1900s birthday ;p so im just gonna have to deal with more and more people born later than that.#sometimes i do think about when im old and grey and having a 1900s birthday is a mark of someone *old*#not tiktok old. im already old according to tiktok. but like actually old.#if i live a full human lifespan i might be among the last of the 1900s babies.... u ever think about that...? it's crazy....
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Sonic writers write a comfortable romance challenge Level: impossible
#sorry guys im having a moment#mostly because fiona was just introduced in the archie comics and i am supremely uncomfortable knowing that tails is meant to be like#8 years old#i forgot how old fiona is meant to be (ig it doesn’t matter because she’s a robot?) but still#i dislike the ‘’canon ages’’ becquse looking at that#stuff like amy (who’s canonically 12/13) gunning so obsessively after sonic (16) is made so much worse#and it makes a lot more sense why sonic would not want to date amy#NOT SAYING THAT HE’S NOT ALSO JUST AN ASSHOLE WHEN IT COMES TO HIS TREATMENT TOWARDS AMY but that’s a conversation#for a different time#eggman literally calls amy ‘’child’’ when she’s first introduced#blaze is 14 btw. thought u guys would like to know that.#so anyways guess who’s gonna be reworking the entire ages timeline because what the fuck#sonic#cable’s txts
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if I said eisa davis' influence in making lmm actually write something rather radically progressive has subsequently inspired me to return to my roots of actually fucking thinking of making radically progressive musicals after a 3-year long hiatus in doing so, then what-
#thdjdjd i dunno like gjdjd#look warriors did something fucking weird to my brain#it brought me back to when i first was obsessed with WATT when i was 16#and hamilton when i was 13#like it makes me wanna write again#and now with eisa davis proving that Radically Progressive Ideas In Art Can Fucking Work If You Have The Balls#im um#really thinking about going back WHAHAHA#might rework Patron the musical into a concept album idea of sorts#side a being life as a filipino student who learns the ins and outs of activism and ndmos here#side b being their counterpart who is a writer that struggles against being indocrinated by um neo-colonialist capitalist beliefs#all that comes with prolonged exposure to the bubble of privilege in the phililpines#(especially the role that the US capitalism plays in it hahahahaha we haven't forgotten about that)#basically not exactly a princess and the pauper situation but um just two people on different sides of the same coin#and its meant to be an exploration of my experiences in college#both in terms of my activism#and me being made to mind the line at times as a communication student and a writer#its like splitting myself into two and making them butt heads PFFT but yea#and I call it Patron because Side A (Filipino) is inspired from the concept of patron saints ('who dies for us? who do we die for?')#(pronounce side A as PAH-tron with a roll to that R)#and Side B is um what are the privileges and pitfalls of foreign patronage?#(yes this is inspired by um some filipinos being so enamored by socio-economic privilege upon stepping foot in amerca that they forget-#where they came from)#anyways thats ny tiny ramble for today im gonna get back to wofk#personal shit#voila the return of the izzy idea rambles
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