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i love you royal trio (minus akechi)
#i was listening to the world we knew by frank sinatra while drawing this to inflict maximum emotional damage 😔#royal actually shot me fifty times in the chest and slaughtered my entire family#i’m actually inconsolable over the ending what the fuck do you mean akechi chooses to die of his own volition rather than be manipulated#god it’s just. his character actually makes me violent and insane. they’re going to drag me kicking and screaming to the psych ward#he never had an ounce of control over his life. not even once. he was CONSTANTLY being yanked around like a marionette#until he was disposed of as another pawn in shido’s plan#and then out of some cruel irony he was resurrected even though he did not want to be alive#for once in death he would have found peace—only for that to be taken from him too.#and bc he thinks he’s worthless and his life is so easily gambled away he doesn’t view it as a major dealbreaker when maruki brings it up#“do you really think something as trivial as my life should stand in the way of your decision?” yes you fucking asshole#what do you mean he’s literally fated to die in every timeline? definition of doomed by the narrative#there’s not a single version of his story that doesn’t end with him being slaughtered#GODDDDD he makes me violently ill i hate goro akechi so much he’s so fucking selfish HOW CAN YOU NOT SEE THAT THIS DEAL IS TEARING ME APART#i was so tempted to get the bad ending just so that he was alive ☹️#he looked so happy. he was surrounded by people who loved and treasured him.no shido. control over his life. the ability to choose his futu#TEARS IN MY EYES MARUKI WAS THE ONLY VILLAIN WHO WAS LOWKEY MAKING SENSE 😭😭😭😭😭#my toxic trait is that i think maruki was right all along 😔#ALSO SUMIRE AAUUGGHHHH 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭#the survivors guilt literally eating her alive until the point where she gaslighted herself into thinking she was her sister. insane.#royal was so good bro i’m so glad i endured 200 hours of hell just to play it#terrible terrible ending with everyone going their separate ways and ren ending up in juvie for months#akechi actually being dead in the good ending is so fucked up 😭😭 i thought there was some way maruki could bring him back regardless#not ren hallucinating him in the last cutscene too 😭😭😭😭 “i still see your shadows in my room” ahh ending#persona 5 royal#persona 5#ren amamiya#akira kurusu#sumire yoshizawa#goro akechi#lotus draws
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I just want to see him again.
#persona 3#persona#fanart#p3#yukari takeba#artists on tumblr#p3fes#persona 3 the answer#the answer spoilers#<- tags I never thought I would use in the year 2024#me when the 17 year old going through extreme trauma mourning the death of her best friend/boyfriend isnt making rational decisions#currently getting ready to fight the war on yukari in the answer on the side of yukari in the answer#I am not ready to go through this scene again but with good english voice acting#even with the honestly really bad voice acting in fes I still tear up when she says that line#anyway free my girl she did all of that but she deserves better anyway#me: I should try to practice drawing hands in a fun way like while drawing my fave characters!#also me: draws yukari having a breakdown
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a nuance that gets a bit lost in martin 'murder' blackwood is that while he's definitely not against a good killing, it's more of a fun couple's activity rather than true heartfelt passion, you know?
i mean, twice he's had the opportunity to have Jonah get shanked, and he foils them, even though he wants the guy dead. Like, murder is always an option, but he usually tries other, less direct methods first - in fact id say that his trying to be clever and moral still leading up to the end of the world is exactly what drives him to say, ok well fuck it then, let's get our murder on
#tma#tma s5#martin blackwood#martin#joos yaps#might've made a post like this before. fuck it#referring to 1) melanie making it quite clear she wants to kill elias for the s3 finale#vs martins plan#and 2) s4 finale of course#EDIT: some good points in the tags too about his most infamous Murder Moments being cheering Jon on#instead of doing it himself#when he can convince himself it's not actually his decision#i do wonder often what wouldve been the resulting arc if Martin had the power to end Avatars as easily as Jon in s5#if he'd been as eager or if the weight of the choice to actively do it would slow him down#if he'd stubbornly gone further with it to ignore that it wasn't changing or helping one iota#or if the guilt (if not for the deaths - for not being able to fix things) would lead to much the same result as it did with Jon
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I love how Spider-Man: Into the Spider-Verse said “Anyone can be Spider-Man”. I love how it inspired everyone to imagine their own Spider-People, saving the day in their own universes, with all kinds of cool, interesting personalities and aesthetics and mutations and life stories and relationships. We all put pieces of our soul into these homemade heroes. We had fun. We found community. And then Spider-Man: Across the Spider-Verse said, “Wow, great job! You’ve really taken our message to heart. Well, get ready for even more of everything you liked from the first movie and a new message to complement the first. Anyone can be Spider-Man… and anyone can be pulled into a cult.”
So now we all have to contemplate whether our lovingly crafted heroes would ever be on Team Mandatory Trauma Because Martyr Complex or not and why.
#i for one made a second spider-person (diving belle) right after watching atsv#who IS on team mandatory trauma for reasons that make sense given her moral code and its context#her world has eldritch horror elements that give some of her enemies a sharper edge#and she has had to use lethal force#in a ‘stays true to her strict morality based around compassion nonetheless’ way like wonder woman#she’s used to tough utilitarian decisions#she’s learned that no hero can save everyone from intensely traumatic brushes with mind-breaking corruptive power#so when miguel gave his big speech she was ‘yeah okay. i get it. sometimes shit just happens’#it was actually very enjoyable going through the character creation process#from the starting point of ‘WOULD chase miles and restrain him by force’#and then working toward ‘otherwise a genuinely good person and superhero who could be the star of her own series’#atsv#spider man across the spider verse#across the spiderverse#spider-verse#smatsv#sm: atsv#spiderverse#spidersona
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ALICENT'S REBELLION
#house of the dragon#alicent hightower#alicenthightoweredit#hotd#hotdedit#houseofthedragonedit#welighttheway#gameofthronesdaily#dailyhotdgifs#mariana does things#*hotd#photoset#must a gif have purpose? is it not enough to see a beautiful face¸ huge?#was rewatching this episode on the weekend and gosh this moment is so good#emily carey is such a star. she acts best when she's paired against rhys ifans#i think this is the first time alicent consciously decides to separate herself from otto's wishes. this and in ep 9 when she finally#tell him their hearts were never one. this one is about her body (he's asking her if she will see the king that night!!) and in ep 9#about her mind. she has aegon now she will make all decisions now#the bloody fingers is so visceral to me lol 'how it feels to be represented on screen?' fucking awful thanks. why do you destroy yourself?
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some snapshots of boba fett being a socially anxious mess in legacy of the force
facing some of the galaxy's most ruthless and hardened killers in combat? no problem 👌 having a heartfelt conversation in a room with friends and family? RUN!! 🏃🏃
"am i allowed to call my best friend by his first name when we're at his house? if i get the answer wrong, it is equivalent to me stepping on a landmine and exploding btw"
the thought of having anything like a family or social circle is terrifying to him. loneliness is a much more familiar and thus comfortable experience.
this is a sad one. trying to interact with other people in a way that isn't predicated on violence (whether for or to them) feels so alien and daunting to fett that he feels like he's incapable of it. (it's also one of the many moments in which fett is an unreliable narrator of his own character development bc what do you think you've been doing for the past three books, idiot)
and finally, one of the (several) moments in the series that implies he usually relies on beviin and/or medrit to handle daunting social interactions for him :`) he's very lucky to have them!
#boba fett#legacy of the force#sintas vel#goran beviin#medrit vasur#say what you will about karen traviss (she deserves most of it)#the decision to give the baddest bounty hunter in the galaxy crippling social anxiety was 👌#i feel like in earlier stories fett often /does/ come off as uh... lacking in social graces#but he's also generally interacting with people he doesn't care about and often actively dislikes#(and/or is going to kill in due time lol)#so of course he dgaf about how he's perceived#so placing him in a setting where he's surrounded by people he DOES care about and want to make an effort for...#it gives us an opportunity to see that trait in a different light#also: i hope this sheds light on why i couldn't stand the charismatic portrayal of him in BoBF#he's never been good at talking to people#and seeing him struggle with it is much more interesting to me than him suddenly being effortlessly diplomatic when the story calls for it
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Finally watching Smile 2, I'm a little over halfway through and I'm not sure that I'm liking it quite as much as the first one. It's very good still! Very freaky, I love the cinematography and the elevated levels of mind-fuckery. But I feel like the first one had a much tighter grasp on the mental illness angle, in regards to the symbolism.
#smile movie#smile 2#the entity is tormenting skye and making her look bad (trashing her dressing room/making her panic and yell at her dancers) but—#i liked the first one because the entity was much less involved and ROSE was the one ruining her OWN relationships#it's supposed to be a metaphor for how unprocessed trauma can rot you and eat at you#and the scene where skye thinks that she broke her leg again on stage is a really good example of that!#but the entity shouldn't have played with skye's mind to make her late. skye should have been late due to her own short comings#in the first smile rose systematically ruins all of her relationships (which were shaky to begin with thanks to that unprocessed trauma lol)#and idk. i just. like that better from a writing stand point#it feels like every decision has weight rather than the plot just shuffling you from one scary scene to the next#but maybe my opinion will change when i am done with the movie!! we'll see :3
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FINALLY!! At long last, I've gotten my hands on a Pumpkin Kitty, after a whole year of wanting and waiting.
Her name is Latte! (Short for Miss Pumpkin Spice Latte) You can also call her Miss Spice!
#I spent 10 minutes picking her out omfg#not even exaggerating. I was deciding between this one and one of the last 3 unstuffed PKs#altogether there was only 5 of them left in the store including the 2 stuffed displays#the other one I was looking at had a nearly perfect pumpkin eye patch but less pumpkins overall#and their face wasn't as nice plus the ears were a bit wonky for my taste.#tho it was really hard to tell which would be better while they were unstuffed and flat#in the end I chose Latte because right away she looked to have a sweet face. her ears were nice and she had better patch placement#including a couple full patches on her tail#tbh if I'd had the money I might have bought both because the decision was hard#the bear builder actually asked if I was alright while I concentrated on studying each of those damn cats#I apologized and explained wtf was up with me. she was very understanding#I've always had this quirk where sometimes it'll take forever for me to pick between plushies I really want#especially if they're both the same exact plush. because then I gitta focus harder on finding out which has the better personality#you get what I mean?#anyways this has been a thing for me even as a real little kid#I remember spending and hour-hour and a half almost every time when my dad took me to choose my monthly webkinz#“my monthly webkinz” god that makes me sound so privileged. it was the nicest/best thing my dad could afford to get me because we were poor#he wanted to spoil me as all good fathers do but that was the most he could afford and I was always so grateful and still am! but I digress#anyways I took way too long to pick which kitty would become my Latte#but I'm glad I had the opportunity to choose yet alone to actually see pumpkin kitty irl available for purchase#what do you guys think of her?#stuffed animals#plushies#plushblr#build a bear#BAB#pumpkin kitty
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2024 reads / storygraph
What The Woods Took
YA horror
a girl and boy are both kidnapped from their beds and taken to a wilderness program, to hike across the wilderness for 50 days with 3 other traumatised teens
when their two adult counselors are gone one morning, they aren’t sure if leaving them alone was part of the program - or if something more sinister is going on. especially when they start seeing things that cause them to turn on each other…
butch lesbian mc
#what the woods took#courtney gould#aroaessidhe 2024 reads#sapphic books#this is a good YA horror about survival and trauma#some interesting characters and weird and freaky horror situation - though honestly I would have loved a bit more about the mimics.#Though obviously the focus is definitely more on the interpersonal relationships and their own personal journeys with their shit#(csa; foster care; addiction; abuse) which I felt were handled sensitively#it absolutely makes sense that a bunch of scared teens with various traumas would make dumb decisions in the wilderness#but it doesn’t make it less frustrating when they split up AGAIN haha#though I have to say why does it take her 3 weeks to read this diary she found that might have info in it.#bro surely you can skim that in a day or two???#I liked the hate-to-love development of the sapphic relationship#the kinda fucked up nature of the other thing was interesting too.#love the cover too as always#also as I said I would - this is a SMP book and I donated a book cost to a GFM (latest one I reblogged)#it’s f/f and also m/f but the sapphic one is like. the main one#also she's butch in that the word is used once to describe her i think but not like an active regular identity word. if I remember
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link click yingdu ep 1 is truly the gift that keeps on giving the more you think about it the more layers you unlock. at first i thought the 'video call with phone in shirt pocket' trick is a pretty effective way of replicating their dives with like.. normal human technology without their powers and then i realised that's probably because lu guang specifically thought 'this is a situation that would call for a dive except cheng xiaoshi doesn't know about the whole time travel powers thing yet, what would be a good and reasonable approximation of that that i can spring on him rn'. also, we know this is not the first time he's experiencing this day because he was checking the clock before he proposed the whole video call phone camera thing, implying that he had the 'script' for this day just like he did with the anime convention, but even then he could only warn cheng xiaoshi about the guy behind him with the bat right before he was about to get hit - probably because cheng xiaoshi kept 'doing unnecessary actions' and messing up the timeline/lu guang's 'script' and forcing him to improvise. once again, lu guang's trying to protect cheng xiaoshi while also hiding information from him and cheng xiaoshi's failing to follow lu guang's instructions and putting himself in danger because of his own kindness and impulsivity - their entire dynamic moving forwards, captured in their first (arguably more like.. the 0th) 'job' together.
#link click#shiguang dailiren#link click yingdu#link click spoilers#yingdu spoilers#lu guang#cheng xiaoshi#you know this show's good cuz the first bloody ep got me writing a gooddamn paragraph about it (something i generally dislike doing#unless i got a demon i really desperately need to let out. idk im not really a metas guy)#(writing these always make me feel like the literature troll)#one other kinda funny thought that i had was like#when vivian was talking to cheng xiaoshi about scammers exploiting people's emotional weak spots like#'people's compassion for the weak' is explicitly about cxs and 'the grief of losing family' could also very easily be about him#which leaves uh. 'people's need for (romantic) love' (i forgot the exact phrasing idk i wasnt looking at the english subs)#like i was thinking abt this and then she brought up 'the person calling your name on the other end of your phone' and cxs immediately goin#'dont you dare hurt my FRIEND' is just. im sorry its such a funny transition. like sure my guy#i also like that the scammers knew cxs's name bc of lg's yelling through the phone i thought that was a nice touch#once again the idea that cxs's safety is the one thing that makes lg drop all his rationality and start making Poor Decisions#(and also confirms that he did Not have the script for cxs getting knocked out lmao poor guy)#guy honestly trying his damn best to maintain the timeline vs guy who's just really talented at creating butterfly effects#asto speaks
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I've been anxious for so long and so brave about it this year and I'm really hoping it will allow me to not have to brave for a while because. jesus fucking christ
#that job i had in july? i left it in august because i finally decided to do something i want to do#and not wait until i convince myself that something is 'good enough'#my anxiety was so bad during those two months. which was a shame because my boss was lovely and the place was pretty nice#but i made the first brave decision in a very long time and left to look for a job i'm passionate about#and my boss was so great because when they were saying goodbye she said in front of everyone that#she's sure some people there admired my bravery to just leave and pursue my dreams#and i could have cried right there and then it was so good to hear?????? i can't make brave choices and my anxiety is a bitch#so when she said that i was just. SO touched#and yeah an opportunity came along and i'm going to be working as an editor starting later this week!#so fingers crossed that i'm going to be less anxious and my brain won't ruin this for me because it's a really really nice opportunity#and i want to squeeze as much as i can from it without my brain getting in the way and making me see just the negatives until i get out#in general i just really REALLY want to stop feeling like a hunted animal in everyday situations. here's to getting there someday#it's mine my own my precious#not lotr
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people dont talk enough about how heartbreaking the marlon betrayal mustve been for clem too,,
this dude saves the life of her and her kid. takes them in has them patched up gives them their first hot meal in who knows how long. gives them a safe place to stay. possibly permanently. confides in her that hes trying to be a good leader but feels like and fears that hes failing. asks her to help him take care of the rest of the group. helps her get over her fear of dogs by asking her to trust him. and things go well. she feels safe. like this place could really finally be the home shes been looking for
but as soon as she finds out what happened to the twins. that marlon planned on giving up her and aj too. she immediately becomes a liability to him and he attempts to kill her for it. locks her in the basement to die by walker. then tries to turn the group against her so he can shoot her instead when the first method fails. and he nearly succeeds
then a majority of the group turn against clem the minute aj kills marlon. ignoring marlons mistakes but condemning aj for his. like clem wasnt betrayed by marlon in the exact same way he betrayed the twins. like she literally wasnt almost killed twice? and how long had he been considering giving her up? was it always some contingency he planned? did he truly want to keep them around and things only changed when he feared the raiders had returned? she'll never know
#i think about this a lot... the betrayal... clems deep trust issues... then they all want to kick her out (except vi aasim and tenn 💕)#when she was just as impacted if not more so than the rest of them. since she was the only one with her Life on the line#thats why violet fighting so hard for them to stay is so important imo and would MEAN SO MUCH to clem too#vi and aasim are the only ones who can see past the bullshit and realize that theyre safer with clem around#while the rest would rather kick her out so they dont have to acknowledge their confused feelings about marlon#like first marlon betrays her then the rest of the group tell her to get fucked and die. dont come back. we never want to see you again#but she does. and she saves them#personally i do think marlon had 'good' intentions but he was a scared and fucked up kid who made bad decisions#and continued to make bad decisions to cover for his previous fuck ups#but that just makes him interesting :)#and i like teaching aj the difference between people like marlon and people like lilly#all of clems 'wow i feel so safe here :) and these guys seem smart :)' personal dialogue around ericsons makes me 😭#she was so happy to be at ericsons. and they turn against her so fast when she was more of a victim than any of them#aj is a literal baby. do not treat him like an adult who can make fully rationalized decisions. hes a baby and he only knows survival#at least they slowly get over it after clem comes back (some take longer than others...)#but the lack of compassion in voting to kick them out is heartbreaking. she was heartbroken#and thats not acknowledged as much as it should be#posting this old drafted post now cuz it expands my feelings on clems broken heartedness about the marlon situation#it speaks#twdg
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queen guinevere and vanessa redgrave....... the women that you are
#thought this was a good day to post this#guinevere is such a compelling character that's been reduced to two extreme sides of an spectrum a lot of times#she's either a femme fatale or an ingenue#or simply a love interest#and all of that is SAD and BORING#she was not only a wife. she was a queen#i particularly love how this movie portrays her. yes. she makes a bad decision and does things that may not be right.#yet she is not cruel or a bad person because of it. she's flawed.#nor she is a saint- one damned or too innocent to know better that's kept by the narrative as only that. she's flawed.#she's also a tragic hero. she's not limited by black or white. she has all these beautiful and violent colors!!!#she has the power to both ruin and save herself#and i love that. she can be really interesting when writers care about her as her own character and not only as a wife or a lover.#camelot#camelot movie#camelot (1967)#camelot 1967#arthuriana#arthurian legend#queen guinevere#guinevere#vanessa redgrave#my edit#arthuriana edits
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The face of a little dog very Concerned that I am missing bedtime and torn between accepting small "snooze" bribes to let me finish my episode and bullying me into going to bed and COMPLETING the ROUTINE
#tiiiillllyyyy it's Saturday night and i am allowed to make a MILDLY bad decision#snooooooooze#matilda#australian cattle dog#1 year#she's actually being pretty good at expressing her urgency to check the time right now#kicking her little foot in the edges of my vision#going “wooooooo” under her breath#not painful or impossible to snooze but gently noting “hey you SURE” though at intervals#but also juuuuust insistent enough that when the show is#when the show is done#I'm going to bed#and indeed i am up on my feets completing the bedtime ritual now
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Sometimes I still think about The Owl House Gang all trying to watch ATLA together but then Zuko's backstory in The Storm retraumatizes Hunter so bad they have to stop
#luz is too young to have grown up with the show she just heard it was good#SHE DIDN'T KNOW GUYS#they all get super into it and the gaang and maybe even make some jokes about how Zuko reminds them of Hunter#and then suddenly it is Not Funny Anymore#they just straight up stop watching it because it was So Bad#and then months later Hunter is like '....... i really want to know where that show goes'#so they pick it up again#everytime Zuko makes a bad life decision Hunter is just dying inside#'your dad DOES NOT LOVE YOU YOU CAN DO BETTER'#season 2 is such an emotional rollercoaster#like zuko is figuring stuff out and seems like he's gonna redeem himself and everyone is getting so hype#because at this point they NEED to see this character get a happy ending because they have been throufh WAY TOO MUCH over him#and then in the season finale he regresses#the BETRAYAL#they are like wailing and rending their clothes like dudes in the bible#hunter just sitting there with his head in his hands#season 3 storyline with zuko at the fire palace is also massively triggering for him but he's being so normal about it#the rest of the squad on the copium like 'he can still turn this around guys'#secretly several of them have given up on him at this point but they can't admit that there's too much riding on this#and then zuko DOES IT but the scene is so tense that no one even feels like they can celebrate because they're all projecting way too hard#and then zuko redirects the lightning and they're like 'FUCK YEAH!!!!!!!!!!'#there is much crying at the finale#luz and amity kin assigned eachother as aang and katara so they're really happy when they get together#hunter like 'mostly this is making me glad I didn't have to become the political leader of The Boiling Isles as a traumatized 16 year old'#'can you imagine'#these tags were not supposed to be this long lmao#toh#atla#avatar#my rambles
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two things to think about when my brain is clearer: betsy comes to her mum and says she wants to see mason's body and apologise, and lisa's immediate response and way of offering comfort is to tell her that they'll nail the people responsible for his death. wondering if this is just because of their different methods of processing their grief, betsy wanting to face her own internal process head on whereas lisa shifts focus onto getting justice for the wronged, or if it's because lisa has been exactly where her daughter is right now, has stood by the bedside of the corpse of her loved one, and she already knows that seeing their body does not fix anything--it didn't help her process her grief, it only ensured that the very last memory of her late wife was of her lifeless, and she's protecting betsy from that (even if, who's to say, it might actually help).
secondly, and less tangible, but rewatching old carla connor scenes and her mental health breaking down over 'the badness, the rot, the evil' inherently inside of her, and there is such a fine line connecting my brain from that point to betsy in that final scene, whether it has any right to or not. sitting quietly at a table, feeling little of anything except sorry that she didn't make a different choice, and expecting to be hated for it.
#swarla#for the tag#coronation street spoilers#but also ... realising how much i love it when the drama comes from one person trying so hard to protect another#that it backfires and makes things worse#that's the carla connor special right there#she's so very good at it#and yet she can afford to - at least today - because the other adult she was protecting would not have made the same decision#but she understands exactly where the impulse came from (and she loves her. in it right up to her neck.)#ALSO: the becky and baby betsy picture on lisa's desk. just. okay. okay. okaaaay. 😭😭😭
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