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I've had some pretty rough patches in my life, and even with the ones that are long passed, I still struggle with those rough patches.
Each of those rough spots tend to have a person assigned to them, the person who struggled/struggles through the same thing with me.
It's so amazing to see that person smile a real, big smile, unprompted from something on the outside. Just them smiling because they're happy.
But it also sucks, because I'm not. I'm still hurt too bad to smile like that. I still beat myself up and hurt and hurt and hurt.
So even though I'm happy for those people, I'm also jealous. Maybe even a little bit bitter. Because they seem to manage it so well, seem to have gotten past it.
And I'm still stuck.
#mental health#just my thoughts from today#seeing old friends#and even current friends#just people who can smile#I'm only happy when I'm in another world.#when I'm listening to musicals far different from my own life (Newsies my beloved)#when I'm reading#when I'm performing#i cant smile just for the joy of being alive and well#because maybe I'm alive but I'm not well
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#startrix#starlight glimmer#my little pony#mlpfim#mlp fanart#fanart#friendship is magic#mlp#trixie lulamoon#the great and powerful trixie#starlight glimmer fanart#trixie fanart#trixie#trixie mlp#starlight mlp#trixie x starlight#mlp fan comic#starlight x trixie#mlp comic#mlp big mac#big mac#trans big mac#mlp trans#I should have invited Trixie! I'm just not used to having friends. When we had drag shows in Our Town everyone had to show up.#Is this a normal thing to take a friend to? Can you bring friends to a drag show or would that be like a date?#HAHA! A date! With Trixie! Can you imagine! Hahahahahahahha ha ha ha ha ha Oh dear#Give it up for our first performer: The Great and Powerful Trixie!#Holy fuck.#captainzigo#do not repost
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Things I wish women were learning from true crime podcasts: how to spot early warning signs of abusive relationships, how to escape abusive relationships, how easily domestic violence can escalate to murder, how incredibly unlikely it is to be the victim of a crime done by a complete random stranger as opposed to friends and family
What women are learning from true crime podcasts: I am in CONSTANT danger and every day I survive without being murdered by a serial killer is a miracle. I should react to everyone I meet with distrust and paranoia and live my life as if I am in mortal peril and if anyone suggests that might not be healthy then they just don't understand what it is to Be A Woman In Today's Society
#I'm about to get heavily downvoted on reddit lmao#for suggesting that it is in fact irrational to look under your car every time you approach it#bc you think someone might be lying under it waiting to slash your ankles#like cmon. that was an old urban legend when i read it on snopes 20 years ago#anyway i can't stand the like. culture of fear among certain women#and the way it's presented as being an inherent part of womanhood that EVERY woman performs
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❝Since when did you start liking me?❞
FORCE JIRATCHAPONG as PHOOM and BOOK KASIDET as VICHA KANNULA episode 7 of PEACEFUL PROPERTY
#peaceful property#peaceful property the series#บ้านหลอน on sale#haunted house on sale#th: peaceful property#asiandramanet#userdramas#thai drama#bibi gifs#book kasidet#force jiratchapong#forcebook#mlm#lakornedit#lakorn#mlmedit#mlmgif#mlmsource#dramasource#what if i say this might be my favorite forcebook performance?#i'm very serious they delivered it so well#i felt so sorry for both of them#ALSO#force in that scene with his mom when he knocks on the door begging her to let him go back? amazing tbh
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as much as i love sam knowing about destiel before dean does, there's something about "i mean yeah my brother and his angel best friend are really weird about each other, live together, co-parent a kid, nearly kill themselves every time the other is gone, stand too close and stare at the other's mouth while they talk, but i mean to each their own i guess??" that's so special to me
#it's just so funny#and when it finally clics he's like#OH#that... explains a lot actually#he's so committed to believe dean's heterosexual act#and you know what i respect sam for it#if the dude says he's straight then it doesn't matter he stares at men lusting! he's STRAIGHT.#i'm sam btw#i had a friend who told me for 6 months he was straights while he performed in my face Telephone by Lady Gaga#and also knew the entire loona lore#but he said he was STRAIGHT okay#i had the audacity (or the politeness ig) to act surprised when he came out#i'm rambling#sorry#destiel#dean winchester#castiel#supernatural#spn#casdean#sam winchester
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Jack Rackham is my favorite character in Black Sails because Toby Schmitz is the only actor who realizes he is in a prequel for Muppet Treasure Island...
#toby schmitz#Jack Rackham#no but for real the sheer surreal quality of the very notion of a 'professional pirate' is embodied by Jack#Silver who sings the song in MTI is not the same Silver as the one in black sails...he's not the same silver who rolls his eyes with utter#delight when Miss Piggy calls him LLLlllloooooooong John#I'm convinced that Toby Schmitz is channeling that Silver in his performance...like I fully expect to see him in episode XII or whatever#with a long boat full of spanish gold sinking and still rowing and singing and leaving em wanting more#because that's showmanship baby#black Sails#muppet treasure island
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Buggy the Clown || Anime vs. Live Action comparison shots
#One Piece#opgraphics#One Piece Live Action#Buggy#Buggy the Clown#OPLA#oplaedit#Jeff Ward#*mine#good on 'em for keeping this iconic scene in lmao#but didn't care for how they changed it to Luffy having the idea to separate and lock up Buggy's body parts#when it was actually Nami who thought of the idea in the manga#like she STOLE and tied up Buggy's body parts like the THIEF that she is#why tf would they change that sheesh 🙄#ANYWAY i can't believe that the OPLA turned Buggy into the most celebrated and hated character here on this hellsite#i mean i need y'all to know that he is really just a dumb pathetic loser clown whose true strength lies in riding off others' coattails#and while i'm still not a fan of the live action i did surprisingly enjoy Jeff Ward's performance as Buggy
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yes i have personal & intimate reasons for my own (lack of) religious/supernatural beliefs, but it's not dishonest to admit: i am also an atheist bc at no point in my life have i, after completing a slightly unpleasant task, been witness to an angel/imp/sprite/devil/entity-of-any-kind manifesting in all their glory to offer me a pat on the head and a little plastic baggy of crackers (by way of encouragement/reward).
call me childish but in my heart of hearts i cannot truly participate in a belief system that tolerates such negligence
#ok u are free to believe in angels who perform miracles very very rarely when no one is watching#and i am free to disbelieve (and be disappointed and judgemental) in angels who (fail to) perform boring acts of mild encouragement#look if a spiritual being & divine messenger isn't gonna be my imaginary friend when i'm 7 years old and having a hard day#then what is the goshdarn POINT of yall?#blah blah blah revelations & prophecies. if you can't show up sit down shut up and comfort a lonely 2nd grader having a 1-person tea party#then u aren't qualified for any divine duty nonsense. gtfo
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Outro: TEAR
© namuspromised
#I’m rapline enthusiast first and human second#min yoongi#jung hoseok#kim namjoon#bts#btsgif#dailybts#dailybangtan#userbangtan#cyphernet#usersky#annietrack#userdimple#userpat#tuserandi#uservans#useremmeline#*mine#teared paper would probably worked better but i love this shattered glass effect#i'm only midly satisfied with this but here we go#i have to finally let out my new thoughts about this performance!#in every rapline performance rapline always sticks together#I KNOW because i giffed so most of their performances and it's so easy to find moments with at least two of them#BUT TEAR?#i always complained i can't get them in one frame properly and it's like on purpose?!#AND I THOUGHT WELL IT'S LIKE THE LYRICS#im so stupid!#they rap about the tear and going different paths and everything that comes with this song#OF COURSE THEY ARE APART IN THE PERFORMANCE#they come togather only at the same end when hobi finishes
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"what do hands mean about a character?"
Their hands mean they love eachother
(webcomic)
#i almost wrote 'source' instead of 'webcomic'#that's a little twitter brain rot right there ngl#it's so bad on twitter rn yall like#straight up isn't showing my posts to my followers anymore#and art in general does. so much worse when it's actually the artist posting them#like provably art performs better when the artist pretends they stole it...#so so so glad I'm still on tumblr LMFAO#every time i use twitter i take psychic damage#'ohhhh why do you still use it' everyone is asking me this#my job. is to post art#kinda gotta post#I mean. ok that's not my job#you know this and I know this#but it's an important part of my career#its gonna be my job after i leave webtoon tho#god i hope that works#im so scared#LMAOOOO#anyways. these hands look good as hell#i think all the hands i draw look good#caus i love hands#but i loooove drawing hand holding...#the amount you can say with how a hand touches another.#im gonna be thriving with wwl#cause they have to hold hands or hell die#pump it into my veins#ok i can tell my bf js getting annoyed ive had my phone on for 3 hours in bed by#time and time again#adam and Steve#webtoon originals
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KAZUHA | 240901 • 1-800-HOT-N-FUN @ MCOUNTDOWN
#kazuha#nakamura kazuha#le sserafim#femaleidolsedit#femaleidols#femadolsedit#idolady#lesserafimnet#lesserafimedit#dazzlingidolsedit#a9gifs#flashing tw#*ccarly#missed this performance when it came out apparently. only realized after i saw a clip of her fancam on twt akljsdfklsdf#so i'm late but oh well. she's so pretty
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|| masterpost || previous || next ||
yeah i wasn't kidding about the new update schedule, lol.
but finally, we get to go get into the meat of this story i've been looking forward to for so long! oh but i don't know where to even begin-- oh? what's this? a poll?
you have one week to choose what - or, rather, who you'd like to get to know better first~
#rottmnt#rise of the tmnt#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#rottmnt donatello#rottmnt casey jr#rottmnt future leo#live life au#lee's art#me when i'm indecisive and the story is a smidge too flexible#also YEAH SORRY I GOT TOO FUCKING ANXIOUS AND MENTALLY ILL TO POST THIS ANY EARLIER#YALL BETTER SHARE THIS AROUND BECAUSE I WILL SOB IF THIS ONE PERFORMS AS BAD AS THE LAST ONE--
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I've had this thought swirling in the back of my head for a while, but it's finally congealed enough that I think I can make a coherent pitch, which is: I think RWBY's problems with the more vitriolic part of its fanbase partially stems from the fact that RWBY is a deconstruction that doesn't advertise it's a deconstruction.
RWBY's status as a deconstruction is pretty textbook. It takes apart standard fantasy, shounen, and anime tropes in order to analyze them and their deeper meaning and then reassembles them in new and interesting ways for the plot/characters/series. Thing is, it never says that outright in promotional material, which can lead to later outrage in fans.
See, unless their way of discovering new shows is to close their eyes and stab their finger at random, most people tend to choose series to watch/read based on expectations. Maybe a friend said they'll like it because it has [insert thing], maybe they read the summary and were intrigued, maybe they thought the poster/cover art was cool, whatever. These small pieces of information are generally enough for people to make a snap-judgment of the style and genre of the series, which they can then gauge against their personal tastes and decide whether or not they want to try.
Most of the time, this works just fine. Well-written deconstructions also generally give the viewers some warning/buildup before they take a hard swerve. See Madoka Magica: the magical girl paradigm is shaded by the possibility of death as soon as we're introduced to it, then there's an onscreen death with blood, and then a few episodes later we eventually realize the Faustian bargain of it all. Even innocent viewers who stumbled into watching it, unaware of the show's reputation, would go "Oh, wait, this is not going in the direction magical girl shows usually go" by a third of the way through.
The thing is, with RWBY, this does not happen unless you're paying a lot of attention and/or looking for it. And neither the cover art nor the summary nor, I believe, the fanbase gives a lot of warning about the swerves ahead.
In fact, RWBY initially bills itself as a pretty standard shounen anime. The main protagonist is hinted to have Special Powers and gets into the Magic Monster-Hunting School in the first episode, and the first two-and-a-half seasons are taken up by her and her friends' superhero-esque slice-of-life shenanigans as they thwart robberies and terrorist attacks and gear up for a tournament arc against the looming background of a larger conspiracy.
Then in the last half of the third season the villains' entire Rube Goldberg machine of a scheme snaps into completion and the plot twists so hard the entire genre takes a hard right. If you're used to character analysis and common anime tropes, this is not completely a surprise -up until this point, RWBY's character arcs and plot have been subtly traveling in non-traditional directions that hint of greater flexibility in genre treatment ahead- but if you're not... well.
Thing is, people watching RWBY up until this point have signed up for pretty standard shounen and they've been getting it, but the third season's ending smashes that all to bits. From then on out in RWBY, it's like they ordered fries and suddenly got a hamburger. It might be delicious; but it's not what they asked for, what they wanted, or what they paid for, and they are, justifiably, displeased.
So when the reasonable people either adjusted their expectations or sighed, shook their heads, and clicked back out (perhaps with a grumble and a scowl), the unreasonable people dug their heels in and began insisting that everybody was Getting The Show/Character Wrong and that CRWBY is ruining it, because the fact that RWBY's method of deconstruction is to put standard tropes in a blender and then arrange what's left in deceptive patterns means that said unreasonable viewers can scan the bare surface and argue that all the stereotypical stuff is clearly still under there, somewhere.
So they're continually trying to drag RWBY back to the tracks of a typical shounen anime series (it's closest relative), which creates a dissonance between the show they're watching and the show they think they're watching. They're trying to turn the hamburger back into fries, basically, except that doesn't work and just frustrates everyone involved, because you're trying to make RWBY into something that it's not. Hence, this attitude probably starting/fueling some of the more contentious statements in the fandom, i.e.:
"Ironwood was right the whole time" (in most action movies and shounen anime, allied military leaders are trustworthy beyond reproach)
"Adam's character was wasted" (we all know how much shounen loves their powerful warrior antiheroes)
"Ruby and the others are in the wrong about [insert thing]/or for doing [insert thing], and this is bad writing!" (shounen protagonists don't usually make more than One Very Big Mistake over the course of their entire careers, which is usually fixed/overcome/redeemed via an appropriately rigorous training arc)
And to be clear, there's nothing wrong with shounen tropes or shounen anime. They're wonderful storytelling devices in their own way and their own time: but if you want standard by-the-book shounen without any new and interesting concoctions, then RWBY is definitely not the show for you. And most people don't find that out until it's too late.
#RWBY#fandom#wonder how much hate I'm going to get for this one#ho-hum#Getting frustrated when a show doesn't perform to your expectations is normal and natural but that's no reason to be a dick about it
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I think Aventio and Screwtio shippers shouldn't fight. After all, Ratio has two hands!
That's right. Two hands.
One for his chalk.
One for his codex.
Both of which he's holding in an embarrassed death grip as they chat away with each other about him.
#I'm on to something here#screwtio#aventio#hsr aventurine#veritas ratio#dr ratio#screwllum#hsr#honkai star rail#now as a disclaimer I'm not personally a huge fan of aventio#exclusively because i think they are so SO much funnier as gay friends#but something about combining the two clicks really well to me#Aventurine and Screwllum would be pretty fantastic metamours i think#they'd have a lot of fun playing off each other#but also Screwllum being there to dispute Aventurine's doubts over whether or not Ratio cares as a verified outside perspective#listing off shit like upticks in heartrate pupil dialation etc on top of being like#he talks about you fondly he knows your favorite things i can personally attest that you are very evidently important to him#stuff Aventurine can't easily write off when coming from not only an outside perspective but also a literal Genius#and on the flip side Aventurine would finally have someone other than Ratio and the Trailblazer he can talk to with relative ease#someone who has also been through a frankly incredibly traumatizing historical event#someone who is also under constant pressure to perform a certain way#someone who has gained wealth and power at the cost of carrying responsibilities on his shoulders and never being truly free#appearing free to anyone who glances but neither of them really are#Screwllum seemingly able to freely pursue whatever research he wants but ultimately permanently shackled with his titles#and public pressure to be the perfect poised representative for all of inorganic kind#forever treading the line of being both a desirable ally and a sufficient threat that you wouldn't want to cross him#and similarly Aventurine stuck in his cycle that he feels only death can free him from of gambling with his life on the line#because the IPC basically owns him#because let's be honest Jade's offer was just a lifetime labor contract he couldn't refuse#granted the illusion of freedom through gaining money and power but never truly free
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this stupid fuckin youtube recommendation was specifically formulated in a lab to piss me off
"RED STATES"? YOU MEAN THE MAJORITY OF THE ENTIRE UNITED STATES???????????
#AAAAAAAAAAAAAA I love it when northern white liberals try to act high and mighty about The South#and reduce entire populations down to the way the vote gets split. in states where voter suppression is rampant.#me when I'm a touring musician who was born and raised in the south and apparently I should only be performing in Blue States?#god shut UUUUUUUUUUP#sergle.txt#I will make it so easy. she declined to perform at the white house because joe biden is a genocidal cunt.#and she does perform in south because there are People There. is that too complicated for you. OH MY GODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD#I also love it when people act like there are no queer communities in ''red states''. DIE.
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240712 NeverNever Fanmeeting - Taemin Guilty ♥︎
#shinee#taemin#lee taemin#shinee taemin#kpop#dailyshinee#kpopccc#malegroupsnet#ksoloists#dailybg#smsource#kpopstages#the stage lighting for this performance was so stunningly well done. It's such a cinematic song and GOSH does the lighting reflect that wel#especially the beginning and ending (1st + last gifs)... damn.. they looked like paintings almost and i just had to gif this video#and then look at that part of the stage where the lights go dark blue and you can barely see him through the dim!!! gorgeous! GORGEOUS!#tho of course it's taemin himself that makes it all so artistic. but i betrayed him a little this time and picked moments to gif based on#the pretty stage lighting and not him/his dance 🤭🤭 sorry taem~♡ (doesnt matter cause he'll look good in every clip anyway 😉)#it's cool to see when he has control over the stages (like.. not a festival or con perf where he's guesting) there's and extra#flare of artistry added to the mix (like the lighting). it's 100% on purpose and u can tell 💛💛💛 little artist guy~♡#(i'm also about to post this and Guilty comes on. she's come. it's fate <3)
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