#whatever I’ll just shut up now
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Saw this tag meme, wasn’t tagged and not tagging anyone, but I wanted to play…despite not having written anything in a year ^^;
Ao3 first lines tag meme:
Rules: Share the first lines of your most recent ten fanfics and tag ten people. If you have written fewer than ten, don’t be shy and share anyway
Happy Birthday Misha (March 2022)
Mornings. Just another dull start to a dull day. Same in and same out for the past nine months. The monotony was bordering on being lethal.
Random OmegaTooth Drabbles: Escape to NYC (Feb 2022)
It wasn’t the sounds of the midnight traffic that had woken him. A streak of moonlight (though more likely street lights) painted its way across the room from the balcony door. He sat up slowly, realizing before his eyes had fully adjusted to the dim lighting that the bed was empty beside him. In that second it all clicked, the balcony door was left uncovered because someone had gone outside.
The WandaVision Episode (Feb 2022)
You have been found guilty. And so then you will be sentenced…You are exiled…
A sharp chirping cut through the darkness of slumber, causing him to almost fall out of bed as he startled awake. What…bed? In an instant he went from surprise to defensive.
When You’re Close Up, You Give Me The Shivers (Nov 2021)
It had been about a week since Siberia. General Zaslon had smoothed things over with the Russian authorities, so for the time being, Arkady was a free man…well, a free man “paroled” into the care of this team…this “Weapon X-Force”. And what great highlights had been accomplished with this freedom thus far? Well, mainly being cooped up in a penthouse in Madripoor, owned by Mystique.
Training Belle (Nov 2021)
This cabin, deep in the Canadian wilderness, had stood for half a century now. The original had collapsed after a few trees had fallen one harsh winter, but its owner had rebuilt it exactly the same. A monument to where it all started. And as he pulled his truck up to park outside of the rustic lodge, he couldn’t help but wonder yet again, why he hadn’t burned it all to the ground yet.
Children of Kaine: Circle Back Around (Nov 2017)
The first thing he felt was cold, wet tiling against his cheek. It’d be a lie to say that this was not a familiar sensation, or situation for the former football player. The darkness still held his vision, but other senses started to come back in waves; it was quiet, save for the semi-regular drip of water, the air felt heavy like it had been humid, and his body started to ache too. He groaned a little as he moved to push himself up into a sitting position.
Children of Kaine: The Lost, The Found, and The Lost (July 2017)
It was a new day, which meant there were about 20 different new ways for Jessica Jones to get into trouble, at the very least. The 18th precinct had closed down about a year and a half ago, but the records were still locked up tight. Ben was on lookout while she tried to pick the locks that barred the outside from taking refuge inside the police station, but as the minutes ticked on and the thing still fought against her attempts, her agitation just grew into frustration. And a frustrated Jessica Jones was not a happy Jessica Jones.
Children of Kaine: The New Normal (May 2017)
Nothing felt right. No, that wasn’t entirely true. Nothing felt like anything. No right, no wrong, there was just no feeling whatsoever.
Children of Kaine: Holiday Special (Dec 2016)
The holiday season was on in full swing at the Parker house. May had always been fond of the season; all that good will was like catnip to her. And having the house full of teenagers again (not that it wasn't these days it seemed) just made it all the better.
Children of Kaine: Symbiote Saga (Nov 2016)
The late matinee was just letting out. A small throng of people came from the innards of the theater out into the street, chatting about this or that, or how bad the movie had been. In amongst the people was a small group of teenagers, all dressed in various hand-me-down looking clothes; nobody was saying it, but everyone assumed they'd just snuck in without paying.
#this might just wind up as my no-game-Monday meme because I honestly got nothing else#my writing#old art is old#ok fic but same diff#yeah the other parts of the drabbles were at different times#but I was doing all this on my phone and not tower#plus it’s all diff fics so…#even though the drabbles are a collection#whatever I’ll just shut up now#too much tag commentary
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worlds most irritating couple somebody separate them STAT !!!!!
#AAAAAAASGFJCASDHFJKBJLSK I LOVE HIM#ive been weeping over this#OOUUUGHHHHH#hooked/bumpy nose endo supremacy#give me ur tongue boy !!!!#i have a version of this without me in it just endo i'll post it later on my main#his tongue looks lonely tho fair warning......#ok stop being a freak for two seconds literally#i love our color palettes my blue hair green eyes and his teal thing he's got goin on#lip rings on opposite sides#actually i completely drew mine on the wrong side now that im looking at it again but whatever its cute#i love this new style im drawing in its SOOOO FUN TO COLOR i get so excited actually#i think he deserves to have a darker complexion than he does on those manga covers it's just fitting for him. methinks.#he looks so good#GOD#FUCKKGKJSKFHKAJVKSDFJ#dearly departed — venya ♱#idk if that’s our ship name but i’ll tag it as that#i need to draw us with takiishi now too#ok i’m gonna shut up now y’all have a good day 🦋🌸🌄
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SO UHHH I may or may not have gotten a bit carried away and made a OC for @blackkatdraws2 / @blackkatdraws ‘s blank script au
yeah have this crappy 1 am sleep deprived doodle of her
a tid bits of lore abt her in tags ^^
#BASICALLY this is Mell#she’s a NPC who really likes the dark and zombies. like#just mention zombies and she’s already at your location ready to infodump to you everything she knows about them#She gets shy around people so she lurks around in the dark people watching or playing with whatever she can find#oh and she also likes rag dolls and carries one with her sometimes. (Her outfit is inspired by raggedy ann :D#if you’re wondering how her arms got all like that then uhh there was a accident where she was playing with the ‘guard dogs’ of the dungeon#and they got carried away to the point where her arms were missing pieces of flesh#she doesn’t mind since it makes her look like a zombie#and she loves zombies#(regarding her playing with the ‘guard dogs’ (idk how else to refer to them as😭) she feels its more easier to be around them than like#The janitors in the dungeon)#SORRY FOR RAMBLING😭 I’ll shut up now#Fanart#my art <3#oc art#oc#I mighttttt delete this later when I wake up cause I’m not sure if I’m proud of this or not 😭😭😭 so sorry
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I’m genuinely so terrified of living in the us right now. Like I don’t know what to do. I’m terrified. I want to live and stay alive but I don’t know if I’m gonna be able to survive these next four years and that scares me. I don’t know what to do
#The pit of fear that opens in my stomach when I think about this#I’m not religious but I pray something happens that makes it so trump can’t be president#Whether it’s cause he’s a convicted felon or because he was impeached twice and it happens again#Or he dies from old age or something or the evidence of him cheating in the election prevents him from being president#I don’t know man#im scared and I don’t know what to do#I don’t know if I’ll be alive four years from now and that scares me cuz I don’t wanna die#Anyways sorry for rambling/venting or whatever you wanna call this#smolldust#smolldust rambles#Vent#politics#us politics#us election#I feel stupid for being this scared because others are going through so much worse so I should prolly just shut up
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ok genuinely what is up with c!slimecicle getting shot by heavily religious themed/ immortal/ deity characters in the chest with semi automatic weaponry. i stg this has happened at least four times like there has to be some sort of meaning to this and if there’s not i’m willing to find some anyway
like fr it’s happened on the qsmp about 2-5 times now and i’m only on the fourth vod, and that���s not even mentioning the 100 day evolving apocalypse video and i’m certain there are others. the parallels, they are calling to me. there’s something there, i can smell it
#dandy talks#like genuinely what the hell#charlie slimecicle#slimecicle apocalypse#scu#slimecicle cinematic universe#should i just make a comprehensive catalog of every time he gets shot#cuz it’s happened so frequently i might as well#he’s been shot by schlatt often#he got shot by the consensus bureau on the qsmp like two or three times#he’s been shot by satan on the qsmp another two or three times#like. what’s going on XD#i’m certain i can find some sort of symbolic meaning#i already thought the vibes when deity schlatt or whatever shot him in the 100 days video was intriguing#which is partially what the ‘in the eye of the beholder there is blood’ piece was inspired by#but the twists just keep turning!#anyway i’ll shut up now i just thought it was interesting lmao#qsmp#qsmp slimecicle
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me after editing the aau prologue for the bajillionth time
#First chapter I changed the opening bc I always thought it felt off/abrupt and wanted to have it be prince pov from the start#I wanna get in his head more ok sue me#Beyond that tho it was just some wording edits#Specifically with the internal dialogue moments I helped them flow more/feel more like thoughts#Also mj gets a bit more of their usual edge/pessimism bc the prologue they always felt a bit too “ówò sad poor smol bean” or whatever#That’s it tho chapter 4 I didn’t change bc it’s peak#Did add some teases to later things tho like snatch senses mjs soul at the end of his chap but doesn’t realize it#Or like I added the Not Now running thing in the earlier chapters bc it was more of a chapter 4 thing so I wanted 2 set it up more so boom#I think that’s all the notable edits ig like I said just description additions the only actual new thing is the opener for chap 1 👍#Also also I got to include a hc that I have that I neglected to do before but I hc a!prince used plural internal dialogue#Because lol we love dramatic irony in this house#Grace post#this reminds me tho one of these days I should look through heart strings chapter one to look for editing things#Bc I think I did that recently but I don’t remember it much tho#Mostly just when the Hat stuff starts that was the parts I never directly rewrote I just edited them so they feel out of place in my brain#Also I’d wanna edit her dialogue bc it *was* in character (after rereading her diary’s to confirm) but I wanna have her be a bit more snark#Hat is Hard bc i Need the balance of cute little kid and also smug little shit (affectionate) like she is a pain to write man cries#This is just me rambling lol ignore it I just wanted to spam aau thoughts#In other news I made shapes redesigns but I’m on the fence on posting them bc idk if I wanna spoil or not hhhhhhhhh#Nowadays I’m more chill w spoiling things than I used to be#But there are a handful of things I’ve kept shut about (ex being princes name or mjs species stuff etc)#So I’m not sure if this thing with shapes i should keep secret or just post bc I used to spoil it but idk now#Shrugs#maybe I’ll do a poll later I dunno#Ok yapping over byeeeeee
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sighs and collapses and disintegrates into the wind
#Seven’s Public Diary#vent post#cw vent post#ah yes. another restless nights sleep in a cold room bc i was too upset and sick to eat enough yesterday and my nightmares won’t let up and#my heater isn’t enough to warm the room when it’s this fucking cold outside. but it’s fine bc i don’t think i deserve to be warmer anyway#i should get water but i’ve been stuck laying here for an hour wondering if im racist and feeling like i should just. leave. or smthn. idk#i need a caregiver so there’s someone here to stop me from doomscrolling tumblr and reddit discourse for two hours before bed. lol#but ig no matter how careful i try to be there’ll always be part of me thats. unconsciously? racist? bc im white so its just part of me#idk im not educated enough to talk about it so i guess the real lesson to learn here is to keep my fucking mouth shut. which i can do!#i don’t. know how to apologize correctly. bc no one wants to hear me piss and moan abt my white guilt. if that’s what it even is#im too stupid to understand what to do or say and the more i type the worse it sounds so im just. sorry. i apologize for anything i’ve said#or done. that wasn’t right or was insensitive or thoughtless or uneducated or. whatever else it is i rlly don’t know#i didn’t mean to use AAVE. i really didn’t know. so i’ll go edit the tag where i used it but. that’s only one example. how many more am i#unaware of? how often do i put my foot in my mouth and not know it? im sorry. i’ll try to do better#but there’s so much to be mindful of that i can’t keep track of it all and it’s overwhelming me so i think i should just. be quiet.#‘always a fanfic writer at the scene of the crime’ i. didn’t know there was a connection between racism and fanfic. now im worried#was that just an easy jab to make bc it’s cringe or is it actually problematic. why does it seem like theres smthn wrong w everything i do#anyways. i have to stop thinking abt it or im gonna anxiety vomit. i could go lay on the couch#it in the only warm room of the house but it’s covered in dog hair and i hate the smell from the stupid fucking propane heater#it gives me a headache and makes me paranoid. why did he install gas heat when he could’ve gone with a heat pump. all he did was make#everything harder on everybody. so now we have dangerous gas heat in the winter and shitty mold-filled window ac units in the summer#when he could’ve installed a heat pump/ac unit combo thingy and we would’ve been good to go. why is he like this.#YOURE A GODDAMN ELECTRICIAN. HAVE BEEN YOUR WHOLE LIFE. YOU CAN DO ANYTHING YOU WANT. SO ACT LIKE IT.#im staying in bed. the rest of the house reeks of burnt plastic bc SOMEONE decided to take FOUR sedatives and drink a couple beers before#trying to use the stove to cook dinner :))) so now i have to figure out how to clean that up. i take back everything i said about winter#being my favorite season. this shit fucking sucks. there’s so much more to stress over and it’s all so much more expensive and exhausting#i never want another dog or cat ever again after these two pass. im not the person i once was and i cannot care for them like i used to.#i can’t even care for myself. couldn’t if i Wanted to right now bc everything is frozen solid. can’t shower. can’t do any laundry.#just get to sit here filthy cold and miserable in the one clean-ish sweater i have left for ? days until temps get back above freezing#anyways thats enough bitching abt my first world problems. time to shut up and be grateful for what i Do have bc it could be a Lot worse
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I’m still reeling from the impact Helene left around here. I didn’t want to think the rumors and stuff were true, but hearing it from people I know and trust irl and seeing footage of stuff around areas I’m familiar with has left me devastated and extremely upset about everything.
It hit me hard once the rain stopped and I went into town. It hit me even harder once my internet and cell service stabilized and I saw all the news.
I’m really struggling to process stuff right now. I probably will be for a long time until some normalcy gets restored around here. I count myself blessed Helene didn’t hurt me or my loved ones, but it hurt my community and is continuing to do so and that’s just not okay at all.
I’m burnt out about the news but can’t escape it cause it’s here in my neighborhood happening and being discussed and updated daily. I hope people stop wishing ill on folks. It’s awful and it sickens me the responses I’ve seen from the media and the web from some people.
Just stop.
We’re hurting and it doesn’t matter how prepared you think we were, it was unavoidable. Where do you suggest people should’ve gone when even the highest mountain couldn’t avoid the flooding? I’m lucky to have a decent internet signal on the best days where I live. Imagine everyone else around me who doesn’t have any connection to the world except though maybe radio or a landline?
It’s not like we’re stupid. Just stop assuming things. What we need is help, aid, and general support and awareness.
I don’t mean to monologue here. I’m still grieving over the devastation and that takes time.
I’m just so sick of seeing people acting like they know better about the disaster. It’s way way more intricate than you think.
#hurricane helene#appalachia#life update#I’m not doing so hot atm#I’ll be better once some normalcy occurs#it’s kind of stifled my already limited motivation atm#imma eventually get back into a groove here#but for now I’m just trying to keep moving forward#won’t get political on here#but damn did this disaster start some shit#y’all are welcome to message me here or whatevs#I don’t bite#just dealing with some heavy stuff rn#also just yeah…#not trying to start fights#not up to debate either#like I know the topics#I’m here living it#so not gonna argue#but feel free to just reach out to people?#yeah#imma shut up now#it late#shut up sky
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Blehhh I don’t wanna go into work today all customers explode NOW
#shut up alli#got like an hour and a half before going in at least#but wehhhh#if I could be given a job where I did not have to interact with customers and just label shit and put product out or whatever all day#that would be the dream#and I’m like paranoid now since the other day that someone could call in and I’ll be by myself on one of my closing shifts#I cannot do all thattttt by myself yet I’ve been here 5 dayyysss 😭#I know Christa is chill tho I gotta ask her what days she’s working this week
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🤦🏽♀️
#I’m doing my first garage sale ever#and you guys would not believe how much stuff I’m going to have#my parents went through everything in their crawl space#I got a lot of my clothes that I don’t wear anymore#there’s soooo much clothes and toys#and I can’t even describe how many fucking stuffed animals we have 🤦🏽♀️#if anyone has done garage sales or are familiar with them#how do you price things?#I’m just going to do by table cause I don’t have the time or patience to do each individual thing#but I’m wondering#how much would you price for idk small /medium and large stuffed animals?#or beanie babies#or CLOTHES#how much would you price for kid clothes and adult pants and dresses and shirts#or fuck me I have no clue for the toys#most of them are just old and kinda antiques#nothing is like super old where it doesn’t work or is super scuzzy#and I tried to go through the clothes and got rid of any that had stains or holes etc#anyway it starts tomorrow#I’m doing Thursday - Saturday#maybe Sunday if I want to do just a free day?#just to get everything OUT#whatever doesn’t sell or anything I’ll just donate#let me fucking tell you#we have SO MUCH SHIT#maybe I’ll take a picture to show you guys when it’s all done#it was just in boxes for awhile and now that I’m actually getting it all organized I did not realize we had so much shit 😵#and today is my last day before the sale and man I’m no where near ready annnnd I have Mayas and then a family dinner….#so I have to finish it alllllll tonight after dinner 🙃 wish me luck lol#shut up rosie
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#idk i’ll probably just take an unofficial break#bc that’s basically what i’m doing anyways#idk i’m kinda just popping in and out currently so idk if i wanna just leave for a while again?#idk my last few breaks didn’t really work soo idk 🤷🏻♀️#idk ignore me i’m attention seeking 💁🏻♀️#i don’t think ppl actually care either way tho imao#i’m just bored of everything imao#and i just can’t be bothered with this acc at times#it’s just sitting here and i never use it properly so ehhh#could restart and make a new one but cba bruh#i have like a million accs that i don’t fucking use so there’s no point remaking my main tbh#if i don’t use my sides i keep making i’m not gonna use my main imao#unless someone can convince me of a reason to stay then idk i’m thinking of just disappearing#no im not isolating myself what are you talking about??#not that i even talk to ppl when i’m not isolating myself so it’s all the fuckin same#you’d never know the difference#idk i need to fix my life bc all i do is fucking doomscroll and i’m reallyyyy trying to cut back on that#so therefore a break#but again every time i take a break it’s just not enough? idk#i’m also not using tumblr as a metaphor for something else like what who said that 🙂↔️#anyways whatever#shutting up now 🤐#delete later?
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i’m so fucking pissed rn
#my dad was supposed to pick me up at a club where a fundraiser concert was held for the strike group i’m with#and then he said oh yeah i have my own concert that night and i’ll just leave early#which made ME feel bad even though HE forgot so i said oh i can stay for the afterparty#show ends at 10:30 afterparty goes to 11. easy.#well his concert goes long so at 11 he texts me and says the encore just happened. okay. what the fuck whatever#but the other folks on my team are still there so i say alright what’s your eta?#and he says 30-35 minutes. MIND YOU when he mentioned his concert it ‘wasn’t a problem’ because it was close. that’s not close even in la#AND THEN. he says stuck in traffic. like. okay??#at this point the other folks in my org are leaving but one of our partners is still there so i’m sitting by their table and my dad says ok#12:05 is when i’ll get there. which mind you is an hour and five minutes AFTER the RESCHEDULED pickup time#you will notice it is past 12:05 now and he is still not here and i am stick at this outdoor club with#too loud music and so many cigarettes and vapes and he’s still not here yet. and i’m so. so fucking annoyed#and when he first offered to pick me up from stuff in general i thought that was nice. but boom whaddayaknow#this bullshit.#AND I CANT GET AN UBER BECAUSE THEYRE 70 FUCKING DOLLARS#and public transit is a) dangerous at night b) shut down at midnight and c) would have taken an hour and a half#if you read all this i’m smoochin u sorry
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do you ever feel like you aren’t actually feeling an emotion, just thinking about it?
#delete later#I think I dissociated a bit too much or smth and now I’m wondering if I’ve been simulating humanity my whole life#but also like. every time I feel something I tend to like. actively think about it#like I don’t just get sad feel sad cry and move on#if I’m sad or anxious or etc etc I will Think About it.#like intellectualize my emotions?#like I’ll actively think about what made me sad and my mind will string together like. lines of text describing all my symptoms of sad#or whatever emotion#like I’m writing the feelings into myself. like I’m some kind of robot trying to feel the most sad#or again. whatever emotion#like I’m trying to capture the emotion#anyway just kind of felt. blank. out of nowhere and caught myself thinking abt it like I was trying to fill in a different emotion#idk#I’m shutting up now
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i promise I’m a huge proponent of blocking and curating your experience etc and yet it also seems like I complain all the time sorry asdgjkhkl but this fandom has genuinely made me paranoid about following or reblogging anyone new lest I be blockt n cancelled yet again for the associating w the wrong ppl crimes I seem to have committed several months ago when I got into foblr. which is kinda a bummer
#sorry I genuinely feel like I whine all the time and I really do believe in blocking n curating lol#but like I’m a chill nice person I just want to see content of the thing I’m into and I’m getting gradually cut off from a huge chunk of pp#so its just making me feel like a crazy person man!!#Truly I have block me if you want in my bio and I stand by it lol but it feels like it’s never ending and idk man#i maintain my relative innocence here! I’m just here for a good time! how did I end up at the pariah table#sigh thanks chill freaks n weirdos for being chill. promise I’ll shut the hell up now don’t get hurt don’t u get hurt. lol#also sorry if I like reply to your posts n act like I’m your friend but you’re actually like uh stop#talking to me you’re not my friend go away. i just like genuinely want to have friends and I’m awkward as hell#god this is so stupid and long and I feel like a cringefail fool but what can you doooooo#I’ll make some gifs or something this weekend. i like making things I like being in fandom! but man. it’s been a bit of a struggle here#(foblr lol)#anni rambles#I’m not actually sarcastic and cool and disaffected enough to fully be like LOL WHATEVER IDC even though I partially have that spirit#I’m too earnest and soft for the real haters n freaks n too much of a freak for like. the clique I guess lol
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I wish I had friends near meeeeeee to distract me from my brainnnnnnnnnn
#need to talk to anyone irl who isn’t related to me or dating my mom or my therapist#anyone else near me please I’m losing my mind#nature isn’t healing me sleeping in a fully dark room all day isn’t healing me how do I magically fix this without having to put any work#into it oh I can’t oh u have to do the work okay how do I do that. therapy once a week. oh. okay. yup.#can I speedrun it? oh no? I can’t. oh damn. okay fine whatever. therapy once a week. AND I HAVE TO ACTUALLY LISTEN AND DO WHAT SHE SAYS. bro#what the hell okay fine#well here I am !!!!! where is the fixing where is the feeling better I feel like all I do is stir up all these touch emotions from every#part of my life at once and then she sends me off to rot for week before I come back and talk again#I just feel like I’m losing it!!!!! and ik it’s extra bad bc birthday countdown is on in my brain and im stressed and i feel like a huge#fuck up that can never be fixed and like I will die having done nothing with my life except weigh other people down and so exhausting and my#brain won’t ever shut up like yes I get it years and years and years of built up shit that I never properly dealt with and still hold blame#for constantly and I feel like I will never be fixed like I CANT be fixed like this is a losing battle and I just am struggling today man#idk what I was saying I just took my morning weed hit to try and relax my back a little and now my brain is like scrambled eggs#which is good that means it’s working#I’m gonna try to take a nap maybe cause I only slept four hours and it was like choppy thru the night and then maybe I’ll go to the lake#later I’ve been feeling the need to be in a body of water recently
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suddenly I feel Bad
#I was already dysphoric#I then talked abt it w a friend who then just liked my message and said nothing and it’s like#oh ok I think I’m the worst person ever rn#and you hate me#which is not mentally stable behaviour#but now I can’t focus on work cuz this friend clearly hates me#or I just messed up and she’s in a bad place and I’m bad#cuz I shouldn’t have said anything#anyways whatever it’s fine I’ll shut off emotions to finish this
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