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STRAY KIDS REACTION TOā¦
ā¦having a vibrator and you messing with the settings
į”“źŖ« CHANā¦. would have been so against the idea but after so much convincing he finally gave in. you had promised to not interfere with his work for it. yet he should have known better. he trusts you so much that he had thought you were pleased with him just having it inā¦ forgetting about it while being cooped up in the studio.
after being alone for so many hours, when you walked in he had thought nothing of it, looking up and smiling. āhi- AH!ā he literally jolts off his chair, kneeling on the floor. youāre wicked smile going unseen as he trembles on the floor. never again.
į”“źŖ« MINHOā¦. also wasnāt very keen on the idea but gave in when you said youāll treat him to something delicious. he had simply asked you to not put it at the highest setting and especially around the members. technically you didnātā¦ just that on the day you two had gone out to get some treats, you had stayed back in the car.
heās jogging out. picking up the order and jogs back. as soon as he opens the car door and hands you the bag- āFUCK-ā he folds over, clutching your arm for dear life. you quickly yank him inside the car as he jerks. āyou little- ah!ā you quickly turn it off when the driver looks back at you weird, leaning over and closing the car door as minho slumps into the seat and catches his breath.
į”“źŖ« CHANGBINā¦. was completely okay with the idea. what he wasnāt okay with was how you kept messing with the settings. he was literally on a call with his mom.
āh-huh?ā he swallowed, legs rubbing together and his breath shallow. āno iām not sick- i- uh y/n is just next to me and distracting-ā you put it at the highest level ā-ME! Y/N!ā you grin wickedly. good thing youāre in his room.
į”“źŖ« HYUNJINā¦. enjoys his quiet time. meaning he likes the peace he gets while painting or drawing. however, he couldnāt really concentrate as you were in his room- which wasnāt exactly the reason why. he had a vibrator and you were messing with the settings.
he keeps jerking when you switch the settings and his pencils moves wobbly. at some point heās a whimpering mess slumped over his desk and you watch from his bed with a grin.
į”“źŖ« JISUNGā¦. likes to bed rot. he was sure youād go easy on him since you two were comfortable in his bed. except you managed to get him to go open the door for the food you had ordered. he had complained but you kissed him and convinced extremely well. so he obeyed and walked out, only for you to start with level 5.
heās not even out the door when he yelps and slumps against the bedroom door. you watch him with glimmering eyes before stopping. he doesnāt even trust you anymore to walk out but again, youāre a good convincerā¦ he barely makes it to the living roomā¦
į”“źŖ« FELIXā¦. so our wannabe gamer is literally in his own world. after some good sex he happily agrees to the vibrator. he knows youāre a huge tease but he didnāt expect you to actually torture him. heās screaming at the top of his lungs while playing with his friendsā¦ when you put the highest setting possible. he chokes. literally.
āIāM MUTING-ā he screeches and with a quick tap on the button in his headset, he freely whimpers. you mess between the settings. you later suffer the (extremely good) consequences because he kept losing and sucking at the game afterwards.
į”“źŖ« SEUNGMINā¦. was not easy to convince. it took a lot of work. you had to PLAY NICE. l/n y/n does not play nice but you really wanted this so you had to work for it. after so much coaxing he finally gave in. he was super awkward and tense, expecting you do start from the first second you stepped away. but he realized this is actually something he has to go by unexpectedly.
henceā¦ after a few hours, heās comfortably walking around and cleaning. heās tidy. youāre helping out and watching him. the second you see him bend over to pick up the dirty clothes bin, you hit the button and- āNGH-ā he doubles over. never againā¦. at least for a super long time
į”“źŖ« JEONGINā¦. was super nervous. yes, he was extremely down to test that out but again, nervous and shy. you coaxed him after a while and soon you managed to make him accustomed to it. as you know, jeongin is pretty clumsyā¦. so no one was really fazed when youād put the lowest setting and startle him.
heād drop whatever heās holding, topple things overā¦ his ears would be so red and heād make a strangled noise. of course, you donāt do it often around whoeverās in the dorm but you tease him enough times that he ends up crying and begging you to stop (but to stop teasing and actually do something about his boner)
#kpop x male reader#x male reader#kpop x reader#kpop x top male reader#x male top reader#sub!idol#sub!kpop#sub!stray kids#sub!skz#dom!reader#top!reader#stray kids x reader#x top male reader#kpop x gender neutral reader#kpop x you#kpop headcanons#kpop reactions#stray kids x you#skz reactions#kpop smut#skz smut
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OMG the scene where Charlie baby talked to Baxter irked me SO bad! Like what are you doing?!? Youre a grown ass adult talking to another grown ass adult, you dont talk to people you just met like that EVER!
Like what was the point of the scene?? To be funny? Cause it isnt, there is no joke, punchline, nothing, its just Charlie being rude to a random stranger that she just met.
Was it to make Charlie look like an "adorkable kawaii potato that LOVES cute little things :3"? Then someone tell Vivziepop that it isnt 2014 anymore and nobody likes these characters, epecially when theyre ADULTS, theyre just really fucking annoying.
This is why i hate the Show's Charlie, they try to sell her as if she is oh-so-nice and the most kind person in the world that CARES about others issue's when she is actually a priviliged bitch that thinks she has the solution to every problem in the world when she doesnt understand shit about other's people's situation nor cares enough to listen to them.
She reminds me to these internet e-celebrities that build their whole image on being wholesome and sweet but then when theyre asked to talk about some societal problem they decilne because "sowy i dont want to bring politics to my channel :3 xoxo".
It would have been interesting if she was written this way on PURPORSE. Like at first her being a naive, rich, priviliged princess that never faced any real problems and thats why she is sure that she can easily solve other's problems by doing what she says, and as the show progresses she starts learning to LISTEN to other's explaining their situation and why the solutions arent as simple as what she was made to belive growing up privileged.
But since Vivziepop lacks any self awareness the show tries to convice us that her ways are the correct ones, and that everyone should do as she says in order to fix everything and that her acting like an ignorant asshole to thers its ok because its "cute :3".
Maybe im just exagerating because im a short person with a baby face who got treated a similar way Charlie talked to Baxter by other adults, and i dont think i need to clarify you should definetely NOT do that to other people like that, like how do people not realize its rude as shit.
Its embarassing how upset i got at this, i hope this show gets cancelled as soon as posible.
Yeah, that was pretty vile. It was that unbearable scene where she forced them to play rhyme-and-clap games all over again, and that other unbearable scene where her idea of redeeming them was putting them in stupid outfits and having them read from scripts.
I hate series Charlie so much.
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āHallucinationsā
sypnosis; "what are you thinking about Manon? you've been awfully quiet" the latina asks
cw; smut , fluff , sexual tension , mean Dani , begging , praise , hair pulling , back shots , sub Manon, strap usage , suggestive jokes and phrases, big back jokes , not proofread lolz , sorry š§ anon this took so long :((
now playing; āEmo Boyā By Ayesha Erotica
Practice was never that hard for Manon , it was fun in her opinion especially getting to finish it
yet today her focus seemed to be on something moreāout of place , Daniela
yes the latina was captivating , the way she sways her hips or the way her hair bounces when she dances , the way her abs were on full display and how her fingers splayed on them
"Manonn" Daniela calls , urging Manon to go near her
"why" the older asks grinning
Daniela pulls her down which causes Manon to stumble , she giggles
"you looked so hot earlier" the younger whispers , smirking when Manon blushes at the comment
"I can say the same about you" Manon replied
āį¶» š š°
here she goes again , dozed off , Manon has been awfully quiet
normally they wouldn't question this but she looked like she was overthinking something the way her eyebrows occasionally scrunched
Daniela knowing how weak Manon gets for her she decides to tease the older
"what are you thinking about Manon , you've been awfully quiet" the latina asks
"you" Manon replies, she can't hold it in anymore maybe just maybe teasing Daniela would give her what she needed
"oh really?" she asks in a condescending tone
āį¶» š š°
the rest of the girls were playing some games since it was a Friday night
"hey no that's cheating!" Sophia exclaimed as Lara and Megan peers at the others cards
"no it's not , and pass the popcorn please"Megan defends
"okay bigback" Manon jokes
"the audacity" Megan chuckles
yoonchae was the first one to go to bed because she was tired soon to be joined by Sophia until it was only Manon and Daniela outside
daniela started showing Manon her nails , two of her press ons have fallen off
"oh wow Dani" Manon giggles pointing to the fingers
"ouh-" Daniela realizes , gasping she quickly put away her hands resting them on her legs
"you wanna see why?" implying why two of her press ons we're off , Manon freezes almost as if she didn't ask for this reaction
āį¶» š š°
I guess she got what she asked for cause now Manon was kneeling infront of the younger as her eyes glossed with tears
"please.." Manon begs
the latina chuckles only pinching the girls nipples earning her a labored breathe and shudder
"you want it so bad?" she asks condescendingly, she was enjoying this way too much for her own good
"yesāill be good i promise" Manon reasons as her voice got even more whiny , her hands glued to Danielas thighs
"grab my toy in the closet then" Daniela instructs to which Manon immediately followed
as she fastens her strap she made sure that Manon was also ready , removing the girls pants only to be greeted by her puffy cunt
"fucking whore" she tsks , the older clenched at the degrading as much as she'd want to deny it she couldn't she loved when Daniela was mean
with a heavy breath Daniela enters Manon , Manon whines as she try to slip away from the intrusion only to get pulled back by Daniela , slamming her hips
"f-fuck!" Manon squeals , her hands holding onto the sheets with force her eyes rolling back
"you like that? getting filled with my cock huh?" The latina says as she goes even deeper her hands on the older waist , slamming into her with a feverish pace
"mhm! yes Dani!" she manages to talk in between her moans , she feels too good
"I can't hear you!" daniela says before pulling Manon's hair causing her strap to go even deeper
"nghm! Dani!" Manons voice getting louder , escalating at a rapid speed
"gonna c-cum!" Manon screams , as said she did her whole body shaking and Daniela slowing down
as they pant for air. daniela readies a bath for Manon just the way the girl liked it
"are you okay?" daniela asks wiping Manon's face with a warm towel
"mhm" Manon hums , already feeling too tired
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And I donāt just mean this in a funny joking way, Iām dead serious. Chase it out of your spaces, if anyone in your circle starts talking about art they think should be banned, call them out for being a book burner, if someone tries to start a hate campaign on a trans woman who did the crime of having a kink be very open about how fucking weird that person trying to do it is. Actively mock people who could vote but didnāt or went third party, make it uncool to have black and white thinking.
Make it uncomfortable for people to try and talk purity in fan culture, donāt let them sea lion or try and turn away, call them cops, treat it like the invasion of privacy it is, read those books people want banned. Report people who send hate or spam tags. No mercy, no quarter.
Make it unpopular, openly roll your eyes at people who have 20 paragraph rainbow uwu dni banners. Donāt cower or justify, speak plainly that yeah, you do read that kind of story, why do you care? Why are you so interested in my sex life? Why are you invading my privacy? Make them seem like the weirdo cop whoās causing problems because they are! Donāt downplay yourself, be firm about your understanding about the differences between fiction and reality, about your beliefs on the lesser evil. Ask the questions youve been too polite to ask when confronted, openly point out hypocrisy.
Hell! Report worse offenders to actual organizations, if you know someone is an adult in anti or other kinds of purity circles, more closely look into what theyāre doing and potentially be ready to report them for grooming kids because a lot of āsafe adultsā are actively sending kids porn. Go into their discord groups where they organize hate and report them for harassment and report users for sexual abuse. Hell, tell on those kids to their parents or authorities, contact that highschoolerās school with concerns.
Talk to your kids if you have to and make sure they understand this and if they start showing unusual purity obsessed behaviors get them to a therapist or professional asap. Talk to your friends who start leaning that way and make it clear youāre worried for them, treat it like you just got told theyāre becoming interested in Scientology or some other cult, because itās very much a cult. Like, it followed BITE near perfectly, purity culture is a cult.
Donāt beat yourself up for your failures as well, embrace that you are a sweaty animal who does weird things or likes unusual things and sometimes canāt do things, push back against the idea that you have to be pure and always have the Correct opinion, be wrong! Openly admit to being wrong! Be open about your mistakes! Allow yourself to step away from the discourse of the day and firmly state that you donāt need to fight whatever the internet has chosen as its battle ground and that this doesnāt make you a bad person.
People with purity complexes should not be allowed to yell their way into authority in fandom, and itāa getting to a point where we have multiple reports of it grooming young teens into situations where they end up in cult deprogramming. Purity Culture canāt just be ignored or blocked anymore, not when we have leftists cheering for fucking TRUMP because Harris wasnāt perfect, itās out of hands, and itās putting everything at fucking risk.
Stop playing nice, stop being the better person who just ignore and blocks and go ādude, you sound like a perverted copā and then report them for sexual harassment. no more, im done with trying to play nice and stay in my own space, Iām calling you fancop, Iām calling you a swerf. I am done.
We are done pretending that fanfiction causes incest or rape or whatever when fucking game of thrones exist and got like five seasons, we are done pretending that fictions effect on reality is 1 to 1, we are done pretending that propaganda is overt blatant mind control and also a 5 kudosed fic on ao3. We are done acting like tweeting the correct opinion counts as activism and that anyone not doing that is a monster. No more indulging in trying to explain the nuances, no more pretending they care about the nuances. Be blunt about the fact they want to hurt people, make it blunt that they are bullies. Make it fucking weird and to hold those objectively untrue beliefs, make fun of them for sleeping through English class, treat it like fandom flat earth. Itās not true, none of it was ever true, it came out of fucking ship wars.
Maybe this is putting too much blame on purity culture, but you know what? Iām done caring, not when itās groomed basically an entire generation to be okay with mob violence and the idea that you can put a quantifiable percentage of āgoodā to a person, that there is an objective good and bad side and that it is okay to do crimes against humanity if itās the ābad sideā, because itās getting people killed, itās ruining lives, and its starting to literally help destroy democracy.
Enough.
Honestly I think this has been a sign that we no longer need to try and tolerate or ignore purity culture, but that shit needs a hard stop now. I fully blame it as being one of the causes for the intense growing black and white thinking in a lot of youth or young adult spaces that prevents meaningful change or to take actions that help even if they arenāt perfectly pure
#this has been three am thoughts#Iām going to start calling these people swerfs because letās be real#theyāre basically fucking swerfs#donāt let them have silly titles like antis#call them racist swerfs
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wow.
#i fucking hate advertisements in mobile games#one of the games I've been playing for months would give you coins for completing puzzles#and there were no ads#well now. now there's ads.#and YOU DON'T GET ANY FUCKING REWARDS UNLESS YOU WATCH A FUCKING AD.#ANY AT ALL.#what's the fucking point of playing the game anymore#since THAT'S THE ONLY FUCKING WAY TO EARN COINS WITHOUT PAYING FUCKING MONEY
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qsmp francophone cubitos and their dynamic drive me wild, they all know theyāre mutually lying and obscuring the truth to one another, they all know theyāre keeping each other at armās distance, they all know theyāre not as open as they once were when it was just them and the aftermath of a plane crash, but the love is still there. the worry and the concern. they pry information out of one another in supposedly subtle ways that really just convey how much they still care about each other. whatās your stance on the federation. howās your code arm doing. even if in the end you donāt turn to me, please call out to someone. maybe looking out for yourself is looking out for others as well. i donāt know you anymore but i will protect the unknown anyway
#qsmp#qsmp french#jay rambles#i need to go sleep . said iād go to sleep ages ago . rotating them in my mind anw . fawk#itās like. they KNOW theyāre not being frank with one another. and itās almost a game they play#i ask you this question and you know what i mean . but i will not say it outright .#for how long can we dance around the topic until one of us spills the obvious out into the open air#<- etoiles broke first btw lmao . and he and baghera went right back to pretending like neither of them knew any better too#insane of them . fuck#(for context it was about bbh and ron . both him and baghz were prodding at each other trying to gauge how much the other knew#and etoiles at one point just said āoh my god i know you know baghera !!! please !!!!ā it was a very validating moment for french cubito#enjoyers . right until they went back to pretending nothing had happened . win)#shoutout to like two months ago when etoiles said smth along the lines of how baghera isnāt telling him everything bc she doesnāt trust him#i will explode and explode and explode#antoineās whole Thing early on about being distrustful and wary of others and how it hurt that he wasnāt always told everything anymore#a slow unraveling of the status quo that you donāt even realised has happened until you look around you
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I know that it isnāt as popular as it once was, but Iām a little surprised that overwatch isnāt trending with the shit blizzard just pulled lmao.
The whole point of OW2 was that they where gonna introduce a story mode and they announced today that they are completely scrapping it. It was already Playable. People Played The Story Mode/PvE mode back in 2019, and they have decided to Scrap It.
#very much so#overwatch#what the FUCK#I mean. I like the game cause of other reasons but this is INSANE!#oh hey you know the whole point of overwatch 2? yeah we arenāt gonna do that anymore sorry#why?? people PLAYED IT AT THE LAST E3??????
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Is the video game really subverting its genre? Are you sure it's not just doing clever things within its genre, because otherwise the game would be boring and unchallenging and say nothing interesting? I'm just saying, it's cool and all that the internet allows horror game fandoms to overflow into eachother, but not EVERY 2 hour video essay needs to be spent breathlessly sucking off the devs. Sometimes a game is just REGULAR difficult and REGULAR high-quality.
Besides RPGs made over a decade ago, what is the thing supposedly subverting? Clearly not other contemporary indie horror games, because there is clearly a convergent ethos forming of cosmic horror and beginners' traps; that's just what the genre looks like nowadays.
#pathologic#fear and hunger#inscryption#in general I just hate overly reverent video essays; you guys ruined Airbender for me#this is NOT me hating on Pathologic!#Icepick is a good studio; their story is interesting their characters are well written#introducing needs decay mechanics into a first-person adventure game is a good idea; I just wouldn't call it āsubversiveā#this IS me hating a little bit on Patho fans just because I think hyperbole about the game's difficulty is tedious#and distracts from an equally valid conversation about what you get if you approach the game like a sandbox#I get it the algorithm incentivizes youtubers to talk about every new game like it's a complete departure from what came before#but if everything is special nothing is#and i swear if one more person tries to read me HP Lovecraft's wikipedia page like i was born yesterday im going to scream#Just saying; if fucking with the player's expectations is all it takes to be āsubversiveā then Stick of Truth is āsubverting its genreā#except... no... Stick of Truth is a bog standard RPG just with a quirky tutorial#and creative integration of its off-beat story and mechanics RIGHT??#my point is Patho and F&H aren't actually much different; they still play like RPGs still handle like RPGs#the fact that you die more than you would in COD or Skyrim or whatever doesn't make it the āanti-RPGā#anymore than Seinfeld was the āanti-sitcomā#āsubversivenessā is just a basic bitch way to analyze things; and I think āHow does the art take ADVANTAGE of its genre?ā is better#media criticism
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I literally feel like I'm dying and I need to see a doctor, but I can't worry about that right now because
My bank account is literally in the negatives because I'm too disabled to work and can't make money but I can't worry about that right now because
I'm months overdue on getting my car new tags, but it won't even start if I could drive it so I need to jump the battery and get gas which I don't have money for, but I can't worry about that right now because
People are still expecting me to be social across numerous friend groups and it's pulling me in so many directions that I'm stretched so thin I'm running on no social battery for the last month, but I can't worry about that right now because
I still need to actually clean the house, do the dishes, clean the cat litter boxes, vacuum, and do my laundry... but I can't worry about that right now because
I still need to actually set up my new desk so I can stream since I haven't been able to do that for weeks and streaming is unfortunately my only source of income for how little I make every month, but I can't worry about that right now because
My partner is going through a really hard time right now and I need to be there for her and do what I can to make sure she's okay.
#People like me don't make it man. We just don't.#I'm hyper dependent on others to the point where I'd be homeless without my partner#I'm stressed day in and day out I get messages from people who want me to play games or hang out or just chat and I can't even#find the time to respond because I have 12 other things I need to be doing and those 12 other things aren't getting done because#every single thing I need to do is preventing me from doing something else and at the end of it all my health is getting worse and worse#and as it gets worse it costs more to fix and I can't get on disability without paying for a lawyer with money I literally do not have#and I'm losing it I'm literally going insane I'm pissed off because I see people blame the country I live in or the circumstances I'm in#and they act like they can't do anything and it'd be wrong of me to ask them for help#and I know when I die (and at this point it won't be long) they're going to act like this is the fault of america or some shit#they're not going to think about how they could have helped#and it sucks because some of my friends DO try to help they really do and I love them for it but it's so hard for me to see people#who don't make much money and who are also in tough situations throwing what they can at me to help me when I know people who have so much#they spend it frivolously on luxuries and I want to strangle them but then I'm not owed anything so it's not my place to tell them how#to spend their money or live their life.#and I'm tired man I'm so fucking tired I can't even stay awake for a few hours before I am too exhausted to sit upright anymore#I pass out and find myself without energy before I've even done anything and I'm only 29.
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what if i lost the will to live like. as a joke. what then.
#i am fine ftr im just. exhausted haha#NOT to overshare about my personal life too much but my dog is dying. my horse is being given back to his og owner this summer / fall.#my dads kicking me out in two years (in favor of his girlfriend and her kids bc he would rather live w them!!!)#his alcoholism is driving me crazy bc hes treating me like absolute shit and berating me constantly#and stealing from me š#ive lost my healthcare benefits + now have to either raw dog therapy out of pocket or loose my therapist#a therapist that took me a year of being on a waiting list to get in w btw#and idk i just genuinely feel like a loser rn like. im a 23 year old unemployed fat virgin who plays video games all day like. š§#where is this going for me. what is the point of it all. in two years im going to be fucking homeless on top of all that#unless some miracle happens bc as is i am too disabled to work.#im just reaching a point where i deeply dont care anymore. whatever happens happens im done fighting it#and ik its the abandonment issues talking here but knowing my dad is planning on abandoning me. š#thats two for two on parents leaving me. my entire family has at this point so like truly i cant trust any relationship#like if my PARENTS find me that unbearable. and my best friend who knew me my entire life thought so. then truly every relationship#i ever have is on a fucking timer like. idk if any besties r reading this im sorry i promise this is in no way a dig at yall#bc you guys do really make me feel loved and secure in a way no one else has but. id be lying if i said i wasnt still scared#anyways enough oversharing#i really am fine and safe rn btw like. at minimum u guys r stuck w me until arc*ne season 2 comes out š#my post
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What's my little dictator, if it's an anime I NEED to watch it NOW
its some shitty (but somehow very entertaining) dating sim where basically all the important ppl in ww2 are anime girls. it fucking sucks and i love it.
anyways it costs like 17 euros on steam. its horrible. you need to play it.
#my little dictator#mld#i dont know what else to tag ig#reichblr#uhh does the reichblr tag even work for this#i dont even know anymore#FUCK#i dont even know if i like this game ironically or unironically at this point#this better convince atleast ONE person to play this.
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Yāall is Hollow Knight hard or do I just suck because oh my god??
#not gonna inflict my ramblings onto someone elseās post so just making a text post for myself#but oh my god#what the fuck?#maybe Iām not a hardcore metroidvania fan but I like them well enough#do I suck that badly at games now?? am I old to the point that my hands canāt do this shit????#did I just somehow fuck myself at some point???#because wow this feels kind of sadistic????#and not even in the fun kind of way?????#like I think Iād rather submit myself to fear and hunger again rather than continue where I am now in hk#idk maybe Iām missing something#but I just got wall jump and was so happy until I fell down to where you can challenge those mantis dudes#got myself out of there but then as I was exploring northwest I keep dying and reviving from the fucking bouncy balls over water#and the normal mantis mobs are also kicking my ass?#and dont even get me started on the weird tentacley nuclear bomb mushroom things those are just bullshit#AND THEN AS I WAS HAVING A GOOD TIME EXPLORING HEADING TOWARDS A SAVE BENCH I GET DROPPED INTO DEEPNEST??????#WHAT KIND OF JUMPSCARE BULLSHIT??????????#AND THE FUCKING COCKROACHES THAT NEVER SEEM TO STOP SPAWNING KILL ME#and then I see how fucking far back Iāve been dropped in the corner of fungal wastes#and I try jumping through the fucking bouncy balls again#and I die and lose my money#I canāt fucking do this shit anymore yāall holy fucking shit#the number of times Iāve died and restarted from that fucking fungal wastes bench I am so sick of it š#legit I think this is the first time Iāve rage quit a game#itās been a while since a gameās actually made me this angry I want to fucking throw something š#the willpower and self control I needed to not chuck my pro controller across the roomā¦#if I didnāt have neighbors and a unit below me Iād be throwing shit for sure though#but instead I must smack pillows against my mattress in a rage š#I think I hate the āgo back to where you died to get back your moneyā punishment systemā¦ like legit I actually really really hate it.#I do think the game is fun and I know Iāll probably quickly gain the moneyā¦ but it feels like the gameās telling me I fucking suck lmao#suffice to say I will not be playing any more hollow knight for the foreseeable future š
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one of my writing classes has us outline our stories before we can start writing and is2g my professor and i have gone back and forth like five times
#it's kind of like. just playing a guessing game to figure out what she wants#so she just wants. a wants c. b is in their way. a defeats b. a gets c.#she doesn't want any nuance with the antagonist the antagonist has to be bad#she doesn't want any nuance with the protagonist the protagonist has to be good#the 'story goal' always has to be attained which is boring and fucking stupid esp. because there's already no nuance with the characters.#BOILED CHICKEN ASS STORIES NO SALT NO PEPPER#so i guess this class is less of a writing course and more of a 'memorizing tropes' course#anyway if it wasn't a major requirement i'd drop it#like it makes me so miserable#what's the point of even writing anymore if it's not allowed to be interesting#it's made me stop wanting to write period even outside of class....#talking tag
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canāt wait for the day i can get away from my parents
#crying in bed#dad just made me feel like shit#and like canāt even argue with him. i am a loser. just a college drop that still lives in her parents house at 25 with a shit job#and always has to bring up how my brother is doing better in life just because he taught at a college for a little bit#but like itās not like heās doing much better than me. my parents are fucking currently paying his bills#and he has the same degree i have. heās not excelling at life just because heās not living at home anymore#i know heās not at fault for losing his job but at least i have one rn#i hate always having to play this stupid comparing game with my dad#like i get it#youāve never hidden the fact you think iām an idiot and a fuck up and think my brother is this super genius#you donāt have to keep reminding me#ALSO iām SO sorry dad that i have no actual dreams in life unlike your son#i was stuck being your wifeās little puppet growing up to the point that it took a toll on my physical and mental health#so much so that i could barely function without weekly doctor visits and an assortment of braces#while you son on the other hand had all the freedom to explore his interests and discover what he wanted to do in life
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romancing astarion with sorrow, who by level 12 had 22 charisma and +14 to insight, was very funny.
him, 10 cha and +1 to insight: i am a master manipulator
her: yes dear
#zanarai *is* sorrow as a dark urge#but i couldn't justify keeping her a bard to myself (so she can't put expertise in insight)#murder jesus kills people by. singing at them? that felt too silly#now i don't think so anymore but at this point zan is so developed as a sorcerer that i can't bear to change her#idk maybe i'll change my mind again#she speaks#zanarai#.sorrow#arctic plays bg3#maybe she can be a three-way multiclass sorcerer/wizard/bard lol#to get expertise she'd need 3 levels of bard#that leaves 9 levels of sorcerer over the level span covered by the game but let's say 8 so she can take 1 level wizard#and post-game she levels wizard for however far she gets as she and astarion search for a way for him to be in the sun#this would be a disaster build wouldn't it#kind of want to try it though#hold on going to set it up on paper let's see what fucking happens
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i am being so fucking autistic about a video game i've only played an hour and a half of and have absorbed like 99% of my information about through osmosis from my bestie(s. it's complicated) and fanfiction. catastrophic levels of autism. i can't stress this in words i don't think y'all understand. or care honestly sdflkjfdskdfsjsfdkj-
#puppy rambles#slightly hurts to know no one seems to really care but eh. can't blame anyone i know y'all follow me for rhythm heaven#i think i have been making high-quality posts though y'all aren't appreciating my incomprehensible rambles about persona enough </3#/lh#(which is funny since this blog isn't even really a rhythm heaven blog anymore i don't think that'll be my main hyperfixation for a bit)#(if ever. it was uhhhhhh. kindddddd of unhealthy. haha lol xd :3)#(turns out a rhythm game that i barely interact with the fandom for is not stimulating enough for my adhd and autism!!! shocking i know)#(i still love rhythm heaven but it was bad for my brain-)#(i'm happy for all the friends i made through it though :333 even if i've only talked to like. one or two of you guys cuz of anxiety)#(and even then just through asks because the idea of interacting with people on tumblr through other means honestly terrifies me)#anyways it's going down now persona 3 reload bops hard idk 99% of the lyrics though#persona songs are good at being incomprehensible. even if you can understand the lyrics i think they're kinda nonsensical sometimes#i mean. check it out i'm in the house like carpet. that's an actual line from a persona song#which is hilarious to me. funniest metaphor#anyways wiping all out is the best persona song i think (<- only actually remembers what like 10 persona songs sound like)#been a little while but i'm still prattling. not a princess (a lot of anger in it) not your cutie girlfriend oh no don't you know#three dots connect to rectangles. demolition#yes i did specifically play p3p and specifically as girl. i probably won't play it more for a while now tho tbh#i kinddddd of spoiled myself on. basically all of the important plot points. through lesbian fanfiction#look can you really blame me. like *vaguely gestures* the door and the toaster are fucking KISSING#they should undoor. i knowwwwww it goes against the game's message but. shut up. i like happy endings#no dead lovers allowed over here >:(#they deserve to be happy and not crucified
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