#what happens when pandora tells sirius is already posted

[solarisburns]

Dorcas knew something was wrong when Evan showed up at her door one night. At the start of the war, right before she graduated all three of her-the boys took the dark mark. She wanted, desperately, for there to be more to the story, but if there was they never told her. So when she found out she was furious told them all she never wanted to speak to them ever again, and the only time they would see her face is from behind bars or in a shallow grave. They respected that and before she knew it, its been over a year and she missed them like she misses a limb. but she does not regret her decision.

So when one night evan shows up alone, dorcas knows something is wrong. she nearly curses him outright when he asks to come in but he offers his wand to her and doesn't even flinch when she rips it out of his hand. idly she considers snapping it. Evan didn't look good, he was more wirey than before the war and he looked depressed. his eyes were red.

he came into her apartment and looked around in curiosity, right he had never seen her apartment they had stopped speaking a week before she moved in. he sat on her couch and she pretended not to be hurt about how right it felt to have him here. then he spoke, "We wanted to tell you, I swear we did but he told us that if you knew and someone found out you would be a target. You and marlene and your family. We tried Dorcas we tried so fucking hard but were losing and we don't know what to do and you, your the most powerful witch we know and Reg-" he rambled frantically and when he tried to say Regulus' name his voice broke and Dorcas was filled with this horrible sense of dread. She knew why Evan was here but she didn't want to believe it. She needed to hear it out loud but merlin she didn't want to.

"Evan, what are you doing here."

"Regulus is dead."

"Oh."

And the worst part is, Dorcas knew, they all knew that Regulus would not make it through this war. One way or another, no matter what side, this always ended with Regulus dead. She feels a stab of resentment for the dead boy.

"Were spies, we um have been for years. Regulus stole something from Voldemort, he uh he died to get it. He told us if he didn't make it back to bring it to you, that you would have the power to destroy it. It's with Pandora at the moment, we try to keep it moving so theres less of a chance it can be tracked, but we wanted to tell you now. I'm sorry. And I'm sorry I had to be the one to tell you, I know you never wanted to see me again but Pandora is telling Sirius and Barty the Potters." Evan was crying, and he was desperately trying to hide it. Then Dorcas realized she was crying to. They sat there and cried and cried, it could have been for hours the two of them cried.

She clears her throat and looks at the clock, "Marlene will be home soon, you should leave. And uh tell Pandora she, alone, can bring whatever it is over tomorrow afternoon." Dorcas wants to forgive them but she can't, not yet. And Regulus is dead, it doesn't feel real except for the way it's all too real.

Evan nods, "of course, whatever you need." he holds his hand for his wand and turns towards the door when he gets it, but hesitates. "I know I have no right to ask this, but Cas, can I have a hug?"

She's up before he finishes his sentence and pulling him into a hug "Sure Ev." she whispers into his ear as she rocks them, their the same height now, she used to have an inch on him. he huffs what might be a laugh. and before she knows it their letting go and he's almost out the door.

"See ya around Meadowes?"

"See you around Rosier."

And then he's gone and if she closes her eyes she can pretend that he was never here at all. That somewhere in the world the three boys are out there getting drunk and ruining peoples lives and growing up without her. The boys are spies and lied to her for years and Regulus is dead. She sinks down the closed door and sobs.

(She never does see Evan around, he died two months later)

[deathnguts]

@crimsonlovebartylus for the resurfacing of an idea in my skull but reference to an old post of mine where I detailed my headcanon that Regulus is named after his grandfather Arcturus because they share the same birthday, which lead to Arcturus always being the center of attention and regulus just being an add on and regulus never really viewing his birthday as his own and therefore not liking it much: but like imagine how specifically Barty finds out about this.

Cuz like, Evan and Pandora already know. They’ve been to the birthday parties, they have seen first hand how Arcturus takes the spotlight but also flaunts his favorite grandchild like one of his gifts every year. They know regulus doesn’t really enjoy the attention and they understand to just let it be quiet. Sirius also obviously knows, Narcissa too for when she’s in school at the same time as regulus. For both of them it’s kind of more of a sore subject than it is for Regulus, because it just causes so much drama with how both their parents get on them for not being the pride of the patriarch of their family like regulus. Sirius, of course, tries to overlook this because in the past it was his job to try and keep regulus cheery the whole night as not to upset their grandfather.

But Barty doesn’t know this stuff. His birthdays have always been normal, albeit lonely since he was never that good at making friends, but he had his mom and a home baked cake and it was fun! He’s never been to a House of Black Galla, he’s never even heard of what they’re celebrating beyond his father’s complaining that meetings are canceled for them since Orion ‘Heir’ Black won’t be attending them. I imagine for like, the first two years of knowing regulus, Barty doesn’t even know his birthday. And it’s just one of those things that slips his mind, because no one reminds him his friend should have a birthday so it doesn’t ring any alarm bells in his head that he’s never celebrated it.

That is, until, probably their fourth year, when Barty’s finally reminded. Sirius left home a year ago, this is the first year where he isn’t present at Arcturus’ birthday party and therefore the first year Sirius missed his little brother’s birthday. He feels bad, he feels bad about a lot of things. So as kind of an olive branch and a bandaid over his own guilt, he tells regulus happy late birthday. He does it alone but while regulus is with his friends so he doesn’t feel outnumbered and also because he didn’t want the other marauders to see him do this. Maybe he gets Regulus something, but probably not since he figures regulus will throw it away out of protest (which he’s right about.)

Regulus is dumbfounded, unsure of if he’s upset or what he’s even upset about so he’s just blank faced like normal. Evan’s holding his breath because he has no idea what happens when the spell of silence around Regulus’ birthday is broken. And Barty is just… confused? Regulus didn’t have a birthday recently? It was his grandfather’s birthday, not his. That’s what regulus says every year. ‘My grandfather’s birthday party is soon’ that’s what he says. It’s not his party. Is it?

But regulus doesn’t correct his brother and is silent long enough for Sirius to get antsy and frustrated and leave in a huff like always. Evan and Regulus pretend he never showed up, Barty decides to speak when he obviously shouldn’t like he’s famous for.

“It was your birthday?”

Regulus stiffens a little. “Yeah.”

“When? Why didn’t- why didn’t we do anything?”

“We did, my grandfather throws a party.”

“… but, no, you said it was his birthday.”

Regulus shrugs. “We share a birthday. It’s why I’m his favorite.”

Barty asks more questions but Evan’s warning stare and Regulus’ silence shut him up. But it’s not the end of it, Barty won’t let it be. He’s tenacious and he ‘doesn’t know when to quit,’ he knows this as he’s been told it many times. Just imagine him absolutely not taking the hint that regulus prefers to ignore things that could make him happy because they usually don’t and gently barraging him with attention.

Like Barty isn’t much a gift giver, he doesn’t really know how to read what people like or pay attention to what’s available enough to do so. But regulus is always good with gifts for others, especially for Barty, so he tries. Maybe he gets him jewelry since he knows that regulus likes it but every piece he owns is a family heirloom of some kind, so now he has some that don’t have the ghosts of his shit family within them! And Barty wouldn’t consider himself as good of a baker as he is with cooking (every dough he’s ever made for anything looks radioactive get him away from the oven) and you can’t really cook at Hogwarts yourself so he gets the house elves to make some moon cakes since he knows regulus loves them but infers they probably aren’t served at his birthday (since it’s Walburg’s side of the family that’s Chinese, and Arcturus doesn’t see the point in non french food at his party.)

Barty doesn’t think a ton of it, it’s barely a gift really and he didn’t even make the cakes. He thinks birthdays should be a little bigger at least, like Sirius has a fucking bash every year, his brother should have something of a fraction of that right? But Regulus could fucking cry. He’s legitimately never felt anything but numb about his birthday before and this is the most positive attention actually thrown his way and no one else’s for it ever. He’s rarely seen by anyone, and even those he does hold close and love him understand that and further understand that he’s reproachful to let that change out of whiplash for it all. But Barty’s different, he’s always been different. More. And Regulus loves him so much for it.

Kinda corny but like guaranteed birthdays spent late and by Barty’s side are better than anything regulus could have wished for.

[pockets-full-of-roses]

I Wanna Be Your Boyfriend

brief summary: james potter just wants to be regulus black’s boyfriend, pursuing him in the same way he did lily. how does regulus feel about this?

[jegulus/starchaser/sunseeker; you can find this on my ao3]

credit for dividers — @enchanthings

James Fleamont Potter wasn’t that needy. At least.. he didn’t think he was. He was a man of needs. A man of talent. And a good looking man at that.

He was the popular guy of Gryffindor. The one that knew everyone. The one that everyone knew. He threw parties and pranks, got immense love from the teachers, and could always get the girl or guy.

But Regulus Black was different.

Regulus didn’t let James “get” him so easily. He made him work for it. And that made James hold on. Keep going. Keep trying, just as he had done for Lily.

“He wouldn’t date you, Prongs,” tutted Sirius Black, dramtically sprawled out on top of Remus Lupin, who was too busy reading his book. “You remember what happened with Evans, don’t you?”

James shuddered, “I’d rather not embarrass myself again.”

Sirius shook his head, laughing. “Good choice, mate.”

Remus finally finished the chapter, sighing softly. He glanced at the two, raising a brow. “What are you lot on about?”

“Prongs keeps trying to go for my little brother. Which I still think is incest.”

“It’s not incest. I’m not blood related to you, Padfoot.”

Remus chuckled, “Tell me the story again, James. I’m listening this time.”

James groaned, laying back down on his bed. With a lot of hesitation, he nodded.

“It all started a couple months ago. I had finally figured out my love for Regulus-“

Sirius snorted. James threw him a look.

“-Anyway. I had joined this small Slytherin study group, thanks to this sweet Hufflepuff. Regulus was in it, so I was hoping to catch up with him after studying. But he’d always leave early. These two white-haired twins would pat my back — which was kinda weird now that I think about it.”

Remus closed his eyes, rubbing his temple. “Get to the point.”

“Right. Sorry. I finally got him once, after Potions. We have that with Slytherin? Erm.. I asked him if I could walk him to his next class. He obviously said no, but I guess I looked convincing enough that he didn’t retaliate after I stayed. Whatever.. I began asking him about classes, interests, and whatnot. Oh sweet Merlin, his voice was music to my ears. He wouldn’t talk at first, but damn when he did?”

James kicked his feet in the air, earning a laugh from Sirius and a chuckle from Remus.

“Then, I asked him, like I did many times already these past weeks, if he wanted to hang out sometime or be my boyfriend. He answered with a no, but I could’ve sworn there was some hesitation there.”

Remus nodded, brows furrowing in thought. James was head over heels, worse than he had originally thought.

“What should I do, Moony? You’re the love expert, aren’t you?” James pleaded, sitting up on his knees.

“I thought I was the love expert,” Sirius pouted, going to pretend-sulk in Remus’s chest.

“I think you should stop asking him to.. y’know.. be your boyfriend and try to be considered his friend. Make your way up.”

James considered, then nodded. It’ll be hard to keep those feelings down. “I’ll try, Moony.”

Those words he had uttered echoed in his mind. I’ll try.

Meanwhile, Regulus Black himself was screaming into a pillow. His friends, Barty Crouch Jr, Evan Rosier, and Pandora Rosier, sat on his bed in different positions.

Pandora sat upright, close to Regulus and patting his back. Barty had his legs kicked up on the bed, shoes and all. Evan was leaning against the bed post, sitting partially on the bed.

“What is it now, Reggie?”

“HE ASKED ME OUT AGAIN!” he groaned, voice muffled by his pillow. “AND I SAID NO. AGAIN.”

Barty rolled his eyes, nudging Regulus with his foot. “At least you know he’s going to try again. I mean.. he’s been doing this since last year or so.”

“It’s okay. You can always ask him out yourself. He’s head over heels for you,” Pandora reasoned, drumming random beats on his back.

“What if he doesn’t?”

“Oh, believe us, we can tell,” Evan scoffed with a laugh.

Regulus sat up, holding a pillow to his chest. “I think I love him.”

“No shit, Sherlock.”

“No..- Actually. I want to ask him out. The next time he asks me… I’ll say yes.”

The three glanced at each other, then back at Regulus. “Are you sure? You won’t freeze up again and say no?”

“I won’t.”

Regulus looked determined, and silently prayed and hoped that James would ask again. He’d say yes to him. He was like the sun to his moon, touching on every rare occurrence. They’d show them. He smiled softly, something that he hadn’t done in a while, and held the pillow up to his face with another groan.

“I wanna be your boyfriend. I wanna be your boyfriend,” his voice sang in his mind, making him smile grow.

Whatever you say, Reg, the group thought simultaneously, whatever you say.

all writing by pockets full of roses. please do not repost without permission. likes, comments, and reblogs are greatly appreciated!

[itsjaywalkers]

suffering horrendous nothing happens withdrawals, heart getting weaker, legs getting numb, sweat running down my back etc etc do you have any headcanons or something to help me during this difficult time 😔

(only if you feel like it ofc lovey)

OF COURSE I HAVE HCS NONNIE.. I'M ALWAYS THINKING ABOUT THEM.. and i'm more than happy to share them with u mwah!!

james' first time happened when he was 16 with this girl a couple of years older than him, they never dated it was simply a hookup. but reg's first time is with james when he's 17 (and james 19) <3 while he's dating barty too <3

funnily enough.. this happening is actually barty's fault..

james ruins more than a few friendships over regulus and all the shit he does for/bc of him (he doesn't care)

there's a scene with james and lily after he catches he and reg making out . very heavily . and i'm so fucking excited to write it bc their lil convo is everythingggg to me

barty and pandora dated briefly when he first joined their friend group. and then barty dated reg. and he ends up with evan at some point. which is somehow hilarious to me bc he saw this lil group of freaks and he was like . yeah i'm fucking all of them . AND HE DID

james gets in a physical fight with one of reg's bfs (rabastan) and actually sends him to the hospital

mary never forgives james about the emma thing, so their friendship remains tense and . kinda bitter . after he and emma break up

effie and monty absolutely adore reg as a person but . they don't like him for james bc they don't like the kind of person james turns into when he's with reg (this changes with time obviously and this is not all on reg, james is half to blame at the very least but that's their son etc)

everyone at reg's school think he's dating james (mostly during his last 2 years) and he never corrects them

despite barty being the person james hates the most . his least fav of reg's bfs is benjy simply bc he's actually a nice guy and really good for reg (it also doesn't help that sirius loooooves him)

reg makes a habit of picking up james' phone when they're hanging out and james' current gf calls and being . as ambiguous about what they're doing as possible on purpose

james catches him at some point but finds it soooo funny and sooooo endearing that he allows it. kinda encourages it even

james mentions in part 2 of nothing happens that he doesn't think sirius knows about he and reg sharing a bed so often bc he'd confront him about it but sirius Does Know bc he has seen them a couple of times when he has a nightmare and goes to look for his brother

he's not a fan. hates it even. but he'd never tell reg how or where to seek comfort so he's never mentioned it and simply pretends it's not a Thing at all

evan's always been Team James simply bc he was jealous when reg and barty dated and secretly wanted them to break up so bad

pandora however................. she stops being james' fan at some point in the story and even after they figure their shit out . her friendship with him is never the same

when it comes to james' friends, i'm pretty sure the only ones rooting for reg are lily and peter. like.. not even sirius and that's literally his brother lmao

james and reg's relationship stays mostly platonic at all times (except they never actually act like friends but u get what i mean) but when either or both of them are dating someone . the jealousy and possessiveness jump out and suddenly they're making out + fucking any chance they get

reg shows off all the hickeys james leaves when james is dating someone, but does his best to cover them when james is single (or he is dating someone)

james never hides the marks reg leaves tho.. mostly bc he isn't self-aware about the cheating and he's never ashamed of what he and reg do

and i think i'm gonna stop there bc this has already gotten long enough.. i have another post with some hcs somewhere in the tag tho i case u wanna check those up too!!

[ghostofafruit]

Here's my favourite fics of 2023

All Time Favourite: Wrong Place, Wrong Time Doctor Who and MCU, 6331 Words Summary: Or maybe it is the right place, right time. While searching for the Doctor, Rose ended up in a universe she'd ever been to before. If only she'd arrived five minuets later, or forty minuets earlier. Thanos had just defeated the avengers in space, and she's one of the unlucky fifty percent. While safely tucked away in Pete's Universe, her family watch her life signs fade away. The five years pass, and suddenly a tracker they had set of detected her. Doctor Who Favourite: The Doctor's Tattoo, 13342 words Summary: He's just dropped Donna off, and not even twelve hours earlier he'd lost Rose to the other universe. His only consolation was that she had her mum and Mickey. She'd be fine, she'd find a way to have a great life. He missed her though, and he knew that humans, and a lot of other species, liked to drink away pain. What was the harm in that? He woke the next morning with a tattoo. He actually likes it, but when he regenerates he misses it instantly. So he gets another one. And the process repeats Good Omens Favourite: A Demon's Tears, 2668 Words Summary: Aziraphale decides he's had enough of Heaven. He'd much rather be with Crowley. Except, well, he's been gone for eighteen months and things aren't the same anymore. Namely, Crowley doesn't look the same, Muriel seems to have gained some confidence in their eighteen months on Earth, and there's a second demon hanging around his bookshop. Is he welcome on Earth anymore? Harry Potter Favourite: Tattoos and Fortunes, 2350 words Summary: Sybil and Pandora own a tattoo parlour and fortune telling shop, and they've known each other since school. They've also been dancing around each other since school, on a quiet day as Pandora tattoos Sybil, their feelings for each other start to become apparent. Highest Kudos: Family Trees, Harry Potter, 4562 words, 719 Kudos Summary: After avoiding the Black family tapestry, Sirius finally faces it. He reasons with himself to avoid false hope, but after confirmation from another source he confirms his brother isn't dead. He also finds out some more interesting facts, and it turns out Regulus was smarter than he thought. Highest Hits: (2nd place, first is same as above) The Coffee, Good Omens, 1044 words, 3498 Hits Summary: Crowley and Aziraphale have a bad feeling about the coffee the Metatron is offering. Crowley steps in, and chaos ensues Highest Ratio of kudos to hits(fics released in the last week not counted): A Trip To France, Doctor Who, 617 Words, Ratio of 3.48 Summary: "Look Adam, the future is like Paris. You can't just read the guidebook! You've got to throw yourself in, eat all the food, use the wrong verbs, get charged double, and kiss complete strangers. Or is that just me?" post tentoo rose returns to her home universe, the first Doctor she runs into is the fourth Doctor, and it just so happens they're in Paris. Highest Bookmarks: (3rd place, 2nd and 1st already on list) The Reveal, Harry Potter, 1053 Word, 91 Bookmarks Summary: Sirius has spent the day studying for his newts and thinking about housing arrangements, today is not the day for news to come out. Of course Regulus, Evan, and Barty, didn't get that memo and several days later he finds himself running after his best friend and cursing him out.

2023 has been a great year for me, espically in fanfic. I've written so many fics this years, it's brilliant. Admittedly most of them are drabbles but I'm still damn proud of myself. Happy new year!

[writingamarie]

Pandora reaches out to Dorcas and the skittles' finally together then Reg is shipped to Azkaban. That's utterly whut? I mean, they're finally fixing the gap. Their moment together in the cabin right? Reg didn't even bother being vicious to Dorcas because they're finally complete. And then, Reg says, nope. No can do. Had to spend my vacation in Azkaban. So long suckers. Hmp. I couldn't even bring myself to be mad about his decision because it makes sense. Reg didn't, never wanted to be a hero yet he's always doing the right thing. I'm p.sure it's James' influence on him. I'm just rambling yk. It's the effect of re-reading a chapter waiting for the next one. Did I tell you how impressive it was with how to close the War Chap? It's basically the start of healing and I couldn't be more proud of you Marie. Oh Lovey, you're so precious. I don't know what I'm saying. I think before typing this ask/message, I have a perfectly constructed thing to say yet I'm furthermore rambling. I had to say goodbye to stop. I hope you enjoyed thanksgiving with fam. See you next chap.

it is a cruel fate.

reg never considered himself a hero and he never planned to survive the war so there's a significant amount of survivor's guilt and imposter syndrome happening. he saved the world but he feels like he'll only ever be seen as a death eater even if he did cut the Mark off.

his desire to do the right thing is for sure an influence from james. he saw goodness in james, he saw how a person can want to be better for others no matter the cost to themselves and he didn't always agree with it but it left an impression. he wanted to be good like that: for james, for sirius, for himself...

i really loved the end of the war. like the whole chapter just kept coming which is why it ended up being so long. i love how many of them are stuck with a feeling of being unsure what comes next, because they've all been working towards ending the war for years now and it's just over and most of them didn't do a thing to help end it.

but i am very excited to get on to the healing. i think it is so fun how people start to come together. i've been using this short break to write and i have three chapters already drafted and a fourth outlined. the goal has always been to finish the story before the new year and i should be on track to do that!

i always love your ramblings, so feel free anytime. i had a great thanksgiving. my parents are crazy and don't understand portion control. my mom baked a turkey, my dad smoked a turkey and some type of steak, we had a bunch of sides, and then my uncle came who doesn't eat meat so we made pasta as well. there were only 10 of us and enough food for double that.

i think i am going to stick to the tuesday update. i am hoping i can get another chapter or two drafted so i feel ahead again. it's been really easy to just keep writing when i haven't had to worry about stopping to edit a chapter in order to post.

[iwriteasfotini]

THATS My Thoughts

We are nearly there. Tomorrow. Installment one begins posting tomorrow. And I’m over the moon. I have a hard time thinking any of the other installment release date will cause me as much anticipation and excitement as this one. It’s my first work of fanfiction, and you know what they say about your first time…

I feel so far removed from this work though. I’m currently writing year seven. But The Heir and The Spare has such an endearing sweetness to it. The kids are just that, kids. They don’t know any magic (yet). They are goofy oddballs. Sirius is trying to figure his foreign feelings out. The seeds of YEARS of angst are planted. Sorry. It’s a slow burn, but BIG payout. And I can confidently say that because I’ve already written them getting together. And it is worth every word of buildup, in my opinion. 

It’s really hard to judge your own writing. I’ve read this installment at least four times now, and every time I laugh out loud, I tell my partner how much I love it. He’s told me my writing is better than some published fiction he’s read. This work is my weakest for writing though, it’s my first one. My writing has improved now that I’ve got a zillion words under my belt. But this one is good enough. ;)

I have loved every second of this project which I embarked upon in March (of 2024). But I always knew I wasn’t going to put too much effort into making everything perfect because my main goal was to tell the story which is sort of a beast. There might be minor plot holes here or there. Please, if you notice any gaping ones, bring them to my attention. There might be slight discrepancies in characterization as the kids age. Everything I've written sort of muddles together in my mind. I had to stop reading Marauders era fics because I couldn't keep my characterizations and events versus other people's straight. But every time I re-read this one I’m happier than I anticipated. 

What can I say about this first work? It’s nostalgic. It’s warm and fuzzy, but also has some dark elements. Let me restate, this series as a whole gets DARK. Extremely dark. I put a huge warning in my pinned tumblr post for a reason. And even though this year isn’t that dark, there are definitely dark moments. Please don’t say I didn’t warn you. And if you find themes which are disturbing, traumatic, or violent challenging for you, I’m sorry to say this is NOT the series for you. 

Also you should know I’m horrible at keeping secrets. Like I’d blow all the spoilers in my own story in a second if I could. I also really can’t handle suspense when reading. I’m a chronic re-reader because I like reading stories I know the ending of. Since I follow canon events, you all know where this story is leading, a very sad place indeed. And because of that, I don’t feel I have to keep the lid as tightly closed on all my plot lines and the gifts I will offer you. In the spirit of spoilers, my favorite parts of this story are the repertoire between the tween boys (also between the boys and Lily), the inter-house friendships and cohesiveness within the student body, Wolfstar’s first Christmas at Hogwarts, and any flying scene. My beta reader/partner’s favorite thing was Pandora and her magic. Which is pretty spectacular. But see, here I go giving away all my secrets before the story has even begun posting… Get used to it people. We have a long journey to travel together. You all are going to grow to either love or hate me, maybe both.

I have no idea how my story will be received. Honestly if anyone is even reading this far in this post it will surprise me. Thankfully I have no problem brain dumping for my own enjoyment. Which is sort of what this series is. It was taking up all my mental space because it needed to get out into the world. I literally feel like it has and is still writing itself. I do not think all writing happens like this, and I’m not sure why it is happening to me. I’ve written over a million words in eight months… I mean I feel like that isn’t normal. Or healthy… but that’s beside the point. 

This is a story I needed to tell myself. And in doing so, I get to share it with you!

Please, if you enjoy it, share. If you read it once and want to re-read it, tell me! If it inspires you to write something yourself, even if it’s just a one-shot, SHARE with me, with the community. If you are an artist and want to create inspired art, I might just break down in sobs of joy. Creativity breeds creativity. I have a vision of offering writing prompts for various moments throughout this series for other people to write a POV which is absent, as I only write one POV per installment. Wouldn’t it be fun to see how a few different people envision a moment we never witness first hand? I hope this story burrows into your creative psyche and grows a new idea, one you can explore. 

And I hope it takes you home, hits your soul. There will be darkness, but there is also so much light. So much love. I want to crawl into this story and live there. I hope you do too. :)

-for our time is not infinite

[twisted-tales-told]

Alright I’m here for Part Two which is: Jegulus fics that have either already Hurt Me To My Bones, or I am predicting will Hurt Me To My Bones. 

Choices by Messermoon If you’re reading this, and its not in the top five things in life thats causing you pain, then I simply do not understand how your brain works. In other words, I’m dying out here guys. I found it at 14 chapters long. The prank had just happened, I caught up in one night and ONLY THEN did I see the canon compliant tag aka. I didn’t stand a chance. The meer existence of Lupercal fundamentally changed me as a human being, and Mia somehow became my favourite fictional character I’ve ever had the honour of reading about. Reading this makes me so thankful I learned how to bookbind last year, because making my pretty typesets is How I’m Coping. I also just owe a huge debt of gratitude to this fic because it reminded me why I love writing and gave me the courage to apply to creative writing school. I found out last week I got in.

Don't worry, darlin' by achylss has already hurt me, and will hurt me more. I’ve accepted my fate. I don’t know how to describe it but the line “One couldn't yield such a storm without peculiar strength and bravery.” reframed my entire perspective on how I treat myself when I’m struggling with my mental health. This fic has some content warnings so make sure you check those but if you’re in a good place I really recommend. I could not describe what it’s about if I tried, I won’t do it justice. 

Drugs and surgical scrubs by anauro Believe it or not it hasn’t actually hurt me yet but boy do I think it’s going to. Basically The Marauders are drug addicts, Regulus is an anesthesiologist, and after an *Altercation* leaves James with a stab wound Sirius guilts Regulus into looking after him. It is a very realistic portrayal of drug addiction. What made me fall in love with this fic was, first of all getting to read all the cool medical terms and what they mean, and secondly Marlene Mckinnon being Regulus’ queer confidant and surrogate big sister. Also Andromeda and Ted. Just them both being there made me so happy. 

Flowers by gwenstacylvr Okay Listen. Theres a story as to why this one is on my list and I have not known peace since I read it. (content warning: Regulus dies via suicide attempt in this fic, and it’s about grief, moving on etc. James does fall in love with Lily, but Holy Fuck That Hurt More Somehow?)  I was minding my business on tiktok when the user pr0ngslover (I’m 99 percent sure that was the username) had posted an edit. It was to the Sufjan steven’s song Fourth of July. So basically I was already in pain, and then I had the audacity to ask if it was based off a fic. And they responding, yes, Flowers by gwenstacylvr. I went. I read The Fic. It has been almost five goddamn months and I have not mentally moved past it. I cry when I eat a kit-kat, I cry when I find the edit on my camera-roll. I could not even tell you why. I’m a bit of a stickler for structure, grammar, all that stuff when I read literally anything--honestly it’s just habit at this point. But when I tell you I don’t give a shit that the storytelling is inconsistent, or that the grammar isn’t the best in the world, I mean it, cuz it still managed to destroy me anyhow and I gotta give it that. 

Fade Into You by euphorial_docx Again, it hasn’t hurt me yet...but I think it’s gonna, and I’m willing to bet on that. The bittersweet ending tag is taunting me. I love Pandora in this So Much and I will somehow headcanon pandalily in it. I don’t care what actually happens, I will project those two being in love with every fic I read where they’re present. 

I See Stars and Painted Lies By Iwantedausername There are only three chapters in this fic so far, and it does not tag whether its canon death of James or not and that freaks me out man. Like Regulus survives the cave, but my brain will wormhole a way into worrying its gonna be canonical death ending. Basically James & Regulus were sort of together at Hogwarts but the fic really starts after he escapes the cave with the Hocrux. I love James’ characterization so far, Remus is really great too. Even if it’s not canon compliant I’ve already felt hurt at multiple points. Also, as Mary MacDonalds #1 fan, they better get her the hell out of jail real soon she deserves better. 

Anyways there’s my painful Jegulus fanfic list if you were looking to get your heart broken. 

[aroaceslytherin]

Ummm...

At this point we are all making shit up in this HP fandom because the writer that shall not be named fucked up a lot of things...

time-lines... ages... places... people... things...

So... the Potters helped save Sirius after Remus bailed him out, they saw Remus and Sirius get married then Lily, Regie, and James get married, they meet their first-born grandkids; Magnolia, Hermione, Harry, and Cyprus (oc's and Hermione will be explained when I post more one-shots or later when I post the fanfic)... before dying.

Sirius has two other siblings besides just Regulus (and because Cygnus sucks at being a father... Narcissa, Bellatrix, and Andromeda became their sisters... the only nice thing Walburga did. (Pandora Lovegood was Narcissa's twin)

Remus was a mommy's boy because his father blamed himself for everything (when Hope got sick, Lyall grew a pair and decided to try and salvage what little relationship he had left with him)

Peter's mother was a single mom working in the bakery above their basement home.

James was a rambunctious child and his elderly parents could not keep up with him.

The four of them became best friends due to loneliness, chemistry, and similar "traumas" - James took in the three neglected unloved kids and Remus ended up accidentally starting a zoo in fourth year.

(Remus and Sirius had their first kiss at thirteen, don't tell me otherwise... he cherished and loved Remus since he was eleven and finally asked him out when they were fourteen... just a few months shy of becoming animagi for him... realizing his feelings when he frolicked as a wolf-dog with his best friend who happened to also be a wolf... he may have been a dick and might have saw the wolf as something he could fix and cure, but he got over it... he was just a teen after all)

And yeah, Sirius may have almost destroyed their relationship by letting slip about Remus' secret not knowing Snape walked by the library... he quickly realized his mistake because of Euphemia and did his best to make up with them. Hint: it something to do with his family. Hint: they were being dumb teenagers and we all say dumb stupid shit when we are young... we do stupid shit when we are young...

But no one is as lucky as the Marauders were to be able to love each other again after all the shit they put each other through... they lived through a WAR for Merlin's sake! You might have accidentally put your friends through danger too. I am sure there was something you wished you could take away from a friend or a loved one but couldn't, got stuck in your head about it, and didn't realize it until someone slapped you over the head for it.

Moving on...

The Marauders knew about Peter, everyone has a different story to "the prank", Peter is in Azkaban, mostly everyone was gay, Minnie and Poppy were like second moms to everyone, everyone lived, Remus and Lyall still had a sucky relationship but it got better and he went to his dad for EVERYTHING...

We may not agree on everything, we all have different HC's and AU's... but some things we agree on are; JK is not the greatest and Umbridge is worse than Voldemort (even though Tom is pretty fucking nasty as well), and Walburga Black was a bitch.

In other words... I am also slightly saying fuck the timeline and canon because I too, suck at math. (And also the books do not make a whole lot of sense... but I am canon compliant in some ways and you do you if you love canon... that's cool! I got into Harry Potter and Marauders through Pinterest and fanfictions so I already fucked it up for myself... don't come for me!)

[chuchiotaku]

Ok, first of all

HOW DARE YOU MAKING ME THINK I HAD TO WAIT UNTIL JANUARY FOR THE NEW CHAPTER!? DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA OF THE HEART ATTACK I HAD THIS MORNING WHEN I SAW THE UPDATE!?!?

Ok, now that, ehm... I'm calmed down, let me gush on your art piece once again.

I loved everything. I said last time that I wanted some shocking dose of angst, but I didn't knew how heart clenching would have been seeing Ron saying goodbye to... his friends, again, and for the last time. How many things not said, how many plans that will never see the light, how many... apologies, never to be make...

I'm happy that the mirror made him see (and hear) what his loved one truly thought of him, but I'm still bitter for the fact that he had to DIE before he actually got some vocal recognition.

But moving on from depressing topics, I loved seeing the sibling so tight with each other and Harry! I felt almost as if you anticipated Harry's second year summer, and now they get to see Sirius too? Original Harry would be terribly proud of his Ron and terribly jealous of that little Harry...

I really liked Pettigrew's breakdown at the end of the process. And I loved (and hated too, of course) his threats: making 'regret to be born' the same guy that fought and gained the upper hand on Bellatrix? Twice!? Ok buddy, whatever makes you feel better... But if in order to hurt Ron you target one of his brothers or Ginny... well, it has never been a pleasure meet you.

And it's also good seeing Pandora alive! Another Truespartan's Fateverse character added in the rooster, I can't wait to see her in action!

And at least this time Albus is actually ackwnoledging Ron, wonder if he's already planning a role for him in his chessplay againts Tom. I hope he will grow to love him as he'll love Harry.

And I know tastes are subjective but... I think the anon was just short sighted, Ron is totally the person that for his loved ones is ready to move mountains and seas (Buckbeak's trial proved it. How he started searching for past trials in his free time is proof how much is ready to invest himself if it means to help his friend) and I don't expect that everything is going to be all fine and dandy the whole time. Peter's threats scream 'FORESHADOWING' for an ipotetical plot in the third year (way less traumatazing regarding what happened with him in Fate... brrr). Ron is just... trying to sow the best he can, and only at the reaping time we'll see what he did right or wrong.

Keep it going! You are an increadible writer! See you next time, and happy new year!

(And give me some Daphne showtime damn it!!)

First off, anon, happy New Year! 🎉🎉🎉

Ahaha, sorry about the mini-heart attack.  I was aiming to post chapters 14 and 15 relatively close together because they’re initially planned to be one chapter but I hit some snags so yeah, chapter 15 got delayed.  But at least it’s up now, right?  :)

[Warning: Long response ahead. ]

I said last time that I wanted some shocking dose of angst, but I didn't knew how heart clenching would have been seeing Ron saying goodbye to... his friends, again, and for the last time. 

That part at the mirror was very relatable, I think.  There are things we will always want, but deep down, we know they can never be.  In order for Ron to move forward, he had to acknowledge that and let go, something he learned he had to do after that Owlery scene with Harry.  

Not that he entirely has, mind you.  But it’s a good step forward.

I'm happy that the mirror made him see (and hear) what his loved one truly thought of him

It’s a comforting interpretation, but I feel the need to remind my readers that the Mirror of Erised shows only the deepest desires of its viewer. The scene where the new life versions of Ron’s loved ones take over the older ones, telling Ron that they accept and love him, is Ron’s true deepest desire now that he time travelled. Not that it is what’s real.  That’s why Ron broke down, because he knows deep down it’s just a fantasy.  Weell, we know that’s not entirely true, but to him it is.  

(The Deluminator souvenir from Death and its visions, on the other hand...)

but I'm still bitter for the fact that he had to DIE before he actually got some vocal recognition.

You know what they say: you don’t know what you have until it’s gone.  :shrugs: Honestly, Ron is such a taken-for-granted character both in the books and in the fandom, it’s so frustrating...

Anyway, getting off the angst train!

I loved seeing the sibling so tight with each other and Harry! I felt almost as if you anticipated Harry's second year summer, and now they get to see Sirius too? 

I wanted to show the tight knit Weasley dynamic JK claims they have but never really showed because we are limited to Harry’s narrative (which is understandable).  And as what I have planned for second year summer: safe to say, it will start off like what happened in the books before it veers off canon course.  Because Sirius and Remus are there, and Ron knows it. :)

Original Harry would be terribly proud of his Ron and terribly jealous of that little Harry... 

But of course!  I’d like to think that Ron is one of the, if not THE, characters in his age group that Harry holds such high regard for.  

And who’s to say jealous Harry won’t make an appearance? When Ron’s making more friends outside the Gryffindor house, and a certain someone may get close enough to threaten the best friend position?  😉😉😉

I really liked Pettigrew's breakdown at the end of the process. And I loved (and hated too, of course) his threats: making 'regret to be born' the same guy that fought and gained the upper hand on Bellatrix? Twice!? Ok buddy, whatever makes you feel better... 

Pettigrew doesn’t know who he’s messing with, but Ron too is underestimating the rat a little too much.  Good thing that won’t cause him any problems in the future. 😒

But if in order to hurt Ron you target one of his brothers or Ginny... well, it has never been a pleasure meet you. 

Now that would make Pettigrew wish he was never born.  Haha!

And it's also good seeing Pandora alive! Another Truespartan's Fateverse character added in the rooster, I can't wait to see her in action!

Pandora is Luna’s mother’s canon name, but yes I did get the inspiration from Fate, as well as The Red Knight.  But she won’t be around until Book 2.  Don’t worry, it will come.  I hope.  :sweatdrop:

And at least this time Albus is actually ackwnoledging Ron, wonder if he's already planning a role for him in his chessplay againts Tom. 

Of course Albus will notice a smart and wise beyond his years eleven year old who became best friends with Harry Potter, managed to take on a troll then get involved in the reveal and arrest of a mass murderer who may have something more in common with him than he originally thought (coughmirroroferisedcough).  How Ron will benefit from this attention (if he ever will) or how he’ll deal with this new complication will be part of the story’s fun.  And we’re just getting started.

I hope he will grow to love him as he'll love Harry.

I think many can already tell where I’m planning to go with Albus and Ron’s relationship.  The specifics, however, are the ones I can leave you guys guessing.  It will be good!  Hopefully! 🤞

And I know tastes are subjective but... I think the anon was just short sighted, Ron is totally the person that for his loved ones is ready to move mountains and seas (Buckbeak's trial proved it. How he started searching for past trials in his free time is proof how much is ready to invest himself if it means to help his friend)

I saw it as Guest being too fixated at what happened in the books that they didn’t take into account that the second I changed something in the fic, the butterfly effect is bound to occur.  In fact, Ron’s very presence in a world that isn’t what he left behind is already creating many ripples.  I honestly also saw it as them underestimating Ron a bit.  He’s a typical boy during most of the books: lazy with his studies because he is unmotivated.  Give him purpose and you’ll get to see him really shine, exactly like what you said about the Buckbeak thing.

It’s canon that Ron is smarter than he appears.  I mean, can a normal eleven year old remember the exact names of the laws on dragons, even if their brother is a dragon tamer?  

(It’s also another good basis on how much Ron admires Charlie that he can remember that much! Sorry, Solstice Muse turned me into a Charlie/Ron bro fluff fangirl after Ickle Ronniekins)

I don't expect that everything is going to be all fine and dandy the whole time. Peter's threats scream 'FORESHADOWING' for an ipotetical plot in the third year (way less traumatazing regarding what happened with him in Fate... brrr). 

Fate is a very heavy read, combining some of my favorite Ron-centric tropes while taking their fic to a newer, darker spin.  Truespartan has done a wonderful with it so far (I haven’t finished it yet,).  But as most of you can already tell, my story will be fart different from theirs.

That doesn’t mean there won’t be some dark moments in TBA.  And I’m so thrilled that you got the idea behind Pettigrew’s threats.  They ARE foreshadowing what is to come starting Year 3.  But what exactly?  Care to take a guess?  

Ron is just... trying to sow the best he can, and only at the reaping time we'll see what he did right or wrong.

Very true.  Although to me, it’s not a matter of whether it’s just “right or wrong”, and more of “can Ron deal with the consequences of the changes he made, and whether those consequences are worth the changes?”

Example: from a strictly moral standpoint, revealing Pettigrew and clearing Sirius’ name is the best good and what Ron should do from that thematic perspective.  However, these actions will cause some events to change from what he knew, and even cause entirely new ones (i.e. the plot of Year 3).  Is it worth the possibility of rendering Ron’s future knowledge almost useless?  Who knows? 

Keep it going! You are an increadible writer! See you next time, and happy new year!

Thank you so much for your kind words!  You guys are the reason TBA is still running even after all these years and me taking long breaks.  I hope to finish TBA Year 1 within 2021 so please be patient with me.  I’ll do my best!

(And give me some Daphne showtime damn it!!)

Oh, trust me, I have big plans for Daphne and Astoria.  Might get flak for it in the future, but for this, I’ll have to stick with my guns.  Oh dear...

💖 Happy New Year to you too, anon! And thanks for the ask. 💖

[dulcepericulum-rp]

In the month and a half since the memorial at St. Mungo’s, the world has been quiet—-publicly at least. No one can deny that tension rang through the streets of London and the walkways of both Diagon and Knockturn Alley, setting a permanent grey cloud over the already dreary England skies. People speak in hushed whispers, milling about in shops long after they’ve closed and crowding the Leaky Cauldron more than what’s considered usual (though Tom isn’t one to complain from the profit earned from this scare). The wizarding world is waiting for the other shoe to drop… and finally, they get their wish.

On February 17, a flurry of owls are sent off into the sky, the number so great that some mistake them for clouds or, if near a park, the leaves of a tree. Early risers think nothing of it when a paper arrives at their homes, but some are confused when they receive two bundles instead of one: one of the usual Daily Prophet, and another from Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry. Some look at that paper first, but all eventually turn their eyes to the Daily Prophet as they are wont to do, the staggering headline facing them in big, bold print:

‘HOGWARTS SCHOOL OF WITCHCRAFT AND WIZARDRY TO CLOSE INDEFINITELY’

On the second page of the paper, under the Auror Beats, another shocking piece of news comes into light: Alastor Moody has been declared missing in action, and Rufus Scrimgeour is to step in as acting Head Auror until further notice. His induction ceremony is set to happen eleven days from the publication of the article—February 29.

Meanwhile, the Order of the Phoenix and the Death Eaters don’t sit idly by. Hogwarts, once considered the safest place on Earth, is now free for the taking. After all, who wouldn’t want to put a castle to use? The Death Eaters have an advantage, thanks to the break-in earlier in the month by Bellatrix Lestrange and Rabastan Lestrange that led to the shut down in the first place.

FEBRUARY 29 - MORNING

(9:30 am) Fabian Prewett, Sirius Black, Peter Pettigrew, and Lily Potter arrive near Hogwarts as a group, all with separate tasks and limited time to get them done. Nearby, Bellatrix Lestrange arrives at Hogwarts with the intent to find and combat any Order members she comes across.

(9:32 am) In Hogsmeade, reconstruction efforts are well underway. Narcissa Malfoy is there personally overseeing everything and, having been the first to declare public support for Hogsmeade and donated a large sum of money to the cause, is followed without question. While coordinating the volunteers, Narcissa comes across Molly Weasley, who had taken Bill and Charlie out with her to help. Unfortunately, the boys have gotten off somewhere while Molly checked on the twins, and the two women search together for the children.

(9:45 am) A little ways away, Lucinda Talkalot and Marlene McKinnon walk through Hogsmeade both to volunteer and build good PR for the Catapults. Billy and their coach have asked Lucinda to groom Marlene’s public disposition, but Marlene seems she would rather be anywhere else. Lucinda quickly manages to give Marlene the slip when they’re stopped by Narcissa and Molly, going to the Forbidden Forest and entering the Hogwarts grounds through the breach. She is meant to watch over the grounds while Bellatrix scouts inside the castle, but has the unfortunate luck of running into Fabian Prewett, who had been doing the exact same thing.

(9:57 am) Inside of Hogwarts, Peter Pettigrew and Lily Potter team up to search the lower levels of Hogwarts for anything that could be of use. Lily also scouts the condition of the castle to see if it’s viable to use for the RHEA Initiative. While Lily searches through Slughorn’s supply closet, Peter keeps watch and comes face-to-face with Bellatrix. Not wanting the most important part of the mission to fail because of a duel, he tells Bellatrix where she can find Sirius in the castle, knowing that he can take care of himself. Luckily for him and Lily, the witch takes the bait and leaves to find her cousin.

(10:10 am) Near the Gryffindor common room, Sirius Black is confronted by Bellatrix, their rivalry coming to a head in a duel against one another. Sirius is grievously injured in the fight and is left by Bellatrix to die. Back in Dumbledore’s office, Fabian, Peter, and Lily search through the old headmaster’s belongings one more time for anything that could be useful. When Sirius fails to show up at the allotted time, Fabian makes the decision to leave without him, and the three of them escape the castle through Dumbledore’s illegal Floo network.

(10:12 am) Outside of Hogwarts’ barrier, Amelia Bones waits in case the infiltrators need back-up. When she hears nothing, she decides to start an unofficial investigation as to how anyone got through the school’s wards in the first place; about halfway between Hogsmeade and the Forbidden Forest, she finds Pandora Lovegood, who is going the same thing under the guise of writing an article for the Quibbler.

(10:27 am) Not wanting to attend the induction ceremony that evening, James Potter volunteers to strengthen the wards around Hogsmeade while he waits for the proper time to join the team in Hogwarts. He loses track of time, however, between his work and chatting for appearances, and it isn’t until he hears Marlene mention Lucinda’s disappearance that he realizes something is wrong. James abandons his post and rushes to Hogwarts, where he not only finds that his wife and comrades are gone, but that Sirius is on the ground dying outside of their old haunt. He gets in contact with Amelia using his Patronus as a messenger, and the two quickly bring him to St. Mungo’s, unaware that Pandora followed Amelia inside and sees them carrying Sirius into the Floo Network to leave the building.

FEBRUARY 29 - EVENING

(7:30 pm) The induction ceremony for Rufus Scrimgeour is crowded, though it seems that more than half of the Aurors manage to get out of attending it. One of the few there is Alice Longbottom, who seems less-than-pleased to see anyone but Alastor Moody standing in Scrimgeour’s spot. She makes conversation with Alecto Carrow, who is lingering by the refreshments table, and becomes distracted by Mary Macdonald, who decided to make an appearance to provide more of an Order presence to the ceremony. In the moment of distraction, Alecto dumps several vials of poison into the various punches and leaves before the two women can speak with her further. She will not, after all, ruin the Dark Lord’s orders over measly conversation.

(7:52 pm) After Scrimgeour’s speech is over, Gideon Prewett makes his way toward him with his nephew Percy in tow, wanting to introduce himself to his new boss. After a shallow introduction, Scrimgeour brushes him off and leaves Gideon standing in the middle of the atrium. With a promise to give Percy a tour of the Ministry after hours to uphold, he turns to do so but is intercepted by both Mary Macdonald and Sinistra Lowe for some idle conversation. The conversation with Sinistra doesn’t last long, as a slightly-lost looking Lucius Malfoy begins to field press questions. If he seems to favor questions from the Quibbler more than anyone else, no one decides to say.

(8:12 pm) Rabastan Lestrange, having been tricked into attending the ceremony, has happily indulged in the free punch and freely admonishes the event under his breath. He latches onto Mary and begins drunken ramblings that only leaves her with more questions than answers. Across the way, Alecto sees his state and cannot save him from the poison without exposing herself and angering the Dark Lord. On her way out, she passes by Sinistra, drink in her hand, and presses a vial of antidote into her palm with the whispered instruction to pass it to Lucius. She makes her exit quickly, and Sinistra does what she says without asking questions for the moment.

(8:15 pm) Alice Longbottom is the first to fall, the cup in her hand shattering on the floor and sending wine and glass everywhere. The concern is small at first, with the nearest people going to help her, but when Rabastan Lestrange and Sinistra Lowe fall one after the other, the crowd becomes panicked. The people who drank that evening begin dropping like flies, the horrified yells of those who did not drink emphasized by the ever-present thumping of bodies and breaking glass. Having not had anything to drink, Lucius and Gideon begin working together to help the fallen, aided substantially when Lucius realizes the vial passed to him is an antidote. Mary helps the two of them as well, but the small amount she did drink catches up to her, and she falls with the rest.

MARCH 1

News of the disaster at the Ministry from the previous night spreads like wildfire, and for his first act as Head Auror, Scrimgeour separates the Aurors into two teams: one team will continue to investigate the Hogwarts security breach, while the other puts all their time and resources into figuring out who was behind the mass poisoning and why. With some of his best Aurors currently in the hospital, however, it proves to be a substantial task to take on. His next act is assigning a new security detail to protect Minister Minchum, the unit headed by Corban Yaxley and (unknown to Scrimgeour) composed of several Death Eaters.

The plan to take over the Ministry of Magic is underway. Corban just needs to take care of Rufus Scrimgeour before it can come to fruition.

[annoyed-galaxy]

In Honor Of

So if you saw my last post, you know I’m absolutely devastated beyond all belief. I had to write this because if I didn’t it was going to be on my mind as I went to bed so here you go.

Words: 2,176

Characters: Clerissa, Jespar Dal’Varek with mentions of Tharael

Summary: Clerissa becomes very depressed after the death of a close friend and finds comfort with Jespar.

(See You Again [that song that was made after Paul Walker] was playing on my Pandora as I wrote this, causing me to cry and weep more.)

!Spoilers ahead for the Rhalata questline!

Clerissa sat on the ledge for a good hour before slowly rising to her feet. Her hair was a mess, as she hadn't stopped running her hand through it. She had watched as his body slowly fell off the cliff into the massive body of water where the Room of Paintings had been.

She failed.

She failed to save him.

She took the scroll next to Brother Sorrow's body and with a heavy heart and long sigh, teleported back to Ark.

Upon her arrival, she immediately went to his old hideout. He had given her his key. She opened the chest and took everything, even the old silverware and bowl and plate. She sat on his crate and let the tears come again; her body did not move. The tears simply fell down her face and onto her armor. She had taken his daggers. It was the last thing she would ever have of him. Her heart was aching.

She had been mentally scarred when the illusion of Jespar had attacked her in the temple. Even though it had been an illusion, she couldn't help but feel as if it was Jespar and if she had killed him.

But that had been washed away.

Jespar was alive but...Tharael.

She failed.

She needed to drink it away. In the short time she had known him, he had become her third best friend. But...like Sirius and Aravel, he died.

He jumped.

He killed himself.

She failed.

He thought she didn't believe in second chances.

Clerissa stood, stumbling a little, before moving out of the shed. She took the long trek from the Undercity to the Foreign Quarter. By the time she got to the Dancing Nomad, her tears had dried up on her face, but her armor had weighed her down.

She didn't know what on Vyn she was doing at the Nomad, but her legs had taken her there. She opened the door and the happy music the band was playing filled her pointed ears. Music normally brought joy to her, but the music couldn't penetrate the darkness swirling her heart. Her eyes breifly passed over Jespar who was smoking a pipe and smiling as he watched the band perform. His eyes met hers for a brief moment before she walked to the innkeeper.

Sifting through her bag, she brought out a pouch of pennies and threw it on the bar. "Give me the strongest shit you have, whether it be mead, ale, beer, or wine." The innkeeper looked at the pouch with wide eyes. "And for everyone else in here if they want. Their drinks, on me tonight." The innkeeper shrugged before swiping the pouch away and grabbing a few bottles of each type. He plopped them down in front of Clerissa and she grabbed them all; seven bottles in total that she carried in her arms. There was only one bottle of wine.

She began walking towards the back of the inn to head upstairs when Jespar stepped in front of her. "What are you doing?" he asked, confusion on his face. "I've never seen you get anything other than wine and you only have one bottle." Jespar looked at all the bottles in her arms. "Something wrong?" he asked.

Clerissa didn't feel like talking, but one look at Jespar's eyes and she knew she wouldn't be getting away without telling him what was up. She jerked her chin towards the stairs and started heading towards them, Jespar in tow. Once they got upstairs, Clerissa began heading towards one of the vacant rooms. Jespar hurriedly stepped in her way and guided her towards his room. He opened the doors and allowed her through. She dropped the bottles on the bed and plopped down. She peeled her chestplate off as Jespar closed the door and sat in a chair sitting across the bed. He averted his eyes as Clerissa threw her chestplate on the floor. She didn't care if she was shirtless in front of him. In fact, she didn't give a damn about anything at all.

She scooted herself towards the back wall and leaned against it as she took a bottle of mead and popped the cork. Jespar watched as she chugged the bottle, some of the contents rolling down the sides of her mouth. She finished the bottle in seconds before taking a breath and letting out a burp. She opened the bottle of ale next and chugged half of it before looking at Jespar. "How do I look?" she asked, her voice raspy from hours of not speaking.

Jespar bit his lip as he looked at her tear-stained face, ruffled hair and dark bags underneath her eyes. "I would say you look charming and beautiful as usual, but holy shit you look awful. I thought it impossible." Clerissa let out a sound that was meant to be a chuckle but was actually a croak. "What the fuck happened?"

Clerissa took a deep breath, chugged the rest of the ale, and then burped. She put the empty bottle alongside the other one. "You remember Tharael right?"

"The broody Aeterna?"

"Yeah, him. He was a part of the Rhalata. We had come up to the surface to get ready for a trip to this temple that the leader of the Rhalata, the Father, had wanted to go to. I told him I'd introduce him to my friends so I did. You remember?" Jespar nodded, his eyebrows raised in confusion as he waited for Clerissa to continue. "Well, the reason Tharael and I met was because he was wanting someone to help him kill the Father. As we all know, the Father isn't exactly a good person. This trip to this old ass temple was the one chance we were going to get to kill the Father. The Father wanted to do some bullshit ritual to separate his spirit from his body or what the fuck ever. We got to the temple, found this place the Father wanted us to find and then we confronted him. The Father explained that he conducted experiments on Tharael and that he was one of the successful experiments along with his brother Letho. Tharael had thought Letho to be dead when in reality he had been present the entire time, but merely as a husk of who he once was.

The Father revealed Letho and Tharael was so broken at Letho's state that he killed him. Then he attacked the Father. I helped. It was difficult and I had a headache because I used so much of my magic that I had to draw my sword and pierce it through the Father's back. We thought he was dead, but he just came back, knocked us out, and completed his ritual along with a group of his choosing. When I got to where the room he completed the ritual was, it was gone and there was just a giant hole in the earth. Tharael was on the ledge and I talked to him." Clerissa stopped. The tears rose again and she wiped them away with her bare arm before grabbing one of the bottles of beer and chugging it. The world titled and began to fuzz, but she didn't give a fuck. "The person I was talking to was broken. Tharael was gone. He told me sorry. He said to forgive him."

Clerissa squeezed the empty bottle, frost coming out of her hand and spreading across the bottle. It shattered, cutting her hand. Jespar jumped up from his chair and hurriedly searched through the wardrobe to find a spare piece of clothing. He climbed onto the bed alongside Clerissa and grabbed her hand, wrapping the shirt around her bleeding hand. She didn't feel the stings. She didn't even look as Jespar fussed over her. She was still staring ahead. She felt herself back on that ledge and felt herself cry out as Tharael jumped.

"I...I couldn't move," she whispered. Jespar was sitll holding her hand, squeezing it with the cloth, but he was looking at her again. His pale blue eyes swirled with worry. "I failed, Jes. I tried to tell him it was okay. We could make it together...I couldn't move. He said to forgive him." Clerissa's voice broke as a sob tore through her. "He jumped. Life wasn't worth living anymore. He jumped and I couldn't help but watch as another fucking friend died because of me." Clerissa squeezed her hand again, this time with Jespar's own in her grip. He whimpered as she squeezed his hand to the point of pain. She let go, but still stared ahead. "He thought I didn't believe in second chances because of an evil man I didn't try to save. He didn't think he was worthy. I failed him. Just like I failed Aravel and Sirius." A wicked sound crawled its way out of her throat. "What's next I wonder?" Her head finally turned and her eyes landed on Jespar. "Am I to fail you and Calia next?"

Clerissa could see her reflection in Jespar's eyes. She hated the person she saw in it. She saw a woman who was broken. She saw a woman who's eyes were glazed over with pain. She saw a woman who felt like giving up, just like Tharael.

Jespar slapped her across the face. Clerissa gasped and covered her cheek with her free hand. "Don't ever say that again!" Jespar practically shouted at her. Rage glazed over his eyes. Rage and...love. "You didn't fail anyone Clerissa! Things happen in life. There are some things you just can't stop. You didn't fail Aravel. You didn't fail Sirius. You didn't fail Tharael and you sure as hell won't fail me and Calia. Tharael chose to end it, but if he asked for your forgiveness, clearing he already had regrets."

"You don't understand, Dal'Verak!" Clerissa shouted back. "I let him kill a man who was a murderer. That made him think that I didn't believe in second chances. He murdered people because of a goal that eventually turned out as a failure. I told him he had a second chance but he didn't think I believed in them because of the choice I made! I failed him Jespar! I fucking failed him like I failed to protect Aravel! I failed him like I failed to take a blow for Sirius! I fucking fail my family and friends! It's a fucking pattern don't you see?! Everyone I fucking cares about DIES!" Clerissa's voice broke as she finished shouting. There was no more rage as tears began falling and she began sobbing. She lowered her head, ashamed. "How the fuck am I supposed to stop the Cleansing when I can't even talk a friend out of suicide. How the fuck am I supposed to stop the Cleansing when I can't even protect those I care about the most."

Jespar grabbed Clerissa's face with both of his hands and forced her to look at him. "Clerissa, things will happen in life. There are some things that we can't reverse and that we have to live with. You have to realize that. You haven't failed anyone. I know that Aravel, Sirius, and Tharael all knew that you cared for and loved them. I know that because that's all you are Clerissa. The people you decide to be your family, you love them unconditionally. You try everything in your power to protect them. I know because I'm a part of that. You didn't fail them Clerissa. You haven't failed anyone." Jespar brushed his thumb across her cheek, wiping some of her tears away. "You will never fail as long as you show that you tried."

Clerissa sighed before falling into Jespar's chest. He hugged her and rubbed his hands up and down her shoulder. He kissed the top of her head. Clerissa flung her good hand out and grabbed the pipe that Jespar had left on the table with her magic and let it float towards her. Her hand wrapped around the pipe and she took a deep and long drag. She exhaled for a long time before giving the pipe to Jespar. He took a drag but held the smoke in as he lifted Clerissa's chin, making her look at him. He kissed her and let the smoke go from him to her.

Clerissa closed her eyes and smiled as the effects of the peaceweed settled in her body. Why didn't she think about that rather than drinking all the alcohol? Jespar pulled away and the smoke drifted from both of their mouths. "Ah, there's that lovely smile." Clerissa smiled even wider. They both situated themselves to the point where they were laying down, Jespar holding Clerissa against his chest. She had scooted herself lower in the bed so she could curl underneath his chin. He rubbed his hand up and down her back as she slowly drifted to sleep.

That night, she dreamed of Aravel, Sirius, and Tharael and how they would be waiting for her in the afterlife with smiles.

[itsjaywalkers]

UMMMM NOTHING HAPPENS???

Dude. This, you’ve done something with this.

Like the first part REGGIES ADORABLE, and they’re obvs already soulmates, and it’s setting the Sirius dynamic. Like especially with James and Sirius, I think it’s a fun way to explore their friendship, and James’ inability to say no.

THEN THE NEXT PART! JAMES MY LOVE YOU.ARE.JELOUS!!!!!! Like my guy. The “baby”, James please have a conscious thought. The beef between Pandora and Sirius is so real <3. But it’s interesting to see like another sibling haver perspective on Sirius and Reg cause James is just James. Like it’s speaks a lot about everyone’s dynamic I think how everyone interacts with the twins (Love them but the way, your Evan is <333)

THEN THE LAST PART. HOLY SHIT. Like i thought they were about to have a cute moment (which i guess they did) but then BAM “what about your girlfriend?”. It was like a record scratch in my brain. I’m very excited to get Regs’ side of the story, and James is my bbg i’ll always defend him even if he sucks, if James said it was a platonic make out session, it was a platonic make out session. (I’m kidding he’s being a dick) BUT THE “You’re my best friend” while they were literally sucking face. Babe. Please. AND WHEN HE CALLED OUT WOLFSTAR, you have literally no room to talk. Like at all. But like, him being like “Em. Babe. ur overreacting” While reg was literally cuddled up in him. LIKE WHAT JAMES? THATS INSANE!

But like based of what you’ve posted IDK, but it’s different than what I expected?? (in a good way). Like the characterization is so compelling in this! I’m very excited for this and am very patiently waiting for the next part, in the meantime i’ll be re reading and finding even more insane bits i missed i’m sure.

(sorry for rambling, but thank you lots for writing <3)

NEVER APOLOGISE FOR RAMBLING and this ask made my day, i couldn't answer until now bc i've been shopping all morning/afternoon but !!! i read it as soon as i woke up and it made me <3 so very happy <333

ELEVEN YEAR-OLD REGGIE IS SOOOO CUTE i need to put him in my mouth and . chew . he's so very dear to me i swear <333 i also love his dynamic with sirius and all the banter between james and sirius was so fun to write. their friendship sort of . deteriorates . in a way . bc of regulus and both sirius and james' inability to share, so i'm glad i got to write them like this before that, like proper best friends!!!

HE'S SO FUCKING JEALOUS IT'S ACTUALLY CONCERNING the 'baby' was playing soooo dirty and so manipulative of him. and i'm so glad u enjoy sirius and pandora's rivalry bc it's one of my fav things in nothing happens hehe. and yessss james has a very . close-minded view of siblings, in a way, since he's an only child and he's never gonna understand what goes down in those kinds of bonds. so getting to see the twins and how they behave and interact with others helps with james' lacking perspective imo!! also nothing happens evan is my baby, i'm so happy u like him <333

THE LAST PART IS THE WOMAN OF THE HOUR I THINK so intense so hot so dramatic <3 the mention of james' gf IS supposed to hit, bc despite the fic being from his pov, he never thinks about her until reg mentions her, which is . wild . if u stop to think about it . idk if we'll ever get reg's side of the story bc nothing happens works better bc it's james-centric but !! who knows !! i'd love to write his pov of some moments for sure (and share more content of the twins too). also i'm so surprised to see how much ppl are loving nh james??? he's gonna get worse, so idk how long this will last but i'm quite pleased so far bc i adoreeee him. HE'S SUCH A PIECE OF SHIT DURING THAT WHOLE CONVO telling his literal gf she's overreacting when he has reg seated on his lap, telling reg he's his best friend after having his tongue down his throat . he's insane . especially bc he believes every single word coming out of his mouth

oh i'm so glad ur liking it despite the story not being what u expected (so relieved it's in a good way tho). the characterizations in nothing happens are what make the fic super compelling to me too so <3 taking this as a huge compliment <3 i'm gonna go back to writing oby + a pandalily pwp now so idk when the next part will be ready but !! since nothing happens is what i always write on the side bc it comes quite easy to me, it could be done sooner than it seems. we'll see!!

thank you so much for reading and for sending such a lovely ask, it means the whole world MWAH <333

[ao3feed-jily]

Changling

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by PerpetuallyHaunted

Fred knew where George was, even as he stood poised beside Percy to fend off Death Eaters that wish to enter the Room of Requirements after Hermione, Harry, and his little brother, Ron. It was bad enough that Zabini, Malfoy, and Crabbe already entered before he and Percy could get there to defend the hidden doors, but they were there now. However, when he heard his twin's voice shout, "Fred!" he abandoned his post; he abandoned Percy to run towards it, even though he knew that George was in the opposite direction. Years of pranks and love had conditioned him to run towards George's voice at the drop of a hat, so that's what happened.

He ran towards George's voice, only to turn the corner to see his brother in different clothes, haggard from time instead of battle and dark circles under his eyes telling of how little he's been sleeping. "Fred!" Percy's voice jerked him around and he turned to see Percy's panicked eyes. It registered then that he hadn't been called by George, Tonks must have been imperiulized for a trap. As he began to reface the problem, the Room of Requirements exploded and from it, debris flew and struck his chest rendering the world dark.

Words: 952, Chapters: 1/?, Language: English

Fandoms: Harry Potter - J. K. Rowling

Rating: Teen And Up Audiences

Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence, Major Character Death

Categories: F/F, F/M, M/M, Multi

Characters: Fred Weasley, Original Male Character(s), Original Female Character(s), Sirius Black, James Potter, Peter Pettigrew, Remus Lupin, Marlene McKinnon, Dorcas Meadowes, Hestia Jones, Xenophilius Lovegood, Pandora Lovegood, Lucinda Talkalot, Albus Dumbledore, Minerva McGonagall, George Weasley, Penny Haywood, Jacob Foel, Fenrir Greyback, Michelle Zabini, Du Lac Family (Original), Grave Family (Original), Foel Family (Original), Romulus "Romy" Lupin (Original)

Relationships: Marauders & Fred Weasley, Sirius Black & Remus Lupin & Peter Pettigrew & James Potter, Fred Weasley & Original Character(s), Marlene McKinnon/Dorcas Meadowes, Dorcas Meadowes/Hestia Jones, James Potter/Lily Evans Potter, Remus Lupin/Original Female Character(s), Sirius Black/Original Female Character(s), Sirius Black/Remus Lupin, Pandora Lovegood/Xenophilius Lovegood

Additional Tags: Marauders Era (Harry Potter), First War with Voldemort, Time Travel, Video Game: Harry Potter: Hogwarts Mystery, Adopted Sibling Relationship, Pureblood Society (Harry Potter), Hogwarts Third Year, Post-Battle of Hogwarts, Hogwarts Fourth Year, Hogwarts Fifth Year, Hogwarts Sixth Year, Hogwarts Seventh Year, Order of the Phoenix (Harry Potter), Cursed Vaults (Hogwarts Mystery), Death Eaters, Alternate Universe - Time Travel, Time Travel Fix-It, Fix-It of Sorts

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