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Hotel Room and Rats (a SeokHan drabble)
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(a/n: i was missing jeonghan so much that i was binge watching old content. boom ! suddenly seokhan reeled me in like a fishing line reels in a fish. this particular drabble was inspired by this.)
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“Dokyeom-ah, Hyung thinks a rat was in our room last night.”
Having said this, Jeonghan watched with visceral pleasure how quickly guilt flitted across Dokyeom’s face. With every expression still in control, he thought, this is what you get for secretly eating your snacks yesterday and leaving for breakfast without taking me with you.
Were these crimes worth the emotional blackmailing? Jeonghan didn’t want to think about that. The slight twinge in his conscience was nothing compared to the pleasure he got from watching Dokyeom feel more and more guilty each second. Nothing compared to how he took a deep breath to calm himself down and looked at Jeonghan with sad, puppy eyes. Nothing compared to how Jeonghan was the center of his universe at the moment. Just how it should always be.
“Hyung, I am so so so sorry. There was no rat. It was just me eating a midnight snack. I was so careful to not make any noise. But I think I still woke you up. Sorry.”, Seokmin replied mournfully. His face is a mix of pleading and self-blaming. Jeonghan marveled at how every expression of Dokyeom could be seen on his face. It's oddly beautiful.
“Ah. So, our cute rat was a cute Dokyeommie.”, Jeonghan giggled.
“I feel so bad that I woke you up. You don’t even sleep well usually anyways. I should have been more considerate. Why did I have to eat that snack? Stupid, stupid stomach.” Rocking back and forth in his chair, Dokyeom continued babbling.
“Hey, hey, hey, it’s okay. It’s okay.”, Jeonghan quickly tried to calm him down, knowing full well that if he left it alone, Dokyeom would be a puddle of tears in a few minutes. “Just buy me a coffee, alright?”
Just as he thought, Deokyeom’s whole face brightened up.
“Of course! Anything for you, hyung.”
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#its in jeonghan pov#YEARNING JEONGHAN HITS DIFFERENT FOR ME OKAY??#also yearning! jeonghan is in denial !!!#no one tell him he loves dokyeom#cause if he knows then he has to confront his feelings and#he doesn't want to confront his feelings#istg no one libras like he libras :)#ALSO what's up with me and writing about my favourite people being miserable#first woozi and now jeonghan#what am i going to do with me smh#seventeen#svt#yoon jeonghan#jeonghan#dokyeom#lee dokyeom#jeonghan x dokyeom#jeonghan x dk#seokhan#drabble#seventeen drabbles#seventeen angst#seventeen fanfic#jeonghan angst#writings of tie-dye
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i love the interpretations of Any of the pines being trans but to me mabel and dipper Are fraternal twins they are just also both trans. they just swapped names and ‘pretended’ to be the other. i know dipper being transmasc is like the most popular trans hc in the fandom, so to me this is why dipper’s name is mason but he always wanted the name tyrone
#mabel is wearing sweaters in the summer. idk kinda transgender#unless oregon is cold in summer. but last episode i think soos mentions it’s like 80°#(saying it’s too hot for stan to be wearing a sweater(the one mabel made him)(bc he says he’s wearing it bc it was cold)(lying)#anyway she’s still wearing a sweater there#and ford !#i think it’d be funny that they’re all trans.#like the more trans people in a family it just gets funnier imo. what are the odds#<-i say this lovingly. i am under the transgender umbrella#also imagine w me Stan who was there when the kids were born meeting them again now age 12 and at some point going#’wait i thought mabel was the one with the birthmark’ and they’re like ‘wow you confuse siblings even when they’re different genders. smh’#the kids probably dont know stan is also transgender. or maybe they do. is it funnier if they do#gravity falls#words from the monarch
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I feel like F/P/S was still a pretty weird one, even by Lance's standards.
sorry for (in an ironic twist) not doing much Ride Kamens art now that it's actually started; I've been pretty slow going through it and I feel weird posting about things I'm not caught up on! though I'm. definitely gonna have to set aside some time to actually get through episode 13, after what they posted today. (w-what did they do to my Leon) (NOBODY TELL ME I HAVE TO FIND OUT ON MY OWN) (LEOOOOOOOON)
#art#ride kamens#f/p/s#freedom/play/slam#it's probably not as dramatic as i'm imagining i'm just terrified for our sweet boy#smh can't believe leon's bald now#this is why i don't like to post before i get caught up i have NO IDEA#anyway sorry this. kind of sucks. it just made me laugh#i love the sheer absurdity that must be lance's day-to-day#it's amazing what you can get used to i guess#event chaosworlds are bizarre even for chaosworlds though#(poor shizuru...he was SO confused about the bread...)#i admit the events are one of the reasons i've been so slow at the main story#i told myself i was going to put my foot down and prioritize and not get distracted by the next event#and then they announced frilly prince froufrou tea party wisdom boys and RUINED MY LIFE#how am i supposed to get anything done when all i can think about is jou just going absolutely ham on some tiny cucumber sandwiches#how dare they do this to me
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Broooo I HATE adulting. My car insurance has shot through the roof so I got some quotes from different companies to find smth cheaper and Geico came in clutch but when I went to purchase a new policy they increased my monthly rate by like, $25 for some claim that I was driving an unsafe vehicle?? Which never happened, I do not recall getting ticketed for something like that. Now I gotta dispute that bc it's messing with my insurance rates and AGHGHH.
Don't grow up kids it's not worth it 😔 Insurance companies will charge you extra just for existing 😔
#Shima speaks#What do you MEAN I was driving an unsafe vehicle. My car is perfectly safe!! If you must know!!!#I hate the fact that I have to pay for my car AND pay for car insurance. Why can't that come bundled together.#Bills are so expensive I'm going to cry this SUCKSSSS#Can barely even afford to pay rent now I have to deal with this smh#I just don't want to get charged out of my ass for car insurance is that so hard#Geico is going to save me over $100 a month but not if they pull this crap!!!#'unSaFE VehICLe' Who are you. Who even ARE you#Okay tantrum over I'm fine now#I am an adult who is adulting and can handle adulting things it's fine everything's fine :)
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looking at the current DFtR vote rn like
#muzz mumbles#DFtR au#for everyone voting for ''Agree'' and then saying ''I only want Oscar to live anyway''#um. well#ha ha . about that#i am genuinely FLABBERGASTED that after putting in so much effort to save the counselors before now--#--the vote is where it is#like. after all that work#it was the freezer reveal huh. y'all and your bleeding hearts smh (me too. me too 🤝)#anyway uhhhh hope you guys know what you're doing#cause once you decide it'll be too late to go back
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dust and horror angel and demon themes,,,, they could totally parallel each other...... :3
dust=angel of death described in the delta rune prophecy (self declared) (i DEFINITELY elaborated on this one waayyyy before but anyways dust with a fucked up savior complex SAVE ME SAVE ME.... death is a blessing ass guy. life is torment and he will be the one to liberate monsters from their bodies and with the strength they provide to him be able to take down evil evil creation of pure misery that is the human ✨✨✨ dont worry his evil cackles are to HIDE HIS PAIN of saving everyone....... trust)
horror=demon that dragged everyone in horrortale into hell (as perceived by everyone else) (i think it would be a cool hc if everyone outside of snowdin viewed horror as literally a demon. maybe undyne preaches that. anyone outside of snowdin might be WAYYY worse because they starve for longer and literally take part in cannibalism so they might not have the same sort of mild sanity that snowdin residents do,,,, besides he DID kinda bring them all eternal suffering. kinda. nobody but undyne knows what happened at the core so she could totally just paint the story to blame horror fully)
ANYWAYS i like the possible dynamics this could have :333
dust to horror (please let me kill you PLEASE let me kill you i can end it all so peacefully wouldn't it be nice??? i promise ill make it quick just for you),,, horror to dust (i want you to live and suffer with what youve done i want you to watch all of your choices hit you one day and i'll be there and laugh at you. i'll keep you alive just to keep you suffering ok?)
OR dust to horror (you dont deserve to die you dont deserve to even be hurt by me. not because youre the exception but youre the Exception i absolutely loathe you so youll never get the sweet release of death :3) and horror to dust (just let me die already i dont wanna be here. youre supposed to be a savior right??? an angel?? then why don't you save me already when i need it more than anyone else)
#SHITS THIS OUT BECAUSE I NEED TO GET RID OF IT. my evil doppelganger will adore this post i've already shown them#this is definitely a bit of an exaggeration of their characters in my eyes but i love it :333#i dont think that dust is THIS deluded in my eyes and i dont think horror is this cynical. even tho theyre both still these traits#i came up with this idea while writing my mtt meets eachother fic :3#you can probably totally guess where i made the connection. thank you horrortale undyne for this one single thing#anyways i dont know how to shove killer into this LMAO. i was thinking like.... angel and demon on your shoulder to swap choices#but but triglycercule doesnt killer already have that with his stages??? well YES but both can be true at the same time :333#idk i dont have enough brain juices for this rn. so you get this half assed explanation 😭😭‼️‼️‼️#dust: we should kill this person. totally because they need to be freed and not because they piss me off#horror: no we should keep them alive but torment them so they never get the sweet release of death and suffer#and thanks to killer THEY CAN DO BOTH!!! YAAAAY!!!!! the powers of determination are awesome man (smug tiktok emoji)#dust is sounding awfully similar to a certain killer au of mine i made..... swapinverse rearing its ugly head once again smh#idk if this is more of a symbolic thing or LITERALLY angel dust and demon horror#because i like both ideas........ imagine an actual angel dust and demon horror going around with killer doing the little dialogue i said#what would killer be in this??? he's not a mortal or a human as would be per usual when describing whats between an angel or demon#killer as a god lmao..... noooo noooooo..... maybe just something akin to one. i meaaan technically-#someone who's more into religious theming would probably eat this idea but i cant be bothered uaghhhh#if i say anything about killer i will get shot. but i can tank a couple bullets. killer does have the ability to let both dust and horror#fufill their own ideologies. and also i am a big fat SUCKER for killer keeping horror and dust 'in line' IDC if its a bad sanses concept#i love it and therefore it's now mine to use in an only mtt context. otherworldly beings trio ‼️‼️ aghhhhh#i have like 89 drafts if the drafts reach 100 by the end of the year i think i'd DIE. so this is getting posted idc#you wont see me using literal angel and demon dust and horror. but if you look in my mind you'll see the themes regularly in what i talk ab#anyways back to writing this stupid fic i go. dust is currently battling several inner demons rn. good luck loser :3#killer sans#dust sans#horror sans#murder time trio#sans au#utmv#tricule hc
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in MDZS the novel, the innkeeper in Yunping mentions that people are too scared to go petition Yunmeng Jiang for help because someone once walked in on Sect Leader Jiang whipping a guy in the main hall, supposedly because the guy was a demonic cultivator.
#mdzs#jiang cheng#wei wuxian#jc apologism#anyways as you can hopefully tell by now this is a jc stan blog.#so as a stan i will do my rightful stan duty and insist that my fave did nothing wrong#so. onwards. the “jiang cheng tortures demonic cultivators” claim is interesting on several levels#because we don't see it happen onscreen. and because thematically mdzs is a book about the unreliability of rumors#especially when said rumors conform to your preexisting understanding of someone. or what you want to hear about someone#it would have been so easy for mxtx to include a scene where jc tortures a demonic cultivator onscreen. i would love to read it too#but that doesnt happen. when jc actually corners wwx he just shoves a dog in his face and bullies him emotionally#smh jc get your shit together!! what is this lame ass display?? not living up to your reputation here loser#anyways. tbh i consider two things separately: 1. mxtx's intentions. and 2. what the text itself implies#for 1. i am legitimately unsure of what to think. mxtx relies on rumors/empathy/etc to give us info about side characters#in part because she's constrained herself to writing from wwx's perspective and has no other easy way of getting the info to us#does she intend for us to question the rumors? or are we supposed to take them as fact because of the narration limits described?#2. what the text itself implies is not necessarily the same as what mxtx intends.#for me mdzs is in part a story about the unreliability of rumors and reputation etc etc. other meta writers than i have explained it better#so for the work to go “all the rumors about wwx were exaggerated/manipulated/not 100% correct.”#“but the rumors about everyone else are 100% true!!!!!”#is peak stupidity. and shit-tier writing#and i actually like mdzs so i would like to believe the writer is more intelligent than that#thus. i conclude in part due to this emotional necessity of mine that there must have been something more going on#anyways. i have similar opinions about the “did jiggy kill rusong” business but that's a post for later#ill probably put my jc torture opinions in their own post some day#yanyan polls
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ok well. unfortunate news: sometimes ur niche is so niche u've already niched the niche. this is exactly the same as the feeling of hitting the end of ur ship tag in ao3 🥲
*edit: sorry i accidentally named like every character ever in the tags so ppl are Seeing this post who dont have the benefit of so much as a single crumb of context. if i accidentally namedropped ur blorbo its bc of this post:
anyway. i was excited for recs bc i also enjoy this genre of fictional character. unfortunately as above the niche is niched, it turns out. at least for me, content enjoyer georg, who has apparently already seen or read everything anyone else has already seen or read except for a small handful of specific media properties that i do not wish to see or read for various personal reasons and also not literally everything ever... just the same things as everyone else has already seen and read... u get the idea. ok thnks 👍🏻
#*slowly morosely untucks the bib and folds it up again#smh#idk if that post breached containment in the wrong direction or what but there were like 3ppl apiece talking about good actual examples#and those were like 99% media i already reaaaadddd im tearjngn my hair out#but far and away most ppl flat out missed the brief#like i think out of almost four thousand tags about four tagged ghost. four tagged geralt. three andrew minyard. etc#sobbung im sad for me AND for yall like this is ur jam and the best u can put up for example is dean winchester????#listen i know im on the supernatural site. voluntarily. but ur really gonna tell me thats the best u can do 😭😭#like a solid handful said bucky barnes. good solid classic example i'll give it to u but its 2024 😭😭😭😭😭😭#all respect to the ppl tagging ocs tho y'all are real 🫡 bc its looking like if we want it we do gotta get in the trenches and write it 😔✊#anywya i came away with approximately one and a half recs and then 3-4 repeated vouchers for media i know i am just never gonna consume rip#and the rest of yall.. have some kinda different media literacy situation going on we went thru v different english programs i fear#😔😔#angie.txt#like i believe the boba fett girlies are right and on to something but i am simply not going down the mouse route on my own dime#so those recs are. moot#not a single trigun mention i dont think.. not vash or nick or i wouldve even given a pass to a shoutout for knives#some of u said kaz and i havent read the books but even just based on the tv series p sure i can respect that.#one i have to look into asap is whoever evan kelmp(?) is- whatever hes from im not familiar and seems promising.#izzy hands im so sorry. im fundamentally incapable of watching ofmd unfortunately i watched black sails first#wasnt aware it was going to ruin other pirate related media for me when i made that decision 😭😭#i respect the arcane shoutouts but i do think it's hilarious that no two of u called out the same character.#murderbot obviously#i just think some of yall are so close yet so far and i want better for us all so goddamn badlyyy#update: i checked and op seems to have been generalizing off of boba fett/wolverine/magneto etc and yeah that tracks#smbdy said john wick - more than one actually- and while i hear u i also invite u to consider:#that man's singular desire is literally to go back into retirement in peace all he wanted was a quiet night in a rocking chair w that dog..#i dont think id go so far as to say he wouldnt know what to do with a warm bed if he got it. or attach himself to sbdy attack dog style atp#ykwim#somebody said patrick bateman.. yall are just listing names atp. darth vader? kylo? all right pack it up folks
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The writing around Friede and Amethio's dynamics is brilliant for many different reasons, but one of the things I enjoy the most about it is that Amethio gets to act bratty in a way he rarely gets to be around others when he faces Friede (not liking being given orders, etc).
#amethio talks back to hamber and it's kinda funny too#but i really liked in the first two chapters when amethio was like#'don't look away from me!' 'don't get in my way!' 'don't give me orders!' to friede#the fact that he gets to show less mature sides when he usually tries to be serious#i say this with the utmost love but amethio is a brat. and he needs to act like one.#it's why his dynamics with friede is important to me. he gets to show these sides to him#friede gave him the opportunity to do so and that space to act out and be immature#and for amethio to be like 'smh don't give me orders' while following his order the moment right after that. it's so funny#it's also kinda interesting because friede's influence on liko and the others helps them be more mature etc#while with amethio it's a bit different. he showed more of his immature sides around friede#(there is a lot of other things going on there of course. kinda simplifying it a bit but it's just to show a kind of contrast)#sasuga friede. the ikemen truly can do it all..#anyway. very interesting writing around this dynamics. i hope there will be more in future chapters so i can update my thoughts etc.#what did lead writer dai sato and script coordinator kureha matsuzawa put in there. it's too brilliant. too good. i am thankful.#character notes
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Update 2: the germaphobia didn't win bc he sneezed so hard he cried kinda and I can't not hug the people I like when there's tears so that's where we're at now lmao I'm literally so fucked but at least I'm not doing anything the next week 😭 checked him over since caution has been thrown to the wind, dude for sure has the flu but I'm hoping I can dodge it bc I got vaccinated so fingers crossed there. Ran out of tissues, so he's resorted to napkins and his jacket which isn't nearly as hot irl as it is in fic, but this is what it's come to 😔 also he's gone through three more masks and I'm lowkey scared he's gonna run out of those too 😭😭
#kinda snz again#how am i supposed to tag this actually#obs? is that what people call it??#idk#anyway#I'm not actually that worried about runn out of masks bc we have so fucking many and also i bring my own#i am worried about him getting me sick tho but it seems unavoidable at this point 😔#i feel so bad for him but I'm still disgusted ngl#dude has a hell of a fever like you hate to see it#had to go sit in the back where we put the patients so he could lay down for a bit and try to nap#bro literally sounds worse and worse as the hours go by it's fucking horrific#i fr feel like a mom rn patting this dude's back and getting him shit smh#like I'm the mom friend always so it tracks but doing vaguely medical things @ someone who has a higher scope than me is wild lmao#also for the record my partner isn't antivax he just planned on getting them closer to the end of the month#that's not working out so well for him now but it's not like he wasn't gonna get them at all so there's that at least lmao#partner posting
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"You're pretty new at this whole relationship thing, huh?"
"... Yeah."
#outer range s2#outer range s2 spoilers#outer range 02x01#maria olivares#rhett abbott#isabel arraiza#lewis pullman#rhett x maria#um... idk i love them#but why would they do this to me? it's gonna sting so much when they break up#her teasing him is my favorite thing#but also her calling him ''wonderful''? my god the squeal i let out...#the smallest little smile and the way he looked at her before he said ''good'' after she said she likes how she feels when she's with him?!#now i'm rhett going ''don't do this'' but instead of with his truck it's with the show#my biggest gripe is that she doesn't help him that much with his broken arm... except maybe to help him shower? /hj#i get why he was the one to get the snacks... it was for the impact of the scene but still#it's great to see them laughing and smiling so much! love that!#i think she smiled at least once while her poor boyfriend was getting freaked out by cats#he could not keep a straight face for that long after saying ''what does that leave me?''#i wonder what he was gonna say before she said she liked how she feels when she's with him... was he giving her an out?#he has NOTHING pleasant to say about her not even a ''thank you'' after being called wonderful smh /j#tw: food?#my girl didn't even say ''bless you'' when he starting sneezing :(#i switched the last picture because i like the way they were smiling at each other when he got onto the bed#after maria laughs in the car after the buffalo run past them i think i can hear the lowest ''so are we-'' or ''sorry''?#and i think that may be because lew thought isa broke character?? but i'm not too sure... maybe it's rhett apologizing#but idk? maybe it's just rhett saying sorry because he felt self-conscious about maybe sounding stupid... or maybe i'm just hearing things#i think the way he even said ''okay'' after she took all the snacks was similar to the way she said it before she grabbed the snacks#look i understand not getting a shower scene but they truly robbed me of seeing rhett and maria with wet hair...#just another little nitpick but i think the ''i like who i am when i'm with you'' would hit harder if we saw maria in scenes without rhett
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Was soooooo happy with this phase 1 which is what made it so much funnier that I was immediately clapped by his phase 2 😂
#romina is still my fave boss but messmer is a solid second#almost every other boss I would describe as “would’ve been good if their damage wasn’t so overtuned”#my stance if that if I’m consistently losing to a boss with 10/14 flasks left the damage is overtuned#vs me losing to sword saint isshin with no gourds or pellets left bc he was tough enough to whittle me down#fromsoft bros will say get good but think high numbers is big difficulty#an actually difficult boss doesn’t need big damage output if the mechanics are the challenge#I don’t actually mind how relentless the bosses are in ER but I mind how HARD they hit on top of that#dodging a 12 hit uninterruptible combo where each move does like 1/10th of your health? that’s fine.#if I properly time 3 of those dodges I can still make it and it’s honestly my bad if I’m getting killed by that#dodging a 12 hit uninterruptible combo where each hit takes out 1/2 of ur health bar & has a 50% chance for an additional retaliation combo?#I *can* do it but Jesus Christ what a waste of my time lmao#how am I supposed to learn a boss when I can’t get into a flow state bc a single mistake can end a run smh#I just beat gaius and I didn’t even feel accomplished I was just like ugh finally#I feel like 95% of his moves are fine once you work out the delays and positioning#but I kept getting clipped by his charge attack like I would dodge out of the way but once the i frames were finished I’d still get hit#bc I guess I wasn’t dodging a perfect 90 degrees to him and the hitbox for that attack is long as hell#which would be whatever if that move didn’t take out like 2/3 of my health and come out nigh instantly#I don’t even really know the tell for the move bc I beat him before I learned it bc I lucked out on a run where he didn’t charge me a lot#luckily the game is absolute DELIGHT to look at and explore that I can forgive the absolute bullshittery of the bosses#like I just got to the summit of dragon peak and I’m blown away by the design of that mountain#if we’re talking verisimilitude in games how about that whole shebang#no obvious well worn path up to the top of the mountain bc it’s just for dragons who’s gonna be walking up there?#having the player follow a trail of increasingly dense dragon corpses is SUCH a great tone setter#which means I’m probably going to hate bayle but whatever I’m already invested let’s gooooo#tsuchi plays games
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One day I need to write a thing where Melkor finds Rumil's description of the Valar (the one later incorporated as the Valequenta chapter) and reads that "from the start, Eru loved Manwe more than Melkor" and this (along with Finwe's bad parenting drama) is the cause of his relapse.
#ironically Rumil wow it as a mix of gossip from the Maiar which ultimately originated from Melkor himself#and from his insecure indirect ways of fishing for validation#plus Rumil's anti-Feanor sentiments#the analogy is obvious to everyone#except Melkor and Feanor themselves#who have the emotional intelligence of a bucket of gasoline#(yes i am aware nothing if that is canon and canon days otherwise)#also why is it so strange and inevitable concept that you can love all of your kids “the mostx#it's not a zero sum game#(angry parent noises)#random#silm#(yes canonically he didn't even try to do better after the 300 v years)#(canon can go hang it's head on a wall)#i hope rumil never had kids#for sake of those kids#what's with the “which kids is loved more” bs???#smh#I'm in holiday not going to write a coherent essay explaining how this all makes sense#you just have to trust me
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havin the weirdest crisis of my life
#this is like. did related so im gonna sound completely uh#what’s the word. odd and shit for a sec okay? okay#so I’ve been here. hi im cheri silver yknow me for about 20 years total but jay used to front for years when we were in middle school#im not the. original host I guess but I’ve been around since#we were in the early single digits and never left#so im the host right? I existed to go thru the Trauma#but. it’s been my life for so long. my parents don’t know Her#they’ve only known me#but like. we’re finally starting to let go of that trauma#errr not let go but make peace with it. and we’ve been holding onto it for so long. I’ve been holding on to it for so long#but.. who am I without it? like yes that’s my trauma but also. is my purpose over?? is that why we haven’t been able to draw?#I’ve been the host for 20 years this is my life#my friends my gf my life my hobbies it’s mine not anyone else’s#I let others take the wheel when I can’t (or they forcibly do it for me) and jays been gone for like 3 years he only came back because I’ve#been being traumatized everyday recently. but like. will I have to go too??#reintergration is not really our goal. never has been but like#if we do. will I be here or will She come back? we’ve had false alarms before but it’s mostly been decided that it’s my front my life#maybe im just triggered all the time and that’s why I feel extra out of it#less myself#New Traumas are happening to us everyday#but yeah. I dont talk abt this aspect of my life much but it’s so scary to think about#I’ll talk to Chevy when they get off of work tomorrow abt it if it’s still like. freaking me out#I am me. we are a bunch of niggas but I am me.#did niggas when the identity disorder makes them dissociate smh#😫
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Wake up babes, new chapter of mallrats just dropped <3
Mallrats (23114 words) by QueerCodedVillains Chapters: 3/9 Fandom: Naruto, Naruto (Anime & Manga) Rating: Explicit Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence Relationships: Deidara/Sasori (Naruto), background kakuzu/hidan Characters: Sasori (Naruto), Deidara (Naruto), Hidan (Naruto), Kakuzu (Naruto) Additional Tags: SasoDei Week 2023 (Naruto), 90'S, Akatsuki - Freeform, Alternate Universe - Modern Setting, Claire's AU, Mafia AU, If You Squint - Freeform, we are taking liberties translating the akatsuki into a modern setting here, Drug Use, Drug Dealing, Blood and Violence, POV Alternating, Bottom Deidara (Naruto), Top Sasori, BDSM, Impact Play, Praise Kink, Edging, Orgasm Control, Overstimulation, Sasori is still a puppet master but only in the loosest terms, if you catch my drift, Shibari, Suspension, Fucking Machines, Porn With Plot, Hurt/Comfort, Bratting, brat taming, Dom/sub Series: Part 1 of Mallrats Cinematic Universe Summary: In which the Akatsuki are 90's mallrats by day, crime syndicate by night. All the best criminals have a day job to launder their rent money, but the real fun only starts once they're off the clock.
#deidara#sasori#sasodei#claires au#mallrats#i dont wanna give any spoilers but#if you didnt know the difference between power dynamics vs positions#aka dom/sub vs top/bottom#hopefully you will now uwu#smut now plot later#head empty just these guys going at it like fucking rabbits 24/7#we'll get to the plot when i say so until then we're all just gonna be happy the muse caught me on a day off#okay? okay <3#my writing#mallrats!akatsuki#its my au i get to pick the tags#yes i am still working on my sasodei2023 fic after already posting another sasodei2024 fic#ariana grande and what about it dot gif#sighs deeply#when will i be free#when will i be cured of the brain rot#i really gotta carve it out with my own two hands and post it on the internet#its just me and a few dozen fellow inmates of the sasodei unit of the psychward#we are in this together lads#smh i gotta do everything around here if i wanna read it i gotta fuckin write it. and i WILL. its rotten work but christ alive ill do it
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so so sleepy but cat is ON my legs so i can’t move into comfortable sleeping position so can’t fall asleep but can’t stay awake but SOO ready for sleepy tired sleep but CANT because CAT
#i am#struggling#she is so sleepy and comfy that she face planted again😪#i went to bed late and she was SO mad and rushed me to my room#and as soon as i layed down girl was ON me but now i cant sleep because NOT comfortable#but i am so tired😴😴#barely staying awake but definitely NOT falling asleep smh#also i think i missed a few notifications so i’ll try to get to those tomorrow!#i’d do it now but i am TOO TIRED😴😴😴#im great at phone and notifications and messages#insert second part to that joke here pls im too tired to remember what i was gonna say#😴#just know i HAD something else to say about it and it was probably SO funny#so funniest joke ever in the world😤😤#😴😴#to summarize: now = SLEEPY#later = lookin at my inbox#now = slowly extricate myself from beneath this cat#later = idk what else be busy tomorrow apparently yuck🤢🤢#*smooches you goodnight smooches you goodnight SMOOCHES YOU GOODNIGHT*#go to SLEEP#RIGHT NOW#EVERYONE#DONT CARE WHAT TIME IT IS FOR YOU ITS SLEEP TIME NOW😤😤😤#😴😴😴😴😴😴😴😴
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