#welp anyway 🫡

[spiralcomet]

Victuuri and the Ineffables are going up against Mulder/Scully and Spirk next round....

[yenpondering]

On a brighter note I've taken to cleaning and reorganising the kitchen since I'm the one that mainly uses it now and it gives me serotonin to see my baking supply all neat and tidy.

Last week I tried my hand at making a no bake matcha cheesecake and a matcha bread with red bean paste yeee

[baeshijima]

so i just finished chioris story quest and....

IT WAS SO CINEMATIC I LOVED IT SO MUCH??? ESP THE CUTSCENE LIKE HELLO THE ART AND THE OUTFITS (we need them as skins... esp navias with her hairstyle...) AND THE OST ??????

sobs i actually love how they portrayed chioris character too esp when learning more about her dream and what she has gone through to get to the point she currently is at bc it just makes her seem a bit more realistic??? idk but fontaine girlies are so well-written i love them sm 🫶🫶

AND THEN THIS LAST BIT AAAAAAAAAA

[doki-doki-imagines]

Hey I like your writing! I’d like to request headcanons if you are still taking them? I follow you on a separate account, so that’s why I had the courage to ask this with anonymous off.

I was thinking of the men competing for the reader? It would be like: Raiden/Kung Lao, Kenshi/Johnny, Lin Kuei brothers are each other’s rivals and they do their own things to one up each other or to gain the reader’s favor more 😆

author note: Don't worry! Anyway you don't need to follow me to request something!🫡

Raiden vs Kung Lao: -Ohhh the sparks. No way Raiden will back down, and Lao knows it. -The fight for your heart starts now. -Their approaches are different. Raiden is all soft words and quiet dates (masked as friendly outing). Raiden bets everything on his sweet personality because he thinks he doesn't look good enough for you. -Lao is all for showing off his physique. Biceps always exposed, smiling more than usual to show off the dimples you seem to like so much (and also because Lao is just happier when next to you). -He has no doubt you can fall just for his amazing personality too, but you know, since he has such a great physique, it would be stupid not to use it. -Lao is like a peacock showing off his round tail, hoping to impress you. -Raiden doesn't show off, but he'll always pay when he takes you out to eat or will make you win bets on purpose. -His proud smile makes your knees go jello. -They won't play dirty tricks to each other because, after all, they are friends! -The choice is yours!

Johnny vs Kenshi: -Master rizzer vs Secret rizzer. -Johnny knows about his friend's crush on you, but doesn't mind. No way his introvert friend can woo you! -What he doesn't count is that his friend is an ex-yakuza, and as one, had to seduce people and get into their pants to steal information more than once. -And Kenshi was always successful. -Johnny doesn't mind fighting for your love; he fully believes you'll reciprocate his crush! -He is all sweet smiles and warm eyes gazing into yours. Johnny tries to show off every time you are near him. -Johnny asks you out daily, and sometimes you accept. His smile on those occasions could light up an entire mansion. -He acts like a big lazy cat. If you compliment him back, you can hear a purr blossoming from Johnny's chest. -Everyone can tell that he is wrapped around your fingers. -Kenshi is way more subtle but much more intense. -He'd share a meal with you under a blossoming tree in complete silence. -"I love spring. The flowers on the trees are beautiful." Kenshi would chuckle at your words. Then he'll grip your chin, his hand going so smoothly on it you almost forgot he is blind. "I'm sure it's a way to thank you for blessing them with your beauty every day." Kenshi says it so naturally that you believe him. No comeback goes through your brain. -He is gonna use all his knowledge to woo you. -He is there for you, but never clingy. Kenshi is all subtle touches that leave you hanging. You need to miss him. -Also more prone to talk down Johnny. Kenshi is a man with a mission and needs to brush away all the obstacles to reach his goal. -The tomcat or the sneaky ninja? Okay, maybe the comparison doesn't sound fair… -Welp! It's your choice!

Bi-Han vs Kuai Liang vs Tomas Vrbada: -Mortal Kombat begins now! With the difference that, this is really mortal. -Every day is a brawl. They try to bring the other down all the time. -When Liang thought he had to win just against Tomas, he was quieter. He still wants to conquer your heart, but he doesn't try to bring his brother down. -The same could be said of Tomas. He wants to win your heart fair and square, not spreading lies about his rival and brother. Simply making you fall for him. -But when they noticed how Bi-Han looks at you… -They both look at each other in the eyes, and realisation hit them both like a brick. -Bi-Han really doesn't care about them and will also try to brush his crush for you off. He is grandmaster he doesn't have time for foolish stuff like love. -But when Bi-Han noticed his brothers crush for you… now he absolutely wants you. -Oh, Liang stood you up? "Damn, I'm so sorry. Come with me! I'll pay for everything you want at Madame Bo!" Tomas replies, voice thrilling full of happiness. -If only you knew that Liang didn't arrive because somebody trapped him in the woods. -Tomas forgot about your birthday. "That fool only cares for himself. Take this. My gift for you." Bi-Han pushes it toward your chest, fake indifference dripping from his gestures. The "By Tomas" note carefully replaced with "By Bi-Han". -That ass of Bi-Han froze the walls of your house? Don't worry, dear Liang will help you out warming the house up. And if you don't mind, he'll embrace you "So at least you can warm up." His handsome face dangerously close to yours. -If only you knew Bi-Han and Liang bickered before and the pyromancer made sure for Bi-Han's attack to hit exactly your house… -They are like beasts always going at each other thorats. Sadly, this make them all grumpier. -If they keep going like this, you won't end up with either of them. -But if you are interested, move fast! Or the world will have fewer ninjas soon…

[cheerstotheelites-if]

Small-ish update report thing

Welp plotting out the rest of Chapter 1 in bullet form is both helpful and making me happier to finally figure out the story properly. 😭

Though at the same time I have to rework the pinned post again, fix up the summary, and remove some side characters that aren't needed and add some that are and update the RO appearances post and art when I have the time to do digital art again. 🧍

It will be worth it though when it happens (the art especially). 🫡

Y'all want another RO to smooch? Because unfortunately for me, this RO potential popped up and struck me in the face while I was planning Chapter 1's plot beats. 🗿

I know some of you out there would like that because we already got:

Idol/Queen Bee & admirer; academic rivals (Fleur)

Crush/besties to lovers; boy next door (Weylyn)

Popular girl & loner; "Please, don't leave me to my demons." (Zephyrine)

Bad boy & good [gender]; "I can fix him." (Eliseo)

Strangers to lovers; "I want to figure you out like a cadaver on my autopsy table" (Cooper)

Unwavering loyalty; "Until death do us part and heaven smites us to ashes." (Ophelia)

And another wouldn't hurt.

This new RO will bring in some Forbidden Romance™️ (and/or enemies to lovers. Still on the fence about which); "Save me from the hell that I linger in." dynamic because this man grew up in a place he does not want to be in anymore, so it's your choice to help him get out of there (and also help him tear down some of the habits and prejudices that have been taught/ingrained to him). And, you know, kiss his cheek and pet his head and tell him it's gonna be okay because you (and the RO's) are here to help him now. 😌🫴✨️

Anyway, that's all I got for now. I'll post the traditional art of his appearance somewhere within the week soon, so maybe look forward to that.

Feel free to ask about him too if you're curious about this lil guy.

- L

[annocke]

#artvsartist2024

End of the year so it's time for #artvsartist !!

A lot of stuff was happening this year, including in my artwork. I am happy with my work, I think i am having much healthier relationship with my own work - not being THAT MUCH self critical on my own art is definitely a big step! Let's just keep going and see what 2025 will be ✨ Thanks a lot and wish anyone reading this a good next year ✨🫶

And thank you @paula_korolowo for professional photoshoot! ❤️ I can finally show my face in little different way than simple selfies here! Welp, I am not showing my face much in here anyway, hah! Recommend to anyone who doesn't know how to act in front of camera (like me) or shy (like me too) to get photoshoot with good photographer, its toooootally different!! Love this photo smmmm 🫶🫶

Go check out her works, fully reccomend it 🫡💕

So yeah, Bye bye 2024

Photo by @paula_korolowo on instagram

[rallentando1011]

save me rise donatello save me-

anyway here’re a miniature bunch o’ Donnie sketches from the past few days (I lob drawing him in my outfits gah)

welp only two more AP exams left and then I’m more or less back baby 🫡

[trdpklvarchive]

new blog

welp tumblr is never giving me back my old url. despite the fact i still get emails from tumblr on the email i signed my term’d blog up with 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂 this website fucking sucks dude

anyways! new blog is at @hatchpanel, follow if you dare, it’s still a big WIP but it’s good enough to open it up to the public.

gonna queue this post a few times but i’m logging out of this account for the foreseeable future probably sometime tomorrow. 🫡 it’s been a good 10 years on this account but i’m afraid i must leave it behind

[pikahlua]

I'm not sure I'm entirely convinced but smashing theory as usual pika 🫡✨️ Is it okay if I ramble about a few misgivings I have? It's a long one, sorry! but there are multiple points I want to mention as assisting ideas

First, I still think that a 1v1 setting battle seems likelier than a 2v2 (bkdk duo vs shigAFO) - since we already had a bkdk duo in the movie ending, and Hori *did* say after that he had a different thing in mind for the actual ending (which I'm not sure should be a classic shounen "Battle of The End" actually, but wth we have been in this war fo so long now? More than a year! it may as well "end" in its conclusion ig). In which case I think we'd agree that 1-to-1 pvps would very likely feature Izuku & Shigaraki and Katsuki & AFO. Speaking of which: I also still think kacchan parallels and juxtaposes moreso with AFO than Shigaraki, so it might make more sense for him to "inherit" AM's struggle in this way, as a battle with the "Big Bad" AFO - not to mention it'd be another extremely cool twist to have the boy who ended AM save him by winning the fight, imo. I'm not sure how much of that metaphorical oomph would transfer to him fighting with "Stray Lamb" Shigaraki/Tenko...

In any case lots of people seem to support the 2v2 option. I understand that the most popular cases are: Katsuki "saving" Tenko by "winning" the fight. Izuku "winning" the battle with AFO to "save" the world. But then, I think the story'd be disregarding Izuku's wish to save Tenko, first spoken of in the vestige realm, which I don't believe is quite likely. We had so many breadcrumbs leading up to Izuku asking "Is Tenko still there?", so I still think a 1v1 and Izuku vs Tenko would make more sense.

I suppose people still want to see Katsuki's "save to win" in this final battle? He has always been a character that has struggled and fought internally with himself foremost - contrasting the mostly external opposition and fights that matured or broke other character's beliefs/ideals. Katsuki is destined to "Win Over His Self", yes? I'd argue he already has done that, (nailed it actually, right in the kokoro) 🎯 😅 which is why I don't really think he has to show it again, that he has learned to "win by saving/save to win". Which is another readon why I think a showdown with Tenko is kinda unnecessary

Meanwhile, I'd argue we haven't seen Izuku's "save by winning/win to save" quite yet, not with Katsuki's grandeur, in any case. I'd argue he finally has the opportunity to do this with Tenko's fight. And I'd think that since OFA is now a "power to save" rather than a power "to defeat AFO", (after class A's intervention and welcome intrusion into that), and since I think Izuku might be the one doing the "saving" for Tenko, it'd make sense for all of OFA's vestiges to bear witness to that "saving", to their "new purpose", if you will, and I think AM's vestige should be included in that if he's truly a part of OFA.

.... If, by chance he's a different component to OFA, like maybe something that serves only as a power maximizing "coefficient" rather than a full blown "variable" in OFA's power "equation"? Then yeah, him leaving OFA might make Izuku slightly less powerful but would make more sense in terms of Katsuki's arc so far. After this battle I doubt Izuku is gonna need that power excess anyway. It'd also make sure he can't become the Symbol of Peace powerhouse on his own and let him play on a more equal field with his peers, which is best fir his sacrificing mentality. And I do think that Katsuki could do with at least the "gaze" and "support" of the mentor Izuku has had 95% of to himself so far...

Welp, that's that! Sorry I even went into a math analogy there 😳 If you've read so far thanks for bearing with me!!!

((This complete thing is utter shit if AM actually won against AFO btw))

I like you. I like your thought process. I like your courtesy in explaining yourself even when we disagree. I want to emphasize all of that because I think your essay here is WORTHY of being challenged. Or rather perhaps it's that I want you to challenge my thoughts, which I hope are also worthy.

(And please bear with me here, my brain fog is rearing its ugly head today.)

1. The problem with 1v1s:

Let me step away from the predictions for a moment with this point. Will Horikoshi ultimately go with a 1v1? He could. I actually have no way of knowing. But I would like to explain why I think it would be a mistake for him to do so. This has nothing to do with Heroes Rising and everything to do with the MHA manga canon.

MHA the story has spent so. much. time. emphasizing how necessary teamwork is, how going alone is not feasible, how everyone has limits. It's not just a platitude it throws around occasionally because it has to. Entire arcs are structured around this idea. Hell, trimesters and curricula in-universe are built upon this lesson. And the story is called "My Hero Academia." How is this a story about Izuku's hero academia if the primary lesson his hero academia taught him gets eschewed at the end? What was ultimately learned if not this?

For Horikoshi to turn his back on this moral, for Horikoshi to go with the standard shounen formula ending when he has famously twisted such tropes in the past, would be to betray his entire story. This story about how society has perverted the ideas of heroes and villains to avoid personal responsibility and stifle social progress ONLY to see the light and view heroes and villains as humans DEPENDS on exalting the virtues of cooperation, of empathizing with one's fellow humans, of desiring everyone to come together, and of contributing to that goal as a piece of the whole. No one is alone. There is always hope. And people are given that hope by having it ignited in their hearts by others (by the symbol of All Might, in many cases).

Remember, "this is the story of how we all became the greatest heroes."

And I do believe Horikoshi wants to maintain this moral as best he can. This final arc has showcased that. Even in the battles we've seen concluded now, while the primary focus may have been on one person's conviction (Shouji's, Mina's, Shouto's, Ochako's), that conviction was backed up and magnified by another person (Kouda, Kirishima, Iida, Tsuyu). And you'll note that some "fought" and some did not. Some played supporting roles or contributed with non-combat assistance (speed or negotiation, perhaps). So at the very, very least, if we end on a 1v1 fight between Izuku and Tomura, Katsuki must support Izuku's conviction to save Tenko in some vital way that tips the scales in Izuku's favor.

The question is, has this already happened?

One might argue it has, that Katsuki's death and the efforts by others to save him have had a clear effect on Tomura. Katsuki's death was the catalyst that allowed Tenko to swallow AFO's ego and regain control of himself.

But we could also argue that, while this potentially contributes to Tenko's salvation, it is NOT an example of Katsuki sharing in Izuku's conviction (that of saving villains). And I argue that this much is a REQUIREMENT.

That said, there MAY be another example that could be construed as Katsuki sharing in Izuku's conviction.

We REALLY don't talk about chapter 358 enough. It may turn out to be a crucial hint about how future events play out.

That said, it's debatable on whether this is truly the same conviction Izuku professes or if it's just the lesson Katsuki has learned, in which case...

Would that not beg for a moment where Izuku backs Katsuki's conviction up, too?

So, sure, you may get your 1v1, but I'm willing to bet there will be enough of Katsuki present in it to construe the "1v1" as otherwise :P

2. The idea that Katsuki parallels AFO more than he does Shigaraki:

At the risk of sounding pedantic, I want to earnestly, powerfully emphasize the idea that this is not a competition: everyone parallels everyone. I have showcased many times how many ways in which Izuku and AFO parallel each other, it's not just Katsuki and Tomura.

But note how this is really possible with ANY TWO CHARACTERS in the whole series. They all parallel each other. It's because everyone's learning the same lessons.

And parallels don't necessarily make for a good 1v1. I don't really think about the parallels that much in terms of setting up FIGHTS. Most "fights" in MHA are barely fights at all. They're conversations, arguments, debates, just sometimes with some action in the middle.

What I really expect from these parallels is a resolution. Some sort of reckoning. Anything at all really. Someone challenging someone, someone talking to someone, someone reaching out for someone. It doesn't matter who does what in most cases, because I expect all four to interact.

3. "I understand that the most popular cases are: Katsuki "saving" Tenko by "winning" the fight. Izuku "winning" the battle with AFO to "save" the world."

Yikes, are these really the most popular options? I hate them. I hate them so much. Can I offer some better ones?

What if Izuku fights Tomura long enough to subdue him and reaches Tenko's heart but can't physically reach out to save him, so Katsuki has to act as Izuku's extension to take Tomura's hand and save him?

What if Izuku fights to his last strength and saves Tomura (and maybe Baby AFO, who knows where that's going) but can't get all of them out of physical danger, so Katsuki is the one who gets them out?

Or maybe Izuku just can't save HIMSELF and Katsuki rescues him?

What if Katsuki reaches Tenko's heart through speech, through relating to him, and it disarms Tenko enough for Izuku to save him?

What if AFO and Izuku have a tug-o'-war over Tenko and Katsuki tips the scales? Or Katsuki AND All Might tip the scales?

What if Izuku fights Baby AFO (or it's something like another Dabi explosion situation) and Katsuki relates to AFO himself as a child and that disarms AFO enough for Izuku to save the day?

What if ANY of the above but add more Class 1-A and other villains to it? What if everyone holds hands to make a human chain to pull Tenko out of some AFO ego void and show him the world cares?

I can go on for days.

4. "We had so many breadcrumbs leading up to Izuku asking "Is Tenko still there?", so I still think a 1v1 and Izuku vs Tenko would make more sense."

But that's just it! Katsuki has breadcrumbs too!

It has been highlighted over and over and over again ad nauseam that Katsuki is a character who must become a hero who can see things from the villains' perspective and REACH OUT TO THEIR HEARTS. Katsuki even names Tomura as the person he intends to face down in the end!

(Of course, AFO fits the bill in many ways too. But like I said, I don't think it's gonna be clean-cut 1v1s, so there's opportunity for both Izuku and Katsuki to show what they're made of in this regard with BOTH villains.)

5. "Katsuki is destined to "Win Over His Self", yes? I'd argue he already has done that, (nailed it actually, right in the kokoro) 🎯 😅 which is why I don't really think he has to show it again, that he has learned to "win by saving/save to win"."

BUT HE DOES NEED TO SHOWCASE IT. OTHERWISE THIS IS JUST LIP SERVICE, BECAUSE NOTHING HAS HAPPENED SINCE HE SAID IT.

While you and I may believe he's already made it, Katsuki himself DOES NOT ACKNOWLEDGE THAT YET. He does not see himself as having surpassed All Might yet, and he believes that in order to do so he needs the help of others.

I mean, does it get louder than "Because saving people is how we win"????? He's set the terms for what his "win to save/save to win" looks like in the end!

6. "Meanwhile, I'd argue we haven't seen Izuku's "save by winning/win to save" quite yet, not with Katsuki's grandeur, in any case."

I mean this super genuinely because I think you need to consider it: How was Izuku's victory over Overhaul NOT this in your eyes?

I think you need to be able to answer that question if you want to make such a claim. I think you CAN make the claim, mind you, but anyone you talk to about this will point to this moment in canon as their first question for you to address.

Until you can answer it, I have to argue that both Izuku and Katsuki have displayed some version of their "win to save/save to win" pieces before, but they have to now apply those pieces to this war where the stakes are astronomically higher.

7. "…. If, by chance he's a different component to OFA, like maybe something that serves only as a power maximizing "coefficient" rather than a full blown "variable" in OFA's power "equation"?"

Kudos to you for the "if"! Yes, in my recent posts, I've been writing under the assumption that All Might's vestige is a piece of OFA. But I'm actually not fully convinced this is the case yet. Everything surrounding All Might's vestige is still very loosely defined and doesn't seem very final. I think it's totally possible there's a twist waiting for us in there.

And anon, I did receive your other messages.

8. "Speaking of which, if AM's vestige is in fact a power "coefficient" then its checks out that Kacchan would rise powered-up!! WTF It makes sense ?! 🥴"

Can I offer you an apotheosis in this trying time?

[tinyperson00]

My attempt at replicating the bsd style-

it’s a lot freaking harder than I thought ;-;

I’m not used to the skinny limbs save me 😭

anyway imma just go- *looks up at time* HOLY SHIT ITS ALMOST 1am- I GOT FRICKING SCHOOL AT 5:30am

WELP 🫡

I’m still not tired tho……. All nighter on a school night part 31?

[shostakobitchh]

Welp, I've been needing a fic to reread anyway. I've been deliberately avoiding rereading this one because I really don't wanna read the letter burning scene again, but I'm giving in. I will find the mystery man, mark my words.

I think my favorite thing is that everyone (including me) is collectively traumatized by the letter burning scene.

If you can find Mystery Man, I will literally give you an award. I found the spot yesterday because you guys are giving me the itch to write about him and I have to fight it.

As a fun side note, we will see him before the end of PoA. I found a note in my outline where Ariel (briefly) sort of interacts but you're going to have to be really looking to know it's happening. So, there's a little easter egg.

🫡

[pineappical]

I definitely understand like not exactly 100% making it look like the actors, but picking a face mold that is closer to the actors face looks a little better in my opinion. There's a big difference between the standard like white blonde Barbie mold, and the one that they used for the collectible, Margot Robbie, Barbies from the new movie that you can buy.

I think you get halfway there it works but yeah, I just don't think the eyebrows in the mustache works on the standard Ken.

yeah 😔😔 welp! unless someone steps up to make good custom ones, theyre the barbies we have to deal with now 🫡 anyways,

same vibe

[narwhalandchill]

guys im sorry i swear ill start talking more abt all the positive aspects of 2.0 soon but. welp

(firefly rant TWO!!! now with otto apocalypse. okay not even abt her lol its just ranting about misrepresentations of otto and The Memes being made. iykyk. but anyway. spoilers and all 🫡🫡)

so first of all i dont go there anymore so the lore details might be fumbled a bit but also like the actual fucking disrespect to otto and WHY kallens death had such a massive fucking impact on him when u act like the situation there is anywhere NEAR comparable to the TB and firefly situation in 2.0 💀 "oh its just a meme" well its a BAD one im sorry

like YES otto has or at least had some degree of romantic feelings towards kallen but that was FAR from all she represented to him??? like the entire point is that in ottos eyes over time as he grew more and more cynical ruthless and jaded kallen slowly became less of just. a human being. and started turning into the actual and ONLY personification of all good that is even worth fighting for anymore when it comes to humanity itself.

kallen to otto was the literal representative of hope and humanitys goodness. and yes that degree of idolatry is fundamentally dehumanizing towards her too and disregards her personhood but thats WHY its so fucking interesting. kallen was just a human being doing her best to fight for the people and do good yet ottos perception of her grew into one stained by obsession and defined thru blind worship because NO ONE ELSE but her could convince him there was jack shit to the world worth fighting for

THATS where his obsession comes from. THATS why otto went to the ends of the earth and beyond to resurrect her all the while knowing shed feel nothing but utter horror at witnessing how far he fell just for her. bc kallen has NEVER seen herself the way otto did. kallen wouldve NEVER wanted ANYONE to go through the lengths that otto did (KNOWINGLY in violation of her wishes) for her. because she knew better. but thats not how otto was.

in ottos eyes humanity became fundamentally irredeemable when kallen was first vilifed and sentenced to death and then died sacrificing herself for the very same people who were going to execute her anyway. humanity proved itself worthless by failing kallen. THATS his breaking point thats driving his actions the entire time after kallens death and why hes willing to commit all and any sins imaginable to save kallen. because in his mind for a very long time kallen hasnt been just a woman he loved as a friend and as an unrequited crush whose death crushed him just bc omg death grief sad uwu. otto ALREADY had a completely warped perception of the world when kallen was still alive but through her death it all just escalated and turned him into the actually insane madman maniac we know him as. and because humanity already proved itself a failure by betraying kallen as the actual messiah-figure she grew into in his head there was no price too high to force the rest of the world to pay on his way to saving kallen.

so.

is that what fucking firefly represents to TB to these ppl????? the irreversible shattering of the worldview of someone already teetering at the edge of a point of no return??? is "omg crush died sad 😢" how fucking shallow do ppl think ottos core motivation is??? holy shit

ok anyway i swear ill calm down now HSJSJSJSKSKSKDK but like DUDE theres a Reason i actually bawled when that mf died in hi3rd and thats BECAUSE he was so fucking good as a fucked up antagonist BECAUSE he was never omg entitled incel (btw. do ppl like. know kallen rejected his offer of political marriage to save her life when she was already due to execution and that he. completely respected it? like. he let her reject him even when it meant certain death for kallen. i s2g ive seen terminally online kallen f/f shippers on twt act like hes some cishet stalker and i.....😭 like hate on him sure he deserves it but dont smear his name????!??) or anything bland or creepy like that. his worship of kallen and who he built her up to be in the pedestal of his mind is so messed up and toxic and tragic (bc he Actually loved her so much?? beyond platonic or romantic? but in all the wrong obsessive ways??? like its so messy) and genuinely interesting in a way u dont see that often in fiction and im actually mad to see his motivations reduced to waa waa honkai beast stabbed kallen.

like EVEN if you enjoyed and were emotionally invested in firefly and TBs arc. (which is perfectly fair im happy for yall!!!! dont let my hater antics get to u!!!) but do NOT be out there acting they had anything like what ottos fucked up complex around kallen is and was at any point of his life please and thank you. this blonde freak of a man didnt LITERALLY defy the laws of the universe just bc kallen dying made him cRaZY 🤪 it was FAR worse than that. HE was far worse than that. i rest my case

[32flavorsotbbg]

7.29

So Mr is paying for the movie tomorrow by choice, even tho I was the one who pitched it

I’m excited

I’m honestly glad this isn’t moving fast like that’s actually one of my pet peeves is when someone thinks they like me without getting to know me. I can’t believe I forgot that one when he asked

Love the sexuality convo because it means he’ll be less inclined to try to fuck me or be overly sexual. Makes me feel way more comfortable and not threatened by dick flying at me.

He REMINDED ME about the mirror selfie (in the mirror in the closet of my parents room at the paso rental) last night and said it was a need 🥵 yummy

He said if I sniff him and like his stink then he’ll “know it’s real” like bitch I’ll fucking lick your pits don’t play with my strange ass

But like whatchu finna know is real?!?!?!?! 😬 cause I don’t smell my friends like that booboo

I think I read into things too much.

But it’s so fun!!!!!!!

The convo in which we figured out we were in fact being set up was nice because it was kinda like welp, neither of us really has a problem with that cause we get along well lol plus there’s a built in sense of time-taking because he’s not even divorced yet. There’s just enough flirting-ish behavior to know the pins are set up but we will have to wait a while to knock them down if that is in fact what we’re going to do. Honestly everything is fine.

If this doesn’t go anywhere, that’s fine. I still have a friend who is a guy which is great! It’s something I wanted anyway! I’m not worried about it. I’m not obsessing really. It’s really fun to have a crush and have that kind of tension of almost waiting for him to be ready. or waiting for more to happen to be said. I say almost because I’m really not waiting. I’m doing my own thing 100%. I wasn’t talking to anyone before him and it’s not really my desire to. It just so happens that I’m attracted to him and we get along.

But he’s open about how he feels like he’s known me for a while, he wants to talk about things and be open and honest and vulnerable.

He said the other day some of the things he daydreams about are “too embarrassing” but he feels like he’s getting closer to them????? So I’m wondering like, if that’s something like being in love with someone or being with someone who actually likes him and is attracted to him and wants to do fun stuff and is laid back and cool and honest. Like maybe he daydreamed about a shot at redemption in love and now he feels like he might be getting closer. That may be me projecting but it’s certainly fun to theorize!!!!

Idk I just feel like this is headed straight for something more but I myself will not be pushing it there if I’m not catching the lead from him. I’m not budging no matter how long it takes. And I mean I’m not budging in the sense that I won’t be pressing for anything. If it’s clear he’s coming for me then of course I’m matching that energy. He’ll need to prove himself as someone for ME specifically and then I’ll follow suit.

But I like where he’s at rn I feel like it’s very mature. He is looking at himself right now so I really don’t need him to look at me and if he does look at me I hope he’s just getting to look deeper at himself thru me.

Because there would be nothing worse than throwing him off his course (him throwing himself, on my account) and then somehow I’m paying for it emotionally or otherwise.

I’ll match energy for sure but he’ll have to make it KNOWN what he wants. Until then I’m friend Elizabeth 🫡 I’m gym partner I’m penpal I’m hiking buddy I’m whatever. But once that flag is raised I’m most likely in. I’m still getting to know him as well and I think that’s really important to remember.

Cause what if he’s not for me? What if I see something I don’t like that’s a non negotiable???? Speaking of, I need to find that notebook….

[skinni-girls-eat-books]

Saturday November 18th, 2023

5:20am thought about him a little, but it hurts so much less now. I know my worth ❤️ also, my tummy hurts from that burger ig, but I will persist 🫡🧑‍🍳

Physical pain/ discomfort once again is being associated with wanting to be comforted emotionally really. If my stomach didn't hurt so bad, I probably would've slept soundly through the night. Plus the stomach achy feeling I think my brain confuses with anxiety/ nausea feelings, even though I think it's just my diet. Better diet = better physically = better emotionally/ spiritually.

My back really hurts too, so there's something else contributing to the generally anxious feeling.

8:41am I want to start waking up earlier I just need a good reason why tbh

4pm! He called me wow I'm kinda surprised bro it's like he was just waiting for a chance to get away from her 🤣 lmao. He was talking about getting a second job bc I guess this one is not giving him enough hours/pay welp. He still obsessed with how he looks and all he does is work, sleep, and go to the gym so what's new ig 😂 girly you already know you're straight so don't let anyone knock you off course 👑 haha he couldn't keep up so he left now he's trying to copy your grind 🤦🙄 he literally couldn't handle having a woman more successful than him that's literally balls crazy 😳

Anyway just got out of work so I'm a free woman! Going to change into my chill outfit and go soak up some sun! Oh and I also got free Thanksgiving lunch at work so yay! Let's keep the good vibes goingggg :)

8:23pm I have a fucking huge bag of kettle popcorn and I'm actually watching silence of the lambs now lol. Also PLEASE stop buying lobster from food trucks it's not WORTH IT. Pro tip I just need to learn how to do that at home 😂

[homolobotomized]