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a/b/o, but for once the story is actually about the beta
big no progrom pack with Geralt, Eskel, Lambert, Gweld and Gardis and Aubry and Clovis
with Lambert still being the youngest of their pack, a beta (thank fuck) who they all say matches really nicely with their scent
Lambert, fresh out of presentation (still changed his body, still felt weird and intrusive and absolutely exhausting, even without it ending in a heat or rut) just goes with it - surely they know what they're talking about
so Lambert is pack. he sits with them, eats with them, trains with them and shares a den (not his bed, he needs his own bed) with them
and nobody really explains anything to him? do they just assume that he knows what to do?? have Gweld and Gardis instinctively know what to do once they presented as omegas? then, why doesn't he know what to do??
why does it feel so wrong?
cue Lambert, during his pack's heat cycle, feeling more like a handmaiden than a pack member. when Gweld and Gardis care for their omegas, they're rewarded with bright smiles and soft kisses, when Lambert does he gets a 'good job'? when Gweld and Gardis care for their alphas, they're hugged and scented and when Lambert does he gets a pat on the shoulder?
do they even want him there?
it feels obvious that they do not. so after their cycle is over he walks out on them (hates that his instincts won't let him leave while they're still at it, while he still can work for them) and doesn't look back
two years later he finds himself in Tretogor of all places, chewing through a stale piece of bread that seriously has seen better days but was half off at the market, while watching a newly mated alpha omega pair making eyes at each other
and he just- he feels his pack bond breaking and he cries, silent tears running down his face while he eats a piece of bread that suddenly tastes so much worse
Meanwhile Madison is grappling with the fact that not every issues can be settled by committee
meanwhile six other witchers are going absolutely nuts over the fact that they feel the bond to their youngest, sweetest, grumpiest pack member fading away
this is how things went from their perspective:
they're litter mates, close knit and seemingly perfectly balanced: two alphas, two omegas, two betas
and then - decades later - they scent a new pack mate and it's that one guy, only surviver of his cohort, half-feral, spicey, grumpy Lambert
he doesn't really fit a beta's usually calm, softspoken demeanor, but they don't care, because he fits their pack so well, they never knew how much they needed him until they met Lambert
immune to their omegas' charm and their alphas' dominance, Lambert does what Gweld and Aubry would never be bold enough to do
he openly berates them when they're being stupid, always saying out loud what he thinks, doesn't cower in front of the alphas and neither is too soft with their omegas
but
but he never initiates anything that could be interpreted as more than just friendly, sleeps in his own bed, doesn't seem to like prolonged contact and not once has asked for anything during their heat cycle
they just assumed Lambert wasn't interested. because he's always so up front with everything else, surely he'd just say something, right?
wrong. and they realize that as soon as he vanishes right after they calm down from their latest cycle - "I thought he just stepped out for a moment, what do you mean he's gone?!"
and for two years he doesn't return to Kaer Morhen and the pack grows morw and more worried
and then they feel their bond to him fail
and all hell breaks loose
#lambert does a lot of running away in my head rn#huh#projecting much?#the witcher#artistsfuneral about the witcher#witcher#lambert#a/b/o
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Howlin' for Yule
Hello and welcome to my Christmas AUvent Calendar! Every day from now until the 24th I will be posting a ficlet that is 500-1500 from an AU I've done over the years.
All stories will be marked with the tag #12 aus of christmas so you can follow along as I will only be tagging my permanent list for this (it would get too confusing otherwise).
The next one on our list is: Werewolf verse. You can read the story here. All links will be to the first chapter, but the chapter itself will have links to the rest of the story.
Do you know how ridiculously proud I am of that title? Do you? Because I am so damn proud of that title. Also welcome to the one that got away from me. I could have kept it short. They dance, they schmooze, and they go home.
But I wanted to write more with this one and when I realized if I wanted this to end on the 24th, I should have started on the 13th, instead of the 12th, I figured I could extend this and post it Christmas Eve.
Day 1 Day 2 Day 3 Day 4 Day 5 Day 6 Day 7 Day 8 Day 9
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Eddie stood in front of a mirror and fussed with his tie. He usually got a chuckle from seeing his reflection in a mirror because according to Wayne that one only became a myth recently with them no longer using silver to back them anymore. But not even that thought could bring a smile to his face.
Because he had to look super nice for his boyfriendâs big Yule Tide âdo up at the new vampire covenâs place. After the Creel house had almost burnt down when Jason attacked, Chrissy thought it would be better to move the coven somewhere safer. Closer to civilization so that if that happened again, they could get help faster.
They had bought a beautiful mansion in Loch Nora that was able to house all the remaining members of the coven comfortably. It even had a large room just for balls. Which is what this most certainly was.
When Chrissy suggested it back in October, she had merely suggested party including the vampires and werewolves as a way to foster peace between them. But Steve, the beautiful big brained and even bigger hearted had suggested a Yule Ball for all the supernatural beings in Hawkins.
So that meant that all Eddieâs friends were going to be there and he had to look nice.
âYou look like youâre going to a funeral,â Wayne groused from behind him. âProbably your own judging from the sour expression on his face.
Eddie whirled around in shock. Wayne was standing there in early 18th century clothes in golds and browns. He looked amazing. âWhy canât I look like that?!â
Wayne looked down at his attire and then back up. âWould you like to?â
Eddie cocked his head to the side. âI mean we really donât have much time to make me something like that.â He waved at Wayneâs outfit. âBecause I donât think your clothes will fit me very well.â
Wayne chuckled. âOh ye of little faith. You take that monkey suit off, and Iâll play fairy goduncle. Go on.â
Eddie raised a questioning eyebrow but did as he was told. He hadnât been gone two scant minutes when he came back and all the clothes were laid out on his bed. Silks, velvet, and lace all in black. He would cut a dashing figure for sure.
He hurried to get dressed and then rushed out to the front to the kitchen and poured out a bowl of milk, placing it on the windowsill.
Wayne chuckled from the living room. âShe owed me a favor, but Iâm sure she will appreciate the treat anyway.â
Eddie shook his head. âItâs just good manners.â
Wayne nodded solemnly. He had raised this boy right. Not just in the ways of the supernatural, but in the ways of being a good human, too.
Then the sound of horses arriving, clattered outside their window and they both exited the trailer to see an elegant coach and four black horses.
âYour boy sure has a flare for the dramatic,â Wayne huffed as he was helped into the carriage by an actual footman. Something that Wayne had never experienced in his long life.
Eddie could only agree. In the last light of the shortest day of the year, the driver and footman seemed to glimmer as though they had a glamour placed over them to look vaguely human.
They pulled up to the covenâs new home and Eddie let out a wolf whistle. âThe new Dominus seems to have her own flare for the dramatic.â
âNah,â Wayne said as he exited the carriage, âthat just comes from being a vampire.â
They were shown into what Eddie could only call a ballroom. It was massive. It was currently setup with long mahogany tables with little nameplates in front of every placement. The eating utensils were gold, the glasses were crystal, and plates were fine china.
It screamed opulence and once Eddie would have turned tail and ran. But not anymore. Being a vampire changed that, for sure, but what really cinched the deal was the man, standing next to the Dominus in a beautiful red and gold outfit similar to what Wayne and Eddie were wearing.
Steve Harrington, Roane Pack Alpha.
To be continued on Dec. 24th
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Day 11
I could have waited until the 23rd to post this one, but there was something symbolic about posting it on the day of the winter solstice. The longest night.
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I finished my Worm read days ago. I'm going to discuss how I feel about the entire story as a whole here.
Some background: I discovered the web serial Worm years ago. I was either searching for the longest story or was searching for one that was one million words long. Either way, one of those things led me to Worm. Instead of reading it properly, I spoiled a bunch of stuff about it for myself, and would read random scenes out of order. And I would look up Reddit posts about the story. I tried giving it a proper read years back, but didn't get very far.
Months ago, I started that proper beginning-to-end read. A couple of days ago, I finished that read. I read the entirety of Worm. And it was worth it.
Before I started that read, I thought the Travelers were pretty cool. I ended up resenting them during my read. Not only were they rude to Taylor, but the Travelers didn't even like each other. That made it even harder for me to care about them, because they showed no care for anyone else.
Heartbreaker and his children, the Heartbroken, fulfilled this very specific trope of mine that probably doesn't even have a name. I don't know why, but I love it when a fictional male character has a lot of children by different women, making those children have a lot of half-siblings. Thragg from the Invincible comics fulfilled this trope too.
Heartbreaker was a villain I wanted to see a lot more of. He definitely had a lot of potential. I wish Wildbow had given him a bigger role in the story. I don't even think Heartbreaker had any dialogue. I wish Accord had had a bigger role, too, because he was another minor villain I found interesting, but at least Accord still had a decent amount of appearances in the story.
Speaking of Heartbreaker, his two kids Regent and Cherish were interesting. I actually liked Regent a lot. I was surprised that Cherish genuinely hated him and that the feeling was mutual. For a while, I thought that Cherish was going to betray the Slaughterhouse Nine and maybe team up with Regent and develop a friendly bond with him. I wanted that to happen. It didn't happen, though. Cherish ended up getting a fate worse than death. I feel bad for her, to be honest. I wouldn't wish her fate on my worst enemy.
I wish Regent had survived. He was a cool character. RIP.
My favorite character was Tattletale. At first, anyway. I think Taylor was my favorite by the end of the story.
Worm is the only superhero novel I've read. Reading it was nostalgic for me. When I was a kid, I loved reading superhero comics and watching superhero movies. The X-Men comics, movies, etc. is my favorite superhero fiction. Reading Worm fed my childhood obsession with superheroes. In general, people with superpowers forming teams and fighting other people with superpowers is something I love to watch or read. My own web serial, which I'm currently rewriting, has that.
I loved the dialogue in Worm. It was one of my favorite things about it. Those chapters during the final battle, when Taylor couldn't understand English, the lack of dialogue was a pain. Not just because a lack of dialogue can be boring, but also because Wildbow writes dialogue so well. I loved it when the characters in Worm would just talk to each other. And I love how characters tended to have unique vocabulary. Sometimes it fit their personality too, like Skidmark and his love for disgusting, inappropriate speech, because he's a disgusting, inappropriate person.
Something I had a problem with, though: a lot of times it wasn't clear which character was talking, and sometimes it was clear which character was talking but wasn't clear which one they were talking to during a group conversation. All of that happened a lot in Worm. Sometimes a dialogue tag would've been nice, with either a name or a pronoun.
The introspection was great. The inner thoughts of the characters never felt repetitive or anything. Sometimes certain phrases were used too much, like "The object was long as he/she was tall". And there were other repetitive phrases, but the introspection always felt fresh. I never had the impression a character was thinking the same thing took much.
Wildbow uses similes pretty well. I loved his descriptions. Sometimes I would read a sentence or a paragraph and understand exactly what a character was feeling. There was this one part when Taylor describes the terror she felt being like a gun being pointed at her for a long time, with her fear not rising or going down. I wish I could find that paragraph again.
The characters. The characters in Worm were amazing. They were so diverse with their own unique beliefs and motivations. It was realistic. A lot of them felt like real people. And there's some great character development. And because a bunch of the characters repeatedly make appearances throughout the novel, you see a lot of them and they make the book feel realer, and more "lived-in".
Worm is technically a multiple point of view novel. It's mainly told from Taylor's point of view, but it has a bunch of other narrators too. Wildbow is a master of multiple POV, which is also my favorite point of view to read and to write. The narrators in Worm have personalities and beliefs that show in the writing. Wildbow knows how to use introspection to demonstrate that. In the racist Hookwolf's interlude, he refers to Shatterbird as the racist term for her race, because he is racist. His inner thoughts fit his character. A non-racist character in Worm wouldn't have used that term. They would have used the proper word for Shatterbird's race. Hookwolf also has a hatred for cornrows, which is another example of his racism. When I read Hookwolf's interlude, I really got the sense that he was racist. Good job, Wildbow.
Worm has a lot of great instances of "show, don't tell". Like when he describes Leviathan as moving slower, because he's weaker, but Wildbow doesn't explicitly say that Leviathan was getting weaker. I loved that. Sometimes the reader has to figure things out for themself. There were some satisfying instances where Wildbow didn't spell out the obvious. I liked that.
I like how smart the characters were. Fictional characters being hopelessly stupid is something I really hate, but there was none of that in Worm. It was like everyone in this book was smart. Smart characters acting genuinely smart makes fiction more thrilling and fun to read or watch. It was satisfying to read intelligent characters showing actual cleverness. There was none of that "This character is stated to be smart but never does anything smart" nonsense.
One example of a character being genuinely clever in Worm is when Coil asks Dinah the chance of various individuals in their group, including themselves, surviving an upcoming attack, after she says there's a chance she will die in the next half-hour. The percentages is around the same for each of them. Coil does this to see if the attack will be an attack on all of them as a whole. This was clever. Another smart moment is when Taylor deliberately confuses Bonesaw to delay her attempt to get to Taylor's brain(which Taylor doesn't want to happen. Bonesaw is a really bad person). This moment probably wasn't extremely clever, but I think in real life most people would just pointlessly beg the bad guy to stop instead of actively trying to delay them.
Characters in Worm use their powers intelligently during fights, and that's what made reading this novel even more fun. It was intriguing.
I also love the stakes gradually get higher. The most dangerous villain is fought at the end, which is a good thing. Because the final battle in a book or other piece of media should be when the stakes are highest. If Scion was defeated in the middle of the novel and Lung was the final enemy to defeat instead, that would've been a terrible writing decision by Wildbow. Villainous Scion was much more of a threat than Lung was.
I really loved this novel. I wish more books were as great as this one. Worm is actually the web serial that made me start taking web serial seriously. I hope I will someday write a serial that's as great as Worm.
My rating for Worm:
4 out of 5 stars.
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Ok Iâve been a little busy but wanted to get this out so hereâs the basic line up and a small rundown of the characters
Itâs going to be under the cut because man this list is crazy long
Jon- Jack Skellington
This is kinda obvious they are both the MCâs of their own story. But more than that, they both have that untapped curiosity and need to know. I mean Jaco had a whole lab set up in the movie. It could also tie back to Jon with his whole âunrelating need for knowledge and distain for boredomâ that he talked about having as a child. In this AU I imagine he didnât grow out of it quite as much as he did in TMA. Although I would still argue that he doesnât like being bored in TMA I mean while heâs supposed to be âlying lowâ he still goes out several times to interview people. He also still has some eye magic things like forcing people to tell him things and going all ceaseless watch. But itâs more magic than fear god and I think eyes are a pretty Halloweeny thing.
Martin- Sally
Listen Iâm a Jmart girly all the way and I think he fits her storyline so well. He has her cleverness and ingenuity and I can so see him brewing up different poison soups, itâs just like tea. I canât remember if itâs a cannon or fannon fact that he knits but I think that goes nicely with the whole seamstress thing sally has. I canât also see him using the detachable limbs thing a lot more to his advantage. Also I think that both him and Sally are mischaracterized to softer versions of themselves and are way more devious than people first think. I would also change his background a bit so his mom is Doctor Finkelstein, but like she is mad at him for his help but still needs it. Itâs complicated and Iâll got over it more in her section. But Martin is a complicated guy with his fair share of mommy issues but a good hear and is way smarter than people give him credit for.
Sasha- The Mayor
Sasha has a lot of big changes to her story. First off she is a very competent mayor working more with Jon kinda like a business partner than blind follower. She runs all of the day to day events and basics of running the town. She does all the business and Jon does Halloween essentially. She likes her job and is very good at what she does, and unlike the NMBC mayor she is pretty much the leader of Halloween town. Sashaâs other face the one she flips to is actually Not-Sasha. She looks and acts completely different but everyone still treats her like the same person. Itâs a running gag that Non-Sasha looks a little different every time Sasha flips between faces but nobody ever says anything
Daisy- Zero
Yes I know Iâm jumping out of order but it will make sense soon. Daisy and Zero was one part actually story stuff and other parts i thought it would be funny. In terms of story she acts like her season 4 self. Sheâs Jonâs best friend ever since he he found her as a wandering sprit, vicious and more wolf than woman. Think season 5 daisy but if Jon was actually able to save her. Alongside the help of Daisyâs old partner Jon used whatever Halloween magic he has to pull Daisyâs humanity back to the surface. Im thinking they got stuck in the coffin again, I think that would be pretty funny and very fitting. Anyway Daisy is a werewolf shapeshifting spirit, think of her wolf form as a more muscular Zero. Her nose glows in her human form too :). Sheâs essentially who Jon confides in and calls him and idiot but then tries to help. She has more of a role than Zero did in the film since she can speak. Daisy was also not very impressed at being the one to lead the sleigh but she did it anyway because Jonâs her best friend and she loves him.
Ok so Tim, Melanie and Basira are going to be grouped together because they are the trick or treaters.
In this case the story was changed a lot so the. Characters were picked not really for personality or relations. But more for continuity so they are all more or less themselves just kinda in Halloween town
Tim- Lock
Tim looks good in Red letâs be for real. He would also make the âdevilish good looksâ jokes you know he would
Melanie- Shock
Melanie gives off the vibes of someone who would dabble in Wicca, like she definitely owns tarot cards. And besides â the blind witchâ is metal as hell and I think she would appreciate it.
Basira- Barrel
Iâm not sure what exactly Barrel is but the bones thing he has going on creates a nice tie back to Jack. Which in turn creates a connection between Jon and Basira which could tie back to the two of them saving Daisy. Basira also sees things for what they are, a sort of âbare bonesâ logic if you would.
Anyway so the reason the 3 of them are listed together is because in this AU they do still work for Oogie Boogie but itâs not consensual. They are all tied to him via a contract and are forced to do his bidding. Tho they often half ass it as a way to get back at him. Melanie is the one to figure out how to leave and thatâs when she blinds herself to get out. Iâll go over the implications of this and what it does later in another post.
On to the villain: if you think the whole contract thing sounded familiar youâd be right
Elias Bouchard- Oogie Boogie
Heâs mean heâs green, and Elias would love having a gambling aesthetic letâs not kid ourselves. Elias is also the main character villain of TMA and I think itâs fitting that he also gets the main villain role here as well. I imagine his lair to be less giant roulette table and more bureaucratic mansion. Essentially he built his own Magnus institute in the outskirts of town and people can come and test their luck. More of a poker style table than a role of the dice. He acts all fair but instead of eating people he traps their souls in contracts. He is also made of eyeballs instead of bugs and the ones in his head are called Jonah Magnus.
Peter Lukas- Santa
Yes yes I know what this implies but itâs funny. Also I didnât know any TMA character that would properly fit this role so why not give it to the guy who probably looks like him. I also think Christmas is partially a conduit of The Lonely. I mean whatâs lonelier than spending Christmas by yourself. I donât even celebrate Christmas and I do feel a little left out sometimes hearing how everyone gets together with the their family and Iâm not. What Iâm trying to say is Christmas makes a lot of people lonely and I can see the Lukasâ taking advantage of that. Itâs also really funny to imagine an Oogie Santa divorce going on. Like Iâll give them more scenes because I can imagine the tension and itâs so funny.
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Martinâs mother- Doctor Finkelstein
This one is more due to character circumstances but I think itâs a very complex dynamic. We know from TMA that Martinâs mother hated the fact that he had to take care of her and I wanted to play on that here. In this world she made Martin this the help of a lab assistant who then ran off after an accident leaving her sick and mostly alone ( yes I know sally has a different backstory in long live the pumpkin queen but I havenât read the book so Iâm sticking with just the movie cannon and my own thoughts). She needs Martins help with taking care of herself mostly but she hates him for it. Yelling and belittling him. But she also knows that without him she will probably die so she holds on to Martin tight. Getting mad when he runs off, guilt tripping him into coming back. She eventually does make a new assistant but Martin cuts off all contact with her. He makes a choice for himself and stands up to her and leaves.
Georgie- human?
Georgie was literally the hardest character to come up with because there is no good character to match her with that is majorly important to the plot but Georgie is a big character in TMA so she had to be here. So I came up with the idea of her being human paranormal investigator ( like in TMA except her podcast is her going out to explore places) and winding up in Halloween town. There is a side plot where she meets up with Melanie and helps her escape Eliasâ contract. She has no fear due to the transference between worlds and as such is welcomed into Halloween Town. Although she finds herself starting to change and she isnât sure if sheâs still completely human.
All the other denizens are background TMA characters, or other holiday rulers like Nikola as the Easter bunny ( that one wasnât a mistake capturing her, Tim just wanted a bit of revenge because she stole his brother. Danny isnât dead just an egg painter now.) Iâll assign more people later
Since itâs getting into the holiday season Iâm thinking about my Nightmare Before Christmas TMA au.
Iâve got nothing but a head full of ideas and I donât know if anybody want to hear about it
But itâs going to be in the back of my mind for most of December
#tma#the magnus archives#tma spoilers#kinda I do say some things but Iâll cover my bases just in case#the nightmare before christmas#tnbc#tma au#long post#like man I did not expect it to take this long#also sorry for the Christmas rant in the middle there I have a lot of feeling about the holidays but thatâs my own stuff#Iâve also had this AU bouncing around in my head since last year when TMA was my main hyperfixation#I also ment to post this 3 days ago I just didnât expect this to take so long to type but here it is#now all I need to do is write down all of the story beats ⊠thatâs going to take a while man why do I do this to myself#reblog#kinda itâs my post but still itâs a reblog
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never write a directionless fic. cause why is pete having a breakdown over the shop that gave him cheap ass egg foo young closing . Howâd we get here
#well actually I think it fits the story nicely but#Iâm baffled at myself LMAOOOOO#Iâd have a break down too actually#did u guys know parts of the Bowery were considered China town in 1933?#well now u do#the main China town street was literally like 2 blocks west#having so many debates w myself if I want this to be a status quo fic or the breakdown pete needs fic#what do u guys think#Iâm at 1300 words it could go either way at this point#the dog speaks#mj is putting up w so much in this fic my heart goes out to her#my shining star
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pygmalion and galatea for aroace people
you should tell your friends what I look like, riz gukgak.
#fantasy high#fantasy high sophomore year#fhsy#riz gukgak#baron from the baronies#fh class quangle#class swap babeyy! bard!riz that's whats goin on!#I really need tags for these now I think lmao#ask to tag#I feel like this should be tagged something. but I dont know what#in my brain after the initial kidnapping class swap baron's thing is every time riz keeps his story abt them up in front of his friends#they get a little bit closer. they send him pictures of where they supposedly are n stuff#theres a scene in my brain only of kristen and riz on top of the van and kristen is like everything kinda sucks rn can u tell me abt baron#cause what you guys have is so nice and beautiful. and riz almost doesn't but he ultimately can't deny kristen a little peace#lmao I feel like dipping into baron stuff with the class swap is like showing my whole ass online again I just. I'm a#horror person before all else... I cant stop myself. canon baron is Great and Cool but that is kind of the thing. for a horror thing theyre#Too Cool. I think cool is kind of the neutralizer of scary. when a monster is a certain amount of cool it overrides the scary#and now u just have a Cool Monster#its so fucked for bard!riz this year bc he doesn't have an office (he's mooching off the school wifi from the AV club room lol)#so there's no buffer between adventure and home life. so baron just shows up in the strongtower apartment lmao#sophomore year bard!riz looks like a slasher protag so I just leaned into it I guess. he gets a mr. x if mr. x is made up by leon kennedy#well. its worse actually. they can show up where he is at any moment theyve proven this. but they dont#they choose to punish him slowly as he lies to his friends instead. baron is mr. x if mr. x is made up by leon and also a bitch#I think its gonna pop up if class swap baron ever speaks in a comic I do but their voice comes from like. inside their hollow face#it sounds like it's a lot deeper in there than that skull should be#tbh what I have rn is kinda like a bag of loose pieces that Can fit together into something great but I dont have the energy to#really sit down with them yet lol. Im doing this inbetween other things#it comes or it doesn't! it's fine. funny how today's bad comic day also. I wont say this is for bad comic day bc all my comics are#flawless and beautiful and perfect and awesome and beautiful and the best#but u should. if u havent drawn a comic today or at all ever u should draw a comic
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Tetris Fanart.
I've been playing tetris while listening to horror podcasts. and yeah
#text#art#eyestrain#cw eystrain#bright colors#cw bright colors#tetris#nintendo#god i dont know what to tag this with. i dont wanna tag it with the podcasts themselves cuz that feels disingenuous. swagever#i actually started this piece a while ago. ok yeah looking at the date that was almost 3 weeks ago wow#but i finally decided to bring it back and finish it#ive been getting back into digital art and its been really nice. its nice having finished pieces.#ive been trying to get weirder with my art. like this piece was weirdly 'personal' in a sense#its been my unique experience listening to these pieces of media. the game in the bg is jsut as important to my experience as the art itsel#the looming sense of dread these podcasts give fit weirdly well with the high tension of some of these games of tetris#i wanted to have that sorta weird ominous vibe to it. have even the pieces feel loud and threatening.#and the gameplay being Past the ds itself is something i thought could be neat#ykno the tetris effect? where you play a bunch and then after you see the shapes everywhere;you play it in your mind?#that was part of what i wanted to channel there. but also like; how your attention works with this stuff#i might be looking straight at the ds but my attention is elsewhere; my brain is in another world#the game is still inescapable tho. tetris effect whatever. these stories stick in my brain just as much.#its all given me some. very very annoyingn anxiety. but i have to go back to them. like a moth to a flame etc. hince the moth climbing out#but uh yeah. that set up was my life for a few weeks whenever i had free time.#the main podcast this is about was magnus btw <- not typing full name so im not on the tag#and uh.#objectum#yeah i think. i think yeah.
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here together
#lobotomy corporation#lobcorp#lobotomy corp spoilers#lobotomy corporation spoilers#abram lobcorp#i didnt know that the song that plays during day 48 ending is called 'here together'.#couldnt hear it well because i typically have my sound low (sensetive to louder sounds) and also the dialog fucked me up#so when i pressed on it to hear it. to actually listen to it. then to see the name and remember what it Looked like#i got teary eyed. sorry.#it happened quite. afew times when finishing this shitty thing#i was thinking of how camren's not quite corpse looked as if it were reaching out to him inside the container#how it looked as if she had wings. abrams words. the line from one story that was--#something like 'we were hoping it was just one big prank and she would hop out fro. around the corner with a smile on her face'#how do you move forward when all you think you cause is pain? when everything else youve done only brought to bring people you love to thei#downfall and demise inside agony and fear as they lay dying. none of that was merciful. none of that was just. they were told to carry on#her dream and he views as if all he had done was to become cruel and wasnt fit and never even began to finish what she started.#it was so striking to me. the language he used. sleeping. alseep. waken. when all the others never sugarcoated it#in lobcorp they always said it straight. 'suicide' 'killed' 'dead'. but he used something far more.. peaceful? kind in wording in a way.#softer. describing death as if it were a merciful thing. an end that suits them and not something to be afraid of. to just... sink. to slee#to be with carmen again. to put everything to an end#the place they built with their hands. to have it just... stop. not in a way of repeating and staying in the moment#but of a permanent end. to 'sleep'. to die. to just.... stop. forever. to see no more. to do no more#to not be able to do Anything for when ever he had done Something it just cause agony. cruel hands partaking in acts he so deeply#regrets. everything is just regret. it sounds nice. to move on. to just move forward. but how can you move forward when all you think you#bring to those you cherished and couldnt leave behind is pain?#ill likely move this somewhere else as well. ive been meaning to talk about abram#the rest as well actually. mostly just the few final days w abel adam and abram since i am STUCK ON DAY 49#oh dear i uh typed a lot in the tags. oops
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Oh ok. I get now why a lot of people didn't vibe with the ending.
All and all: excellent manga, overall very good final act, too rushed final 2-3 chapters but weak and honestly mediocre epilogue, which makes the high of the ending kind of leave a bitter taste. I think Noda had a good steed and suddenly he had to finish and had to rush all. So the ending in the sense of the final arc was good but the ending proper (final couple chapters) + epilogue......... Not so much
#i liked rhe ending (though made the mistake to read comments so now I'm like 'yeah you are right that did not make sense' when on my own i#probably would not have noticed. but ok. I'll work my suspension of disbelief. HOWEVER the epilogue WAS indeed very lackluster#i get it's an epilogue but it was so rushed. we barely get a closure for ume and saichi and tanigaki did not get to#take asirpa back to uci as he should have (though he was instrumental for that). overall it was super rushed#like we did not even see how Sugimoto was rescued. the epilogue was faaaar too rushed tbh and also too vague in parts#siraishi not really saying goodbye.... also sugimoto and asirpa living together that's cute idc and i think the line into nastyness was not#crossed but oh boy is it a thin thread... i still choose to believe they are platonic soulmates lol but i want to see an official#translation of the volume that's all i say. what else... oh yes. the way the gold never got to actually be distributed doesn't sit right#with me at all but the worst part was definitely the sugimoto/ume thing oh god that was BAD#we did get to see osoma which was cute#OH AND DON'T GET ME STARTED ON VASILY??? We didn't even see him. the epoligue for him in particular was great though but his ending was not#like he just hanged around ogata gor chapters and chapters on end and we don't even get a glimpse of him during the final showdown??#tbh i think noda wanted to do something more with him but realized he did not quite fit into the story and in the end got#caught up with all the main lines he did have to close and he obviously had planned and probably combined with his own exhaustion well#did not go nice for vasily! i also would have liked a more proper epilogue for tsukishima and koito. they deserved it#I don't like how pre-epilogue the tsukishima-tsurumi-koito tension seems to reach a breaking point only to kind of not get resolved because#they have to keep fighting lol.#laura reads#also i get the sentiment of the ending regarding the ainu and i think noda did his best but it seems like a rather soft thing for asirpa to#do like... sure. museums and stuff. i GET it but it goes a little too soft in the actual colonialism that went on from the japanese. i feel#noda starts off fairly critical of that but in the end softens his stance which is a shame but ok. the bar is in hell so this is actually#much better than average from what i can personally gather of my little knowledge#golden kamuy#gk spoilers
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watched whitepine 1. i think i want to gather all my thoughts on part 1 before moving on to the next installments but oh wow im excited to see where this story goes
#this is one of those projects that makes me wish minecraft youtubers hired professional voiceactors.#lowkey as i watch ive been imagining this as a fortiche production. & i dont mean either this or the thing about VAs as an insult!!!#it just . would feel right. this is so great i feel like im watching an award nominated indie film and not a minecraft production#and the reason i mentioned fortiche specifically is because their ability to make these odd inhuman designs (see: lest steb and babette)#fit right into the mainly realistic human world they inhabit in arcane was just wonderful and i loved it a lot#and i think that would work well with these wacky mcyt skins. like princezam is literally a yellow blob#anyway so those were all my little notes about how much i love animation . onto actually discussing the story#um . i really loved ivorys character. everyone else isnt very developed yet (understandable! ive watched 30 minutes of this thing so far)#you can get a grasp of what shes about. i liked the scene with seraptor where she freaks out a bit when asked if she doesnt like#how much he talks. it made me cry a little bit because i have Issues#and her referring to everyone as sir or ma'am and asking permission to do anything as well as always saying that she was staying#in the servant side of the house and all that is very . like just kinda sad. very interesting#i like the melancholic atmosphere everywhere as well as all the wideshots#(and i liked the parts where while following minute(? i think. not well versed in the names of this general crowd im ngl) ivory kept#looking around everywhere. and how she stood somewhere behind him when he was talking to the person at the gate or whatever#i like her!)#it all sets the tone very nicely . i like this series#go watch it maybe#voidcore.txt
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It's so nice to have this tiny little selection of WIPs to prioritize. Really helps me to keep my focus where it should be.
Wait, what's this?
IT'S A LONG-ABANDONED WIP WITH A STEEL CHAIR!!
#so two days ago i was looking back at some of my stories i like and thinking that they were all garbage#well then yesterday (actually at 3 am shh don't tell) i was looking at some things i liked less and found that they were surprisingly good#(my imagination kicked in during the interim and supplied some really nice mental movies that made the stories come alive)#and guys that arateph princess and the pea retelling has me going feral#both povs have fantastic conflicts#the fairy tale gets to tie in perfectly with the politics and philosophy issues in this world#and now i really really want to get to the core of this story and try to figure out how to finish it#because there's a ton of thematic and internal things happening#but how to realistically tie it in with the need for action is logistically difficult#i've got at least three threads here and the 'assassination attempt' thing is the most concrete possibility but also the hardest to fit in#i may just have to open a new doc and rubber-duck it to see if something comes together#incidentally the fact that this kind of thing regularly happens with my backlog of seasonally-specific ideas is why i rarely finish anythin#ah well what do you do?#adventures in writing
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Fabric stores are so fucking awesome like I get to buy obscure fabric used to keep mosquitoes from getting through the windows and hear old ladies telling the people cutting fabric all their secrets
#the klock keeps ticking#i didnt actually buy the mosquito fabric cuz i dont need that even kinda lol like itd be funny but come on im broke#its cool they were selling that though whodve thunk#i was there to get some black denim cuz im making a skirt for a special friend they tried making it out of their jeans but they arent very#experienced with sewing and long story short it was a whole mess and they gave up and i got sad#so i told them id take a crack at it and im gonna try and have it ready for their birthday which is in a few weeks!#i hope it works out and fits them properly and doesnt fall apart cuz they looked really pretty in it#and it suits them very well and they just deserve a nice skirt for once dammit đș#as for old lady gossip they just love talking about their grandkids and their daughter in law that they hate#i dont think the people working were too happy to see me though they kinda looked at me like i was ruining their day đ©
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I'm gonna let you in on a badly kept secret. most of my dazai analysis is truly just me projecting. but being decent enough at bullshitting to make it sound convincing so ppl usually end up agreeing with my takes
#what i lack in actual reading comprehension and analysis abilities i make up for in charisma and fake confidence#ahdjfllhh or maybe my projections just fit! maybe i accidentally do make good analysis! or at least offer alternative readings!#anyway i was thinking abt his relationship with pain again. and i started writing an essay in my head#before realizing I'm basically describing my own relationship with it. and that my experiences are not universal esp in regards to that#but just bc they're not universal doesn't mean they're nonexistent! who's to say dazai doesn't have them as well đ©#fr tho i think with a character like him that hides a lot of himself and his true feelings. insisting on one 'canon' reading is dumb#the whole point is you view him through your own personal experience. imo. that's what he'd want too#the emptiness inside him is meant to be filled by his audience. whether inside the story or outside it. i think.#that's why he is one thing around fyodor and another around atsushi and i see him one way and you see him in another one#and all these readings are right and all these versions are still him. you don't know what's inside the donut after all#but again :) even this part could be just me projecting :) but see how nicely i bullshitted through it to make it sound deep?#(<- being sincere but hiding it with irony as to not get rejected. as one does) (<- admits it bc who tf would get this far into my tags)#(but thank you if you did ily) (also shoutout to anyone who ever validated my unhinged analysis/projection mwah)
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made a cohost account which means i am severely over thinking usernames again and how nothing i have ever called myself online has fit me
#not even my legal name really#is this because i am an ever shifting person who dislikes things staying the same?#will i forever be changing my username every few months because i won't ever really know myself?#i just want a nice simple username that really fits#i dislike this username rn because i don't think it expresses my interests well enough.#like no sorry fellas not actually a big vivisection fan and i'm sorry if i gave you the wrong impression.#like i'm trying to come up with new usernames and completely changing my brand but everything i think of just.... doesn't fit#thinking maybe something-burrowed cause to me that's a reference to a horror story i read but my friend is saying it's too woodland creatur#and i don't care or want to associate myself with woodland creatures. i don't care. it's about the horror of being a tomb to me#ughjhhhhhh i hate this. i hate living in my brain#hey guys feel free to tell me some things you might associate me with i'd love to hear more ideas#maybe i should do something related to sleeping beauty or just something like sleeping-something idk ughhh i don't like this
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ARE YOU JEALOUS?
Summary: Sassy!Kook!Reader gets jealous when she sees Rafe Cameron close with another girl...
Content: neck sucking (?), childhood friends to lovers, kind of mean!rafe in one scene, bullying lol, suggestive towards the end but just a tiny bit.
Words Count: 5.5k ... i don't know what the fuck happened...
Aliyah's talking: IDK if i fw this or not but i hope yall will lolz <3 Thank you so much for the love on Protective Instincts btw!!!! I am so grateful and surprised that many of you all enjoyed it. Hope u'll enjoy this one too đ©·
Sunlight streamed into Sarahâs room, casting a soft, golden glow over the space as you lounged on her bed, idly flipping through a magazine. You both were sprawled across the plush, yellow covers, surrounded by half-empty bags of chips and scattered makeup palettesâevidence of an afternoon well spent. Sarah was perched by the vanity, trying on different lip glosses, all of which looked beautiful on her, but she insisted on which one was the best.
âSo, tell me again,â she started, holding up a tube of shimmery pink gloss and squinting at it thoughtfully. âWhy donât you go for Jake? I mean, heâs cute, heâs smartââ
âAnd boring. He is boring,â you interjected, rolling your eyes with a laugh. âCome on, Sarah, you know how I am. I need someone with a little more⊠edgeâŠ? Someone that could handle me but also play the game, you know?â
Sarah smirked, setting the lip gloss down and turning to face you. âEdge⊠Handling your attitude⊠Iâm afraid that weirdly sounds like someone we both know.â
âYou think youâre so funny, huh?â you said, shooting her a mock glare.
She laughed, completely unbothered. "What? Iâm just stating the facts!" She shrugged, a mischievous glint in her eyes. "As much as I hate to admit it, my brother definitely fits both criteria, soâŠâ
You were listening to her but stopped when your phone buzzed. Out of habit, you unlocked it and opened the notification from Instagram; Topper posted a new story and you watched it. The screen was filled with a shaky video of the beach, the late afternoon sun casting golden light over everything. You recognized some people, but your attention zeroed in on Rafe, right in the center of it all. He was grinning, his arm slung around a girl who was laughing and pulling him closer, like they were the only two people on the beach.Â
You felt a quick, unwelcome pang in your chest.
âHey, whatâs got you so interested?â Sarahâs voice broke through your thoughts, and you glanced back at her, masking any hint of emotion with a casual smirk.
You locked the screen and tossed the phone aside. âNothing. Just Topperâs beach parties and Instagram stories.â
She gave you a skeptical look, folding her arms. âDonât lie to me. I know you better than yourself, what did you see in that story, Y/N?â
You hesitated, but then shrugged, trying to play it off. âRafe was at the party with some girl. A new girl. Itâs not a big deal.â
âAh, I see,â she said with a raised eyebrow. âYou know heâs always messing around with someone new. But⊠I thought you didnât care about what he was up to.â
âI donât,â you said, a bit too quickly, crossing your arms. âHe can do whatever the hell he wants.â
âRight. So, you donât care at all?â
You rolled your eyes, trying to suppress a smile. âLook, I just donât get whatâs so special about him that girls keep falling over themselves to be around him. Thatâs all.â
She nodded with a giggle. âYeah, no, I definitelyââ
âAnd doesnât it bother anyone that heâs got a new girl every week? I mean, if I were one of those girls who actually liked him, Iâd be furious. Wouldnât you, Sar?â You barely paused before continuing, not even waiting for her answer. âItâs honestly just sad because Rafe really isnât even all that. Sure, he can be fun and nice sometimes, but heâs also a huge asshole with a big fucking ego. Is it just me, or is everyone blind to that?â
Sarah was quiet for a moment, studying you with a thoughtful expression before she finally spoke up. âYou know what? I think we could both use a break from overthinking anything about the opposite sex. How about we get out of here and grab some smoothies? I heard thereâs a new spot by the marina.â
You nodded, grateful that she didnât talk about your little moment. âYeah, letâs go.â
Sarah grabbed her bag, giving you one last teasing smile. âSmoothies and maybe some retail therapy afterward?â
âSounds like a plan,â you replied, letting the idea of a carefree afternoon replace the lingering thoughts of Rafe. Whatever he was up to, it was his business. You werenât about to let it ruin your day.
The soft hum of the fridge and the rhythmic clinking of silverware filled the kitchen as you, Sarah, and Rafe gathered around the island, your weekly routine as ingrained as the family photos lining the walls. The night was settling in, casting a cozy stillness over the room. You were only half-listening as Sarah rambled on about her weekend plans, your attention instead focused on pushing pasta around on your plate, not particularly hungry.
Rafe sat across the counter, leaning back in his chair with an ease that always seemed to irritate you. He had been quiet, too but you knew he wouldnât last long. Sure enough, he broke the silence.
âAlright,â he began, raising an eyebrow at you, âwhatâs up with you tonight? Youâre awfully quiet.â
You didnât look up, keeping your tone purposefully casual. âNothingâs up,â you replied, hoping heâd let it go. But you knew better.
âCome on,â he pressed, tilting his head in that infuriatingly smug way. âWhereâs that feisty attitude you always have? Usually, by now, youâd have already made at least five smartass comments about my shirt or something.â
You let out a short, unimpressed laugh, finally meeting his gaze with a raised eyebrow. âMaybe I just ran out of things to say about you, Rafael. Ever think of that?â
He grinned, his eyes glinting with mischief. âNah. Youâve got an endless supply of attitude, Y/N. Iâd be shocked if you were ever actually out of material.â He took a sip from his glass, watching you over the rim with that familiar, infuriating smirk.
Sarah shot you a look, her mouth twisted in a tired smile as she mouthed, here we go. She had seen this routine a thousand times before.
âYou really think I spend that much time thinking about you?â you fired back, folding your arms over your chest and fixing him with an unimpressed stare.
âOh, I donât think,â he replied smoothly, leaning in a little closer, âI know. Admit it. Iâm in your head, arenât I?â
You let out an exaggerated sigh, leaning back in your chair as you tossed him an indifferent look. âRight. Youâre the center of my world, Rafe. Canât you tell?â
He chuckled, clearly enjoying this. âYou know, when youâre this quiet, itâs like a fucking flashing neon sign saying, âSomethingâs upâ. Might as well tell me now.â
You rolled your eyes. You knew that engaging with him like this was a slippery slopeâonce you started, he never let up. But for some reason, tonight, you couldnât help yourself.
âHonestly, I donât have the energy for your little mind games tonight,â you said, trying to sound as bored as possible. âSo, if youâre expecting me to entertain you, youâre gonna be disappointed.â
âOh, come on. I donât believe that for a second,â he shot back, leaning back casually in his chair as if he had all the time in the world to wear you down. âYou love this. Sparring with me? Itâs basically your favorite hobby.â
You scoffed, shaking your head. "Didnât realize my silence was such a tragedy for you.â
âOh, it is. I mean, where else am I supposed to get my daily dose of attitude?â He leaned back, feigning a pout. âCome on, youâre no fun like this. Did something happen?â
You rolled your eyes, twirling your fork in the pasta as if it held your entire focus. âWhy would you care? Iâm sure you have more important things to worry about. Maybe more girlââ
Sarah let out a sigh, interrupting before Rafe could respond. âHonestly, do you two ever get tired of this? Weâre supposed to be having dinner, and it feels like Iâm watching some sort of weird rom-com.â
You shot Sarah an exasperated look. âThereâs nothing romantic about this, Sar. Itâs called surviving.â
âRight,â Sarah said, clearly unconvinced. âBut could you maybe survive without the constant bickering? Just once?â
Rafe smirked, clearly unfazed by Sarahâs comment as he turned back to you. âI donât know. I think she secretly enjoys it. You should see how she lights up when she gets going.â
âFuck off,â you muttered, taking a long sip from your glass and hoping it would mask the heat you could feel rising in your cheeks.
He watched you with an amused glint in his eye, clearly picking up on your discomfort. âA little defensive, arenât we? I mean, Iâm just stating the obvious here. Youâve been on edge all night. Care to share with the class whatâs really bothering you?â
You set your glass down with a little more force than necessary, fixing him with a glare. âYou really think everythingâs about you, donât you?â
âNot everything,â he replied, shrugging casually. âJust the things that involve you. Because, for some reason, every time youâre in a mood, it usually has something to do with me.â
You opened your mouth to argue, but then closed it again, unsure of how to respond without giving anything away. You didnât want to give him the satisfaction of knowing heâd hit a nerve, even if he had.
âWhatâs the matter, princess?â he continued, pushing his plate aside as he leaned forward, his eyes never leaving yours. âDid something happen between you and Jake, huh? I thought you two were casually talkââ
You groaned, frustrated that heâd brought Jake into it. âThereâs nothing to say about Jake. Iâm just tired, okay? Not everything has to be about some guy.â
âOh, Iâm aware,â Rafe replied, his tone laced with a hint of smugness. âBut Iâd say youâre a little moreâŠon edge than usual. So, it has to be about that guy, rightâŠâ
âJakeâs got nothing to do with this,â you said, your tone steady. âUnlike you, he actually knows how to mind his own business.â
Well, youâre just lying because youâve never taken the time to actually learn about Jake and what type of person he was. As bitchy as it sounded, you were using him as a distraction.
You stared at him, hoping your silence would be enough to make him drop it. But, of course, he didnât.
Rafe crossed his arms as he studied you, his gaze never wavering. âSo, youâre saying you prefer a guy who lets you get away with whatever you want, then?â
You scoffed. âNo, Rafe. I am saying I prefer a guy who doesnât feel the need to stick his nose into everything I do. You know, a guy whoâs secure enough to let me be without constantly needing to provoke me.â
âYeah, I see,â he replied, nodding softly. âSo, basically, youâre looking for someone boring. Someone who doesnât challenge you, who just lets you coast by. Am I right?â
You let out a dry laugh, shaking your head. âYou think you know me so well, donât you? Donât flatter yourself, Cameron. I can find someone else to annoy me if I really wanted to.â
Rafeâs eyes darkened, but that infuriating smirk stayed in place, like he thrived on every bit of tension between you. He cocked an eyebrow, leaning forward, his voice a low, taunting whisper. âOh yeah? Who, exactly? Jake? Heâs perfect for youâgoody-two-shoes, never steps out of the fucking line. Because, letâs be honest, youâd crush him. Heâd never call you out, never push you.â He paused, and there was a bitterness beneath his words, hidden but unmistakable. âHeâd be safe.â
A bitter smile twisted your lips, the pain creeping into your voice despite your best efforts. âAt least Jake knows how to be respectful. He wouldnât stoop to tearing me down just to get a rise. He wouldnât need to.â
Rafe scoffed, his amusement tinged with a hint of anger. âRespectful? Fuck that. You want someone to play nice and tell you what you want to hear, go right ahead. But I think we both know thatâs not what you really want.â He took a step closer, his gaze fierce, challenging. âYou think Iâm the bad guy because Iâm not afraid to tell you the truth. I donât play pretend. Iâm not here to tell you sweet liesâIâd rather see who you really are, even if that means pissing you off.â
You narrowed your eyes, fury blazing in your chest. He was looking right at you, like he could see through every layer you tried so hard to put up. But there was something deeper in his gaze, a flicker of something that made your heart race even as anger burned within you. And you hated that he could do thatâmake you feel so exposed, so raw, yet so alive all at once.
But to him, this was just another game. He thrived on your frustration, on the way he could get under your skin with just a few well-placed words. It was a twisted power play, a battle neither of you were willing to lose. And for a moment, the air between you was charged, almost electrifying, the tension so thick it was nearly suffocating.Â
You wanted to hate him, but a part of you couldnât help but wonder if he was rightâif he really did see through to the parts of you that no one else dared to touch.
But that only made you angrier, and you felt a surge of resentment rise within you, pushing you over the edge. With a sudden flash of fury, you slammed your fists onto the table, the sound echoing through the room, your voice sharp and cutting. âYou know what? Fuck you, Rafe Cameron.â
Without another word, you turned and stormed out.
The sound reverberated through the Cameron household, leaving a heavy silence. Rafe stood there, fists clenched, trying to swallow down the mix of anger and something elseâsomething that felt dangerously close to longing.
Sarah raised an eyebrow at her brother. âYouâre a fucking asshole, you know that?â
Rafe shot her a look, irritation simmering just beneath the surface. âYou donât get it, Sarah. Sheâs⊠Sheâs infuriating.â
But then he hesitated, his gaze drifting toward the door you had just stormed out of. The edge of his lips twitched in a way that was all too vulnerable, too honest. âBut thereâs something about her,â he admitted, his voice softening. âSheâs fierce and passionate. When sheâs angry, itâs like sheâs alive in a way I canât help but be drawn to. Itâs frustrating, but⊠but sheâs not afraid to challenge me, to call me out.â He paused, searching for the right words, his heart racing.
âAnd so that makes it right for you to annoy her to that point?â
He shrugged. âI donât know. I canât help it. I want her to see the real me, too. Itâs like I canât breathe when sheâs around and thenâwhen she leaves? Itâs like the air just⊠disappears.â He ran a hand through his hair, a mix of confusion and desire etched across his features. âShe challenges me in ways I never expected, and it drives me insane, but I canât help but want more of her.â
âWow,â Sarah said softly, her voice full of surprise. âI didnât think Iâd see the day Rafe Cameron talked about someone like thisâbut mess around with her like that one more time, and Iâll hurt you.â
The sun spilled into your bedroom, casting a warm glow that felt inviting. But you stirred, still brimming with the tumult of emotions from last night. Rafeâs words echoed in your mindâhis teasing, the way he pushed your buttons, and the way your heart raced despite your annoyance. You groaned and rolled over, pulling the blanket over your head, hoping to drown out the memories.
But then laughter broke through the haze of your thoughts. It was bright and carefree, drifting in through the open window. Intrigued, you tossed off the blanket and slid out of bed, your curiosity piqued. A quick glance outside revealed the source of the joyful sounds: Sarah, Wheezie, and Rafe were out by the pool, splashing water and playfully throwing each other around.
Rafe, wearing nothing but swim trunks that hung low on his hips, was the centerpiece of the scene, effortlessly drawing your gaze. His tanned skin glimmered, accentuating the muscles that rippled as he dove and surfaced in the water, laughter spilling from his lips, infectious and buoyant.
You caught yourself ogling him, eyes roaming over the way the water dripped from his hair, the way his body moved with ease and confidence. It wasnât fair, reallyâhow could someone be so effortlessly captivating? The sun caught the edges of his grin as he tossed Wheezie playfully into the pool, the sound of her laughter ringing out like music.
You were lost in the moment, so caught up in the heat of his gaze that you didnât even notice the way your thighs clenched together, craving the contact that felt just out of reach. All you could think about was the overwhelming desire to touch himâeverywhere. You imagined your hands gliding over his toned chest, feeling the hard flex of his biceps beneath your fingertips, tracing the lines of his powerful arms as they wrapped around your body, waist, and ass pulling you closer.
You wanted him. God, did you want him.
Why did he have this effect on you? Why was he constantly invading your thoughts, even now?
A sudden buzz from your phone pulled you from your reverie. You grabbed it from the bedside table and saw a message from Sarah: âGet your ass out here! Weâre in the pool, itâs fun! Youâll want to join us!â
A smile tugged at your lips at Sarah's enthusiasm, but a moment of hesitation passed as you remembered the tension of last night. Still, you didnât want to be the odd one out. With a determined sigh, you pulled yourself away from the window and began to get ready.
You rummaged through your drawers, searching for that one bikini that made you look stunning and earned you a handful of compliments every time you wore it. Finally, you found it: a deep emerald green that contrasted perfectly against your skin tone. It was cut high, accentuating your legs, the top was daring, showing just enough to leave to the imagination. You paired it with a pair of denim shorts.
You headed towards the back door, nerves swirling in your stomach. As you stepped outside, the head of the sun hit you like a wave, and the sounds of laughter grew louder.
âYouâre awake!â Sarah exclaimed, her voice bright and cheerful. âI thought weâd have to drag you out here!â
You laughed lightly, feeling a playful energy surge within you. âIâm here, arenât I?â You shot back, trying to keep your tone light as you made your way toward the pool.
Wheezie exclaimed, eyes wide of admiration. âWow, Y/N! Look at you!â
âThanks!â you replied, trying to play it cool but secretly loving the attention. You glanced at Rafe, who had turned to face you, and your heart raced at the sight of him leaning against the poolâs edge, water cascading down his toned body.
His gaze lingered on you, a mix of surprise and appreciation playing across his features. âWell, well, if it isnât the queen herself,â he teased, that infuriating smirk stretching across his face. âNice of you to join us.â
You rolled your eyes and turned your back to him, feigning indifference as you busied yourself with anything but him. The events of last night were still fresh in your mind, a heated clash that left you reeling and more than a little irritated. You were determined not to give him the satisfaction of a reaction.
âOh, so I get the silent treatment?â he drawled, his voice dripping with playful disbelief. âIâm devastated,â he added, the corner of his mouth quirking up in that infuriatingly irresistible smirk that always made your heart flutter.
Instead, you focused on Sarah and Wheezie, who were gleefully splashing water at each other. You couldnât help but feel the pull of their energy.Â
Hours rolled by and you settled onto a lounge chair, you could feel Rafeâs eyes on you, the heat of his gaze igniting your skin in a way that both thrilled and annoyed you. He was still in the pool, looking at you like he wanted to eat you alive. You didnât know but you were driving him crazy with that attitude of yours, this whole ignoring thing and your fucking bikini.Â
Sarah and Wheezie went inside the house to prepare some snacks and drinks for us because we were getting hungry and thirsty, leaving only Rafe and you.Â
You pulled your phone, pretending to scroll through social media, anything to distract yourself from the way your heart raced at his presence. A notification lit up your phone, and your heart skipped a beat when you saw Jakeâs name flash across the screen. The excitement surged through you as you opened the message:
"Hey, gorgeous. I really like you, and Iâd love to take you out sometime. You in?"
He was cuteâway too cute.
A grin crept onto your lips, and for once, you allowed yourself to enjoy the attention from someone who wasnât toying with your emotions. Someone who actually seemed genuine. No games, no mixed signals. Just interest. The kind that felt refreshing after dealing with someone who never seemed to know what he wanted.
You barely had time to revel in it before Rafeâs voice cut through the moment, sharp and demanding. âWhatâs got you smiling like that?â
Your grip tightened on your phone instinctively, and you flicked your gaze up to him, feigning nonchalance. âOh, nothing. Just a friend,â you said, slipping your phone screen down against your thigh.
Rafe wasnât buying it. His eyes narrowed, skepticism written all over his face. âJust a friend, huh?â His voice had that dangerous edge to it, the one you knew too well. âFunny, you donât usually smile like that over friends.â
You felt his eyes burning into you, but you refused to give him the satisfaction. âReally? Maybe you donât know me as well as you think,â you teased, biting back the smirk threatening to break free.
Rafeâs jaw clenched. âWho was it?â
âLike I said, just a friend,â you repeated, your voice smooth, but now you were teasing on purpose. You could feel his irritation rising, and part of you enjoyed it. âWhat, are you jealous or something?â
He scoffed, though you didnât miss the way his eyes darkened. âWhy the hell would I be jealous?â he snapped, though it sounded more like he was trying to convince himself than you. âIâm just asking a question.â
âUh-huh.â You raised an eyebrow, leaning back and tilting your head, watching him closely. âRight. Just a casual question, huh? Totally doesnât sound like someoneâs jealous.â
His hands were now resting on the edge of the pool, gripping it just a little too tightly. âIâm not jealous,â he repeated, but the way his gaze darted to your phone said otherwise. âBut if itâs someone trying to get at you, then yeah, I wanna know. Who is it?â
âSomeone,â you said vaguely, enjoying the fact that Rafe was teetering on the edge of losing it. âSomeone whoâs interested, clearly.â
Rafeâs eyes flared, and the jealousy in his voice became impossible to miss. âInterested in what? You?â His lips curled into a scowl, his muscles tense. âWhat, you think some random guyâs gonnaââ
âMaybe,â you cut in, your smile growing. âMaybe heâs actually straightforward, you know? No mind games, no drama. Just a guy who knows what he wants.â
His brows shot up, the implication stinging. âAnd you think I donât know what I want?â
You shrugged, not backing down an inch. âWell, you never seem to make it that clear. Maybe someone else is going to take your place as myââ
The possessiveness in his eyes flared. He pushed himself up out of the pool, water dripping from his shoulders as he moved closer, his presence looming over you. âNo oneâs stepping up, got it? No oneâs taking my place.â
You met his gaze, unflinching, even as your heart raced a little faster. âOh? And what exactly is your place, Rafe?â
He leaned in, the heat between you practically crackling. âYou know damn well where my place is,â he murmured, his voice low, daring, yet with a hint of uncertainty creeping in. âAnd Iâm not about to let some bitch ass slide in because you think I donât care.â
You smiled, tilting your head, savoring the tension. âSeems like you do care. Maybe more than you want to admit.â
âBecause I do care, Y/N,â he murmured softly, swiping his wet thumb across your cheek. âI told you already that I cared way too damn much.â
Rafeâs thumb lingered on your cheek, the warmth of his touch sending shivers through your body despite the heat of the day. His eyes held yours, dark and intense, as if he were trying to convey all the words he couldnât quite say aloud. The air between you was thick, charged with a tension that had been building for far too long.
You swallowed hard, trying to hold onto some semblance of control, but it was a losing battle. âYour way of showing it is fucked, Rafe.â
Your words were meant to cut, but they came out softer than you intended, almost like a challenge. His jaw tightened, but instead of snapping back with some cocky retort, he stepped even closer. The scent of chlorine and his skin invaded your senses, and you couldnât help but notice how his muscles tensed as he towered over you, dripping with water, his presence commanding.
âI care,â he repeated, his voice lower now, almost a growl. His eyes flicked down to your lips and back to your eyes, like he was making a decision in real time. âI care more than you know.â
Before you could muster a reply, his hand slid from your cheek to the back of your neck, pulling you just a little closer, your breath hitching as his lips hovered near your ear. âI think you know exactly what my place is,â he murmured, his voice rough with unspoken desire. âAnd youâre not running from it.â
His breath was hot against your skin, sending a wave of heat cascading down your spine. He didnât move right away, as if savoring the tension that crackled between you, the nearness, the inevitability of it all. Your heart pounded in your chest, your pulse quickening as his lips brushed, ever so lightly, against the sensitive spot just below your ear.
You gasped, your hands instinctively gripping the fabric of your shorts as your body reacted to him, heat pooling low in your belly. âRafeâŠâ you whispered, not quite a protest, but not quite giving in either.
But he wasnât about to back down now. He shifted closer, his mouth grazing the curve of your neck, soft at first, then firmer, the scrape of his teeth making your pulse race. Your skin ignited under his touch, and a low moan escaped your lips before you could stop it.
âYou feel that?â he whispered, his lips trailing lower, his voice husky and thick with need. âThatâs not some game. Thatâs real.â
Your body arched toward him of its own accord, your resistance melting as his hands slid down to your waist, fingers pressing firmly into your skin, pulling you closer. You could feel the heat of his breath on your neck, his lips teasing, torturing, as they brushed along your collarbone. Every touch, every whisper was setting your nerves alight, and you were dizzy with the intensity of it.
âYouâre such an ass,â you muttered, trying to keep a shred of control, but your voice lacked conviction.
He chuckled softly, the sound vibrating against your skin. âMaybe,â he agreed, his lips brushing the spot just beneath your ear again, sending a fresh wave of shivers down your spine. âBut you canât stop thinking about me, can you?â
You hated how right he was. You hated how easily he could unravel you, how even now, you were leaning into his touch, craving more of it. But there was no way you were giving him the satisfaction of hearing it.
âStop being so cocky,â you managed to whisper, though your voice wavered with the desire that coursed through you.
But Rafe wasnât in the mood to stop. His hand slid to your lower back, pulling your body flush against his, the coolness of his skin mingling with your own heat. You could feel the hard lines of his body pressed against yours, his chest rising and falling as his lips grazed your shoulder, his teeth scraping lightly against your skin, just enough to make you shudder.
âAdmit it,â he murmured against your neck, his voice a deep, rough command. âYou want this.â
You closed your eyes, fighting to hold onto your last thread of self-control, but the tension between you was overwhelming, suffocating. His lips moved lower, placing slow, deliberate kisses along your collarbone, each one leaving a trail of fire in its wake. Your breath came in ragged gasps as your body betrayed you, leaning into him, craving the heat of his touch, the weight of his gaze, the way he made you feel like the only person in the world.
âRafeâŠâ you breathed, your voice barely audible, as his hand slid down to your hip, his fingers digging into your skin possessively. You could feel his breath on your neck, his lips hovering just above the place where your pulse raced beneath the surface.
âI want you, Y/N,â he whispered against your skin, his voice raw, filled with the desire that had been simmering between you for what felt like forever. âAnd Iâm not letting anyone else have you.â
His words sent a shiver down your spine, and before you could think better of it, your hands were in his hair, pulling him closer, your body aching for the contact youâd been denying yourself for so long.
Your lips collided with his in a heated rush, all the pent-up tension and desire finally unraveling between you. Rafeâs hands immediately gripped your hips, pulling you impossibly closer as he kissed you like heâd been waiting for this moment forever. His lips were demanding, rough and hungry, but there was a softness to the way he held you, like he wanted to savor every second. You melted into him, fingers tangling in his wet hair, feeling the slickness of the pool water on his skin as his body pressed against yours.
The taste of him, mixed with the faint tang of chlorine, was intoxicating. It was all-consuming, drowning out every rational thought. He kissed you like he was staking his claim, like he wanted to erase any trace of doubt from your mind, and for a moment, you let him. Your body responded instinctively, arching against his as his hands roamed down your back, gripping you tighter.
When you finally broke apart, both of you gasping for air, Rafeâs forehead rested against yours, his eyes dark with desire and something deeperâsomething more vulnerable. His chest heaved as he looked at you, his breath coming in ragged bursts. âI like you, Y/N,â he murmured, his voice rough with emotion. âI like you so much it drives me crazy. No more pretending.â
You stared into his eyes, searching for any hint of the cocky facade he usually wore, but it was gone. This was Rafe stripped bare, no teasing, no arroganceâjust raw honesty. It made your heart race in a way that had nothing to do with the kiss.
Your breath caught in your throat as you considered what he was saying. Could you trust him? Could you really let your guard down and give in to this, knowing how easily he could hurt you?
But before you could overthink it, he kissed you again, slower this time, more deliberate. His lips moved against yours with a tenderness that made your chest ache, and all your doubts melted away. At that moment, it didnât matter what had happened before, or what might happen after. All that mattered was how he made you feel right nowâwanted, desired, seen.
Rafe pulled back, his thumb brushing gently against your bottom lip, his eyes flicking between yours. âTell me you feel it too,â he whispered, his voice rough, almost pleading. âTell me Iâm not the only one. Tell me, princess.â
You swallowed hard, your heart hammering in your chest. There was no point in pretending anymore. âYouâre not,â you admitted, your voice barely a whisper. âYou drive me crazy, Rafe, tooâI donât want to feel this way, but I do.â
His lips curved into a small, triumphant smile, but there was relief in his eyes too, like heâd been holding his breath, waiting for you to say it. âGood,â he murmured, his hand cupping your face as his thumb stroked your cheek. âBecause I donât think I can let you go.â
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The Northern Consort used to be a spy, don't you know? A good one, too...only the heavens know how far that particular web goes, but it benefits the Emperor's reign, and the Empress is found of him, so who are we to judge, eh?
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Empress Shen is finally here, my God! How difficult was this particular beast, eh? It took me, like, five or six redesigns! The balance between feminine and masculine really kicked my ass here...I think I did pretty well, if you take in account everything. I'm proud of myself, so all of you must be nice to me.
The drama is set during the warring states period, my inspiration was mostly from how they costumed the Queen of Zhao, the dowager Queen of Qin and Haolan when she finally becomes the Queen of Qin. They are all gorgeously dressed, I recommend watching it PURELY for the costuming and also the scheming women.
The design was immensely inspired by the Chinese drama The Legend of Haolan. The main character just has this impeccable Shen Qingqiu face-card, every time I see her I just think 'Yes, Shen Qingqiu, for sure.' Here's her, for reference:
For Shang Qinghua, things were so much easier, though; I watched some episodes of Story of Yanxi Palace and was struck by inspirationâą. He was so easy to draw! It's all very Qing dynasty inspired, it just fits him, I think.
It took me so very long to draw the jewellery and the embroidery in both of them...I admire the people who actually do metal and needlework. Heroes, all of them.
The pearl makeup is one of my favourite ancient Chinese makeup trends; I just had to put it in. It's a very fancy form of Huadian, which is where you draw forms, mostly flowers and other pretty things on your face using paints, powders, pearls, gems and glued flowers, and it was popular from the Tang dynasty onwards. The ICONIC pearl Huadian was popularized in the Song dynasty because it (shockingly) represented modesty and elegance.
Shen Qingqiu's greenest ornaments are made out of imperial jade, which is characterized by this vibrant emerald green colour and great translucency. It's also the most expensive type of jade ever.
The! Nail! Guards! Make! A! Comeback!
Shang Qinghua's ornaments are, in the other hand, made out of pearls - for elegance, wisdom, and wealth, and blue jade, for serenity, peace of mind and self-reflection. Mobei-jun buys all of his husband's jewellery with intention, for sure.
They're such big gossips omg, nobody is safe.
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