#weeping wailing gnashing etc

[pikipekarmy]

raiding

well so ok, the ostensible purpose of the alt account was to be able to do raids. we did try to do a five-skull raid, me and my friend and The Alt, and we failed horribly with just the three of us, but it was Tapu Lele and we hadn't researched ahead of time and just let the computer decide on what counters we were going to use. So it went poorly but that doesn't mean we could never do a T5. Apparently Lele is just a bitch. I don't know. We'll try again someday.

But in the meantime I have the spare phone so I'm rocking around Buffalo like a weirdo with two phones, and I am off work this week trying to catch up on errands, so I'm out and about anyway. So I was like okay! Experiment time!

I tried a one-skull shadow raid, and the two of us beat that mareep in like fifteen seconds flat. Well that was fun and easy. Okay.

Next I tried a four-skull Mega Swampert.

Hoo boy.

Well so we went to a gym quite near my house, and there's an apartment complex next door to that gym. So I went and hopped in the raid lobby and refined my squads, since I'd pre-prepared them, and then I looked up and there was a third person in the lobby. A name I've seen around defending gyms a lot, and I can surmise lives in that apartment complex as I see the name in kind of a radius around the area.

Damn good thing too. A level 39 player, who had activated a mega-evolve on one of their attackers that gave us all boosts. And without that I don't think I'd've succeeded at the raid. My main got all its dudes fainted, and had to revive and rejoin. Meanwhile the alt got its last attacker fainted and then the screen just stayed up with the attacker's charged attack circles showing at the bottom? So I bemusedly kept tapping the screen and the charged attacks kept filling so I kept tapping them. I think the charged attacks were still happening, but as there was no character on the screen for me, I don't think any fast attacks were actually taking place? Needless to say, the alt was not doing a whole lot of damage to the raid boss, so it was just Me and Rando to carry off the rest of the raid.

Which we did, with a little margin of time left to spare, so huzzah, high-fives all around... well, as I never saw my random savior, I did not high five myself because my hands were full of phones. But anyway.

I went home, but the next day I went out to try my luck at three-skull raids. And I did a Lapras In A Scarf raid, which went just fine except I could not catch the fucking Lapras afterward on my main account. So now the alt has a Lapras in a jaunty bowtie and the main does not, but that's fine because I already have a Lapras in a hair bow so like. How many Hatchu Lapras does one person need.

But then we went and did a Gyarados raid and it was awesome, we managed to beat the thing in perfectly reasonable time and then both accounts caught one afterward. And they're beefy!! Over 1900CP for both, and both were high three-star ratings too. Delighted, and I want to do more of those.

BUT

The alt is only level 29, which means he doesn't get max revives in loot drops? And he doesn't seem to be getting revives either. I carefully spun only the photo disks of gyms for two days, and on my main I got like, 25 revives, I have so many more than I need it's ridiculous. The alt got just enough revives to handle a rocket battle or two per day plus reviving the dudes that he put in gyms. I can't do another raid with him because at the moment he's got a deficit of revives, several fainted guys who are returned gym defenders and whatnot. It's maddening.

So anyway if you're doing a gyarados raid please let me know and send my main account an invite, I've got a couple of remote passes and I don't quite think I could solo one, and I can't use the alt because I can't get revives for him. M A D D E N I N G. I just want a squad of gyarados.....

[ex-jock-enthusiast]

Some more Hunter Hobbs snaps from his many notorious bulks!

[myrtaceaae]

Sorry for falešné společenstvo posting but seriously I need another person who also is losing their mind constantly about this.

In news. Zrnka písku is in 7/4 time signature so like. Death pain weeping and wailing . V hard to play on recorder when you haven't practiced for 10 months

[muffinrag]

insanely stressed about how busy my month is bc there's no set schedule and there's so many different things I have to do

there are TWO. SEPARATE. staff orientations for the summer season at the Portland pools. PLUS a skills test where I have to prove I remember how to do first aid. And I have a doctor's appointment the same day as the skills test. And of course I have all the regular shifts (all at different times of day and some VERY early mornings) I have to work in between all this other shit

I'm stressed! I'm stressed! my roommate's wife just left her and she doesn't work, cook, clean, or drive! I'm stressed! my uterus has been bleeding for two weeks straight because the IUD is giving it a fit! I'm fucking stressed! my brain is in garbage disposal mode where it's dumping literally all short-term memory down the drain! I asked my roommate when her hair appointment is tomorrow five times today! (it's 2:30) I have to fix my sleep schedule! I'm scared of getting in the pool while my stupid cunt is bleeding out! I should probably schedule a follow-up with Planned Parenthood! My brain is turning into a paste! I'll be fine in like two months but god! fuck!

[thebibliosphere]

In case you were wondering how deep down the Batfam fixation hole I am, it's something I've actually been talking about in therapy a lot.

Not like, in a worried way, more just when my therapist asks me what I'm doing in my downtime, my answer always used to be either "sleeping" or "I don't have downtime. I have too much work to do."

Now my answer is "playing my Batman game" or "watching Batman show/reading comics/writing unhinged Batman x Muppet fanfic."

And my therapist is delighted. She's fucking ecstatic. She's like, "You have interests again!" and I'm like !!!! Because here's the thing.

Almost dying in 2019 kinda irrevocably fucked up my brain, like, a lot. Like a lot, a lot. And I've been grieving over that for the last few years as well as recovering from the physical aspects of it. And to cope with it, I threw myself into work even though I wasn't physically or mentally well enough, and that made everything worse, and well, if you've been here, you know.

My brain has not been kind to me for a long time. It still isn't. But I do the work. I do multiple types of therapy a week. I piece myself back together on the daily and try to remember what it means to be human and not just this numb static void that sometimes sounds like shrieking if you listen too closely.

And then randomly, a few months ago a friend bought me Gotham Knights on Steam, and it was like a light turned back on. The engine that'd been refusing to turn over for years suddenly sputtered back to life, and something in my brain went, "Hey, I remember this... this is fun?"

And then I started tentatively searching the tags here on Tumblr, and yeah, actually. I remember this. I remember enjoying this. I can dip my toes into this. This is safe. This is a childhood interest from Before the almost-dying-trauma. And besides, it won't get in the way of my work. This isn't going to consume me. Nothing consumes me like it used to. I'm too broken for that.

Except, haha, jokes on me because, for some fucking reason, Brucie fucking Wayne and his gaggle of chaotic crime-fighting children is what reached into my brain, picked up my trauma, and started shaking it loose like a category 7 earthquake.

I actually laughed about that with my therapist a few weeks ago. Of all characters, of all pieces of media, it's Batman that's helping me process a significant chunk of my emotional trauma in a healthy way.

The most emotionally constipated vigilante in superhero existence, and I'm weeping like a child every time I get an achievement in Gotham Knights, and it says some bullshit like this:

ID: a purple steam achievement icon that says: He'd Be So Proud Of You. Reach the maximum level as any member of the Batman Family. 6.3% of players have this achievement. /end ID.

(for context, Batman is dead in this game, and you are playing as his emotionally devastated children trying to keep it together. Wailing, gnashing, crying, throwing up etc, etc.)

And my therapist, who has sat with me through EMDR sessions and a multitude of other shit designed to rewire your brain, just shrugs and says, "Sometimes we need to externalize our emotions through safe media. For you, right now, that safety is Batman having a relationship with the Muppets."

And like... okay, yeah. I'll take the win on that one.

[wifegideonnav]

spent all morning weeping/wailing/gnashing teeth/etc and then ate my first meal in 36 hours (i had some gross stomach bug over the weekend) and now im like chilling. i don’t know why it surprises me every time that taking care of my basic needs makes me feel better lmfao. im sure i’ll learn nothing from this

[all-seeing-ifer]

THEY WERE SO FUCKED UP FOR ALL OF THAT ACTUALLY

The contrast between buffy quitting in prophecy girl and buffy saying she'll quit if dawn dies in the gift is sooooo much she's so angry and upset at the end of season one and then by the end of season five she's just so far gone. So hopeless. In prophecy girl she's railing against the unfairness of it all and by the gift it feels like she just accepts it and it breaks my heart

[undertheniall]

It’s the usual drama. Antis versus larries in a scorched earth civil war. Louis was pictured holding hands with a woman (gasp!) and promo for his documentary coming out next month mentions his son. So larries are letting their freak flags fly, doubling down, lashing out, circling the wagons, etc., etc. Lots of wailing, weeping, and gnashing of teeth. It’s frustrating and exhausting. Save yourself! Get in the car, keep your eyes on the road, don’t pick up hitchhikers, don’t stop for any reason, just stay in the Niall lane at all costs. Leave us Louies behind to suffer the fate we’ve brought upon ourselves. 😡😥😐

Omgg... Its 2023...larries shouldn't be a thing anymore 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 rip

Yeah I'm so glad I'm a Niall stan 😂

[corrose]

hello !! sorry this is so out of the blue but im brand new to the svsss fandom and i just wanted to say i came across If Not You on ao3 and it was an absolutely amazing read !! ive been wobbling around a bit trying to find which corner of the fandom i love and resonate the most with and having finished that fic i find so much more comfort in moshang than i had ever thought about before :') idk if youre still in that fandom and i can see you wrote it awhile ago but i just wanted to let u know it was wonderful and to thank u for that beautiful fic!! ♡

anon thank you so much for this kind message 🥺🥺🥺 I'm so glad you enjoyed it and I think it will please you immensely to learn that I have not abandoned that precious fic of mine, and am currently as we speak in starbucks, gritting and gnashing my teeth, howling, weeping, wailing etc as I grapple with the tiresome editing for the next chapter of Devotion for Devotion! (i say editing but truly I mean writing the uh, remaining 2/3 of a chapter i thought was mostly finished) Móshang is truly Such a pairing and I'm really happy to hear you're finding joy in them and I hope you've been enjoying your time in the svsss fandom!

[bumblingest-bee]

PREV I HADN'T EVEN THOUGHT OF THAT..... weeping wailing gnashing my teeth etc.

i've always said that gussie has essentially the same character arc as frank but i just now had the thought "she becomes to frank what joe was to her" and i had to put my head in my hands for a minute

[sedgwickpdf]

i am, uh... clearly not as good with words as you are. and, um, i know that things between us have been a little complicated, and that there have probably been some mixed signals, mostly from me, with regards to the time we spend together outside of the line of duty. please just let me finish stumbling through this, i’m almost done, i promise. what i’m saying is that i think maybe the best things, the richest things, aren’t supposed to come easily, and that sometimes the moments that make the most sense happen when everything else doesn’t. and, well, i think you deserve more than popcorn tonight.

[opold]

daily trying to guess and assess What Amount of this infinite sadness stems from meatsack maintenance like sleep regulation and menstrual moods and lack of healthy relationships and workplace environments (capitalism...) and if that Still Counts As Depression that could/should be medicated or if there’s really just no fix, only some small point in trying, if i will just be exhausted by fear and bad jobs until i die

[hishima]

northern territory mfs fighting the urge to put a cu in the nt sticker on the back of their cars

[saintmichale]

Weeping, wailing, gnashing of teeth etc.

[duckdotcom]

i can't even reply to posts until tumblr support fixes my blog :( weeping and wailing, gnashing of teeth, etc

[asterdeer]

thinking about how taako is so estranged from lucretia at the end of balance even though when she first took the crews' memories, lucretia thought there was no place good enough for taako to live. she thought everyone deserved to see him shine and he deserved it too. crying weeping wailing gnashing my teeth etc