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Hiya! Do you have any advice on not misgendering yourself (out loud and in your head)? I recently came out as agender, I come from a very suburban area where nb wasn’t really a thing, I’m also kinda old to be figuring this out. But I still constantly accidentally refer to myself as a girl and recently some assholes I work with have used this as an excuse to misgender me maliciously. I feel like it’s automatic to just call myself a girl or woman. Somehow it’s easier to remember my friends genders than mine LOL. Any tips? Thanksss
Practice by talking about yourself out loud. just walk around and narrate what you're doing in the third person. say your pronouns whenever you can.
If you hear others routinely misgender you, it gets easier to misgender yourself because you are used to responding to it. so you're used to hearing it and thinking of yourself. so the best way to ameliorate that is to hear it spoken out loud correctly more than you hear it incorrectly. which sometimes means you're going to have to do it yourself!
#ask#Anonymous#we've all been there don't worry#misgendering#self misgendering#accidental misgendering
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#mrs flood who are you: time lord edition
#dwedit#doctor who#mrs flood#fifteenth doctor#the master#jacobi!master#tenth doctor#jack harkness#martha jones#twelfth doctor#ninth doctor#*#okay here is my argument: mrs flood IS a time lord but her presence here has nothing to do with the doctor#instead she's here because of ruby. she's seemingly part of/related to the pantheon of discord & we know that ruby is connected to them too#so i think that she was deliberately placed as ruby's neighbor by the pantheon/oldest one/ruby's mom/? in order to watch over her#it also explains why she was there to check on ruby in 1.04. once she realizes she's on the phone w carla she says 'nothing to do with me'#and she leaves. which implies that it COULD have had something to do with her. if it had been something else going on#ANYWAY. to get to the time lordness of it all. rn i personally believe that she's a time lord that's been hiding on earth for 50+ years#bc i don't think she recognized the police box as a tardis initially. that first quote should be taken at face value.#instead picture this: she's watching over ruby as per usual. a police box is there - weird but nbd. then it dematerializes in front of her.#she drops her groceries. she's shocked. she kinda looks scared. if she already knew it was a tardis why would she react like that?#so imo she knows OF tardises. she DIDN'T know the police box was one. and she's worried the time lords have found her hence the fear.#but when nothing happens and nobody comes at her she realizes she's still safe#later when she sees the doctor she realizes the tardis is his/he must be a time lord. he doesn't identify her but that's happened before#so then when she asks him who he is i think what she's actually asking for is his title. WHICH time lord are you.#bc lbr if she knows abt tardises then she knows about time lords and if she knows abt time lords she knows what it means for ruby#to be joining him - and that's why she wishes ruby good luck. meanwhile this is clearly the outcome she WANTS (them to be together)#bc she gets visibly upset when the doctor seems to decide to leave without ruby.#and for once i'm not master clowning bc the list of names the doctor gives out is VERY interesting. some of them we've never heard before:#the bishop; the conquistador; later he adds the pedant and sagi-shi and reiterates the bishop AGAIN. so i wonder if she's the bishop.....
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Hrrmmm now what happened here
#batman#dc#dcu#jason todd#bruce wayne#robin#a death in the family#don't worry jason we've all been there#imagine dying 🤨
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Lord Viren from The Dragon Prince but he wears Norrix Gorelight's outfit
"He looks like a genius who just had a spark idea he needs to write down before he loses it. Or like he is deeply grieving his wife and writes as many memories of her as he can so she doesn't die a second time"
Yeah or he just drenched his quill in coffee instead of ink
#viren#tdp viren#the dragon prince#tdp lord viren#tdp fanart#suitor armor#norrix gorelight#fanart#digital painting#yes I absolutely offered him a quill case with my name on it#don't worry viren we've all been there#at least you didn't drink ink#workaholic mage#and all this to be told everything that ever went wrong is his fault#oh this is not Arcane Viktor
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to all my mutuals out there: i love you and get happy every time i see you on my dash or in my notifications or just your tiny icon in the corner of my screen from having messaged a bit some time ago and i want you to know that you are appreciated <3
#i know some of you aren't doing so well all the time and that's okay! don't stress yourself over it. it will be better again#but know that you are valued and that i care about your wellbeing all the same#if you think this might include you then yes it does. if you feel fondly about me sometimes i think fondly about you too#and if you don't think fondly about me but more annoyed or even indifferent i probably still think fondly of you#doesn't matter if we've been mutuals for 5 years or 5 days i think you're all so very neat#and yes this counts always. i can count on one hand how many times i've been even slightly annoyed at a mutual in all my time on tumblr#because the answer is 0. never once has any one of you been annoying to me <33#and if you ever should be it is MY responsibility to unfollow or blog. that's not something you guys need to worry about#own post#idk this is a lot of stuff in the tags but i just want you guys to know that i actually care about you and want you to be happy
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AU where Franka doesn't get approval for the transfer and instead has to cut and run to Rhodes Island alone. Liskarm just misses finding out and isn't able to follow. and then they reunite some years down the line for whatever reason, Franka happy at Rhodes Island but still a little lonely and Liskarm saying she's fine but being at Blacksteel for so long has made her colder and harsher and just plain miserable.
(it isn't all bad, she at least has Jessica and Vanilla, but they can't get under her skin the way Franka could. Liskarm swears that Franka would get under skin sometimes just to dig out the bad feelings.)
(and Franka has people. she's surrounded by people she cares about. operators cut from the same cloth as her, that will charge headlong into battle beside her. colleagues who will nag her about sleeping and eating and training and mission parameters. friends who will rag on her for her choice of reading material. but Liskarm was all of those things rolled into one. and she is not here)
#(for the purposes of this AU Vanilla and Jessica are with Liskarm at Blacksteel)#Liskarm's squad ending up on the landship for whatever reason#Liskarm seeing Franka out of the corner of her eye and just being knocked for six#their reunion would be an all out battle in an empty training room#other staff hearing about it and trying to intervene like ''what is this Blacksteel person doing to our beloved Franka''#Franka and Liskarm kick the shit out of each other but aren't able to actually talk because too many people watching#Vanilla and Jessica ''oh this is normal. this is normal! it's been 3 years but it's totally normal! don't worry!''#(it's really that trope of ''ex you still care about is doing good and you're miserable'' for Liskarm)#arknights tag#yeah I'll tag it#friskarm#if you ask me if this AU has a sad or happy ending. it has whatever ending you want#I do think Franka and Liskarm's relationship changed when they transferred to Rhodes Island together#because it was a silent admission that their partnership was no longer the result of circumstance#'we've been put together' to 'we're choosing to stick together'#so to lose that aspect of their relationship would be... interesting#also Franka has to slow down for Liskarm. Liskarm is /meant/ to curb Franka's reckless behaviour#so I like the idea that Franka at RI alone is even more reckless because she's not being properly challenged#she gels too well with some operators and it's so easy that it's terrifying#in the sense that combat becomes tunnel vision. which is not a good thing#I wrote more in the tags than the actual post..... this is normal for me
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household enemy to the yyh watchthrough number one is the olympics. it's taken us a week to get two episodes into the gamemaster fight
#out of three. please the third episode's what makes it okay im fighting for my life out here#it is NOT for lack of trying on my part but theres only a brief window of time when the olympics is not happening#and as it turns out the watchthrough is Not my mom's first priority (how dare she etc)#i do feel slightly bitter that we've gotten through two eps of band o brothers in the same time#we are fighting for the same timeslots yet somehow the hour long show's gotten a leg up??#you don't have time for a 23 min ep but DO for a 60 min one?? explain the math to me please#idk how to explain the vague feeling of betrayal bc it Does Not make sense Nor matter in the slightest#but cmonnnn we were doing so well. and my little bro's starting up school again soon and my dad's gotta go back to work#sometimes eventually (<- hes on medical leave) and my grandparents are coming over next week We're Losing Time Soon#ughhh if i'd known the olympics were happening (<- somehow completely oblivious to this) i'd have accounted for#my mom getting whisked away by the land of synchronized divers and shot putters and whatever the hell#happens in the summer olympics (<- only pays attention to winter olys)#bc that always happens. and *i* have to go back to school in Some Amount Of Time Im Too Scared To Check (p sure it's late aug though) and#when that happens i'll (hopefully) be stuck across town which means we won't be able to do it any time besides the weekends#and i don't wannaaaaa#i know this is the least important problem anyone's ever had like i get that i know but#it's important to me that they sit down and watch this with me. and watching it pull apart and being#the one who's easily the most invested it makes me look all desperate when i ask them for their time and they can't give it#we can only pull this off neatly in the summer and we were so close and now we're losing it right at the finish line#i don't want life to get in the way of this little bubble i've fought so hard to make y'know#and it's childish and embarrassing and whatever but i just want them to have fun with me with this thing i care about a lot#but i can't do that bc my mom needs to watch the judo matches at Every weight class#even though she's recording a lot of them? i don't understand but whatever i know it's her thing im just moping about it ig#i want it to be as perfect an experience for them as possible and it's slipping away from me#and i don't wanna leave this project unfinished when i start school y'know. sighh#i think they might feel like i only want them around when we're watching stuff. whcih is weird bc that's like#The Singular Way we family bonded literally my whole life so idk why they wouldn't get that when reversed#but either way that IS how i wanna spend time with them. i want them to understand this thing that's become a part of me#and i wanna talk With them about it. and so far it's been fun in a way it's never been before. my mom at least seems to really like it#and i want it to Keep going well bc if we lose momentum im worried they'll start finding it tedious. sighh
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To make sure I don't overdo it with my arm, I think I'm gonna have to stop here on this one with the flat colors for this week. But with any luck I'll have this all done next week and ready to post in full! :3
#insomniac hyena rambles#I always feel so rusty when I come back to draw#but I gotta take these breaks to be able to keep drawing at all >.<#Hopefully the end result of this will look nice enough#Also. may do a drawing thats NOT FNaF in the near ish future?#I wanna replace some of the old art I gave my mom years ago with newer pieces of stuff we both like#So... gotta figure out how to draw TADC stuff in my style and then make a poster#we've been watching it together and its been really nice#But don't worry! Still on my FNaF stuff too! :3#though admittedly I'm feeling a lil stunted again. ^^; Didn't end up writing as much as I'd hoped to this week#but I did at least get to the first few paragraphs of Chapter 31
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People in long distance relationships, please help me 😭
#We've been together and inseparable for 5 years (don't live together though but neighbours)#I have no idea how to navigate a ldr now and he's most likely going to work on a cruise for one or two seasons and I know they barely have#time to text or call#not worried about cheating at all whatever just growing apart it's killing me
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so in juniper's campaign we've just found ourselves in a high-stakes situation that I as a player do frankly find stressful and am anxious about, but hey hi also the DM was like 'okay here are the exact mechanics of how this is going to work because I don't want to surprise you with serious repercussions, also here are all the options you will have to try to do something about the situation-- [affected player] what do you think? honest feedback, I don't want it to feel unfair, I want to be clear that I am not just trying to kill your character, and if it ends up being badly balanced we can revisit it down the road' and oh my god I could COLLAPSE and WEEP with gratitude
#[tears in my fucking eyes] WHAT IF DND WAS GOOD!! WHAT IF A DM THAT'S GOOD!!!#LIKE I've said actually MOST of my DMs are good but because of the way this situation was presented specifically#where-- as NOT the affected player-- it does feel like the way it came up was a little unfair and I AM worried about the stakes--#I REALLY SPENT SO MUCH OF THAT ABOVE-TABLE TALK GOING OH WOW I FEEL LIKE OUR FRIEND ACTUALLY LOVES US AND WANTS THIS TO BE FUN!!#I DON'T KNOW THAT I AGREE WITH WHAT HE'S DOING HERE BUT I TRUST MY FRIEND AND IT'S SAFE FOR US TO TALK ABOUT THINGS LIKE THIS PLAYER TO DM!!#WOWIE THAT FEELS RELEVANT TO MY DND EXPERIENCE RIGHT NOW LMAO!!!#'I've looked at your stats and inventories to try to make this serious but balanced but if it doesn't work we can retool it'#'I want to be extremely clear that this situation could kill destal so I want to be extremely sure that you're comfortable with that--#-- and with how the mechanics are designed around it'#I am fucking. on my KNEES WEEPING. at the contrast with how punishing and DEEPLY unfun felix campaign has relentlessly been the whole time#and how little of a fuck it feels like THAT DM gives when he's like 'this random rolltable encounter was deadly :)'#'you guys didn't get hit last time and got all your spells back right?' uhhh wrong and wrong and we TALKED about that last time#are you gonna revisit the balance on your fifth in a row 'if you fail you'll TPK' scenario? no? yeah I figured lol#christ knows HE'S never invited feedback on his DMing. you KNOW I don't feel safe to say 'hey this doesn't feel fair or fun' with him#AND LIKE!! WITH A DM I TRUST I FEEL SAFE ENOUGH TO REALLY PLAY WITH SOMETHING TERRIBLE HAPPENING!! YAY YIPPEE STAKES AND PATHOS!!!#I don't just want nothing bad to happen ever! but I don't want it to feel careless or heartless or just... Not Fun#anyway. grasping william's hands so tightly. my beloved friend. my wonderful friend. what a relief to have a DM that's good#after the shit we've been through in our now most-frequently-run campaign#the thing I'm mad about is that destal has been making a mystery saving throw every night-- but this was imperceptible to the characters#so we weren't acting on it#and now that he's failed it three times the situation is 'okay NOW you will be maming a con save every night and accumulating exhaustion'#'which can't be removed by sleeping' [six levels of exhaustion Kill You]#so like!! well okay I wish we had had ANY way of knowing how urgent this was before we got to 'now there's a deadly countdown' BUT OKAY#but like I said. he clearly put a lot of thought into the math for the mechanics#he made sure that we DO actually have ANYTHING we can do to mitigate the condition and outlined several options specifically and clearly#he checked in with justin about whether that seemed fair and opened it for future retooling if necessary#so I'm just at 'that was kind of a rugpull dude :/' instead of DESPAIRING lmao#this is a level of Oh Shit that's juicy! this is a level of Oh Shit that might force dramatic character choices out of desperation!#THIS IS AN OH SHIT WHERE WE STILL GET TO PLAY DND ABOUT IT AND HAVE ANY AGENCY WHATSOEVER. WHAT A CONCEPT.#ANYWAY!!! GOOD DND SAVE ME!!!!!!!!!
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ok we're back. what the fuck
#really interesting couple of hours#dark and wil dot exe are not working currently. NO idea what happened to shut them down#mark is perfectly fine??? i mean he's... partially on fire but that's not causing him any harm it looks like. he's red aligned so that also#makes sense that he controls fire actually.#bill almost shattered I think. looking at Him He's got big cracks down His back? and He said earlier He heard the headspace start crumbling#no idea what happened there but everyone is fine#uhhhhhh ..... the body cried. a lot. but everyone is unharmed. except bill. whom again. has a giant ass crack in Him.#but i dont think it's hurting Him??#you may be like 'that sounds like a sign that you should sleep' we're not tired at all#sighs. and all this on cosm's birthday too. fuck.#im worried the headspace DID shatter some but we've been holed up in mine amd Actor's room for the past couple hours#lmfao we're all too scared to check#if it... DID shatter then I reckon half our crew is out of commission actually and unreachable#which sucks.#because that means dark and wil are also unreachable.#y'know. 2 out of 3 of our hosts. fhfhdjdjfjdjsj#at least we can still reach ego brains...? probably???#we'll see.#pk;m Ciel🧑🚀#tl;dr: stress sucks bad. this is the aftereffects of a Lot of it i guess.#........ ohhh yep that's. a good chunk of Spacehead missing. don't know how long it'll be til we get that half back.#Cosm was in that half. christ alive.#fjfnxnxnxnzn#sorry to sound dramatic. this all correlates to: WE'RE STRESSED! least we aren't splitting anymore. fncjxndnf#deletey
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#what does it mean if you keep waking up with your heart racing painfully and you're shaking and panicked like every morning? :'(#even when you don't remember having a nightmare or a big upset right before falling asleep#and not even like something big and scary happening today :( i'm visiting friends i miss and im on speaking terms with all my loved ones :(#also feeling very fatigued and tired :( have i been having nightmares even on the nights i don't remember them?#i've been getting adequate lengths of sleep... is my body still thinking it's in crisis mode when i wake up? :(#i know probably nobody can help or knows the answer but i'll give it a shot anyway#also every single morning it takes an hour or two or three for specifically frankie to calm down and not be um :'(#like very angry and defensive and hurt and paranoid and stuff and it seems he always needs time and caffeine to help him calm down#and tobacco now too but i'm starting to get really worried about our health in general about all of this :'(#we've always had a really hard time eating any food before four hours after waking up is it something to do with that?#thank you for reading and listening to anyone who made it this far i don't want my headmate and i to experience morning scaries everyday :')#my post
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okeydoke as I have not had much energy for working on stuff lately (but lots of motivation) I'm not gonna do proper NaNo with a wordcount or anything, BUT I am gonna make it a goal to get some amount of work done on a writing project every day (at least until I go away on the 24th). Main priority blaseball projects are, in no particular order:
Fic about the ending
Abner fic
Simon's Quest
secret fic(s) :)
get the Talkers exchange set up
Aside from that, I've been poking at more non-blaseball stuff, which is a good excuse for me to plug my writing blog @cyndakip! All my fics get posted there, so if you're interested in my writing beyond just blaseball (especially if you like pokemon), I recommend following me there, since I don't post non-blaseball fics here.
#I'm in a weird place rn where the end of blb is coinciding with me finally feeling ready to get back to nuzlockes#and I very much want to keep writing blb fics! it's just complicated by me getting smacked over the head with pokemon motivation#and separate from that I think it's just been hard for me to work on blb fics knowing that it's over#writing the ending fic in particular means confronting that. and I definitely haven't fully processed it yet and idk when I will#I really truly do want to keep writing blb fics for a long time but I worry there will be not much of an audience anymore#and I know that doesn't matter. I'm gonna write what I want and I know some people will still read it. but yknow. it's rough#also my relationship with pokemon and the nuzlocke community has been really fucking complicated these past few years#to the point where I stopped engaging altogether bc it was stressing me out too much and I had lost all confidence in my writing#this happened to be right before I got into blb. which came along at the perfect time and gave me the community & confidence boost I needed#now it kinda feels like we've come full circle. blb has changed me and now I'm ready to go back with a whole new attitude#I just don't want these two things to be mutually exclusive! I want both! but that's easier said than done#especially bc I haven't had enough energy to work on much of either lately! I want to say things are getting better on that front but#it's complicated. you know how it is with human bodies. treacherous things#the thing is I don't want to waste this. I feel ready for pokemon again and god I missed it and I'm gonna ride this wave of motivation#if I had more energy this would be less of a problem. ah well#gonna get all this done sooner or later#talking moistly
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#ouagh. :']#ok. i am a simple thing. i'm just a guy y'know. and i try#i try to be kinder to myself i try to be kind and change for the better!! but this is hard but i've been doing well#i'm not as anxious as i once was and this is great. but Sometimes#yeah.#i'm a simple guy with simple occasional worries yk#and one of those things happens to be maybe#not being enough or being too much at the same time y'know#and i caught myself worrying so i was like hm maybe i will look at my nice pile of reminders and nice things#and so i remembered that i love. like a Lot. and i love my friends so So much#and i do my best to express this as often as i can right! and i thought about how it might make me feel#if despite all that my love could not reach a friend when they need it most#that they might forget (it's not their fault)#but in remembering this it helped Me be like. Oh. yes i am loved. don't forget so easily#whew. this whole trusting thing is hard. but man i am sooo good at this and i'm doing great#anyways. i feel much better#and also proud of myself for genuinely being able to reassure myself. it's always felt more like#“well we've Gotta keep going” as opposed to “yeah actually. it's okay” does this make sense#it feels as if i've made n held onto something solid as opposed to waiting for something like that 2 come along#sap says#well. goodnight :]
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“His hands were invariably blotted with ink and stained with chemicals, yet he was possessed of extraordinary delicacy of touch, as I frequently had occasion to observe when I watched him manipulating his fragile philosophical instruments.“
My Watson is his way to develop a new kink
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