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letthe-skyfall · 3 months ago
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What if Eklutna blamed Rosehip, the only survivor of the rouge attack, for the death of her son, and started haunting her AU? Thanks, brain. Love you for that.
Lovely characters belong to @loudclan-clangen! The first clangen blog I ever followed, and one of my favorites. Bout time I made some fanart.
Yeah sure, the rogue attack was terrible and all, but Rosehiptree is my favorite, glad she survived! Now she gets some mandatory trauma. We love that for her.
Extras under cut, lol (As usual, flash warning for speedpaint)
Speedpaint! 1:16, if anyone cares.
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Background and Ghostlutna that got merged at some point, and I can't undo it. Fun!
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Rosehiptree!! Some of the best shading I think I've ever done, btw.
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Text! Yup. Sure is some text.
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hazbinsponsoredbyvee · 2 months ago
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My brain would not shut the fuck up for 2 seconds, so to satisfy it, have a compilation of out of context questions and shitty takes:
1. So I sold my soul to Alastor for jambalaya (would've done it for free frfr), what do i call you now? Sir? Boss? Daddy? AHEM, what do your souls even do? Will I just join the hotel? Cuz I'm fine with that.
2. Can Angel shoot webs out of his ass? (I don't know where the fuck this came from)
3. Husk, do you blink slowly at the people you trust and love? Cuz cats do that.
4. Charlie do you bleat like a goat?
5. Does Alastor taste like venison? Experience rut? Also, can you make different calls besides squeaks and bleats? Do your horns get stuck on shit? Ever broke Vox's screen with a 'love tap'? Also did you know there's a ship with you and your mom? That shit is vile
6. Do y'all know Lilith is just in heaven, drinking a slushie on the beach while y'all are out here suffering?
7. Luci what's your opinion on the other sins? (All of em)
8. Vox what your best 'Alastor got drunk and cuddly story?' Also did you ever convinced him to wear a dress? (I'm not talking about the bets, talking about you actually managing to convince him yourself, no strings attached, to wear a dress.) Is your dick a cable? Do you eat batteries? And are you aware of how creative your simps are? (ESPECIALLY ON PINTEREST ISTG PEOPLE ARE NOT WELL)
9. Vaggie, did you ever watch Encanto and notice that Mirabel sounds like you? Also, you're Spanish, right? (Yay, like me, matchy), what's your fave dish?
10. Val what was the fucking point of trying to drug Vox? Like? Even if it worked, Alastor would've fucked you up so hard your dick would come out of your mouth. Did you just think he'd be mad at Vox for getting fucking raped? Idiot.
11. Husk, did you ever perform in front of a crowd? Because if I'd have your voice, I'd never shut up.
12. Niffty, have you heard of Vox's employee, Baxter? He's like Sir. Pentios but a way better bad boy, about your height, and a mad scientist. Bet he could make experiments on your bugs and find new ways to kill em or sum.
13. Velvette, my fucking queen, on my knees for you, ugh, it's your voice or your personality, idk what, but I want it. Give it. I love u queen. What's your fave dress you ever made?
14. If Vox would be a princess, he'd be a greedy princess. I scouted the internet for anything, and after being reminded that El Dorado exists, I think the best I found is Chel. She's smart and greedy, and wants more gold. That's the best i found. Or just fuck it and you're Ariel but a shark. Now I have to draw that.
15. Angel did you discover you were gay back when you were alive or in hell? Also, how was it Italy? I plan on visiting and maybe going to a concert at it, cause the language sounds so fucking pretty and idk how to describe it, just beauty.
16. So, Alastor, is Niffty in a contract with you afterall, or did she just exist in your house one day and you just adopted her? Also, Charlie can now technically call you dad, cause your her mom's boyfriend, so maybe stepdad? Second dad?
17. Charlie girl, you did it! You fixed your mommy issues with your dad, your new mom, and your mom's boyfriend.
18. Hazbing hotel should be renamed issues hotel, cuz we got Daddy issues (Angel, Alastor, Husk I think?), Mommy issues (Charlie ((she kinda solved them)), Pentios maybe), parent issues (Husk ig, Vox, maybe velvette? Cuz if she was just 19 ((young kween, we stan u girl)), I imagine her parents sucked ((boo, tomato tomato))), uh, just straight up issues (Luci, Vaggie, I recon Val had a shitty life) and a shitton of trauma.
19. Alastor did you wear cattle shoes back when you were alive? Also, how is New Orleans? I think it looks really pretty and has a beautiful beautiful culture. Maybe if I have money, I'll visit! See where my fave serial killer murderer came from. Also, is French hard to learn? I'd like to give it a shot. Last thing: drop that lash care girllll, why do men have such pretty lashes? Scratch that, why are men like you so pretty?
20. Be gay, do crime, eat boys up, idk, peace ✌️
—a very sleep deprived bird anon
1. So I sold my soul to Alastor for jambalaya (would've done it for free frfr), what do i call you now? Sir? Boss? Daddy? AHEM, what do your souls even do? Will I just join the hotel? Cuz I'm fine with that.
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"Boss will do just fine. And you can do as you please - I'm not like some, who require their souls to tirelessly work for them. I'll call on you if I have need."
2. Can Angel shoot webs out of his ass? (I don't know where the fuck this came from)
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"Uh, no."
3. Husk, do you blink slowly at the people you trust and love? Cuz cats do that.
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"Not that I'm aware of."
4. Charlie do you bleat like a goat?
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"Um, no, I'm... not a goat."
5. Does Alastor taste like venison? Experience rut? Also, can you make different calls besides squeaks and bleats? Do your horns get stuck on shit? Ever broke Vox's screen with a 'love tap'? Also did you know there's a ship with you and your mom? That shit is vile
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"I suppose my flavor profile might bear some similarities to venison, but I imagine I do taste rather different. I don't experience rut, I can make different sounds, and no, my horns do not get stuck - I can shrink them easily. I have broken Vox's screen while fighting and when he's attempted to wake me up, but I wouldn't qualify either as a 'love tap'. And I do wish you hadn't shared that."
6. Do y'all know Lilith is just in heaven, drinking a slushie on the beach while y'all are out here suffering?
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"Yeah, you're not the first person to share that. But Charlie doesn't know, and I'm keeping it that way until I get more answers. It would crush her."
7. Luci what's your opinion on the other sins? (All of em)
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"They're like family, and like most families, I get along with some more than others. Ozzie is definitely who I'm closest to, Bee's always fun, Levy's cool, Bel's great, Satan and I butt heads sometimes, and Mammon... can admittedly get on my nerves."
8. Vox what your best 'Alastor got drunk and cuddly story?' Also did you ever convinced him to wear a dress? (I'm not talking about the bets, talking about you actually managing to convince him yourself, no strings attached, to wear a dress.) Is your dick a cable? Do you eat batteries? And are you aware of how creative your simps are? (ESPECIALLY ON PINTEREST ISTG PEOPLE ARE NOT WELL)
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"I'm not telling you a whole story when you asked so fucking much. No, I haven't gotten him in a dress outside of the bet. Do you have any idea how much he hates deviating from his look? And no, my dick is not a cable, and I don't eat batteries. But yes, of course my simps are very creative. Right, Mel?"
9. Vaggie, did you ever watch Encanto and notice that Mirabel sounds like you? Also, you're Spanish, right? (Yay, like me, matchy), what's your fave dish?
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"I haven't noticed that, and um... as I've mentioned before, I don't really have any memories before joining Adam's army. I used to think I was Heavenborn, but I get these flashes, and... I think I might be from Central America? I don't know. I do love tamales, I know that."
10. Val what was the fucking point of trying to drug Vox? Like? Even if it worked, Alastor would've fucked you up so hard your dick would come out of your mouth. Did you just think he'd be mad at Vox for getting fucking raped? Idiot.
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"They weren't even together yet. Alastor wouldn't have even known anything happened, if you idiotas hadn't gotten involved. Voxxy just would have chosen to stay with me, and their little budding romance would have fizzled out as it should have."
11. Husk, did you ever perform in front of a crowd? Because if I'd have your voice, I'd never shut up.
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"I mean, I used to be a stage magician, so... yeah."
12. Niffty, have you heard of Vox's employee, Baxter? He's like Sir. Pentios but a way better bad boy, about your height, and a mad scientist. Bet he could make experiments on your bugs and find new ways to kill em or sum.
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"Ooooh, Vox, I want to meet Baxter!"
13. Velvette, my fucking queen, on my knees for you, ugh, it's your voice or your personality, idk what, but I want it. Give it. I love u queen. What's your fave dress you ever made?
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"Everything I make is the best - how the fuck can I pick one favorite?"
14. If Vox would be a princess, he'd be a greedy princess. I scouted the internet for anything, and after being reminded that El Dorado exists, I think the best I found is Chel. She's smart and greedy, and wants more gold. That's the best i found. Or just fuck it and you're Ariel but a shark. Now I have to draw that.
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"Haven't seen it, so I'll take your word for it."
15. Angel did you discover you were gay back when you were alive or in hell? Also, how was it Italy? I plan on visiting and maybe going to a concert at it, cause the language sounds so fucking pretty and idk how to describe it, just beauty.
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"When I was alive, and uh... yeah, my family's Italian, but I'm from New York. Lived there my whole life. Neva' been to Italy."
16. So, Alastor, is Niffty in a contract with you afterall, or did she just exist in your house one day and you just adopted her? Also, Charlie can now technically call you dad, cause your her mom's boyfriend, so maybe stepdad? Second dad?
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"Niffty is my friend - of course I don't own her soul! And I was already a father-figure to Charlie, but I never seriously meant that she should call me dad."
17. Charlie girl, you did it! You fixed your mommy issues with your dad, your new mom, and your mom's boyfriend.
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"Uh... I don't think that's how that works..."
18. Hazbing hotel should be renamed issues hotel, cuz we got Daddy issues (Angel, Alastor, Husk I think?), Mommy issues (Charlie ((she kinda solved them)), Pentios maybe), parent issues (Husk ig, Vox, maybe velvette? Cuz if she was just 19 ((young kween, we stan u girl)), I imagine her parents sucked ((boo, tomato tomato))), uh, just straight up issues (Luci, Vaggie, I recon Val had a shitty life) and a shitton of trauma.
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"Fuck off, my dad was awesome."
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"And for the last time, I don't have 'daddy issues'. My mother did just fine on her own."
19. Alastor did you wear cattle shoes back when you were alive? Also, how is New Orleans? I think it looks really pretty and has a beautiful beautiful culture. Maybe if I have money, I'll visit! See where my fave serial killer murderer came from. Also, is French hard to learn? I'd like to give it a shot. Last thing: drop that lash care girllll, why do men have such pretty lashes? Scratch that, why are men like you so pretty?
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"I did, and New Orleans is indeed beautiful. I strongly recommend a visit! And I must admit, I don't speak fluent French. I can speak some Creole French that I picked up throughout my life. It was never something I studied, though. As for your last question, I'm afraid I don't quite know how to answer that."
Note from Mel: Please only send one or two asks at a time. This was a bit overwhelming, and it makes tagging complicated.
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mtkay13 · 1 year ago
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So I made those as requested by abscess chemical on twitter and figured it may be fun to share them on tumblr as well. And you know what? Share a break down of my choices as well, because why not! I tried doing it seriously haha.
Zhou Zishu:
Intense - 6/10: He can be very intense, re the things or people he's invested in, but he also has a chill and detached quality to him, a way of being at peace with things that he won't blow things out of proportions.
Complex - 9/10: I think that he's a very nuanced, multi-faceted and deep character, but I guess I didn't go 10/10 just because there's also a very straightforward and easy to get part of him (esp. from WKX's perspective.
Fruity - 2/10: I think the guy's very gay but not the most bombastic about it LBR.
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Angst-lord: although it's not as obvious in TYK, QY gives us some EXTREMELY tasty ZZS angst and a good look into how ZZS can process things through anxiety. It definitely got more lowkey post-QY canon, but...
Flavor container: IDK what that means really but I wanted to tick it
Soft and sweet: I actually didn't check it on the twitter version initially (but published an erratum). He is described as soft on the inside by too many people not to check it.
Braincell haver: self-explanatory, the guy's brilliant
Chew toy: literally!
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Tragic backstory: if QY can count as a backstory, then everything that happened with Jiuxiao works.
Frequently violent: duh
Sidekick owner: WKX is ZZS's sidekick from everyone else's perspective (or vice-versa) and my opinion abt it won't change ever.
Pet stray animals: ZCL, for one, and for two we all know he pets cats and raccoons
Chronic insomniac: technically, in TYK, the nails do force the insomnia, but we know from QY that he had a lot of trouble sleeping at night.
Murderer: well
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Just some guy 95%: clearly he's a natural-born NPC/side character
Too many thoughts 100%: he overthinks everything!!
Awful company 15%: I think that a goofy drunkard like him is fun but not the best company, especially when he goes all grumpy shifu/shixiong
Beloved by all 60%: most characters REALLY like him (and the others don't even know he exists) and often praise how sweet he is. Charming against his will and attempts at being invisible uwu
Trauma x1000 10%: again, I think that the Jiuxiao story left deep scars.
Helps others for fun 70%: pretty much the plot of TYK
Scary-smart 80%: I think he's really brilliant but then you have these moments where he's just clueless abt stupid stuff and clearly doesn't care/doesn't want to know or try so those 20% left are the deliberate goof I guess.
1000 weapons and tools 50/50: it's both!! every rock is both a tool and a weapon and he just keeps pulling random shit from his bosom--
At peace with life 48%: I think, for the most part, he is--at peace with both life and death, until he decides that keeping on living is just the best option in the end.
Break the rules 80%: I had no idea w this one but... in TYK he pretty much does whatever he wants, so---
Extra comments: The way the "evokes" ticks every boxes for me to various degrees of intensity... sigh It was difficult for the "want them to have" section since I think he has everything post-canon, but I tried seeing it from a mid!canon perspective.
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Wen Kexing
Intense - 9/10: While WKX's feelings are generally cold, they seem equally intense to me, just like his eyes or his stare. He's intense about his love, about his revenge, about his plans.
Complex - 6/10: I've had interesting convos about how WKX is... nuanced, of course, but not as complex or deep as it may seem on the surface. That doesn't take anything from how interesting he is, but he is rather straightforward in what he is, ultimately.
Fruity - 8/10: I MEAN--
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Enemy of the State: he's literally THE main Jianghu villain
Flavor Container: I still don't know what it means but it felt right once again
Braincell haver: the guy is EXTREMELY smart and outsmarted everyone in TYK so yeah
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Tragic backstory: can hardly do worse than parents murdered in front of you, ate your dad to survive, took care of a child in the wildest, most dangerous part of jianghu, fought to reach the top while "serving" the previous master........ He scored it all!
Orphan: again, fully checks out
Frequently violent: yes
Has enemies: in SPADES
Sidekick owner: GX and ZZS are WKX's sidekicks 100%
Murderer: yes
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The antagonist of life 70%: had to change from protag to antag because he IS the TYK antagonist (if TYK had been a traditional wuxia from ZCL's perspective...); of course it ends up being subverted but you know
Too many thoughts 75%: I think he's a big thinker as well
Awful company 85%: Let's be real guys
Hated by all 30%: I think he's too underestimated or not even really acknowledged enough to be hated, but I am pretty sure that more people dislike him than the opposite
Trauma x1000 60%: well.......... I think he has a bunch!
Sadistic for fun 15% : I doubt he's one to like helping and we know him to have those sadistic tendencies
Scary-smart 80%: same reasoning as for ZZS
1000 weapons or tools: mostly bare handed for everything save for the occasional whip or walnut shell but---
Enemy of god 35%: I have to be honest I don't really know what that means but I guess he's defied death a few times!!!
Break the rules 95%: WKX shits on the rules
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Additional notes:
Mostly ticks everything in the "evokes" categories as well, but I unticked "symptoms of projection" because I don't feel like I project much of anything on WKX... maybe? (save for the ZZS lewding.. LOL) always hard to say, IG we always do a bit of that on every character, eh
and The Horny ofc because i'm kinda known for not really lewding my good WKX atp
I want a lot of things for him during canon, but again, all I can think of is how post-canon WKX really got it and then I gush and am simply happy for him.
That's it thank you for reading this mostly unnecessary breakdown!!!! Edit, following a comment asking for the sheet:
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melissathettpdmember · 1 month ago
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Can you explain Daphne and Thoren's relationship PLEASE
Why anonymous bbg? scared that I might propose?? 😭😭 (Please find me PLEASE)
Ok have this aka the most logical thing ever -the couple that carries my whole Winx club lore
Daphne:
Right now she's 31 years old.
Born on the 28th September 1993 (EARTH TIME- Magical Universe Time - 1981)
If she ever takes the throne, which she will, she'll become the most powerful (politically- she already is the most powerful physically) person in the whole universe 😀
She's kind of a part of the Lightrock Council, which they chose a bunch of people who are younger than a century to take care of physical things such as court leading and handling executions.
Miss girl is a perfectionist. Extreme. You can't find anything she can't do. That also makes things dangerous for her as her elemental mastery is too high.
She developed an ED for the same reason. She gotta be perfect and living normally isn't gonna cut it.
She got diagnosed with ADD when she was a child but just now she found out that it was ADHD. She's now mad as hyperactivity isn't really "elegant".
She also has insomnia and PTSD. PTSD doesn't really matter to her except for when it snows in Domino.
She's cold towards anyone. Except Bloom and little children. And cats.
She's a musical performer and writer. The only thing she doesn't like about her voice is that she doesn't have a low register. Which she does but she wants it to be lower.
She sometimes visits whatever churches there are for her. For fun.
Her full name is "Daphne Kusana Elizabeth Sparks". She doesn't tolerate people using Elizabeth though.
And considering her age now, it's safe to say that the fall of Domino happened when she was 9. She -would- die if the Company of Light didn't arrive to fight. She did die when she was 22 though. That Sirenix curse lasted about 6-7 years.
Speaking of which, she actually found out she could haunt anyone she wants. She enjoyed giving Bloom her first trauma.
Thoren:
He's also 31 years old. (Shocker- also he's 53 hours younger so have that ig)
He was born on the 30th September of the same year.
Unlike his uncle aka fuckass Erendor, his father is a pretty nice person. They haven't spoken for a while now but I'm sure King Vincent still loves his beloved son.
LORE DROP: He wasn't supposed to exist. The first monarchy and the second monarchy made a deal to merge, leaving Erendor on the throne. I mean, the first monarchy wanted to at least. They had to include a catch so Erendor just put down "unless they have a kid by next year" knowing that the Queen was infertile. Not having a choice, they made the deal. Fast forward to 3 months later, the Queen found out she was pregnant. They called it a miracle but King Erendor called it a curse. Queen Samara remains unbothered. So it's basically Erendor's fault that Sky still hates Thoren to this day without a reason.
Also his mom died when he was 10. We still don't know why and no one knows where the body is. I do, but gotta keep it secret for new story ideas.
Hell, Sky adopted a fucking dog because Thoren is allergic.
The Lightrock Monastery has a kitten named Blair (Blair Waldorf from gossip girl. Thoren wanted to name it Meredith as in Meredith Grey but that name is already taken by another cat on Earth.)
Thoren is banned from the First Monarchy of Eraklyon. Since he was 13. Very "invisible string" that Daphne got banned on the same day. She got unbanned but never went there again.
He trains for fucking 18 hours a day. Yet he's still in the top 70 of the Paladin power charts. The reason for that is trauma. (Flashbacks to Sky's flashbacks in s6) He never rests either. No sleep. Psychopath ass bitch.
His left leg is prosthetic. During his first year as a Paladin intern he dropped the Earthquake Hammer on his foot. It basically shattered his whole leg. He still threatens people to crush their skull if there is a conflict.
He ends up in a hospital every fortnight. It's because of his training but not the one in Linphea College. So there's kind of a forest in Eraklyon's second monarchy. It leads to those ninja hideouts. The fact that killing at least 40 of them is a daily training thing and he has been doing this since he was 13 is very concerning. Though his first attempt was pathetic and he had to be in a hospital for 3 months.
His friend group, ESPECIALLY DAPHNE, will never ever stop making fun of him for his similarities with the Thunder God Thor.
He is also a musical performer. The only thing he doesn't like about his voice is the fact that he doesn't have a higher register. Except he actually does. But he sounds like a rock star while actually hitting high notes. And he doesn't like it. Idk what he expects.
His grandfather is still alive. And a member of the Lightrock Council. He calls Thoren "Charles".
Speaking of which, Thoren's full name is "Thoren Charles Alberich" and he might kill anyone who uses Charles. Except his grandfather. For apparent reasons.
He has a record for having the most hate accounts about him online. He kicks their asses though.
He's the only one who has more than 10 suicide attempts (12) in his friend group. Daphne comes second with 9.
He has probably performed Blue (Heathers the Musical) at least 4 times.
AS A COUPLE:
They met when they were both 8 years old at a Royal event. No it wasn't love at first sight. Stop. They were children. Also Daphne didn't like him anyway.
They finally became friends a year later, months after the Fall of Domino.
They started dating at 16. But Thoren fell first. When he was 15 actually.
A little fact to add, they both started college at 19 for secret reasons.
You know Daphne died at 22, this basically sent Thoren into a depression and during the time Daphne was gone, his suicide attempt count went from 2 to 8.
Then after they reunited somehow, Thoren proposed. Not in a normal way. I'll explain later sometime.
They got married at 28. Then there was a wedding after-party which no one except their friend group was invited to. Not even Winx was invited 💀💀💀
As much as Sky didn't have a problem with her, Daphne still despises Sky to this day.
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fuck-your-proana-blog · 4 months ago
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TW: Doing really bad right now-ALL BECAUSE OF ANOREXIA, MY EXERCISE ADDICTION, AND MOST RECENT SUICIDE ATTEMPT!
I'm in so much pain from both my older and newer diagnosed physical conditions I just want to throw in the towel. On top of the full-body pain conditions, I can't enjoy a meal without the torture of my throat trauma from being intubated making me feel like I'm choking and like stuff's constantly stuck in my throat ALL DAY after my first meal. I can't cook a meal or do any chores without my wrist feeling like the hole in my ligament that I needed surgery for (and never got, yet continued to lift weights with for years like an idiot) is brand new, so I need to ice my wrist and back for hours after I cook (even with my husband's help). Also the spinal pain is getting worse and more extensive every damn day; obviously worse when I'm cooking because I'm standing, measuring, grabbing ingredients, etc. Food used to be my favorite thing- sure I starved, but when I ate it was the highlight of my day.. but now there's no more joy from food due to my throat issues and the pain from preparing it. Nothing gives me joy but the quality time my husband and I spend together and my cat- but the good times with my husband are limited because I'm always so miserable and he's sick of doing all the chores, so we argue a lot now.. and my cat is not as cuddly as our other super senior cat that died last year (my cuddle buddy and constant companion😔).
I know I did this to myself, but I didn't mean to. I just focused on getting my "perfect body" to distract myself from my actual life.. I was trying to (for several years literally) run from my sexual trauma/C-PTSD that was very emotional-abuse heavy, with broken family shit, physical and emotional bullying, etc. because I only started facing the fact that this trauma existed in 2010, and with no other way to cope with my sexual revulsion due to the facing of my trauma, exercise helped me feel better and get out frustrations. I was already psychologically disabled, and being denigrated for that by everyone in my family, I felt like I had nothing else to offer the world than what others have often referred to as my "beauty." (Note: I do not now or ever have considered myself beautiful- only others have) Now my stupid, excruciating as well as dumb way to obtain more so-called (and mainstream) "beauty" through overexercising and starvation has made it so I haven't showered for two days despite my OCD SCREAMING at me that I'm not clean, I'm filthy, I'm disgusting, etc., (more trauma-reactions) but due to my many excruciating physical disabilities I can't even get out of my damn recliner to shower more than a few times a week, when I used to shower up to 3 times a day.. and forget restful sleep- I wake up every few hours to change my ice pack and readjust my 6 pillows to help cushion my broken apart bones, lack of cartilage, damaged nerves, osteoarthritis, etc.
It's not worth it. I wish what I tried worked.. my life is only worth living now because if it ended my loved ones would suffer. I am only alive so I don't hurt the people who love me.
YOU CAN AVOID THIS FATE- if you plan on having a long term restrictive ED, and think that it's some "perfect solution" to be skinny forever, you're wrong. So wrong- I spent 13 years wasting my life to get the "perfect body," I was used as thinspo on here, praised for my tiny body, called "body goals," everything the pro anas on here claim to want. But you can only live that life for so long.. with my routine, the length of that particular life was 13 years (and that was pushing it). Now I am suffering more and more each day, with no relief in sight.
I will continue to post these reality checks- sure they're good for my need to vent my frustrations, but if just one person reads this and thinks twice, it has served a purpose beyond my ability to complain into the void of Tumblr.
Get help. You are never "not sick enough"- if you abuse your body in any way with food, exercise, or medication you deserve help.
You do not want this life. I gained all the weight back due to being so unintentionally immobile due to the damage anorexia/overexercising caused; the osteopenia from it definitely helped progress the degeneration of my spine and other bones, as the weight gain was aided by the complete destruction of any metabolism I had.. so now all I have is the triggering memories on Facebook, old pictures shared by family- most of whom do not know how much it hurts to see my sick pictures.. they all knew what was happening, but I've only confessed it to a few- they all make sure to talk about it behind my back though!🤬
Save yourselves from this. Save yourselves from a life much worse in EVERY WAY than not being "the skinniest girl in every room." 🙄
If you have any recovery questions or need help trying to recover, please reach out to me on any of my blogs- you're not alone.❤️
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destinygoldenstar · 4 months ago
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☀️The Brunch Of Trauma☀️ - Total Drama Viewer Reacts to Disventure Camp Season 1 Episode 5 “Baking My Heart”
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...last time on Disventure Camp I screwed over Nick and caused his elimination because I put him in the heading.
DON'T WORRY, I'M NOT CAUSING JAKE'S ELIMINATION THIS EPISODE. (I hope)
I'm pretty certain it's not him this episode. He's not a target for anybody, at least for now. That and I think it's gonna be Lilly this episode, so...
Yeah. I'm playing my heading card smart this time. King deserves it from last episode.
...oh god what if I DID cause his elimination?
"Goddammit Golden! Why'd you put me in the heading, huh?!"
Alright, let us continue with our journey!
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OMG THE PHONE! I FORGOT
PLEEEAAASSEE tell me they take advantage of this!
ALSO, not even a second into the episode and I already caught the fruity boy staring at a certain someone.
YES THEY'RE CALLING! I'm excited!
"Dad! It's me! How are you?"
"Fine, I guess... what do you want?"
Oh he does not sound thrilled.
"Are you taking care of my plants? How are my cats my little birds my fireflies my spiders my iguanas my fish and my crabs?"
GEEZ THAT'S A LOT
I mean I'm not surprised Gabby has a whole zoo at her house. Sounds in character.
Girl has more pets than my own partner.
"Yes... everything you just said is fine... no need to rush home."
Okay, so Gabby having a neglectful family that is annoyed by her existence is canon.
"Do you want to meet my new friends?"
"I have to go attend some business. Bye."
YOU DON'T DESERVE GABBY SIR
Girlie, here you go
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"Hi Gretchen! How's it going out there?"
Gretchen? I mean I guess it makes sense she has a nickname, but I just liked saying Grett.
"Did you know that your brother won the football championship? I'm so proud of him sweetie!"
"Guess what's happening today? Your brother's getting a certificate of honor for his high grades in university."
"What does that matter?!"
"I'm just so happy that someone in this family is actually successful!"
OH MY GOD.
I'm actually hurt for Grett.
I would say "Yes, Grett characterization, let's go queen!" But my gosh I feel so bad for her.
I'm so happy we actually get a motive for her now. I knew I could stan her!
'Grett: Overthrow family disappointment'
Add that to the list of motives I made in Episode 4.
"You making a call Tom?"
"Oh... I don't think so, my family isn't home."
Tom... do you have a family? Cause it sounds like you don't.
And that's really sad to hear.
"Is mom home?"
"Oh, they're not here, they went shopping."
WHAT ARE ALL THESE PHONE CALLS?!
Why does everyone have such neglectful families?!
"I'm just... I'm fed up."
Aw, Grett...
"From what?"
"My mom can't go a single day without mentioning my stupid brother!"
"Well, you're not the only one who feels left out in your family..."
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Bonding?
I'm loving this scene.
"SHUT UP! You and I are nothing alike! Don't call me friend. We are not friends, and we never will be!"
"Okay, calm down!"
"Just leave me alone!"
Ouch... I do see Grett's POV though. Yeah she's awful, but I guess in her mind she's so inferior to her sibling that she feels the need to be dirty with her tactics.
"We should've listened to Will."
YA THINK?!
If Lilly really is the one gone this episode, you're all alone Ashley. You gotta step up for them!
"Don't give up Lill! It's not over till the rooster crows!"
I like her, she's such an optomist.
"Do you want to go first?"
"I have no one to call."
...what?
No one?
You don't have a spouse? Kids? Grandkids? No one?
"Quit being a nosy brat!"
Lady, he was being a gentlemen and offering you to go first!
Where you pulling this 'brat' shit from?
"Fine, I'll go!"
And right after I say that he gives attitude.
Go call your grandma Jake. Tell her how you love her and you're gonna help her with the money.
Maybe this one will be a bit wholesome.
"Hey Shawn!"
"Hey... Jake..."
...
What...?
"What's up? Is everything alright?"
"I'm sorry..."
*I covered my mouth to hold back a gasp*
"A couple of days ago... grandma passed away..."
OH MY GOD NOOOOOOO
*I'm actually upset for him*
Oh my god...
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OH MY GOD HE'S CRYING. OH MY GOD.
"Mom told me not to tell you till you came back... but I had to..."
He's still going. Oh my god...
"You're lying..."
"She was conscious for a few hours before she got worse..."
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JUST STOP. JUST STOP TALKING.
"She wrote a letter... I'll give it to you when you get back... I'm sorry man..."
JAKE, I'M SO SORRY. THAT'S AWFUL!!
I'm actually hurt as well!
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AND THEN TOM COMFORTS HIM?!??! AWWWWW 😢
I thought he was here to help her! I didn't think she was gonna die before he can even get back! That's horrible!
YOU ALL BETTER GIVE HIM VIRTUAL HUGS.
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FOR HIM AND FOR HIS GRANDMA.
Okay, okay, I'm calming down, I'm calming down...
GOD. DAMN. IT. ME.
I SHOULDN'T HAVE PUT JAKE IN THE HEADING!
I KILLED HIS GRANDMA!!
I'M SORRY I DIDN'T MEAN TO!!
Jake, if you hate me for this, I understand. I deserve it.
"Why won't you take the slay pass?!"
"Because slaying killed my grandma, okay?!"
(I'm sorry)
"Teal Team I hope you enjoyed your call home!"
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BRUH. NO. DON'T EVEN.
"We made sure the ingredients are... what's the word... DISGUSTING."
Knew it.
I'm calling this reaction the Brunch of Trauma. As a callback to Total Drama's 'The Brunch Of Disgustingness'
"How are we supposed to get chicken guts?"
By killing a chicken. Duh.
"I can't eat cockroaches! They have feelings!"
No they don't Gabby. No they don't.
"I don't think Jake's in the mood to run around looking for ingredients."
Thank you Tom. Thank you for being so supportive of him and understanding his situation.
"Does anyone know how to cook?"
No.
"Do I have to?!"
"Do you want to win?"
"Fine."
Why is Fiore so grumpy all of a sudden?
"The winning team will send a representative from their team to tonight's elimination ceremony! Where they will get the sole vote to pick an extra person from the losing team."
It was the slay pass I gave Jake that he threw away.
Who wants it? It was sent by me.
"The team that attends the elimination will lose TWO people tonight!"
OH SHIT.
...it's gotta be Teal that loses then, right? Purple's already down a member, and that'll make numbers REALLY uneven.
Oh god did I cause Jake's elimination by putting him in the heading?!
Look, Purple, if you get this marker, even if your name is Fiore, you leave Gabby Grett and Jake out of this. You have my permission to use this marker, but ONLY to use it on Dan.
Dan's the only one on that team I wouldn't really care gets sent home.
Dan and I guess Miriam. I'm sorry Miriam.
Cause there's no way they're gonna make Purple lose here and make the team HALF the size of the other. Right? There's no way.
"Ever since I heard from home this morning, I've been wondering if there's even a point in being here. Should I leave?"
I feel so bad for Jake.
What did this precious bean do to you writers?! Why'd you have to break his heart like this?!
But yeah, what even is his motive now? It's down the drain now that she's gone.
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"Jake, are you okay?"
Oh, so now you care.
"Since when do you care?"
And he said the same thing I said.
"You're always telling me to shut up and leave."
Facts.
"You don't need to pity me."
"I know it's hard, but remember that she'll always be in your heart and in your memories. We can always honor our loves ones by keeping their legacy alive. By lovingly remembering them."
...guys, I didn't start watching this show to cry. I'm gonna be honest.
"I'm saying this because I've been there before."
Oh?
*cuts away*
GOSH DARN IT NO I WANTED TO HEAR THAT! COME ON!
"'The hillbilly girl and wrinkles have no idea what I did' I can't believe it. She's been plotting against us this whole time."
I'm not surprised.
"How could a little girl do this?"
Demon child. CLEAR upbringing issues.
"We have to tell Ellie and Alec!"
"Are they going to believe us?"
They already do!
Though, you can probably get through to Ellie. I can hear her screaming on the inside about her being roped into a villain alliance.
"Do you even cook for your family?"
"Not recently to tell you the truth. Hard to make meals when we're going through a rough patch right now."
You're broke?
The Bucket family?
"I haven't told anyone about this..."
"You can talk to me."
Please talk. We're already eating up a lot of trauma for dinner tonight.
"A couple of years ago, on my husband's birthday, I wanted to surprise him with a cheesecake..."
Oh no from the other episode... I know where this is going.
He died from the cake, didn't he?
"So I told my son to take him to the mall, maybe buy his dad a gift while I baked... but when I had the desert ready, I called them to come back but they never did."
They both died?!
"Apparently a drunk driver hit their car... a head collision... no survivors."
Shit... that's awful.
Why is there so much trauma in this episode?!
"It took me to a dark place for a long time, those two were the only ones I had..."
"I'm so sorry, Miriam."
"It's never easy to lose someone you love. When I heard what happened to your grandmother, it all came flooding back..."
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YES. HUG. PLEASE.
PLEEEAASSE WE NEED SOMETHING COMFORTING IN THE MIDST OF THIS HEARTBEAK
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Okay how many virtual hugs can we get by the end of this episode?
Is Miriam gonna be nicer to Jake from here on out? I hope so.
"Don't worry. Everything is under control."
I am so bloody confused by these hosts plotline, I'm gonna be honest.
What are you talking about?
I know Tom stole the dude's ID, but why? Is he a criminal?
"Let's say... they didn't send the smartest spy they had."
Oh they ARE talking about Tom.
So Tom does know stuff and he's sus as shit.
So he's not a ninja... I was thinking it would be spy too.
So he's not on the show to win. He's here to stop... whatever these guys are doing.
Also YEAH, they DIDN'T send the smartest spy.
Cause hum diddly hum, I wonder which one among the cast is the impostor? Maybe it's the one guy who never shows his face.
ALSO, he SAW Tom running.
"He didn't see me! I was wearing black! And I was out in the night! I was practically Batman!"
"Yeah but you stick out like a sore thumb during the day and in the sun."
"BUT IT'S THE SUUUUUUUUUUUNNNNN"
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"Jake thinks it was Dan and Dan thinks it was Jake."
That's not what they said. I distinctly remember that's not what they said.
"Grett won't let me talk to you."
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Yeah it really sucks they're on different teams, cause they seem to get along well.
"Why? She shouldn't get to control you like that."
Thank you Ellie.
She's a good bean and she'll do the right thing when time comes. I'm sure.
"I know, but it's the only way to save myself."
Yeah, being outcasted SUCKS.
I mean, I get it, I've been there in my past. Everyone found me annoying and hated me and would say it to my face. But also, you can't get people walk all over you Gabby.
As a Grett stan, you have permission to leave her behind.
"Let me know if you need someone to talk about it with."
Yes, confide in Ellie. She's a good person too.
Despite, you know, the alliance she's in not being the best choice.
Side with the heroes. You can side with Lilly and Ashley and get rid of Fiore. You'll be one happy family and they'll take you in.
"I like you Gabby. You aren't afraid to speak your mind."
Is that a platonic compliment, or...?
Actually, I can see it.
"Here's an idea, if my team wins, I can offer myself as the representative to make sure you're not in danger."
That sounds like a great plan actually! Do it!
But Ellie I swear to god you leave Jake out of this. Use the pen on Dan!
That pen is the slay pass I granted in the game, and I tell you how you use it!
"And if your team wins, you can do the same."
"You can save me from Fiore using the pen! And I'll be free! It'll be a glorious victory!"
In dream land where everything works out perfectly, that's what happens.
They're actually really sweet. I love that Gabby has a friend to confide with.
I love that Gabby gets to be happy in this miserable world where everyone is traumatized beyond belief!
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NO NOT THE CHICKEN
I'm sorry Ashley, but you need to get clotheslined by a clothesline.
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Even the birds are bullying Dan.
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Awww their little chef wear, that's so cute on them!
"You've done this before?"
"Thank you... I used to cook with my grandmother a lot."
I'm glad he's staying strong for her.
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Even Fiore is like "I'm glad I'm not your child!"
"I think we screwed up."
What are you talking about? It's supposed to be screwed up.
You're doing it perfectly.
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Idk how fair this is considering one team has more members eating.
Yeah Teal's gotta lose here, right? They have more members...
It also might come at the expense of Miriam if I'm being honest. Just when I was starting to like her.
But that happens. Once you start to like a character on Total Drama, they get eliminated.
"I can't believe what I'm about to say, but... this is delicious!"
Alright, who put DJ's Mama Spice in the mix?!
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This face XD
Aaaaaannnnddd we get vomit rockets...
I'm not showing that.
SO... my prediction was completely wrong.
That ended a lot faster than I thought it would.
How are that team gonna function with just three?
"Cooking is my passion. And when Jake and I cooked, I haven't felt that normal in a long time. I guess I judged the boy too soon."
I'm glad Miriam is coming around.
Gabby's the representative, as we established.
"I wanted to use the slay pass you gave me last episode, Golden!"
I'll give it to you sweetie. Use it for whoever. If you want to slay Fiore with it, go right ahead.
"It was convenient for everyone that Gabby volunteered. No one wants to make enemies right now."
You guys all blew your chance of making her an ally a long time ago.
Lilly and Ashley are being very blunt about this. I like it.
"Fiore has been sabotaging our team! And she can't get away with it!"
"Wow..."
What do you mean wow? You know this already.
"Well, who cares?!"
"Not me."
BRUH
"Ellie, you have to help us!"
YES ELLIE! JOIN THEM! GET HER OUT!
"They're just saying that cause they're desperate. Did they reach out to you when they were making their original alliance?"
What's it matter now? Ellie was desperate too back then.
"How did this happen? I went from being in the worst position to deciding the vote! It feels good to have this power."
Ellie... this is gonna sound really bad, but... I can't trust you with a slay pass.
"What do you mean Golden isn't on my side?!"
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"SURPRISE BITCHES!!"
QUEEN 👑
"Remember when you vote me out at the first day?!"
"AND HERE I AM. REVENGE IS MINE."
"Gabby has a red marker. She will write the name of one of you and when I read the name of that one unlucky contestant, that person is immediately out!"
"It was a slay pass granted from Golden to Gabby because whoever Gabby hates probably deserves it."
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I know how these shows work.
I have the gut feeling...
Ellie's not gonna side with the good guys.
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Yep. I was right from the start of this. They're voting Lilly.
"I'm voting for you so you can crawl back to whatever Disney movie your wrinkled which face came from."
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Why does she look so evil?
"See, that's why you have bad taste Golden. All the favs you picked are evil and/or have serious issues!"
'LILL'
Yep. We know.
'FIORE'
I feel like it would be hilarious if Gabby wrote Fiore's name.
Ellie would be like, "See, that's what makes me the swing vote! Good or Evil? I choose NEITHER."
'LILL'
'FIORE'
It's Lilly.
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RIP.
Ashley, it's up to you cowgirlie! You gotta take up the mantle and survive!
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...WELP, YOU SURVIVED FOR TWO SECONDS.
GODDAMMIT.
I had a feeling she was gonna do that.
ELLIE. WHYYYYYYYYYYYY
And why did Gabby use the slay pass on Ashley! I specifically told you to use it on Fiore!!
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"I'll give it to you sweetie. Use it for whoever."
I feel like I should blame myself for this happening.
SLAY PASS MISFIRE
"Ellie, why did you do that?"
"I'm sorry Lill, we were getting down to the wire and Fiore could be helpful if we reached the merge."
How would she help you in the merge exactly?! She's a KID. She has limitations! She's not exactly a good alliance member to have.
And who's to say she's not just gonna ditch you after this?
I'm sorry Ellie, but I'm calling you out cause I do not see your logic there.
"Not to throw a hissy fit, but this is seriously unfair!"
I feel like Ashley is saying that to ME specifically.
"GOLDEN YOU LUNATIC REACTIONARY! WHY WOULD YOU GIVE ANYONE A SLAY PASS WILLY NILLY?! AND IT CAME AT THE EXPENSE OF ME!"
"There's three of us and only two of you. Even a six year old can do better math than you."
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Fiore secretly takes Algebra. The highest level. And she's a straight A honor roll student.
"Y'all WILL regret this decision!"
Specifically Ellie. She's gonna regret this, I can already tell.
Honestly, Ashley was robbed. I get it, limited episodes, but really? That's how she's eliminated?
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Awwwwwwww 💗
At least they're besties till the end.
"Okay, Fiore tricked us. But if she managed to do that with us, she can do the same with the other team."
AND she can do the same to YOU.
"Luckily Ellie and Alec didn't fall for their desperate attempt to throw me under the bus."
They DO know. Alec just doesn't care, and Ellie apparently knows what she's doing.
Honestly, I still feel like Ellie can redeem herself from this, especially if she's merging. She can be the swing vote, see the light, and join the good guys. I don't think she's a bad person at all, she's just playing the cards she's dealt.
I don't have to approve of her plan, but I understand why she has to do it.
I don't blame Gabby either. That was my fault. I'll take the blame for her. I forgive her.
Plus it's also, you know, karma for that alliance.
I was expecting that alliance to lose like, two members before the merge, but DAMN, it COMPLETELY collapsed pre-merge!
Reality TV's Stupidest Alliance everyone!
I was thinking Ashley would lose Lilly, her last ally, and be the outlier of her team trying to survive. Even if she wouldn't last long merge-wise. But when the Tribal Council started I realized, "Nah, Ashley's screwed."
I do feel like she was robbed though and they could do more with her. If she's in Season 3. The red marker is kind of a bullshit move to boot someone, ngl. But I get it, there's only 13 episodes so they had to do a double elimination. The TD Reboot had to do that as well. But really? That's how Ashley gets booted?
I liked her. She was the one reasonable fellow of that alliance.
Lilly... Well, I predicted her pre-merge boot from the very beginning, and I was completely right. And I think she works as plainly that. A pre-merge boot, AKA, an early elimination, with a one note personality that wasn't bitchy. She was also kinda the mom of that group.
I feel like they have to scramble up the teams now, right? Cause Purple has 3 and Teal has 6. It's not really fair that one team has DOUBLE the amount of teammates.
Or maybe because of that they throw someone from Teal to put them on Purple. My bet would be Gabby.
"Gabby, congrats, you're on the Purple Team now."
4-5, and it's a little better.
That would really screw Grett over though. I love her and I love the characterization given to her this episode, but also, I don't expect her to win at all.
If you guys want me to continue these reactions, be sure to let me know.
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zombirps · 5 months ago
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🔫/lh tell me abt ur ships pls
NO THIS IS GREAT I CAN ORGANIZE ALL MY SHIPS AND ALSO GET A PICKME UP CAUSE MY BRAIN IS SAD TODAY THANKS ANON
(Ill keep it to specifically just the established ships, if they're super loosey goosey in planning I'll save those for later heheh)
I'll organize them by mun since I actually don't have many with too many people, but I have a lot with a cluster of homies ehehehehhe
AVIS (mycrappyRPsideblog)
Haimon ♡ Cloten (Hunter's Trap)- Both of them are mentally ill, Haimon is a stalker with 2000x more emotional maturity than Cloten, who has emotionally dissociated from her emotions over the last 200 sweeps. He doesn't give up on her even though she pushes him away and I love them <3333
Edolli ♡ Ripley (Hard Knock Life)- Edolli is the abused heiress of a mafia group, cloned by her ancestor to avoid the death of her bloodline. Ripley is the leader of her ancestor's enemy group. Ripley saved her from the group and now they're trying to navigate a healthy relationship now that all secrets are out.
Phylda ♡ Bokura (Haunted Grounds)- Phylda and Bokura is my oldest ship! They were mates when they were much younger (10ish) then Bokura was taken and brainwashed, they're trying to figure out how to live together while overcoming 500+ sweeps of trauma. Im love them, they're the easiest ship because theres a lot of trust and love.
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Ven (nethertrolls)[NOTE: we kind of treat ship making like an olympic sport, so I'll only mention the main troll/fleshed out ships- ven and I have like, double digits at this point{I blame the bleach trolls}]
Hoclei ♡ Paeoni (Neighborhood Watch)- Paeoni is an overworked mistreated cop who can read minds- Hoclei is a goodhearted delinquent who struggles to say what she thinks, which usually causes trolls to be scared of her/hate her because she will sometimes be abrasive. Paeoni is the only one who hears her silly cute thoughts and its so fun.
Lixitu ♡ Fenris (Unnamed)- They're actually pretty fresh, Fenris is a vampire that tried eating Lixitu but ofc this weird ass bitch has 20 million contingency plans and had a 'break in case of vampire' blood bag collection so they're chill now. It's gonna be so cute tho,,,
Gneise ♡ Aeiris (Unnamed)- Gneise is a badass natural conservationist protecting her wrigglerhood planet from the climatization of the fleet (they're trying to 'fix' the planet- Gneise doesn't want it fixed, because it's a beautiful wonderland of a bunch of species that ONLY exist on this planet). Aeiris loves her because shes a badass, he's a cool chaos god that walks around pretending he's a cat. NGL Gneise loves him because he's a cat + a short cute dude- she ADORES short cute dudes. Especially if they can kick her ass.
Myroji ♡ Oreion (Unnamed) - Picket fence couple that was ripped away from each other 20+ sweeps ago when Oreion's ancestor paid pirates to kill her. She's now a feral vampire and he's become a information broker combing the planet to find her.
Honorable mentions to 20+ other unnamed ships (Godverse, BleachTrolls, Ven knows. We have an illness)
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Xonn (CybernatedBeholder)
Lixitu ♠ Brykna(Kiss and Tell) - Lixitu loves to go to bars and win all the trivia games, because she has photographic memory (and usually the bars will pay for the drinks and food and she's poor as shit). Bree started making the questions harder specifically to trip her up/mess with her, now they shit talk each other.
Cirela ♡ Zavlan(unnamed)
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Nort (norts-trolls)
Alcida ♡ Ceroga (Match My Freak) - YanderexYandere, they're a clusterfuck of shit quite frankly. She's been stalking them and murdering their mates, they've been using their natural toxin on her so she never leaves. Neither of them are good trolls and that's exactly where they wanna be.
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Malyk (GoldenGuillotines)
Guizan ♡ Vantai(Web of Lies) - Guizan is one of the top legislacerator, working directly under the legislacerator who is the empress' main guy, and their office is currently being investigated by Vantai's group who is checking out the illegal dealings coming out of the office. Secrets come out.
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suusoh · 4 months ago
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Your characterization of Anna is exactly what i was hoping for tbh. She would never have Johan’s “no lives matter” approach because even at her kindest, when she was not the monster in the normal timeline, it was never about what people deserve with her. She doesn’t forgive Johan cause everyone deserves to live and be forgiven or whatever, her personal philosophy is never impersonal. She forgives him because he is her brother. Because she loves him and she’d forgive him again and again. A sweet sentiment and also so very “selfish”. Monster Anna would not be Johan’s impersonal, god-like, judging humanity as a whole kind of creature. She’d be a selfish and angry thing. Johan’s dishes out punishment detached but Anna would be so very attached that it’d be horrifying. She’s hunting you down like she’s the cat and you’re the mouse. Philosophy and morality mean little to her because she makes her own personal brand of justice and she is aware she has biases and she does not care in the slightest. Exactly as you said, she gets to choose now.
I imagine Johann’s self sacrificial nature would piss her off to no end cause, imagine her resenting her brother yet also caring about him and yet he’s so eager to sacrifice himself for everyone else. It doesn’t matter that he’d do it for her too. In her eyes she’s the only one he should be doing it for. The gall of him to not understand that his sole responsibility is to her. Yet again him being concerned with humanity as a whole (while still obvi she is the center of his pathology and the catalyst of his behavior) and her being concerned with the humans in her little world. They’re foils to each other especially in the scale of what and who they consider when referring to the world.
oh anon..... you are speaking my language right now. we are talking and conversing in the same tongue. dios mio!!! this is everything!! Like I don't know else to add to this other than:
thank you. yes. yes. yes yes yes yes. johan's lack of morality in a detached way and anna's lack of morality in an attached way SUPER FUCKING YES. she is the cat and you are the mouse oh my godddddd.
aboslutely does pissh er off. I think this is where my take kinda diverges though because for me she has one hell of a cain complex, and she would literally cut off all ties and existence of her connected with her brother. literally like "brother?? what brother. I don't have one. nope." meanwhile johan is literally like (;-;). But your takes super neat though too nonnie!
I give anna a "wanting to seperate from her brother" thing because in the anime that's what protected her brain from the memories and her trauma. Sad to say but she was literally living her best life when she didn't even know about Johan FHKLAHJFA so I think that's why anna is trying to emulate that. A life where she has no brother and no mother, therefore she is not the twin that was given away because she is not a twin, she has no twin she is just anna!! there's no one else, just anna.
(Just Monika.
ok.
hehehhe)
WHICH might tie in to her trauma of being the "least favourite" twin because now you don't have to choose between her and her brother. what brother? She has no brother You can just choose her and only her, she's who you should be choosing anyway.
which is actually why i think that maybe Anna might be using "Nina" as a fake name to furhter separate herself from him throughout the alternate monster au. Just like how Johan uses "Johan" because he has no name, Anna uses "Nina" because she does have a name, but she does NOT want anything to do with it. She is Nina, Not Anna, because Anna is a girl with a brother and a mother. and being Anna hurts because that brother and mother left her all alone and unloved and had to face a special little place called red rose mansion and kinderheim all by herself.
(girlie really said "you are not me and i am most definitely NOT you" gtfo outta my face LMAOOOO 😭)
Which would make the conflict of alternate monster au reconciling the fact that she has a brother, she has a past tied to him, and she has to face the fact that she can't just erase all the unpleasant memories, things, or people in life to stay happy or make the world a "happy place".
If monster is all about Johan and Nina, twins who are irreversably connected with each other and having to face the fact that they can be two different individuals with their own two lives and different personalities and are not "halves" of one person, but instead are two whole people with their own identities and with their own lives.
Then alternate monster is all about Anna and Johann, two different people with two very different lives and diff identities, having to come to terms and to face their past that they are in fact once siblings, a fact that further cannot be denied with them being twins and undeniably looking like the other, and that they may be more similar and connected in each other's lives and past than they want to admit to themselves
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sapphire-weapon · 1 year ago
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I actually agree with you analysis with Aeon, because there is one thing that’s been bugging me this whole time about their “relationship”.
Leon states in Vendetta that he is tired of all the fighting, so much to the point to where he starts drinking. But what bothers me the most is that Ada in her shitty storyline is stealing samples to later trade as per orders of Wesker.
For me, it almost undermines Leon’s goal in the sense that the one thing he wants to end is being continued by the woman he is so in love with. Because of his love with her, he’s willing to turn a blind eye to her actions all because he loves her???
Leon’s character is being questioned. Which doesn’t make sense cause his whole thing is to save people but when the girl he loves is continuing the cycle that he wants to end, he just doesn’t care??? Like Leon was top of his class in the police academy, labeled as smart. But just because he sees a pretty girl his intelligence kind of just gets thrown out the window.
I like both characters, but i feel like their little cat and mouse game destroys both characters completely.
Anyway, sorry to ramble, keep up the analysis. i’m lovin’ it!
So, this has actually been my biggest source of frustration as a critic/analyst. Back when RE6 first came out, I was still heavy in the dwrp scene, and I played through the game with my buddy Seiko (who RPed the Chris to my Leon, at the time) and I just remember both of us at varying points being like "what the fuck is he doing??" "why is he so fucking stupid?? it's like he took all of Chris's stupid pills and he's like 'no it's my turn to give myself brain damage you already had your fun. B('"
And when we first beat Leon's campaign I just dropped my controller and leaned back and said, "Well. I guess Leon just became unplayable. So much for that shit. There goes five years of RP down the fuckin toilet. Thanks for nothing, Capcom." And Seiko had to be like "No, wait, hold on. We can figure this out." And eventually she was the one who finally realized and said: "It felt like his whole campaign was a cry for help."
And I have been trying to make that work ever since -- because it is the only way to make his character make sense, after a certain point.
It actually took me the better part of two years to fully form and crystallize my analysis of "Leon projects most of his trauma onto Ada because she's familiar and convenient -- and also it's a bit of sunk cost fallacy because he wasted so much of his life trying to chase her down, so he's forced to create and live in this delusion where he's convinced himself that she's working towards the greater good, even though he has absolutely no intellectual reason to think that considering the men she's worked for -- but he still has to force himself to buy into it because his entire sense of self has become wrapped up in all of this bullshit, and for him to confront and admit that he's been wrong about her all this time would literally cause his worldview to shatter and his mental health to completely unravel into nothing."
Because RE6, as it exists, is fucking nonsense. I already thought RE4 was pushing it, because I don't know how Leon could just... be okay with Ada working for Wesker. The only explanation is that he's become convinced that she's doing it for a good reason and is going to do the right thing -- even though he has absolutely no evidence for thinking that. A delusion is the only way for it to make sense, and RE6 kicks that into overdrive.
If you were to look at Leon and Ada's relationship and call it for what it was, the very uncomfortable truth that would shake out is that Leon himself is probably one of the greatest assets contributing to the perpetuation of bioterrorism research. He not just aids the US government in their cover-up stories and cleans up their messes for them, but he also actively aids Ada's efforts while she's working for guys like Albert goddamn Wesker.
If you look at it from that perspective, the grim reality is that the world might objectively be better off if Leon was to step down from his position, withdraw from the battlefield, or even off himself like he's always wanted to. He's not just a useful idiot like Chris was for the BSAA -- he is actively part of the problem.
And there's some part of Leon that knows that. But it goes against everything he claims to stand for.
And so, the only way to make sense of his actions is the explanation that his entire sense of self is wrapped up in this, and he's too deep in that hole to dig his way out now. He's aware, on some level, of the cognitive dissonance that's happening, and that's why he drinks.
So, it is very interesting to me that Ada has been MIA from the OG timeline since 6, and that Vendetta and Death Island made the move to have Chris and Jill officially move in as Leon's support system, when he didn't have one previously -- because, with the proper support system in place, it's possible that he can dig his way out of this hole.
But what will that mean for his relationship with Ada?
And so we look at the Remake series and see the foundation it's been laying...
And suddenly the horizon starts to look very, very dark for Aeon as a ship.
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crimsonblackrose · 5 months ago
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another kreese flashback north vietnam 1969
There's a lot more people captured then Kreese's little unit.
I somehow highly doubt that they would be shooting guns up into the sky like that. Waste of ammunition during a war and also giving your location away.
First fight to the death club
Encino oaks once again serving spagehtti.
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A nightmare for Daniel on a tray.
Encino Oaks has a band playing jazz christmas songs
The uniforms are kind of fun, green with a candy cane striped tie and a mistletoe toe boutineer.
Okay, why do they go to Encino Oaks if Amanda hates the people there and Daniel has trauma related to it? Why not another country club? 5 minutes and Amanda's seen 10 people she hates.
Anthony keeps getting kicked out of sleepovers....how was that not a clue???? Omg you say that like it's nothing but that's literally a clue that Anthony might be bullying other kids.
Bartender's name is Brett and knows his and Amanda's usual.
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Ali is right, Daniel was supposed to meet her at the Country club and snuck in the back, saw Johnny kiss Ali to I guess make Daniel jealous, panicked, tripped into a waiter trying to deliver spagehtti and got his white clothes ruined only to leave without seeing Ali punch Johnny in the face and spent months assuming she'd toyed with him to make Johnny jealous.
They were overdue by 30 years a meet up at the country club.
I do love Daniel's blue velvet? suit although in LA that thing has to be sweltering.
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Calm down Johnny they literally just saw each other, plus you have Carmen.
But I do like that Johnny nearly gets sauced, but manages to jump out of the way in time which gives away his position just like the hardware store.
Ali instantly summoning him over and reintroducing them. 🤣
Johnny asks if Daniel sleeps in his suit and Daniel calls Johnny scarface.
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Instant bickering, such a tell.
Mitch and Chris are wrestling fans. And Chris telling the truth here:
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Demetri jumping up and using Eagle Fang/Cobra Kai language to stop Mitch and Bert from leaving.
There are more than just Mitch, Bert, and Miguel in Eagle Fang, but for some reason they're the only students here. Same for Miyagi-do.
Ali tallying up for me. Love it. She actually listened to them and is like loving the drama. (I mean, same)
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Not 100% accurate, she was in the backseat. Yasmine technically did it.
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well not directly, on a billboard, but close enough.
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Louie upped the stakes to a ridiculous amount with that one. (Don't forget the motorcycle gang Ali)
Ali, why did you skip on all the drama at lunch?
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Only with the help of a woman at a bar and Miguel. I wouldn't say he's figured it out though. 🤣
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That's mean Daniel. There's nothing wrong with if he did that, but the way you say it.
I love Ali
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Amanda, did you get lost on the way to the table and then seeing Johnny and going oh boy
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I love that Amanda sees Daniel talking to her ex and while her face looks like oh god, her words are actually delightful: I cannot wait to talk to you. And it's mutual.
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I think this is one of my favorite scenes where these two just roast Daniel and Johnny. "On the whole "mortal enemy karate dojo battle for the soul of the valley" thing?
I love Amanda's laugh and eat an olive to Ali's 'how's you both having karate dojo's going'
The kids making their list of demands.
Training at Miyagi-do to an extent makes sense or at least wanting to train there because it's not the park. But I gotta say the park doesn't have giant rocks in the middle of it
lol I forgot they're trying to do literally everything. Rename the merged dojo, gi designs, after training snacks, and SDRP: Sensei Dispute Resolution Protocol.
Bert continuously being an animal lover, wanting to let Sam's non existent cat in only to get thrown through a window.
The fact Sam doesn't immediately go we don't have a cat, but instead Miguel's the first to tell something's fishy.
Also would like to point out Bert went through a door on the right but comes in through the kitchen window on the left within the time it takes to say "I didn't know you have a cat/we don't"
Miguel: BERT WHAT HAPPENED?! Bert missing his glasses, face bleeding, just a sad: "No cat"
Pretty sure this counts as breaking and entering from the Cobra Kai kids. Like actual home invasion.
Miguel's first move is, with Nate, to get Bert back up and get him moving away from the intruders with them.
One of Tory's best outfits.
Also I don't think I'd realized that Hawk Kyler and a few others come in one way and it's not the way Bert left from, and through the front do is Tory and two more. Literally pincer movement.
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Really out of all the parties Sam has hosted it's the most non-sam chill party ever.
The big over the top teen fights are really quite fun.
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The jazz band at the country club is called the Valley Stardusters
Because Amanda knows about the '84 All Valley tournament and a lot of Miyagi stuff I always assumed she knew everything but then got confused when silver shows up and she knows nothing. But I think this is like the first (or at least early) clue that Daniel hasn't told her everything:
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Again, love Ali and Amanda
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Ali confirms that after the tournament they left each other alone.
Their rivalry was not why Ali and Daniel broke up.
Ali got into UCLA and ran into this guy she knew who went there, Daniel sees her talking to her friend and jumps to conclusions, Ali got upset and thinks maybe she egged him on. Daniel thought she was in love, but Ali told him she wasn't, just like she told him the breaks on Mr. Miyagi's car were going to go. (Johnny looks amused/pleased) Ali tells Daniel she hopes he didn't tell Mr. Miyagi it was her fault it crashed. Daniel mumbles his lie into his drink, which seems to be white wine. Johnny's drinking a beer with an orange wedge.
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Johnny relents and says maybe they both had their heads up their asses in high school and Amanda says her's in high school was so far up there she could see out her mouth.
Omg Kyler throwing Miguel into the like granite table behind the couch, straight against his back. Chris is ace at using things around him, literally picks up a pan in the kitchen to hit a guy, like he hit Mitch with a school book.
Mitch is fighting his 'friend' that was pretty much the other follower to Hawk.
Demetri is a giant compared to Nate and Bert who he's running with and kinda shoving them both out of the way and into each other. Saving them and also just picking Bert up who kicks other people. 🤣
Demetri using Eagle fangs as weapons 🤣🤣🤣🤣
I am also enjoying the rock version of carol of the bells
Demetri lands on the weird chair...speaking of which
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It is such a weird chair.
Mitch runs to check on him and try to help him get up before he gets pulled away. Some Eagle Fang Miyagi do bonding there.
There's a giant metal gate inside of the LaRusso house. Bert and Nate are thrown into a Christmas tree
Eli has gotten really good at moving and dodging out of the way. He breaks a vase over one of the background Miyagi-do kids heads.
Sam grabs a guy and throws him over the same granite table Kyler threw Miguel into, putting the lamp out and hitting the painting behind it.
While Tory and Sam finally spot each other Miguel is pinned against the wall getting just punched again and again by Kyler.
Sam runs, that same kid Hawk breaks a vase over his head tries to stop Tory from getting to sam but he's just brushed off, though he tries a second time so kudos to this unnamed kid she throws into a wall next to the fire place in the kitchen.
Tory's slow mo villain walk
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They also totally have a fan blowing on Tory for her hair.
Tory corners her in the dojo and kicks her in the face then grabs nunchucks
Amanda loving their night after starting the night hating like 10 people there is so delightful: I'm going to grab my jacket before I die of joy | You are my hero (To Ali)
Amanda giving Johnny a hug 🥺
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Ali: You two really enjoy fighting each other. Daniel: He's instigating and I'm just defending myself. Johnny: She knows first hand that's bullshit
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There's more than one side to every story, your side, your side, and then the truth.
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Ali reading them so well: You recognize parts of yourself in each other and maybe you don't always like what you see.
Point Mills for sure
The good times will always outweigh the bad for Ali.
Daniel truly has a good time every time he sits down with Johnny.
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Johnny's first Daniel. I also want to point out he stepped really far away to allow Daniel and Ali to have a private goodbye.
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Amanda and I counting that Ali got two hugs.
I didn't quite catch if nunchucks are on the wall at cobra kai now, but Tory knows how to use them. So I suppose Kreese must've taught her.
Tory breaks Mr. Miyagi's photograph.
Sam grabbing the bo staff makes sense, it can keep Tory at a distance, which is what she needs right now. The nunchucks are closer distance weapon.
Holding Demetri's just healed arm in the same position to break it.
Also Kyler beat the heck out of poor Miguel.
Hawk realizing that beating up his friends kinda sucks and Johnny and Miguel might be right.
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I love Hawk's turning point. He regretted breaking Demetri's arm, literally uses Demetri to vault over to knock out both Cobras and send the guy who'd held his arm back into a glass table breaking it.
Demetri understandably confused and retreating for every step forward Eli takes
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BINARY BROTHERS KICKING ASS
Literally using their held hands to kick ass. Demetri slides Hawk against the floor so he can pop up and kick someone. (I'm noticing that while Chris grabs things as weapons, Demetri uses other people as weapons 🤣)
For having never fought together before they both slide into teamwork really well, probably due to the childhood friendship
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Kyler literally will not leave Miguel alone. He's cornered him and beaten him up like 3 times. And seems to just keep picking him up and continuing to whale on him.
Damn those moves Miguel, it's a lot of flips and then in one punch to the face he knocks Kyler out and says "thanks for the motivation". 🤣
oooh sam uses her bo staff to disarm Tory's nunchucks and send them flying against another wall.
Miguel, Hawk, and Demetri run in to tell Tory and Sam to stop fighting, that the fight is over.
Tory says it'll never be over, calls Miguel and Hawk traitors and tells Hawk to watch his back.
Demetri pretty much instantly counters that with a very aggressive he won't have to he's got friends to watch it for him.
Our little trio is reunited. (Even though I think that was way too fast for Demetri to forgive Eli for BREAKING HIS ARM)
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lol Encino oaks for sure makes their staff dress up for holidays.
I love that Ali doesn't believe that Johnny's driving a '93 Dodge Caravan, aka a soccer mom car.
Amanda told Ali that Johnny's seeing a hot lady aka Carmen. Aka Amanda thinks Carmen is hot.
Johnny: Carmen is amazing Ali: If she's cool enough to make Johnny Lawrence speechless you better figure it out quick. Johnny: I know.
Johnny: I always screw things up. Ali: You didn't screw up today. Thanks for making me feel like a kid again (and also for making sure she had fun at the party that her parents made her go to. I think she managed to avoid her parents the whole time)
Johnny: We had our own little time machine. 💖
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a good long hug.
He offers to drive her but she has to go find her parents.
Ali: I will always be there for you, you know that right? Johnny: Me too. Ali: Get out of here, you have a future to find. Johnny: I do.
Johnny practicing what he's going to say: Carmen I figured it out. I'm ready. I love you.
He really needed that closure and a chance to talk to Ali.
Carmen opening the door looking upset and then the pan to Miguel and Johnny gets pissed with a what happened.
They pick the captain and Silver to fight but Silver doesn't want to, so Kreese volunteers.
The captain held onto the information that Betsy was dead until this point, telling Kreese he has nothing to live for, but that he, the captain does. "She wrapped her car around a tree driving to visit her grandmother in Pasadena."
I'm going to pt 2 this because I'm out of image space and the snakes and Daniel vs Kreese are coming and i have a feeling I'm going to need image space.
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echthr0s · 1 year ago
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tagged by @softtidesworld
I have many OCs but since I was tagged by a Far Cry/Fallout mutual I will do... the main Far Cry/Fallout OC! and also his brother, for funsies.
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name: Noah Marten Kingfisher
nickname: I don't think he has any, unless his sister has given him one that I don't yet know about
gender: inapplicable but most people regard him as male and he's fine with that reading
star sign: I haven't done natal charts for any OCs, unfortunately
height: somewhere in the vicinity of five feet, eight inches, I imagine
orientation: yes
nationality/ethnicity: USAmerican by citizenship, an African-diasporic mishmash by heritage
fave fruit: according to Preston, "cherry Nuka-Cola is NOT a fruit" 🙄🙄 but he is rather fond of berries (all kinds) and mango
fave season: autumn
fave flower: good question (he has a whole sunflower Theme going on but I don't know that that's actually his favourite flower! that motif is more about symbolism than actual preference)
fave scent: [orc voice] man flesh
coffee, tea or hc: cocoa all day
average hours of sleep: I... lmao man idk
dog or cat person: dog
dream trip: hmm
favorite fictional character: this is actually an excellent prompt but aside from knowing that Noah is a frequent comic book enjoyer I couldn't actually tell you what his favourite characters would be
number of blankets they sleep with: all of them
random fact: Noah is a CIT alum and would later (much, much later, lmao) return to that very same campus to eventually become Director of the Institute!
*✿❀○❀✿*
name: Gabriel
nickname: you don't give Gabriel nicknames. you just don't. he does take an epithet quite gracefully, though. "the Revelator" is a particular one that gets its fair share of hushed whispers throughout the Wasteland
gender: inapplicable but most people regard him as male and he's fine with that reading
star sign: [see above]
height: *waves hand around the "five feet, four inches" area*
orientation: aroace, we surmise. but we think this is mainly a result of severe trauma as opposed to being a neutral lack of attraction
nationality/ethnicity: I imagine nations don't really exist in the same way post-war, so I couldn't tell you. he's simply a Wanderer. I'm also not sure how to square ethnicity in a setting like that. he's Black, though. regardless.
fave fruit: [Ulysses voice: ''Dandy Boy Apples are NOT fruit. they are a mockery, a--"] [*immediately mutes ED-E*] dandy boy apples :)
fave season: it's all the same to him
fave flower: I think if given the space to really consider it, he'd like dandelions
fave scent: if the entire Mad Max franchise had a smell, that'd be it. Gabriel probably should have been a Mad Max character, honestly. he'd say so, at least
coffee, tea or hc: black coffee enjoyer
average hours of sleep: Gabriel doesn't sleep, he dreams /truedetective
dog or cat person: no
dream trip: anywhere off this blasted rock
favorite fictional character: *puts a pin in this one*
number of blankets they sleep with: also all of them. but it's because Ulysses has piled all of them on top of him
random fact: you wouldn't think so, but Gabriel got on like gangbusters with the kids from Little Lamplight. they fucking love him
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hikarry · 10 months ago
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Giving up on love is a very sad reality :( you believe in Azi and Crowley, so why not believe for yourself? You deserve to be loved too, Spencer
I love Aziraphale and Crowley's love but they are fictional and so is that type of fairy tale burning eternal passion type of love
I'm a romantic at heart. Fairy tale intense romance and eternal love is something I crave and I'm ready to give, but, let's face the facts: that type of love and relationship doesn't exist outside of fiction and, for as much as I'm ready to offer that type of romance and loyalty to someone, actual people live in a reality in which that type of love isn't actually real
The thing is, I don't want anything less than I deserve and I deserve to be loved intensely and fully. Yet that reality is fiction therefore actively chasing it is futile
I've had my more than a handful of relationships and my experience teached me no one truly wants to care for a broken vase. They want a simple and easy romance. I want a simple and easy romance. No drama. I'm one of those people too
But the truth is that no one truly wants or has the patience to see, acknowledge and try to understand and be careful with your broken parts
I am so damaged and scared of opening up fully to anyone again that what I truly need is someone that will take things very slow with me. Hold my hand and slowly help me find some of my missing parts. Put up with my bad side too. My very broken very damaged side. But no relationship is one sided. The other person will have their struggles and broken parts too and, deep down, we are too individualist to be able to multi task and hold both our and someone else's broken vase. It might work for a while but eventually our own struggles will surpass the other vase and we will grow detached
It's sad to say, but I trusted the wrong people and got myself thrown against the wall multiple times. I learned with each throw and moved on, but the trauma stayed. Until I work all my trauma regarding romantic relationships and pick up my missing pieces, I'm not fit for love. Even afterwards, I don't believe there is a living human that will be delicate enough to pick up my vase and carefully maneuver it and learn it like it deserves to be learned and cared for. People simply don't have the patience. They are searching for something whole and easy and I'm way way beyond that, even after I work all my problems
It might sound sad to you, but the truth is that I don't fit with the romance spectrum in our current circles anymore. And I'm fine with it. I'm fine with experiencing romance through fiction and dedicate all the love I had reserved for a significant other to my currently loved ones and my cat. I do in fact have a lot of love to give and an extreme need to care for something and my friends, family and especially my cat are fine enough deposits for all the love I have to give
I'm truly and honestly fine with not being loved like that or in any way at all. Romance is overrated anyway
Pets can love you much more than any person ever could and everything I'm fighting for is honestly to give a good home and future to my cat
Anyway, sorry for the rant. Your message is very sweet and thank you for caring, but I'm truly okay with not being fit to be loved by another person romantically. I've honestly got everything I've ever needed already and I'm perfectly happy with that
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Oof that was heavy. Jesus.
Here, have a picture of my cat to lift the mood. Her name is Alex and she is evil incarnate, but I love my beautiful daughter very much regardless
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memento-morri-writes · 1 year ago
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Hi, Morri! How are you doing? Have you been working on any specific project lately? Have you read/watched/played anything interesting lately? Had any cool DnD sessions? Has something inspired your writing?
ROSE, HI!!!!!!! HOW ARE YOU? I HOPE YOU'RE DOING WELL!!!! Have you watched or read anything interesting lately? Had anything inspire your writing? I hope school is going decently well!
Okay, sorry. Enough with the caps. I just have too much energy, lmao.
I'm doing good!! I survived another week of classes, so that's great. Now I don't have to worry about school until Monday. I do have a physics test next week, unfortunately. But at least after that we have Fall Break, and I get a 5-day weekend. (Friday-Tuesday.)
the rest of this is going under the cut, because I wrote an essay.
I haven't been working on much writing lately, so I've mostly been working on developing dnd characters. My one group is switching campaigns, so I needed to come up with a new character. She's a Fire Genasi Barbarian (path of the storm herald), and they're super badass. They fight with a quarterstaff instead of a regular barbarian weapon for uh... Secret Lore Reasons, and I love her dearly.
Last weekend I finally got my shit together and watched all three of the Lord of the Rings movies. My only regret is that I didn't watch the extended editions. :'( But that's a project for another time!!! Other than that, I've been slowly working my way through Baldur's Gate 3 and having a great time. I haven't done any reading recently, as I don't have any books with me and uni, but I have 3 or 4 books waiting for me when I go home for Fall Break, and two of them are written by people on writeblr!!!
DnD... where to begin... First off, all of my sessions are amazing and awesome, so it's hard to know where to start. But Rook has been starting to deal with his trauma regarding Captain Wolf, and the party has been pretty supportive! (There's a lot of trust issues going on right now, though, hahaha.) He got told about someone who beat Wolf in a duel, and he's determined to find him now. But that won't be for a WHILE yet. Our other campaign is getting ended and replaced, but Asola was having an interesting time. The party started interrogating her about her past. They meant well, and they wanted to help her get to the bottom of the whole "randomly started burning with holy light and then passed out" thing, but they ended up giving her a bit of an identity crisis by implying that she's not human and/or that her parents aren't actually her parents. (She isn't human, but her parents are actually her parents.) The 16 year-old ended up reading her mind, and seeing some of her most personal memories. Which led to the party having a very, very extended conversation with him about boundaries. (Sola told him that "No one deserves anything [just because they exist or say so]." talking about the fact that love and respect is something that people have to earn and deserve, not just be given by virtue of existing. I'd say for a girl with -1 wisdom, she's pretty wise.) We also found a magic flower that can reincarnate someone, and we put it in a rusty bucket, which we put inside our magic cat. (No, that's not a typo. I do mean cat.)
As for inspiring my writing, well, yeah. I'm always getting inspiration all the time. Karlach from bg3 was an unintentional inspiration for my new dnd character, Cyra. After watching LOTR, I'm eager to write some high-fantasy shenanigans. Playing DnD makes me more and more eager to someday write High Fantasy WIP, assuming that I can get it right.
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the-awful-falafel · 2 years ago
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Love reading your analyses on Rick and Morty, but I have very little context as I've never watched the show before. I've been very busy since it aired back in 2013 trying to get rid of a terrible cockroach infestation. I'm wondering what your opinion on Prime Rick is? In relevance to him also being Morty's grandpa.
I feel like I have no opinion on Rick Prime at this point, honestly.
He's... there. He exists as a distant antagonist we can root for our Rick to hunt down to complete his revenge quest, his proverbial white whale that he's pinned all his trauma resolution on. This plot thread does have the potential to be lowkey hilarious if it's revealed Prime and C-137 were friends or dating or whatever (which, as an aside, would be such an asshole move on our Rick's part) but, just based on what we have canonically, I've got nothing.
Even the potentially interesting aspect of Rick Prime being our Morty's "real" grandfather feels like a nothing detail to me, considering our Morty has never met or known him at all so there's literally no connection whatsoever. Our Morty's already been so fucked up by experiences with our Rick that trying to introduce a newer, worse Rick into his history almost feels like a distraction, in an annoying and tone-deaf "hey, cheer up, it could be worse! just appreciate the family you have :)))" sort of way.
It's also that I don't think Rick Prime is introducing a particularly novel paradigm shift or new dynamic to the story? Compared to Evil Morty, who presented a complete inversion and deconstruction of the R&M relationship just by existing, Rick Prime is basically just "our Rick, but worse, more OP, and ACTUALLY gives no shits". My most cynical interpretation is that Rick Prime mainly exists to make Rick C-137 look better in comparison by externalizing his character flaws + self-loathing conflict, plus to exonerate him of past transgressions by making Prime the real Rick behind the abandonment of Beth / failing marriage with Diane, but I've been feeling that since the full tragic backstory was revealed, anyway, so I digress.
In general I just think Rick Prime is sort of... boring, and needs fleshing out. I don't get the sense that he's plotting anything major, I just get the impression he's a petty dick who spent half his life fucking with Rick C-137 (almost analogous to our Rick fucking with the devil in that one season 1 episode) and that the threat he poses is exclusively tied to their cat-and-mouse game, while Morty is just an accessory dragged into it with no personal investment and would be much better off ignoring the conflict entirely. Sorry if my thoughts are a bit incoherent, lol.
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moonlit-orchid · 2 years ago
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Hello, i hope you've had a good day so far and happy new year!
Do you have any headcanons for Astral or any other characters? They can be sweet and fluffy and/or absolutely heartbreaking and angsty
And how do think Astral would react to his first holiday on earth? (E.g. Easter, Halloween, Christmas etc..)
I hope you have a good 2023!!
Hi hi hi! Happy New Year to you too!
Headcanons, headcanons, oh boy!
First, for other characters:
Shark's main response to anything is 'Your mom'. God knows why. It got to a point where every answer was 'Your mom'. Example:
Yuma: Can we duel??
Shark: Your mom.
Teacher: Did you do your homework?
Shark: Your mom.
Whenever anyone of h̶i̶s̶ the kids start a fight with the other, or just misbehave in general, Chris just picks em up, and holds them at arms length like cats, and takes them away. Unless it's Girag. For obvious reasons.
Don Thousand's favourite hobby is randomly yeeting any one of the three kids across any room. However, he always makes sure to never yeet Astral too far or too hard, that child gets hurt so easy. He'll give Yuma reasonable yeets. But Mist? God knows how he'd alive
For all his faults, Eliphas's greatest redeeming quality is his generosity. Is he very strict about what Astral buys? Yes. But will he give huge amounts of money without blinking an eye? Also yes.
Don's the opposite. He doesn't care what the kids buy, so long it's not his money being spent.
Dumon's Irish. I don't care what you say, he's Irish.
Trey will give anyone kisses as long as 1) they're comfortable with it and 2) they aren't Quattro, Vector, and Mizar (he doesn't like Vector because of Yuma and Astral, and he doesn't like Mizar because of their duel...and Mizar winds him up)
Back to Eliphas, he is actually pretty aware of what he's done to everyone, especially to Astral. The guilt kills him. This is probably why he refuses to outwardly accept any blame for his actions: he's instinctively trying to hide what he's really feeling because he's just really bad at showing them.
He also does genuinely love Astral, but again, he just can't make himself show it. He'll say sweet things to Astral when the boy's deep in sleep, and will even kiss his forehead, but can never do it when Astral's awake, and he hates himself for it. It would help fix so many of Astral's problems, but not only is he unable to do it, he doesn't realise how deep Astral's trauma is.
As for Astral (you KNOW I am a freaking headcanon FOUNTAIN when it comes to the glowy)
His favourite colour is yellow, because it reminds him of Utopia/Hope, and honey (Beestral exists)
He also likes honeybees, although large bumblebees kinda freak him out
(This one's angsty) When he eventually moved full time to Earth into a flat shared with Kite, Shark, and Yuma, he wanted to cut his hair short, because Yuma did. He thought it would look nice, but anytime he thought of doing it, or anything to develop any sort of style of his own, he'd remember Eliphas's words from his childhood, how Eliphas criticised his appearance, his scarred eye in particular, "look how you shamed your eye, do you want to shame the rest of you?" and he just couldn't do it. Eventually the others noticed, and Rio took him to get his hair cut, and new clothes he really wanted to wear.
Speaking of, the silver eye becomes a white scar across his entire eye in human form.
It's not noticeable in the winter, because he becomes very pale in the winter, but in the summer he tans heavily, and the scar stands out.
Also said scar sometimes aches. He used to just ignore it, but now Yuma refuses to let him suffer through it, and will give him both medicine and kisses (PLATONIC KISSES)
He knows how to use a gun. And is badass with one.
He also has a strange habit of taking little daggers with him with him wherever he goes. God knows why. Even Eliphas has no idea what caused this habit.
Because loud noises can remind him of the explosions in Astral World, Mirai bought Astral headphones, which he keeps with him all the time, not just because he needs them, but because it was a gift.
Astral gets so so so awkward whenever someone uses a pet name for him or give him a gift, he almost looks uncomfortable, but really he's just trying not to cry because 'oh my gosh they actually love me?!'
When he and Yuma fight, Yuma is very very careful about how hard he actually pushes him; he doesn't wanna hurt him, and Astral, despite the fact he's got a mean slap, is just soft with him in general. Their fights are usually just them squeezing the other's cheeks, ruffling the other's hair, or soft wrestling.
Now, Astral's first holiday:
Honestly, I don't think it matters which holiday is his first, I think the reaction would be the same for pretty much all. Basically, Yuma would have broken down all the holiday traditions to him, and Astral would have understood that holidays are times for family togetherness.
When holiday time comes around, Astral notices the atmosphere, and he and Yuma chat a bit about it, and how Yuma can't wait to do all the fun things he does with his family. And Astral being Astral automatically assumes that Yuma means the others.
Then the holiday comes along.
And Yuma asks Astral to join them for dinner, or a tradition, and Astral is utterly confused for several minutes. Then he finally gets it.
Yuma sees him as part of the family.
They all see him as part of the family.
He cries for a while. He has never felt this before, and he can't believe this is for real. But it is.
He has a family now, and he's happy.
Hooo boyyyyy, this has become so long! Holy crap, yikes! Anyway, I hope you liked reading this really long post! Have a happy new year and I hope you enjoy 2023 too!
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generalluxun · 1 year ago
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I hope it's not untoward to jump in, I think the Adrien angle has been well covered but the OP mentioned other subjects and hey, why not discuss them?
Lila-her transformation is... Meh? Like, she hadn't been fleshed out enough for me to be upset. Her lies were always ridiculous, her plots were always just 'because we said so' and her having 43 mothers 57 identities, and an evil lair? Sure, why not. She's not a person, she's a trope. I figure they wanted to avoid another Chloé mistake(humanizing a hate sink) and just made her so unbelievable that 'Supervillain' is the only thing that fits. The fact that she's a teen girl and only the two teen girls are 'absolute evil' is a whole different discussion worth having bit it isn't this one.
Nathalie- Isn't actually fridged? Fridging involves the injury being for the trauma/motivation of the male/important character. Gabriel cared for like... An episode or two. Her condition is more to play for sympathy in the audience leading up to her 'redemption' and to give her a reason to turn on Gabe. It's 'poor Nathalie, look what she did for love! She's just so loving and good and forget about the fact she hired Cash to kill Sifu and killed Sentibug'
Cat Noir Crush-yeah, they murdered the lovesquare quickfast to get to Adrienette, then retconned in the traumaplot for several episodes. S5 really feels like a final season where they wanted to hit all the points instead of pacing them out. I'm guessing it was written before S6-8 were greenlit. Is it unfortunate? Yes. Elation's Marichat is basically my favorite part of S5.
Zoé- I've talked about her lots. Maybe not on tumblr? She's such a pointless character *who did not have to be* If all they needed was a blonde not-Chloé kinda bratty girl Aurore was *right there* to be tapped in. Unrequited crush on Marinette? Kagami. 'Protection' is basically the perfect setup for a Kagami based 'Adoration'. The *only* narrative purpose for introducing a 4th season half-sister into the Bourgeois family is to *be a catalyst for change* and I don't mean for the whiny rich white man. It even looked like Zoé might... Then they just did nothing with her. She is a character who exists only by what she carves out of other people's stories. The most interesting part of canon!Zoé is how her Wasp-namesake fits how she invaded and took over the hive like a parasite. She could have been so much more.
Cheating- they ignore *both* parties cheating in NYC. Luka drops Marinette off and you can still *see him out the bus window* when she starts gagaing at Adrien. Setting the NYC between seasons was such a weird choice. It was the only time they were both taken. Audrey's infidelity is one of those 'we are ignoring it because we also ignored how Chloé having a sister only a yr younger than her when we already showed her mother leaving a toddler Chloé while not looking pregnant is really weird' it's a hole they're just paving over. Bad? Yeah. Par for the course though.
Weird events-S5 is a mess of 'wouldn't it be cool if' and creator indulgences. Again, if it were a final season it kind of makes sense? I don't *like* a lot of the choices but I can see why you go wild with your finalé material. I expect a big reset for S6. They need to build up a new status quo and somehow break this 'utopia' they created. Utopias may be fun to live in, but they're very boring to watch. There's a reason Star Trek follows the people out on the fringes, not the prople hanging back chilling on post-scarcity earth.
These are all my opinions etc etc. feel free to tag me if you want to split any off to their own discussions.
There does seem to be a trend in the specific sect of this fandom that I circulate where people are only openly against writing decisions that impede Adrien's role in the story. Nothing was ever discussed on my dash about the following:
Lila's bizarre transition from a normal mean teenage girl (a strong narrative antagonist for Marinette's civilian conflict) to a weird Machiavellian criminal
Nathalie's (and Emilie's of course, but I'm saltier about it with Nathalie) role in the story being a prime example of a Fridged Woman
The way Marinette's long-coming crush on Cat Noir was tossed aside after two episodes
Zoe still not bringing anything to the narrative
The weird undiscussed presence of cheating in relationships in this whole show (Adrien apparently cheating on Kagami with Marinette in the NYC special, Audrey Bourgeois blatantly having cheated on her husband)
The increasingly bizarre events in this show that, to me, clearly just exist to make people go :O, not unlike how shows like Riverdale became increasingly bizarre over the course of their run in order to get viewers because they knew they couldn't grab viewers with their mediocre premise alone (Chloe becoming mayor, Felix and Kagami's weird little play, etc)
There's a lot more I wanted to add here, but figured were more my opinion than an actual Thing to be discussed.
Never saw any of this discussed in my circle of Tumblr, but I HAVE seen an absolute ton of discussion surrounding Adrien's screen time, Adrien's family dynamics, Adrien's role as a hero, Adrien's internal struggles, and how the writers apparently don't explore any of those things to their full potential.
And it makes me wonder why people are so fixated on him. Because I'm sorry to say this, but I've personally always seen him as a pretty unremarkable character. Don't misconstrue my words and say I said I don't like him, because I do like him. But I hardly consider him the most interesting character in the show.
My theory? He's just an easy character to fixate on, for the following reasons:
None of his struggles come from his financial, racial/cultural, or other kind of protected background, meaning discussions on his struggles don't have to be "difficult."
The fact that his primary antagonist is his father (as his father, and not as Hawk Moth) means fans can easily take the "I want to adopt him and give him a good home" route of character analysis
He's perpetually positive, meaning it doesn't require a lot of mental energy to like him-- he can just be a lovable "sunshine boy" to people.
On the rare occasion he IS upset, fans become obsessed, because who doesn't love more emotional depth?
When he's positive/nonplussed about something that he morally should be upset at, fans can easily explain it away as a result of his upbringing.
He's cute. There's no way to talk around this. He's got big green eyes and baby cheeks and flippy blond hair and a soft voice and cute habits like scratching his neck when he's nervous. The first three things are traits character designers often employ to get audiences to like their characters. The last two things are examples of things you can do to get people to subconsciously like you irl. This part is just psychology, and it makes me wonder if people would be affected by all the above points if he didn't look the way he does.
I'm not saying it's a bad thing to like Adrien for any of the above reasons. I just want some people to think about their opinions of this show and ask themselves whether they feel as strongly about other writing decisions as they do about the ones that "hurt" Adrien, and, if they don't, why they feel so drawn to Adrien in the first place. Because it's definitely not because the show does him dirtier than everyone else.
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