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Really gotta love how they never hid the fact that they were gonna pair kit and randolph
#like im sorry the most eligible bachelor#the comment on the irish man#shed not shown to be like that w anyone but him#also the lip bite ????#all in her first season ???#they either planned for them to sleep together or to be love interests from the start#i refuse to believe they didnt sleep together that valentines night#we know they both sleep around#well we didnt full know about her yet#but we could guess#anywaysss#kit voss#kitbell#im late as hell to them i know leave me alone
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#he doesn't want to fight with you ai di, he wants to Kissššš„ŗ
Nat Chen as CHEN YI KISEKI: DEAR TO ME (2023)
#kiseki: dear to me#kisekiedit#kdtm#kiseki dear to me#chen yi x ai di#ai di x chen yi#nat chen#chen bowen#louis chiang#chiang tien#jiang dian#userspring#uservid#userrain#userspicy#userjjessi#*cajedit#*gif#okay i made this specifically for the 3rd gif bc chen yi's expressions are making me giggle nonstop i was doubled over in tears last night#HE JUST WANTS TO KISS!! AI DI HE LOVES YOU LET HIM HIT IJDKSKG#okay real talk though the fact that he actually gives ai di space 90% of the time. lets him hang out at the bar#like he isnt following him around or constantly dogging him about giving him an answer not does he ever rly ACCUSE ai di of anything#he uses the zhang teng excuse to keep ai di from avoiding him but he doesnt try to keep him where he can see him constantly.#he lets ai di do his own thing and just spends time connecting the dots during the moments ai di comes back of his OWN VOLITION#& he slowly puts together what ai di is refusing to admit and makes his own intentions known without putting them in words either#besides stating his observations (& watching ai di react). Every interaction between them when ai di gets out of prison is like that#gifs 1&2 vs 4&5... letting ai di pull away because he doesnt know whats going on vs pulling him back both to say hey we arent done-#& say im still here FOR YOU - to see how ai di reacts being so close to chen yi after finding him hugging his jacket in his sleep#and then once hes Figured It Out he still keeps the space!! sends gifts... he only Acts when ai di comes back to him himself!!!!#and this time he's READY. and a simp. like. PLS the last 2 gifs..........dude. he wants to kiss so bad
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i need to chew on him like i used to chew on pens as a little larva. then i will shake him around and swing him above my head like heās a ceiling fan
#troy miller#i am half asleep and i want to sleep but i also want a glass of milk. we do not have any milk left because mother used it for cooking.#i wanted milk. or tea. i should make myself some tea. iāll give you all cups and pour some tea for you youāll have a little tea party.#it can be an animal themed tea party. iāll be a bull or perhaps a bear. both beautiful creatures which i love#also i think about troy miller and his voice. i like his voice i wish my voice sounded like that. i would feel better if i sounded like tha#i also think his dreams to join the army are interesting. he likes violence on tv he likes the army. i know so many people like him#sorry for talking in the tags iām trying to keep myself awake by moving around because im standing up and i donāt want to fall asleep#wait does he say army or military
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qsmp francophone cubitos and their dynamic drive me wild, they all know theyāre mutually lying and obscuring the truth to one another, they all know theyāre keeping each other at armās distance, they all know theyāre not as open as they once were when it was just them and the aftermath of a plane crash, but the love is still there. the worry and the concern. they pry information out of one another in supposedly subtle ways that really just convey how much they still care about each other. whatās your stance on the federation. howās your code arm doing. even if in the end you donāt turn to me, please call out to someone. maybe looking out for yourself is looking out for others as well. i donāt know you anymore but i will protect the unknown anyway
#qsmp#qsmp french#jay rambles#i need to go sleep . said iād go to sleep ages ago . rotating them in my mind anw . fawk#itās like. they KNOW theyāre not being frank with one another. and itās almost a game they play#i ask you this question and you know what i mean . but i will not say it outright .#for how long can we dance around the topic until one of us spills the obvious out into the open air#<- etoiles broke first btw lmao . and he and baghera went right back to pretending like neither of them knew any better too#insane of them . fuck#(for context it was about bbh and ron . both him and baghz were prodding at each other trying to gauge how much the other knew#and etoiles at one point just said āoh my god i know you know baghera !!! please !!!!ā it was a very validating moment for french cubito#enjoyers . right until they went back to pretending nothing had happened . win)#shoutout to like two months ago when etoiles said smth along the lines of how baghera isnāt telling him everything bc she doesnāt trust him#i will explode and explode and explode#antoineās whole Thing early on about being distrustful and wary of others and how it hurt that he wasnāt always told everything anymore#a slow unraveling of the status quo that you donāt even realised has happened until you look around you
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Iām having normal thoughts about boys right now ok (I have a deep visceral need to hunt someone through the forest, nothing but the sound of him gasping and breaking through the brush with his heartbeat thrumming like an animal of its own in his chest and in my ears, my paws beating against the earth as I race after him, teeth clicking and practically foaming at the mouth at his scent. Just him and me in the dead of night. And when I finally catch him I pin him to the ground and fuck his brains out under the full moon <3 )
I can be left alone with a pretty guy in the middle of the night under a full moon. Yeah just leave him by the forest :) no yeah donāt worry abt it haha yeah Iām just gonna go out for a run :) it will be good for me and also him. Enrichment :) being hunted by a big werewolf counts as a couples exercise right
#yeah ok Iām on my blood moon right now Iāll admit#anyways I donāt know what the otherkin equivalent of monsterfucking is.#Iām a monsterfucker in the way that Iām a monster and I want to fuck other monsters or humans. But not in a āhuman who wants to get#fucked by monstersā way.#cough. Anyways.#*gripping the sink gritting my fangs trying to be normal* pleaseeee I need to run through the forest completely unrestrained and free#I need to chase someone and hunt without killing someone bc I feel bad about hurting animals and people#pleaseee it would be so good for me to hunt a guy and fuck his brains out at the end#I promise Iāll take care of him afterwards and lick his bite wounds and wash the bramble scratches clean and put the bluey bandaids on#afterwards. Iāll give him a nice bath and water after he ran all that way through the woods. Giving him blue gatorade.#and then I take him to bed and curl up around him and we sleep together like#that scene from totoro. just sleeping on a big fluffy werewolf. Pleaseeee it would be so good for me so so good#itās enrichment ok?? Itās for my mental health!! And we both get to exercise together like thatās basically hiking right guys??#itās a great couples bonding activity to be hunted by your werewolf boyfriend right#monster fucker#monsterfucker#trans werewolf#werewolf tag#blood moon bite#< my hornyposting tag#terato#terat0philliac#teratophillia
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tag vent
#i have to move back to my hometown due to a mistake. a misunderstanding. and being too trusting in others ideas#and my boyfriend is moving an hour away as well. neither of us have been able to get a car or license yet due to money and i dont know when#we can see eachother again after we both move. since we started dating weve been sleeping in the same bed because we were/are roommates#just being gone for the weekend in my hometown is hard because i cant stand to be here but its worse because hes not in my bed every night#ive grown so used to falling alseep in his arms that i dont know what to do at night. i dont feel safe without his arms holding me#ive never felt safe where ive lived before. ive never felt safe in a relationship. ive never felt loved for who i am. that was until him.#now i feel safe in our home. i feel safe in our relationship. i feel loved for who i am. and now we have to be so far apart.#ive done long distance before but this is going to hurt so much my cat loves him she is super cautious and scared around new people but#she loved him since the start. not to mention shes my esa so that really mattered to me. he wants to move with me but it isnt happening#he got definite housing an hour away for super cheap in a town where he knows everyone and i have possible in a town where im surrounded by#people i know but am terrified of. im scared to move back here but have no choice. unless i make that terrifying choice of going with him.#the apartment he is getting is a two bedroom. id only have a studio. hes offered for me to come but im scared to move that far away again#i want to be with him but im scared to move to a whole new town with him. i know hes an amazing guy but we'd be moving away from my friends#and family. i already have to move away from all my friends if i go back to my hometown but this would be a different story.#moving to a whole new town with a guy that i only started dating 2 months ago? like yes. i lived with him previously and knew him for longer#than we dated but im still scared. i think rightfully so. but still.#but there are some pros to moving with him. hometown has no music scene and his town does and thats really important to me.#we'd also be close to his family. but farther from mine. hed be around friends and id have none no matter where i go.#idk im just rambling but i really needed to vent. i lost my best friend recently to the point of them siding with strangers almost and they#helped them break and enter into the house to intimidate me and bf and then a few days later came with cops after saying repeatedly that#they were an anarchist and acab but only when they dont use them apparently. because i guess morals/values only matter when its convenient#im so tired though but i cant sleep so i might write some cringe poetry and try to chill out before going on a late night/early morning walk#tag vent#vent in tags
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I think some of y'all (people in uni) were never 15 and read, "we accept the love we think we deserve" and sobbed while reading perks of being a wallflower and it shows
#gift giving is not a competition to some of us bestie#love is not conditional#dont make me overwhelmed by making our mutual friends bday a fucking competition#thank god her best friend also agrees and we are both her best friends so we know#but just why are people so#like this insecurity with love is so insane#people who want to see your love will see your love at the end of the day and if they don't keep being the lighthouse around please#anyway in other good news spoke to the cool batchmate i always wanted to talk more with and she was also like bro i love having convos with#you lets hangout and so we ate dinner walked and talked about history partition cultural stories my ex friend's bisexuality crisis which was#so similar to hers also takked about my cultural crisis family stories her firefly house urdu poetry her boyfriend my career pospects#so yayy i guess but so tired presentation was good prof questioned a lot cause he literally knows my source text authors its his friend in#uni and this girl said he'll take us out for drinks on last day of course so yayyyyyyy#my roomie and her bf constantly talk eh that is but i am gonna shower play my playlist till i sleep#today has been something but atleast i will have dinner with a new person tomorrow as well so yayyyy#life is just being very overwhelmed lately and i just hope people i love know that i love them and i am missing them even though#they live a floor above from me or live miles away too actually#eni life stories
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Honestly the one thing that really frustrates me about Hyrule Warriors is how they cut Linkle being Link's sister, because otherwise it would have recontextualized Warriors entirely as a character.
This is mainly just headcanon territory, but something always bugged me about him being a knight in training from the get go, mainly because it's usually never any Link's first choice with First, Sky and Wild being the main exceptions (Gaepora took him in, and Gaepora runs the knights academy, makes sense he'd want to join then plus he'd probably want to protect Sun, plus Skylofts knights function differently than Hyrule knights, they don't have the same hierarchy and Skyloft is pretty peaceful before SS truly picks up so again, makes sense he wouldn't have troubles joining, we don't know First's reasons besides him seeing evil on the horizon and deciding if no one's was gonna do anything about it he might as well do it himself, and Wild was basically recruited at a young age for pulling the Master Sword while presumably young, he was never given a choice), we see it with Four, he's a blacksmiths apprentice under his grandfather and we see in his manga him practically baring his teeth at his father he won't become a knight and he doesn't pick up the sword unless really necessary, we see that with Time, he was raised as a Kokiri, he dreamt of adventure already from the drawings we see in his room, but he could always just become an adventurer if he wanted to though of course we see that change with the Hero's Shade, I'll come back to that, Wind? Was content living in Outset with Aryll before Ganon decided to fuck around and found out really hard, Legend was also a blacksmiths apprentice and adventurer and he only takes up knight training in the manga because Sir Raven inspired him, like even if he didn't want to be a knight the training would still serve him well (and lo and behold the advice pays off given all the shenanigans mostly caused by divine beings Legend gets saddled with), Hyrule obviously leaves in a very hostile world so he wouldn't even have ANY time to think about knight training, he's self taught because he'd literally die if he wasn't given monsters need his blood to ressurect Ganon so it's honestly a unique case of technically self defense, either he learned to hunt or he'd remain hunted, Twilight is the same case as Wind's, Ganondorf fucked around and found out with the wrong older sibling's people plus the protagonists heavily implied love interest(s) and got shafted into next week, him and Dusk don't have a personal connection besides Midna for him to stick around much and we see him go back to Ordon, so no knighthood there, so why was Warriors different? What motivated him?
I think Linkle being his younger sister would have been the answer.
Long post ahead, continue under your own risk
I know lots of people characterize Warriors as being of a noble line and joined the knights at the urging of his father, but let's not forget most Links are orphans so thinking Wars is an exception is a pipe dream. So that's out, however, in medieval times knights actually get plenty of benefits since they work mostly for lords, ladies and the local crown, being a knight is synonymous with being a noble or at least having a decent life at the cost of serving someone else and the Hyrulean knights don't really have any requisites before joining (though we do see long lines of knights exist, which some Links are descended from without their knowledge, so it's not farfetched to think that a good chunk of the knights of Hyrule qualify as members of noble houses loyal to the Hyrulean crown, would also explain their why they're ineffective a lot of the time too, if most of them grew noble and Hyrulean isn't war seeking {most of the time} then they wouldn't have any real experience), it would be a good way for Warriors to support himself as he climbs up the ranks, and most importantly, someone else, because he'd need to make that money to feed Linkle if she's his younger sister because most Links who take on elder sibling roles are at their best when trying to protect their younger siblings (Wind with Aryll, Twilight with Collin, to an extent Legend and Gulley, all Links are at their best when fighting/protecting someone else), Linkle could grown up without restrictions and he could support them both, making them work harder than other knights because he's already at a disadvantage.
Making it so he's in the perfect place at the right time to get noticed by Artemis before the War of Ages, and give him a reason to go against orders and fight rather than standby like other traineƩs, being discovered as the Hero in the process.
And as a result since Mask is in the war too, he gets inspired by Warriors (who as an older brother would definitely just snatch him, Wind, Tetra and heck even the Skull Kid under his wing because no way is he letting children younger than even his own little sister fight alone) and eventually becomes a knight too after presumably stopping his search for Navi or using his knight status to search more effectively, which gives us the Time we see in LU who eventually become the Hero's Shade, which trains Twilight. Because he looked up to Warriors while younger.
I just think it's a huge missed opportunity with a lot of room for angst/hurt comfort/drama, and also opportunities for Warriors, Legend and Wild to bond over not really liking the knights because they've all not likely been treated well by his fellow knights while young even though he himself is one, and that Warriors would absolutely be one of the first to throw hands if he heard another soldier talk badly about any of the Links, in this essay I will-
#linked universe headcanons#lu warriors#been replaying Hyrule Warriors while sleep deprived and this suddenly came to me while mid drinking coffee#we really need more Warriors appreciation and big sibling Warriors around here#I Shall Not Tolerate Warriors Slander#Twilight and Time own my entire heart and soul but he's pretty neat#The inherent tragedy of unknowingly helping guide your younger sibling to roam aimlessly as a spirit until his descendant pacifies him#all because all you did was for your younger sibling and you tried so so hard to protect the boy who'd become the man behind the ghost#Feels like that'd be a punch to the gut for Warriors and Twilight both once the Realizationā¢ hits#Linkle and Mask/Time and Wind both being little shit siblings to Warriors and bullying him into resting my beloveds#Artemis/Sheik joining in because meddler is her/their middle name#Legend Warriors Four and Wild both disliking the knights for a variety of reasons but only Warriors is passive aggressive about it#Until someone bad mouths one of his shield brothers that is then he's as feral as any Link#It's all about giving Warriors more depth ya know?#Summer's Sleep Deprived LU Ramblings
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kunikida but he sleepwalks and every year around the anniversary of the azure king case for like a week or so his sleepwalking becomes violent
at first no one knows how to handle it. if left unchecked he was aggressive at best and physically violent at worst. they don't understand what's happening right away and kind of just chalks it up to bad memories and tries to give him his space. knkd himself knows he sleepwalks but isn't particularly aware of spike of violence while sleepwalking until ranpo or something bring it up nonchalantly a few months later
it isn't until after Dazai joins and tries waking him up (resulting in a Bad case of confusion arousal and maybe him getting even physically attacked) that they all realize just how bad it is and decide to do something about this
so now every year around the anniversary of the case everyone pays close attention to Kunikida, making sure he gets plenty of rest, eats well, stays hydrated to help limit how much he sleepwalks
on the anniversary of the actual day (when it's worst), they'll arrange a little agency sleepover together where they'll all spend a night together in one place and just all be there for him to make sure he (and everyone else) stays safe in the night and guide him back should he get up and start sleep walking
#inspired by this one time my sibling slept-sprinting into my room jumped right beside my bed and stared down at me while muttering threats#in their sleep - (guided em back to bed and we were both ok But Man that was Intense)#and also by just all the other times I've helped them when I found em wondering around-#and my own?? annual nightmare ??#(I have the same nightmare I have around the same time halloween each year and I do not know why ough)#anyway more characters should sleep walk /talk /have sleep related disorders in general-#I wonna see a character handle sleep paralysis cuz its funky af KFHFJH I am such a sleep paralysis kinda guy#WAI TKJFFJKH unstoppable force (sleep-running sibling) vs immovable object (sleep paralysis guy) who will win FJHFK#we're not even biologically related why do we both have sleep issues </3#kite watches bsd#bsd#kunikida doppo
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Did sleeping help
No </3
#vent#tsk. isnāt it like. if you hate everything then eat#if you think everyone hates you then sleep#if you hate yourself take a shower?#sooooooooo. uhhhhhhh. didnt. work?#hng. artfight... I was so excited I have so many ideas#but itās like. everything is triggering me or making me upset or freaked out or sick. idk what to do#I go āoh lemme see what my friends have done so farā and then I see an oc from someone not my friend anymore and Iām like. ougghhh#I feel like such a baby for caring. stupid for being upset still. itās like it only mattered to me and no one else had to deal with such#crippling anxiety and stress because of it#everyone is getting so much done so fast and I STILL canāt submit the second thing I did. Iām going to lose my head or cry or both or die or#SOMETHING uhhhhhhggggggg and itās like all my anxieties are circling back around cus it was this time last year shit hit the fan#I have college!! I have no clue what my plans are!! all Iām good for is making fake people and drawing said people!!#Iām such a fucking. stupid.. I wasnāt even supposed to take this last semester off. we just didnāt know what other classes to take or what#to focus on... Iāve been literally free all day every day since December and itās like Iām STILL not doing anything worthwhile#mmm Iām so alone in this I canāt DEAL well I guess Iāve been ādealingā but I donāt believe thinking about bad situations literally every day#since theyāve happened can be considered as ādealingā with it. I doubt anyone else is thinking about it that hard but I canāt help it#I canāt do a complete cut off from the internet. my only friends are here! what then? then Iām just. some sad sack who doesnāt talk to#anyone? mmm this isnāt a good way to start the day but I canāt NOT think. itās all I do. my brain is one of the things that makes be I canāt#self labotomize myself into being a chiller person without killing everything that makes me with it#ugh. Iām going to be stuck in this headspace forever. even with apologies and make ups or agreements to stay apart#Iāll still be the one dealing with the negatives and fallout from shitty situations. funny seeing as I still donāt understand how things#even escalated so fast. but whatever. Iām the bad wolf forever. canāt change that
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part 2 of tkm highlights
I apparently had no commentary on chapter 17 or the epilogue but I DID lose my mind. anyway. craziest thing about these books is definitely the fact the british gangsters seriously showed up completely coincidentally and nothing different is ever confirmed. evidently not what I was expecting
the brits know how to pull up šššššŖšŖšŖšŖšŖ
#would you not also be homophobic if you were in aaron's position? be honest#ALSO OMG THE TROJANS I FORGOT THEY DID THAT IN THEIR GAME!!! I LOVE THEM SO MUCH!!!#can u see why i was jerejean posting the other day like them as a ship is HILARIOUS to me#jean 'traumatised within an inch of my life' moreau and jeremy 'exy is about the friends we make along the way :)' knox. WHAT#crackship bc they put crack in the ship#ALSO YEAH THE SLEEPOVER! LITERALLY A CANON SLEEPOVER! WHERE WAS MY ANDREW POV#I WANT TO KNOW HOW THAT FELT TO HIM BOTH AS SOMEONE WHOSE CHILDHOOD WAS TAKEN FROM HIM#SO HE DOESNT HAVE THE BASIC CHILDHOOD MEMORIES OF FRIENDSHIP AND SLEEPOVERS AND SILLINESS#AND ALSO AS SOMEONE WHO IS SO UNCOMFORTABLE SLEEPING AROUND OTHERS THAT HE WAKES VIOLENTLY#EACH AND EVERY TIME YEARS LATER. WHAT WAS THAT LIKE FOR HIM. DID IT HEAL SOMETHING IN HIM#DO THEY MAKE IT A REGULAR OCCURENCE. SLUMBY SATURDAYS WITH THE FOXES?? HELLO??#NORA ANSWER YOUR DOOR IM NOT GONNA STOP KNOCKING THE RESTRAINING ORDER MEANS NOTHING TO ME HELLOOO#ask#aftg
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finally getting a chance to work on chapter 15 today :-)
#shout out AS ALWAYS to people leaving comments!!!! you are keeping me motivated you are keeping the dream alive#for some behind the scenes: in the last few weeks i've been barely sleeping and it makes it very hard to write or even be in a good mood#i usually need 11+ hours to function and so like. 2-3 hours a night is putting me in a bad place both mentally and physically#and yes i realize 11 or more hours is like a silly amount of sleep but idk. it's just how i am. i go to bed early AND sleep in ahaha.#i've been falling behind in all my classes due to the sleep thing so writing for fun has totally been off the table lol#ANYWAYS#typing typing typing (this chapter will be a lighthearted one)#we all need some fluff and levity i think (and i need to give time for Riku to care for Sora even more and be like. wow. i love you)#I was struggling earlier bc i wanted to write both about how Sora has been hiding darkness from loved ones and needs to let them in#but also with the idea of sora feeling that he needs friends to have strength or value. and i kind of realized i needed to pick one#like maybe a better writer than me could have both of those things be addressed at once but for me i was like... I want Riku to comfort him#which goes against him learning that he's fine on his own. we can address that in a different fic. rn he is just sad and needs to know#that he can share that with the people around him. and that he's still loveable despite it all#also shout out to my gf for teaching me ālove isn't something you deserve that's not what love isā like. i did not know that b4 her#so I asked her lots of questions for chapter 14 actually cause I was like. i want Riku to support Sora in the way you'd support me#cuz IDK SHIT ABOUT THAT i have always felt unworthy of love and like i had to beg people to stay with me until i got into this relationship#so i was like. judy. what is your wisdom. how do you care for me when i feel like my pain makes me unloveable. what would you say#So yeah shout out to her! I am off on a tangent now hehe sorry. thanks for reading if you read this at all!! have a good day :)#jtsys fic#updates
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Itās literally almost 4 in the morning and Iām still thinking about the potential Waffle TheOwlHouse has as a plot device
#my fics#I was doing research on blue jays and found that they are incredibly intelligent and aggressive#just. the idea of Bailey getting through to this bird#especially one Iām going to headcanon as Went Through Some Shit And Trusts No One)#is so bittersweet#this trope has been done a million times I donāt CARE#Bailey starts to āparentā her like wishes he would have been treated and she slowly starts to chill out#I just love the idea of Bailey being likeā¦āyouāre just like me for real. and I know youāre mad and I know youāre hurting.ā#āand we both need to stick around because weāre going to claw out a life for ourselves that is worth livingā#like HELLO#edit: Iām skipping words and misgendering Bailey in these tags let me go to sleep
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the suyeol lore is so crazy
#their relationship is so interesting to me like aoughhhh#like you see subaek and even tho they don't talk a lot on camera (most of the time) those two get along so well#they understand and respect each other so much they take their job very seriously and they're actually good friends as a result#suyeol on the other hand is 12 years of slowburn like it's crazyyyyy#you admire him and believe in him like no one else does and then you discover that he isn't that great actually#so you get disappointed and distance yourself and then you both are in this weird limbo for years as you grow up#and slowly but surely you rediscover how your relationship works because both of you are adults now and now we're here#like yeah suhito was stressed back then the context was not great for a leader AND tao was still with exo so lmao pcy could fend for himself#so i get ittttt they were going through it but. i need to know what he said to pcy like oh my god was it really that bad š#i wonder if they've ever mentioned it š¤#writing this bc i just remembered that one time they had to describe e/o and suho was like#āyou're my cute dongsaeng i admire your talents so much and oh btw you're not uncomfortable around me these days right? uwuā#LIKE ??? KING YOU CAN'T SAY THAT AND LEAVE US IN THE DARK#(<- they totally can it's not our business lmao)#idolization to tentative ''''enemies'''' to coworkers to friends to good friends is crazy#i need to look into this properly omg let's do some research#anyways i want a subunit :) they can be called exo sc too sehun won't mind bc these are like his favorite people in the world!!!#idk i find the exos and their bond so interesting because you truly have it all with them there's a whole spectrum of friendships#and i appreciate that it's not like with b*s & taegi (if you don't know who they are... let's keep it that way <3)#because those two were just too different to get along. it was extreme. but bighit forced it so much it was painful to see sometimes#and then the hawaii trip came and they painted it like a ''see? after this trip they get along so well now <3'' moment#1. girl let's be serious for a sec š and 2. it's not our business!!!!! focus on making good music!!!!!#i'm so glad exo didn't have to go through something like that bc i just know that they'd have disbanded by now sjfsifjsk#the saranghaja sprite isn't that intense we lovr freedom of choice (keeping in mind that they were under sm) <33333#so YEAH. can you guys tell i can't sleep hehe :)#dara.t#suho and chanyeol
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Events of last night:
Me: *crying*
My girlfriend: what's wrong?? :(
Me: *struggling to form words* intrusive thoughts are bad... I don't want to talk about them because then I'm scared that they're true and you might think I'm awful
My girlfriend: ah I actually get that. I have those a lot. It doesn't mean anything though, intrusive thoughts are just like dreams. Like the things you do in them aren't really things you want to do, it's just stuff your brain comes up with.
#we then very heavily related over having the same intrusive thoughts and now I'm suspicious#thinking about when i told her i might have ocd and she said i didnt#and starting to feel like thats because... what if we both have ocd#it seems like she was basing her entire knowledge of conditions on people shes known with those conditions. which makes sense#but the person/ people with ocd had severe cleaning compulsions and the like#where as me and her obsess much more over morality#like its very clear we think about it so much. and idk what to do with that information#we both feel like the intrusive thoughts and obsessive ruminating are the only things that keep is from being bad people#or that prevent us from being bad people i guess. idk why that wording is just slightly more accurate#like people who dont think about these things (apparently all 'normal' people since this could be *an actual disorder*)#they're not constantly analyzing. trying to be aware. asking themselves questions about their true nature. judging those answers#theyre not really doing that with other people either. of course i could be wrong since im very clearly not a normal person.#but this is what i mean! im speculating about other people and acknowledging the ways i could be wrong and just trying to figure it all out#but it seems like no one does that and it doesnt *make them* bad people. it just doesn't prevent them from that happening either#like theyre just as likely to hurt people as the 'bad' person thats thinking the same way they are#and i cant ever be comfortable with me living that reality even when *this reality* is a waking nightmare#sure im tearing my skin off (good ole skin picking disorder) when im thinking about these things. sure im crying. sure i can't sleep.#sure it makes me feel like im constantly a horrible person and need to attone for everything ive done and havent done#sure. but then i turn around and say its helping me. because why else would my brain torture me? isnt it always about protecting me?#i don't know. all i know is who i dont want to be and what i dont want. so that exactly what my brain convinces me is real#i guess what it kinda comes to do is#would you rather live a reality where everything around you is superficial. your thoughts behaviors and thoughts. your reactions#all of them are things youre never aware of. you could be hurting people or you could be helping themm#you could even be hurting yourself. but you would never know. its a comfortable reality that youre never really aware of#OR would you rather live a reality aware of all those things. seeking answers and sometimes finding them.#trying your hardest to help others and better yourself and fix the broken things in this world#your reality is one where you recognize every threat that no one else does and it kills you inside because they wont always listen#theyre comfortable and you're stuck in a reality where you try and try and try but even when you succeed#your brain forms its own reality. a metaphorical jail. where you never get to experience the reality you fought so hard for#instead you exist in this sort of purgatory where you live out your own worst fears and the worst ways you could have failed
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me and jay are fronting together you bitches know what that means!!!!!
#[bunny posting]#<- HELLL YEAHHHHH#just wanna like. lay w her.#not do anything just sleep with her next to me#like do you get it.#wake up and make the nicest home-made meal#<- actually knowing me i'd probably burn it#but thats ok that means we can just cook together :-)#wanna hold her and spin her around and listen to music with her!!!#wanna kiss her pretty face till we're both stupid <33#ok thats enough thanks 4 coming to my ted talk on how much i love my girlfriend and also domestic life
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