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even 2 years ago people still said autism with a whisper. it was also how people sometimes whisper lesbian, like they're afraid of uttering a slur. autistic was either an insult or it was something terrible, a horrible burden only select people endure. "select people" were usually 9 year old boys and skinny white men.
they are not hispanic young adults with a dog and a life and friends. i can make (sustained, calculated, painful) eye contact. with certain people, i don't even have to count how many seconds i am holding their vision - i can just look at them. i can wear clothes that bother me, i will just have a worse day than usual. i might cry about any changes to my schedule - but change is scary! this is normal!
when i was 16 it was OCD. i mean that was the thing everyone said. i totally have ocd. they would arrange 6 colors of gel pen in rainbow order (no worry for indigo feeling left out) and they'd be "so ocd" about it.
if you struggle with intrusive thoughts, be careful at this next paragraph, but. at 16 i developed a compulsion that involved self-harm. my ocd was convinced i was simply forgetting that i'd hurt someone terribly - a thought that persisted for no clear or delineated reason.
at some point i will probably write about how the idea of "morally pure thoughts" was hell for me and others with ocd, but this was the odd dichotomy for many of us: they liked our "aesthetic", but were genuinely repulsed by our lived experience. "intrusive thoughts" now means "cutting your hair in the sink" instead of talking yourself down from believing horrible things. "so ocd" is a label without any true understanding.
it's something i've talked about before - in multiplicity - but i firmly believe in the veracity and necessity of self-diagnosis. i think it saves lives and it saves tragedies from occurring. as someone raised in a house that wasn't safe, self-diagnosis was, for many years, the only viable option. 15 and honestly googling: am i depressed or are there demons affecting my behavior.
but it is not genuine self-diagnosis anymore, most of the time. it is a strange, blanched version of that whispered word autism. now certain traits are constantly seen as "autistic" - any passing intense interest. any flubbed social interaction. people say it while laughing - a touch of the 'tism.
and i like the acceptance! i do. i like that people are talking about it. i like that if i self-identify, more people speak up and say me too, bitch. but there is something-else quietly happening, the way it happened to OCD. the quirky, "fun" parts have been washed and sanitized and removed of all suffering. now it is just something that makes you "a little bit silly."
it took me 27 years on this planet before i learned to make friends. something about me just seems incredibly odd, i guess, some kind of radiation monitoring. someone once (in a way that was almost friendly) told me i am doing the right things, but in a way that's off-putting. i have scoured myself raw attempting to be charming.
someone on tiktok does a deep dive into their particular passion. the top comment says "what kind of autism is this lol". like we are a breed of animal. like it has no influence on our experience. like our life is a fresh breeze, an open meadow.
more often for me, life was a drowning.
#warm up#spilled ink#writeblr#it's hard to explain bc i do like the acceptance but it's like the ocd thing#autism is . an entire neurotype. yes we get 'cool autism powers' but we mostly say that#for OUR sake. on the autism website.#the cool autism powers do come with like. quality of life problems.#girl being in a room with LEDs gives me a headache. so you can kind of imagine how that might#in some way#influence my ability to function#will defend self diagnosis to the death as long as it is CLEAR AND LEGITIMATE. not like.#oooo i struggle talking 2 women i must be autistic#girl what. i struggle with the act of TALKING.
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Me when my best friend and I identify with V1 and Swordsmachine and suddenly it's about our friendship
Uhmmmmmm I like them yeag. Alt version under the cut
Nothing drastic just emojis lmao
#we are neurotypical (no)#thank you tumblr for screwing up the quality like you always do (sarcasm)#i was feeling things and boom!!! platonic affection attack!!!#i love you dude#anyway more v1 and swordsmachine pls. they ththey them#ultrakill#v1#v1 ultrakill#swordsmachine#swordsmachine ultrakill#digital art#deedra's art
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I dunno, I kinda think that describing an often-viewed-as-autistic character as relatable to everyone is fun and rad actually. I think that the idea of autistic people being relatable to neurotypical people is cool as hell
#we will never get past the male/cis/straight/neurotypical/etc 'everman' unless we accept that ppl from outside a marginalized group#can connect with/relate to/be inspired by characters w personalities and identities that aren't the 'default'#and that is. what I have to say on the matter. other people have already said the other things to say better than I can
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guys im almost 28 and got diagnosed with ADHD :'). i thought i was just a lazy idiot moron dumbass dipshit alien robot but apparently it was The Disorder
#anyways im getting medicine for it tomorrow wish me luck#sorry for lack of commission updates i uh. think we might've found the root cause#you mean ive been disabled the whole time ive been beating myself up for not working neurotypically
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Coda to my other post because I didn't want to completely derail it but we might not be ready for this conversation as a fandom but ableism is absolutely a contributing factor to the way Armand gets treated and im tired of pretending like it's not. The way autistic people of color get treated in our society is abominable and this fandom is not immune to perpetuating that. So much of how he gets talked about can be chalked up to "well he didn't perform empathy/emotion/regret like I wanted him to." If Armand was as effortlessly personable and correctly emotive as Lestat is we'd be having a different conversation. That's all I'm saying.
#i tried to do a thought experiment about if it was a white autistic person vs a neurotypical poc but it doesnt work#bc our society excuses autistic traits in white men specifically in a way it does not in men of color#anyways i just want you all to know that this is whats at the root of my armand apologism#you can literally never make me take an allistic person's side against an autistic person and it literally doesn't matter what they did#if i think too hard about armand being the only autistic character in iwtv i get nauseous#(roman roy voice) well can we get him out of there?#sybelle and khayman save me sybelle and khaymannnnnnnnnnnnn#blorboposting
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neurotypicals will laugh when I say 'im autistic" like bitch im not joking AND now I know you think making fun of autistic people is funny
#also fucked up that peoples first thought upon hearing autism is thinking its something that means stupid#or something people only joke about#we are real friend#when i say “oh im autistic” i dont mean oh im stupid#being silly goofy#i mean im autistic and you laughing like its a joke shows what you think autism means#and then i clarify and they feel bad like yeah good#autism jokes by autistic people is one thing#neurotypicals being so comfortable with them is another#and they shouldnt make laugh or tell them unless its with an autistic friend and they are totally cool with it#or they dont mean it in a malevolent degrading way#anyways post was a joking tone but i do mean it#actually autistic#autism#actually neurodivergent#krash thoughts
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answer my strawpoll abt nd identity re: fat kink please
#its anonymous#our brains are mapped differently than the 'default' by nature of having a paraphilia#but we only classify ppl as neurodivergent if it's 'disabling'#so i would not be surprised if many of us are just mostly functioning weirdos with secret brain differences#or perhaps neurotypicals w fetishes are better able to repress them?
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"We must break with autistic conceptions of ecology, which still largely prevail. The term autistic may come as a surprise for it is usually reserved for individual mental pathologies. But Western culture has managed to collectivize, if I may be so bold, an individual pathology and turn it into a cultural trait by considering that living beings communicate with each other only on a superficial level; that human beings themselves are incapable of communicating with other living beings [..] Even worse, in the culture of Western elites, whoever speaks of communication with any kind of non-human being [and many "profound" autistics write about exactly this] is regarded as a crackpot."
Dominique Lestel
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I'm seeing a lot of people with neurodivergency, specially under the autism spectrum say that "Laios is annoying, never shuts up, is insensitive, and I can't stand him"; and the irony is not lost on me lmao.
#like im sorry dude did you think all autism is “anime obsessed dude”?#how did you think neurodivergent people behaved on old times?#also like#being unintentionally insensitive is almost a telltale sign of autism cause you struggle with social cues#if anything i think a lot of you are finally habing to face your own internalized predjudices#“he is annoying” yes that's how ableist neurotypical people talk about us all the time tell me something i haven't heard already#like how do i explain to you that a lot of neurotypical people tal the exact same eay youre talkbing about laios#and is annoying when they go “but im neurodivergent! i can be biased agaisnt neurodivergent people”#yes you can because being neurodivergent is not a monolith and you are mistifying being neurodivergent#by implying theres some sort of virtue in being under the spectrum when youre as capable of being a dick just as everyone else#like you think you have autism but suddenly wanting to taste things youre not supposed to eat and not remembering peoples names is too much?#some of yall never experienced beinf a “weird kid” at a young age and it shows#and im not talking the “geek bullied” weird kid kinda way#im talking “the adults think I'm weird amd don't know how to deal with me”#WHICH FITS LAIOS PERFECTLY BECAUSE WE ACTUALLY HAVE A SCENE OF HIS DAD SHOWING HIM FALLIN AS A BABY#AND NOT UNDERSTANDING WHY IS THERE NO EXPECTED REACTION FROM LAIOS#anyways im making this rant because is unreal how many posts of this exist#you think Laios is annoying cause he wont shut up?#congratulations thats how most people see us#now get over it or watch other series if you hate it that much#dunmeshi hell thoughts#weird rant i suppose#dungeon meshi#laios touden
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You're sooooo silly thank you for all the bears :3 <3
we’d say we are the silliest but polar bears exist
#lethal beasts should NOT allowed to also be such silly goobers#thank you friend#we agree#We are extremely silly#and it’s very fun#some life wisdom it took us a while to learn:#life is so much better and more fun when you stop trying to be cool or ‘normal’#and just embrace your silly child side#you don’t have to pretend or force yourself to be serious#or to act mature or ‘professional’ or just neurotypical#embrace your silliness and your silly side and you will be so much happier#you will have more fun#and even if no one else appreciates it (spoiler alert: they will) you will#and enjoying your life is way more important than what other people’s opinions#okay we’re done being serious#back to dumb puns and silly goobears 😉#ask
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Specifically writing the missing 1k words to get me to the next chapter for the person who added my fic to their —
list.
Because y’all —
I WILL NEVER GIVE UP ON TEEN!THESEUS & BB!NEWT. The absolute audacity to suggest it🥺😭😭
I love them your honor
#we have to make them close as children to make them ABSOLUTELY DISTRAUGHT AS ADULTS#I’m not sorry#I was raised on angst and I will die on angst#but also I will - in fact - always make it adorable along the way#newt scamander#Theseus Scamander#scamander brothers#young newt scamander#autistic newt Scamander#just….not quite neurotypical Theseus I suppose#my stuff#fic: older - or two brothers and a train station#fantastic beasts fanfiction#fantastic beasts
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oh you know it's all latestage capitalism but the thing is. how are you supposed to be a person inside of this. a person trying to be a better version of yourself.
oh, you started working young, which was kind of hard, but it's just the way stuff works sometimes. and it was 2008 and your family couldn't afford heat. but it's fine, you grow a spine and get used to the professional world and besides it was the suburbs we're talking about here, like, your life could have been actually hard, so what if your father lost his job and you can't afford to move or turn the lights back on. and once you start making money, it's good. you keep doing that. because now they're relying on you. so you have to do that.
oh you were in thousands of dollars of debt at 17 years old so that you could go to school, because you have to go to school if you want to get a "real" job. you even did it "right", you worked parttime and attended community college before you transferred to a public school. you were under so many merit scholarships.
which is fine. you pick yourself up and you say like, okay. i graduated college. i'm holding down a job. i'm doing the Adult Thing, which looks and acts like this, according to all the books i've read. you start with the shitty job and then you climb that corporate ladder.
but the shitty job doesn't cover rent and you stretch yourself too-thin so you get sick. good luck with that. the shitty job no longer pays for your meals. everyone asks why you don't just move, but there's nowhere to move to. and with what money are you going to be moving? and then the loans come back, because they were never going to forgive them, because you were 17 and trying to do the right thing, which was stupid. people are now saying you shouldn't have even gone to school.
which is fine. but because you have no other option, so you do the shitty job, and you apply every day for like 5 new ones, and despite the fact everyone says "there's no one who wants to work!" it's actually just that nobody is fucking hiring so you can either work for 13 dollars an hour in the shitty place you know (where at least you have a passingly friendly relationship with the manager) or you can start from scratch again with a different 13 dollars an hour without knowing how much abuse from the new job you'll be taking.
and if you quit you lose your insurance. if you quit you lose your housing. if you quit, you'll be another burnout kid. the lazy ones. these assholes, look at them!
and you come home to a family dinner and you hear from your father the same old thing. how he worked hard at his job and yes it sucked for a while but he was able to provide for the family and then the house and the dog and the rest of barbie's dream vacation. how the insurance did cover some of it. how you just really need to start speaking up more in manager conversations so they know you're a go-getter. you want to tell him - did you know we're actually doing more now hourly than any previous generation? - but you can't remember where you heard that statistic, and you're far too tired for the fucking argument. and then he starts in on his usual bit. where's the house? where's your kids? where's your ambition.
the same job the same money the same hours doesn't do it anymore. the same nose-to-the-grindstone now just shreds your face off. there's no such thing as upwards mobility, not really. and as far as you're aware, the money certainly is not trickling. you do the soulless stupid shit you signed up for because you fucking have to or else you literally risk your life (food, the apartment, the insurance), but it's not getting you anything. you download the stupid "save more" app and you budget and you do every right thing and then the price of eggs is 7 dollars and you say - oh great! another thing i have to fucking worry about now!
and you go to your stupid job and everyone in your father's generation just tells you to be better about being an adult. they have their homes and their savings account and their bailout and they say. well have you tried not drinking starbucks. well your generation just spends too much on clothing. well you might just be too addicted to travelling. and you - because you need the job - you bite your tongue and don't say i am being held prisoner and you're suggesting i stop pacing my cell if i don't like the scenery and you don't say what the fuck do you think i've been doing with my money and you don't say i haven't spent a cent on something nice in literally forever much less coffee you arrogant asshole. you open and close your bank app and check your loans and check your credit score and check fucking zillow and ziprecruiter and apartments.com just one time more. and still they give you that demeaning little grin and say - see, what you need is -
what you need is for your meds to stop being so fucking expensive. what you need is for the housing bubble to explode into dust. what you need is for billionaires to choke on their wealth. what you need is actual help. what you will get is more economic advice from people who are older-and-wiser.
and above you, almost in a glimmer, you can see the wedged smile of your debt getting toothier, wider.
#i hate when people try to tell me i didn't do it right#what should i have done better#i did it ALL the right way#(not that there is a right way)#it's just that others feel comfortable believing that THEY did it the right way and that's how they made money#whereas i must have just committed a sin somewhere in there! i MUST be doing it wrong!!!#and i'm not a victim!!! im simply experiencing consequences!#and im like. where . where. wherewherewherewhere#i graduated top of my class. i was almost the student speaker.#i have always excelled at work and i work hard#i have been working since i was 13#WHERE !!!!! IS MY FUCKING !!!! MONEY!!!!!!#ps please do not make the assumption i am ablebodied or neurotypical.#i am neither of these things.#it DOES get worse if u are either of those things. so fuckin much#but @ the one anon who was like ''u could be X that would be worse u don't know how lucky u are''#.... don't i?#do i need to be luckier than someone else#or is it possible we are BOTH victims?#and that we need to work TOGETHER to resolve it#not just wave it off since it COULD be harder for someone else... it can be true we BOTH deserve better
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Explaining to his next victim about The Make Believes and Nick Lightbearer to show them that he understands the music (and Nick) more than they do
Based off of that scene from American Psycho y’know
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Bonus sketch: Aftermath
#we happy few#whf#uncle jack#jack worthing#foggy jack#nick lightbearer#mentioned/implied at least#also would technically be implied lightfog too since he’s describing his obsession with him so#lightfog#mcart#tw blood#also clearly didn’t draw the poster or album I was lazy but I think it adds to it#for the second sketch he puts on the mask like how Patrick Bateman#puts on the raincoat before committing murder and just like how his hair gets messy from swinging the axe#jacks hair gets messy/like foggy jacks hairstyle for swinging the cleaver#anyway uhhhh I really liked to know how other peoples thought process works#by other people I wonder if neurotypical people think like this where like#okay I’ve been really hyper fixated with whf I really feel like I can’t draw anything else#but rn I’m also currently watching live action Batman movies#get to the Nolan trilogy and see Christian Bales performance and think#man he’s a good actor then think on when I watched American psycho for the first (and only) time#remembers how good he was in that he was really funny#suddenly had the connecting out of no where thought of to draw Jack as Bateman in this scene#thought is a quick flash but doesn’t leave my brain for days#and so I had to get it out of my system and now we are here#anyway wonder if neurotypical people have this kind of mindset where thoughts virtually come out of nowhere#but there’s a connecting branch#anyway uhh now that’s done I gotta focus on other drawings
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THG is the only pop culture story I can think of where the heroes (Katniss and Peeta) are disabled* and their happy ending doesn't require that they be "fixed" in order to be happy. IMO, part of why there's such controversy over the ending of the books in particular is that Collins wrote the pov of Katniss as a woman who is content and loves her life and her spouse and kids, but she's still very clearly mentally ill (and arguably somewhere on the spectrum). She has coping strategies and her life is good, but she will never be "normal" and Collins doesn't let the audience think that.
The one part, where she talks about how she handles the darker days, when she's really struggling, never fails to move me:
I’ll tell them that on bad mornings, it feels impossible to take pleasure in anything because I’m afraid it could be taken away. That’s when I make a list in my head of every act of goodness I’ve seen someone do. It’s like a game. Repetitive. Even a little tedious after more than twenty years. But there are much worse games to play. (Mockingjay, 332)
It's hard to express how important that is to me. Someone doesn't have to be "normal" to lead a good life. Someone doesn't have to be "normal" to have a life worth living, to give and receive love in good ways.
And, so, when people look at the villain in the prequel and say "he's just crazy, that's why he's evil. He's just a psycho, he's nuts," it's so out of place, it's so dissonant to me -- I think that's absolutely not the kind of story Collins would tell, given her prior handling of disability.
I don't think she's suddenly turned into a Victorian writer where you can know someone is evil because they're disabled because the writer thinks disabled people are warped creatures incapable of doing anything but bringing evil into the world. And the way people assert this, as if it's the pure, wholesome, most politically advanced reading of the prequel, is just - it doesn't compute for me. I don't understand how people get there.
I studied (for years) the treatment of mentally ill people in the mid-20th Century US. It was horrific. US forced sterilization and eugenics laws actually inspired N/azi Germany's forced sterilization, eugenics, and mass murder campaigns against mentally ill and disabled people. Nice, normal people have repeatedly convinced themselves that torturing and killing disabled people is how they will "purify" their society - they've done great evil in the name of rooting out the people evil is supposedly located within biologically.
Is it so hard to believe that people with normal brains do evil? Is it truly so impossible? Even in a story where the Games are about how a lot of people, the majority of whom are neurotypical, can be brought, via media presentation and entertainment techniques, into taking pleasure in their participation in evil? It's so hard to fathom that evil can't simply be located in someone being "psycho"?
Ballad already has Dr Gaul, who is evil and clearly neurodivergent. If Snow is too then the message starts to get kind of worrying? IMO, Coriolanus is more effective as a kind of “everyman” as an 18 year old - an example of the incentive structures (rewards and punishments) and propaganda that motivate “normal” people to go along. Of course, he will later become something far worse than that, someone who takes control of this thing, who uses his intimate knowledge of it and his insight into other “normal” people to make it worse, but that’s not the part of his life we see the most of. The part the book focuses on provides what I consider a powerful depiction of how ordinary people are acculturated into corrupt societies.
It's fiction so there's all kinds of interpretations that the text can support and exploring those is good. It's a stronger text because it has ambiguities and can be interpreted more than one way. But the intensity of some of the rhetoric is an unsettling contrast to what I've thought, for over a decade, Collins' themes and pov are as a writer.
*Shame on the films for removing Peeta's physical disability, though; in the books he lost a leg during their first Games
#thg meta#my meta#i'm gonna try to leave it at this now - i don't want to keep letting this bother me so much#the hunger games#the ballad of songbirds and snakes#maybe Coriolanus Snow is the evil neurotypical representation we need lol#i'm going to unsubscribe from the reddit i think#that is where i am seeing a lot of this#and it's just not worth it
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a theory of mine as to why the children in the did community gravitate so hard towards making pk tmeplates, alter packs and etc is they want to feel useful, want praise and appreciation from people online that they lack in real life, without having to acknowledge their disorder as something negative.
Writing about symptom management or help requires acknowledgement that having alters is a symptom, that you can't just let your system "run wild" and that new alters are often not a good sign, while a lot of younger systems like to obsess over their alters, either to cope with the rest of the disorders being horrible by focusing on the thing they see as "positive", or simply because they're faking and having alters is the one overly glorified part of did. just my thoughts though
#i think a lot of children are faking DID now in the same way a lot of neurotypical kids said they were autistic#monkey see monkey do. why do the traumatised ones get to have [favourite character] in their brain but you dont?#and with enough fake system the original disorder falls into obscurity and one person goes 'why do you have to have trauma to be a system?#you guys are having fun you dont seem traumatized' and thats how we get endos.#syscourse#system community#plural system#traumagenic system#actually traumagenic#plurality#actually plural#plural community#pluralgang#anti endo#pluralpunk#osddid#osdd system#osdd community#multiple system
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genuinely my inability to do any coursework the entire semester (& then instantly, all of it, within the span of 3 days) (power of stimulants) has to be studied like this can't just be my life
#what the study will find: severe executive dysfunctioning#<- being an education dualmajor with this specific constellation of issues is so fascinating though its like#wow i really have spent 4 years learning EXACTLY how & why the US public education system/academia does not cater to my neurotype#(or anything existing outside a very rigid norm) and it is so disquieting! and so many have it so much worse!#;~; one day i will be a teacher and i will be so forgiving & understanding of these struggles... i will utilize every loophole!#like i legit dream of someday affording my students the kind of grace that they/we are so often denied! damn! i will go out of my way!#Litany Of The Incest Blogger Who Was Denied Extension On James Joyce Ulysses Capstone Paper
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