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dropping thoughts like laundry into the aromanticism washing machine and watching them spin. taking little notes in a fancy journal titled "greyro??" and crossing them out, but then going back and scribbling an addendum. holding up an extravagant glass beaker full of a cool bubbling potion and peering at it through safety glasses that say "mind the amatonormativity!"
#i think there are two layers of questioning to deal with#the first layer is easier to see and that's the trauma-related layer#the second layer has been going stealth for years and is more intrinsic#the second layer *could* have been a contributing factor toward the first#so anyway the question is. as i work through the trauma and have the support of a therapist to deal with the first layer#does the second layer become an issue. or is there only the first and it's just worked itself deep enough that it now feels intrinsic#the thing is i do get crushes and i do yearn and i can't remember a time when i didn't crave the idea of a relationship#so that should be that right? not aro. at least not intrinsically.#but why did i always end up losing interest in the relationship once i had it#was it really just because i wasn't dating people i actively chose#honestly maybe. there *was* B. i don't know how much longer that might've continued if logistics hadn't put an end to it#and M....... M is a tricky one. because even though i left that relationship by my own choice. i kind of had to in order to not want to die#the thruple vibes with K were just so utterly rancid and M was just so incapable of doing anything to make it better#so yeah. maybe that one could've continued indefinitely IF two to three of the people involved had been#a leeeeetle more mature and well adjusted. maybe. but desire for a relationship was not the issue.#so okay. maybe im NOT aro. maybe i just have shitty taste in men. you know? that's a distinct possibility.#okay. so now on the other hand. let's look at how happy and enlightened I've felt since starting to *use* the aro label#cuz it actually is fantastic. the freedom to just feel love and affection for anyone I'm close to and not have to worry about#it being taken in a way i don't intend. that's great i love that#and not feeling any pressure to find The One? rocks. good shit. i can just let whatever relationships be what they're gonna be#and not have to fret over assigning a label and structures and expectations. hot shit.#(honestly it's helping me understand where M was coming from in a way that would've been. you know. pretty useful six years ago.)#i don't wanna lock myself in a relationship with friend E but it's great hanging out with her on a regular basis#cuz that's the amount of affection i feel for her. enough to chill and watch Owl House. not enough to be in each others' space all the time#(god idk if I'll ever want to be around anyone all the time ever again. that is a LOT for my limited batteries)#idk how physical affection fits into this yet. that area is still under development#but like. if my friends were cool with it and i knew they wouldn't take it too seriously then YES i would probably kiss almost any of them#and i THINK that's true and not me telling myself something i think I'm supposed to believe? i THINK.#'s always the possibility that i just very badly want to be kissed and my brain is looking to make that happen in a way that isn't scary#ah shit that’s 30 tags. i’ve done it again.
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{Special Stranger} Nezha ♡ Pumpkin Carving
Art drawn by me + the AU itself is mine.
Very much rushed drabble and art just because I wanted to get this out in time for Halloween. So it's meh towards the end.
[TL;DR] The inside joke headcanon of Nezha being way too skilled at things shows.
♡ ~ Fluff ~ ♡
It was October and Halloween was fast approaching. And while it wasn't the first Halloween you were celebrating with your boyfriend, it was the first time you had a special activity planned.
And after several hours of work, Nezha finally returned home, clearly exhausted. He probably had to deal with a lot of unruly people again. You smiled softly as you greeted him from the kitchen door. "Welcome home!"
At the sound of your voice, his mood seemed to change. Nezha's exhaustion seemed to fade for even just a moment as he approached you. He pulled you closer, leaned in, and gave you a gentle kiss before pulling away. "It's good to be home." That's when he looked down and noticed you wearing an apron with a cute pumpkin on it. He raised an eyebrow as he comments, "New apron?"
You nodded happily, humming in confirmation. "I also got you one so we can match for the pumpkin carving!"
His eyes widened a little in realization as he pursed his lips. "Oh shit- That was today? I'm so sorry, blossom- I should've come home earlier", he groans a little, annoyed at himself for having forgotten.
You leaned in and kissed his cheek. "It's absolutely fine, honey. I figured you wouldn't be home until late in the afternoon. So I already got everything ready for us." You reassured before you lead him towards the kitchen, where you had already set up the table. There were also the pumpkins the two of you picked the week prior.
Nezha glanced at the table as he let out a chuckle. "Man, all these things you do for me... Sometimes I really feel like I don't deserve yo-"
You quickly shut him up with another kiss on the lips. "Shush, love. You absolutely deserve me. And I'm lucky to have you in return."
He quickly melted into the kiss before eventually pulling away with a smile, releasing a breath he didn't know he was holding. He wanted to keep up the banter with you, but he knew you had a date involving carving pumpkins. The affectionate banter would have to wait until later.
You handed him his matching apron so he could put it on, before sitting down at the table next to him. He had carved a few pumpkins before to entertain some children from time to time, but he never got to actually play around with the design much. After all, detailed carvings weren't easy for children, so he used big openings for simple smiley faces whenever he taught them how to do it.
During your date, he decided to be a lot more ambitious though, just to test his own skills and impress you. All the while you kept trying to take glances at what design he chose. However, everytime he noticed you trying to take a peek in a not so subtle way, he gently shoo'd you back to your own side of the table. A lot of laughter was involved in your attempts to take a look and him trying to push you away to keep it a surprise.
You could tell he had fun as he seemed quite focused on whatever he was working on. Meanwhile you were struggling just a little with the more detailed parts of your own work. It took a while, but eventually the two of you were done. And as a little test and surprise, you placed one candle into each pumpkin. Once Nezha lit them up, you turned off the lights.
You couldn't help but stare in awe at his pumpkin's design illuminated by the candle. It seemed very detailed for the short amount of time you've spent on carving. It looked like a faceless image of yourself holding a lotus flower in your hands. The sight of him having created something so much better than yours made you feel a bit insecure as he eagerly looked at your pumpkin. While your own carving wasn't all that bad, it was rather simple and the detailed parts clearly didn't have the cleanest lines. But that didn't matter to him as he proceeded to compliment your work.
The rest of the evening was overall relaxing as you and your boyfriend decided to just watch movies and cuddle on the couch.
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Can you please write second change romance with Lando where reader tells him "Love me. chose me. for once in your damned life, fight for me!"
Reader is working at sky sports as a journalist. I hope you like it. I hope I did it justice.
Track of the Heart
{Reader's POV}
I knew the world was a small place and some times you run into people you are actively trying to avoid. For me, that was Lando Norris.
We were both young and in love. He was my first serious adult relationship. I loved him deeply; if you asked drunk me, I'd probably say that I still love him. But that was the past. He broke up with me because his fans didn't like me. The hate had gotten to the point that I had stopped using my phone except to call or text my friends and family and Lando knew. I had told him through tears about all the mean things people said about me. Part of me hoped that he would tell them off for it but what I didn't expect was for him to disregard it and let it get so bad that even at races people would name call me, even in front of Lando and he would do nothing. It affected my health, my mental peace and my studies. So, I did what was best for me; walked away.
That was 3 years ago. Right now I was standing face to face with the man that broke my heart. I knew when I applied for a position at Sky Sports that I would run into Lando. Luckily, I had stayed clear of him for the year that I had interned there; by only going to cover other sports and minor leagues. Today, the team was short staffed, they needed someone to help make the scripts and organise the cue cards, so they brought along a couple new hires. I did everything in my power to evade the race because it would mean being stuck on an F1 venue for a whole weekend with my ex. My direct superior wouldn't listen to any of my crap, as he put it and told me to pack my stuff and to meet him at the venue.
So here I was, awkwardly standing, in front of the supposed love of my life. He looked shocked to see me before his eyes flickered to the Sky Sports entry pass, as if a switch flipped. He smiled and greeted; "You're finally a sports journalist, like you always wanted to be. Congratulations" he said while raising his hand to shake mine. Out of courtesy, I moved all the files in my hands to my left and shook his hand. "My colleagues were saying you had your maiden win this season, so Congratulations I guess." I retorted. I adjusted the files in my hands, almost dropping one, which Lando quickly caught with his hand. I thanked him and left to see the team with all my files.
{Lando's POV}
Her hands were still soft like I remembered them with a sweet tinge of vanilla, her favourite body lotion. She had coloured her hair recently and she looked so much more professional and put together then I remembered. I guess it comes with the job. Hearing her congratulate me felt like home even if it felt like it was laced with sarcasm, like the only thing that ever mattered. How did I even celebrate a race without her? She was still clumsy I thought as I caught the file she almost dropped. The weekend just got more eventful I thought as she walked away.
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{Reader's POV}
If there is one thing I will advice you is that don't be a hard worker especially in a situation if it will land you working with your ex for the whole year. One of the members from the F1 team went on maternity leave and she spoke so highly of me that I ended up working on the races till she returned. Now to my horror, all the fans still remembered me. Even after 3 years, they did not hesitate to start up rumours about me and Lando being together and that we never really broke up and it was all a publicity stunt. I had to speak to my bosses to let them know that all of that was in the past and that I wasn't dating him anymore; they didn't care unless it affected my work.
Working at the paddock wasn't easy and Lando didn't make it any easier. He acted like a menace before and after interviews especially if I was around. Sometimes I wanted to strangle him.
{Lando's POV}
Being around her reminded me why I had fallen in love with her in the first place. She brought the idiotic side of me out. "Mate, you need to stop annoying Y/N. She'll strangle you one day." Carlos said while they were on the drivers parade. "She wouldn't. There's a reason she's tolerating me." I said. "Yeah, sky sports pays her to do her job." Carlos laughed. Part of me wanted to believe that she tolerated me because she still loved. But I knew that was selfish of me, since the reason we broke up lay heavily on me.
This made me want to be closer to her. I guess proximity made the heart softer. I found myself bringing her snacks or treats during her long days. Slowly but surely I found myself back in her arms. We didn't out right say it, but we were dating each other. She made the weekends even more enjoyable. It was exhilarating to be running around trying not to get caught; until we did get caught. It was like a switch flipped inside her and she stopped seeing me.
{Reader's POV}
The gifts and the sneaking away and having someone care for me got to me. Before I knew it I was back in Lando's arms. I knew getting back together with Lando was a bad idea. All my suspicions were confirmed when a picture of us leaving together from a club in Las Vegas made rounds. The hate was worse then before; it's like they forgot there was a person behind it all. I couldn't even shut off social media because of my work. I didn't want to be seen with him anymore; I was going to stop reporting for F1 and live my life covering other sports. Hopefully they didn't find me there. Lando was still persistent even after I had stopped talking to him and cut him off.
"Babe, you gotta stop running away from me." Lando spoke cornering me, out of breath from the running. "I have work to do, if you'll excuse me Mr Norris." I said. "Since, when was I Mr Norris?" He questioned. "Since a while, I never should've gotten back with you." I declared. "You don't mean that." Lando stammered. "Actually I do." saying that broke my heart because deep down I loved him but it didn't feel like he loved me. "But I love you. Don't you love me?" he asked. "It doesn't matter what I feel, when you'll never reciprocate it." I pointed out. "What do you mean?" he pleaded. "Lando, the exact reason we broke up was because you couldn't stick up for me. I knew you and yet I got myself involved in this." I sighed. "But, baby I need you." he voiced. I laughed, there were tears in my eyes, "Not enough to stick up for me." "What's gotten into you?" Lando probed. "Nothing's gotten into me, I should've stayed away from you. Your fans hate me, they always have. They want me fired; did you know that?" I asked. Lando was at a loss for words.
"You know when we broke up I wanted you to want me. But you love your fans more." I commented. "It's not like that I love you more, I missed you a lot after we broke up." he said. "Not enough to clear the air anyways." I voiced out. "What do you want me to do?" Lando asked trying to reach for my hands. "Love me, choose me. For once in your damned life, fight for me. If you really want me you'll do something, or you can watch me walk away for the second time." I stated while turning on my heels and leaving.
I did not expect Lando to do what he did next. He made a statement on every social media account of his, even Quadrants; it read-
Hi guys, Lando here. I would like to let you all know that I love Y/N Y/L/N who is currently working for Sky Sports F1. We used to date a few years ago but we broke up because of my foolishness. Fate gave me another chance and I don't want to blow it. If any of you have any issue with her, keep it to yourself. Because she is here to stay for as long as she will have me. Kindly refrain from sending her any hate if you love and support me. If you do send hate, I will be forced to take legal action to protect the love of my life.
I was sat in shock reading the statement. I can already imagine the train wreck McLaren PR must be in. I was pulled out of my thoughts by a knock on my door. I opened it to find a sweaty Lando with a big bouquet of flowers, chocolates and a couple gift bags. "I know this isn't a lot, but this is a start. Let me apologise. I'm sorry for all the hurt I caused you. Please take me back." he said with tears in his eyes. I wrapped my arms around his neck. "I love you too Lando Norris." I declared. Lando dropped all the stuff on the ground and wrapped his arms around me. "I won't let you down, I promise." he said. "I'll hold you to it." I said. "You can hold it against me for the rest of our lives." he told. "I don't think you want me that long." I laughed. He broke our embrace to cup my cheeks, "I'll have you as long as you'll let me stay." and pressed a kiss against my lips. "I think I'll like to have you inside for now." I said while pulling him in and closing the door.
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Gosh, I just remembered Destruction. That Marinette seriously let Cat Noir run around with the word Dimwit in his bell for all of season 4, never once spared it a single thought, never apologized for it either despite allegedly having "realized" how awfully she treated him, and then smiled proudly when Alya laughed over him behind his back after the Cataclysm incident Marinette just abandoned Cat Noir afterwards too and only cared about herself getting support.
Dude, Marinette is so awful to him at times. Who DOES that to a friend? I would be downright ashamed of myself if I treated a friend like that and the show's telling me to CELEBRATE her for that??
Let's not forget that she also didn't think for months that Cat needs to know beforehand that her secret plan includes him having to run the risk of cataclysming Hawkmoth, or that he's once again reduced to a literal object in her plan who can't even breath with the villain's hand at his throat because all she deemed important was HERSELF being fine and safe and getting the Kwamis back.
Sure, just demand that of him on a whim. It's fine, girl, as long as it isn't you, right?
She also put every single civilian at Hawkmoth’s mercy in her plan, apparently just counties on him to be decent to the helpless civilians in his path who are even BOTHERING HIM with photos for her plan to work. That makes her such an awful hero. Humanity really was non existent in her plan, huh? Only she herself and the Kwamis mattered and she even monologued that into a full-blown failure. Not even getting a single Kwami because she had to brag about how much smarter and better she is than him. Such heroism. Much inspirational.
I seriously forgot how awful Destruction was for Marinette’s character. What the shit was that??
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The group chat and I have been thinking that Marinette really is the least heroic “superhero” we’ve seen that wasn't a purposeful attempt at deconstructing superheroes. She very rarely goes out of her way to help people except when it's her way of forcing her views on what people need on others (think Guilt Trip), and a lot of the time she only fights Akumas and Sentimonsters because they're getting in the way of her plans for the day.
Marinette is only a hero technically, because, technically, he does stop the bad guys from getting what they want. But she also does the bare minimum needed. She magicked together a charm to try to prevent Akumatizations four seasons in, and it was basically because Alya told her to. She is also completely disinterested in finding out who Hawk Moth is. Félix spelled it out for her and she couldn't be arsed to do anything about it. The only time she's confronted Gabriel about anything was when she wanted to get his permission to date Adrien. I repeat: the only reason Marinette ever “goes after” Gabriel is to get his permission to date Adrien. The finale confrontation was an accident on her part. Marinette's motives are so often about herself over everything else. It's not just that there's a benefit to her in helping others, it's that she actually thinks about herself first in every single situation and anyone else is barely ever a consideration.
Marinette is the most passive hero I’ve seen. Even early series Usagi from Sailor Moon, who cried at the thought of fighting monsters, actively followed rumors around town to uncover the villains’ schemes and more often than not got involved in the plot of the episode because she met a random stranger she wanted to help when they explained their problems to her and/or asked for her assistance with something. Marinette has helped a random stranger only once, despite her supposedly having this trait being why Fu chose her in Origins.
She really has no idea what a hero is, considering her idea for doing a heroic act to celebrate “heroes’ day” was promising her parents would make a bunch of treats for her classmates instead of herself doing anything to help anyone. She only ended up making the treats herself because her parents didn't have the time, and even then, the classmates also pitched in to make her idea/heroic act happen. Despite Hawk Moth being a consistent threat, she's not proactive in trying to stop him, only patrolling for personal reasons, like keeping the principal from making “real heroes” (her words, not mine) look bad and going on “not dates” with Cat Noir.
She also far more frequently uses her powers for personal gain than any other character that gets a Miraculous, even when taking their time using one into account. Marinette uses her powers to sabotage people who have a crush on the guy she likes, embarrass people she doesn't like and manufacture situations where she can get closer to her crush. Meanwhile Adrien and Alya *flips through notes* genuinely enjoy being a hero and helping people, so much so they joke on the job. And people tell me the latter two are less heroic, because of some twisted idea that real heroes are the ones for whom the job is a burden. In actuality, Marinette viewing her heroics as such a burden makes her unmotivated and a worse hero for it. Her disregard towards civilians and her allies when she actually bothers to do the job is just another sign of how utterly unsuited to be a hero Marinette is.
Frankly, if Marinette’s hijinks didn't stop the Akumas and Sentimonsters, she'd be a villain protagonist. Because of the retooled show enforcing Marinette’s unheroic traits, her lack of motivation, her lack of sympathy for others, her selfishness and her self-aggrandizing, I personally feel that she still is a villain protagonist but the show just celebrates her instead of condemning her.
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Watching Agatha All Along again after giving up on Marvel for three years made me think about why I gave it up in the first place.
I was so deep in the MCU. I cried so much during Infinity War that I struggled to walk out of the cinema. I watched Endgame on the first day that it was released. My diary was a CACW notebook. Part of the reason I took up STEM subjects was because of Marvel.
And then after watching MoM in theatres, I stopped.
I'm trying to phrase and figure out what made me give up something I was so invested in, something I loved so much. I think I know why.
The MCU period I was active in gave me characters that I ended up loving, and the later period took them away.
My two favourite characters were ruined. Their character arcs and core characters undone. I'm worried about my favourite too.
I hate it when the sequel undermines the previous works.
When I think of Steve Rogers, I don't think of the guy who chose to either fuck up the entire timeline of the MCU or sat quietly and watch the world in turmoil, his allies die tragically, and his best friend left to a fate worst than dead to get with a girl he wasn't even dating, a woman who had a life of her own and moved on.
I think of Steve from CATWS, the guy from Brooklyn who still does the right thing in a time when morals are blurred. The Steve who is kind, compassionate and brave. The Steve who inspired the base-level employees of SHEILD to follow his example and not bow down in the face of tyranny. The Steve who just had one mission, and that was standing up to bullies.
When I think of Wanda, I don't think of the insane, manic witch/evil goddess who killed thousands mercilessly even though there was a harmless solution, who after all she lost, somehow only wanted her children who she had for three days instead of also her love and her twin.
I think of Wanda, the girl who lost it all, who's family was all killed, who was denied a burial for Vision, who was left alone and abandoned in the world, with so much love in her heart that no longer had a place, a person to go to. The girl who feels so much so deeply that it bended reality. The girl who had to learn, who had to give up her dream, but did so, because at the end of the day, she is a kind person, who doesn't want to hurt people. She was wrong, she takes time to understand and accept the harm she's caused (as we all do), and then makes it right. She tries to be good. Despite everything, she tries.
The later stages of MCU took these two characters that mean so much to me personally, and ruined them.
And I'm fucking mad at them, because it disrespected all the work that made me love them in the first place, and it was preventable. (The original script for MoM where Wanda helps Strange but repeatedly gets tempted by the Darkhold is a much more convincing narrative.)
And I'd say the same applies to others: Natasha, Thor, Bruce, even Strange (although I feel like they never really figured out what they wanted to do with Strange's character)
I miss my characters, I miss my MCU.
#mcu#mcu criticism#marvel#endgame critical#steve rogers#wanda maximoff#mcu thoughts#meraki essay#this is why I get so worried about sequels#rwrb pls don't make this mistake#i want to trust matthew and casey and to an large extent i do#i'm just really scared#also the other favourite character is bucky#i think starting from infinity they did him dirty#my feelings on fatws are... complicated#and why the fuck is he a congressman#he's such a cool character in the comic#and seb does him so well#but he was at his peak during catws#arguably the most comic accurate period for him#so idk what his future holds but i'm holding my breath
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Catman's attraction is such an interesting thing because, if you analyse it, he can be read as being in the aroace spectrum very easily, even though I don't think that's what's happening.
He was clearly attracted to Cheshire but his only move was sitting next to her. That wasn't even out of his own volition, he wanted to be somewhere else, but Parademon threatened to eat his throat if he didn't let Ragdoll sit there. Obviously he still chose to sit next to her specifically, but that's not quite a good flirting technique.
I obviously can't talk about Gail Simone's writing of Cheshire without mentioning orientalism. Cheshire in villains united and secret six is the final boss of the Asian baby mama trope. It could be that Thomas' apparent disinterested is simply orientalism on Simone's part, and I can't deny that most of their relationship is based on the harmful tropes surrounding Jade as an asian woman.
Looking at it from a simple character perspective: it seems that Thomas is just really uncomfortable with flirting.
However:
He immediately jumps on Helena Bertinelli. It's so uncharacteristic of him to do that that Scandal comments on it as "rather foward".
My interpretation is that Thomas is so deep in the naturalist connected to nature and the lions thing that he sees sexual desire as something that can be easily ignored, but the moment he finds someone romantically interesting he beelines for them. He basically proposed to Helena in this issue and, while that's a very relatable thing as Helena Bertinelli is a badass, it's not exactly something you just do.
All this to say that, while I don't personally think that Catman is in the aroace spectrum, I think he represses sexual desire until the subject to his attraction makes themself available. Even when posing the argument that trying to sleep with Jade in the situation they were in was a bad idea, trying to date Huntress, a known hero, while the Six and the BoP actively fought one another was also Not Ideal.
Recently Thomas and Minhkhoa Khan had a thing in 2023's DC pride special. This relationship puts a damn wrench in my theory but I have an idea. Thomas isn't as insane about Khoa as he was about Helena (I mean he wasn't spewing the "we'll be together til the sky falls apart" bs on him), but he's not cold and distant like he was with Cheshire either.
He very much flirts with Khoa, which could mean nothing but:
"Wanna cuddle?" When this is how he acts with Jade
This funnily enough makes Thomas one of the few characters in DC to be explicitly and undeniably cisgender
He desperately (and I do mean desperately) chases people he's romantically interested him. He doesn't turn down sex but he doesn't seek it out. Romance, on the other hand, he actively seeks out when someone is interesting to him, whether or not they initiate flirting or not is irrelevant when he wants to date somebody.
I do think he's romantically interested in Ghost-Maker but that this was a more recent development rather than something they started out on. Obviously there's literally nothing about their relationship out there other than a single panel in a Christmas special where they're apparently on a date, so this is just me being crazy about Catman and overanalyzing every little aspect of his character.
I should make one of those about his relationship with Floyd, that would be fun
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Further to Keeley saying yes to marrying Roy (definitely agree), how much would Roy only be asking because he thinks that's what you do. Like he's retired, he's forty, and all his former teammates are married/have kids. He's a traditional guy (kind of) - would he have waited for them to have been together for two years (or whatever) and then proposed because that's the next step?
Context: this is a follow-up to this 'unpopular opinion meme' ask where I said that (to me, etc) Keeley would've said yes if Roy ever asked her to marry him post S2.
In general, I just looove to overthink gender roles and performative heterosexuality with these characters, because the mix of sports series + juicy queer dynamics is like catnip to my brain — so thank you for this ask so I can ramble about it some more!
The thing is. I think Roy's actually not very traditional for a footballer (let alone a very famous one) simply because he's close to forty and he's never been married and doesn't have kids. Like, genuinely, that makes him a huge oddity in his set. If I were applying RL football logic to the football show that plays fast and loose with realism, I'd say that there must be a lot of speculation in-universe that Roy is gay. OR maybe he's had so many public short-term flings that there's only a little speculation — but there would still be people thinking it's strange. Just because "WAG and kids" is such a big aspect of how football stars are expected to perform masculinity, and Roy not having any of that (while at the same time performing a very specific brand of 'old school' tough guy masculinity) would make him a weird anomaly.
(When talking to non-sports fans, I usually find it useful to compare pro athletes to active-duty military personnel as two categories that on average start a family very young. It's a mix of a family providing more stability in a hectic career + expectations in those circles because everyone else is doing it + financial reasons that mean is more convenient to do it now than to wait)
(Again. Reflecting on social norms in footballers' circles makes me think a lot about what Keeley's expectations might have been pre-S1, when she kept dating footballers and moving in those same circles, whether the fact that she was with a young guy at 30 bothered her more than she let on, etc etc. This is also part of why I think she absolutely would say yes if Roy proposed — see also her reaction to Shandy saying that all their former flatmates "married footballers", which is just like "yeah, fair enough". I think pre-season 3 she just never saw her life going in a different direction, and was fine with it — at least until S3 made her consider stuff she might not have otherwise)
Anyway SORRY I went off!! Back to Roy — all that ramble was to say that, TO ME, if he wanted to be married, he absolutely would be already, way before the show started. It's something he must have considered earlier in life, just because it's a staple of the Ideal Footballer Career Path, and for whatever reason decided he wasn't keen on it. And it wasn't a one-off earlier — it's something people would have commented on it over and over, as all his teammates started families and he didn't, as the tabloid press speculated on his private life. It's not that he never had the opportunity; it's that he actively chose not to. So I'm not sure retirement would necessarily be the thing that makes him decide that "it's time" to get married. We see that in S2 he really throws himself into ~playing house~ with Keeley because he's trying to find a new life anchor after retirement, but idk if that would necessarily translate, to him, into "next step is getting married." Because, for someone in Roy's position, getting married would have been "the next step" ten years ago, and he was like, nah!
I also think that "when will Roy and Keeley get married" WAS an expectation that was very much present in the eyes of everyone who interacts with them, at least from the moment it became clear that they were serious and basically living together. Tabloid speculation, old friends of Roy who're also retired, friends and acquaintances of Keeley who also move in those 'D-list celebs / influencers / WAG' kind of circles. Their families, even; I have a very elaborate headcanon built off that one (1) throwaway line that Roy wanted to open the champagne when Keeley's mum "moved back north", that maybe Keeley's mother was a bit too happy to see her settled down with an older man for once, and they're living together, and he's very famous and very rich. My other headcanon is that Keeley dropped Shandy / her old friends after she got with Roy partly because there'd have been some wink-wink-nudge from those corners about "landing Roy Kent" (I have WAY too many thoughts about Keeley and Shandy, lol).
...Anyway. This is all to say. I think, between the two of them, Keeley might have been the one who vaguely considered that maybe marriage could be on the horizon as a next step, because she's a woman over 30 in circles where women over 30 get reminded of these things. Roy has the luxury of thinking about it less, because he decided years before the show that he wasn't going to get pressured into an early marriage just because it's The Done Thing.
I can believe Keeley and Roy never discussed marriage all through the year-odd they were dating, but I bet multiple people brought it up to Keeley unprompted, and to Roy also but to a lesser extent, and he was able to shrug it off way more easily. Keeley is probably dodging old friends who text her happy birthday and then are like "how are things going with RoyKent(TM)??" wink. babe you landed the big fish!! etc. etc.
SORRY THIS GOT SO LONG! this is like 80% headcanons that's partly inspired by me being A Sports Fan, partly by me overthinking Keeley's narrative, especially in S1 and S2 when she was still allowed to have neuroses and a meaningful friendship with Rebecca. But I'm ALWAYS thinking about Roy/Keeley not only as a ship but also in the context of the very specific gendered dynamics that exist among top-flight footballers and their partners, especially in the UK. It's just anthropologically fascinating to me, and I think S1 especially does a very good job of hinting at all the various nuances with Keeley's character.
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I know this sounds very chronically online but like I'm so disappointed in Joseph rn.
I would've been happy if he dated literally anyone else but he chose DOJA? The self-hating mixed girl who doesn't even claim her black side, degrades her own race and is still in those racist chatrooms, defended her ex boyfriend who SA'd someone and he ended up admitting to it along with Doja attacking any person who talked about it, and is one of the most ungrateful artists on the platform.
This is just so disappointing. Honestly thought he was better than this but I guess not.
I've been a fan since 2022 and this is really warping how I see him as a person.... He has the right to date anyone he wants but really what does this say about him as a person if he is actively choosing to be with Doja...
Honestly me too
I'm disappointed and a little angry that he's seemingly looking past all her actions and for what? So he can get some?
Like on one hand, I want to believe it's PR and all those people just trying to take the "guitar playing metalhead guy off of that one Netflix show" title off him. And that he's just acting, literally acting as in his job, unbothered in those photos and videos. But on the other...well, you know.
Its all so disappointing because he was one of the good ones that kept his record clean, and now this is happening and after all that work to keep a good reputation, silence? Really?
And it's not like he doesn't know about how everyone feels about this. His insta comments have made him well-aware if he wasn't before of all those disgusting things she's done, and the article on British Vogue mentions it too, though when he says "I've been away for a month, they're all very cross with me", they literally try to word it like he's talking about his fucking plants.
Like you cannot work this hard to keep your reputation good then throw it to shit and say what, a sentence about it in an interview? Hardly that.
Obviously he's a grown man and can do what he wants, but when that whatever you want is dating someone like Doja Cat, fuckin DOJA CAT?? Grown ass man or not, those actions will have consequences and you will have to deal with them.
I haven't made a post talking about it cuz I don't want people to call me chronically online, which I assume is the reason you sent anonymously (?) but there's my two cents on it.
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Day 14: A fic rated T
One Night at the Leaky by birdofshore
Drarry | 11.2k words
Why I recommend it:
I just love reading about these characters being young and stupid and having fun!
And all the main players make an appearance in this fic, even the ones you wouldn't expect, like Greg Goyle.
I think it kind of soothes something in me to read about them doing all the normal things people do in their early 20s like getting pissed at a pub with your friends and letting them take the mickey out of you because you're crushing hard on someone!
It's as if, after the war, they all eventually got to the point of living normal, ordinary lives doing normal, ordinary things. I suppose it’s what I most hope for, for these characters, and this fic nailed it 👌🏽
Caution ⚠️ Slight Spoilers Ahead ⚠️
The other reason I like this fic is because Harry was so in-his-feelings about Draco. He was completely sensitive and protective about it and slightly insecure—the way people tend to be when they're really like someone. There was also a very subtle role-reversal from what we see in the books where Draco got to be handsome, smooth & cool and Harry is one that is more unsure of himself.
At first, he wanted to win the jeopardy round to protect his beloved broom but when he realized that Draco might feel the same way about him, and that he only threatened to take the broom to spur Harry into winning the date with him, it wasn't about winning the game or protecting the broom anymore. It was about earning the date, reminiscent of the way Luna kept gabbing about winning the hand of the princess!
Except, it wasn't a princess, it was a prince. And it wasn't a daring quest, it was a pint of Gamp's! 🤣
Harry really wanted that date and he went about getting it in the most Gryffindor way possible 🤣
(Side note: I first discovered how much I love this particular trope when I read baby, i'd victoria your secret anytime It isn't a HP fic but it gave me readers-high. It became a blueprint for something I now actively search for in fiction!)
I'm not going to lie, this is one of my favourite tropes in fanfiction. Imagine you're reading a love confession between two characters but the confession itself happens in a very unorthodox way. It isn't romantic in the classical sense of the word, but something about the way it happens is very authentic and holds the essence of that particular character or reveals something true about who they are as people. I feel I don't come across it nearly enough so I always cherish it when I do!
That's what this fic did, the only difference was that that instead of a love confession, it was courtship ritual. A ceremonial declaration of intent without the "ceremony".
Harry didn't have to do it. He already knew by that point in the story that Draco was into him, Draco even offered him to help him win on the sly but Harry chose not to. It was like wanted to prove to Draco how much he believed him to be worth it. Worthy of the extra step. Worthy going to the effort. That's why for me this fic was an absolute win!
Good cheer! Alcohol! And the kind of friends who support you and bully you into reaching for the things you want most!
Such a gem to read! Highly highly recommend!
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The notes are so funny bc here are the 'downsides of being an only child' that are literally not unique to being an only child and more of a parenting/situational thing really:
- "It's lonely!/Siblings are built-in friends!" One of my brothers played with me out of a sense of necessity because we were not allowed to be with other kids and he deeply resented me for that, which made for a bad relationship and me being extremely alone all the time anyway. I'd rather have skipped the hatred (on his part) and heart break (on mine) and gone directly to playing alone. I have literally never had an intimate conversation with any of my 3 brothers (except literally One time with one of them) but I've had countless of horrid fights (with me or witnessed). Hell is other people, etc.
- "All the attention is suffocating!" I was monitored 24/7 and pretty much never left alone, up to a point where my bathroom time was also monitored. My brother actively and voluntarily participated in the monitoring at some points.
- "You get unconditional support as an adult!" I've been in a lot of trouble since I was 17 and they've never helped, not materially or emotionally.
-"You have more people to build happy memories with!" My brother got married 3 days before I was back in the country (he set the date way after I had bought my plane tickets and also he actively chose to hide it from me) and still blames me for being upset because "it was a ceremony for closed loved ones only anyway" (I guess I wasn't counted!). That's just the most egregious examples in a long, long list.
I get grass is greener ect but what bothers me is that it reinforces the idea that sibling relationships are *always* a net positive, in a very "nuclear family is sacred" way
Like I'm not venting for the sake of it, I've been no contact for 4 years and it's great, I'm just frustrated that it's so goddamn hard to get people to acknowledge sibling abuse, or even get them to *not* perform shocked incredulity at the idea. Especially on tumblr, THE website where people talk about parental abuse all the time and understand that sometimes you really cannot salvage the relationship and it truly is detrimental
All I'm saying is stop assuming that things would be better with a sibling around. You don't know that! Believe me, things could be so much worse with a sibling around.
The good news is you get to choose your friends and siblings as an adult! :) Life can be sweet not matter who your nuclear family is! You're not a failure for not experiencing the hegemonic ideal of siblinghood! It's okay!
#sibling abuse#this is wild to me#and concerning bc again its this mentality that prevented me from cutting contact earlier#which would have greatly improved my early twenties#this is not me saying that cutting family off is the only option yada yada i hate this disclaimer#sometimes when you are lucky enough that you're not financially dependent on them it is the best option though#also i hate the sentiment that its the parents who have failed if siblings dont get along#in some ways yes but sometimes the circumstances are so out of the parents control and this is a very punitive framework#the main reason why my mother cant accept my decision is because she had deeply internalized that she has failed her entire life#because i cut bridges#which is horrifying! Ive told her many times that im beyond assigning blame and i dont think its a personal failing of hers#but the societal expectation is so deeply ingrained#truly at this point theres nothing she can do and ive told her explicitly that i want her to be happy and let it go#like its so crazy i dont tell people irl that im no contact with my brothers because the judgment is so pervasive#literally theyre doing well im doing well (minus the illness lol) who cares!#god the notes are worse than i thought... so much suspicion at people who have siblings and say they would rather not#someone literally its 'evil'#we're never making it out of the nuclear family mentality
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Sorta snz, mostly just kink ramblings.
I went to my first munch last night, which is a type of casual social event that started off as a BDSM community thing, but which now has some overlap in the general kink and polyamory communities. They are completely vanilla events, just a way to meet other people in the local community. I found the event through FetLife, which I am not very active on but happened to log into while battling insomnia in the early hours of Saturday morning.
It was a board game night at the gaming store we just happen to go to on Tuesdays for board game night (they do board game events several nights every week). To be clear, the game store was hosting a normal, vanilla game night, and the FetLife group chose it as the location for the munch. The store had nothing to do with the munch itself and likely didn't even know that the group was anything but a normal friend group playing games.
I initially wanted to go because my husband has been having a really rough time connecting with anyone on dating apps, so I was hoping that an in-person event might work out better, but I ended up being the only femme person there 🙃
It definitely felt kinda awkward sitting there as the only female-presenting person in this group of dudes who could, if they hadn't already, look up my FetLife profile from the list of attendees at any time and find out what gets my rocks off 😣
It wasn't a bad experience per se, but it also wasn't what either of us was hoping for. We may try a different one next month which is a little further away distance-wise but seems to draw a larger crowd. That one's also at a coffee shop, which we both think is a better setting for chatting and getting to know people than playing a competitive game at a larger vanilla game event.
(To make things even more awkward and uncomfortable, and because I never get to have fun reactions to anything, the dude sitting next to me was wearing this really cloying fragrance, and by the end of the night I felt like I couldn't get a full breath because my chest was so damned tight 😭 No reaction in my nose whatsoever. It's like the universe said, "You wanted sneezing? Oh, we thought you said wheezing. Sorry, no takebacksies.")
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Since you're the MJ expert, I have a question for you about a thing that's been confusing me. You said he was a shy guy that wasn't comfortable getting too explicitly sexual and didn't like how his brothers treated the women they slept with, but that he also flirted with fans and the In The Closet video is just him getting it on with a model. Was he really not okay with that kind of stuff or did he just say so because he didn't want another stain on his reputation?
I am far from an expert, but let's hope I can help you understand it better.
The part involving the fans is kind of comparing apples to oranges.
Michael didn't like being forced to hear/see his brothers having sex with fans in the same room he had to share with them, not just because he was a kid (raised by a VERY religious mother) but also because who the hell wants to be in that situation? It's awkward and kinda gross at best, and a severe violation of boundaries at worse.
And Michael's disaproval of how his brothers behaved wasn't just about the sex itself - it was about his brother's spying on women to see them undress without their consent, or ignoring a girl's discomfort when she wasn't fully okay with having sex next to a 7-year-old, or taking a fan's virginity and then IMMEDIATELY kicking her out of the room and telling her to never try looking for them again, or treating the girls so poorly Michael was scared they had been raped.
This is all very different from cheeky flirting and taking a fan's number - which was the level of flirting Michael was comfortable with, at least on camera. And considering all the women that were involved with Michael at some point, some of which were not exactly on good terms with him after it, not once ever described him being disrespectful or cruel like his brothers, and claim that he was indeed shy and VERY insecure but did still like to flirt, I'd say neither one nor the other was an act for the cameras.
Plus, there's the obvious factor of "A 40-year-old man that has actually flirted, dated, slept with women and has been married and divorced twice is not gonna behave the same way as a child/teenager that is constantly being forced into situations he has repeatedly said he is not comfortable with (be it dealing with relatives that are having sex with someone literally right next to him, or being locked in a room with two prostitutes because some weird adults having a problem with a 15-year-old boy being a virgin)"
But you are correct for assuming some of Michael's public behavior was based on him (and his managers) wanting to have more control over his image and wanting people to see him as something not fully accurate to the real MJ - you just picked the wrong part of his behavior to question, because the shyness was always genuine, but the sexual stuff sometimes wasn't.
Michael had been target of gay rumors for a LONG time - from the mid 70s till today. And while nowadays an artist being gay, or at least seen as such, would not be a big deal, back then it was a scandal - and Michael had been getting labeled as a bad influence by some conservatives because of his "ambiguous/feminine/androgynous look."
The Bad Era was him starting to embrace a more edgy, masculine, very clearly straight and sexually active persona - they even chose the girl for the "The Way You Make Me Feel" video based on the fact that Michael thought she was hot and she had a major crush on him. He was still supposed to be single, to avoid ruining the fans dream that one of them could totally be his wife someday, but he was now not just allowed to desmontrate interest in women, he had to prove said interest did in fact exist.
The Dangerous Era was supposed to be the follow up to that - and "In The Closet", which is about a secret affair, was originally meant to be a duet between him and Madonna of all people, but that ended up not happening because:
1 - She was FAR more comfortable with being VERY explicit in her lyrics and videos than he was.
2 - She wanted to toy with the "In The Closet" concept, by presenting as male while Michael would present as female - which was the exact opposite of what MJ wanted, since the ironic name of the song is a very clearly meant to subvert the public's expectation that at any second Michael would be coming out as not straight.
3 - Their personalities did not mesh at all, and Michael genuinely did not like Madonna.
When that plan was scrapped, they went for a different approach, that would be faking the "reveal" of a secret, scandalous affair between Michael and the girl that provided the vocals for the song, with "In The Closet" sort of being the "couple's" response to the media speculation - but that idea also ended up not being used.
So, they settled for Michael just picking a model he liked, and the two of them having fun on camera - and even though Michael enjoyed hanging out, working and flirting with Naomi, he also said, in a private conversation with a friend that he had no idea was being recorded, that he did not like doing the more explicit parts of the video, and some scenes (like her basically grinding on his lap) ended up being cut.
He was also NOT happy about how the crew kept telling the girl to get more aggressive and touch him more despite not wanting to because Michael was repeatedly saying to everyone present that he wasn't comfortable with that (seriously, IMAGINE the outrage a situation like that, with the genders reversed, would cause today).
Then the disaster happened. The false accusations of child molestation were all over the media, and the gossip went from "Hahaha, is MJ a faggot?" to "Should he be in jail forever?"
From that moment on, whatever privacy Michael was still desperately holding onto went right out the window. His relationship with Lisa Marie Presley became public, as well as the fact that he had been making moves on her while she was still with her first husband, and the two of them were repeatedly asked "Okay, but do you guys actually fuck?" and very much not believed each time they confirmed it.
Their messy divorce, Michael's second marriage (that was all about him getting to be a dad, with the wife not even living with him and the kids), and their on-again-off-again affair/relationship during said marriage was also very public.
So while I do think Michael's cheeky flirting with fans later in life was genuine, just like his first marriage, it's pretty clear that there's a reason everyone suddenly got to take a look at his private life - it was further proof of his innocence.
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Idk if anyone has ever told you this but I am stupidly excited every time you post something abt Nawa
I was never exposed to Filipino Mythology as often like Greek or Chinese. It kind of made me lose touch with the mythology my mom grew up on.
So seeing your character and the mythology she’s based off of really got me going to get into Filipino creatures :^D
aha!! same!! i don't really see much media of philippine mythology outside of the country, and i didn't want to accidentally offend people when i make a chinese oc because i made a mistake
below the (read more) option is some concepts and early designs of nawa!! (mostly me just rambling ab nawa's history as a character)
february 2022, the earliest known design of her was made in gacha club.
she wasn't filipino yet (chinese-japanese actually) and was named "yurei zhou"
i didn't even bother researching the last name because i was that ignorant.
we don't talk about this era because i am ashamed of it. what an embarrassing time.
if anyone is reading this i'm sorry for doing that :(
this was created march 4, 2022 according to my ibispaint x files, and is the very first naotian/lunarnoodles art i made.
by this time, i was simping for mk because i loved dorks (and still do to this day)
back then, she didn't really wear the sleeveless turtleneck thing, it was a black turtleneck dress (WITH SLEEVES!! 🤯) underneath a a short jacket/vest.
her name was also changed to "yue zhou" because at this point, i realized that "why the heck would i name her yurei zhou if i'm not japanese? that's weird."
i also haven't decided whether she was purely filipino or filipino-chinese
she had red shoes and frankly, i don't know why i chose that. honestly it was an eyesore.
next up we got a more-LEGO looking concept (dated march 8, 2022)
her name was changed to nawa (no last name yet), because i realized "wow, i am not chinese either!!" and said "FILIPINOFICATION BEAM ACTIVATE!!! 🇵🇭🇵🇭🇵🇭" and now she's turned fully filipino
for some reason, her horns also changed to black like thoma's from genshin.
by march 30, 2022, her horns had turned to gold with violet edges, with two slits. however, her shoes were still red, and had gold pins on her jacket.
she still had no bell because there was no backstory formed for her at the moment.
october, 2022 came, and i went "ooo i don't wanna misinterpret chinese mythology" so i turned to filipino mythology instead
her backstory used to be something like this;
"chang'e used to be best friends with an ancestor of nawa's (even gave the ancestor the bell as a gift), until that ancestor tried to eat the moon so the celestial realm banished that ancestor inside the bell and was passed down to her descendants. nawa tags along with mk in s3 to return the bell as an apology to chang'e because the ancestor had wanted to apologize and was haunting her descendants to do that for her"
obviously that's not the backstory and plans anymore, and lualhati (the ancestor) was eventually scrapped
her last name, "elyas" was eventually formed and taken from the character "elias" from one of jose rizal's (a hero in philippine history) book's noli me tangere, because at the time, a show called "maria clara at ibarra" aired at october 3, 2022, and i got so hooked on the show that i made her last name elyas.
then february, 2023 came and i was like "my gosh,,, her backstory is garbage,,," and revamped everything.
i wanted her to be more fleshed out, but i still didn't think of a full backstory yet-
and because I was impulsive and not thinking, i still made her a reference
late february, 2022 came and i said "so, she has bakunawa blood, right? why not give her a DRAGON FORM?"
at this point, i made her accidentally kill her sister (she was being silly and goofy guys) (YOU SINK INTO MY CLOTHES 🐺🐺🌙), made her despise her bakunawa heritage after that and gave her trauma (because that builds character!!!)
i also made her mother (who was originally kind in the fanfiction) into someone who blames her for her sister's death and be the one to give her the bell
and now we land here, early march of 2023, so i said "what if she actually recovered from that trauma i gave her? 👉🏽👈🏽 and what can i do to make her more associated with the moon?"
so the idea of mk helping her heal and love all of herself and her "imperfections" was born!!
(according to the wiki, mk thinks that there is perfection in imperfection, goofy lil dude <33)
her hair turned white because nawa came to love her bakunawa side, and because of that- she became more in tune with haliya's (the filipino moon goddess) side (who loved bakunawa so much to the point that it still resonates through her descendants.)
i also gave her fins, barbels and a tail cuz why not?
of course, her natural hair color is still brown/auburn, but it only appears when she's "de-powered" or something happened to take her powers away (it takes away her bakunawa features too)
and i think that's the stuff i can recall at the moment,,, i'll add more stuff once i remember
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Hiiii, I really like it when you share with us the thoughts you have about ysblf! What did you think of that second "meeting" between Patricia and Daniel? The one where she goes to his apartment after calling him out on her cell phone and he told her to resign (and minutes later she finds Aura Maria with Mario). I always see people talking about their first "date", which was at her apartment, but in my opinion this second one was much more disturbing. This one had more blackmail, manipulation and ab\/s3 involved, which made everything sadder. Not to mention the way Daniel treated Patricia afterwards, due to her logical reaction, him sending her away soon after, had a strong impact on her (which makes me wonder about her backstory, and if this has happened before with other people
It really irritates me that they didn't give much insight into Patricia's past, I think that would explain a lot about her).
ps: sorry if I made any mistakes, I'm translating using Google Translate
Hiii! Thank you for the ask!! Don't worry about mistakes, this was very good!😊
Oh, that scene! It's definitely so, so ugly. I'd say is one of the ugliest because of the heavy themes. Fun act, I just rewatched the whole ysblf here in the US on the Peacock platform and it doesn't have the scene after, when they're on Daniel's bed and he's breathing heavily nd all that. Idk why's that, but I definitely want to rewatch the full uncensored versión again lster
The "date" escene is bad, but I don't think that anything there ((except the sexual harrassment, obviously)) makes me uncomfortable. Daniel quickly detected a golddigger with Princess delusions even though she's pretty pathetic, so he popped her bubble. She wasn't going there with a genuine desire of getting to know Daniel. She simply wanted a walking ATM, and Daniel knew that. She was just looking for a plan B in case her "relationship" with Mario didn't lead to economic comfort. (((You gotta be smart even to golddig, ppl lol)))
But THAT escene, when Patricia goes to Daniel's place to basically beg forgiveness, and Daniel takes advantage of it is so, so ugly, uncomfortable, and raw. We are presented a very human and vulnerable Patricia in a way that we didn't get to see much. We didn't see a walking comedy skit like she later became, but an actual woman who fell so hard that she's now having to accept being coerced into sexual favors because otherwise she'll be consumed by poverty. It's a very sad and human story. And yes, we know Patricia acted very wrongfully by damaging the computer, but that's nothing compared to what Daniel made her pay.
Daniel liked to humiliate people, especially those from whom he could get a reaction, like Armando and Patricia. Notice he barely ever bothers Mario, for example? Or Hugo? Sure, he gives poisoned comments to almost everyone, but you can tell he likes to particularly humiliates those who won't take it lightly and will break easily OR pretend to be more than they are ((ironic considering this dude conskders himself classy, rich, and smart and we know he isn't lmao)).
In any case, Patricia was the perfect target as she fits noth categories anyway, and he chose to humiliate her to the biggest degree in that scene when he sends her away. He is saying she is useless but for sex. That all she is and can ever be for a man like him is momentary fun. That all she prides herself in are mere facades and delusions and there is no value on her but her body. And of course, he's told her this before, but in this scene he actively demonstrates it.
The characters' backgrounds are somrthing that we really needed! Patricia is one of those characters that as the novela progresses it's easy to forget how real and human her problems are, and it's understandable the audience has that perception. The novela took her extreme poverty and made a joke out of it. But she really fell low due fully to her ego. She was coerced into sexual favors, and later basically sells herself to Nicolás for the money for her car. She goes so down to the point she doesn't eat for days. Her fridge is empty, she has no electricity some days, cold water. And sure, it's a grave that she keeps digging deeper and deeper with every idiotic decision; a hell of her own creation, but a hell none the less!
My guess for Patricia's past has always been that she was born into extravagabt luxury, not just money. Either her mother was similar to her in her grandiose and vain ways and instilled that mentality on Patricia, or maybe she died when Patricia was too little. Her dad definitely seems the kind to be trying to supply every single materia thing. Perhaps this was his way to fill the void that her mom left in her. They seem to get along, tho. We see her calling him all the time tk tell him good and bad things happenjng in her life, so we can say they're pretty close, but with firm boundaries from her dad's side. I imagine she lived on his expense for a long time and he's now done with it.
Thank you for the ask🥰🥰
#ysblf#yo soy betty la fea#betty la fea#patricia ysblf#patricia fernandez#daniel ysblf#daniel valencia
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For the weekly theme: first dates!!!
Hi Mod 🎀! This time I got inspired by your response to my previous ask, so I wrote a lil blurb that's set in the Hermittown Fae!AU as well! It's also poly!teamZIT, just because I feel like their chaotic energy fits this prompt a lot
Tango is still a fiery Blaze with a love for tinkering with weird inventions, Zedaph is some sort of satyr/goat creature who knows wayyyy too much about the human body for someone who never went to med school, and Impulse is a demon with a calm demeanor, and a love for gold (but he loves his partners even more!!!)
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Zedaph, Impulse, and Tango have always been a team. They just seemed to understand one another without words. They hung out a lot together, sometimes working on Redstone creations, or sometimes just enjoying one another's company on lazy afternoons
So it wasn't really a surprise when their love for one another started to turn romantic. No one really remembered who started the topic, who proposed a date, or who mentioned that a meadow near Tango's mansion was full of flowers this time of the year, but all those things led to the current moment - the trio enjoying a delightful picnic, watching as the sun slowly set behind tall trees surrounding all of Hermittown
But the peaceful atmosphere didn't last too long, unfortunately. Soon enough Zed's ears twitched, catching the softest, quiet rustle of clothing ripping on tree branches. He alerted his partners, and all three of them looked towards the path leading from the town itself to Tango's mansion
Sure enough, a group of people stumbled from inbetween the trees. They paused, shocked at the sight of "fellow humans" peacefully picknicking in the middle of "very haunted" area
Impulse wanted to laugh at how much "ghost-hunting" equipment they had on them. Between all of them, they enough knick-knacks to put even Mumbo's curiosity shop to shame
The wannabe ghost hunters definitely lacked good manners, as instead of backing away from what very clearly was a date, they started to set up their weird machines. A choir of beeps and clicks soon filled the clearing, all of the machines going haywire from being so close to Zed, Impulse, and Tango. The dials and buttons soon flashed brightly, all pointing to the direction of the picnic blanket
Oh hell no. The humans will soon realise that the throuple was not sitting on a particularly active spot, but in fact they WERE the very reason why the equipment was going crazy in the first place
Tango didn't think twice, he grabbed his partners' hands and made a beeline for his mansion, abandoning their food. Maybe those stupid humans could follow them into the building, but they sure as hell were NOT prepared for what awaited them there. Tango's current priority was to get all three of them to safety, consequences be damned
The trio quickly rushed through the door into the mansion's main hall, up the stairs, and onto a narrow balcony overlooking all of the ground floor of the building. A few quick spells cast by Impulse made sure he and his partners remained hidden from the humans, unseen and unheard. The trio held their breath, waiting for the mansion's self-defence mechanisms to kick in
But none of those traps (or fun inventions, as Tango and Zed called them) managed to showcase how they worked. Before the humans even got close to them, one of Tango's pet Ravagers (magicked invisible by Impulse, to protect them from humans) chose that exact moment to stuff her face into one of the flower pots at the bottom of the mansion's staircase. Poor thing got a faceful of pollen, and then proceeded into a sneezing fit
Who would have thought that the roar-like seezes would be so effective in spooking the annoying humans! Tango almost fell down from the balcony with how hard he was laughing. Impulse kept on snickering as well, while Zedaph watched in wonder as the humans tripped over their own feet and equipment in their haste to leave the mansion's main hall
Ever since that day, the town, and especially the mansion, started gaining a reputation. People stopped seeing that area as a supernatural hotspot where they could take a selfie with a fully lit up EMF reader next to them. Instead, a veil of mystery wrapped the whole town, as the outsiders accepted that nothing bad will happen to them, as long as they keep their distance from the town's odd inhabitants
As thanks, the Ravager herself got plently of head scritches and treats from all the Hermits, but especially from Zed, Impulse, and Tango
And later on, during their wedding, she was the one carrying the box with matching netherite rings down the isle, towards the beaming throuple. It was a lovely throwback to their eventful first date
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The three are unapologetic about the reputation they gave the village because of their date. Impulse still wonders what the humans must've thought of than, but he's not found any posts about it. Clearly, they scared those humans perfectly.
Thankfully, their wedding has no interruptions by annoying, curious humans. Not any that aren't invited, anyway. The other occupants of the town were very happy to scare people away from the wedding day.
#hermitshipping#ask#impulse tag#tango tag#zedaph tag#poly zit#🌠 anon#mod 🎀#weekly theme: first dates
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Reasons why I`m not giving up on canon buddie after season 6
btw remember you always have fanon. And buddie is pretty popular ship. ao3 is always here to have your back
I'm just will hope till every last episode
Buck should have chose his couch by himself. But also thing he should have stopped to be scared to "make a mistake again". Buck decided to try it with Natalia. It doesn't mean they are 100% are going to be together. He just let himself to try to live without fear of making mistakes. Because you cant live without them. Because you always is going to make mistakes in something. But you should allow yourself to live and learn from them
Also Buck asked her "to help him to pick a new couch". Not picking for him. Not just bringing her couch. He wants to be active in relationship now, and he wants the person he consider as a possible future partner to be with him in this. But the word "help" is interested. Something telling me Buck sees Natalia as a way to deal with his death. And I dont believe he is accepted this fact.
Maybe Buck is ready to try to be active in relationship we still needs to see if Natalia is ready for be with Buck at his worst and let him be with her at her worst (but for now she just run away after bad dates)
Eddie never just date people. He never had fun. And all this years he was closed after Shannon. He needs to try to open his heart a little bit, try to date someone for himself and answer what he wants. For now he is just excited to make something for himself. And it's amazing. But you can't always make it easy. Problems in relationship sooner or later will be here (fantasy vs reality). It can't be just "magic" every day. Can't be the best day every day. And Marisol was here as a perfect answer for Eddie's attempts to find magic in "dream" T-shirt
Eddie is scared to be alone, but we never heard him to name what exactly he wants from partner FOR HIMSELF. Never said what love for him. He always tried to connect again/find a mother for Chris, not partner for himself. Dates with Marisol is a good opportunity for him to think about what he wants. And how to make it reality
And here we can remember the "so many excellent choices right under his nose". It's about both of them. Eddie for years was closed after Shannon, believed he wasn't good romantic partner ("I wasn't enough"). Buck was making mistakes trying to cling to people and then scared to make mistakes again so tried to close himself from romantic relationship. He wanted real love all his life but settled to less because never believed he could have more. They both were creating their partnership with hearts close to real love, close to even let them try to see it. So yes they don't see each other as a romantic partner for now. They can't see the answer right in front of them. And before see each other they need stop to close and hide themselves, stop to be scared to make mistakes. And they are trying to do it now but with other people. It doesn't mean this people are their engame choices
If 911 creators really wants people to like LI for Buck and Eddie they should give them normal screen time and backstories and really good development on screen. And I can't see how they can do it with Marisol and Natalia even if abc will make it 22 episodes. They both for now is just LI characters and it`s boring. Their works also can't be put in the show for them to be not Ali/Ana again. Because Taylor at least somehow could be close to calls and her job made sense to be shown.
I'm still see couch as metaphor for Buckley-Diaz family. Because what was the point of introducing it like that? Family dinner. And Chris first started conversation. If it's not about Chris and Eddie, they could make it conversation with Maddie, Bobby or just with Eddie while they drink bear and talk about life. But it wasn't like that. it was cute family dinner with family recipe, with a board game
"Dating someone from the call..." Both met their new LI on calls
#911 spoilers#buddie#I'm tired and going to sleep so maybe it has 0 sense#anyway buddie canon I'm not giving up
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