#very personal I’m sorry
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The love of your life?
You enable me when it’s fun for you, (you wanna see angels as much as I do, you said it yourself). Don’t you remember the nights in LA, the world you convinced me we created. You hurt me, betrayed me, just like my last best friend, which is where the dagger has buried itself the deepest. I feel it between my lungs when I try and fall asleep, breathing doesn’t come easy when you are newly clean and kicked like a mutt… I know you used HER words on purpose, manipulation runs through your blood, more than oxygen and platelets. Contact a nurse.
When we are alone in a world we made up, two minds existing as a single cell organism; all neon lights and hand plucked music; laughter big enough to fill the whole sky with constellations… even if they are a bit confusing to decipher… You’re telling me that was all a hoax? I delete the pictures of us, I remove myself from the playlist (your taste is pedestrian at best anyways, other than the few songs the whole world knows are good. Who doesn’t like frank ocean, Lorde, and phoebe Bridgers. Do you even know another The Mountain Goats song???).
I refuse to play pretend anymore.
When I make a mistake you take me down a peg just because you can, when you remember you’re dealing with a problem not a person, then you treat me like yesterdays garbage; rotten putrid, you don’t even know where it came from (or pretend you don’t) in order to save face in front of girls you barely know. I’m glad you got your happily ever after, with the person you told me you were only staying with to get your birthday gifts, the girl who made you a cake that you immediately told me was ugly and not instagram worthy? and all I got was a hole shaped like a girl who I thought was every beautiful thing this stupid world had to offer. But I know girls like that, and they look nothing like you, they have a beauty that holds you like a mother’s arms.
The thing is, there are good people, you’re just not one of them, you want a free score because I have the money, so go ahead take my pharmaceuticals even though you have a fucking prescription and laugh at me when I fall.
Get an education, make something of yourself, do something with your miserable life, books about wizards are only gonna get you so far, and at least now I don’t have to pretend like that’s not embarrassing …
Real love comes, and I’m starting to get a taste for it, let me wash myself of this era, this liar “people pleaser” nonsense. I have room for friends with one face, Thomas, Joey, Bo, glo, joy, Morgan, and all the people I still get to meet. You have a lot of growing to do, but may we never pretend to share the same heart beat again, I pray for the next person that gets caught in your dirty fingers, god, I hope they find the sun.
#mine#text#rant/freeverse#for E#for evil#spilled thoughts#confessional poetry#very personal I’m sorry
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#bro is going through it#also what a drama queen#yes a separate photo dump for Al was 100% necessary#I am very normal about him wdym#hazbin hotel#hazbin#hazbin hotel alastor#alastor#hazbin alastor#alastor hazbin hotel#alastor the radio demon#hazbin hotel spoilers#hazbin hotel screenshots#my post#I’m so sorry to the person who was asking about image descriptions#I don’t know how to do that#aaaaa please forgive me
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List of “it’s all about the kisses but add just a lil’ flavouring to it” prompts
Character B pulling Character A closer by the small of their back/their waist as things get extremely heated (FUCKING JUST TAKE ME RIGHT THEN AND THERE YES YES YES YE SYE E-FJEWOINFW’LFNK i am malfuncTIONING YOUR HONOUR-)
Character A carding their fingers through Character’s hair
Character A letting slip soft little noises as they kiss
Character B letting their lips wander all over Character A’s face before pressing their lips against theirs again, stealing their breath away with another kiss
Character A’s hands slipping up Character B’s shirt, palms splaying on their back; fingers tracing down their spine
Character A giggling when Character B trails kisses down to their neck because they’re sensitive/ticklish there, which causes Character B to laugh along with them (LKNEWFLKNWFEN PLEAAASSSEEE I WILL CRYERWUIRB)
Character A pulling Character B closer by the nape of their neck
Smiling/laughing into the kiss (JUST. YES. YES. YES. A MILLION YESSES. GREEN FLAGS ALL AROUND IDFC WHAT YOU SAY)
When it goes from innocent little pecks to them making out (What can I say? What can I say?? WHAT CAN I SAYYYYYYY?)
Character B’s hand stroking the side of Character A’s thigh as they kiss
Hands roaming all over each other
Character B pulling away, exhaling a soft laugh as they hold Character A closer to them. “You good?” they ask, and Character A nods. “Yeah. Yeah, I’m good,” Character A murmurs, smiling a little as they hide their face on the crook of their neck, cheeks a little more flushed than usual. (PL EAS EE THAT LITTLE GIGGLE OF HIS WILL ALWAYS BE MY FAVOURITE THING ABOUT HIM WQRNEW;LKN’FKN and the check ins THE SWEETEST MAN FRRR)
#WHAT CAN I SAY POOKIE THIS IS BASED ON PERSONAL EXPERIENCE ONCEE AAGGAAIIINNN#i’m sorry this is very out of left field but i think i’m in love with prayag lfnweflkn ANYWAY#cat guy chronicles#prompts#dialogue prompts#writing prompts#otp prompts#kissing prompts#kiss prompts
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Everything reminds me of him
Oh and also I love my fellow fags
#baldur’s gate 3#bg3#baldur’s gate iii#astarion#astarion ancunin#ghoulhag I’m so sorry if you see this#and if anyone reads these tags you are contractually obligated to buy the next trans person you see a coffee or tea of their choosing#if you're trans and can see your reflection in your screen right now? You deserve a little treat go get yourself a hot cocoa#i love you very much
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“Jason was so boring” “Jason had no personality” what are you talking about
Jason Grace was a child soldier and the son of the KING OF THE GODS. The pressure on him was so huge and the training of the Roman legions was so intense all he ever really did was train. As soon as he was old enough he was put in positions of leadership and power cause he’s the son of Jupiter, leader of the gods, he must be a natural born leader, right?
But his entire character arc revolves around him realising that he can be more than what the Romans made him into, that he can have his own opinions, his own hobbies, love who he wants, live where he wants.
He was the first person to start defending Nico, the first to accept Nico and tell him sincerely that there was nothing wrong with him and that everyone at BOTH camps would accept him and have his back - and if they didn’t they’d have Jason to answer to.
He was sure to always give Reyna the credit she deserved and constantly felt guilty for when he made her shoulder the responsibilities. Throughout HoH he’s got half of his mind on her, praying she’s okay, tracking her progress in his dreams because gods FORBID anything happen to that brilliant woman whom he loved platonically but wholeheartedly.
When they found Leo again after he was at Ogygia, Jason recognised in an instant just from the way Leo was sitting that something was off. When everyone pestered him with questions, Jason took charge to get the limelight off of Leo as much as possible, and checked in with him the minute they were alone.
Jason Grace is fiercely loving, always looks out for those who need support, always sides with the underdogs, always does what’s right even when it’s hard, often does what’s expected even when he doesn’t want to, but if he can take the burden off of someone else he will ALWAYS step up.
He has the honour and bravery of a soldier and carries all of the trauma and doubt that comes with it.
And on top of all of this he was just sixteen years old.
Jason Grace isn’t boring, it just took some time for us to understand why he acts the way he does - always composed and in charge. He is not perfect, but he was always trained/expected to be, and watching the perfect mask crack and seeing his true inner thoughts throughout HoO is what makes his character so interesting.
#sorry that was long#but now that he’s gone I just feel very protective of him#jason grace was never boring#and I’m really sad we never got to see him fully grow into his own person#I LIVED for his interactions with Nico#he was like the big brother he never had#and his moments with Percy were also amazing#jason grace#heroes of olympus#percy jackson#percy jackon and the olympians#nico di angelo#reyna avila ramirez arellano#leo valdez
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The annual ballpoint pallanoph in celebration of clinging to this rocky sphere for one more year (despite appearances) was delayed by a few days. Oops! I’m not dead, just growing older.
Art is still hard, but this runs on autopilot sometimes. And sometimes, that’s enough.
#pallanophs#Qiara#creature design#personal character#ballpoint pens#traditional art#sketchbook#just drawing her hairdo gives me weird joy so I’m clinging to it#she is hogging the birthday doodles it is unfair#pen will always be an old friend I think#even in these artblocked times#things are weighing on my mind but I looked at spring ephemerals blooming and it was very good#hopefully I get back on top this year#sorry for the slack I’m old
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I don’t like getting intense over petty things, but why are people calling large paragraphs “bad formatting” now. It’s just formatting. Sometimes, a larger paragraph serves its text well, and sometimes it doesn’t, and there is a LOT more that goes into making a text block readable than length alone.
Please please please fucking please stop inventing all-encompassing arbitrary rules about what features define “good” art and “bad” art.
#writeblr#i mean this lovingly and politely#flow of paragraphs is important to me!#if most of your paragraphs are three-to-one sentences that’s not necessarily a bad thing BUT#it does keep you from pulling off some real OOMPH stuff#for example;#large paragraphs to convey one-track racing thoughts#the absolute hit of a one-sentence wham line after a longer introspection#PARAGRAPH VARIETY#look variety in paragraph length ALSO helps people keep track of where they are in a text#in the same way that breaking up *too* large paragraphs can help!#babes i mean this very gently; if you struggle with large paragraphs then you may need to work on your attention span a little#(and that is not an indictment against you as a person)#also i struggle with continuous short paragraphs! It breaks up my reading experience & increases scroll time (sometimes for no reason)#much in the same way that overly large spaces between paragraphs makes me struggle#accessible text formatting is a nuanced topic#i’m sorry we just have so many feelings about this#related topics and actions are allowed to be kept in the same paragraphs for flow reasons okay??? okay
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Beheaded, survived, died, divorced, beheaded
#where is Sarah and the other girl from s1 whose name I forget …#anyway sorry I’m very girl who just saw six (musical)#personal
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This tweet makes me feel things, and I don’t know how to process it
#starkid#mariah rose faith#it’s just so good to know that the new gen starkids are all just as good friends with each other as much as the old sk actors are#me personally#that’s part of why people like Starkid so much#you can just tell how much everyone respects and cares for each other#sorry if this sounds parasocial or whatever#I’m very much in my feelings about the Starkid family today
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this too is yuri
#to the enlightened mind.#atla#sukka#sokka#suki#sorry but kyoshi warrior Sokka is actually something that can be so personal#those live action teasers have me Concerned but I’m being very brave about it:/#posts by sj
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I am perhaps a bit late on this
But birthday present for @head-in-the-icloud !
I hope that you had a wonderful happy happy birthday!
#fnaf daycare attendant#sundrop#moondrop#your blorbos are so fun to color#I’m very very sorry for being late#but week was v busy so I hope you still like it now#you are a very kind person I think u deserve a pretty pretty present
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some of you are just so lovely and sooo easy to love and i mean it when i say with 100% certainty that ur favs would be head over heels for you
#are ALL very lovely btw#but it’s just i have seen a lot of people be very doubtful of themselves recently#and it’s like … wdym you don’t think you are the most wonderful person in the entire world how could anyone not adore you i love you so muc#sorry i am not very eloquent when it comes speaking my own feelings i’m afraid but i hope the message is still clear 😔#what i’m trying to say … some ppl on here are so kind and have so much love for everyone and i wish you could see urselves how i see you#bc i do aspire to be more like you i suppose 🤍
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Things I make for myself when insomnia kicks in
Just a chart about what I wanna change up and keep consistent in my art - I mainly wanna draw Raph with a tail because he deserves one, it fits too well. Donnie gets a long tail too because I didn’t realize how dino-like he looks until I gave him one, and now it’s a must for me haha.
#rottmnt#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#rottmnt headcanons#note these are veryyy much for my own art so by all means ignore this completely for your own unless it resonates#these are just my personal headcanons#I’ve been getting more and more fond of the turtles having tails - especially Raph whose design honestly feels more complete with one#I also am now attached to Donnie having a long tail too because 1) he looks cute with one and it really works for him and-#2) I LOVE giving the Brains and Brawn duo more stuff in common#I could write an essay about how many things Brains and Brawns duo has in common in general#but also portal duo as well!!#we already know that Mikey and Leo look a LOT alike#so I think it’s cute when Raph and Donnie have stuff like that in common with each other too#like how canonically Donnie’s sclera are on the yellow side like Raph’s#anyway I’m sorry if this is a random post I am very tired and still have not slept#ALSO yeah i wanted an excuse to doodle April it’s been too long i missed her#I’m excited to finish this comic up to show the OTHER reason I gave Donnie a long tail#I made this in like five minutes because working on my comic was not working out#also Draxum totally has a tail he’s a sheep#I lean away from Mikey and Leo having longer tails mainly because their designs are already so busy#with all the colors and shapes present on them#so to me longer tails kinda takes away a bit#meanwhile Raph and Donnie are more monochrome in comparison so I feel like tails only help them?#I think as well Donnie’s torso/carapace being on the shorter side makes a tail balance him out#(me trying to justify the visual gag im putting into the comic for literally only two panels)#didn’t draw the caseys because I am tiredddd#and they would have just ended up where April is anyway
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question, cause i’ve seen this so many times- andrew blaze is trans?? i honestly didn’t know that, that’s really fucking cool (coming from a trans man), did she like say anything about it, post about it or something? i’d like a source (if possible) simply cause i just wanna read about it, that’s actually so awesome sauce
yes
before she died, she preferred to be called Andrew and a girl, she called herself Andrew online and referred to herself as a girl.
unfortunately she had a lot of internalized transphobia and claimed she was NOT trans and that her situation was different, but at the same time she basically defined being trans while explaining her situation
here's a clip of one of her videos (got it from estes.epiphany on tiktok)
there's more of her videos where she talks about her gender and stuff (especially her last few videos) but i don't have them on hand right now
here's things from her journal (click to read, date + transcript in alt text)
some other journal entries that I couldn't fit because of the 30 image limit:
March 20th, 2017
I close my eyes and become who I truly am and have a sinister evil smile on my face; people are dying all around me as I’m the dead girl floating and standing victorious.
March 26th, 2017
I am in fact from a deceased army (community) of Female ghosts.
April 6th, 2017
I’m tired of having a penis. I’m tired of being a boy. (...) I’m tired of having to shave my face, arms, and legs every 3–4 days.
April 24rd, 2017
I’m one girl, I did what I could.
May 13th, 2017
I'm a very impatient girl.....
#I DID TOO MUCH. IM SORRY#this is just one of my fav things to talk about andrew#and as another trans person (boy) it's also very important to me personally#mfs be like “I guess the proper term would be “transgender” but I don’t even fully agree on that.”#and then one sentence later “I’m legit a girl trapped inside a boy’s body.”#buddy i hate to break this to you but ...#👻#andrew blaze#andrew nation#i miss andrew#tccblr#teeceecee#tcc tumblr#thesillyy
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The Wonder Twins, Dick Grayson & Donna Troy
To The Desert, Benjamin Alire Sáenz / Writing Prompts for the Broken-hearted, Eden Robinson / My Name Is Memory, Ann Brashares / What We Buried, Caitlyn Siehl / Christmas Eve Forever, K.C. Cramm / In the Pines, Alice Notley / The Brothers Karamazov, Fyodor Dostoevksy (tr. Larissa Volokhonsky and Richard Pevear) / Juansen Dizon
#dick grayson#donna troy#wonder twins#im sorry these are so unimaginative I’m simply not creative enough to do anything that’s not#text>image>text>image 🤷♀️#anyway RAAAHHHHH!!!!!#LITERAL SOULMATES!#YOU HAVE BEEN WITH ME FROM THE VERY FIRST LIFE YOU ARE MY FIRST MEMORY EVERY TIME THE SINGLE THREAD IN ALL MY LIVES.#IT'S YOU WHO MAKES ME A PERSON!!!!!!!!!!!!#I WAS BORN FOR YOU!
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screamingggg i need every single butchfemme who’s ever loved jane austen or regency era period dramas to read “I Shall Never Fall in Love” by Hari Conner it’s a graphic novel feat. a queer romance and a transmasc MC and it’s extremely butchfemme and it’s so realistic to the time period and not sugarcoated at all and i literally just stayed up way later than i should have to finish it and oh my fucking god i need someone else to read this so i can scream about it with them. my fellow pride & prejudice femmes if you have ever daydreamed abt a butch darcy READ THIS BOOK I BEG
#i was screaming into my pillow at their love confession i’m still squeaking and rolling around my bed. SPOILER ALERT for next tags sorry#‘you know what i am. i admire you in all the ways a man admires a woman. you must think me a very unnatural creature#but i cannot stay silent. i’ve struggled against it in vain. i can’t help it- i love you’ AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH#and what if i pass away………….#blushing#personal#sfw post
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