#very dysphoria inducing

[thatfeyboy]

No obviously they look like gay men Barbies just a fem

[tricoufamily]

when taking care of yourself and caring about your clothes starts making you feel better and not the other way around

[big-dick-moneybags]

i wish I had some kind of personal style. i should do better than a t shirt and jeans but every time i try anything else I can’t help but feel ridiculous

[bryophyticbutch]

Just an idea - if you're transmasc and you have any peach fuzz on your face, use a shade of mascara that roughly matches your hair to darken it. No one fakes "bad" facial hair, so it's not likely people will think it's fake. Get some cotton pads/rounds too so you can blot away any extra. It made me feel way more masculine and even got me a compliment! I only did it on my sideburns because thats the only place i have fuzz. It will come off if you touch it too much so your millage may vary.

[dragonji]

have to be honest guys its actually going Really Badly again.

[wienners]

in a fit of insane dysphoria i wrote 6000 words of nsfw fic about gabriel from malignant (2021) sexting hot men and having fun in his shared body. enjoyy

[can-of-w0rmz]

Sometimes I remember that my sanity is actually dependant on a few fictional characters from 200 years ago, like not a silly haha joke but that I genuinely don’t have any other support system or healthy coping mechanism other than reading about and engaging in fan content for these fictional Victorians, and then I am like “uh oh. Goodness me. I may be in a bit of a sticky situation. A pickle, if you will.”

Anyway ahahahah something something humorous tumblr post as a coping mechanism ahaha something something

[greenlikethesea]

just got my headshot proofs back and most of you will never see them so you’ll just have to take my word for it that i look very cool and sexy

[lepetitfruit]

Workout clothes are my best friend and my worst enemy

[catboyrightsdefender]

i have a medical appointment that im dreading tomorrow and im already sick to my stomach thinking about it

[heavenlydevil-95]

x

[stardustedknuckles]

Who do I have to slide this crispy five dollar bill to in order to get some data gathered on low-dose T or E for NB people around here.

[starlooove]

What’s the psychological reason biting my nails off makes me stop crying and panicking.

[callixton]

it’s the whole other side of wanting to be hurt but then wanting to top thing too. i just really have not wanted to be touched lately in any sort of way that isn’t Both painful & not typically associated w sex. like it’s not that i’m entirely uncomfortable w soft touch in fact cuddling/sharing space after is v part of the appeal i think i just often find gentle touch in sexual contexts disturbing and unsafe for some reason. at least in theory maybe less so in practice. feels sort of wolf in sheep’s clothing to me in a way that is not at all sensical but ig i would still rather just have the wolf & know the shape of what i’m dealing with

[luxiomahariel]

we do not "love" to bring this up. it is traumatic. it is dysphoria inducing. it is capable of taking the lives of trans men/mascs that are forced to bring a child into this world against their will. stop fucking invalidating our trauma and oppression you absolute fucking transphobic asshole.

no one is fucking saying this is a privilege for trans women/fems. you are making up arguments in your head because you cannot handle the fact that you are being so disgustingly transphobic toward us so you have to pretend we are saying shit that was never said.

i will not be fucking silent about this. no trans men/mascs should be forced into silence when bringing up our very real systemic oppression. if it bothers you, then look inward.

[moongothic]

Not sure I've ever actually verbalized this properly before but what genuinely makes Crocodad a theory I'm emotionally invested in, is how like

Like the kinda implication here is that, because Ivankov's HRT is MAGIC and gives you a functional cis body (it's all about that wish fulfillment baybee), Crocodile could not have transitioned until after the baby was born (since he wouldn't have the bits for it anymore). Which begs the question of, why would he not have transitioned before ever even getting pregnant? And to me, unless Ivankov just didn't get their DF until it was "too late", like. It really would just make sense if Crocodile never figured his gender shit out until he got pregnant. Like IDK, maybe I'm just projecting my personal pregnancy repulsion onto him, but like. Watching your body change against your will into something very traditionally feminine and do irreversible damage to your body (pregnancy hormones be scary yo) as some parasite grows inside you and having these deeply gendered expectations just thrusted upon you (not even like directly by other people, but just the societal expectation that's been taught to you since forever that you now kind of assume you have to live up to). Like that sounds like a horrible, dysphoria inducing nightmare to go through, something that could very easily become the straw that breaks the camel's back (or, the sledgehammer that cracked the egg)

And then you add the fact that Crocodile could not have held any negative feelings towards the baby, otherwise the brat would've been aborted. Meaning despite all the horrible shit he was going through internally, Crocodile still loved that child and was willing to go through hell for it

But then you add the fact that, as I've discussed in the past, it's very likely the baby was going to be left in Garp's care from the very begining. Like that might've been the plan from the get-go. So Crocodile was carrying a child he knew he would have to give up and would probably never see again.

Like. All of that is so emotionally fucking devastating.

But then!! You get some hope because hey, Crocodile figuring his gender shit out and being able to get help from Ivankov would mean he could escape the Dysphoria Hell at the very least, like there's that bit of relief, right?

But then. Fucking. Dragon??? Is he bi, or did they get divorced because Dragon's not into men??? Is the Dragodile Divorce real???

'Cause if so. Like. Again, to re-iterate. Crocodile went through 9 months of nightmareish dysphoria hell to birth a child he loved but knew he could never see ever again, and while he got to have that dysporia alliviated thanks to Ivankov, doing so also resulted in him losing his husband.

Like even just conceptually that is so fucking

Like yes Crocodad has so much potential to be hysterical and an absolute clown show, and my speculation about The Details of it are indeed just speculation and could be completely wrong.

BUT DO YOU UNDERSTAND WHY I'M EMOTIONALLY INVESTED IN THIS SHIT. DO YOU UNDERSTAND HOW FUCKING SAD CROCODAD MIGHT BE