#vampiric awakening

[sangaverage]

#24. How do I know I am IRL like you and not just a Roleplayer/ kin/ alterhuman etc?

Hiya!

So This is going to be a bit of a personal opinionated answer as every vamp is different but here are some things to consider asking yourself:

-Does the blood or energy etc make you feel better in any way?

 -Do you feel lethargic/ sluggish/ generally like rubbish if you have gone without for too long? 

 -Do you have any symptoms, withdrawal or otherwise from not consuming blood or energy etc for too long of a period of time? flashes of blood, violent thoughts, migraines, lack of motivation, mood swings, reverse squeamish around the sight of blood etc can be considered symptoms by some! (I have personally experienced most of the above as well as random shivering if I've gone way too long!)

-Have you gone through any sudden forms of realisation? did a sudden experience happen where you just knew "oh so that might be why XYZ" this generally happens around or just after puberty or the first feed of blood/ energy etc.

-Have you experienced doubt periods? I have gone through at least 4 periods of doubt!

-just thought of another! Does anyone tend to avoid your presence or feel oddly drawn to it? I get both, some people feel the need to avoid me whereas other times a whole crowd of people will follow me into an otherwise quiet store, it's odd!

-sidenote for above, does anyone remark that they feel drained/ tired/ lethargic in your presence? most vamps pre awakening often have an instinct to unconsciously psychic feed on others!

-research is you friend! look around for different experiences from different parts of the community, don't be afraid to try out something you feel fits at the time! the worst that will happen is it turns out you were wrong in your endeavours! for example I labelled myself as Vampire Theriomythic for a while but came to the conclusion that that didn't really tick the majority of the boxes for me, these things can take time.

I wish you and any others Luck!

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[sangaverage]

you know what screw it sure ill try it, minus the fasting! (Hypoglycemia and no food for long periods of time do not mix well)

maybe ill make it Halloween as I'm too old to trick or treat now and I don't really drink alcohol much so that's out lol!

but seriously side note: why are most "Adult Halloween ideas" i find just getting stark drunk on alcohol?

A Vampire's Holiday

I don't think I've shared this here before, but I thought I would this year. I have a single personal tradition I follow every year as a sort of memorial of my awakening, and both to give respect, and allow myself to dive deeper into the more vampiric experience of life. It's the time of year that I try to come closer to the cravings I oftentimes push down, the centeredness that vampirism brings, and even the pain that was ever present in awakening that can be easily forgotten when I have a donor that helps me stay fed when I need it. In advance, I'm definitely not suggesting that anyone follow this holiday the way that I do. It can be a very difficult time of the year, but I have always looked back on it with so much joy. Each year, i fast for the three days leading up to the winter solstice, as a reminder of the years of awakening and hunger that came before I was able to feed for the first time, and have the revelation that it was all real. On the night of the winter solstice, I break the fast, and indulge both my body's hunger, and my vampiric thirst. It might sound like a brutal holiday, but it has grown to be my favourite holiday of the year.

[doggogills]

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[sophsun1]

I tolerated his presence too long already, I had to act before he destroyed what little I had left.

Interview With Vampire – 2.03: No Pain

[sangaverage]

Truly At 17

of all things my first nighttime forest walk with my S/O was the trigger point (it was a full moon which didn't help me one bit, they make me more instinctive)

But I had mini moments building up before it and that started around 13 lol

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how old were you when you awakened

[vigilantempathy]

Starting to ship Armand and Daniel Molloy because Daniel and his compulsive journalistic fact-checking and spidey senses for calling bullshit and unflappable snarkiness make him the only man alive with a shot at holding his own against Armand’s gaslighting. These two getting it on is like a public service—they’re sparing the rest of the dating pool if they keep it between themselves.

[lucrezianoin]

I'm an equal opportunity astarion enjoyer. Bottom astarion and top astarion, ace astarion or demi astarion and definetely very interested in sex astarion, big spoon astarion and little spoon astarion, sub astarion and sub astarion.

[suminotomi]

My oc: Fatima. I play this character in a Chronicles of Darkness campaign and I love her so much T_T She's a mage (Mastigos) and travels around the USA with her friends: Wata (another Mage) and Nathaniel (a werewolf) __________________________________

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Strahd awakens from his slumber. I, too, stumble out of bed, dishevelled to go to work. He may hate being stuck in Barovia but at least he's not working a 9-5 in order to pay the bills. So whatever he's complaining about, sounds like a him problem smh.

[loonvann]

[sangaverage]

Vampire Dreams of mine that I remember Vividly part 1?

Sazura The Dream Mentor:

Another dream I remember vividly was during my vampiric awakening process, but before my true awakening. 

I had a proper form in this dream, I was myself. I was in a city that I did not know, yet seemed oddly familiar, everything was painted in a hazy blue light, it was night time, and the fog was immense. 

I walked in this Victorian looking city for a bit, admiring the iron lamps and the amber glow they left in the fog and on the cobbled pavement. It seemed I was alone. 

Or so I thought. I ended up at some stone stairs and a shadow caught my eye at the top of them, curious, I accended the stairs, slowly mind you due to the thick night fog. 

I saw a woman, with a most unusual appearance, her hair was very long and pure white, her eyes shone with an intense violet hue, her ears were pointed like that of an elf, she wore an old navy blue Victorian suit, with a tailcoat, ending in details of silver and gold, her skin was deatly pale white and almost glowed in the foggy moonlight, her fangs gave away what she was perfectly, a vampire.

She extends a clawed hand as if to invite me over to her, was she expecting me? 

Upon having some form of conversation with the mysterious vampire woman, she tells me of her title, The Blue (Azure) Queen, Sazura. Saz for short. 

She acted almost like a dream mentor during my early years of discovering my vampirism, she appeared in many Lucid dreams.

Then suddenly the night of my true awakening, I never saw her show up in my dreams again, Purpose served I guess? 

Perhaps, due to my location and the severe lack of vampires to awaken me out of my latent state, Sazura was instead formed by my subconscious as a thoughtform, a manmade spirit often with specific intentions and then somewhat forgotten about. Forgotten, they cease to exist so to speak, untill resummoned. 

A thoughtform programmed to be my vampiric mentor Purley because of my lack of finding and having a real vampiric mentor. 

[sangaverage]

Lexsang, we have got to stop being so similar lol,

but in all seriousness, Full moons do exactly the same to me, ESPECIALY if I happen to be out in them at the time, its bearable and I don't do anything I shouldn't but it does bring out the instincts a bit.

this is actually what triggered my full awakening, I had realisations beforehand but never really came into it until this moment confirmed it all for me.

I've never really explained it in detail lol its hard to describe but I have notes of it somewhere...

Found them, For those Interested My Vampiric Awakening story (Somewhat) under the Divider (divider credit: Anitalenia)

In somewhat long story format because I'm better at describing that way, by we/ us/ him or they I mean me and my S/O

The night of October 19th 2013, Everything changed, EVERYTHING!

I remember it being sunset when we decided to take our first date, A walk to a trail that leads to a woodland, Funny first date I know... The night set in surprisingly quick that evening, I remember us gazing up At the full moon signaling the night, the darkness, my time, Probably a good time as any to start heading back home though...

Too late, it stirs, A feeling, One I haven't felt this strongly before, but oddly familiar, Wait a seccond I know this feeling!

Damn it, I've got to think of a distraction!

I resorted to, Chewing my gloves... Which somehow, in some sort of miracle, he didn't find weird, if anything it was more amusing to him!

Later that evening he decided to stay with me for a little while, and that's when I decided to tell him outright,

"So... You know those vampire questions, mostly the one where I asked if you think anything like that exists and you said maybe."

"Yes?"

"I may have asked those for a reason."

"Go on."

"So... I've been meaning to tell you, I'm A vampire, specifically, A sanguinarian."

Oh no, does he think I'm weird now?

Surprisingly, as by another miracle, He just accepts it, like no real further questions just Yep, okay, my girlfriend says she's a vampire, so what?

Untill one weekend came up where he decided to sleep over at mine and share beds for the first time. (funnily enough another full moon)

Upon groggily waking up the next morning, (mornings are not my time at all) I ask him how he slept, I was not expecting his response!

"Pretty well, untill someone bit me!"

"Wait what?" My head crooked in A confused tilt,

"Yeah you bit me!, you sat up, looked around and flumped back down for a bit, your eyes were open so I thought you was awake, but you didnt answer me, You did it again a few minutes after but this time, you sat up and went to Bite me in the shoulder, I tried to roll you off but you just bit my hand instead!"

"What? No warning noises, nothing?"

"Nope, just straight up bit me!"

"Sorry, Did I draw blood?" I ask, examining his hands for marks,

"A little bit!"

"Maybe this is some kind of vampiric bonding thing!" I chimed in as a joke,

"Didn't feel bonding to me, it Bleeding hurt!, please don't do it again, okay?"

"Again, Sorry..."

The Moon and Stuff

So a little bit ago, I read a fairly long post from an old friend in the OVC about how she had noticed that the lunar phases seem to affect her vampirism, the full moon generally being the most intense time for her hunger. Everything she had said definitely fit my experience too, though I'm not sure if I would attribute it to my psychology or something else. Does anyone else deal with this as well? If so I'd love to know some peoples' experiences and thoughts on it :)

[nicoleanell]

2.04 I Want You More Than Anything in the World

[vexwerewolf]

Tabletop Roleplaying Systems as DHMIS Stills

Promethean: The Created

Shadowrun

Vampire: The Requiem

Hunter: The Vigil

Shadow of the Demon Lord

Monster of the Week

GURPS

Dungeons & Dragons 5E/D&D One

Starfinder

Call of Cthulhu

Eclipse Phase

Delta Green

Mage: The Awakening

Don't Rest Your Head

Cyberpunk RED

Lancer

FATE Core

Literally Any Warhammer 40K TTRPG

Transformers RPG

Pathfinder

[cyberturbine]

vampire!E.C. x mage!Goodsir

[sunny-rants]

immediately added The Wish to my list of Buffy episodes that Definitely Awakened Something in it’s impressionable young viewers