#vamps Vs The Moon

[sangaverage]

Lexsang, we have got to stop being so similar lol,

but in all seriousness, Full moons do exactly the same to me, ESPECIALY if I happen to be out in them at the time, its bearable and I don't do anything I shouldn't but it does bring out the instincts a bit.

this is actually what triggered my full awakening, I had realisations beforehand but never really came into it until this moment confirmed it all for me.

I've never really explained it in detail lol its hard to describe but I have notes of it somewhere...

Found them, For those Interested My Vampiric Awakening story (Somewhat) under the Divider (divider credit: Anitalenia)

In somewhat long story format because I'm better at describing that way, by we/ us/ him or they I mean me and my S/O

The night of October 19th 2013, Everything changed, EVERYTHING!

I remember it being sunset when we decided to take our first date, A walk to a trail that leads to a woodland, Funny first date I know... The night set in surprisingly quick that evening, I remember us gazing up At the full moon signaling the night, the darkness, my time, Probably a good time as any to start heading back home though...

Too late, it stirs, A feeling, One I haven't felt this strongly before, but oddly familiar, Wait a seccond I know this feeling!

Damn it, I've got to think of a distraction!

I resorted to, Chewing my gloves... Which somehow, in some sort of miracle, he didn't find weird, if anything it was more amusing to him!

Later that evening he decided to stay with me for a little while, and that's when I decided to tell him outright,

"So... You know those vampire questions, mostly the one where I asked if you think anything like that exists and you said maybe."

"Yes?"

"I may have asked those for a reason."

"Go on."

"So... I've been meaning to tell you, I'm A vampire, specifically, A sanguinarian."

Oh no, does he think I'm weird now?

Surprisingly, as by another miracle, He just accepts it, like no real further questions just Yep, okay, my girlfriend says she's a vampire, so what?

Untill one weekend came up where he decided to sleep over at mine and share beds for the first time. (funnily enough another full moon)

Upon groggily waking up the next morning, (mornings are not my time at all) I ask him how he slept, I was not expecting his response!

"Pretty well, untill someone bit me!"

"Wait what?" My head crooked in A confused tilt,

"Yeah you bit me!, you sat up, looked around and flumped back down for a bit, your eyes were open so I thought you was awake, but you didnt answer me, You did it again a few minutes after but this time, you sat up and went to Bite me in the shoulder, I tried to roll you off but you just bit my hand instead!"

"What? No warning noises, nothing?"

"Nope, just straight up bit me!"

"Sorry, Did I draw blood?" I ask, examining his hands for marks,

"A little bit!"

"Maybe this is some kind of vampiric bonding thing!" I chimed in as a joke,

"Didn't feel bonding to me, it Bleeding hurt!, please don't do it again, okay?"

"Again, Sorry..."

The Moon and Stuff

So a little bit ago, I read a fairly long post from an old friend in the OVC about how she had noticed that the lunar phases seem to affect her vampirism, the full moon generally being the most intense time for her hunger. Everything she had said definitely fit my experience too, though I'm not sure if I would attribute it to my psychology or something else. Does anyone else deal with this as well? If so I'd love to know some peoples' experiences and thoughts on it :)

[literary-vandal]

back on my bullshit reading the twilight saga for the fanfic and i feel a crit analysis a-brewin and i kEP THE FUCKMEYER HANDLE JUST IN CASE THIS EVER HAPPENED BOYS WE'RE BACK AT IT AGAIN-

[spiritsglade]

concept: jason todd from dc vs. vampires dying like he does in issue #6 and getting isekai'd into the middle of marvel's bloodhunt event, particularly the tie-ins with vengeance of the moon knight.

would it appeal to anyone except me? no. but i could have so much fun with it.

[italian-lit-tournament]

Italian literature tournament - Third round.

Propaganda in support of the authors is accepted, you can write it both in the tag if reblog the poll (explaining maybe that is propaganda and you want to see posted) or in the comments. Every few days it will be recollected and posted here under the cut.

First, propaganda for Ludovico Ariosto, then for Guido Cavalcanti. The quantity of material will be colossal, so just scroll down for more.

For the Ludovico Ariosto stans:

by @larmegliamori

The opposing party has brought on the big guns, I see: us Ariosto girlies, gays and they must bare our teeth and ambitions.

So, here's my two cent on why you should vote Ludovico Ariosto!

Extreme relatability: Deeply entrenched into the politics of his time (as the firstborn of ten children, of which one was disabled and other five were women), but at the same time just wanting to stay home to live of his poetry? Dare I say iconic. Perfect representation of us literature kids.

He actually managed to marry his muse, Alessandra Benucci, and did it respectfully!

Working various jobs for patron(s) he didn't particularly like? Been there, done that, got the t-shirt.

Not to mention his most widely known work, the poem "Orlando Furioso" (The rage of Roland), has all the goos stuff us modern audiences would like! It features:

A wide, diverse cast, spanning from Ireland to India, stretching probably to the (by then) newly discovered Americas;

Fantasy elements: faeries, sorcerers, giants, orcs, the first modern iteration of the hippogryph and even a fantastical voyage to the Moon!

Citations and references galore: from Virgil to Ovid, from old chansons de geste to Boccaccio!

Proto-feminism and gender studies: Ariosto's female characters, although often very feminine, are actively involved in their story arcs. The poem also features two warrior women, Bradamante and Marfisa, the former of which is the protagonist of her own subplot. Said subplot heavily relies on gender, may it be appearances or not. And let's not forget the famous tirade at beginning of the fifth canto, where the author berates femicide! If you're willing to open your heart to his writing, Ludovico Ariosto reveals himself to be a compelling, layered, modern author, and yet there's a levity to his writing that works like a balm. Vote for Ludovico Ariosto (even if only for the memes)!

I'd also like to add that Ariosto's Orlando Furioso, in the 70s, got a theatrical AND television adaptation that was too campy for its own good.

It featured, amongst other things:

- 1500s inspired costuming (it sure was... A choice but I'm not complaining)

- Mechanic horses (that literally ran on rails) and hippogryph:

- Olympia of Holland, one of the most tragic characters in all the poem, as a vamp (slay):

(Posing with Orlando/Roland in on the left, with her lover Bireno on the right)

- Astolfo literally ENTERING INTO A HOLE TO GET TO THE MOON:

The television adaptation was partly shot in the famous Baths of Caracalla, in Rome. If you want to witness this masterpiece yourself, it's on YouTube! In two parts.

Remember to always stan Zio Ludo, and vote for him! ✨

Hello everyone! For today's Ariosto Propaganda Piece, I'd like to talk about the Satire.

Those seven pieces written in terzina dantesca (because our boy Ludo knew how to pick his role models) are an interesting insight about early 1500s society and Ariosto's character and private life. They all start from an actual event in his life and enlarge towards society as a whole, often with a critical eye towards it.

The first one, destined to his brother Alessandro and a friend, starts these absolutely iconic lines:

[Quick translation: Ruggiero, if you make me so ungrateful in the eyes of your descendants, and it bears me no advantage to have sung your worth and your mighty deeds, why should I stay here, since I don't know how to cut huns on a fork, nor how to hunt games with hawks or dogs?]

A bit of context: Ariosto's first patron, bishop Ippolito d'Este, had to move from Italy to Hungary and wanted all his court to follow him. Ariosto refused because of health and family matters, and he was threatened with the loss of all the benefits he had previously granted him. Note that Ariosto was basically a kind of personal secretary to Ippolito, carrying out different important missions for him, and even risked his life a couple times to carry them out. So it's understandable he feels disappointed at his patron's reaction... and that's why, in this more "private" writings, he complains with Ippolito's ancestor, the hero Ruggiero he had extensively wrote about in his main poem.

Honestly, a genius move. Not something you see often in poetry, is it? Another reason why you need to vote for this man ;)

For the Guido Cavalcanti stans:

Propaganda in favor of Guido Cavalcanti by @eresia-catara

May I add further propaganda for Guido: He's a noble, he disdains aristocrats, he was Florence's number one Server of Cunt, he was the city's faggot, he was heretical, he went on a random pilgrimage but interrupted it and managed to be buried in a church anyway, he had an archenemy who sent some men to murder him on said pilgrimage, he came back and tried to murder him back in plain daylight, he gave zero fucks about politics, he got exiled because he was considered a menace for the city. He SAW DANTE's poetical talent, encouraged it, shaped it, and through him the whole of italian literature. Think about it. Also they became besties until they evolved to a tormented psychosexual haunting dynamic (see break-up poem) where Dante himself actually exiled him. In the 13th century his poetry anticipates so many of the literary themes of the XXth century, going from fragmentation of the self (his is basically vivisection and dispersion of his parts), to dissociation from one's own mind and body, lack of identity, irony, desecration, his poetry is full of schizophrenic-like hallucinations, reading them is truly a trip, and yet his language is profoundly meoldic and sweet. And there's also gender-fuckery. and theater, of course, because his poems develop like a scene from a theater (adding layers to the dissociation). So really he has it all guys.

The thing is, Ariosto feels very contemporary but Guido is the og relativist and unreliable narrator. His poetry offers NO truth whatsoever you only have a sequence of schizophrenic hallucinations and what he describes only seems like it's real but who knows, the narrator is dead, how can he even speak or if he's alive he's not because he has dissociated himself from his body and is only coldly contemplating his own murder. He's not reliable because he has lost his reason, his soul has crubled into pieces and each piece has fled his body. Also he hears voices, and feels a sadistic presence in his mind in the form of a woman watching him die. This man was too ahead of his time, he was too dramatic, too eccentric, but also too acute and sensible, he must have looked deranged and we love him for it. and deserves to be voted!

Guido Cavalcanti propaganda by @girldante

GUIDO CAVALCANTI PROPAGANDA ABBIAMO:

LA DISSOCIAZIONE SCHIZOFRENICA:

IL COMICO, IL SIMPATICO BURLONE, IL MEMATORE ANTE LITTERAM:

IL MACABRO, IL GORE, I SINTOMI™

IL BREAKUP TOSSICO PASSIVO AGGRESSIVO CON DANTE

in conclusione

you can find my old propaganda here, but listen, while i do respect zio ludo's rizz, a vote for guido cavalcanti is a vote for gender roles reversal, death-life liminality, medieval atheism, antisocial freaks obsessed with philosphy who imagine their pens are talking to people about their owner's suffering (what is wrong with him), eye carving enjoyers (what the FUCK is wrong with him), sons who are sacrifical lambs, people who have long swinging necks like geese (allegedly???), and gay breakups involving dante alighieri. and also, well, I don't recall ariosto wearing a miku binder. twice.

in conclusion

Guido Cavalcanti propaganda by @apis-vergilii

Here’s my Guido propaganda: @girldante and @eresia-catara have already covered the poetry reasons, and I’m here to get metatextual about the whole thing.

Simply put, this is the Weird Niche Hellsite, and Guido is the Weird Niche Hellcandidate.

We live in an era of the cynical enshittification of the internet. In a sickened sea of dying social platforms, AI slop, and every last pixel being for sale, THIS is still the webbed site where a bunch of strangers can rediscover a lesser-known medieval poet in all his angsty, gothy glory, abandon all pretense of ironic detachment or mature indifference and go absolutely apeshit over his life and work, breathlessly and deliriously creating everything from exhaustively researched essays with footnotes, to anime fan art and inexplicable photoshops. This is the place where Goncharov happened. This is the place where we stole the president’s shoelaces. This is the place where a heretical medieval Tuscan stilnovista got himself a full-on Fandom, and we are all so much the better/worse for it.

So vote for the spirit of the old internet in all its dorky glory. Vote for the joy of learning things for fun and not for school. Vote for the bizarre Florentine emo goth. A vote for Guido Cavalcanti…is a vote for all of us.

if all else fails to convince you, well, i don't recall ariosto having an historical fantasy saga centered around him where he gains clairvoyance and gets increasingly more and more manipulated by the manifestation of his generational trauma. also he gets out of his body to have epic fights with spiritual creatures.

this should be a testimony to how his cuntserving echoed through time

Propaganda by @girldante and @eresia-catara that I guess should be read together:

well. seeing as we're on topic. Was Ariosto ever described as having

les bras d'Hercule avec des mains de nymphe by a 19th century french story? It is not made up guys, he served androgynous cunt so hard it didn't go unnoticed. Guido simply suggests fluidity.

Like. Arms like Hercules and hands like a nymph.

And Lorenzo il Magnifico also Fangirled over him in a letter to the Federico of Aragon

he (Lorenzo il Magnifico!!) was simply begging him to read his poems, and that's because they are absolutely eatable in all their irreverent, elegant, goth glory.

Finally, Boccaccio wrote about him in his Decameron (VI,9) and, truly, can you say no to him:

this little ballerina? look at how sad he looks!

would you look at that! Guido Cavalcanti propaganda is publicly sponsored by thee Lorenzo De' Medici himself!!!

as for the last bit, Boccaccio's novella from Decameron, where Guido calls out a bunch of idiots through a riddle that said idiots will take a bunch of time to understand and then proceeds to abandon them jumping over a grave, was cited by thee Italo Calvino in his Lezioni Americane as an example of his conception of lightness, as in the ability to lift oneself over the heaviness of the world.

In conclusion: Guido Cavalcanti is literally your fave's fave.

[bitter-caf]

I have a new fanfic idea I must share to the few people who have followed me in the last month. Hi hello hi. Feel free to use it if you'd like. It's just a ramble, so sorry if it's confusing.

I need more Werewolf!Charles Rowland aus. I need Charles pretending to be Crystals dog so he doesn't have to pay Jenny rent and he'd def beg Jenny for meat scraps. Or walking around London pretending to be a stray and desperately avoiding pet control. (The amount of times Edwin has had to break him out is ridiculous, but if Charles acts friendly/pathetic enough, people throw him food). And Edwin will pet him if he's an animal (but not as a human. Charles thinks this is discrimination and complains loudly). But also the angst, werewolves in media (btw I'm going off of teen wolf canon werewolves for this au) seem to have a harder time controlling their anger and I think with Charles so full of anger, it'd be rough for him. Charles would almost definitely be wanted by police at this point, both bc of the shit him and Edwin get up to and the fact that he's technically a missing kid (bc ofc he would run away with Edwin. Also if he went back home, he'd probably eat his father or at least the kids who tried to kill him). Edwin would for sure be Charles 'anchor' (again teen wolf werewolves), as in the thing that keeps him from going feral every full moon and from biting people everytime he gets upset lol. Tho! Note: imagine they come across a "how to contain a werewolf during the full moon" guide and it's everything Derek (from teen wolf, look it up if you have no idea what I'm talking about) does during the full moon for new wolves. The restraints, that are pretty painful and dig into the skin with spikes bc it's harder to get out of something if everytime you move, it hurts. And imgaine: Charles would accept it bc what if he hurts Edwin? Unacceptable. But Edwin would maybe try then back out of using them bc this is torture and he can't let this happen to Charles. Just a nice bit of hurt/comfort there.

Then port townsend comes along and now Charles bestie is pulling away/hiding things and so the grounds pretty unsteady under Charles. He's so ready to just eat the Cat King. And later Monty. The CK likes him even less in this au bc dogs vs cats and so does Charles. It's very much a Charles- "I'm bigger than you and will eat you" and CK- "I'm better and smarter than you". From first meeting, it on SIGHT for the both of them. Tho CK does make an effort to keep Edwin between them at all times. And Edwin does make an effort to keep an eye on Charles, ready to grab him if he lunges for CK or something. (Its worth noting that Charles does listen to the instincts he has pretty often and Edwin enables and encourages him to do what feels right. Neither of them have any experience with werewolves so it works out. Which often evolves into Charles chasing things that run from him. Animals, suspects they're chasing for cases, occasionally Edwin. I just think Charles dealing with all these new animal like instincts could create some fun hijinks and shenanigans.) I just think it'd be a fun dynamic for CK and Charles.

Now is Edwin still a ghost or something else like a vampire? Tbh this would turn into more of a Being Human au if Edwin was a vampire lol but more gay and posssibly poly? And I think that would be beautiful. But if Edwins a vampire, I want it to be what we do in the shadows type vampire. Edwin deserves to be able to turn into a bat. Along with all the other powers those vamps have lol. They'd have to bring a bag of dirt from Edwins homeland with them to Port townsend and just imagine the outfit Edwin would wear if he has to go out during daylight. It would include a parasol. He would not change his outfit with the times. Just picture, him forcing Crystal to use a parasol during the day so he can hang upside down in it to avoid the sun. Charles in his wolf form next to her. If Charles has to wear a leash and collar only Edwins allowed to hold it lol. Crystal trying to convince everyone who asks that Charles is just large husky and very well trained. Edwin would not pretend to be a pet to avoid paying Jenny rent but will wait outside Crystals window. If hes seen by Jenny in bat form, Crystal calls him a pest and says she left her window open by accident. Edwin will never forgive her.

I think in terms of Edwins Hell, it could still be actual Hell honestly. Maybe before he's sacrificed by classmates, he's attacked and turned into a vampire. Or! More exciting. He's turned by a vampire and that vampire belongs to a satanic vampire cult. Which is, in fact, a thing in the interview with a vampire verse. And his Hell is them. For context, in the IWAV verse, this cult believes they are forsaken by God and now have to worship the devil bc they're vamps. They think any light at all will kill/hurt them, even candles. Along with a bunch of other crazy untrue things. They literally live in caves in complete darkness and know pretty much nothing about being a vampire. It's pretty sad and in IWAV this goes on until I think lestat meets them and goes "damn you live like this?" And he becomes like their Jesus for awhile and shows them the "light". He upgrades them, but then he gets bored and leaves and they get sad. It's so funny i love Anne Rice. Anyways, either Edwins Hell he escapes is that cult or! They sacrifice vampire!Edwin to the devil. And now he's in actual Hell. In this au, the caves they live in are somewhere in the Woods near St. Hilarion's. So either way when he escapes, it's around the time Charles is attacked by those boys and when he's running thru the woods, attacked again! by a werewolf. Oh! Maybe Charles friends are mauled to death by the werewolf and the only reason Charles survives his mauling is bc of Edwin. Maybe Edwin scares off the werewolf and brings Charles to the attic or something to try and help him. Charles is def mauled but still breathing, the bite takes before he bleeds out tho. Its a really bad night for him but Edwin still reads him to sleep and is suprised he wakes up.

Now to deal with Edwin being immortal and Charles not? Either mess with the way werewolves age, or! More exciting. They stay together anyway, with the thought of charles- "I wanna stay with you for the rest of my life" and edwin- "i wanna stay with you for the rest of your life." Very cute very wholesome. But then! Charles gets cursed somehow someway on one of their cases and welll, immortality always seems to come to those who aren't looking for it. And so now charles can't die and doesn't age lol. But theres a consequence, bc theres always a trade off. My idea is that now Charles "will never see the light of day again". It takes a bit for them to realizes it's a curse of immortality until either Charles is greviously injured or like a decade passes and they're like "charles still looks... 17???" que rigorious experimentaion. (Charles would for sure test at least some of the limits of his immortality and then abuse it. Edwin is horrified everytime, his poor unbeating heart. And his clothes whenever he has to carry a still healing charles home and hes covered in blood. Luckily he doesnt die often, werewolves are hard to kill.) and honestly when they heard that "never see the light of day", they really thought it was going to kill Charles. No, now just as soon as the sun comes up, charles is dead to the world. Like literally he will just pass out as soon as the sun comes up, no matter where he is. It's like he's a corpse. It freaks Edwin out when this happens the first few times. He legit thinks charles is dead. He certainly seems like it. But he reanimates/awakens as soon as the sun goes down. He does forget often to lay down on the couch or something before the sun comes up and will just fall over. This is probs mostly bc the window is covered in blackout curtains for Edwin.

But they for sure have either a bed or coffin they share during the day, bc of a lack of room in their space for two ofc and it's soooo platonic bestie behavior. They will be taking no comments. Crystal still sleeps on the couch tho. Would you wanna sleep in two teenage boys' bed or coffin? When you're thinking "they're probably together." Like ew no. Charles offered, but edwin was like ew. They obv both have a good sense of smell, and edwin does not want their bed/coffin to smell like her.

[barbwritesstuff]

One thing I really admire about Blood Moon vs Thicker Than is how neatly you explore humanity vs inhumanity. Blood Moon is all about finding increasing depths of humanity in the core of these so-called beasts, while with each chapter, Thicker Than reveals a little more inhumanity even in the vamps you grow close with. There is truly a monstrousness there that you force the reader to confront. It's so well done!

💙💙💙

[apomaro-mellow]

I wanted to write somethin where Eddie’s friends were basically supportive minions and it kinda turned into an urban fantasy too

Eddie ran his tongue over his fangs while looking over the letter in his hands. Then he pursed his lips.

“You don’t think it’s too much? It’s a lot of flowery language.”

“I thought we agreed flowery would keep him from finding out its you”, Jeff said.

Eddie paced around while holding out the love letter. It was addressed to Steve. His own name was nowhere to be seen. He’d be signing it as a secret admirer. 

“Eddie, are we sure Steve isn’t using his powers on you?”, Gareth asked.

The vamp in question rolled his eyes but didn’t blame them. As far as incubi went, Steve was a pretty powerful one. But his abilities didn’t work on vampires, who had their own powers of compulsion. It was how Eddie knew the tender feelings in his unbeating heart were real.

“I’m sure. Now are we sure about this?”, Eddie presented the poem again, practically shoving it in their faces. “It doesn’t really feel like me.”

“It has enough you in it”, Jeff reasoned. “If you put too much of yourself, he’ll realize its you.”

With that decided, Eddie put the letter in Steve’s locker and waited. He was leaning as casually against the wall as he could and hoped he wasn’t imagining the blush on Steve’s face as he read it that morning.

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The first letter went over so well, Eddie sent in more. He thought he was doing pretty well on the whole ‘secret admirer’ thing until Steve walked right up to him and thanked him for the latest letter.

“How did you-?! I mean, I’ve got better things to do than write you sonnets.”

“Right, because there’s other vampires in this school who would compare me to an awesome riff that makes their fingers tingle.”

Well if he was caught, he might as well go all in. And the next step in the courtship handbook was to give him flowers. The question was what kind, which was how Jeff and Gareth found themselves in a flower shop bright and early on a Saturday.

“Duuude, it was a full moon last night, you gotta give me more warning”, Gareth complained as the floral scents assaulted his nose.

“You’ll live. Now what color should I get?”, Eddie asked.

Jeff looked around the shop. “Isn’t the type of flower more important?”

“Yeah”, Gareth agreed. “An incubus would know all about flower language.”

Despite the idea of getting a certain type of flower to communicate his feelings, it ended up being an argument between Jeff and Gareth over a blue flower vs a yellow one.

“He wears blue all the time. That’s gotta be his favorite color.”

“If you paid attention to the millions of times Eddie obsessed over him, you’d know yellow is his best color.”

It amused Eddie to no end to see his little minions help him decide on a bouquet for Steve. Eventually a decision was made. And he handed them off to Steve while picking him up for their first date.

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“I’ve heard of elder vamps who have legions serving under them”, Steve mentioned one night as they smoked atop Eddie’s trailer.

“I just got the little lambs that follow me right now”, Eddie said.

Steve hummed in response. “But between you and me, with our powers, we could have an entire horde of minions.”

“You’re so sexy when you talk about talking over the world.”

Eddie swallowed the smoke Steve blew in his face, then pressed their lips together. He had to make this man his forever.

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Gareth had procured the precious metals. Jeff had kept the fires burning. They both agreed that a blue gem was the way to go, with a dark band. Eddie had procured some of Steve’s blood.

Over the molten metal, he poured it, murmuring a spell under his breath like a prayer. Then he drew his own blood from his wrist and let it mingle with his love’s. After the forging, it was bathed under the moon’s glow for three nights. After, Eddie looked at it was a scrutinizing gaze.

“You don’t think a promise ring is too much?”

“At least 40% of people at our school would cream their pants if they got one”, Gareth said.

Jeff gave him a friendly elbow. “Steve’s gonna love it, man.”

Eddie smiled at the ring in his fingers. Such a little thing. And yet it held so much weight.

“And if he doesn’t Jeff can curse him”, Gareth supplied.

“I can”, the other nodded. “In a heartbeat if he breaks yours.”

“Don’t count Stevie out so soon boys. I’m thinkin’ this one is forever. You’re gonna have to start callin’ King Steve ‘my lord’ pretty soon.”

[burningdarkfire]

blood moon (author's notes)

Putting this post on my resume as proof that I am committed to seeing things through to the fucking end. It might be 2024 now but here is a finished author's note for blood moon!!

It's been long enough that the below is more of a retrospective than what we usually think of as an author's note. Some of it dates back to two or three years ago, a lot of it doesn't. With the goal of finishing these notes, I recently reread the fic in its entirety, twice, and I still very much enjoyed it. That's all I can really ever ask of a fic, so I'm happy 💕

Writing Timeline

Blood Moon was a fascinating writing problem. I always knew it was going to be a long fic, longer than I usually wrote, and I also knew that I was bad at finishing long fics. I started writing in November 2021 with the promise to myself that even if I didn't finish it, I would eventually share whatever I had. I initially planned to upload chapters without editing because I suspected that it would bog me down in a lot of small details … and I was entirely correct! So here is the 18 month journey of the fic, in monthly word counts, from start to finish:

November 2021: 18723 

December 2021: (no work)

January 2022: 3591

February 2022: 2872 (finished the shadowgast oneshot, outlined the rest of the fic)

March 2022: 4353 (this is when i first thought "the ending was in sight" LOL)

April 2022: 3667 (i made the decision to edit/rewrite some chapters—at this point i had already written up to fjord meeting back up with the m9 after getting the third eye)

May 2022: 1163 

June 2022: 2028 (this was my initial estimate/deadline for finishing)

July 2022: (no work)

August 2022: (no work)

September 2022: 3371 (i copied over my existing work—up to fjord and astrid's conversation—and started a major edit/second draft)

October 2022: 1228 

November 2022: 2278 (posted the first chapter to ao3)

December 2022: 2144 

January 2023: 1876 (finished my second draft and sent to beta for edits)

February 2023: 126 (finished edits! left some very minor points to polish)

March 2023: 17

April 2023: (finished posting!)

Blood Moon Universe

Blood Moon is an original universe of mine that dates back to 2011. It has all the cliché vampires vs. werewolves vibes that I will shamelessly admit I have never grown out of. We didn't get to see a lot of it in the fic, but it's a very fertile, flexible environment—this is the fourth story I've set in this world, and even though they've all been vastly different from each other, the shell concepts have always served me well. Unsurprisingly, one makes original worlds that are conducive to the themes and motifs that one likes to write about.

Caleb and Fjord live in a dark age, where the last war between the vampires and werewolves decimated both populations so severely that the world is simply emptier than it used to be. Molly and Yasha raid abandoned manors, Caleb lives on ceded vamp territory where the wolves are also absent. Caduceus is alone in the Clay family home except for his temporary companions. Everyone is busy with their own survival, and there's no way for the scarce, scattered populations of the northern forests to repel the Shades on their own.

It was a big decision to write a story about two humans in this world, but Fjord and Caleb have always been underdog stories struggling with established powers. It's hard to imagine them any other way.

Canon-Related Concepts

One of my favourite arcs of Campaign 2 is the pirates arc, because the characters are asking themselves such deliciously heavy questions about their place in the world following Molly's death. I wanted to explore those facets of these characters. 

I've also always found it so interesting that Travis said Fjord would have left to find the third orb if the Wildmother hadn't come through for him. 

Caleb seeks an impossible magic for selfish aims, but he does it because he loves his parents. Fjord would make a deal with the devil for power, but he does it because he equates power with agency, and he wants the ability to protect himself and others. Caleb had a taste of that power, but it soured when he used it for the wrong reasons. Fjord is tasting it now, and can't imagine ever letting it go.

Related Works

Frankenstein by Mary Shelley 

The Raven Tower by Ann Leckie

The Magicians by Lev Grossman

The initial pitch of Blood Moon explicitly referred to Caleb as a "Frankensteinien" character. Pervasive in that book is the desire for a domestic life, in which love, happiness, and security are enclosed. Frankenstein loses his mother, and then loses everything else as a consequence of the actions of his grief and uncertainty. What if Caleb's desire to undo what he did to his parents outweighed everything else?

Blood Moon borrows heavily from the magic in The Raven Tower, where one can literally speak something into existence. The idea of a world where "if you say something, it must become true, or you die trying" is extremely evocative and has stayed with me. It was a beautiful way to explore how grief can change the world.

If I can be honest here for a moment, I actually no longer remember why I have The Magicians listed as an inspiration for the fic. I started Blood Moon 3+ years ago and read The Magicians shortly afterwards, and I've since forgotten everything about that book except for what it made me feel: a despair that was hard to look in the eye.

Themes

These are phrased like high school essay questions because I couldn't think of a better way to present them. These are some of the questions that I asked myself while writing:

"With great power comes great responsibility …" Perhaps the defining question of the entire story. How is the question of duty explored in the fic? What do different characters feel responsible for and how do those responsibilities compete? How would each character answer the question "What do we owe to one another?"

Magic is intention. In this world, anybody can do magic. How is the magical presented in relation to the mundane? How much agency do the characters have? What kinds of choices do different characters make? How much does magic change their perception of the world? 

The knowing is part of the price. Caleb and Fjord are both characters who don't know who they are or don't fully understand what made them. Initially, Fjord is resistant to the idea of learning more about his teacher at all. Vulnerability, he understands, is something that can only be given when you have power. What role do alter egos and second identities and our strange other selves play in this fic?

Life and death are the greatest changes of all. Caleb is determined to bring back his parents at any cost. Fjord is determined to live at any cost. Both of our lead characters have other forces calling for their dues. How are death and grief explored in this fic? How about ideas of rebirth and change? 

I am nothing like I was. I cannot teach you; I cannot protect you. The story of Blood Moon is the story of what happens when Fjord goes looking for a teacher. In fact, many of the primary relationships in this fic are a mentorship or potential mentorship between a teacher and a student. What role does learning and teaching play in interpersonal relationships? How do different characters challenge these categories?

Home is where the heart is. The residences of several prominent magicians feature heavily in the fic as their seats of power. What role does "home" play in Caleb and Fjord's lives? How do they imagine, think of, and build their homes? What happens when someone's home is destroyed or otherwise absent? 

Return. What is Fjord's relationship with the sea?

Misc. Notes

The enduring image of the fic that still lives rent free in my head is the burning house. Caleb's childhood house goes up in flames -> Isharnai's house goes up in flames -> the manor goes up in flames, and each time the axis of the world shifts just a little bit.

If you read and enjoyed the fic, please know that you have my eternal thanks. It means a lot to me.

And of course:

[ravennaortiz]

Okay maam!!! I got one for you!!! 🌙 I gotta know!!

Oooooo!!!!! This is a good one!

From the October writer themes asks.

🌙 moon: do any of your OCs have dark backstories or secrets they’re trying to keep?

I actually have a few of my OC's that fit here to be honest. Sooooo I'm going to list them all and I'll link the character boards and stories.... I apologize in advance for the length lol.

Katalina Moreno-Losa: She features in a WIP I'm working on called What Haunts the Girl (I'll link some snippets below). She is the lone survivor of a vicious assault on the Losa household when the club is out on a run. The reason for her "survival" is a major plot point so I don't want to give to much away but it does involve a love interest that neither Bishop or her mom knew about. But she spends two years being kept captive( drug addiction forms, beaten,rape) before escaping and making her way back home. Very angsty but will have a happy ending!

Snippet 1 Snippet 2

Widowmaker: She has multiple identities and desperately wants to keep them secret which is hard to do due to a certain hacker and later a certain ATF agent. She works with the clubs/crime organization and they just assume she is a dirty small town cop who goes by Lexi. Events in her childhood greatly influence the course of her life. This story showcases nature vs nurture. She features in a WIP called Keep My Secret with Juice that revolves around the later seasons of Sons of Anarchy

Snippet

Stormie Rayne Epps: Her childhood was rough. Verbal and physical abuse, her mom died and her brother Kip(Half-Sack) left for the army. This left her with her dad who eventually sold her to a friend of his who raped her and eventually got her pregnant. She ran away at 15 and had the baby. The guy tracks her down over the years and eventually he gets put in jail right around the time Stormie tracks her brother down. She packs her little girl up and goes to Charming where she slowly learns her worth and what a healthy and loving relationship is like. The story she is in is an ongoing multi chapter one

Sunshine

Chloe Morrow- . She is a ....serial killer to be honest. She doesn't like to do it but she will if anyone she loves is threatened. Between the 3 stories that are out with her in it you can account for at least 2 bodies....one of those being her dads. She also has her sites on the head of the table........

Secret Part 1 Part 2 Crime Scene

Cori Lowman- She knows what happened to her dad and has never told the club. She seeks her own vengeance but follows heavily in her dads footsteps by becoming a killer for hire.....for the Mayans. Which puts some members of the SONS in peril. I have 5 stories out with her right now but these 2 give the most direct aspects of her story line :

Revenge and Avenging Angel

Morgana Telford: Her story is set in an Alternate Universe- Supernatural( vamps,werewolves etc). Her mom sends her to Charming in the hopes her uncle can get her back on the path of their ancestors. The problem is while doing this they have to make sure no one finds out her current form as it could have deadly consequences.

Thank you for asking!

Love R!

[miscellaneousman]

currently compiling a playlist of enhypen and &team songs called the ‘dark moon universe’ where i pair up songs from both groups that share the same vibe but this shit is harder than i thought and i fear this is due to the vampire-werewolf dichotomy (vamps = dark and mysterious vs. werewolves = loud and rambunctious)

[grilledcheezy92]

Oh this is Angel's first Solstice! Since last year David hadn't even shifted for them yet.

"I'll explain while we work ... No, you can put the stuff wherever you want. I trust your eye, that's why I asked for your help in the first place. I know you don't know much about the holiday but it's not as rigid as Christmas or something ... every moonbound group celebrates it a little bit differently." I know Vamps have The Summit they do for Halloween but I wonder if they also do something for Solstice 👀 maybe clan-specific. And what about moonbound elementals?

"My dad loved the Solstice, it was really special to him. I want to do it justice." 🥹

"I know I've been pretty brief so far around explaining the holiday ... together they're the one recurring event that actually impacts our powers. Each Empowered race is either Sunbound or Moonbound. It doesn't really mean much. It doesn't affect our abilities in any way or at any time aside from the Solstice. For those of us that are Moonbound, on the day of the Winter Solstice our powers spike. We get stronger, inexplicably. Magic comes easier and it's more powerful. We feel energized and revitalized." Is there a list of which magical races are moonbound vs sunbound?

Shifters, Vamps, Stealths, and Earth Elementals are all moonbound.

Fire elementals are sunbound, obviously. I think Water Elementals are moonbound too (at least that's what makes sense to me) So if that's true and elementals are split on the sun/moon bound that would make Air elementals sunbound (ooh two sunbound/moonbound couples in the DAMN crew 👀)*

"No, no it doesn't make me shift, it's not like that. The actual moon doesn't hold any sway over my powers one way or the other. I always do shift on the Solstice because it feels... incredible. It's like nothing else. It's a sacred day to every moonbound empowered. It's a time where we come together with family and friends and celebrate this gift we have."

[kaijubluedreams]

I was reminded of a """"book"""" I wrote in .... 8th grade?? For a gifted program project. It's essentially a rip off of the Twilight family but with an "original", god awful plot. It's called Tears of Blood and the main character can't even CRY on account of being a vampire, it's the secondary were-people that cry blood tears. Here are some "highlights"

were-people includes were-dogs, were-tigers, and were-wolves (including a half dog, half wolf. Also, the wolves and half breeds only go crazy for 3 days during the full moon and have to be locked up)

the villain sent the MC a letter, detailing his exact fucking plan, AND THE WHOLE VAMPIRE FAMILY ALL TOOK IT SERIOUSLY

Since they did that, the MC has to go into hiding and is brought by some were-dogs to said hiding place

on the way, they stop at a diner to eat AND LEAVE THE MC OUTSIDE, ALONE

the villain then ambushes her, ON PAGE 11, and turns her into a human because he's a vampire sorcerer who can do that

he later sends her a ken doll dressed like him and another insane letter where he says he's handsome, leading to this line:

"Does [villain] really think himself handsome? I guess he'd be alright if he wasn't trying to kill me."

He knows where she is the entire fucking week she's in "hiding"

the climactic fight between vamp sorcerer and his vampire and werewolf buddies vs the good animal blood drinking vamps (they have green eyes) and some were-dogs is slept through by the MC, because she is hiding off to the side with her husband, one of the two most powerful good vamps and one of the other vamp family members

vamp sorcerer gets run through with a sword by vamp husband, it's not nearly as cool as you imagine

oh and it ends on sort of a cliff hanger, MC didn't remember any of her previous human life (which spoiler: involved being hunted by her current husband who then turned her) and it's a "big" "plot" point through the "book". So when she wakes up from being changed back into a vampire by vamp husband again, she says she remembers everything, including her human life, AND THEN IT ENDS????

Also, all 98 pages of this is either handwritten (95% of it) or typed on a typewriter. There are also character bios for each family member (I don't even remember if they all are named in the book and I just read it), a "what's next" (3 parts from 3 different perspectives), and an author bio (where I talk about how much I like names and how important their meanings are and then say all the names in the book are just because I like how they sound).

[vampyrescript]

vamp!junhui panting and trembling before your first time together. looking down at you below him, your legs wrapped around his waist holding him close to you. he can hear how fast your heart is racing and how your blood is gushing through your veins; it almost distracts him from the arousal coursing through his own.

“you look so pretty like this,” he tells you softly, his voice cracking as his eyes fixate on your jugular. your chest rises and falls rapidly as you whisper a quiet “thank you, junnie.” junhui can’t help the way his eyes immediately dart towards where your heart is located under all the flesh and ribs shielding it. shielding it from potential threats such as himself.

your hair is laying over your forehead, your pretty, glittering eyes staring up at him as you lay patiently awaiting his next move. junhui squeezes his eyes shut in an attempt to take his mind off of the way his fangs keep trying to extend.

he knows you trust him. he knows you want this. he promised you yesterday that he’d be able to control himself, and you had told him that even if he couldn’t that you wouldn’t mind. as he recalls the moment now, he realizes it was a promise he made to himself. he wanted to promise himself that he’d be able to control his urges… but those thoughts begin slipping from his mind as he smells another wave of arousal overcome your whole body.

[thecarnivorousmuffinmeta]

Ok so. What if questions. I admit I came across your blog by a fic linking to you while I was looking at all the spite fics, so my perspective may be shifted.

1. What if Bella was terminally ill. I know Edward would be full on for her dying human, but would his family agree? How aggressive would disagreements get? Especially since almost everyone in the family has the “was turned to save them from death” story that Bella would now be in the prefatory stages of

Pfft, well then, what a recommendation. I.. am now vaguely curious how that even occurred.

But onto your question.

What if Bella Was Terminally Ill?

Well, things get complicated.

And this is actually canon.

Canon, What You Talking About Willis?

We have two instances where this occurs, one is implicit and one is very explicit.

I'm going to focus on the implicit one as I think it best answers your question.

(The explicit is when Bella's carrying Renesmee and quite clearly dying of starvation, internal bleeding, organ failure, and god knows what else.)

The New Moon Vote

The implicit one is at the end of New Moon. Bella has been to Italy and personally met the Volturi, they ruled that she could return home but that she must be turned and that they would be checking in very shortly.

As of that meeting, Bella and the coven itself have a guillotine hanging over their heads.

Bella no longer has a human future: she will either be murdered by the Volturi or the Cullens will turn her.

Bella, no longer trusting Edward alone on this matter, takes it to the Cullens and puts it to a vote: is she turned or is she not.

Now, it's never explicitly brought up there that what they're really choosing is "Bella is murdered by vampires and we all die" or "Bella is turned and not murdered by vampires and none of us die". It, in fact, likely doesn't occur to most of the characters sitting at that table because... It's just not something they're inclined to think about.

Regardless, Bella is mortal and mortals die. It may not be immediate, but sooner or later, it's coming and a decision must be made.

We get the exact breakdown there on who sides where on the issue.

Edward chooses humanity and throws a fit when Carlisle, the patriarch and the one who will be doing the turning, votes against him and then spends the next novel trying to weasel his way out of that bargain.

Carlisle chooses to turn Bella for a variety of reasons but also in part because Edward has made it clear that as soon as Bella dies he will commit suicide and still intends to do this. If Carlisle chooses to allow Bella to remain human, he not only murders her and probably his family, but also murders Edward as well.

Alice chooses to turn Bella as she's been pro Bella being a vampire from the beginning and is convinced that this is the only legitimate and enviable future for the family. Edward just has to get with the program.

Rosalie chooses humanity as she projects onto Bella Swan and wishes for her to have the choices and future that Rosalie never had. Now, I don't think it quite registered for Rosalie that the Volturi are coming, there is no human future to be had here, but she nevertheless made the argument.

Jasper chooses vampirism as he doesn't want to eat Bella.

And we go on down the list.

The disagreements were... relatively mild but only because Edward then went behind the Cullen council's back.

Rosalie told Bella very dark trauma about her past in the hopes that Bella would reconsider and understand and Bella said "Cool story, bro, still gonna get myself vamped." And that was about the end of the conflict there as Rosalie more or less gave up and didn't talk much to Bella until the Renesmee debacle.

Carlisle thought Edward was going to attempt to turn Bella per Edward and Bella's agreement. He very likely thought that meant sooner rather than later and I'm sure he had extreme doubts regarding the very public wedding Edward and Bella had followed by the honeymoon of Man of Steel vs. Woman of Kleenex. But life is hard for Carlisle and then he got to spend a month faking Bella's parasitic infection while desperately trying to keep her alive when she decides she does want to carry Rosemary's Baby.

Edward decides to use his turning Bella as leverage to both delay the turning and get her to marry him first. In Breaking Dawn he's attempting to have Bella delay her transformation for several years, at least through university.

I have no doubt those goal posts would somehow keep moving until Bella remains human forever.

He later suggests that Jacob could supply her with children if she so desired. And also, of course, notes that the Volturi are old vampires who don't know a decade from a few weeks: they won't check in. (They had, in fact, sent Bella a wedding gift in the mail, reminding them that they remembered her and seen her two weeks earlier as of Breaking Dawn when Jane notes with some mild annoyance/bemusement that Bella's still very human.)

So, Your Question's Kind of Answered

There are disagreements but they're surprisingly mild in part because Edward kept his running afoul of the family decision on the sly from the family and Rosalie never had much hope for convincing Bella to begin with.

We also get Edward plotting Rosalie's dismemberment with Jacob so he can forcibly abort Bella, in part to keep her human, but I guess it never came to that...

[elevenc]

bsd theories: a list

Some existing bsd theories (AS OF CHAPTER 98) that I could think of off the top of my head. none of the linked posts are mine.

1. Higuchi’s ability

having an ability, possibly healing ability to reverse time possible names for said ability 

my take: I do not think Higuchi’s ability is specifically healing, but I do think time reverse used as a healing ability is possible.

2. Fyodor’s ability

blood manipulation and therefore instant death brainwash/brain-related  whether it is affected by direct touch direct touch, and what the sin is

my take: fyodor can control his ability. nikolai slaps him on the shoulder at some point? he might be using his ability to instantly kill ability users.

3. Vamp!Fyodor

fyodor is a vampire fyodor is NOT a vampire

4. Vampire infection in the PM

how the infection might have started  another infection spread theory the end of the prison break arc who is dead dead and could possible live

my take: I just want Jouno to be alive at the end of all of this.

5. Tanizaki siblings

junichiro potentially joining the PM another one here more things on junichiro being insane naomi is dead naomi is NOT dead (umm)

my take: it is highly possible that junichiro joins the PM. side note, i don’t trust long-haired, smiling anime characters in sailor moon uniforms.

6. Sigma

sigma will be fyodor’s downfall possible abilities (I have yet to read a post about this)  sigma joins the ada (can’t find the post)

my take: I actually don’t think sigma has an ability.

also check this out: BSD unresolved

Interesting takes on:

Fukuchi Fyodor VS Dazai and this Yosano VS Dazai Dazai when it comes to Ango  sadism and violence in bsd atsushi is NOT a cinnamon roll

if you're digging for obscure bsd theories you should definitely search for the shorter, less often seen posts on tumblr. the posts I chose are mostly ones that do a good job of summarising common theories :) please add on to this list I would love to read more

ah WAIT!! before you go! read this what you’re tagging wrong as a bsd fan

[mcgnagallsarmy]

Masterlist of Spuffy fics by episode (S5-S7)

5x01 - Buffy vs. Dracula:

All About the Mission - Part 2 of the I Would Still Have Loved You series. by slaymesoftly [NC-17]

The sequel to I Would Still Have Loved You. We're now in Season 5 and Dawn and Glory are about to arrive. This is the year that will change everything - if they can get Buffy through it alive. And if that doesn't change their own world so much they aren't together anymore.

Needlework by Holly [NC-17]

Dracula did a bit more than bite. Vamped and with nowhere to go, Buffy turns to her former enemy for help and finds a whole lot more.

West of the Moon, East of the Sun by KnifeEdge [NC-17]

I keep having the strangest dream. Every night it's the same thing: a dark room, a big bed, and a silent vampire that I can feel, but not see. I'd be wigged, except it's just a dream, right? It'll be a cold day in hell before I ever willingly sleep with a vampire again...

5x03 - The Replacement:

Inherent Qualities by Doublemeat Palace [NC-17]

Buffy stumbles across Spike getting intimate with someone in his crypt. And it's making her a little hot, honestly. Especially since it's been too long since she's had a little personal satisfaction. Or has it? Everything is not as it seems thanks to a visit from the meddlesome Toth demon. Will Spike and Buffy, and... Buffy sort things out so that Buffy can finally get some relief?

5x04 - Out of My Mind:

A Dream Is A Wish your Heart Makes by cawthraven [NC-17]

Buffy just had a hot fight with Spike. And now, she's having a hot night with him, too.

Dreamweaver by angelic_amy [R]

When Buffy falls into a dream that isn’t her own she starts to see the world a little differently.

If It's Only a Dream by slaymesoftly [NC-17]

What if Buffy somehow shared or got into Spike’s dream in OoMM? Would either of them be willing to explore those feelings in real life? This story addresses those questions.

Once Upon A Dream by Holly [NC-17]

Buffy storms to Spike’s crypt following his attempt to remove the chip.

5x05 - No Place Like Home:

Pardon My French by Girlytek [R]

In retrospect, it was probably a bad idea to let Buffy perform a spell in French.

5x06 - Family:

Once in a Lifetime by bewildered [NC-17]

“If you really think you can love this guy--I’m talking scary, messy, no-emotions-barred need--if you’re ready for that, then think about what you’re about to lose.” Buffy thinks. And then she runs.

5x07 - Fool for Love:

Cold Comfort by kantayra [NC-17]

Buffy invites Spike in and discovers a fun new way to forget about her troubles.

Could Be You by Abby [NC-17]

You know you wanna dance. Spike knew it, the fans knew it, and this time, Buffy knew it, too.

Enthralled by spike_spetslayer [NC-17]

Buffy turns to Spike for comfort, love, and assistance with a Hellgod.

Frenemy by Holly [PG]

She wasn’t stupid. He’d obviously come here to kill her.

It's a Crummy World by slaymesoftly [PG-13]

What might have happened after Spike found Buffy crying on the back porch and sat down beside her? How might that have changed the rest of that time period?

Turning Point by DauntlessGrace [PG-13]

After Buffy leaves Spike in the alley in "Fool for Love", she's attacked by vampires. Spike is passing through on his way back to his crypt when he hears her cries for help.

What If I Loved You? by slaymesoftly [NC-17]

What if Spike had saved Buffy when she got staked, rather than Riley? How much would have changed? Both for them, and for those around them?

5x10 - Into the Woods:

Cut the Dead Wood Out by KillerSnotMonster [PG]

Buffy walks in on Riley staking Spike.

Dance Lessons by EllieRose101 [NC-17]

Spike helps Buffy blow off some steam. (Set after Into the Woods)

Naked by The Danish Bird [NC-17]

Her mom is out of the woods, her boyfriend is nice and attentive, the witches are working on some spell to confine Glory for a little while. Things should be looking up, really. But why has Riley slipped out of bed in the middle of the night? And why is Spike, of all annoying people, suddenly there, in her room, refusing to leave? And why are they suddenly stuck there together, on her bed? Buffy could really do with some witchy help right about now...and clothes, clothes would be of the good!

The Naked Part by BloodEnvy [NC-17]

A smutty rewriting of the famous scene in "Into the Woods", where Spike wants to show Buffy the truth about Riley. But what if Buffy was woken up from a dream that led her to react a little differently to the vampire?

Out of the Woods by St Ephiny [PG-13]

When Riley gives Buffy an ultimatum she realizes something about their relationship she hadn't before: it's never going to work. Too bad Xander didn't get the memo...

The Unbeaten Track by EllieRose101 [G]

Buffy’s conversation with Xander in ‘Into the Woods’ goes a bit differently as she realizes he’s right and she simply can’t lose a certain guy in her life.

5x12 - Checkpoint:

A Boatload of Manly Responsibility by Passion4Spike [NC-17]

When Buffy brings her mom and sister to Spike to protect from the hellgod, Glory, he sees a chink in her armor—she needs him, she trusts him... maybe, just maybe, she doesn’t hate him as much as she claims. Will that boatload of manly responsibility the Slayer’s dropped into his lap save Spike from a life of lonely desperation?

Checkmate by NautiBitz [R]

When Spike insults Buffy during Season 5's 'Checkpoint', she doesn't walk away. Short and sweet (and slightly naughty) 'deleted scene'-type ficlet.

5x13 - Blood Ties:

Gift from the Heart by Miss Marisol [PG]

Spike walks Buffy home and finds out it's her birthday. Since she makes clear that she doen't want him to buy her anything, he comes up with another idea...

5x14 - Crush:

All Bottled Up by honeygirl51885 [NC-17]

If you bottle things up, sooner or later they’re gonna explode.

Bloody Well Through Playing by Behind Blue Eyes [NC-17]

A slightly different twist on "Crush". What would've happened if Spike truly meant, "Bloody well through playing"?

Crash by Holly [NC-17]

True, Whistler sent her back to fix just one thing, but Buffy has always been rather ambitious.

Crumbling Walls by UncagedMuse [PG-13]

Spike decides he needs to have his say at the end of Crush.

Crushed by yumimum [NC-17]

Did you ever wonder what could have happened if our favourite vamp had reacted differently after being disinvited from the Slayer's home? Set immediately post-Crush, Spike takes a stand, and Buffy is forced to face some harsh truths. Will she finally admit her true feelings, or continue swimming in that famous river called denial? Will it even matter?

Inhuman Behavior by violettathepiratequeen [PG-13]

What if Dawn never spilled the beans to Buffy about Spike's crush, and Drusilla never came back to Sunnydale? Spike could have gotten in a few more sneak-dates before getting caught in his feelings, that's for sure!

More Than a Crush by Autumn2005 [PG]

A slip of the tongue during Crush makes things turn out far differently.

My Bloody Valentine by cawthraven [NC-17]

Buffy's sure that Valentine's Day is designed to torment the single. And oh lord is she single now that Riley's gone. Meanwhile, everyone around her seems to have someone to spend the holiday with. But it turns out she has a secret admirer...

Squeeze by EllieRose101 [PG]

Season 5 episode ‘Crush’ could have gone so differently…

Trapped Under Ice by Axell [NC-17]

Disappointments. Betrayals. Lies. Expectations. Pressure. It could be overwhelming for anyone. Some find a defence mechanism. Is there a way to thaw an icy heart?

5x16 - The Body:

Cry by Wonder and Ashes [PG-13]

If grief can do one thing, it’s bring enemies together.

Life Goes On by Wonder and Ashes [PG-13]

Joyce lives long enough so she’s the one who jumps off the tower and closes the portal in “The Gift”.

5x17 - Forever:

Token by EllieRose101 [G]

Feeling bad for Spike, Willow ignored Xander's protests and left the flowers the Vampire had brought Joyce for Buffy to find.

5x18 - Intervention:

Love Commands by OffYourBird [G]

Entry for Elysian Fields' second Exquisite Corpse round robin, and was the opening chapter.

Misery Made Beautiful by Holly [NC-17]

Buffy finds herself growing closer to Spike as the world around her falls to chaos.

The Sin That Binds Us by bramcrackers [NC-17]

When Angel finds out from the PTB that Buffy will die to protect her fake sister, he decides to take matters into his own hands. But when he comes for Dawn, Spike is there to protect her. When Buffy comes home, she finds her entire world upended. Angel betrayed her. He tried to kill Dawn. And now he’s dead. And the only reason Dawn is alive is a vampire she thought she couldn’t trust, a vampire she thought couldn’t love her. So what the hell is she supposed to do with that?

Whispers by Abby [NC-17]

After Spike endures torture at the hands of Glory to protect the identity of the key, Buffy is forced to reconsider everything she ever thought she knew about the vampire, leading to some startling revelations.

5x20 - Spiral:

(Unintended) You Could Be by ashcrashed [NC-17]

No, she hadn’t lost her mind. Because the reasons that made Spike the actual worst also made him the right one for the job.

After by MillennialCryBaby [R]

It’s the end of the world and they have a hell god hot on their heels. Is it too soon to be thinking about what might happen after?

Be Brave by Ajmilone [PG-13]

At the end of Spiral, Ben turns into Glory...and Buffy and Spike come running out of some back room together. What happened in there?

Sliding Door by cloud_forest [PG]

The Scoobies are keeping themselves occupied after the Slayer's retreat to the Winnebago's pseudo-bedroom. This time around, it's Spike- instead of Dawn -who comes to the door in hopes of offering her a bit of comfort and advice.

Spirit Indestructible by Passion4Spike [Adult Only]

Season 5. Begins with ‘Spiral’ in the abandoned gas station, and goes *far* off-canon almost immediately. When Dawn makes the ultimate sacrifice to save her sister, friends, and the world, Buffy’s mind snaps. When Buffy's friends give up hope of her ever recovering, and become afraid that she’ll turn violent and uncontrollable, they call in the Council to help. Fearing what the Council will do, Spike, forgotten and ignored by her friends, steps in. Will he be able to reach the Slayer when no one else could? Will he be able to keep her out of the hands of the Council and away from her ‘helpful’ friends? How much heartbreak, guilt, and failure can one girl stand before her indestructible spirit finally resigns the fight and gives up hope WARNINGS: Threesome B/G/G action involving Spike, Buffy, and BuffyBot. Implied Rape. Main Character Death. Physical Torture. Plenty of angst.

5x22 - The Gift:

A Different Kind of Hell by OffYourBird  [NC-17]

Jumping through Glory's tower portal, Buffy and Spike find themselves in a hell dimension they never expected. One that looks suspiciously like 1880's London. Will they find a way back home? Will the truth behind William the Bloody at last make itself known? Will Buffy ever stop butchering the Queen's English? Join them and find out.

And Then She Knew by Addie Logan [PG-13]

Spike does something different – faster and more clever – and everything changes.

Glory by Holly [NC-17]

Dying is easy; living is harder.

His Girl by dreamweaver [NC-17]

Buffy loses her memory when she and Spike both fall through Glory's portal.

Hope by eternallyec [G]

What if Buffy gave herself a moment to reflect before the final battle? The "promise to a lady scene" as it should have played out according to me.

Let it Burn! by Axell [Adult Only]

Her eyes followed the blood. Summers blood. She counted the drops. Ten. Then it stopped. If Dawn dies, I’m through. I don’t want to live in a world if these are the choices. Slowly, her head rose up. Their eyes met. Green and amber. A look passed between them then a nod. Her own voice echoed into her mind. I’m counting on you. To avenge her. Us. He made a promise. Until dusk will swallow them all.

Little Dreams by Sigyn [PG]

“God, Spike was beautiful. Evil, of course, but beautiful. It was a dream to imagine he could ever be someone Buffy could love. She pictured kissing him, throwing all sense to the wind and smashing her mouth against his, feeling the passion of his sensual caress. But there was so much between them, not just vampire and slayer, but lies and manipulations and confusion and chains, and she wasn’t ready.”

Longer, Then Forever by Demonica Mills [R]

What if Buffy had gone to hell when she jumped in Glory's portal?

Thorn Within by Axell [NC-17]

What will you do, when you lose the last link that was holding you into this world? Do you give up? Do you fight? Or, you just go through motions?

to walk on your knees, repenting by fallrain [NC-17]

She sees Dawn’s feet disappear over the edge as she reaches the top of the tower. Her soles flash pale and narrow in the light of the rising sun. Dawn jumps off the tower at the end of The Gift.

6x01 - Bargaining, Part I:

Dying Is an Art (I Do It Exceptionally Well) by cawthraven [R]

After Buffy crawls out of her grave, she finds a familiar place to rest. It's quiet and safe, and the vampire who lives there can take care of her.

Fell by Sigyn [R]

Anya overhears an idle wish at the Bronze, and suddenly there’s no more Spike. What would Buffy have been like without Spike to catch her after she came back from death? How far down would she fall? WARNING: VERY DARK FIC!

Missing Memory by EffulgentEllie [NC-17]

Part two of the Void Verse. Buffy's sacrifice landed her as a ghost and tied to Spike. While he was unable to see or hear her, she witnessed everything he did. She was able to see behind Spike's Big Bad persona and her feelings for the vampire changed without her realizing it. One hundred forty seven days later, Buffy finds herself thrust back into the world of the living. How will she handle her own developing feelings and the prejudices of her friends when she returns?

Nightingale by Holly [NC-17]

One hundred and forty-seven days yesterday. One hundred and forty-eight today. Only today doesn't count.

6x03 - After Life:

Chasing Heaven by Holly [NC-17]

He watched her pause, watched her trembling hand form a fist and unfurl again. So unlike the Buffy he knew, the Buffy preserved in his memory. That Buffy would have smarted off and popped him in the nose for daring to share her space. This Buffy did neither.

Day 148 by FoolForSpuffy [PG-13]

When Spike and Buffy are reunited after she comes back from the dead a second time, Buffy realizes who she can trust and who she needs to keep at a distance.

The Demon, The Witch and The Warlock by AlloSpoike [NC-17]

The Scoobies bring a not-too-chipper Buffy back to life, hoping it'll be just like old times, but magic always has consequences. As Buffy finds herself strangely drawn to Spike, the gang races to get to the bottom of the side effects of Will's biggest spell yet, and everyone gets more than they bargained for.

Distant Thunder by Axell [NC-17]

So, here’s the sitch. Her sister smells of things she shouldn't smell and she's acting strange. Very, very strange and it's not even Tuesday. This calls for an urgent Scoobies meeting, the problem is, she's kinda pissed at them at the moment, you know with pulling her out of Heaven and stuff. Guess who's not on her shit list right now?

Life Revised by B_Red [R]

A gentler start to the Spuffy relationship after Buffy returns in Season 6.

Walking in Dreams by sweetprincipale [R]

Buffy's body comes back in one piece, her mind a little less stable. Uncertain of reality, a sleep-deprived Slayer finds one thing she can cling to, waking or dreaming. Plenty of angst and stream-of-very-tangled-thought to begin with, but it has a sweet Spuffy ending.

6x04 - Flooded:

Death and Taxes by EllieRose101 [G]

“In another life, I would have really liked just doing laundry… and taxes with you.”

The Other Side by The Danish Bird [PG]

Being resurrected is less fun than some people may think. Especially when your friends rip you out of heaven and expect you to say thanks and be happy, even though nothing feels right; even though you can't feel much of anything. When Angel calls and wants to see Buffy, she realises he might be the one person who can chase away the numbness and make her feel something - anything. Besides, maybe seeing Angel will make her stop thinking about Spike all the time.

When the Floods Roll Back by OffYourBird [NC-17]

Buffy's back from the grave and finding that being alive - yet again - really isn't all it's cracked up to be. In fact, she'd like a refund. No, really; she could use the money.

6x05 - Life Serial:

Almost Paradise by Holly [NC-17]

When presented with the opportunity to magically alter the world she lives in, Buffy knows there are a lot of very good reasons why she shouldn't seize it, but figures things can't get worse. She's wrong.

Doesn't Matter by Sigyn [G]

"Angel used to be my world," Buffy told Spike. "He turned me inside out, and when he left me, I felt like I was dying. I thought... if anything could make me feel alive, he could." Buffy tells Spike about her trip to see Angel at the end of Flooded.

Just a Teenage Crush by Addie Logan [NC-17]

After Buffy's day from hell thanks to the Geek Trio, Willow decides to "help" by making Buffy forget she ever died. And -- big surprise here -- this goes terribly, terribly wrong.

6x06 - All the Way:

Rough and Tumble by Holly [NC-17]

It’s Halloween, and Buffy is tired of lying to herself, especially in a world that has already killed her twice. She takes Spike up on his offer for patrol...and other things.

6x07 - Once More, with Feeling:

Just a Kiss by Jerzeyanjel [NC-17]

A look into what Buffy is thinking during Once More with Feeling.

Phoenix by EllieRose101 [NC-17]

Spike saved Buffy at great personal cost—something she hopes to repay. (Goes off-canon near the end of Once More with Feeling.)

Skipping the Stone by sandy_s, Badwolfjedi [R]

Buffy finds out that Spike was dusted in the big battle with Wolfram and Hart. Angry, hurt, and determined, she finally agrees to take a daring risk with Dawn to go back in time and make sure Spike knows he’s loved even if it doesn’t change his fate.

Something To Sing About by NautiBitz [NC-17]

What could have happened if Buffy and Spike's musically climactic kiss led to an actual climax.

6x08 - Tabula Rasa:

A Love Like Ours by Holly [NC-17]

Picks up at the end of Tabula Rasa. Buffy is in pain and Spike doesn't know how to make it better, but he is more than willing to try.

Antithesis by pfeifferpack [PG]

A brief exploration in contrasts as Angel gets caught up in the spell from Tabula Rasa along with the others. Very different behaviors from the two vampires in Buffy's life would be very illuminating but would it be enough to make Buffy see that those who've stayed at her side have more to offer than she's allowed them give? Would parts of her broken heart begin to mend even as the rest of her heart is in tatters? Just what lessons could they all learn from what they witness?

Broken by Wonder and Ashes [PG-13]

When the Tabula Rasa spell is broken, Buffy regains some memories she was never supposed to remember…

Clean Slate by DarkVoid116 [R]

"I'm a vampire with a soul." "Oh my God. How lame is that?" When the spell breaks, Buffy views Spike differently.

Crumbs by Holly [NC-17]

Kissing Spike in that alley—talk about a bad idea. Now she’s gone and made it awkward with the only person she can stand to be around, and whatever else, she can’t lose the peace Spike brings her. She also can’t give him more than she has to offer right now…though maybe she can someday. If he’s willing to wait.

Memories are Made of This by slaymesoftly [NC-17]

What if the loss of memory spell had lasted longer? How would the gang have handled it? What might change? And then what might happen when the spell was finally broken and they all remembered who they really are and what they've been through?

Rewritten by Sigyn [PG-13]

A magic crystal is kicked aside rather than shattered, and an old world is closed behind. How do you move forward in a life without a history? And what if your history isn’t what you thought it was?

Stay With Me by Ashlee [PG-13]

What if Buffy had reacted a little differently at the end of Tabula Rasa? Inspired by the way she is holding onto him at the end of the show, during the kiss.

Tabula Inscriba by St Ephiny [PG]

What if Willow's spell didn't stop Buffy from saying what she started to, after Giles told them he was leaving? What if the slate was never wiped clean?

To Be A Kind of Man by the_big_bad [G]

What if Buffy realizes that during the Tabula Rasa spell, Spike had no memories but wasn't evil. Not only that, he had no inclination to do wrong and none of them questioned that he was a soulful human. How would that change her outlook and their relationship?

Wait a Minute! by darcygall [PG]

Right after Tabula Rasa, Buffy realizes something weird: Spike had no memories but wasn't evil. A vampire with no memories didn't even realize he was a vampire and had no inclination to do wrong when he should have theoretically been more like a new fledge with the power of an older vamp. Does this mean he's not inherently evil? Is his personality strong enough to override evil? Hell they assumed he had a soul when he doesn't, what does that mean? Thinking this through and going to talk to Spike, Buffy stops seeing him as an evil thing and starts seeing him as a person. How does this change the rest of s6? How does this change Spuffy as a relationship?

Wiping the Slate Clean by ya_lublyu_tebya [R]

The reversal of the Tabula Rasa spell doesn't quite go according to plan and our favourite slayer and vampire are left memoryless. Just what difference will no memory of their past make in their relationship?

Wizard Glass by RipeWickedPlum [R]

Takes off from the ending scene in Tabula Rasa. Spike and Buffy find out why they lost their memories and after a confrontational, an out of control Willow sets her sights on Spike.

6x09 - Smashed:

Black Hole Confessions by OffYourBird [NC-17]

The abandoned house was crumbling and unsteady, really no better than the idea of a house now that its usefulness was outlived. But it hadn’t been allowed to die… until a Slayer and a vampire took it down. An alternate look at the Smashed house metaphor.

Hero's Reward by pfeifferpack [PG]

Given a chance to do things differently a hero finds that putting another first and ignoring his own desires can lead to his rewards beyond his hopes.

Hung Up by kats_meow [NC-17]

What if instead of fast food Buffy got a job as a phone sex worker at a new establishment in Sunnydale?

Love, and Other Confessions by B_Red [NC-17]

Y'know, in Smashed, when Buffy was going to ask Willow something and then Rat Amy interrupted? Well, what if that didn't happen? What if Buffy was able to confess some things to Willow? Maybe, that would have lead to a different type of relationship for Buffy and Spike.

'Smashed' as seen by Spike by kittenforspike [Adult Only]

What really happened in 'Smashed', what we didn't see after that house broke down. SPIKES POV

While the Watcher's Away by Nik84 [NC-17]

With Giles back in England Buffy finds herself without someone to help her train. Spike’s there and he’s offering to help but what with recent kisses Buffy’s not sure it’s such a good idea. Then again when did something being a bad idea ever stop her? Plus Spike is convinced he can teach her a thing or two. So Buffy agrees but it isn’t long before a certain well guarded secret is spilled and nothing can go back to how it was before.

6x10 - Wrecked:

Needs Must by EllieRose101 [PG]

Buffy and Dawn both need some respite, and Spike is determined to make sure they get it. (Set after Wrecked.)

Salvage by Holly [NC-17]

Buffy wakes up amid the rubble to a brand new world.

Smashed and Remade by ya_lublyu_tebya [NC-17]

A look at how much better things might have gone if Buffy had been a little less hostile in 'Wrecked'.

The Vampire's Gambit by violettathepiratequeen [PG]

Dawn gets more than just a broken arm in that car crash, and Buffy refuses to leave her hospital bedside, even when visited by the last person she wants to see.

6x11 - Gone:

Gone Switching by bewildered [NC-17]

Buffy takes a little too much pleasure in Spike’s early-morning visit, and now her secret is out. With her secret relationship with Spike all out in the open, Buffy really doesn’t need any more complications…but it’s Buffy’s post-death life, so of course complications are here, whether she wants them or not. How is she supposed to navigate her resurrected life when she’s not even herself anymore?

Setting Up House by sandy_s [R]

What if the second social worker actually paid a visit to Buffy and Dawn after the incident in “Gone,” and Dawn and Spike convinced Buffy to set up house with Spike? Buffy POV.

Yesterday's Chances by violettathepiratequeen [PG-13]

Spike was just as nervous as Buffy when that social worker appeared, and when he offers to help make things right, Buffy is too desperate to say no. Rewrite of "Gone."

6x13 - Dead Things:

A Different Kind of (Sunny)hell by OffYourBird [Adult Only]

Between juggling a New World Order, a bothersome Council, wayward magic, and – as always – some much with the confusing time travel, there is never a dull moment in Sunnydale for Liz and Elly. This is Season 6 as it exists in the Jumpverse (beginning with A Different Kind of Hell and followed up by A Different Kind of Wedding).

The Future is Ours by DarkEternity96 [NC-17]

What if in mid-Season 4, Spike demands another spell from Willow, in a last-ditch attempt to get Dru back... but rather than having her cast a typical love spell, Spike wants to travel forward in time, to experience the future Drusilla claims she ‘sees’, and prove to her that there is bugger all between him and the Slayer. Cue the spell going awry, and S4 Spike being trapped in the body of his future self, in the very unexpected world of Season 6. And you can only imagine Spike’s utter shock when a lust-fuelled Buffy turns up at his door...

Grace by Soulburnt [NC-17]

In the aftermath of 'Dead Things,' Buffy fears that Spike has dusted. She doesn't think she can survive the world she's been pulled back into without him. When she finds he's alive, Buffy takes a chance at reclaiming her own life by sharing her time, words... and even her blood.

Live Things by ya_lublyu_tebya [PG-13]

Buffy is appalled by what she has done to Spike and goes about trying to change her life for the better.

Living Things by EllieRose101 [PG]

Buffy returns home to find a surprise waiting for her.

Love is a Many Splendored Bitch by MissLuci [Adult Only]

Buffy is visited by God(s) who try, with various scenarios, to open her eyes and see what is right in front of her. They try to get Buffy to see that her and Spike are better together.

No such thing as coincidences. by All4Spike [NC-17]

After Buffy beats Spike up in 'Dead things' he goes off in a huff and ends up at Angel's. Then there's a prophecy… and Buffy comes looking for him…

Reprise by Holly [NC-17]

Spike came back to life and didn’t bother to tell her. Then he died again before she could chew him out. Buffy makes a wish in front of the right kind of demon to set things right and finds herself propelled back to the darkest period of her life.

Saved by honeygirl51885 [R]

I can’t keep the darkness away. It wants me and I feel like at any moment I’ll let go and be lost forever.

we are home now (out of our heads, out of our minds) by trevino [NC-17]

hand in hand, and heart to heart— buffy and spike find room to breathe amidst the events of “dead things.” and, in doing so, they find solace within each other.

Whisper by Jerzeyanjel [Adult Only]

Season 6 during the balcony scene in Dead Things.

6x14 - Older and Far Away:

A Better Way to Go by kats_meow [NC-17]

It's Buffy's twenty-first birthday - you know, the one she was supposed to be conveniently dead for - and some smartass has left a crumpled up poem on her porch. Is it trash, a wish, or a chance for something better?

Bad Luck and Birthdays by JaneRemmington [PG-13]

Spike should've known better than to try to give the Slayer a birthday present. Then again, maybe it was karma for breaking into the Magic Box with Dawn... Wherein Spike attends Buffy's birthday party, only not the one he had intended.

Be Careful What You Wish For by spike_spetslayer [NC-17]

Buffy's birthdays never turn out well and Dawn's made a wish that everyone would tell the truth for once.

Birthday Date by EllieRose101 [G]

Buffy is having a birthday party. Spike has a date.

Closer and Caught in Time by EllieRose101 [NC-17]

Spike has his wicked way with Buffy during her birthday party.

Justice for Spike by Ajmilone [NC-17]

Buffy finally starts to relax around Spike when an unexpected guest arrives.

Salvageable by holetoledo [Adult Only]

An earthquake on Buffy's birthday sets things in a direction no one is prepared for. Episode rewrites from Older And Far Away to As You Were. I didn't include Hell's Bells. Is AU for a short amount of time due to Normal Again.

Thousand Kisses Deep by pfeifferpack [PG-13]

Dawn’s wish to Halfrek is quite different from canon and may wind up being the best gift Buffy receives for her birthday, even if it is late in the receiving.

6x15 - As You Were:

As I Should Be by slaymesoftly [PG]

A slightly altered version of the scene where Buffy breaks up with Spike.

As You Were(n't) by MissLuci [NC-17]

Riley wasn’t alone when he burst into Spike’s crypt looking for the eggs, inadvertently catching our favorite vampire in bed (or rather on top of sarcophagus) with Buffy. One of the scoobies was with him. One with former ‘military experience’. How does Xander’s presence alter the ending of this episode?

At Ease by The Danish Bird [NC-17]

Even with her eyes closed, Buffy would recognise this place in a second, and for a moment she wondered if she truly had ended up in a hell dimension this time. One that had doomed her to an eternity of Doublemeat Palace workdays. Buffy felt her lips moving, heard her own voice speaking, and as she opened her eyes she decided that a hell dimension definitely wasn’t ruled out just yet. “Welcome to the Doublemeat Palace, how may I help – “ She stared into Riley’s scarred face as she completed her sentence. “– you.” Her mom, Sunnydale, her home, Spike – There are many things Buffy misses in her life, but if she had gotten the choice to revisit a day that had already passed, this would so not be it!

Goodbye My Love by incendie [PG-13]

What if Spike took Buffy's rejection harder than in canon. Would he stick around and try to win her back or would he decide he needed to get out of Sunnydale?

I Can Get Money by scratchmeout [NC-17]

Spike puts his past to good use to get money for Buffy. However, things become complicated when her ex shows up and targets Spike.

Meant 2 B by Spikelover4ever [PG-13]

What if Buffy and Spike hadn't broken up after all during season 6? What if they had talked things out and found a way forward where they could explore what they truly meant to each other? This one-shot explores how that could have gone for these two silly blondes as a partial episode rewrite/fix it.

What I Like About Spike by RavenLove12 [NC-17]

She said she liked him sometimes, what were those times? Following the departure of the Finns at the end of ‘As You Were’ Buffy decides to hear Spike’s side of things, and makes a decision that will change everything between them forever.

6x16 - Hell's Bells:

Let me go but hold me tight by Miss Marisol [R]

This time, heartbreak isn’t the right word, she thinks; it isn’t a breaking. Isn’t a something that comes about when your world gets turned on its head—it is simply a nothing. It’s a vacancy of everything good. She had once read that darkness doesn’t exist, that it is merely the absence of light, and she remembers that she hadn’t understood the meaning of this then - but now she does. Takes place during Anya's and Xander's wedding and goes AU from there. After Buffy breaks up with Spike, she realizes that she's made a terrible mistake...

You Came Back by FlightsofFancy [PG-13]

Set around Hells Bells. Buffy and Spike at Xander and Anya's wedding reception.

6x18 - Entropy:

Green-Eyed Monster by ya_lublyu_tebya [R]

When Buffy catches Spike and Anya kissing, the green-eyed monster takes over. But could finally letting her feelings out be a good thing for the troubled Buffy, as jealousy brings about some surprising revelations.

Something For Me by Dorians Kitten [NC-17]

Spike finally realizes that Buffy means it this time; she's ending their not-a-relationship for good. It's over and he is devastated. He knows that magic comes with a cost, but desperate times call for desperate measures. There's got to be something to help ease the pain. He heads to The Magic Box hoping to make a deal with Anya, only to find her chatting all cozy-like with the demon who once called herself Halfrek and broke his pathetic human self's heart. That's okay. There are other places in Sunnydale where a clever vamp can find himself a spot of magic. In fact, Spike might just know himself a rather softhearted witch. Will Tara give him the magic he wants? Or might she just give him something even better?

6x19 - Seeing Red:

The Last Shot by Dusty [PG-13]

The gun went off and everything changed.

Seeing Pink by HCB [R]

A retelling of Seeing Red from the mind of a spuffy-shipper who lives in a world of hugs and puppy dogs.

Seeing You (formerly Re-write of Seeing Red) by slaymesoftly [PG-13]

Buffy/Spike in bathroom –  begins with a line from the show and goes AU from there.

7x01 - Lessons:

All Except One by EllieRose101

A shock revelation threatens to tear the Scooby Gang apart, but will it bring Spike and Buffy together in the long run?

Meet Me at Midnight by Dusty [NC-17]

A story about the stolen midnight hours of season seven.

7x02 - Beneath You:

Everything Old is New Again by slaymesoftly [PG]

A short fill-in-the-blanks set just after Buffy learns about Spike's new soul.

Walk Me to Church by honeygirl51885 [G]

Buffy follows Spike to the church.

7x04 - Help:

One Of Those Dreams by Sigyn [NC-17]

Buffy almost said it. She almost apologized. She was afraid if she did it would break her, even in this dream, if it was still a dream, but she still couldn’t. But you’ve said it so often in so many of these dreams…. Buffy and Spike come together in the high school. But it feels just like one of those dreams….

Someday she'll tell you by Miss Marisol [G]

"Someday she'll tell you." Spike can't help but hope that Cassie knew exactly what she was talking about...

7x06 - Him:

After by Sigyn [PG]

“Are you all right?” Spike asked. “Perfectly normal,” Buffy said. “Spell’s all gone.” “That wasn’t what I meant,” he said. “I meant... after what it made you.... After.”

Right and Wrong by Sigyn [PG-13]

“Even if he was okay with it, even if he was a bad person, even if... if he... did the same thing to someone else. That wouldn’t make what I did right.” Buffy talks to Dawn in the car ride home from the train yard, in Him.

Walk on the Wild Side by violettathepiratequeen [G]

Buffy contemplates how things are changing between her and Spike. Again.

7x08 - Sleeper:

Soft by Sigyn [PG]

“I’m used to you being hard. At least with me.”

7x11 - Showtime:

A Little Tenderness by ya_lublyu_tebya [R]

After Spike's torture by the First, Buffy does all she can to nurse him back to health, surprising herself with her own tenderness. Once he is back at full health, will this attitude continue though?

After the Show by Scarlet Ibis [R]

Immediately after "Showtime"

Out of the Cave by TaraLuna [PG-13]

After her showdown with the Turok Han, Buffy goes to rescue Spike from the First.

Someday by Holly [NC-17]

Buffy cares for an injured Spike, and in so finds that she’s the one in need of healing.

7x12 - Potential:

All My Tears Cried Against Her Milk-White Throat by nastieswewhispered [PG-13]

Buffy needed Spike by her side in the coming war, needed her strongest fighter. She appreciated the willingness he had to risk himself to stay beside her, so when she saw that he was hurt, she did something that would benefit them both.

The Art of Intervening by simmony [R]

The Potentials are sick of the lingering sexual tension between their Slayer trainer and her vampire sidekick, so they decide to take matters into their own hands and trap them in a crypt to talk it out.

7x13 - The Killer in Me:

For You To Be You by lafillesauvage [Adult Only]

What happened after Buffy and Spike returned to an empty Revello Drive following the chipectomy? Well, in this story, Buffy realises just how much she cares for Spike, which leads to some fluffy reconciliations involving chocolate ice cream and Walker, Texas Ranger. She also gets her period, and adult-only fun is had by all.

Once Bitten by BuffyXenaDQFan [NC-17]

With Willow and Kennedy out of the house as well, Buffy and Spike have the place to themselves.

7x14 - First Date:

At Last by Miss Marisol [PG]

"Her heart feels like a bass drum inside her chest, deafening and drowning out all else. The words are behind her teeth, loaded on the tip of her tongue – and then without warning they’re rushing up and out of her like a dam breaking, those words she’s held back a hundred thousand times for a hundred thousand different reasons; as an act of denial, first, and then as a defense mechanism, and then, time and time again after that, out of fear. There are some words that don’t need to be said. But these are ones that do."

Better by pfeifferpack [G]

Buffy has an epiphany while arguing with Giles over Spike. Will her date with Robin Wood further muddle things between the Slayer and her insecure vampire? Will her words undo the damage already done? Can a bit of honesty change their path?

Home by Sigyn [G]

What Spike learned and felt while living in Buffy’s house. Missing scene from First Date – what was Spike doing upstairs, anyway?

In A Manner Of Speaking by lafillesauvage [PG]

Buffy realises she doesn't want to be alone and hopes that she can find a way to show Spike how she truly feels - without the need for words.

Just In Time by Ashlee [PG-13]

When Buffy tries to talk to Spike about their past relationship, he doesn't want to hear it. Is she too late? Or can they finally work through their issues and reach an understanding?

Perfect Clarity (and Croutons) by EllieRose101 [G]

“You rely on him, he relies on you. That's what's affecting your judgment.” In which Buffy realizes Giles is right.

Which Answer Do You Want by Sigyn [G]

“Spike?" Buffy asked. "Your soul.... Is it like Angel’s? I mean, if you were to find happiness – in whatever way – would you lose it?”

7x15 - Get It Done:

Baser Instincts by the_moonmoth [R]

Buffy accepts the Shadow Men’s power-up package.

Never Let Go by Ashlee [PG-13]

What might have happened if Spike hadn’t let Buffy walk all over him during the infamous scene?

The Start of Something by Dorians Kitten [PG-13]

She owed him an apology and he wasn't going to make it easy.

7x17 - Lies My Parents Told Me:

A Funny Kind of Forgiveness by DreamsofSpike [NC-17]

Just a little bit of Spuffy H/C and psychological/emotional bonding following Robin Wood's attempt to kill Spike. These two keep accidentally hurting each other; can they ever find a way to get past...well, the past...and find their way back to friendship, and maybe even beyond?

A Meeting in the Basement by Cressida6955 [NC-17]

Later that night, after the events of the Season 7 episode Lies My Parents Told Me, Buffy goes down into the basement to make sure Spike is okay after the assassination attempt by Principal Wood...

Rift by Sigyn [G]

"You’re a hypocritical piece of work, watcher," Spike told Giles. "You’ve lied to her, abandoned her, poisoned her, endangered her, and worked behind her back to undermine her, and you think I’m the one who’s bad for her.”

Spike vs The Frying Pan by disco-tea [PG-13]

Spike has a trigger from the First Evil, Dawn has a frying pan. What could go wrong? In which Spike and Dawn bond over mutually inflicted concussions. AU of Lies My Parents Told Me. Background Spuffy.

To Grasp Peace by lillaryn [NC-17]

As the door clicks shut and we fade to black, what happened next?

we almost got it right by trevino [PG-13]

a hurt, comfort, fluff fic written post- 7x17 (lies my parents told me). buffy returns from her harrowing night, and finds an ounce of solace.

7x18 - Dirty Girls:

All Yours by Sigyn [G]

“Well," Spike told Buffy. "You didn’t seem real happy about finding Faith down here."

Chains by BloodEnvy [NC-17]

When a jealous Buffy comes home to find Faith and Spike chatting alone in the dark in 'Dirty Girls', she takes a different approach in regards to her feelings once she and Spike are alone.

Wounded by incendie [NC-17]

When Buffy goes to Spike in the basement, she isn't prepared for what she finds. Can wounds be healed?

Yours by flootzavut [G]

It was actually kind of reassuring that she cared enough to be jealous. Which wasn't too noble, but hey - he got a soul, he didn't suddenly stop being a man. A slight AU of the basement scene in "Dirty Girls", where Faith leaves a little sooner and Dawn appears a little later, and Spike and Buffy have time for a little unexpected honesty and understanding.

7x19 - Empty Places:

Between the Empty Places by St Ephiny [PG]

When Buffy's at her lowest, Spike gives her the strength to go on. What happens if Spike and Andrew return from their trip a little early, and Buffy realizes she's not alone during the mutiny?

Death is Only the Beginning by maryperk [R]

During Empty Places, Spike and Andrew made a terrible discovery

Empty Places by EffulgentEllie [PG-13]

How would things have changed if, instead of going on Giles' little side mission, Spike had insisted on staying until he got the all-clear from Buffy and, by coincidence, was there when her friends turned against her?

Little Do You Know by VampyricRose [NC-17]

"Do you understand what you did to me?" "Course I do. Tried to rape you." "Yes. You did." Its the conversation we never got around to having, but the one we both need. The end of the world might be tomorrow and tonight might be the time for second chances.

7x20 - Touched:

The Blue Eye of the Storm by MaggieLaFey [NC-17]

Instead of the Scythe, what Buffy finds under the vineyard is a portal to another dimension. Spike has followed her there, and it’s the two of them that will cross the portal… and remain trapped on the other side for far longer than they’d expected. What will happen when the two of them—plus a local guide—are away from the stress of Chez Summers? Will they find some peace in the eye of the storm?

Dancing by flootzavut [G]

Spike could never've imagined they'd get to this point. Tag to the Buffy and Spike scenes in Touched.

Daylight Burning by MissLuci [NC-17]

When Buffy is told that her strength in leadership is no longer needed, and she is tossed away by those she's given her life for, she finds sanctuary in the abandoned home of a stranger. No longer the confident warrior, she begins to slip into despair until Spike arrives to pull her back from the edge and lift her up. Together they find the Slayer’s Scythe and are given direction by one who created it. Buffy and Spike alone make plans to close the Hellmouth and stop The First Evil from destroying the world. In doing so, they find something they only hoped could exist - a love so true it lasts forever.

Her Champion. by Loup Noir [NC-17]

As Buffy wanders the chaotic Sunnydale, she is struck by a sudden epiphany about her friends. Realising that only one person stood by her unquestionably, even when she made mistakes and stumbled on her path, Buffy decides that for once, she is going to fight for what she wants. After fending off an attempt on her life by The First, she storms back to her house to confront the friends who betrayed her. With only Spike standing by her once again as her friends floundered, Buffy heads off to fight her final battle. And along the way, she finally opens her heart to the vampire who fought to be a Champion. To be Her Champion.

Innocence by Sigyn [PG]

Spike was still and silent, his eyes closed. She wanted to wake him, but... she couldn’t bring herself to do it. He lay there so peaceful, so calm, so content. Still curled on his side as if she were still in his arms, his head on the pillow, breathing gently. The sight of him was perfect. Buffy, preparing to write her farewell note in Touched.

Restful Souls by violettathepiratequeen [PG-13]

Spike gives the Scoobies the dressing down they really needed, Buffy agrees to let Angel wear the amulet, and Andrew continues to be a budding filmmaker.

7x21 - End of Days:

Cookies Redo: Take 1 by bruskiboo [R]

First version of fixing the dreaded cookies scene/Angel cameo from End of Days and Chosen – this time Buffy thinks differently about things after Angel walks away.

Cookies Redo: Take 3 by bruskiboo [R]

Third version of fixing the dreaded cookies scene/Angel cameo from End of Days and Chosen – this time Buffy and Angel act more like they should right from the start, you know, like they actually have moved on from each other.

Cookies Redo: Take 4 by bruskiboo [PG-13]

Fourth version of fixing the dreaded cookies scene/Angel cameo from End of Days and Chosen – this time things go off-canon even earlier, when Buffy has a different answer to Spike’s question before leaving.

Cookies Redo: Take 5 by bruskiboo [PG-13]

Fifth version of fixing the dreaded cookies scene/Angel cameo from End of Days and Chosen – this time an unexpected guest appears, who has no issue calling people out and setting things straight

Just a Moment by SlayrGrl [PG]

Angel doesn't show up with the amulet at the end of "End of Days". This is how Buffy's fight with Caleb may have gone with just Spike there to have her back, and what they might have talked about afterward.

7x22 - Chosen:

A Champion's Love by CrimsonAngel [PG-13]

Buffy brings Angel home in Chosen. We all know that we needed him there for a confrontation

A Place to Call Home by all_choseny [NC-17]

Buffy and Spike have beaten The First, and the Hellmouth is closed for good. Now, at the precipice of a new beginning, the pair must decide to finally give love a chance or walk away from each other for good.

An Ending and a Beginning by Vampire_Wiccian [Adult Only]

What would have happened if Buffy had ripped the amulet off of Spike at the end of Chosen?

Coming Home by Gillian Silverlight [NC-17]

The missing scenes from Chosen.

Cookies Redo: Take 2 by bruskiboo [PG-13]

Second version of fixing the dreaded cookies scene/Angel cameo from End of Days and Chosen – this time Buffy has a different response when Angel asks if she loves Spike.

Done by onlyone87 [PG]

They’d shared something so terrifying and real the night before that she really shouldn’t have run off to kiss Angel the first chance she got. But she did and now he was done.

Ghosts Appear and Fade Away by Holly [PG-13]

A prophecy. A choice. A martyred vampire, and the Slayer who loves him.

Her Perfection by UncagedMuse [G]

So she stood, gripping his hand tighter in her own. Refusing his denial, refusing his prayer she would leave him there to die and live a full life of her making.

Interruptions by onlyone87 [PG]

So first they’d shared something amazing and then she went and kissed Angel.

It's But A Flash Of Fire by acekoomboom [PG]

A half-drabble set in the moment Spike is destroying the hellmouth.

Rock Solid by Passion4Spike [NC-17]

Buffy comes to some realizations about herself, the nature of her love, and her feelings for Spike on the eve of the biggest fight of her life, but will it be too little, too late? Spoiler Alert: No, it won’t.

Swan Song by Holly [NC-17]

It's apocalypse eve, and Buffy's having second thoughts about that amulet. Lucky for her—and her Champion—she stumbles into finding a forgotten failsafe.

Tingles by disco-tea [PG-13]

In which Spike is the sole witness of Buffy’s fight with Caleb and nobody says anything about cookies.

Undeniable by Chelle [NC-17]

It's the night before the final battle in Sunnydale and Buffy has more on her mind than sleeping next to Spike

You Think You Know What's to Come by deedo [NC-17]

Buffy handled things a bit differently after she gave Spike the amulet. Some lines are taken from the episode 'Chosen'