#until adulthood lol

[floralcyanide]

part of my healing journey is realizing I’m going to annoy people with my energy and not mean to, and there’s nothing I can really do about it ((:

[multishipperbish]

uhhh i also do these for like. south park if anybody's interested.

song : Good Luck, Babe! by Chappell Roan

[maxellminidisc]

And you know what, I'll say it, isnt it funny how only white (mostly men) characters ever get HUGE universally agreed upon designations as neurodivergent and tons of love but like characters of color are hardly ever given that sort of embracing from the neurodivergent community in fan spaces. Characters of color who share autistic traits with me or other neurodivergent poc I know get reduced to being mean and especially big meanie joy killers to white characters they love. Like isnt that some bullshit?

And like idk I dont think we'd even have to have this conversation if people would just get the point of Dungeon Meshi is community and the complexity of interpersonal relationships, not fucking shipping and team choosing lol Relationships are composed of people and people are beautiful, complicated, and flawed and they can sometimes lead to us hurting one another but ALL these things make those relationships worth while when we use them to grow. In the end we all need each other and we need to learn from each other to make any of this silly lil life better for each other.

[sesamenom]

tentative design sketch for reverse gondolin au idril's wheelchair

Still not sure about the backrest part - i wanted to make it look kind of throne-y but it seems like the back + armrests would get in the way? also the buckety front part on the footrest is basically a splash guard, since gondolin is still a large medievalish city with accompanying levels of street cleanliness (or lack thereof)

[killherfreakout]

always being subjected to sleep on the couch/airbed/floor as a kid bc you’re the youngest sibling or cousin then becoming an adult who has to give up their bed/sleep on the couch just bc you’re the only one without a partner is such a specific kind of loneliness that i can’t seem to outgrow

[dearmrsawyer]

hello! it has been a long time since i've talked through my day! this one had such a big turnaround that i needed to document it, mostly for myself.

i had an appointment with a 'root canal specialist' today bc i had my first app with my new dentist a couple of weeks ago and his xray revealed an abscess wow how fun :) i couldn't feel it bc that tooth has a decade old root canal so there are no nerves to reveal there is anything going on!! fun!!!! he's a super nice dentist, i like him but he made me very panicked lol he was showing me how close it is to my sinuses on the xray. so he was like 'go see this guy asap' bc he wanted to know whether there was a chance my old root canal could be redone or if i'd have to get the whole tooth removed/an implant, all for the low low price of $5-6000 🙃 but obviously you can never see specialists asap!!! so i've been walking around for 2.5 weeks with dread/phantom pains that by the time i saw him the infection would've spread and idk had catastrophic consequences??? and then today when i went there was CONSTRUCTION at the turn i needed to make and the road was closed and i was like i don't know how to get there from another street??!?!?!??! i spent 10 minutes driving through suburban streets and my navigation kept trying to take me back to the original route with the closed road, and its the middle of town so there was nowhere i could just temporarily stop and look at the map, and i called them almost crying to let them know i'm coming but i might be late bc i just can't navigate these streets jegjkdgkjdkg

anyway i MADE it, i think i parked in another business's parking lot and just hoped they didn't care lol and then the lady at the desk was like 'our other specialist will have to see you bc the guy you're here for isn't here' so i was feeling uhhhh not good after my dentist talked him up so much. AND my dentist didn't send over my electronic referral and i had LITERALLY been stressed that he would forget to do exactly that for the whole 2.5 weeks oh my god, thankfully they didnt even seem to care. but then as i was filling out the paperwork in the waiting room 'no judgment' came on, and then 'wolves' right after??? and i was like this seems deliberate to try and calm me down 😂 and when the substitute specialist called me in he was so extremely calming and talked me through my options, one of which is indeed to try and redo the root canal bc he's confident he can, it would still cost a lot but wayyyyy less. he also said i could 'do nothing' (which is obv risky, and i would never do nothing, but that made me realise my infection is not about to bust through and spread across my sinuses any second, one fear down!). he was just softly spoken and super relaxed and he made me feel like this was not in fact a crisis and said i could go and think about what i wanted to do, and just call for an appointment when i decided. and then when i went out to pay 'i want to write you a song' was playing 😭 i asked the receptionists if there was a 1d fan in the house and one of them said it must just be a random playlist on spotify, so this was all a complete coincidence????? i told them i was enjoying it very much.

anyway long story short i had already taken the rest of the afternoon off work to go work in the garden, but figured there was a good chance i'd be so down about an unexpected and immiment $5000 hit that i wouldn't want to do anything, but i drove home feeling extremely reassured that i had options and i was not on the clock to decide, and also very relaxed by 1d playing in the background the entire time. i have also been extremely stressed that i would need to take the next step asap and this would be such a bad time as mum is working 50 hour weeks right now bc of the referendum, so i am on caring duty with nonna/nonno anytime we don't have carers here. but there's time! i had a v good afternoon in the garden after all!

[knightelf]

feeling complicated things this wednesday at 2pm

[itstimeforstarwars]

Man I can’t believe that six am is considered sleeping in to me now. What a ripoff.

[coquelicoq]

new ask game: send me a french phoneme (consonant or vowel) and i'll tell you what shipping tropes describe my relationship with that sound

[fox-bee926]

Okay lockwood and Co. Has me thinking about a lot of things recently and im just gonna rant. I am being confronted with the fact that i am technically a teenager still. Im the same age as lockwood in the show, and the show's whole thing is how a bunch of kids are running a ghost agency. And i just saw an edit of locklyle and i was berated with the fact that i never had "young love." I never had someone look at me with puppy eyes and hold my hand softly without some sort of corruption of depression or coercion. I am soon going out into the world to live on my own and i am terrified i will never have that young kind of love where everything feels like it makes sense.

[myrfing]

i think there’s a tendency among older (<- not the best category, more like just people who have experienced extreme societal homophobia) gays to only be able to look at gayness and gender through the lens of personal shame, so they attribute transness to shame automatically too even though this experience isn’t universal in both breadth and character for everyone at all. there’s a lot of thought that a transdude is actually just a butch woman ashamed of womanhood and ashamed of lesbianess when tons of trans guys openly admire lesbians, see being lesbian as a refuge and an honor, and find plenty of inspiration in butches who often also extend this same solidarity and admiration back. and while a childhood with less shame or just not enough shame to be at the forefront of people’s experience with gayness is a privilege, it’s also just new. the idea that someone can just grow up for the majority of their lives openly loving gayness in itself and yet still finding a place with the so called destroyer of western civilization “gender ideology” feels like it’s probably the most threatening thing to people whose entire relationship to their gayness is inextricable from shame that was at one point and time only made “real” by a binary and overcoming that shame.

[sysig]

I thought I was done being feral about Tamagotchis but no, it was just a lull

[vaultsixtynine]

idk what childcare and teaching models look like For Realsies in fool's gold but wyn and everett got montessori method on drugs and it was mostly good for them as little babies/toddlers but then it turned into a reminder of pain after senna left

[anotherpapercut]

It’s literally amazing that you almost never practice what you preach. Like I only know of you through people but you’re just..a complete hypocrite lmao.

so I turned off anon fucking foreeever ago when I was getting rape threats and now when people want to send me anonymous messages they have to go through the trouble of making a whole ass new blog or, if they've already been blocked, a whole ass account. when it's that, which I think it often is based on the similarity of the messages, I always wonder, did these people use a 2nd email that they have for such occasions? or did they have to make a new email as well? because akdnksnejdb that would be like extra pathetic

either way it's just literally impossible to be bothered by anything y'all say when you're like so obsessed with me (or just the idea of me as a person for you to blame whatever you want on) that you took the time out of your one and only life on earth to do this instead of idk spending time with someone you love? just cause..... idk you're clearly scared of something lol. it's just so funny but also sad? uhhhhh please get help lmfao

[uwudonoodle]

This is hilarious to me because I have not yet beaten the second dungeon in the game. Thank you KellyCrayon for pretending that I'm good at video games.

[arolesbianism]

Some more Steward doodles