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i thought i already finished samflam a week ago.
#i cant escape tokusatsu no matter where i go.#also its literally been exactly a week. lmao#fyi. i know this is a kamen rider reference. for the ppl unfamiliar w me that just so happen upon this post.#hs boys liveblog#seigi no bailaor liveblog#or is it?#also i rlly liked this ep. maybe its because its the first one i watched without having seen it years ago. or maybe it rlly was funnier#we'll never know. cause im biased.#unless i rewatch it again in 3 years or something lol#unrelated but ive been using lmao too much i need to use lol more#but its sounds weird to me cause its the dutch word for fun. not an acronym for laughing out loud.
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Night on the balcony, OG vs ALT Seon Jae
[tw: death/killing]
It's a given that OG Seon Jae was murdered by the taxi driver but I've always been more curious about the how of it, because it was never shown to us. I really thought they'd shed some light near the end of the series but oh well. I won't complain because I got the epic rom-com ending of all times. But I think we can all agree that they deliberately left so many things out to give us the cutest fluffiest ending known to mankind lol.
A couple things that clicked as I was rewatching the ALT 2023 episodes recently, *coughs* for the 19th or so time *coughs*. There's this scene:
You see Seon Jae struggling with the taxi driver, who is trying to sedate him using that hanky since the moment he barges in. Of course there's something on it, which happens to be:
In the 2009 timeline, Tae Sung's dad and his partner at work talk about how the Taxi Driver's modus operandi is using animal anesthetics on his victims. We'll come back to this shortly.
A couple things to remember:
1. OG Seon Jae was already physically unwell when we see him post-concert. It was most likely a panic attack (was it because he saw the taxi driver? We'll never know why T-T). It's very likely he took medicines to calm his nerves. Some of these anti-anxiety/nerve-calming medicines can have the same ingredients as anti-depressants based on my experience, and one of the things they do is make you slightly drowsy, as a consequence of relaxing your nerves [disclaimer: please remember this is just based on my own experience and opinions I've seen people share. Medically there might be more to it.]
2. OG Seon Jae did not jump off on his own (because he is Seon Jae). However, that doesn't necessarily mean he didn't have depression. Im Sol's incident and him blaming himself ALL through 15 years is enough for anyone to spiral into it. Whatever little we saw, there were telltale signs of it, so it is possible he was under medication in the OG timeline (BUT he didn't jump off the balcony).
3. Basically, he was not in the best frame of mind when we see him in 2023, lost in thoughts of Im Sol and their unexpected meeting on the bridge, and then checking up on her secretly, as she gets back to her apartment. I won't get into details because I promised myself this was not going to be another one of my OG Seon Jae eulogies.
He was basically preoccupied with other thoughts and physically not in a good shape to put up a fight. Heck, he didn't even bother to pick up the call from his agency CEO or react to the doorbell right away.
UNLIKE THE ALT 2023 SEON JAE.
4. ALT 2023 Seon Jae had met Im Sol without any of the guilt and pain of OG Seon Jae.
5. ALT 2023 was already "in a relationship" with Im Sol (*giggles*) when we see him in the hotel room.
6. Unlike his OG self, he never seemed to have any panic attacks/mental health issues. He confirmed it himself when Im Sol kept asking about medicines/depression. He longed for Im Sol, but he wasn't in anguish, torturing himself for 14 years over something that never happened in that timeline. So he is perfectly well and capable of not going down without some struggle or fight when the taxi driver attacks him.
Now, going back to animal anesthetics.
[Disclaimer: I'm no professional and this is just something I learned. If any of you have a professional opinion about it, please let me know!]
I initially wrote off the chloroform trope for OG Seon Jae because it's detectable during autopsy. And according to the news, nothing suspicious showed up in OG Seon Jae's autopsy except for medicines.
Some animal anesthetics, however, are undetectable in human bodies, unless you're conducting specific toxicology tests if you are suspicious of something other than chloroform. I assume nobody did this specifically because no signs of struggle were found, giving no reason to suspect the cause of his death (again, we'll never know the specifics of toxicology tests done for Seon Jae's autopsy -_-)
If this progression of thought is right, something like this might have unfolded in the OG 2023 timeline:
7. Similar to ALT 2023, the taxi driver breaks into Seon Jae's hotel room. Seon Jae probably tries to fight him but he's not able to because of ^^^1-3 reasons. Taxi driver sedates him comparatively easily.
8. Once Seon Jae is unconscious (wow it's difficult to type this because my brain won't stop playing out this scene), taxi driver fixes the room so no signs of struggle can be found later.
9. Once he is done, he takes Seon Jae and throws him off *okay breathe*
10. Seon Jae's eyes are shut when we see him underwater. He is likely unconscious because of the animal anesthetics so obviously he can't swim or save himself.
That's a lot of conjecture going on in here lol but this at least helps me not to overthink this anymore. The only thing that's still bugging me: Everyone is busy checking out what happened with Seon Jae, so it may be possible the Taxi Driver manages to sneak in to delete the cctv footage somehow, but I'm not convinced myself. Why do I have a feeling the script actually had a different plan with the whole OG Seon Jae incident thing, and they just edited ALL of the other stuff out to make it more romcom-y? Again, no complaints, I LOVE they made it more romcomy, but I've already rewatched the series so many times, it's very hard to pass off all these things as nothing when I see they were trying to form a connection underlying the main plot.
Anyway.
#Lovely Runner#Byeon Woo Seok#Kim Hye Yoon#Sun Jae#Im Sol#Seon Jae#선재 업고 튀어#kdrama#kdrama recommendations#east asian drama#episode reaction
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So I’m rewatching MHA season 2 and like all things you tend to notice little things that make you kinda think. And I’m not sure if someone said this already but I’m going to still put my thoughts out there lol.
Let’s start by saying this. From what I’ve seen of the stadium there is only two main pathways to the battle part of the stadium and I’m going to call them point A and point B from now on. (Point C is where spectators are at)
After their fight uraraka is taken to get fixed by recovery girl afterwards she goes to the point A waiting room. Deku then heads to the point A waiting room because his fight is up next.
We then see bakugou on the point A side of the stadium.
but why?
The only reason I can come up with is that he was going to speak with Uraraka. My second idea is they just needed him to be there so that deku and bakugou could be there at the same time (My last idea will be at the end of the post)
But the only reason why I don’t think that’s the case on why he was over there is that they make a very deliberate choice to show his reaction to seeing deku. He has a more “surprised” reaction, Before getting upset. Like… He wasn’t expecting him to be there.
This next part I find interesting because it’s really telling about bakugo as a character in general lol
NOTE: I can’t translate Japanese so I’ll only be using the English version of this and maybe next time I’ll use official translations of the manga.
Bakugou then stops deku before he leaves to the waiting room. He then blames deku thinking that the meteor shower was deku’s idea. He then states…
“You would come up with something that annoying. “If we end up-”
And then he’s cut off by deku but the part that stood out to me is him saying “if we end up-“
I want to know exactly what “we” he is talking about “we” as in himself and deku? Or we as in himself and uraraka?
WHAT WAS HE GOING TO SAY????
my crack theory idea of what he was going to say could be:
A: bakugou saying that he (as in deku) could have really hurt her by having her do what she did
Or
B: bakugou saying that we could have fought longer if you didn’t give her the idea
Because he honestly did want to keep fighting. He did have a hard time blasting the meteor shower.
I don’t really think he’d actually be worried about hurting her though, but I can still see him getting upset at a deku plan that could potentially hurt others. That’s why he saw her plan as stupid it relied heavily on her getting blasted over and over again.
I honestly think I have an idea of what exactly he wanted to say to her or what he could have said:
It honestly wouldn’t be too far from what he said to deku. He’d still get upset with her asking her why exactly she did what she did. And she would have told him that it wasn’t a deku plan it was her plan.
There’s a reason why Horokoshi didn’t have bakugou and uraraka have this conversation.
Bakugou needed to hear it from deku. It doesn’t make since for him to be all that angry with uraraka. Annoyed yes but not angry.
The conversation between deku and bakugou ends there it’s focused on bakugous expression. He’s annoyed and slightly twitches not having anything else to say.
As I said before I have one last “idea” of why he was over there he could have been trying to go over to where 1A is sitting. I tried looking up a layout for the stadium but there isn’t really a map detailing the floor plans because honestly why would you need that?
Unless your a crazy person writing a in depth explanation of why I think a character was on his way to a classmates waiting room
Ok ok I swear one last thing! I think a few years back someone (not sure who this was a few years ago lol) had said he was trying to return her damaged jacket. Which I really don’t think that’s it. Because 1. Why would he care to do that? 2. Even while walking up the steps he wasn’t holding anything and 3. They probably gave the jacket back to her when giving her a new jacket. It’s a neat HC though!
ANYWAYS IN CONCLUSION TO ALL OF MY RAMBLINGS!
Horokoshi is really good at adding a layer of subtext over certain things. So much so that it makes people like me read into certain things. And ofc we will never know if that’s what he was doing but I honestly really think he really was on his way over there. There should have been either an exit to class 1A’s seats on his side of the stadium or I’m pretty sure that the waiting rooms are not actually connected to the hallways leading to the stadium seats.
If I missed something I’ll probably make an update post or something.
I’m not even sure if anyone will even see this
UPDATE: it’s only been like an hour but the ep bakugo vs todoroki at least confirms one thing it wasn’t an accident that he was headed over to where uraraka was as confirmed that he did in fact go into the wrong room later in this episode
#anime#mha#mha season 2#kacchako#kacchaco#sports festival#mha theory#my hero academia#my hero is over and i’m not ok#crack theory#my hero#bakugou x uraraka#why am i posting this
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my mini essay about how much i love haikyu bc i need to express it pls
oh gosh idk what’s come over me but i could not be happier honestly.
after watching the dumpster battle move in theaters last month, i feel like ive been thrown into a full fledged haikyu phase that i missed out on both in 2020 (but it’s fine i heard it was also horrid at times during this, but lowkey looked fun LOL) and when i watched it for the first time in 2021 (ik im a little late to the game… don’t remind me)
when i watched it for the first time, i obviously loved it. but it’s hitting so much harder now—how im both reading the manga from volume 1 to rewatching the series (loosely) side by side. and i rarely rewatch anime’s unless it’s casual random ep (i.e ohshc or hxh for me hehe)
something about it this time means so much more. haikyu gets me so excited, hyped, happy, and so emotional. i don’t even play volleyball, but i do love the sport! yet it makes me feel like i can fly too 😭😭 i wish i was able to witness this series during its first release (i would’ve been in middle school!!) and i feel like it would hit so hard to grow up with them and the series 🥹 but it’s okay—timing is everything. even 3 years is a while already too.
but i’m so glad to have haikyu rekindle this spirit of excitement and motivation in my life right now. the story. the characters. how they all grow and develop and improve. and the themes about teamwork, believing in yourself, passions, hard work, everything in between just reminds me and teaches me so much in my own life too. i could go on and on but this is only a mini essay after all haha. i just love it so much.
thank u furudate for creating such a masterpiece. this piece of work changed the world and so many lives. even mine. and ik this might sound corny but idc. i really do love haikyu and what it means to me. everything about it, it makes me want to live that way too—to go after my dreams and believe in myself and cultivate my passions and work hard and find a community and live my life the way i want. so simple but powerful at the same time.
it makes me sad that the manga is over and we’ll only be getting another movie (literally robbing us…. i’m still manifesting for a new season idc idc i’m in denial) but i know haikyu is always there for me whenever i need it. and look, i can rewatch it, reread it over and over again. bc the spirit of haikyu goes on forever always!! we keep on flying higher!!!
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Rewatching Pit Babe (ep. 9-13) and the Colors
This is part of my Crazy-Ass End-of-Year Rewatch Challenge where I will rewatch some of my favorite shows, my least-favorite shows, and some shows in between.
I can't promise cohesive thoughts in these posts because it's the end of the year, I'm currently living in right-brain land 10+ hours per day, and I'm TIRED because the darkness of winter is coming. You've been warned.
My previous post: episodes 1-2, episode 3, episodes 4-5, episodes 6-7, episode 8.
Also, since this is a rewatch, there are spoilers ahead.
Since rewatching this show has taken longer than I expected (because I've been obsessing with the colors, which I didn't plan to do at first), I won't focus so much on the things we already know in the remaining 5 episodes.
We already know that red occasionally follows Babe, Charlie, Jeff, and Pete around (since they were adopted by Tony, who is red even though he wants to hide it) and that Way is turning more towards the red right now. And, we know that Charlie and Jeff have turned more towards the blue (more so Charlie than Jeff, since Jeff has some yellow and some of Alan's green on and around him as well). So, I won't focus so much on this, unless it's for a specific reason.
Now, let's dive into the 9th episode.
Episode 9
It's interesting that there's green behind Way as he uses his power on Babe as soon as Babe finds out Way is the Enigma Tony has been hiding.
He's definitely envious of Babe's feelings for Charlie and greedy enough to want it for himself, and it doesn't matter that he might have to force or hurt Babe to get what he wants.
And then there is the yellow color of betrayal behind him when he tried to force himself on Babe.
Way has clearly lost his Way.
As opposed to Sonic who has, apparently, been lost the whole time (at least with the colors he chooses to wear, lol).
And again in the next scene?!
Sonic! What's with all this red?!
Moving on...
You know, I'm so lucky that I get to watch the uncut version of Pit Babe on YouTube (it was never available on iQIYI for me when it originally aired), because it means I get to see Babe getting railed against a mirror in 4K. And for free (even though I wouldn't have minded paying for it).
What a great time to be alive!
And, on that note, let's move on to the next episode.
Episode 10
I'm already at Charlie's "funeral" and noticed that Jeff has yellow flowers in his bouquet, which is interesting considering one aspect that yellow symbolizes is deception.
There's some yellow on the lilies in Babe's bouquet too. But he obviously doesn't know Charlie has faked his death, so I think the yellow in his bouquet has more to do with Charlie being Babe's happiness.
Oh fuck, my ice-cold heart is melting...
To focus on something else, though, I love that Kim is wearing blue as soon as he arrives at the safety of Alan's house.
He was always meant to fit in better with X-Hunter than Red Racing. He was never really red.
I...
I. GIVE. UP!
Episode 11
This is so random, but...
Why does Alan have a red bike? Why red? Of all the colors of the rainbow, why red?
This is interesting, though:
Way and Pete are having shots at the bar/diner and Way picks up the one that looks reddish-brown and then the green ones while Pete drinks the blue ones.
The reddish-brown one might be an indication of Way going back to do Tony's bidding and having mixed feelings about it while the green is, probably, the envy still clinging to him.
Pete, on the other hand, is clear with his color (blue), even though he takes the last greenish one from Way to stop him from drinking.
Then we get to see that Charlie is alive in that grayish shirt:
He's lost his blue now that he's away from Babe. While Jeff:
Wears a mix of blue and red because he's still hiding the truth that they faked Charlie's death.
You know, throughout the show, I've always associated red with Tony and, in turn, the special abilities that these Alphas and Enigmas have that make them so important to Tony. On the opposite side is blue, which is X-Hunter's color, but I've also associated it with freedom from the red due to Tony's adoptive sons (Babe, Way, Charlie, and Jeff) finding their home in Alan and his team away from Tony.
So I thought it was clever that the substance Charlie would get injected with to fake his death and have his special ability disappear was red:
And that the substance that brought Charlie back was blue:
And, let's not forget that the one injecting Charlie with that blue substance is Babe's real dad. Even though he felt like he made a big mistake in the past, he's showing his loyalty to his son by helping these boys and fighting Tony.
Anyway...
It's finally official:
Couple bracelets? Check.
Pink light in the background? Check.
These boys are together. Finally!
Too bad I didn't get the same with Pete and Kenta. But I fucking love how Kenta, as a kid, wore blue when he first met Pete.
Blue!
And then black has been his color from then on.
My beautiful fallen angel was already wearing black when Pete was still in his red period.
Kenta was battling his own shit back then.
And he's battling his own shit now.
My sweet blue boy at heart. You were always meant to kill your abusive adoptive father, and I love you dearly for that.
Also, I still can't believe these two weren't endgame!
Look at them!
Just fucking look at them!
I'm still devastated.
And with that, let's move on to the next episode so I can focus on something a little less painful...
Episode 12
I had totally forgotten that Pete's special ability was mind-reading.
No wonder he's so attached to Way considering Way's own conflicting feelings about everything.
It still annoys me like hell that Tony doesn't wear red in public.
Even though he's surrounded by red here, it would've been nice if he at least wore some of it on his body.
Also, the first time I watched this show, I thought it was super sus of Way to show up in a white jacket after wearing so much black the whole show.
And, for some reason, characters that wear white often get hurt because red (blood) is such a stark contrast against the white. This boy sealed his fate as soon as he put that jacket on his body, lol.
Anyway, I've just reached the end of the episode, and, unlike Tony, Charlie doesn't disappoint with the colors.
He's back in his blue to save and show his loyalty to Babe.
Episode 13
(Sonic is wearing red again, but I've already given up on his color choices, so I'm just whispering about it here rather than using yet another image to show my frustration, lol. I can't believe he wears more red than Tony does...)
And here we have it:
See what I mean by the red against the white?
And then we have my favorite moment of the show:
What an absolute legend!
Also, is it sad that Way dies? Yes. Is it tragic? Yes, to a point. But, also, he sacrificed himself for the person he loved most. I know he's been wavering with the colors, but his last act also showed that he was loyal and chose to do whatever he could to protect Babe. If those aren't characteristics of a blue character, then I don't know what is. He showed his true color in the end (even though I didn't get to see it on his body in this particular scene).
At least I got some red on Tony in the finale after all:
I should be grateful for the little I get, right?
Anyway, I've reached the end of the show. Will I change my ranking from 7/10? Maybe. I really enjoyed it this time around as well and had fun writing about the colors, so I might change my rating to an 8/10. With that change, this is officially going from my middle shows to my favorite ones.
Now, can I get season 2 in 2025? Please, and thank you.
#crazy ass end of year rewatch challenge#rewatch challenge#rewatch#pit babe#pit babe the series#thai ql#thai bl#thai series#iq color post#the colors mean things#red#blue#yellow#green#black#my shit
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i am once again rewatching rwby.
RED TRAILER.
45s in i have to pause to yell (again) about “thus kindly i scatter”—THE SPEAKER. SUMMER ROSE IS NOT THE ROSE. SHE IS THE SPEAKER WHO KILLS THE ROSE AS A CONTEMPLATION OF HIS OWN MORTALITY IN THIS ESSAY I WILL–
“soon may i follow/when friendships decay/and from love’s shining circle/the gems drop away/when true hearts lie withered/and fond ones are flown/oh! who would inhabit/this bleak world alone?” the moon will sadly watch the roses die, huh.
lol.
lmao even.
i know it was just because the budget was a shoelace and chewing gum at this point but the grimm here being fully black with no plating is really funny in the context of my worldbuilding. because it means ruby just fucking slaughters a bunch of baby grimm bfrghfk
WHITE TRAILER
atlas is full of the worst kind of person (people who do flash photography in theaters)
it really is bonkers that jacques was like. yeah i won’t let you attend your college of choice unless you defeat this huge old geist that i have arranged to be captured and inserted into one of our comically oversized suits of armor. sir,
how did they even CATCH that thing.
this is probably my favorite of the trailers in all honesty. the duality of her public/private lives on such raw display. & i think the fight choreo is the cleanest.
the moon does not look broken so much as it looks like something has been nibbling on it. zhan tiri behavior.
BLACK TRAILER
i love how the thinking behind forever fall forest was clearly just “we cannot have green trees in this trailer it’ll ruin the whole aesthetic.” brhdjgh
YOUR HOPES HAVE BECOME MY BURDEN. I WILL FIND MY OWN LIBERATION. salem foreshadowing dot txt.
mumbles. V2 heavily implies that ozpin thinks blake is salem’s spy. so it is not inconceivable that that crow might in fact be qrow. i think about this often.
i have to imagine that this unbelievably over the top security robot was there because somebody tipped off the SDC as to the robbery plot. because lmao.
YELLOW TRAILER
“scathing eyes ask that we be symmetrical” this counts as arm foreshadowing tm
raven being here at the beginning really makes this. somehow a more attentive parent than tai BRGRHFKF (for legal reasons this is a joke)
ozma like yeah in my ideal society there is a minuscule class of elite special warriors with superpowers who roam around unrestrained by law or regulation and with zero meaningful oversight besides their own guild. & then there’s everybody else. why isn’t humanity united yet
i love them so much. they’re so stupid BRRHDKVJDNV
yang’s introduction vs the other three is really so hysterical though. she just- she swans into a nightclub and hospitalizes like fifty people HRGKH. she’s SEVENTEEN.
girl,,
junior and oobleck have the same basic weapon. oobleck’s is also a thermos, befitting his status as a hyper-caffeinated eccentric historian. junior runs a nightclub. do we think he can drink booze out of his
why is tai letting his fifteen year old wander around in the industrial district after dark 😭 man WHAT are ya doin
EP 1: RUBY ROSE
salem: humankind is wise, strong, resourceful, passionate, ingenious, did i mention resourceful? all it took for them to defy fate itself and flourish against all odds was a single spark of hope <3 …what was i talking about? oh, right. oz, your terror of change and your reliance on isolated guardians to hold up the rotting façade of your precious academies will be your undoing because there is no victory to be found in strength. fuck you.
oz: but perhaps!! victory is found in the simpler things that you’ve long forgotten. like hope and honesty <3
salem: ………really?
they are so. DIVORCED. AJDHSHDK
“so-called free world.” her protégée was a child slave. her protégée was a child slave whose mentor attempted to arrest her after she murdered her owners. slavery was abolished after the great war. your so-called free world.
shes so ANGRY.
“a smaller, more honest soul” says the LIAR LMAO
ruby: i think today i will murder some goons <3
ozpin pretending like he doesn’t know exactly who ruby is. most hysterical play of all time. it’s clearly not a secret he’s keeping for a reason—otherwise qrow wouldn’t have been so loose with telling the girls he’s tight with ozpin and ironwood later on—so like. ozpin are you just lying to this girl out of HABIT (probably)
“i want to be a huntress”/“you want to slay monsters?” -> “and what exactly does a huntress do?” “fight… monsters, i guess?” SCREAM LAUGHS.
glynda is like “he’s going to let this child into the school. gods help me” she does NOT get paid enough. whatever he’s paying her isn’t enough
ruby: i don’t want anyone to think i’m special or anything :(
ozpin: good news everybody—
“our world is experiencing an incredible time of peace! please do not ask why we need to train warriors to uphold this peace, thank you :)” cult behavior
the !!empty!! cloak floating above summer’s grave… she’s so alive it makes me crazy
“i don’t want to hear your absolution/hope you’re ready for a revolution” SCREAM LAUGHS AGAIN.
#WRAPPED UP IN A LIE ( ooc. )#liveblog tag.#[ V1 is so fun.#insane rewatch value.#all the foreshadowing hits like a truck hrgdksgf ]
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abelia, daffodil, camellia, jasmine, nutmeg, 3, 12, 21, 37, 49 go crazy
tehehe let's go
abelia ⇢ do you have a particular piece of jewelry you always wear or can’t part with?
i want to be that bitch but i hate having things touching me when they don't have to be. closest i got was a necklace i had on for several months but i snapped it over spring break :/ ig hopefully when i get a piercing i'll have that at least!
daffodil ⇢ do you have siblings? if yes, in what ways do you think you’re similar to or different from them?
yes i do! i have two older siblings. i've always been told i'm very similar to my brother, which i find sweet and heartbreaking cause he was in college before i was even like. conscious. i looked up to him so hard though so it makes sense. i have a similar like physicality to him too. i think we're all u know. a product of our upbringing. my brother has always been an artsy dude, always more of a radical thinker and funny and i've modeled my music taste after him for a large part of my life. he's a little more of a stiff now having like a family and a job but he is a freelancer so that's cool lol. my sister is hardcore like. she's disney adult not in an I can't forgive you way but it becomes a bit much very quickly. she and her husband are very Capitalism. she's also very much more likely to side with my dad on things or at least vouch for his perspective. so i think there's always been a bit more of a tough barrier between us. but i've still hung out with her and her husband a lot in the last several years
camellia ⇢ what were you like when you were younger? do you think you’ve changed a lot?
mm. i dont know that we wanna get into this <3 im the same im different every little girl i've ever been lives inside me idk who she was at the time idk if i know who she always was but we're all here and also i've changed so much in a year alone but i have a lot of the same um problems lol idk
jasmine ⇢ do you have a movie or book you loved but will never watch/read again?
i don't have a good answer for this other than i still havent rewatched dead poets society since november 2019.
nutmeg ⇢ how’s your room/home decorated? do you have a specific theme or style going on?
UGH um just once i would like to have a genuinely homey feeling room but something still feels off. i have some posters and i got lights but it still feels like. cold. idk!
3. do you leave the window open at night?
not rn but you know who does! peeta <3 during summer i like to yeah unless it's way too humid or something
12. what kind of day is it?
i was on a shoot today for someone's short film and it was really fun! i love working in film i love the crews i've worked with. i stepped in this GIANT puddle and my foot got so so so cold but luckily it was a moderately warm day out. otherwise im very tired and lacking motivation but um <3 we stay silly
21. something you’ve kept since childhood?
i have cards from when i was really little and a lot of notebooks and papers from like middle school containing plenty of bad fanfiction and notes passed between my friends and random written rps
37. someone in your life, other than a relative, you’ve known for 10+ years?
this one friend of mine who's like insane like i've almost cut her off several times. but we just don't talk a lot. and two of my other friends who are twins and are literally always a piece of my heart though it's been so long since we've really talked
49. can you skip rocks?
i used to be pretty okay at it as a kid now... idk i might flop <3 i'd still try though. sometimes i just liked to throw bigger rocks to see a splash
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Not a request just a question out of curiosity. How did you feel when you first started out writing fanfics for a particular fandom? Have you always been passionate about writing? What is your method to know a character better so as to make your works seem close to their original personality?
I love your works, they genuinely make my day and would love to write for lookism one day as well and you're my biggest inspiration ❤️ hope you have a wonderful day :)
[Don't have to reply if you don't feel like it]
i got REALLY wordy so things are under a cut!
anyways can i just say this is such a sweet message 😭😭💓💕💓💕💞💖💞💕💓💖💞💘
thank u so much for sending this ask !! it always means the world to me when ppl express care and curiosity about other's creativity journeys :'] 💖
this goes for u, too, anon; if ur comfortable sharing, i'd love to hear ur own answers to ur questions! <33
how did you feel when you first started out writing fanfics for a particular fandom?
i started when i was around 9 and was very excited to share so thats what i did :] but over time i grew insecure and felt my old stuff was stupid lmao so i deleted it all off the web and then writing became a private thing for me for a very, very long time (writing like 40k, 38 chapters worth of stuff just for me 😭). i've wanted to share during my last few fandoms but never got the courage to until i got into lookism/viral hit !
(well, actually, i did share some writing during my "obey me!" phase but it was just text convos lol)
naturally, i was nervous putting my writing out in the world again esp bc the last time i did was when i like 11-12, and i was 16 when i wanted go public with my writing again 😔 im very glad i pushed myself to tho, bc its basically been a year now and i've had a blast!
i never imagined so many people would like my silly writing, enough to send in requests T_T 💕💖
have you always been passionate about writing?
kind of,,? i really only got into it because of fanfiction lol but i did consider becoming an author for like. a week of my life sjdhwhdj so really it's just a hobby i do since im the walking definition of "speaks little but thinks a lot"
gotta put thoughts down somewhere yknow? and at the end of the day, writing to me is just what art is to me; it's for fun and to express myself. sure, i wanna get better at both, but if my stuff turns out "objectively" bad, at least i know i had fun with it :'D
(that's my philosophy with art in general; make "bad" art!! have fun!!! enjoy life!!! i hate comparison/competitive things!!!! lets all just have a nice time being kind to each other!!!!!)
creative writing is very cool tho and i have a bunch of ocs i'd love to write stories for, but the artist in me is saying i want to do them webtoon style ;_;
what is your method to know a character better so as to make your works seem close to their original personality?
going to be honest, im not the best person to ask for this 😭 im the world's most casual writer and i take my "just have fun with ur art" thing very seriously;;
i.e. i just keep note of how a character acts throughout a story, characterize them along the way, and then use that as my base for any writing i do of them 😭
um. i also (re)read fandomwiki pages of them, if any, to double check for stuff 😭😭😭 occasionally i rewatch/reread moments of them in their stories when i want to look for something specific but otherwise it's just me going "hm would this character do this?", comparing it to my base, and reacting accordingly!
other times i straight up go "yeah they probably wouldnt do this BUT it would be cute so im going to do it 😍"
so, if nothing works, just let urself be self indulgent <3 unless u do want to take ur writing more seriously than i do, then uh yeah it would be much better for u to look up advice from people who take their writing more seriously ^_^"
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thank u for liking my stuff, im very happy to hear they make ur day ;__; 💖💕💓💞 plus saying im ur biggest inspiration too is so,, ueueuueu,,,, ;;__;; 💞💘💞💞💘💕💖💘
i really hope u get around to writing for lookism or any other fandoms/original works!!! i wish u the absolute best with you and your writing journey, and feel free to tag/dm me with anything u write!! i'd be happy to support :]
hope you're having a wonderful day, too 💖💖
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fifteen questions | fifteen people
tagged by @heartbreakfeelsogood ty! ^_^
1. are you named after anyone? - not really unless li syaoran ccs counts lol
2. when was the last time you cried? - i can’t actually remember.. that’s pretty good 4 me :)
3. do you have any kids? - weird question 4 a game meant to be played by tumblr users. i think the answer for most ppl here is going to be no
4. do you use sarcasm a lot? - i think i used to but not really anymore
5. what's the first thing you notice about people? - tbh i don’t notice much abt people. probably their clothes or hair? <- autism unawareness
6. what is the colour of your eyes? - kind of greenish blue. close to a30 on that eye colour chart ppl reblog sometimes :)
7. scary movies or happy endings? - happy endings i’d cry and throw up watching any horror movie
8. any special talents? - art i guess :3
9. where were you born? - not going any more specific than scotland lol
10. what are your hobbies? - drawing, coding, maybe longboarding again when the weather is nicer i want to get less scared, also i found a crochet kit in my room so i’ve started that again here’s hoping i actually finish something for once
11. do you have any pets? - jack (black labradoodle) and honey (gold cocker spaniel) :3
12. what sports do you play/have you played? - lol. lmao. ok real answer i played netball for less than one month in my first year of high school before i realised i hated it and could just walk out. before that i went to a kids basketball club, badminton club and i used 2 play baseball with my dad in the park (like 90% sure there are no kids baseball clubs in scotland or at least none i was aware of age 11)
13. how tall are you? - 5'10” :]
14. favourite subject in school? - art unless we were doing theory then it was computing
15. dream job? front of house engineer and/or mixing engineer 4 what i’m actually trying to get into. for a crazy unrealistic one it would probably be theme park design <- rewatching the evermore video again
i think everyone i would tag has probably already done this also i’m eepy so just whoever. if u see this and want 2 do it ur tagged :)
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i want to write out an actual like Thing about this but. i cannot express enough how much rewatching dps last october changed my entire life. literally changed everything. between 2020-2023 i lived with my dad alone in my childhood home. i do love it there. but i lived there for that long, at my age. in 2021 the last of my friends moved away (they're now my roommate) and i had no one. i didn't leave the house unless it was with my dad or in order to go to like, an appointment or take a walk or something. i didn't have any friends, i didn't date, i didn't do anything. i had jobs. retail, office, WFH. was miserable through them all. i was so fucking miserable. like i'm still recovering from how terrible this era of my life was. i let myself just waste away in bed for entire months, years, honestly. it was so awful. i wasted nearly 4 years of my life just doing absolutely nothing. no motivation, nothing.
idk what the fuck even happened. but something made me remember dps. and then i kept seeing it pop up out of nowhere for several days after. it was so crazy. i just thought of it, made a silly post about it, and then suddenly it was all over the place. it was like the universe was telling me to watch it again even though it had been about a decade. so i did.
i can't explain what i felt when i rewatched it lol it started as kind of a joke and i thought it was going to be embarrassing or cheesy but instead i cried and i just remembered how much it meant to me and how much it actually literally changed my life. and i remembered how i used to LITERALLY live my life in a sort of carpe diem sort of way, like i would just do things without thinking about whether or not i'd regret it. and it was so sad that i stopped doing that, that i started living with so much fear and doubt and how i started living by other people's rules. how i abandoned my passions because of people who told me i couldn't do it. how i let myself just like. live a soulless life doing nothing.
i moved back to chicago a month later and here we are more than a year later and idk i cannot explain to you all that happened because there's too much. i did more in like, the last 3 months of 2023 than i did for the entirety of 2020-2023. i've changed and grown and learned so much and even though i still struggle and have really low periods overall i'm just in a much better place than i was before i watched it. like idk how it happened but it literally changed my life once as a teenager, and then once as an adult.
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20 Questions for 20 Writers
thank you for the tags @virtie333 and @runa-falls 💖💖
(it looks like there are two sets of questions lol i'm confused. maybe i'll just choose the 20 i like 😆)
How many works do you have?
oh jeez. on AO3 there are 61, on FF.Net there are 13 (l o l), and on Tumblr there are 65.
2. What’s your total AO3 word count?
227,871
3. What fandoms do you write for?
oscar these days, but i've written for a few different fandoms over the years.
4. What are your top 5 fics by notes?
Another (Miguel x Reader - SMUT) Thaw (Miguel x Reader - SMUT) Wasted on You (Poe x Reader - SMUT) Morning (Poe x Reader - SMUT) Rich Girl (Jake x Reader - SMUT)
5. Do you respond to comments?
yes! or, at least i try to. sometimes tumblr doesn't notify me of reblogs for whatever reason tho and it takes a minute.
6. Who (or what) is your writing inspiration?
i think it's pretty clear from my blog that it's oscar as;dksl;fkgl lmao. if you'd like specifics tho: i started writing again after seeing the ads for dune (which ironically, i still have not watched a;sldkl;fk;sdlf). those ads made me rewatch the star wars sequels, and doing that made me wanna write my own poe fic and...well, here we are now lol.
7. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?
i don't write much angst unless there's a happy ending tbh lol. off the top of my head it's either part two of Just Friends or Out of Time.
8. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?
i mean, happy endings feature in most of my fics lol. ummmmm....the one that comes immediately to mind is Invisible String tho, so let's say that one.
9. Do you get hate on fics?
i don't think so? if i have, i've blocked it out 😆
10. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?
i do, indeed. what kind? ....the smutty kind? lol what do you mean by this, sorry.
11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?
not that i know of.
12. Have you ever had a fic translated?
lol no, i'm not popular enough for that 😆
13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?
unless you count those times i've gone back and forth with people on posts, no lol. i'm not against them or anything, it's just that no one's ever asked 😆 tbh tho, i'd be the worst person to write something with. i procrastinate SO MUCH.
14. What’s your all-time favorite ship?
to read or to write? if it's to write, captain swan is technically the only ship i've written for. if it's to read....honestly? probably dramione.
15. What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?
lmaoooooooooooooooo all of them??? no but fr....maybe my old CS fic bulletproof. there's no urgency to finish bc no one is reading it (no one read it when the fandom was active either lol). i do wanna finish it someday tho, if only for myself. i have it planned out and everything i just struggle to write it whenever i've sat down and tried. SOMEDAY, DAMN IT. SOMEDAY.
16. What are your writing strengths?
lol shit idk. i've been told that my smut is both sexy and sweet so maybe that? 🤷♀️
17. What are your writing weaknesses?
i have trouble ending a fic sometimes tbh. most of the time, the scene in my head is so clear and there's no issues, but others i just have no idea where to stop and so sometimes my shit just like ends lol. also summaries and coming up with titles, if that counts.
18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?
i think the effort should be made if the character is from a particular culture, especially if they've been shown speaking another language in whatever media they're from.
19. First fandom you wrote for?
pokemon lol
20. Favorite fics you’ve written?
A Sunday Kind of Love (Poe x Reader - SMUT) Never Have I Ever (Poe x Reader) Sugar (Santi x Reader) Night Moves / Good Neighbors (Santi x Reader - SMUT) Safe Haven (Marc x Reader)
please feel free to check out my masterlist for more (if you're interested), i have all of my faves marked. 😊
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tagging whoever wants to do this bc idk who has (ik that's always my excuse, i'm sorry ;-;). PLEASE feel free to tag me if you decide to do this!! i wanna add more fics to my reading list!
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TOH rewatch semi-liveblog. Season 1 part 3
episodes 11-15
Episode 11
- Oh, great, the Ruler's Reach episode. Probably the worst episode of the series just for the villain's design alone.
- And neither of the plots even needed a villain. (Also, yet again, both antagonists are demons.)
- Obviously not as serious, but the 'how do you do fellow kids'-style "don't you dare insult shipping!" joke is so grating. Comparing it to something like the library episode where Luz was bumbling how she dislikes romance books... unless the Blights like them of course - that moment was also very exaggerated for laughs yet seemed more true to how an actual teenager might behave or at least more honest, rather than serving as a self-congratulating joke aimed at fandom adults.
- And Dana's self-insert is beyond annoying.
- It's such a pity because on itself both Luz and King's, and Eda and Lilith's plots would've been good.
- like, the antagonist easily could've been one of the Graye's witch underlings (or even Severine or what's her name) picking up scripts for the Illusion Coven + they could've added Gus to Luz and King's plot too.
- What's with this unusually active/aware abomination in the background that seems to be actively engaged in a conversation:
Episode 12
- definitely seems that Eda tends to send out Owlbert into the Human Realm more often than going herself (good for the dariraine AU).
- The Blight twins are kinda annoying too.
- Eda doesn't seem to know/acknowledge the Blight kids or Gus - and this doesn't seem to be a case of intentional avoidance - so yeah, i really think the old hexsquad is something that was added after the shortening.
- I wish there was more time to show Eda's progress towards opening the school for wild magic. We do kinda see part of her journey towards it here.
- Lol, Eda saying she would sneak away while the Sleetherbeast will be eating the twins. (Obviously if we apply Darius' treatment she was 100% sincere here and would've let the children die to save herself, AND she also has been complicit in the Blight kids' abuse for years! Why didn't she do anything if she knew what Odalia is like?!)
- Amity's lesson in this episode seems kinda shallow and just there. But it does show the twins' progress towards becoming better siblings, i guess.
- There is definitely more of the 'talking out the lesson of the week' happening after the first 5 episodes, but at the same time still a lot of dark humor for tweens, and those don't always mesh together - which is not even really a problem and it's not unique to toh, i think kids are able to figure out what is meant to be a joke and what is serious, but sometimes the tone shifts are kinda odd.
- Luz's design is so much better when she is wearing that coat that gives her a more realistic figure compared to her actual stick thin design.
Episode 13
- Oh, hi, Perry!
- I think maybe the time on the Boiling Isles should've moved a little differently than in the Human Realm (until the finale when, after the Titan's passing, it would have became the same) just so it wouldn't seem like everything is happening way too quick.
- Bump's character development is also something that would've been so cool to see, because between this episode and the flashback episode with Eda, there seems to be an interesting progression of his character. As i see it, this is someone who initially wanted and tried to help his students but got caught in the system and bureaucracy and made some big mistakes because of it. Wish there was more of his development shown between his season 1 self and Hunting Palisman rather than his scenes ending up mostly comedic.
- I think it's funny how the school setting supposedly was only added later at the insistence of the producers, yet many of the more interesting things in the show's first season are connected to the school.
- The troublemaker kids actually wanting to study is a nice idea. Forgot how Jerbo and Barcus are barely there, lol. Kinda wish there was more actually difficult kids in the show (other than 'rich bully'), but whatever.
- A baby!
- feels like yet another missed opportunity to have deeper interactions between Luz and Willow and Gus even for a couple of lines.
- of course the basilisk's human form seems to be a woman with a square jaw. Funny, how despite the very surface level body positivity, the only women who have square jaws and/or are actually visibly tall and muscular (like Hettie) are evil.
Episode 14
- Hooty is funny though, idk why people disliked him. He is not even overdone in this season. There are characters who are much, much, much more annoying in this series.
Episode 15
- brainbow joke spotted? Now, more of this and less of the shipping jokes.
- Yet again, Willow's character is so good.
- Yep, Eda says '2 max' should go into the mindscape. So i headcanon that Eber would've stayed behind.
- But why barely any reaction or role for Gus except comedic subplot?!!! Like, this is his first and best friend! Maybe you can rationalize it as him not fully understanding or not wanting to think about the danger to Willow, but they at least could've shown it clearly and had him immediately rush to hug Willow. Is he not angry at Amity? It's like Willow and Gus, but especially Gus, are an afterthought, and for any deeper exploration of the relationships a white character needs to be involved.
- Tbh this made me upset. Just show that Gus is trying to hide that he is worried over Willow and then - to show her character growth - subtly show Eda noticing it and engaging the interview game to distract him. But King and Hooty don't understand what is going on and cause ruckus, and that's why Eda can't hear Luz and Amity trying to contact her to pull them out. Then Gus shows he was worried by hugging Willow or even crying.
- This episode yet again frames it as Bosha and her group picking on Willow, and Amity just allowing it to happen, but yet again this contradicts the first episode where not only Amity was alone, but she was also more physical about it (with abomination drawing on Willow's forehead) than even Bosha has been up to this point.
- I think Luz trying to make Amity and Willow friends again makes sense for her character, especially with how little experience she has having a group friends, but i wish her decisions here and how they affect her friendship with Willow were actually explored - either in this episode or in the next ones. Because here is a perfect base for a deeper and more complex exploration of Luz and Willow and Gus as a trio, but it all just barely gets touched.
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Yes, there are a good/cute moments in episodes 11-15, but the pacing seems off, there are more racist and otherwise bad design choices, Willow and Gus are already getting sidelined and are not allowed deeper/serious moments with Luz, so I was losing interest in the show the first time i watched it and felt the same on the rewatch too.
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Hi!!! I'm so so sorry I haven't replied! I know it's been days lol. I've been meaning to but I kept getting distracted or busy and also I've just been using Tumblr less and trying to be more productive. Never take it personally or anything..thats why I said before the back and forth replying can sometimes be hard for me having to keep up with it and I also like to take my time replying to you. I hope you don't think I forgot about you! 🩷
Haha I'm sorry I had to inform you about the back covers not matching. It is what it is but I'm also so excited to see some of the other photos. I think there is another one where she is holding an ice cream cone too, and I've seen one where she is wearing the white shirt from the pink or blue vinyl. I love that picture so much! But ya I actually connect with Rep a lot. I think that was my favorite album before Folklore cuz I love all the songs on it. But I never listen to an album if the rerecording hasnt come out...only a few songs. I made an exception for the concert when all the songs were on shuffle and rep was the only CD in my car. But usually I don't like to..so I won't know how to compare it..not that I would anyway. I did listen to 1989 before Midnights came out though cuz I wanted to hear most of her other albums. I also love Red and those would probably be my top 3. What about you? What would be some of your top albums or top songs? I probably have a good or solid top 5 I think. I know..my predictions are probably way off but that also makes it fun. I don't have many other predictions cuz I feel like it's similar to something else we already have on the album, and I don't really think there will be a ballad type song either but I'm happy to be wrong. Every vault has given me at least one or two songs i absolutely love though so I just hope that's still true and it probably will be! I'll be sure to send you all my thoughts..an exact month from now!
It is very hard for me to keep track of every show I've seen so I can't imagine how it is for you. I totally agree about the atmosphere of some shows..Rent was like that. I totally recommend the movie or cast recording though cuz I just love some of the songs a lot. But it is rock music so you might not like it as much. But if you like Tick Tick Boom, I would at least listen to it. I would probably feel the same about Newsies too cuz it seems like such a fun show. I did see Aladdin and it was fun to see a Disney show but I'm sure Newsies would still be different. There's also something so fun about seeing a show you know so well! I haven't seen a show more than once and I would really like to someday. Unless you count school shows that I was a part of in elementary school haha. But ya I can imagine..that's the point of theater really is that every show is different and each one can be special. Funny story..my mom didn't know what a thespian was the other day so I had to explain it to her..even when I said theater she thought I meant movie theater lol.
So..I actually haven't finished Theater Camp yet. That's another reason I waited to reply to but I didn't want to keep you waiting any longer! I waited to watch it with my sister and it just didn't work out. I put it on last night and ended up falling asleep. I woke up like an hour later and tried to rewatch it but fell asleep again! This is shocking to me cuz I was so excited to watch it and I'm usually never tired! But it was also 3AM. I've just been really drained lately I guess and that could be why I never replied. I've been sleeping more and sometimes that makes me more tired than staying up late. Midnight is usually afternoon for me lol. I am definitely going to watch it tonight though but I'm glad you liked it! The little bit I did watch I enjoyed and I know it's my kind of movie. I am also going to finish Some Mistakes were Made by the end of this week! This will actually be my first fully finished book I started of the year. Sorry it's so late but I think I liked it mostly. I w Thank you for thinking of me with your post and I will look more into the book you recommended. I will also tell you if I read the other ones. I have not been watching much of anything lately but I listened to Madison Beer's album and I think you would like it..and also Laufey and Mitski so you can share your thoughts if you want! I don't actually know what Ask Evans is besides gifs on here but im glad you liked it and I think Heart stopper is cute from gifs I've seen. The Bear will probably be the next show I watch..but I know I was saying that a month ago haha. I hope you're doing amazing!!! Love the new url if it makes you happy! I can't remember which url I followed you from lol. 🩷
hi friend!!! no worries at all; i don't take it personally at all and i hope your tumblr break is going well! 🤍
my top three albums are probably: debut / speak now / red but i love love love fearless and folklore and evermore and lover and midnights and 1989 and rep! she just has such a good discography. just one month away till 1989 taylor's version!!! i'm so, so, so excited! i took the day off (i usually take release dates off work, just because i'm notoriously bad at taking days off just to take days off) so i'm excited! i'm not sure what i'll do though — maybe something crafty! i've been in a major crafty mood lately.
i want to see rent! but part of me feels like since it's been so long i should just wait until i can see it live!! what shows were you in? i'm always so curious about school productions! and omg that's so funny about your mom! did you see the new papermill gatsby stuff? what are your thoughts? i know you were also excited about it a while ago! i hope you got some sleep + that you enjoy theatre camp when you get to finishing it! i did notice that you usually send me asks late at night for me (for us! since we're in the same timezone) and was a bit worried about your sleep schedule!
and no worries on being behind on the buddy read 🤍 i'm excited to know your thoughts when you're done! and yes — i totally forgot that for the wolf/for the throne has twins! i've been struggling to read the book (i bought a copy over a year ago) for months now so decided to just check the audiobook out from the library and my head snapped up when i heard "twin sister" and i was like OH I HAVE TO TELL 🩷 ANON IMMEDIATELY!!
i will add all of those to my list soon!! i finally treated myself to a badlands vinyl, so i need to spin that sooooon but i've been busy with work (and just generally feeling ill still) so i haven't been listening to that much music. and then there's the new del water gap album out tonight, and acoustic there it goes by maisie peters! so much new music! i love doing new music friday but i'm so bad at listening to things haha. i used to text one of my best friends a new music friday roundup, but i haven't done that in a while!
why didn't they ask evans is a miniseries that my friend jamie loves!! and i was very intrigued by it and watched the first episode many many months ago, and finally got around to watching the rest of it over the weekend! it's based off of the agatha christie book of the same title (which i haven't read, but want to)! heartstopper was very cute, and so lovely to watch while i was feeling poorly. and the music in heartstopper is phenomenal! i hope you like the bear; i can't wait to hear your thoughts when you get around to it :)
and hehe thank you!!! i have a (bad) habit of changing my url very very often! i'll probably change it in a month or so too (maybe for 1989, or maybe for holly humberstone's new album)! hope you're having a good day <3
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not jealous | jake sim
summary: jake sim is not a jealous person. at least that's what he tells himself. so why does he find himself going through your phone when a certain "bluejay park" decides to text you?
pairing: jake sim x y/n [ft. mentions of jay park]
genre: angst, fluff
warnings: angst, cursing (very minimal), one slightly suggestive sentence, jake being cute, some more angst lol, slightly cheesy bc jake’s just too cute ugh
wc: 3.8k
a/n: ok i loved writing this, which is why i went on to almost 4k words LOL oops. but anyways, i love jake a little too much and this type of scenario has been running around in my head for a while now so i decided to put it into words. also i may have created this blog just so i could post this somewhere LMAO anyways yeah this was my first fic so hope you guys enjoyyyy <3
Jake Sim is not a jealous person.
At least that's what he tells himself. To be fair, in his past relationships, he never showed any jealously. Then again, he doesn't know if he can call those relationships, "relationships". Does a fifth grade relationship with a girl who he was once dared to kiss during a game of Truth or Dare in the basement of a classmate's house during their 11th birthday party count? He doesn't remember being jealous when the same girl was later dared to kiss his classmate, Sunghoon. (Funny enough, that's how the two boys came to be best friends 'til this day, but that's a story for another time.)
But really, Jake doesn't think jealously is one of his traits, even if he's now almost 20 years old without any experience with love other than his current relationship with you and that short-lived romance in the fifth grade. (What was her name again? Jake would have to ask Sunghoon later.)
So he doesn't know what clicked in that brain of his that lead him to this current situation he was in. He doesn't know why he felt a little spark of anger in him when your phone, which you left right next to him on the couch while you went to take a shower, kept buzzing with texts from "bluejay park". He doesn't know why he couldn't kept his eyes distracted from the messages, although your phone was constantly lighting up because whatever it was Jay had to say to you, he would not shut up about it. He doesn't know why he questioned what your relationship with Jay was for a split second.
In fact, you're close with all of Jake's friends. That's one of his favorite things about you, you get along so well with all his friends you might as well replace Jake himself in the friend group. So he doesn't know what tells him to take a little glance at your phone—at the messages.
But he finds himself doing it anyways.
Hearing that the water in the shower was still running (you were always the type to take long showers), he quickly grabs your phone and scrolls through the lock screen just to find that he couldn't even read the messages since you had your notifications set so no one could read them unless the phone was unlocked (darn you and your settings!) Thankfully, Jake knew your passcode––and you knew his too––or he thought he did. Until the iPhone vibrated, telling him the passcode was wrong.
He must've entered it too fast or something. So he tries again.
And again.
And again.
Until the iPhone switches its screen to say: "iPhone is disabled. Try again in 5 minutes."
There's no way. You never change your password. And even if you did, you would tell him—you two even had each other's fingerprints saved into each other's phones in the past (you know, before the world decided that Apple's home button was too lame and decided to just completely get rid of it). If there was an option to save multiple faces for Face ID, you two would be that couple that saved each others faces in your own phones.
That being said, Jake sat there, your phone in hand, frozen. Why was your phone locked? Why was Jay texting you 10 texts per second? Why did he feel guilty about this entire situation?
He hears the shower switch off and in that moment, he swears he feels his heart beat just a little faster. He tells himself there's no way you'll be out before the 5 minutes are up. You followed a really meticulous skincare routine (one that Jake memorized by now) that took an extra 15 minutes of your time after each shower.
"Hey Jake?" Your voice calls out from the tiny bathroom door crack that you left open before you hopped in the shower, "Is my phone out there? Do you mind bringing it to me?"
Fuck.
Jake shifts on the couch. Taps his foot on the ground. Returns your phone to its original spot. Clears his throat.
"Don't you want to get dressed first?" he calls back, quite timidly.
He can hear you stop moving around in the bathroom. Probably telling yourself what an odd response that was. To be fair, it was an odd question, considering the fact that you two have been together for so long, it’s not like he hasn’t seen you undressed before...intentionally or not.
Next thing he knows, the steam is rolling out of the bathroom door and you're stepping out in your towel, eyebrows raised.
"If you didn't want to get up from the couch, you could've just said so, you lazy butt," you smirk at him as you walk towards him and the couch, leaving a faint trail of water drops behind you. Jake's eyes follow your figure as you go to grab your phone and lift the screen towards yourself.
That's when he freezes. You do too.
You cock your head, as if asking yourself why it was disabled. He can hear the gears in your head turning.
"Jake, did you try to unlock my phone?"
He runs through all the possible excuses he could blurt out. Come on Jake, think of something! But he knows he can't lie to you.
Too many beats of silence pass by.
"Maybe," he finally says—or more like murmurs. He looks up to you like a child looking up at their mom, who just them caught stealing a cookie from the cookie jar. To his surprise, you don't show any hint of anger. A flash of confusion—and is that worry he sees?—crosses your face for a split second before you shrug and turn towards your room to change, dropping the subject. It was natural for you two to use each other's phones anyways. So then why did you have that look of worry?
Jake knows you well, a little too well. But that's what you love about him. He can easily read all your emotions. One of the many things he picked up from dating you for almost two years now. But why would you care if he tried to get into your phone? Why would that worry you? All the possibilities run through head and his own worry begins to increase. He trusts you. He does.
So then why does the thought bother him throughout the entire day? Why does he bring it up during dinner later that night, when you're both cuddled on your sofa, slurping take-out ramen while rewatching your favorite k-drama under the thick blanket that you always keep in your living room for nights like these?
"Huh? Of course I've heard from Jay today, we had that conversation about that stupid meme you boys kept laughing about in the groupchat we're all in, didn't we?" You answer him when he asks if you've heard from Jay lately. You sit up from your warm spot under Jake's arm to put your empty bowl on the coffee table in front of you. When you lean back, you look up at him,
"Why do you ask?"
"Oh, it's nothing, just wondering," he says, avoiding your eyes by keeping his own trained on the series currently playing on your TV. This would be your third time rewatching this series together. He would never complain to you though, he knows how much you love it and if he were being honest, he was secretly attached to the characters—not that he would ever tell you, he would never hear the end of it from you and the boys.
"You're being weird. Just tell me, or did you forget that I can practically read your mind," you say with a giggle and shove to his side, the one you were currently warmly cuddled into. Jake wasn't the only one who learned how to read emotions; you could read him just as well as he could read you. And like you, that's one of the many things he loved about you. But maybe not in this case.
He toyed around with the contents inside his ramen bowl with his chopsticks.
"I just..." God, how does he word this? Why was he having trouble explaining it? You were the easiest person to talk to. To him, you were the only person he could tell everything to.
"Jaywastextingyouabunchearlier," he blurts out quickly, but not quickly enough for you to miss it.
He feels you shift under his arm. He feels the air in the room shift. Tension.
"What?" Now you're sitting upright, legs criss-crossed in front of you on the couch but turned, so your body is completely facing him. He mirrors you, sitting up to put his ramen bowl next to yours on the surface, but he stays facing the TV.
"Your phone kept going off because of him when you were showering," he says with a little more confidence. But inside, he was nervous as hell, the same nervous as when he asked you out for the first time many moons ago. But it's too late to back out now, he brought it up first, anyways. Guess we're having this conversation now, good going Jake!
"Is that why you tried unlocking my phone earlier? I mean I thought you were just trying to leave selfies on my phone like you always do but you were trying to read my texts?" You question, slightly raising your soft voice. He doesn't know how to react, he hates confrontation.
"It wasn't like that, Jay just kept spamming you and like I—why was he even texting you in the first place? Then your phone got disabled because you changed your password, which you never do by the way, so I–"
"I changed it because my little sister kept getting into my phone when I went to visit my family yesterday! Did you really think I was hiding something from you? You know I can text whoever I want, right? You don't own me."
Okay so now he's managed to make you angry. Good going Jake, part 2!
"Okay but what does Jay need from you so bad that he has to send you like 50 messages at once?" He's standing now. So are you, eyebrows furrowed together as you collect your bowls from the table.
Standing there, bowls in hand, you say, "Jake, that's none of your business! It wasn't even that big of a deal, I don't know why you felt the need to nosy around."
"Well, if he's texting you non-stop, then obviously it's a big deal! We wouldn't even be having this conversation if you would just tell me what you guys were talking about," he murmurs back, eyes narrowing. You scoff as you trail into your kitchen. He follows behind and stops at the other side at your kitchen island as you place the dirty dishes into the sink.
"No, we're having this conversation because you obviously don't trust me! It doesn't matter what we were talking about, it doesn't matter who I was texting! I could be texting your mother and I shouldn't have to tell you what we were talking about! That's why we're having this conversation," you say as you turn back to face him from the other end.
He hates this. He hates fighting with you (which is a very, very rare occasion). He hates that you think he doesn't trust you. He hates his insecurity eating at him, telling him to keep questioning you on why you and Jay were talking in the first place. He was aware that you were close with his friends, but it wasn't until the texts he realized just how close you are with them. It's not that he didn't trust you, he just didn't know how to act when it came to you and other guys. God knows how he got lucky enough to meet you, let alone date you, so the thought of him losing you to someone else actually terrified him. Not only were you his first real relationship, but he wanted you to be his first and only one in life. You were it for him.
"Why did he text you." He deadpans from his side of the kitchen.
You scoff with a hint of exasperation. "You're kidding me."
You stare at him. He stares back, quirking an eyebrow, as if restating the same question back, as if testing you.
You're fuming now. Why was he making it so hard? Why was he doubting you? Out of frustration, you start laughing, which scares him. That can't be good.
"Fine. You wanna know so bad? Take a look," you're one tone level away from screaming as you take your phone out of your pocket, unlock it, and open up your conversation with "bluejay park", sliding the phone across the island to reach him.
Jake stares at the phone which now lies there, unlocked, facing him. Isn't this what he wanted? It is, right? That's why he started this dreaded argument with you in the first place.
Then why does he feel so fucking awful?
He looks back up at you, to see you sighing and looking up at the ceiling, as if trying to force your forming tears back into your eyes.
Yup, he feels horrible.
"Happy? Happy to know we were just trying to plan a surprise birthday party for you but you and your jealously just had to know huh, Jake?" You quickly state, voice cracking, as you tried not to choke up. You weren't sad that he found out about the surprise. You were sad that it felt like he didn't trust you. That he thought you were the type of person to do god knows what behind his back. You hated the feeling of not being trusted. Especially by Jake, of all people.
"Fuck."
Jake's face (and heart) falls with the most broken expression you've ever seen. But you're too sad, angry, tired (a mix of all?) to care. Your only goal right now is to not let him see you cry.
You hurry past him, across your apartment, and into your bedroom, slamming the door behind you, leaving behind a shocked, and regretful, Jake.
His heart shrinks when he hears the door slam shut and a little more when he looks down at the still unlocked phone in front of him. He didn't have the heart in him to look at it anymore. Of course he trusted you, he knew what you said was the truth.
He mentally screams at himself for assuming the worst––for thinking that you, a literal angel, would betray him. First, he thought he was losing you to someone else. Now, he was afraid he just lost you through his own actions.
He hesitantly sulks over to your door, softly knocking when he reaches it.
"Y/N?"
No response.
"Y/N, I'm so sorry. I didn't know, I let my—”
"Jake just please leave me alone for now," he hears you painfully say from a distance, meaning you're on your bed. He knows the door's unlocked—the lock on your door hasn't been working for a long time now, despite the many times he tells you to talk to your landlord about it. But he doesn't find it in him to open it. He knows he messed up. If he saw you in there right now, crying, he wouldn't know what to do. He wouldn't know what he would to do himself, knowing he was the reason behind your tears.
He nods in silence, knowing you can't see him, but does so anyways and returns to his spot on the couch. He could leave right now, go back to the dorm with the rest of the guys, let you have your space like you wanted. But his heart hurts at the idea of leaving you sad, angry, or a combination of both. He can't leave this unresolved. He fucked up, he has to fix it.
And so he sits on your couch for another hour. The clock on the wall behind him continues to tick as the silent tension in your apartment continues to grow. When it hits 11pm and he's sure you've slumbered off into sleep, he quietly enters your room.
He can see your figure in the dark, your back facing the door as you're curled up into yourself under the comforter. He feels his heart drop a little more when he imagines you crying in that position from earlier. He slowly peels the comforter open and gets into his side of the bed, careful not to bother your sleeping figure.
Laying there, staring up at the ceiling, he's never felt more like a stranger in your bed. It's not that he hasn't slept over before, god knows he's probably slept over at your place more than he has in his own bed. But right now, in this moment, he just felt awful. Like he didn't deserve to be in such close proximity to you. How could he be deserving? He violated your privacy, made you feel like you weren't trusted, doubted your relationship.
These thoughts run through Jake's head as he stares up at your ceiling fan, wishing he could turn back time to a few hours ago, before he checked your phone, before he let his insecurities get to the best of him.
You can feel the dip he makes in the bed behind you when he gets in. Of course you're not asleep. There's no way sleep could reach you when you had the recent events constantly replaying in your head like a broken record.
You knew Jake with all your heart. You didn't have to look at him to know he was probably laying there, hurt, staring up at the ceiling, drafting what to say once you wake up—or once he knows you're actually still awake.
You decide to break the tension by turning to lay on your other side, facing him.
You were wrong. Thanks to the little sliver of moonlight shining through your sheer curtains, you can see him, now laying on his side, already looking at you with so much regret in his eyes. You can almost hear the cracks in your heart physically forming.
His eyes widen when he realizes you're still awake. He opens his mouth to say something, but not before you quickly shift over to his side of the bed and embrace him in a tight hold, burying your face into his chest. Without any hesitation, he returns the gesture, arms holding your body as close to him as possible. As if once he let go, he'd lose you forever.
He lets out a sigh of relief as he breathes you in. He didn't even know he was holding his breath all this time.
"I'm so sorry. I'm so, so sorry Y/N," he mutters into your hair. He feels his hoodie getting wet from where you buried your face. He pulls you closer, if that's even possible, feeling his own eyes heating up with sadness. He would never forgive himself for making you feel this way.
"You know I trust you right? Please know that. I shouldn't have assumed the worst when I saw your phone. I...I let my insecurities get to the best of me."
You move your head from its home on his chest to look up at him, as if asking him to elaborate. This was new to you, you didn't know he held insecurities in your relationship. But it wasn't because of you, no, you were his entire world. Losing you meant losing everything.
Jake's never been the best at saying his feelings. That's why it took him so long (with the help of his six best friends) to finally confess how he felt about you. He was afraid of letting people in if they could easily walk out. Maybe that's why he never let anyone into his life before you. But oh, were you an exception. The second he met you, he knew he was fucked. But thank god he did, because thanks to you, he's been able to be more open, more vulnerable. He's able to talk to you about anything and everything. He doesn't have that same fear of losing people anymore, not when he has you in his life to reassure him every step of the way. But right now, in this moment, he doesn't know how to tell you that his new fear was, in fact, just losing you.
The sheer idea of you not being a part of his life anymore terrified him.
"I hope you know you're never going to lose me Jake, if that's what you're insecure about," you softly mutter as you wrap your free arm that's not stuck in between both your bodies around him to gently play with the ends of his hair. It's as if you could read his mind, he loves that you know him so well.
"It just sucks that you could even think I would ever do something as awful as what you were assuming...with one of your closest friends nonetheless," you continue.
"I know. I know, and I feel terrible. I'm so sorry. I know you would never do anything remotely close to that, and I know you would never intentionally try to keep anything from me," he sighs. He shifts so he can lie down on his back, bringing you with him to lie on his chest, never letting you go once. "It's just...I just don't know what I'd do if I ever lost you Y/N. Everyday, I ask myself what heroic thing I must've done in my past life to deserve this life with you and I can't help but think you could just as easily be stripped away from me."
As much as your heart breaks listening to him rant, you feel your love for him grow even more. You knew how hard it was for him to put his true emotions into words, and him telling you this reminded you how much trust he had in you.
After some moments of silence, moments of him drawing random shapes onto your back, moments of you two just holding each other like it was the end of the world, you speak up.
"I love you. I'm sorry for making you doubt yourself—"
"No, it's not your fault, I can't help but think things like that. I just don't know what I did to deserve you, and I know that I need to be mo–"
"Babe let me finish," you say with a little giggle in your tone. He immediately stops and mutters a little "sorry". How cute, you tell yourself.
"I was gonna say," you look back up at him so you're making direct eye contact now. "You're the only one that's ever on my mind, Jake. I can't help the way you think, but I can assure you that there is no one else I would rather be with. And I mean that for the rest of life."
You snuggle back into the comfortable hoodie he's currently wearing (you make a mental note to yourself to steal it from him later) and decide to ease the tension,
"So you're stuck with me for life, sorry to inform you Mr. Sim."
Jake lets out a laugh, looking down at you to see you returning his smile with a cheeky one.
"I love you. So much," he says so sincerely, so genuinely, that you almost tear up again from how content you were. Now you were asking yourself, what did you do to deserve him?
Jake Sim is not a jealous person.
No, he just loves you.
A lot.
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Been running on 3 to 4 hours of sleep for two? days idk, rewatching the translation seeing if I missed something also been reading other peoples theories half are ok/valid theory’s and the others are like huh?
Spoilers don’t read unless ur sure
Ok so I tired I been writing this sense 12 and sorry for the stuff I add that doesn’t make any sense so if there’s some mistake or my if some of my information is wrong sorry in advance ok then what I have noticed or what
• Idia doesn’t have the ink drop thing (I noticed this a while just didn’t actually point it out til now)
• idia is going to use “Lethe River” to forcibly rewrite the memory
• grim has Grim is part of an ancient race from like 1000 years ago
• Idia has a curse that disintegrate blot
• Ortho mentioned on how Hades was like Idia in a sense on how they might be forced to take a role they don’t want
• there’s one part where the voice said “My brother will be free!” I think that he means free from the role they didn’t want
• riddle is fucken Adorable
• the voice has been there ever sense ortho has be born “Yes, Ever before you were born”
• again (I haven’t said this before but) ortho just wants to make friends also doesn’t want they’re memory’s to be erased
• I have no idea why this just came into my head but hear me out this is a stretch what if the voice(ortho) pulls Idia into the blot
• also WTF HAPPENED TO CROWLY LIKE WHERE THE FUCK IS HE BECAUSE DIDN’T HE GO WITH THEM I know he’s being questioned but I want to know what’s going on like is he going to try to deny it or be gracious and tell them what’s up OK BUT I HAVE TOLD MY SISTER MANY TIMES THAT THAT CROW IS HELLA SUS I seen many theory’s that Crowley is pulling the strings for Some uder motive
• WAIT I saw a theory that some said grim at one point could have been human someone did mention that grim has some things in common of the great 7
•grim seems to really miss yuu which I thought that was cute how he call out to yuu (but the little shit wanted yuu to bring him dessert)
This ain’t much but I can’t type out what’s in my head this is only like 1/4 on what’s in my head so after I sleep Im getting back to work lol… UHHHHH we’ll just have to wait til late March for the next part (great now I going to have to wait til I wake up to rewatch all of twst)
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I was just rewatching the episode where we learn about Hiromi being 80 years old internally. I noticed when the lady doctor ( think Akemi Mikoshiba or something is her name ) was introduced, some bottles were specifically focused. Now it might be me overthinking but later on she told Ikki about Hiromis health very easily. I dont know why but she seems sketchy to me . Could she work for weekend? Also the bottles thing might be totally random
Σ(-᷅_-᷄๑). yoo wtf 😱😱😱
Theeeeeeeese fkin wRITerS mannnnn
I’ll have to go back and look for further inspection 👀. Unless it really catches my attention I’m actually quite terrible at noticing the subtle focus shots
ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ but it’s actually both fascinating AND horrifying when you realize how meticulous and intentional these writers are in their writing/planning/filming
for example:
I was gonna put this is an analysis post but ehhh might as well drop it here and expand on it later;;
(edit: redacted I guess this is becoming the analysis post LOL)
Kamen Rider Revice and Intentional Writing Part 5
Symbolism, Shots, And How It's the Little Things That'll Get You
Warnings: Spoilers, mentions of self-harm and suicidal ideation, mental illnesses, and toxic familial relationships (Spoilers up to ep 21)
Previous Revice analysis: 1 , 1A , 2 , 3.1 , 3.2 , 3.3 , 4
Bonus: Igarashi Ways to Affection + Sibs Theme 1a & 1b
Right. This'll be the perfect segway into the episode 4 post (which I'll post next lol). Y'all already know the drill, analysis under the CUT:
In episode 3 there’s this zoom/close seemingly random focus shot on Daiji setting these flowers down in the mothers hospital room. —now idk what type of flowers they are-
(scratch that I know what two of them are -- I looked it up LOL)
-or if there's any extra underlying meaning in the specificity of the flower/color..... but the flower shot is FASCINATING actually.
Here, ignoring specific flower and color meaning, they’re in general supposed to represent family health — support , etc, As they’re essentially given to the mom to comfort and encourage her recovery.
So why and what is so important about this one-second shot? Especially when it's never brought up again?
Well, jokes on you fam.
This shot *IS* brought up again. The thing is, these writers put these things in this show on purpose. A random close-up shot? Hmm well maybe pay attention and look closer cause it *could* be subtly hinting at things to come. That's why I've gotten so lost in the Revice sauce -- so to say; their intentionality is insane. What you would think is just random or bad writing is actually the opposite. Hindsight is 20/20.
After this episode 3 scene -- which is very important; there isn't another (at least not that I remember so へ‿(ツ)‿ㄏ) close-up shot of flowers. Not until....episode 8.
So, these flower shots exist as a foreshadowing metaphor and as a symbol for the Igarashi Family's Bonds -- aka, as I said above, they represent the family health -- support, etc. They're given to the mom in a show of care for her health and emotional well-being. Now contrast this to when she's to receive the next set of flowers?
Episode 8 --- Aka the episode Daiji tries to kill Ikki, and the final unveiling of his inner-demon Kagerou - to his family, at least.
Here, the flowers Papa-san gives to Mama-san end up trampled in the grass. The episode even CHOSE to end on the picture of the ruined bouquet. Which…..
Wow. Amiright?
Really symbolic of the family’s health and well-being here -- seeing as how Daiji also trampled on the family's bonds and 'loving connection' with each other.
BUT -- that's not all.
It is also worthy to note that the flowers in ep 3 are in a vase. Which means they’ve already been uprooted to be put on aesthetic display.
Of course, uprooting flowers is something that considerably shortens the flower’s lifespan. So while AT FIRST you see the flowers in episode 3 as a symbol of the family’s health, love, and support of each other —- in all actuality the hidden symbolism here is in the fact that an uprooted flower — although pretty to look at, can only last a short amount of time before it inevitably withers.
Which perfectly represents / portrays what happened to the Igarashi family.
…..While appearing the typical, close and warm, almost perfect family….in all actuality there is A LOT of trauma and hurt hidden under the surface of their ‘perfect family’ facade. This perception can only last a short amount of time before it withers and dies — which it does in episode 8.
Which is why it’s really poignant that a shot of the trampled flowers is what ends the episode. ESPECIALLY considering this being alongside the “Igarashi family bonds are unbreakable” sign they had hanging up.
Really it all goes back to what my friend Nacho said (in one of my prev analysis posts <33) about how their family problems will persist until they get to the root of the issue:
"Everybody is getting better, facing their traumas, trying to improve, all that good stuff. But everybody (and understandably so) is also tiptoeing around the core issue. That the family has hurt each other permanently. It’s partly an Igarashi thing, partly an Asian/Japanese thing, to not talk about past pains in an effort to move on, but not digging out the root means the weed grows back."
Instead of ignoring it and trying to ‘leave it in the past’ when it’s never been addressed. If they don’t pull it out by it’s roots — the weeds will keep coming back.
But the flower symbolism and meaning doesn’t just stop there. (These writers are fking INSANE) If you go back to episodes 3/4 these are essentially the episodes that are what’ll *make* or *break* Daiji,,,,,,
We get this flower shot during the scene between Daiji and his mother. And then JUST after it, Daiji sits....Mama-san asks him what's up, and Daiji asks how he’s supposed to convince Ikki to join Fenix.
(It’s so sad too because I think the real reason Daiji was there is because he was having a really hard time with these turn of events and so he was seeking out comfort.)
But….the mom’s advice doesn’t help AT ALL. She either doesn’t catch onto Daiji’s emotional turmoil/cry for help— or she does but thinks writing it off in a light-hearted manner would be better…..
Idk which is worse.
Anyways — the mom ends up telling Daiji: “Just do what only you can do.” …..👽👽🤪🤪
Which-
Wow what a way to SPECTACULARLY miss the mark. Man…..Not only did she miss the mark, her bullet ricocheted off a nearby car, shot back, and made the situation critically worse than it was before. 😔😔😶😶😶
.......See, all (or at least mOST) of Daiji’s problems can be traced back to how Ikki’s smothering /over parenting made it so Daiji was incapable of doing things on his own. His whole identity crisis is *because* he doesn’t know who he is or what he can do.
So, literally the mother telling Daiji this is the equivalent to
“0 x any # will still = 0”
Like if Daiji had $0 in his wallet, his mom basically offered to give him 1/4 that amount, but 1/4 of 0….is still fking 0.
(....I think....if not uh you gET what I mean,,,Im just terrible at math)
Daiji putting his worth in his ability to do things/succeed was the whole problem to begin with! Rn Daiji thinks that he can’t *do* anything. So his mother telling him, ‘hey just do what ya can’ is….incredibly disheartening. If Daiji had low self worth before….hoo BOI
this conversation fking shot it straight to hell
(Here is Daiji's reaction after being told this:)
Now, add on Daiji failing to do anything — again — during Sakura’s kidnapping?
........Bada boom bada BING, baby. It’s time to go sicko mode.
HENCE!!!!
The flower symbolism being SO good. Like those flowers were brought to Mama-San to provide comfort and support to her and yet…
these are the very things she’s failed to give Daiji.
Fking AND it’s BECAUSE of that failure that *she* — in return, failed to receive episode eight’s flowers
(Now should we pin all the blame on Mama-San? No. A lot of things contributed to the Kagerou split. But in a way — the failure here is representative of how the family has failed Daiji as a whole.)
And going even deeper here -- lol I looked up some of the flowers (yo if I get sh*t wrong lmaooo I take corrections <33)
The white in the bouquet are a flower favorite of mine (and the only flower I could actually recognize LOL) -- Baby's Breath.
Now, idk if it means anything different in Japan, but here's what I got from some online searching:
"The Baby’s breath flower is a symbol of everlasting love and emotions that never die. This flower reminds us to always cherish the ones we love and to show them affection. This flower can also be a reminder of a past love that is still in your heart and that still feels like the one, but you passed on it because of something else."
Really Ironic then the duality in symbolism when you consider how the bouquet is turned on its head (uhhh actually idk if the one in episode 8 is the same flower arrangement / flowers lollllll you get the point tho)
"The Baby’s breath flower is also a symbol of innocence and purity. This small flower is symbol of everything that is nice, kind and genuinely honest and loving."
:x
"This flower symbolizes self-discipline and it is linked to the ability of people to devote their lives to something more important and higher than themselves. This symbolic meaning is often tied to prayer and ability of a human being to be in touch with the higher forces and not always tempted by the devil."
lmao very INTERESTING. (Taken from flowermeanings. org )
Anyways this all is the perfect segment into Episode 4 and why that episode is a fking MASTERPIECE of poetic cinema.
I have nothing else to say here lol sorry for the long reply anon <33.
#anyways#these writers#I could wax poetic about them#all day#kronthescoup#kamen rider revice#kr revice#revice#my thougts#ikki why is ur demon so cringe#watching revice#kamen rider#revice spoilers#revice analysis#anyways if ur confused feel free to send in more anon <33#asks#inbetween baths#bath 21
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