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stormyrainyday · 3 months ago

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exam tomorrow i am so cooked - only studied half the bacteria on the syllabus - read 6/113 pages from the forensics doc and slept through every class - did not appear for any community health class and all the professors know everyone by name

#chat should i end it #it cant go worse than the neuro exam right #neuro exam i started crying during the anatomy verbal portion and i couldnt compose myself so the physiology teacher just kinda looked at m #and was like dude arent u gonna be a doctor can you get it together #AND THEN i got my period on the way home #and i was like I KNEW I WASNT A WEAK ASS BITCH #but it doesnt matter bc all my professors think im a weak ass bitch do you see my problem #theres only one exam i havent cried in and thats the 2nd year finals #bc i was sick the entire year i pulled the sorry i was on steroids for like 2 months #and incapacitated every night curled up sobbing with a heating pad #it wasnt in my control #this def was tho #so like i cant even have the fuck it not my problem anymore attitude #i almost wish i had debilitating migraines again bc at least then i could just sleep all day #instead of having a doctor pat my abdomen every month and ask me if i have anxiety #sorry tmi #ugh im so fucked for this exam

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lesbianralzarek · 3 months ago

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i am now a board-certified healthcare worker

#technically not yet because i still need to get the signature on my externship hours #but i passed the schooling and did the 180 hours of free labor and passed the national exam. so.#unsure wtf could go wrong now? all i have to do is get the sign off and wait for all the processes to communicate #(which can take up to 3 fucking weeks)#(which means i cant even apply for jobs yet because they need to see my certification first)#(ugh.)#(but im still gonna celebrate because godDAMN that was a long and stressful and difficult process)#excited to get paid at some point for my (if the externship indicates anything) frankly fucking excellent work! please hire me!

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opens-up-4-nobody · 1 month ago

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#oh lads. lads. lads. lads. im being sucked back into the world of academia #i dont even kno what happened. a week ago i was crying bc i was like: this is impossible. i simply cannot do this.#and then i went into the lab sunday and miraculously i was able to easily read some papers. like i dont kno how to discribe how baffling it #was. like reading papers is like pulling teeth and this was somehow easy. i think maybe it was bc i let myself get distracted and wander #thru it. and then after that i got so much done this week and i was tired but having fun. and like the thing is: i fucking love evolution #it's like puzzling out the code for life in both a metaphical and literal sense. its fucking incredible. and my project is also very #interesting. if a bit intimidating in its scope. ya kno. just in the way photosynthesis is generally intimidating #but i think i have a strain thats lost chlf which is really interesting and my advisor said we might have the money to try some crispr for #my cyano children. hypothetically. maybe. and i get to do some poking around in genomes. theres so so much to love there #how could i possibly want to do anything else? and yet. and yet. here at the end of the week im so wrung out and i kno i just have to start #again on sunday and i kno im gonna have to step it up in terms of reading if i want to make it through a committee meeting and proposal #defense. not to even mention a comprehensive exam. and what do i get at the end of all this? a lifetime of academia draining my life away.#bc what i do is so academic. so whats the point? its just so frustrating.#and on top of that ive got all this data from my old lab that i kno i have to work on. and i will. i will. but with what time?#anyway the point is. i can see a path forward now where i stay here and decide the pain will be worth it despite not knowing where im going #after that. im just so tried #but right now it feels like im gonna stay until someone kicks me out #but that doesnt exactly make me feel happy. ugh. but if i stay i want to get my old pi to come here and give a seminar. ill warn her how #intimidating the department is tho. we've had 2 talks in the last 2 weeks that were... not good. particularly the one this week #like she couldnt answer a single question they thru at her and didnt seem to kno her data sets. it was hard to watch. anyway. i just want #to see my academic mother again. send me back to the desert! let me rot in a field full of sage #but send me back to the hills of an older mountain range. where i can climb sandstone cliffs and lay in carpets of moss. except i wouldnt do #that bc of all the ticks and threat of lyme disease...#anyway. im still tired. still sad. and there doesnt seem to b a way out #unrelated

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kaiserkisser · 19 days ago

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fuck

well fuck

#[🔮] rambles ~#well thats one eloquent way to put it #KDJSJSUDJSHSJSJSHAHSHSJAJAAAAAAAAAASJDJDJIDJDHDJDUDUD {<- me and my thoughts rn}#UGHHHHH #I DONT KNOW HOW TO FEEL TF #DHHEJSJDHD #FUCK #what an AMAZING time to start having feelings :////////#IDK I LIKE IT BUT I DONT BUT I DO BUT WTF #AND I CANT GET DISTRACTED MORE THAN I ALREADY AM #BUT UFHHHHH #DJDJJSJS #this is literally all im capable of expressing rn #fuck #AAAAAAAA #its like my brain got tired of me tap dancing around and refusing my feelings #“nahhhh i dont like himmm ” <- me saying from three years and having managed to mostly convince myself and lock up the rest of thefeelings #-in The Box Of Things I Dont Think About #my brain tired of my bullshit: violently shoves extremely vivid and sweet dream that i will not forget so that i finally realise #ive been thinking abt him but avoiding thinking abt him the whole day at the samr time 😭😭😭😭#ESP SINCE IVE COME HOME BC I DONT WANT MY MOM TO NOTICE #but UGH #I WAS LITERALLY THINKING ABT HIM THEN STOPPING MYSELF DURING THE EXAM CRYING FOR FUCKS SAKE #i have refused to think abt this till it is shoved into my head again <- will think then stop myself then think again then stop myself then #FEELINGS ARE SO INCONVENIENT OMFG AAAAAAAAAAAA #delete later #i cannot bear to have the evidence 😭😭

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studywgabi · 18 days ago

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Side-By-Side Email Translation

Hello Dr. Smith! ('Sup, Fucko?)

Good morning! (Fuck you.) I hope you are enjoying this beautiful fall weather we've been having! (Are you too busy watching Gilmore Girls and baking pumpkin pies to do your job?) I just wanted to check in see if there were any updates to my housing situation. (Have you gotten around to doing your fucking job and following the law yet?) Please don't hesitate to reach out if there is anything further you need from me! (Please don't hesitate to go fuck yourself!) I hope to hear from you soon! (I am one more of your fuckass emails away from dropping out of school.)

Thank you (Fuck you again),

Studywgabi (Your worst nightmare)

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wineanddineloseyourmind · 6 months ago

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I really wish I could stop having dreams about school :/

#i literally haven’t been in school for nearly 10 years (not counting uni)#and i still have dreams where i’m singled out in the class for not doing homework or where I get lost on the way to class #or don’t have the right textbooks or haven’t been to any classes or don’t know anything that’s on an exam #or i get yelled at and belittled by a teacher or my classmates take the piss out of me #or any other humiliating bullshit #i think im still carrying the pain of being undiagnosed neurodivergent at school with me #at uni no one cares and it’s not a big deal #but at school they will make you feel like the biggest piece of shit alive for being a little bit weird #vent #personal post #i just woke up from having another fucking school dream #ugh #i also went to an all boys school so i think that fucked me up a little bit too #thank fuck my egg didn’t crack back then. I don’t know if i would have survived.

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nerdyqueerr · 7 months ago

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Its so fucked up that i have to be studying for an exam and then doing the exam and then moving out of my dorm and then starting my job. I should be. Thinking about tabletop rpgs forever

#monsterhearts summer camp game is shaping up in my mind..#feywild party game only a few weeks away #i have a billion little 1 page ttrpgs saved that i could buy for a couple bucks and i want to so bad!!!#superhero detention club...... be the cowboy...... please #not to mention the ole urban fantasy game is on hiatus so i have time to really cook #and the game im playing in! is almost done!! we might have to fight like an aboleth #anyways. ugh. free me #i hate exam so fucking much #my shit

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caninecowboy · 10 months ago

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dear fucking lord i need to go back to therapy

#every time my sister calls me it's to (rightfully) complain abt mon pere but it's like #im so sorry girlie i don't have the bandwidth #we might be going on strike which will fuck with my qual exam severely #and also my laser is being wonky and the weather is bad so i need to stock up on food #and also i get why ur mad at our father and i am too but i don't have the band width to be fully angry #he texted me today about the connections and i was like whatever about it #but answered anyways.#ugh fuck off

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newtness532 · 10 months ago

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remember all these hours ago that i said i was going to study? well obviously i didn't but i have been sitting next to my notes the whole time so that counts for something, right?

#gonna study the 3rd chapter and call it a day #and then tomorrow i need to start taking the exams more seriously and study study bc i only have one week left and 4 lessons i have to study #so if i dont start studying now im fucked #and if i dont pass all of my exams im even more completely fucked #also i need to talk to this girl to see if shes talked with the professor about the things #ugh i miss summer so much. everything was so much easier when i didnt have any responsibilities #jo says stuff #university update

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brine-in-my-eyes · 1 year ago

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im cheating for philosophy idc anymore im gonna cross reference with my prev answers and just brute force my way through eveyr single possible answer on each attempt till it works

#my school friend told me all the secrest to life universe and everything and its that cheating in school is completely ethical and sexy even #funyn enough philosophy talks abt ethics too but like brother? if it comes to exams i have none #i love cheating in exams cheating in exams is my favorite thing to do 😍#its so weird cuz like the answers are just so dumb and stupid and stuff #ugh #so idiotic #i KNOW im smart and funny and epic #but philosophy has the dumbest answers possible #guhghhgh #grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr #i hope afte rthis quick class ill be able to just fuck it and brute force everything #i dont care!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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stormyrainyday · 4 months ago

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this entire year has been flop after flop why am i losing so bad your honor i am literally just some guy

#im yapping u can move on if u dont wanna hear my life story #first i get nuked by stomach pains when i go to visit my friends #something that had been ongoing for years but #my best friend convinces me to see a doctor that year #my condition deteriorates no matter what meds they put me on #i finally get a more invasive exam that shows my intestines were inflamed #i get put on fucking steroids that fuck me up physically and emotionally #i go through multiple med school exams after spending months in crippling pain #pain so bad id be bedridden for hours #got 6 weeks of migraines near daily #sometimes multiple in a day #stressed out of my mind by the time my finals came around to the point that i could no longer bring myself to care #bc i was sure id fail no matter how hard i studied #visit my friends again bc somehow its already winter again #am a nervous wreck all the time and retreat into my phone #but also hate myself for not spending what little time i had fully present #constantly worn out and exhausted bc my meds are barely working #and id found out i was allergic to a lot of things so i was cutting a lot of things out of my diet #lmfao it was so bad my weight still hasnt recovered but yeah i come back i start 3rd year #the toll the last year had taken on my mental health finally registers #i become too depressed to study for my hardest module yet #UGH THATS SO CRINGE JUST SIT DOWN AND STUDY??#but nothing was sticking on god #anyway im sure ive failed #and la salud mental no es bien or soemthing idk i havent taken spanish in 3 years #anyway deep sigh i just stay losing #i cant believe im in like four fucking research projects and classes and trying to work on myself this shit sucks balls #and clinical rotations...#lord just strike me down

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lesbianralzarek · 6 months ago

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i got 99% on an exam i was dreading and i was sooo brave and i only threw up a little bit :) unfortunately i had to take 2 tabs of adderall at 4pm and subsequently i will not be escaping my dogshit sleep schedule tonight :( but i got 99% :)

#the one i missed was bullshit. normally all questions are formatted with the generic names so thats the direction i studied #this exam was backwards #if you asked me what classification irbesartan was i obviously wouldve known it was an angiotensin ii receptor blocker. duh.#but avapro? how do you get avapro from irbesartan?#it was multiple choice so i just went. 'okay. all i gotta do is recall all the generics for these 4 classifications and #from there i can hopefully remember all of the brands for each of them!'#reader. i did not do that.#avapro is not adalat. adalat is fucking nifedipine. unfortunately 'anti-hypertensive calcium channel blocker' was an option #ugh.#so close to 100%#whatever. the point is i dont have to retake it tomorrow. which is nice because tomorrow is for studying for #my institutional pharmacy final. which i CANNOT fail because then i would have to retake it on THE SAME DAY as my math final #i cant study on thursday (the day of my institutional final) because if all goes well im starting my externship that day #and finishing my shift one hour before class #so. again. i am VERY glad i passed this test #god ive got so. much. homework. to catch up with. and studying. fuck.#wont have much time to study for my math final because i took fri-sun shifts too and the math final is on monday #but thats fine because i am good at math. hashtag girl #no one will read all these tags but im journaling

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opens-up-4-nobody · 6 months ago

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#oh lads. its not looking good for my genomics exam on Thursday. its all fucked #i dunno. its just been a weird day. bc one of my lab mates is getting ready to go to the astr0biology science conference #and its just so wild how i got here. into the perfect position. i have a great advisor. a great phd project. a committee member who is super #integrated with n4sa astr0biology projects. and so many of the instructors are amazing. my genomics prof is terrifyingly smart #so is my advisor and his wife. and the program is great. ecology and Evolution. its perfect. its all perfect #and yet. and yet. it just feels like its all falling apart. ive lost that compulsive thing thats always set in my chest #and now all i want to do is lay on the floor and cry and sleep and not do anything. why am i so tired?#its just so frustrating. and im sure ive got the most wretched vibes bc im constantly like 1 comment away from bursting into tears #like 2 weeks and its done. then im off to find a summer job. and find a long term job. and consider throwing away everything ive ever worked #toward. just let it all burn. im so tired. and i dont get to see my therapist until Monday. thats gonna b fun #hi. hello. since last i saw you my life has crumbled into pieces. ugh. i just dont wanna fail this genomics exam but it looks like that's #where we're headed. maybe i should have just dipped out of these last 3 weeks. but no. i didnt want to leave the lady i ta for 100 lab #reports to unexpectedly have to grade 4 days before grades are due. ugh. itll b fine. i mean it wont but whatever #unrelated

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iqmmir · 1 year ago

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Everyone should cherish how silly ive been lately btw

#exams start this saturday that means i have to go to school regularly for a bit #that drains me oh so much it will be 'i want to commit arson' 'i need to kms' 'im so fucking stupid' posts one after another~#and like ive said 1836364638 times already #i have exams part two as well!#ahahaha #hahaha…#ugh #.mimiming ❜

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nicepersondisorder · 1 year ago

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i think i deserve a treat for not maiming anyone today 💖

#i had an exam so i had to leave phone books papers and so on behind #AND THEN THEY MADE ME WAIT 3 HOURS. WITH NOTHING BUT MY THOUGHTS.#i NEED to do something like reading or drawing. i would even agree on physical labor or studying or something #i was so painfully bored and also so fucking furious because of ig #stupid fucking. examinators. UGH.#my adhd makes me unable to be alright when im not doing anything #☆.txt

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earlyspringtranscendence · 1 year ago

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btw i think one of the most impt hobbies in the world is having a mostly non-existent, mostly self indulgent crush on a professor/lecturer just to zone out to their classes to and focus instead on their hair and their hands and their dark circles speaking NAWT from experience. maybe a little bit.

#yeah he's got me a lil crazy i was doing dishes this morning thinking abt all the things i still have to do this week #bc we have his exam on friday and im trying to determine whether i should try to do some prep work or just leave it for the day of #& i was just thinking abt like. oh he's so fucking precious he like actively took the time over winter break to memorise the names of #the people who consistently show up to class and like its cause he's sweet and wants to eventually teach more focussed smaller groups #but like my man my absolute angel you have accidentally stumbled upon the number one surefire way to make people wanna keep coming to class #like his classes r great but mostly i like that he knows who i am #and like i was thinking abt like. we were talking abt language in art movements like dadaism and i asked if he'd read embassytow #-n and he said he hadnt but that he had a list of student recs i'd be on and then in a later class i asked if he read fever dream and he #like made the joke that he'd have a section in his list of just things i told him to read #You Dont Understand I Need This Man Carnally. THIS is what one direction meant when they said thats what makes u beautiful #fuck me i hope he has this effect on the ladies cause if not hey babe there's a whole world out here for you ready to be explored #its also jst funny bc we r genuinely all afflicted by this tragic desire of him i think its partially bc his classes r a little boring #again love him to bits he does try his best its just rly surface level shit because it has to be within the nature of his classes #anyway. convincing myself not to fail his class on purpose so i can retake it next year its going poorly #also just had like a rly long convo w him after class once and he's just. URGH SO SWEET IM LEAVING. IM GOING AWAY NOW.#dreamboy... ugh ! AND he's a poet professionally !!!

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