#ugh I really want to write

[guitarstringed-scars]

I’m too lazy to write anything 😕😕😕

[nr1chaedickrider]

"you're taking it so well for me, baby."

she emphasizes the petname in a teasing tone, praising you as you grip her shoulder, your nails digging into her skin.

the burning sensation your nails leave on her skin turns ryujin on even more.

the back of her head hits the wall as she looks up to you.

"you look so pretty for me"

"on my lap like such a pretty girl"

you let out another moan, getting used to the stretch as you finally start moving.

"mhm fuck-" you moan out, not being able to keep eye contact with her as you throw your head back.

it all started with a simple photo yuna posted.

which turned into a steamy make out on the couch.

and now you're riding her strap.

she still has her jeans on, the black adidas sports bra fits tightly on her chest.

"look at me my love" she whispers, placing soft kisses on your neck.

you move your head to her command, looking at her.

she starts grinning, her hands on your waist.

"god you're so pretty"

"kinda wish i could show you off to everyone."

she thrusts her hip up, making you scream a little.

"fuck ryu- im gonna-"

"gonna cum for me my love? come on, do it. wanna see you finish all over me."

you keep riding her, nails still scratching her, for a moment you even think you saw some blood.

you lean forward and kiss her, moaning into her mouth as you cum all over her.

"maybe we should finally take this to the bedroom, hm?" she whispers.

[macdenlover]

we don’t acknowledge enough how dee used to be a pageant winner when she was a kid and how much damage it did to her. she worked her ass off and got recognition for being pretty and talented at a young age and it was the only source of self esteem she could garner in a family that constantly berated and talked down to her. she sought after that external approval because it was the only way she could prove everyone around her wrong. her dream of being a performer didn’t come from a self-aggrandizing delusion— she genuinely showed a lot of potential when she was younger. but she went through an unflattering puberty and her spinal condition got worse and that natural talent she had as a kid plateaued way too early. the “former gifted kid” dilemma. she slowly lost the thing that promised her that she was good, but she was so desperate to keep holding onto it that she tried anyway. again and again and again no matter how much people made fun of her because it was always about proving them wrong. but after a while she couldn’t jump anymore without anticipating the way it feels when she hits the ground face first. self-sabotage became her way out, choosing to rather live in the fantasy of her own unrealized potential and blaming those around her for her lack of success, than having tried and crashed again. she’d rather buy lottery tickets over and over and never scratch off the numbers than to see that she lost. that self-sabotaging behavior bled into other aspects of her life too, from friendships to relationships to therapy. her own short lived success is what made her grow into embodying the cycle of failure.

[essektheylyss]

"When you make stories or art that are a kind of shortcut to proving yourself right, that's sort of the definition of propaganda, I think."

SAY THAT, BRENNAN.

[flintsilvers]

i need claudia to haunt lestat but not in the overt, in your face way that dreamstat haunted louis. i need claudia to sit quietly just barely in sight. blurred in the background of every shot lestat is in. even if we don't always see her, he does. but if he tries to look at her directly she moves out of sight. she's gone. he has no chance to fix things with her because she's dead so he doesn't get to look her in the eyes anymore

[wienners]

found another ellison book in a store but its a compilation made after his death without any of his bitchy little prologues to each story. like if i cant read about how annoyed he was about being tardy to everything in his day to day life before reading the ticktok man, or how he only wrote IHNMAIMS in one day based off a friends science fiction painting of what would later be the tedslug, or a borderline bragging anecdote about how he wrote a story in the middle of a dinner party to spite his friend who said 'no new story ideas are possible', then I DONT WANNT ITTT!

[calmlb]

Odasaku’s orphans & the meanings of their names

aka let’s suffer together 💔

kousuke: to help bring happiness (9 years old)

katsumi: to overcome oneself (8 years old)

yuu: outstanding kindness (7 years old)

shinji: genuine leader (5 years old)

sakura: blossoming happiness (4 years old)

disclaimer: i don’t speak japanese so there may be some mistakes— feel free to correct me! this is just what i found from my research & if you look at how harukawa depicts the kids in her art, i think it’s probably roughly accurate :’)

[skitskatdacat63]

Fernando Alonso & His Relationship With Cards

I'm sure we're all familar with the cards on the back of Fernando's Vegas GP helmet by now, but did you know his relationship with cards goes a lot deeper?

I. Magic Tricks

You've probably seen or heard someone at least mention Fernando's propensity for card tricks. As far as I can tell he was doing them(publically) as far back as 2003 all the way to as recently as 2018. Even once performing a card trick, with a condom and a teddy bear(!??!?!??!!), in front of Valentino Rossi who said "How was that possible?"(x)

But how did this start? According to James Allen, "Fernando admits to having been heavily influenced by his grandfather, a mercurial figure, who taught him magic and card tricks, still one of his passions away from the race track."(x) And I'm not sure the validity of this one, because I couldn't find an actual source, but apparently he once said: "My parents are responsible for the two things I like doing most - driving and magic tricks. They bought me my first go-kart and a magician's kit."

In several interviews he described it as his hobby off track, and that he loved learning new tricks and surprising others in the garage with them! So clearly cards are pretty important to him both as a hobby but also to who he is as a person since they've been with him just as long as racing has.

II. Card Symbolism in His Helmets

This is the reason I originally made this post, but I thought I should also explain the origins of his card fascination first. As I said, we probably all remember the cards on the back of his helmet in Vegas, but did you know that wasn't the first time he had cards on the back of his helmet?

From 2008-2013, he used to have a pair of cards on the back of his helmets. The symbolisms of the cards themselves as well as the evolution of their design is really fascinating to me! Even more so with the recent development of the card choice in 2023.

Fernando said he wanted to reference his two titles in some way on the back of his helmet and after his friend sent him several ideas, he decided on having two cards(an ace of clubs and an ace of hearts, sometimes pictured with 05 and 06 on them as well), saying: "I picked the cloverleaf [the ace of clubs - Ed] to give me luck, but the only pity is that it doesn't have four leaves!"(X)

2008.

Here's the very first appearance of the cards! They're displayed flat, with the 05 and 06 clearly visible

2009.

Very similar to 2008, but with a slightly different design, and they're maybe a bit more straight with less shadow?

2010.

This is the first major change! I was sad they didn't have the years on them anymore, but then I realized they're sparkly to match with his signature lightning bolts on the top of the helmet!!

2011.

Honestly I'm still somewhat unsure if this is the actual 2011 helmet? It's pretty difficult to find clear photos of the back of helmets from older seasons. It's easiest to find them on replica sites or auction sites so I'm not 100%? But anyways, I like that this has the championship years on the underside of the cards

2012.

This is when I started getting weirdly emotional about the helmets. Do you see how they've progressed from being a centerpoint to being curled up and sad at the bottom of the helmet? Not listing the year anymore??

2013.

Same thoughts as 2012. And after this season, they cease to exist (just like his ferrari chair in the garage, WOAH CALLBACK), until cards make a reeappearance in his Vegas helmet, albeit in a different form

2013 Monaco(Honorable Mention):

For some reason 2013 helmets were easier to find proper pictures of, so I happened to witness this absolute beauty. The creativity of this helmet genuinely blows me away??? Wanting to keep the card motif, but making sure to incorporate it into the rest of the puzzle piece design?? Mwah! There was another special 2013 helmet but they didn't change the cards at all so I really applaud this one

2023 Las Vegas(The Return of The King):

The magnificent return! But look! The cards are different cards! Instead of being two aces, it's now an ace of hearts, a four of hearts(his driver number of course!) and, the, now iconic, representation of himself as a Joker. I literally could not believe my eyes when this helmet was released and I saw the Joker card, what a fucking silly old man....I really wonder if he felt nostalgic having cards on his helmet again or if he didn't think about it all and was just like, "ah cards because Vegas!!!"

III. Why Does This Matter?

*The rest of the post was factual, this is moreso my personal thoughts on the symbolism of the cards/designs

This post spawned from me recently watching the 2010 Bahrain gp and noticing "hey wait a minute...are those CARDS ON THE BACK OF HIS HELMET!?" It's a really tiny detail that's unfortunately covered up by the HANS device pretty much whenever he's wearing the helmet, so it's really difficult to spot! But I became fascinated with the fact that he had cards on his helmet before that recent helmet, and now here we are!

There's something to me about how the design of the cards evolves over the course of six seasons from the cards being front and center to being smaller, more folded up and closer to the bottom of the helmet. As I said, the 2012-2013 ones genuinely made me depressed because it feels, symbolically, like his hopes for getting another Ace are becoming more and more unlikely and falling away until they eventually fall falt and fade away entirely after 2013 and disappear for basically a decade.

But when they return? They're not the same cards! Instead of representing Fernando's championships, they now represent him as a person, displaying his driver number and his persona of being a Joker!! Though I do think it's interesting he happened to keep the Ace of Hearts, even though he talked more about the Ace of Clubs before. I'm not sure it's actually this deep in reality, but I like to think that it's him not letting his championships(and the lack thereof) define him, but rather letting who he is as a person shine and be the centerpoint instead! But on a sadder note, as @suzuki-ecstar said to me, maybe the Aces aren't there anymore because he's lost all hope for a chance at a third Ace entirely :(

[gingermintpepper]

"I wanted, more than anything, to make you proud." No longer does his son bend his head. He meets him in his eyes - richest brown to clearest blue. Zeus cannot help but search for that little toddling thing that once sough refuge at his knees. When did Ares grow so large? When did his shoulders get so broad? "Why can't you just be proud of me?" What is it that Phoebus always says? That children can tell their parents have favourites even when they themselves don't know? It almost brings a smile to his face. How alike they both are, even now. Mirrors, the two of them, and they don't even know it. "What good would my pride do you now, Ares?" Ares recoils as though he's been struck. As ever, it is the wrong thing to say. Maybe there's never been a right thing to say. Or maybe the both of them are fools. Caught up in this perpetual dog-and-horse show; the son who wants his father's approval and the father who does not know what that means. All the wisdom in the cosmos can't give him that knowledge. "...Good talk, Father. Truly." That blood-red hair is a windswept flag as Ares leaves. Zeus swears it had been only up to his nape when they'd started speaking. The door slams shut, it rattles all his charts and maps, the vases with Hera's flowers sat pretty on his table. Then, there is silence. Then, there is regret. Well, Metis, look what a mess he's made now.

[sunlitlemonade]

i want to write jason & natalia but head so scattered.....

[kanerallels]

*starts to make a post about my latest crisis like three times*

[music4soul]

no back to ur Greek god thing w price and nik.. bonus points if they are in a lovers position that once held each other now separate far apart..

This.. is a different perspective that I haven’t thought about(and I love it.)

In my mind I was thinking they’d kind of be like The Creation of Adam and instead of their fingers touching they’d be reaching out with full force, one trying to protect the other from whatever wicked curse Zeus was about to cast on them. But now I really wanna scrap that original image and replace it with this one:

Before they were cursed they held onto each other feverishly, Nik holding John to his chest and cradling the back of his head while John wrapped his strong arms around Nik, one hand splayed across his back trying to keep him close while the other gripped his hair in a gentle yet powerful hold.

When they’re found, it takes every bit of mortal strength to pry the two off each other and put them in different locations, but eventually it was done and now the two are so close yet so far from being together.

[famousinmyfandom]

Was talking with a friend about why John left, and in addition to questions of paternity and fear of fatherhood, I was thinking it’s also pretty likely that Arthur unintentionally pushed him out.

Think about it. Arthur has been cleaning up John’s messes his whole life. He’s also a father who lost his son and a husband who lost his wife, so it makes sense that he would be exceptionally over protective of Jack and Abigail. So every time John makes a mistake (away too long on a job, didn’t support Jack’s head right, didn’t burp him, asked a dumb question about the baby, didn’t tell Abigail she was pretty today, didnt help out enough, etc), Arthur is right there calling him out on it.

And it’s not that different than normal, Arthur is always on John’s case, but there’s a baby involved now so everything is ramped up. This, plus John wondering if Jack is even his, and John’s general fear of inadequacy, leads to John deciding that Abigail and Jack are better off with Arthur. Plus, Arthur clearly wants the job, (he doesn’t but John doesn’t understand this because obviously Arthur isn’t going to explain that no, he doesn’t want a new family, he just doesn’t want John to find out what it feels like to lose one) so obviously he should just leave and stop ruining everything.

And of course none of them ever talk about it.

[nina-ya]

poking my head in, hi everyone! I apologize for going MIA for the last week or so, I have this thing in my little brain that if I don’t have any writing for you guys, I need to stay away from tumblr!! And I know that’s such a stupid thing but I can’t help it!! So with that I’m deeply sorry that I haven’t put anything out in a second, I’m working on some fics currently, I might come back later with a WIP, but I just thought I’d offer an explanation for why I went offline for a bit! I love you all and thank you for understanding 💕

[opens-up-4-nobody]

Sometimes I start writing fics I'll never finish because what I really want is to wax poetic about death and dying

[the-travelling-witch]

WOAH REQUEST? Those are words I haven’t heard in a long time.. (never)

Well in that case what about anything with ur ocs? Their morning routine night routine just some goofy stuff!

hi, so since you didn't specify an oc, my brain just kinda meshed this ask up with your other ask and i made my friend pick between my modern au characters instead. he chose night routine with xiao (who is very much not an oc), so uh yeah here's that

if you still want me to write something with an oc of mine, please send another ask with one of them and one word bc otherwise i'm going to spin a wheel (i very much do not want to pick characters myself bc that's the whole point of this challenge/ warm-up ^^;)

𝐗𝐢𝐚𝐨 𝐱 𝐍𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭 𝐑𝐨𝐮𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐞 [modern au]

The pencil hovering over his sketchbook had barely moved since Xiao sat down at his desk. Even when illuminated by the familiar warmth of his lamp, no inspiration for a new tattoo seemed to come to him, so he put the pencil down and leaned back in his seat with a sigh.

Just as he started wracking his brain for anything that could give him that spark to draw, his thoughts were interrupted by his phone ringing. He swiped right immediately.

“Xiao, hey! Sorry, I couldn’t call earlier, stuff just kept coming up,” you started apologetically. Just hearing your voice on the other side was enough for some of the tension to seep from his shoulders. “How was your day?”

“Same as usual, nothing special happened.” He wished he could tell you about something but there really wasn’t anything. Besides, Xiao could tell there was something you wanted to get off your chest. “Why don’t you tell me about yours instead?”

There was rustling on your end of the call, no doubt you getting ready for bed. These late night phone calls had become something of a routine at this point, a way to spend time together on nights where you couldn’t see each other. When you talked, time seemed to fly by and it happened every now and then that the line felt silent before all Xiao could hear was the evened out breathing after you fell asleep. 

Leaning forward as he listened to you describing your day, from the beautiful flowers you saw in a shop to the driver who cut you off, Xiao picked up his pencil again almost absentmindedly. Graphite bloomed over his sketchbook as your voice calmed down all the earlier doubts in his mind. Really, he should have known. You always were his greatest inspiration.

1 character, 1 word, 11 minutes

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