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what's the lore behind nick's creation? are there any other woodpeople?
So, basically, (or not so basically because I can take a while talking about this), Nick came from a huuuge domino effect where if basically anything that has happened didn't, she wouldn't exist.
I'm probably gonna lose my thread here so sorry if this doesn't make sense at some point. But, to figure out where nick came from i first have to go back to when i realized john was a Cool Character (to say the least) to me.
so i've been a siiva fan for about 4 years now (if you really want to know, since Exactly january 31st 2019) and i quickly grew to be a fan of the lore. and my favorite character was woodman, and you don't really need to know this because this story starts in 2020, but it sets it up a little, probably. i've always Liked woodman and at first he was the only real character attachment i had to siivagunner.
Ignoring anything that happened in between then and 2020 (very ironically, since those were the last appearances john ever had and i totally ignored them while they were coming out, lol), we flash forward to march 2020, where i started reading a book called the priory of the orange tree (this has NOTHING to do with siiva, but it's really important and nick wouldn't exist without it as i'll explain later, so bear with me. also really good book i recommend it thoroughly btw) this will be important soon enough
OK THE FIRST ACTUAL IMPORTANT MOMENT was. april 1st (2020). where harmony friends (aka hinchy) hosted a sort of character voice request thing on the siivagunner discord since it's john's VA and idk, probably just felt like it. And i was there, and i requested some goofy "be gay do crime" line, which she said, and idk why but i think that sort of meaningful-esque interaction caused me to go back and look at john's previous appearances and have him like, slowly become a meaningful character to me.
so we're around april to may now. i'm still reading the Book (which i'll shorten to tpotot for convinience) and thinking about john like maybe once every few days and, the thing about this book is that it has like, multiple character povs. and one of them, which is the main focus here, was this sorta cowardly sorta morally grey 60-ish year old gay man called Niclays Roos. Who i was mildly fixated with because his pov spoke to me Immensely, and still does.
so what i started doing was sorta projecting that sort of character onto John, with a few other traits i had picked up on from what little content she has. (silly interests despite being supposedly uptight and professional coming from her interest in eddie murphy's haunted mansion in spooktacular iii, etc) also the moment i became interested in him i Knew he had to be gay like that was almost an immediate click and maybe why i connected him to niclays in the first place, which brings us to our next moment.
so here's another thing about niclays. he had a lover. (ex-lover, but i don't wanna dwelve too much into it cause tpotot is cool and you can find out abt it on ur own) called jannart, who was a general contrast to niclays in the short segments he appeared in, being much more relaxed, much bolder and open about himself, and also. a painter. who took an interest in niclays because he wanted to attempt to capture the beauty he saw in him onto canvas)
DO YOU GET IT NOW!!!!!!! i saw this sort of almost relationship template, and when faced with the fact that john had no contrast funnyman in siiva that i could put together with him like a kid knocking dolls against eachother to make them kiss, well, you can imagine the rest.
so after a while of just thinking about it, on a 40 minute car trip on may 16th 2020, while listening to color my life by chicano batman on loop, i came up with nick, loosely and vaguely, decided that i wanted him to be a woodman too because it just felt. Right (did consider human for maybe a minute before shutting it down) and began drawing him the moment i arrived to my destination.
i still have the sketches which is cool but not on me rn and it might take a few months to get the notebook back but i'll remember to update this post when i do for a fun little snippet. it even has the word "jonnick" right next to them, which i believe i chose at the time because "johnnick" already had like, 2 results, and i wanted something original. i sorta regret it now because it almost sounds like a typo but i got too attached to change it lol
also nick's canon birthday is actually may 17 to me but only because that was the day i actually decided i wanted to pull through with this Very self indulgent thing (not as a bit) (real) and also the day i drew his ref (under a read more at the end of the post cuz its UGLY ASF)
so yeah, a few people already knew about this, but i don't think i ever wrote it out fully in a public space before yayyyyy.
tldr got attached to john in april 2020 for little reason and it spiralled and i projected part of another character's personality onto him and that character had a partner which caused me to give the same thing to john and then that went from being half joke to a fully realized character who's like a real living person in my head. yay! and it's been 3 years since their very stupid goofy beginning and they've grown to become almost an extension of myself with how much i've developed them and think about them. also yay!
to answer your other question (lol); i didn't make any, save for like one time where i made a woodsona as a bit, but according to my own fuckin story robots (including woodmen) are massproduced and only in rare occasions grow sentient but like, yeah it's totally 100% possible that there r other sentient woodmen out there just livin their lives n shit. you can make one if you want! i grant you my knight's permit 🫡
this exact drawing is still on my tumblr if you scroll far enough down, lol.
here's another one that came before it that i could find and that i reference pretty often as being the first (atleast digital) jonnick drawing. i remade it in 2021 and included it as a photograph in another painting i made last year. yay! that was so many fun facts just in one day. but now i have to get back to playing animal crossing new leaf on my nintendo 3ds
#john.txt#ask#siivagunner#learning not to apologize for rambling so i'm just gonna say#u set yourself up for that one#/LIGHTHEARTED
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olympics coming up…… athlete aus on the mind….. satoru as a swimmer….. unreasonably large wingspan…. huge hands..... thinks “official” competitions and tournaments are boring because he can’t use the goofy purple googly eyes goggles he likes to practice in…… practices at ungodly hours solely because he likes when the pool is empty because that means you’ll dip your feet in at the edge and be there to greet him with a kiss when he’s finished his laps….. they bring up the stats board and it’s just his name ten times before the next fastest person and he could still lap them, and even tho he’ll always put so much pressure on himself to be the best, it’s worth it to have you hold his face and tell him you’re proud of him... he’s gotten so much merch from events and sponsorships and he used to think they just created clutter but that all changes when you start to wear his clothes (esp the ones with his name on it… he’s not proud to admit that does Something to him)…. always looks up to the stands when he finishes a race and if he knows you’re not there, he looks right at the camera, draws an infinity sign with his fingers, and blows a kiss (which, some commentators routinely call “unsportsmanlike conduct” but he doesn’t care, and always, publicly says he’ll pay the fees if it means blowing a kiss to his girl at home)
#satoru w/ wet hair coming out of the pool......... GOD .#he could be a professional swimmer and he still gets in the bathtub and is like babe look I'm a mermaid like yeah dude.. u might be#he's so k/atie l/edecky coded... they bring up the world stats and his name name 24 times before the next fastest time#like wdym you're faster than yourself 23 times before somebody else is next in line.........#he also gets brand sponsorships and is on set for photoshoots/campaigns and he's always like wait can I have one these for my gf#and the crew thinks its so sweet they give him 10 extra#jjk x reader#jujutsu kaisen x reader#jjk fluff#jjk smut#gojo x reader#satoru gojo x reader#satoru smut#gojo satoru x reader#satoru x reader#hm.... nanami? idk where tho... maybe judo I think that's an olympic sport#salaryman to gold medalist lore goes crazy omg#he started bc he was stressed at work at some random gym and the coach there was like hold on... and now he's a gold medalist#yuuta does something kinda nerdy looking like the javelin but he's weirdly good at it LOLLLL#OR TENNIS!#megumi I HAVE to push my archery agenda#but like. toji/gojo definitely caught him throwing rocks or something as a kid and being emo#and they were like wait you've got good aim ... kinda scary#and now he's at the olympics... wild#whatever the case is yuuji didn't Actually want to play a sport#yuuji in track and field... honestly maybe even gymnastics... NO! I GOT IT! VOLLEYBALL!.... maybe...#but it turned out to be a way to make steady money to support his grandpa#and then it just.. spiraled into him getting scouted and then training and now he's a world champion :((((#💌#olympics au
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YOU HESITATE. IF YOU WILL NOT FIGHT FOR MY BLESSING, I WILL MAKE YOU SOMETHING CRUELLER.
#gamingnetwork#vgedit#videogameedit#gamingedit#dailygaming#gameplaydaily#bg3edit#bgedit#orin the red#baldur's gate 3#baldur's gate#orin#bhaal#sarevok anchev#seen so many sets w this lyric but none 4 orin....the quintessential abandoned by god girly#sarevok gets 2 be god here alongside bhaal because helena outright says#that both she and orin worshipped him and because orin obviously has a lot of her#service towards bhaal wrapped up in service towards sarevok#BHAAL WHEN I GET YOU OOOO WHEN I GET YOUUUU#the very last moment orin gets if u try to tell her shes a victim#is one last moment of victimization at her 'father's' hands#baby girl....good luck taking care of yourself....
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Orpheus in the mechanisms canon is such a great character, especially in Orpheus & Narcissus Go on a Trip to the Seaside because he’s watching his best friend Narcissus struggle to cope with his superstitious idiosyncrasies and his borderline obsession with that mirror & Orpheus thinks to himself “damn hes Mentally Ill™️, theyr gonna put him in the asylum fr 😔” as if he, Orpheus, isn’t having potentially prophetic dreams, isn’t actively stockpiling brain-melting acid in his room, and wasn’t just caught trying to rebreak his own toe with a book like… ok king of 0 self-reflection!! absolute legend, please continue!!!
#the mechanisms#the mechs#ulysses dies at dawn#i just Know. in my heart. that eurydice was the only one with a braincell in that relationship#RIP eurydice u probly had to put up with a lot u were a real one#like worry abt yourself first fr#can u tell i like men who are a few crayons short of a full set… is that showing#orpheus udad#udad
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how do i start coming up w more interesting character designs like urs. they are sooooo cool and i try to make a character like that but it always comes out stinky
if it stinks thats great
#serious-ish answer that i am not great at setting out tips or advice. but just get weird and out of the “comfort zone” with some things#also learning anatomy but thats a given. you can do even more funny shit once you learn the basics of anatomy#but for everything else just get weird! think of something thatd be strange or funny and run with it. what qualifies as funny is up to you#u kno whats also funny and cute and awesome? variety#mess with proportions bodies faces markings and make something that is unique and strange#maybe ypu think well this stinks or is too strange or people will think youre weird. but why? and why should it matter?#id love to see your character designs anonymous individual. have faith in yourself#if it sounds like im bullshitting its because i havnt had brekfast yet but character and creature design is something im very passionate ab#especially seeing how others interpret the “rules” of it or how some “ignore” these “rules”. have i mentioned pokemon quartz yet#i love unique characters that stand out among ... i dont know. “clean” designs. i like how ones artstyle impacts a take on a design too#im rambling insanies i realize also. im inspired by old cartoons and looking at people and animals. i also learned how to draw hands#by drawing wings first. what does thay mean? Well get strange sir
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casey also talks about sepang 2015 what do you think of that
oh in that podcast? uh... lemme listen again...
yeah idk it's not really anything new I'd say? he's said basically all the same stuff in more interesting and extensive ways elsewhere. I think casey inevitably has a very 'well feuding is bad and helps nobody' point of view, has expressed that before in the past, does it here again, and he's also drawn a parallel between himself and marc on several occasions. which... well, of course there's similarities in terms of public discourse or whatever, but the parallel really falls apart whenever casey argues the feuds cost valentino. like, I do think it's sometimes important to just. keep in mind. it's interesting that casey draws this comparison in his mind but that doesn't necessarily means he's right about this. I'm not sure how you'd argue that starting a feud with casey cost valentino anything competitively? you can argue it didn't help him I guess, and then we can have a debate about the ins and outs of the 2008 season. we can also have an argument that in a hypothetical world where casey isn't ill in 2009, valentino doesn't break his leg and casey isn't on a piece of junk in 2010, and valentino isn't on a piece of junk in 2011-12, then actually maybe valentino sparking open animosity with casey COULD have cost him. but we don't know that! didn't happen! I wish we could have found out, but we never got the chance! as it stands, the tally on this is pretty straightforward: casey won the title when things were reasonably civil between them in 2007, and valentino took control of the following season at the exact moment he worsened the relationship between the pair of them in 2008. obviously, it's all more complicated than that and casey would of course argue laguna didn't negatively affect his subsequent performances... but it certainly didn't help them. like, at the very worst valentino escalating tensions in 2008 is a complete net neutral. after 2009, them being bitchy to each other every other tuesday was completely competitively irrelevant beyond maybe affecting how they approached occasionally fighting for a podium position. hey, maybe casey used that feud to fire himself up through sheer spite throughout the later stages of his career, but that doesn't actually support his anti-feud stance - it's basically the exact same thing as what valentino does. they're both quite similar in that regard! always so hungry to prove a point, to show how someone else is wrong. kinda half the point with this feuding business is to get yourself going, get yourself motivated, yeah. he straight up openly admits to using yamaha's repeat rejection of him as a way of giving himself motivation, and at the end of the day that's really not all that different?
anyway, what else does casey say... oh yeah, that him and the other aliens were already kinda prepared for this and had learned vale's tricks. that valentino had only been able to get into the minds of the previous generation. welllllll *wiggles hand* sure, I mean, he did clearly have to change his approach... he couldn't just use the exact same playbook to get to them, either on-track or off-track. but that's why he did change up the playbook... again, whether you want to believe valentino won his final two titles 'in the head' rather than just through pure pace kinda depends on how you assess the evidence, but it is at the very least a debate. and, y'know, it's always worth remembering that valentino's most important mind games with casey didn't happen in a press conference... it was on the track. and the on-track stuff really is just embedded in how valentino approaches winning. speaking of aliens, this is what dani and jorge have said:
like, valentino's entire approach to his riding, even to the way he's setting his bike up, is deliberately about directly fucking with you... he's not actually always trying to be faster than you as much as he's trying to give himself the tools to make your life miserable, to pressure you into mistakes, etc etc... and again, especially with casey (if anything because he was so mentally sturdy), the off-track stuff was really just window dressing. (I know they bicker a lot after 2009 but it's just so fundamentally irrelevant to actual on-track competition.) so you can be aware of those tricks, but it also doesn't necessarily help you when someone's being nasty to you on-track in a way you just fully do not enjoy. which is what it was like for casey! for casey, a lot of this comes back to the truly unpleasant context of how he was perceived by the public, how he was treated as mentally weak or 'broken' or whatever partly because he had the misfortune of coming up against a bloke who had the reputation for breaking rivals. I think it's quite natural to end up with a bit of a hardliner 'actually I've never been mentally affected by a result in my life' stance - and of course casey is a lot tougher than a lot of people give him credit for. that being said. sometimes your rivals affect you, shit happens, it's part of the game. it's fundamentally a nice idea to think that valentino's tactics weren't just morally wrong but also ineffective, which is kind of the appeal of this narrative, right? you want to believe you're above that, you want to believe you were adequately prepared and wise to valentino's tactic. it's unsurprising and understandable that casey does tend to tell the story that way, but again it's *wiggles hand* also hard to describe it as completely factual
uh. what else. oh I'm thrilled casey does canonically know valentino and marc were friends, he has said he wasn't following motogp too much during that time period so you couldn't be sure of that. does this mean anything? does it tell you anything? well, no, but it's just a pleasing thought to me. I like that. oh also 'provoking particularly aggressive riders isn't a good idea' is kinda a funny take from casey? like, he of all people would hate the idea of being cowed by someone's reputation like that... casey's right that provoking fast riders can potentially be dangerous, but y'know I do think that's probably not news to anyone almost nine years later. um. that's all I've got I think
#i will say idm getting asks like this AT ALL but i do hope that's not like. the only bit of the podcast people are paying attention to#my thing with sepang 2015 takes is that like... when's the last time anyone has said anything genuinely interesting about that event#which yes big words from the feud blogger... but in fairness a lot of the sepang 2015 stuff is from old notes. that's my excuse idc#but that's kinda the thing... i feel like i haven't really had a new original thought about the whole drama for three plus years#u do kinda run out. basically the takes say more about the person saying them than about the actual event at this point#which. yeah. casey's comments on sepang '15 are primarily interesting in what they tell you about how he feels towards valentino#mind u he's actually quite nice about valentino in this one? casey call him let's finally organise that dinner#heretic tag#//#brr brr#batsplat responds#oh casey does go on another spiel against riders who win at all costs. ships that passed in the night of feuds i always say#also he gets the age he enters the premier class at wrong. i held myself back in the last post from pointing this out for tonal reasons#but if people want my podcast hot takes. i do simply have to mention it. just to set the record straight here#'they battle for podium places after 2009' genuinely. twice. like the alien era giveth but a lot of the time it really does just taketh#somewhat ironically casey wins the duel when he's on the shitty ducati and vale wins the duel when he's on the even shittier ducati#whatever that tells you idk#casey was always promising the laguna rematch would've gone differently and I love that conceptually but also we just don't know#he was like next time I WON'T play nice and it's like?? omg what does that look like. casey what were you cooking#for ethical reasons it's probably fine but for character arc reasons it's objectively ass that casey ended up being able to do all his -#- racing in a way he was entirely comfortable with for his second title in 2011. like it's just a complete waste of a year#you have this whole thing building for four years and then 2010 comes along and it's like. well that's enough narrative intrigue now! <3#also casey/jorge are fundamentally too interesting as individuals to have had such an obscenely boring on-track rivalry and yet here we are#it KILLS me because if you rearranged it and made valentino's dogshit ducati years like. 2009 or something#and do a straight title fight between jorge and casey THEN I genuinely think it would've been way more interesting#the problem with valentino is that he is fundamentally the WORST imaginable character you could invent to be casey's foil#literally everything about valentino could have been designed to be a casey-specific nightmare#but unfortunately that also makes him objectively the most interesting rival casey could have gotten#like morally it's on the edge. but narratively? literally could not have gotten a better villain in casey's story#constantly dancing on this faustian line of having to imitate valentino to beat him while trying not to lose yourself... juicy
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i can only picture mustache eddie with the buzzcut hair so like 4b/5a hair for buddie canon and then in 9a eddie has a brand new hotter haircut that somehow pairs perfectly with a mustache. also new thought but the 118 definitely associates mustache eddie with eddie going through some sort of mid-life crisis in 8a (its his version of getting bangs) and so when he grows it back in 9a theyre all like eddie you good? and hes like yeah never been better!!! 🥰🥰 and also eddie likes the mustache and buck thinks the mustache is sooooo hot but like everyone else is extremely anti mustache. chris especially. he threatens to move back to texas every time he sees eddie hasnt shaven it. one time chris gets eddie some "mustache moisturizer" under the pretense that its a peace offering and hes going to stop bothering eddie about it only for eddie to sus out that its nair right before he uses it.
EDDIES MUSTACHE BEING LIKE GETTING BANGS YESSSSS!!!!!!! you are understanding me SOOOOOO much rn i'm so obsessed. everyone making fun of eddie for the mustache but buck is buying him like fancy beard oil ... everyone's trying to convert buck to being anti-stache but no buck will not be moved he's so into it. he's like no i like it when we kiss. i like that it's there. i love my man and his mustache (<- me projecting onto buck). anyway. thank you for joining me on this journey
#asks#I JUST THINK AT LEAST ONE FIREFIGHTER SHOULD HAVE A MUSTACHE AND IT SHOULD BE EDDIE#also everyone asking me what i was bitter about: thank u for the permission#i was thinking about how we all laugh about those headcanons that are clearly just buddie stuff but warped. but actually what gets to me#is trying to give BOBBY and that man a special relationship. when it's like. sorry you're setting yourself up for failure on that one#bobby already has a narrative parallel he is already seeing himself so deeply in eddie it's to their detriment sorry. no room left#in the bobby-eddie-athena-buck complex
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it needs to become acceptable to end emails w ‘please kill yourself. thank you, [name]’
#stream#ALSKALSKALSKALKSLAKSLA#the way i’m going to kill my utilities provider#QUIT CHARGING ME FOR THE FUCKING BUILDING IM IN 1 FLAT !!!!!!!!!!#I DONT EVEN HAVE GAS IN HERE !!!!!!!!!!!!!#ITS 26 SQUARE METERS !!!!!!!! 270 SQUARE FEET !!!!!!!!!!! TOTAL !!!!!!!!!!!! IM NOT SPENDING 268£ IN ELECTIRICTY AND GAS A MONTH !!!!!!!!!!#I DONT EVEN HAVE FUCKING GAS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#EVRRYTHING IS ELECTRIC WHY ARE U BILLING ME FOR THIS SHIT !!!!!!!!!!! KILL YOURSELF !!!!!!!!!!!!#‘we can’t see what we charge u exactly but be advised that there are cancelation fees’ like ok ? girl i literally just pulled the cash from#the bank account associated like ALSKALSKALSKALKSLAKSLAKSLA#KEEP SENDING THOSE BILLS THEY AINT BEIN PAYED BY ME#IVE PAYED YALL LIKE 13 MONTHS WORTH ALREADY YALL CAN KILL YOURSELVES#FUCKING 550 QUID IN 2 MONTHS TF I SHOULD ACTUALLY BE PAYING LIKE 60£ TOTAL MAX A MONTH BRO ???????????#like do they rly think i’m just going to continue paying that#‘u SiGnEd ThE cOnTrAcT’ & U QUOTED ME THE WRONG FUCKING NUMBER U CHARGING ME FOR A HOUSE IM IN A FLAT SO CONTRACT VOID DUMBASS#THE FIRST EMAIL U SENT SAID I WAS PAYIN GAS & WATER & I CORRECTED U & U AGREED THEN SAY ‘u can’t cancel’ like#making me laugh but ur doin my head in#like the way the electricity is set up here w this scumbag landlord they could just cut electricity to this flat & id still have working#electricity ALSKALSKAKKSKKSLAKALAKSLAKA#like ……..#i’m willing to pay bc i’m trying to live like a legal resident#but i’m just#not#like i even said ‘if u can’t cut electricity from my bill from now on without voiding the contract then void the contract & take the#cancellation fee from the extortionate amount i’ve alrdy payed#they haven’t responded so they’ll respond tomorrow#iF THEY KNOW WHATS GOOD FOR EM LMFAO#i can’t wait for the email to come saying ‘we tried to bill u but it didn’t go through :(‘ like#it’s bc i’m not paying u i even said ‘not one pence more will be sent to yall until this is sorted’ like ALSKALSKALKSLAKSLAKSLAKSLA TRY IT
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evil beckers thought….. just how many autopsies Did they send chen ?
#gideon shut the hell up challenge#was he subjected to the knowledge - the Sight - of all three of them? if only one or two does he worry abt the others?#does he find himself surprised that their injuries aren't the same? that for once they've been forcibly split up? it makes sense of course#(operating on all three at the same time is just unrealistic. there's no reason to have more than one per operating table)#but there's also just something so distinctly Wrong abt seeing them split up - esp knowing it was against their will like this ???#which catches him more off-guard when they show back up: that they're alive or that only one is? does he file it away that maybe the other#two managed to survive as well? or does he write them off as being lost? decide that the survivor wouldn't be alone otherwise?#honestly on solo/double survivor routes I bet he fucking knows which parts got harvested off the fallen sibling#which has to be . awful to keep to yourself. yes he has replacement parts but his are metal !!! not taken from his dead siblings !!!#...... on a lighter note do u think once they do the reveal the ortegas want to compare the tats. bc I would. I'm just saying#I JUST THINK. if ur get a regene reveal of a set of siblings. u could immediately be like 'haha yeah but like... how similar are ur tats'#keeping up with the beckers
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little peek at somethjing i am cooking up ...
#this is rlly rough but rn im just blocking everything out#i have like 6.5 pages sketched so far this is already going faster than last time i think..^_^#im having a blast also#im tryna rewire my brain . every time i think Blehhh i hate drawing i just want to see it done i gotta stop n correct myself#like Hey wait you actually love drawing why are you telling yourself this The process is frustrating sometimes but that comes with art#i had to redraw this one page like 4 separate times and i still didn't feel like giving up#like yeah i was feeling pressed but at the same time i was being patient with myself#like this is part of improving Stop laying on the floor and wondering why you're even doin this you've always loved it#only drawing when u know it's gonna turn out good defeats the whole purpose of learning#also i added cal last minute to this comic and im gladi did he's so creeepy#im very excited to get this done Not impatient like i was before#im impatient for people to see it yeah lol but not w myself#and im not gonna be all like “yeah we'll see how long this lasts lol” bc i think that's already setting myself up for burning out#i have hope that i can keep enjoying art like this I just need to change the way i think#and accept the messy n ugly. the perfect is the enemy of the good#aaron blaise really inspires me. he sincerely loves what he does and i want to be like that#this is also gonna be more comic-like Panelwise i think#scott pilgrim n my bro inspired me#also the way cal's face cuts off on the right makes sense in context he's peekin from behind a chair
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#idk what to say anymore theyre just rotting my brain#i think the nice thing abt hny is how it sets up things that will obviously change over time#to show progression. i am eating it up#the obv one being the wont u give me ur heart? ->ill give it to you -> i dont want it#but thats also not the whole context of it yk#because sakoto says smth like i dont care if you kill yourself before that#so from that to i dont want you to die#firefly wedding#hotaru no yomeiri
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#why r there so many capitalists/socdems who think theyre socialists on this site yalls r supposed to be the based ones#where r my ML bitches PLEAAASEEE 🙏🙏😭😭😭😭😭#also re: the first point ppl who think 'communists r evil bcuz my high school told me lenin killed 100 kajillion ppl'#PLS have critical thinking im not saying u cant have gripes cuz there r DEF gripes to be had#but to blindly believe the western narrative without seeing any other perspectives is just setting yourself up
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we’ll get right back to your regularly scheduled posting!! but first, a message from our late night existential spirals and paid programming
#anyways . sometimes it feels like youve done everything wrong#and set yourself up for failure on every front . so this is all thats left#and you couldnt even start over if u wanted to . theres never any going back#even when you know what you should have done#and you might have been able to have it all#. id definitely miss what ive been able to put together over the last couple years#but i dont know if ill ever stop wondering what could have been#what if i had gone with them?? what if i had known how to communicate?? what if i didnt have that breakdown?? what if i never caught covid?#theres so many me’s who could have been . and ones who have been and arent with us anymore#and i dont . feel like im the one who should have gotten this far
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ur grading people and if they get an f theyre blocked? my main you aint a kindergarten teacher this is a microblogging platform
yeah, that's why there's that function called blocking! :) cuz this is a microblogging site! that's what microblogging platforms have! :) so you don't have to put up with people's shit! :) interesting that kindergarten teachers where you live are capable of blocking people in real life, hope you had fun with that
#spot says stuff#this is the INTERNET You are the one who curates your own fucking experience and if i dont like someones vibes or what theyre saying to me-#-they are going to get blocked! ''grading'' people??? its called judging people and having set boundaries and self respect#im not here to conform to strangers tastes n the need to Watch Me i dont care about that more than i care about myself#i am not a ''content creator'' i am not someone with some power like a ''kindergarten teacher'' i am a stranger to All of you and-#-just another tumblr user and i dont owe you fucking anything just like nobody Here owes me anything besides base respect#n base respect includes watching what you say to people. i dont have to put up with strangers faults. im holding everyone here accountable-#-for their actions and words because i believe that you are capable of being a good considerate human person n acting sensibly#what would happen if i blocked a person on Tumblr Dot Com. the goddamn apocalypse? please. blocking isnt controlling people around you-#-its Boundaries. you can get over some random bitch blocking you on the internet. its not my responsibility if someone decides that their-#-entire emotional wellbeing depends on a *Stranger*#i have P@NSEAR blocked cuz i just Dont like their content. if someone ''gets an F'' from me for behaviour then MAYBE theres a REASON?#''ur grading people'' goddammit man who Isnt judging the people around them and the interaction they have with them#HOW many times ive said ''feel free to block me!'' in a positive way cuz of smth as small as a too gorey design. what do u think-#-blocking is ysee??? ''you are acting entitled'' because i AM! i AM entitled to having a good comfortable experience on the INTERNET#just like ANY OF YOU. please anon! you dont like my way of treating myself on the Internet do just that! block me! i wont throw a fuss??#if Anyone here doesnt like the smallest aspect of me judge me. i invite you to. judge me and if that aspect is too loud for you Block me#to get along with this anons absolutely correct n in place anecdote: Grade Me. give me an F. boot me from the school whatever That means#keep yourself safe and make your experience on the internet comfortable#i cant tell if youre one of those dumb anon askers who r just lookin for attention or fight Or a reasonable person but heres my look at it#entertain it before you disregard it. got me pissed off from the moment i wake up u dont even know bout my whole blockin system dear god
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cannot stop thinking about yungi youth mv
#like what if i throw up#it's about the trauma and the tiredness and picking yourself back up and moving on it's about friendship and home#they lost sight of each other when they were so focused on themselves and their own shit#the shot of mingi in front of the mirrors where the center one is himself and the rest are yunho with his back towards him like !!!!!!!!!!!!#their old coping mechanisms not working#mingi used to use music to shut out the world so he could be alone but now it brings him back to yunho but yunho isn't THEREEEEE#yunho picked up his lore!brother's guitar bc it had been his dream before he died and he was grieving him but here he's smashing it on the-#-wrecked car the thing that took his brother away from him#and u can SEE yunho dancing in the burning house even in the 2 different sets u see flames through the windows#and mingi is watching the cabin burn alone until yunho walks into frame and we can breathe bc he's no longer trapping himself in that house#AND THE LOOK ON HIS FACE WHEN HE TURNS TO MINGIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII#IT'S LIKE. WE'RE BOTH HERE. WE MADE IT AND WE'RE STILL TOGETHER.#gonna puke. idk if anything i've said makes sense it's after midnight and my head is a jumble they just got me feeling a lot#it's about the loneliness it's about the grief it's about watching ur past in third person it's about returning to yourself in the present#mingi i love u forever and ever. his lyrics have always hit the hardest like he Gets me#god this is just such a fever era song so ofc i'm obsessed like the lyrics in that series just fuckin HIT#they talk abt how hard and lonely and scary and confusing and tiring it is growing up and i start thrashing and clawing at the walls#how wonderful to not only be alive at the same time as atz but to be the same age & have similar experiences so their music feels like a hug#like. i'm not alone huh#ANYWAY. did not come here with the intention of saying anything in the tags i was just gonna post that picture but alas#kara can talk
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This is awesome just remembered I get to write the frottage scene soon assuming I actually write more than 4 words this week.
#.txt#long tags sorryyyyy#fellas do you ever offer everything you can to a man in a silent beg for forgiveness and let yourself accept that seemingly the only part o#you he's willing to touch now that he knows what you are is your dick but whatever you'll take what you can get. and it's selfish too but#it's also all you can offer short of turning your life upside down for him which you refuse to do.#fellas.......... do you ever fight against yourself for weeks because you want and need to forgive someone but can't figure out how.#you ever get torn between someone you care about and nearly have forgiven but you keep getting caught on the fact it's such an unforgivable#slight in the first place. so you take all that he offers but you can't bring yourself to forgive him until he's in front of you with his#hair sticking to his forehead and his hand shaking where it's gripping your bicep.#and seeing him be so open and vulnerable when he really shouldn't with you and really never should have AT ALL with you. makes it finally#click & makes it possible to wrap your head around ''I love him. he cares about me. he did one of the worst things possible. I forgive him.#OR WHATEVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! don't quote me on ANY OF THIS I'm always fucking around with motivations and wants and#needs and desires to make shit work how I think is best for all I know this is all useless#I hate posting my writing ever even when it's just set-up stuff like <- all that. BUUUUUT also I need a copy of all that for tomorrow to#remember . what I'm thinking abt basically. SOOOOOOOO YOU GUYS GET TO SEE THIS :3 hope u like what goes thru my head constantly while I'm#stocking shelves. sorry for long vague tags and endless talking yet again just need it written down#*that he'll touch is your dick. I have no idea how that typo happened what happened there
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