#AND IM HERS AND SHES MINE AND NO ONE CAN EVER SEPARATE US EVER EVER EVER

[yamikawas]

Awwww, look at you having all those pictures of me!! So cuute!!! Not even half of what I have of you though, you look so pretty in your sleep!

YOOMTAH MY BELOVED IS THAT YOU<3<3<3<3<<33<3<3<<33<3<<3<3<3<33<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<<3<3<3<3WELL LUCKY FOR YOU IM GOING TO SLEEP SOON SO FEEL FREE TO TAKE ALL THE PICTURES YOU WANT TEEHEE<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<33<<3<3<33<<3<33<<3<3<3<33<<33<<33<3

[reidsglasscs]

HOME TO HER

✸ pairing: percy jackson x daughter of hera! reader smau

✸ notes: requested by @aryxchse!! i tried out tweets with this one bc i think they’re SO fun so lmk what you think 😚

…now playing: you & i — one direction

itsyn: dear camp jupiter, you can’t keep him, he’s mine 🤍🫶

tagged: itspercy

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itspercy: they couldn’t keep me away from you even if they wanted to

╰┈➤ itsyn: they better not try again bc i have a bow and arrows and ik how to use em

╰┈➤ itspercy: use them next time your mom tries to square up w me

╰┈➤ itsyn: 🤺🤺🤺

wise.girl: HEY I (unfortunately) TOOK THAT SECOND PIC, WHERE’S MY PHOTO CRED???

╰┈➤ itsyn: pic creds to my amazing sweet gorgeous angel spectacular best friend annie 🫶

╰┈➤ wise.girl: thank you 😌

pipermcqueen: third pic is the best photo i’ve ever seen of percy

╰┈➤ wise.girl: because his face is covered?

╰┈➤ pipermcqueen: YES MAAAAAM

sunshinesolace: yall they got matching users, ain’t NOBODY separating them

╰┈➤ itsyn: damn straight 😤

╰┈➤ sunshinesolace: damn HUH?? WHO?? WHERE?? LOUD INCORRECT BUZZER

╰┈➤ itsyn: AJSHSK THATS NOT WHAT I MEANT AND YOU KNOW IT

itspercy: i look fly as hell in that first pic 😮‍💨

╰┈➤ pipermcqueen: someone humble this man rn

╰┈➤itspercy: PIPER LET ME LIVE

praetor.reyna: girl TAKE HIM PLEASE

╰┈➤ itsyn: don’t worry rey, i’ll keep him on a leash or smth and away from you <3

╰┈➤ itspercy: HELLO??

╰┈➤ itsyn: the leash can be blue, now shush

╰┈➤ itspercy: 🫡

…now playing: work song — hozier

itspercy: sorry future mama-in-law, but you could never make me forget her

tagged: itsyn

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jaygrace: hera throwing a temper tantrum over that caption rn i just know it (i don’t mean it, queen, pls don’t hurt me 😇)

╰┈➤ itspercy: hoes mad 🤷‍♂️ (hoes is obviously jason…just in case anyone was wondering)

╰┈➤ itsyn: shut up rn, both of you

itsyn: im not crying, you’re crying

╰┈➤ itspercy: NO BABY DONT CRY

╰┈➤ itsyn: IT’S TOO LATE TO SAY THAT 😭😭

wise.girl: WHO TOLD THIS MAN ABOUT HOZIER???

╰┈➤ itsyn: um, guilty?

╰┈➤ itspercy: hozier is me in disguise bc that song WAS written about my sweet girl yn

gman_: why do you always have THE MOST INTENSE EYE CONTACT W THE CAMERA LIKE???

╰┈➤ itspercy: fabulous genetics, courtesy of the queen (MY mom)

itsyn: i love you water boy ☹️

╰┈➤ itspercy: i love you more angel

╰┈➤ itsyn: IMPOSSIBLE

╰┈➤ itspercy: POSSIBLE

╰┈➤ itsyn: WE’RE NOT DOING THIS AGAIN

jaygrace: IMAGINE getting all your memories back

╰┈➤ pipermcqueen: JASON STOP TRAUMA DUMPING IN THE COMMENT SECTION 🗣️🗣️

╰┈➤ itspercy: it’s okay bro, all you’ve gotta remember is me

frank.zz: if juno comes for your ass over that caption, i am NOT helping this time

╰┈➤ itsyn: haven’t you been observing, frank? if she tries again imma get her, obviously 🙄🤺

╰┈➤ itspercy: problem SOLVED

praetor.reyna: imma get you a shirt that says “if lost return to yn” so we don’t have this problem again

╰┈➤ itspercy: and i will wear it religiously, give

itsyn: NO GRAVE COULD HOLD MY BODY DOWN

╰┈➤ itspercy: I’LL CRAWL HOME TO HER (you)

╰┈➤ itsyn: 🤭🤍

[officialunar]

A Thief's Heart: Returning Stolen Hearts

Synopsis:

In the land of Teyvat, where adventure and friendship thrive, you find yourself entangled with the Traveler and the various heroes of Genshin Impact. You have a unique hobby - you enjoy "borrowing" items from the characters in the game, but your intention is always to return them, often with heartfelt notes attached.

Gn reader x some of the genshin men and women (separated)

(I lost count on how many people I am doing)

You mostly embark on a journey with them,on the way there, you would secretly take something from them, for example;their items.

Diluc would be confused at first before knowing that you have taken one of his belongings. As you continues to "borrow" items from Diluc, he can't help but chuckle at your audacity. He honestly think that it’s adorable but won’t say it out loud.

Kaeya might playfully tease you when he discovers your secret.

"Ah, so it seems we have a little mysterious thief among us. I must admit, your antics are quite entertaining."

When Childe finds out, he bursts into laughter, finding your actions both amusing and endearing.

"Haha, you've certainly caught my attention in the most unconventional way. I can't help but admire your spirit."

Venti, the bard, would probably respond with a whimsical comment like,

"Ah, stealing hearts as well as items, aren't you? Your mischievous charm is truly captivating."

Albedo might approach the situation with scientific curiosity.

"I find your actions quite intriguing. It's as if you're conducting a unique social experiment."

When Xiao first realizes that you have been taking and returning items from him, he might furrow his brows in confusion. After awhile you might see him crack a rare, small smile. (Please tease him)

Upon discovering your secret activities, Zhongli would approach the situation with a keen sense of curiosity. He might leave you a rare and exquisite Geo related artifacts out of admiration (he finds your joy of “borrowing” his things adorable)

Ayato, upon learning of your actions, takes it upon himself to investigate discreetly. He finds your behaviour cute and wonders about your motives .

When Alhaitham confronts you, his demeanor is measured, but he adds a soft touch of affection, saying,

"I must admit, I find your actions intriguing, and they've piqued my curiosity. Could you enlighten me about your motivations?"

Bennett would react with enthusiasm.He thinks that you're like a lucky charm and always returning what you take. Your positivity is contagious, and he can't help but admire your optimism.

Razor, while initially be confused, could express admiration with sincerity, saying,

"You not take. You return. Good friend. Razor likes."

Eula, though would be initially confused,but she will hide it by saying “Vengeance will be mine” (yeah im sure we all know what she is going to say)

Yanfei, a skilled legal advisor, may initially see your actions as legally ambiguous. However, she's impressed by your commitment to balance and might offer legal advice to help to your continuous actions within Liyue's laws.

Ganyu, being a diligent worker, becomes curious when she notices your activities in Liyue. She quietly investigates, wondering about your motives.She finds it cute and adorable often smiling when she see you sneakily sneaking off with her stuff.

Yae Miko, always on the lookout for interesting stories, takes notice of your actions and becomes intrigued.She would probably tease you abit or so

Im not really good at writing as it is my first few times writing a fanfic but I hope you enjoyed reading this!You can take this idea and write it if you want,I do not mind,but if you ever do write,I wanna read it 🥳🥳. I was reading a fanfic by @thatdeadaquarius and just got the idea to write it,it’s not the best lol. It’s not that I like Childe,it’s just that he is easier to write.

[aropride]

copy pasting this from my family groupchat where i detailed the incident because its 11pm and im tired but i wanted to share this anecdote so badly

y’all will never believe what just happened to me

So i am in my room, which is a single room, two windows, both are open but have screens in them. it connects to a bathroom which connects to my suitemate’s room. i am abt to go to bed and im like “actually. first im going to use the bathroom.” so i turn on my string lights but not any normal lights so it’s pretty dark in my room. i am in the bathroom for less than two minutes and when i get back i see something move. and it looks like an animal. so i open my phone camera and take a picture with flash on and the flash lets me see that this is in fact. A cat.

so i leave my room because there is an animal in it and i dont know where it came from. and i text my friend el who lives in the dorms “hey theres a cat in my room and it is not mine what do i do in this situation” and she does not answer presumably because she is sleeping. the person ACROSS from my room has a service cat named quinoa, i know this because i met her when the fire alarm went off in the middle of the night once (microwave bacon incident). and i’m like, this person might need their service cat, before i go down to the front desk and ask what to do about the cat that has spawned in my room i should ask that person. so i knock on their door THREE SEPARATE TIMES and they do not answer.

so i text a groupchat with a bunch of my friends and i say “hey guys theres a cat in my room and idk how it got there”. they say helpful things such as “is it you,” “finders keepers,” “befriend it,” and “i can drive over with cat food” (<- this one from sophie who lives the furthest away). i say “No actually theres an actual cat in my room idk how it got there” and attach an image of said cat (which looks very menacing because the flash was on and its eyes are glowing).

i go back in my room and turn on the light to make 100% sure this creature in my room is a cat and not a wild animal that looks like a cat and also that it did not pee in my room (it did not). there is still a cat in my room. it is on my sock drawer, and it is rubbing its little head on my dresser door, and i am aware this is not my room anymore, it is his room, i am only borrowing it.

so then i text my suitemate, who i havent messaged since june when we had to call facilities, and i do not know if she has a cat. and i say. “hey this is insane but did you lose. a cat??? Bc there is a cat in my room and idk how he got there???” and she’s like “YES THATS MY CAT IDK HOW HE GOT THERE”. she was doing laundry but she ran back up to get her cat and lured him out from under my desk with a can of tuna. she scoops him up and he looks very small and perturbed and he goes home and lives happily ever after and i miss him

(i would share pictures of him but since he is not my cat i would feel weird abt it But i will draw a stick figure rendition of the event tomorrow if i remember to)

[yuzoodles]

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composer/lyrics/movie/voice: 奏音69

illustration: rahwia

　 『ネクロの花嫁』

— necro no hanayome fanmade plot —

the necrophiliacs bride

today is supposed to be something usual. just going to work, dealing with patients and trying to cure every problem they might have.

lately, the patients i’ve been seeing proved nothing more than simple people. though, what caught my eye was a simple, pure girl, with white and fair skin.

“i’ll give you this body, please, take care of me.”

“i will have you, if you let me.” after all, its so sad to see her suffer from such a… tremendous disease.

i try my best to see her so often. her beauty is.. unimaginable. she’s so delicate… im so deeply saddened about her.

all went good and all is well… until it isnt. the poor woman had succumbed to her death.

that girl.. forsaken by everybody around her.. that poor and fragile girl. i made it my mission to ensure that she lays in a place where only quiet and beauty lays. the mausoleum. yes, its perfect for such beauty like her.

placing her there, i profess my love in ways it can never be reciprocated. i hope she can rest and i will make sure she will never be forsaken again.

time passes and passes, yet my love for her is undying. i shouldnt do this, yet i know that.. she would want this, right?

as it strikes midnight, with careful grace, i take my shovel and visit the mausoleum. there she is… there is my one and only love.

i will resurrect you… my dearest.

yet.. is this really the love that i’ve wanted? or is it just pure sin?

i only want to see her with me again. thats really too much to ask for?

putting glass in her decaying eye sockets,

mending silk around her fragile, torn limbs,

stuffing gauze to give her form,

dressing her up with the white dress that i have sewn,

shes back again, and will be only mine. staining my hands red, i handle her with care and precision. nothing can ever separate us again, my love.

one night, the two of them are dancing together on their love song. who could’ve known what was about to come? dancing gracefully, the two of them share something so profound yet so… futile and one sided.

soon, the atrocity is discovered. but the doctor isn’t going to let those same people that forsaken her take away their eternal love! he would never. he cries out,

“this is our eternal love! something that she wanted!”

yet, those people fail to see the affection this man has and see him as a complete monster. he only wanted to love her… what was so bad in this?

the woman is laying cold in his arms. perhaps, it was always like this, but it’s like she lost another part of her soul again.

the doctor cries once more, saying that he only wanted to be with her again… that he loved her with his heart!!

but nobody buys it. no one cares about what the man has to say. who in this case is right? who did the wrong thing?

wanting to be part of something impossible… even part of an utopia is never something that cant exists. yet, the feelings are something so big, that it doesnt even matter anymore.

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[webslingingslasher]

https://www.tumblr.com/webslingingslasher/767449362255249408/httpswwwtumblrcomwebslingingslasher767399308

omg no youre good!! ill be graduating at 17 :) but by september (when the school year starts again) ill be in uni and 18!! (cause in Ontario rather than us having a cutoff date like some places, ours is just like all 06’s are in this grade (all graduated now), all 07’s in the one below one (like me), etc etc!)

no i def get the stress!! like im not a good gift giver and it would be too soon and WAYYY too much stress.. maybe next year 😭

https://www.tumblr.com/webslingingslasher/767449499061846016/my-shift-got-cut-by-an-hour-again-it-just-sucks

I wish I coulddddd but I found out that the old lady manager (who has issues w me) IS NOW THE MAIN MANAGER girlie got promoted cause the other manager left 😭 so basically the one I like told me to try to argue how much I love the job and tbh SHE HAD ISSUES W ME AFTER IF BEEN WORKING THERE TWO WEEKS IF THAT 😭 so if I was messing up it was normal???

so it’s less snitching more communicating 🤢

my therapist is gonna loveeee hearing me yap about this (she’s also a middle aged lady but one I like 😭)

im so glad you like the drama bc you’re the main person I talk to as of rn (currently distancing myself from my trumpie friend, and unfortunately in turn im also kinda separating myself from her bsf who’s also mine)

I wish I could go back to when my life was boring (not that this is interesting but it’s too much for me 😭 like I don’t have time for this)

omg also before I left work tdy one of my coworkers was telling me about the new cafe that opened in our mall and im so excited to try it

ALSO I went to New York fries (literally my fav ever) and I got a poutine (fries cheese n gravy) AND THE GUY WAS SO SWEET he asked if I worked at the mall and when I said yes he gave me a discounttt I love people (except for that one manager 😒)

-🦋

WAIT NO THE MANAGER PROMO IS ACTUALLY THE WORK OF A DEVILLLLLLLL

i wanna try poutine soooo bad. also, i love a good yap and drama dump so i can be ur interet therapist or something

[astraystayyh]

Eek more questions hehe I really like this new set

Really curious for #1, #7, #8, #10, #13, #21, #24, #28, #34, and #35!!

These were really good questions hehe

-💫

What inspired you to start writing fanfiction?

it was i think my 3rd month of being a stay? and I really loved reading ff on here even tho I had no idea how this app worked LMAO I've already told her but @rachalixie's hurt/comfort drabbles were my fav thing to read, she was one the first ppl I followed on here, and so, tmi, I was feeling so anxious and I wrote a channie helping u through an anxiety attack drabble (that I never posted AJSNJSB) and I was like hold on! this is fun! i can write what I want??? and post it for people to read...... like I was already writing some poems for a couple of years now but they were just for me yk, so i got super ambitious and i posted a long ass OT8 saying ily for the first time as my first fic akssjnjb i was so nervous like actually shaking and refreshing the notif bar every two seconds, i still rem the very first two comments i got, i think that's when it hit me that people actually READ stuff I wrote.

short answer, i've always loved writing and then stayblr -mainly anny inspired me to start writing too hehe

10. What's your favorite part about the fic writing process?

wahhhh probably coming up with lines i'm proud of?? i also loveee weaving parallels into my fics and for everything to come full circle, I love the symbolic aspects of fic writing in a way, thinking of mundane things and giving them an important significance for the characters!!! someone commented underneath Orange that they cannot believe they're crying over oranges and that rlly made me giggle!! that's the point HEHEH

13. What's the most challenging aspect of writing fanfiction for you?

for me it's descriptions ;;;; especially when it comes to sceneries or clothes or omg PLACES like decor and all,, I can't envision these things in my mind so I always worry I'm not describing them well in my fics,,, also the little transition scenes where nothing MAJOR happens but that are still pivotal to the right flow of the story ;;; yeah these mess with my head the most

21. Have you ever used fanfiction as a way to explore your own emotions or personal experiences?

hiii heyyy ofc i did ZJKNJD i think a lot of authors will relate but art cannot be completely separate from the artist, every work u read of mine has a little (or big) piece of me in it, that's why it's so vulnerable for writers to share their works on this scary place because u are perceived and judged for them and u hope that someone will find solace in ur struggles or relate to ur worries,,, and this is really helping me mend back my rp with love!!!

24. What advice would you give to someone who wants to start writing fanfiction?

JUST DO IT!!!! seriously go for it, you'll 100% cringe at ur earlier works later on but u will also improve and learn and discover things about urself that u would've never known otherwise!!! be self-indulgent and write things for urself and there will be always someone who will appreciate them

34. Are there any fic writing tips or tricks you've learned along the way that you'd like to share?

im trying to think of smtg i never mentioned before mmmm.... oh I think that trying to include bits and quirks of the member u are writing about is always so fun and makes the story more enjoyable for the reader!! ofc we don't know what these idols are like irl BUT there are some aspects of their personalities that we know of (like their interests or small habits) and it's always fun to incorporate into ur story, also helps with the characterization hehe

35. What do you enjoy most about being a fic writer?

THE FEEDBACK!!!!!!!!! nothing beats the feedback for me it's literally what makes the entire thinking, writing and editing process worth it!! the feedback is what keeps me going and fuels my motivation, it is so so important for writers I can't stress this enough,,, I'm so so grateful and lucky to have such sweet readers who leave me the most THOUGHTFUL feedback, like with just one rb u could erase SEAS OF DOUBTS in the writer's mind. i always say this but the only way for me to know if my fic is good is by reading u guys' opinions,,, so yeah the feedback is my fuel ;;;;

7. How do you handle writer's block or moments of creative stagnation? 8. Do you have any rituals or habits that help you get into the zone? 28. What's the most ambitious or challenging fic you've ever written

i answered these here and here <33

[roydeezed]

One Piece-Chapter Round-Up(Chapter 1084)

Hai Hai! I’ve been a little MIA recently as I’d been a little busy finishing up a personal project of mine, but now I’m back in full force to do a whole lot of analysin’. But before we get to that I want to talk about how cool Luffy looks on the cover of Jump! That’s our Captain! Alright, see ya below the cut mateys!

Oda cuts to the chase right away and has Bonney and Sabo meet. I’d been wondering what their roles were going to be as the Revo’s were the main force behind freeing Kuma. And Sabo’s already got the keys. This shows how Oda’s going to bridge the gap narratively between the two stories of Egghead and the Reverie. It’s the perfect way to leave us on a cliffhanger and transition to the Strawhats at the same time.

If the theories of the “Shock” sent around the world from Egghead about it being a dissemination of information are true, Bonney could provide the context to Luffy and get him on her side through mentioning Sabo. Since they separated, they could get two different parts of the same puzzle that only we’ll be able to see. Though I do wonder what Sabo does after this since he’s accomplished his main mission. At the very least we know he goes to the throne room. 

Oda also casually drops another mystery through the mention of the Phantom Room. Some guards were disappeared because they saw it. We know it’s not the throne room, that has it’s own name and is also referred to as the Empty Throne. And this room is called the Room of Flowers.

So it could be one of these frozen rooms Imu was in while they played around with the posters of Vivi during the Reveries. But Imu seems to take a while to get down them, so how would a normal guard even get that far. 

I also want to take this moment to bring up some motifs around Imu. There’s a theory floating around that Im is a stuck in time queen of Alabasta. I like this theory because of the following ideas that seem to surround Im. One is the idea of things being frozen. They go into this vault that’s all cased over with Ice. And in the chapter they’re introduced in, there’s a heavy emphasis on the ever-lasting beauty of princesses through Vivi and Shirahoshi. With the way Oda connects ideas together, this lends a lot of credence to the Princess Lili theory. Not only that. But think about how the cyclical storytelling of One Piece has always surrounded the saving of Princesses. Nami was a blueprint (we can get to my crackpot theory on that one day) that was perfected through Vivi and Shirahoshi and Rebecca. 

And this perfectly leads into the discussion Cobra has with the Gorosei. First of all, let’s talk about how badass Cobra is, because he knows that death is on the line. People have been killed for saying much less and to the Gorosei no less. But focus on the contents of what Cobra is saying. Because if the Lili = Imu = Main Bad Guy theory is true, then Oda revealed the bad guy all the way back in Alabasta! If Lili didn’t join the Celestial Dragons then we all assumed she came back. Or back then we assumed the monarch of Alabasta just didn’t go up to Marejois. But we didn’t consider the possibility that instead of not joining them, the monarch actually ruled them!

The Straw Hat Grand Fleet Represent! And Mjosgard. Who’s development I love. He’s also of the Donquixote family so I wonder if there’s some inherent pattern with them not being able to keep their Celestial Dragon status. Also Charloss gets another deserved beating, first from Luffy and now from his subordinates. It’s so cathartic. Though unfortunately, as it was earlier referred to as an “Attempted Murder” we know he’s not dead. Ya almost had him Leo! Also I just briefly want to touch on how badass Morley is. Karasu is my favourite but Morley is probably the strongest out of the four commanders. Not only did she break out of Impel Down, possibly even before Shiki, but she lead the infiltration into the territories of the God’s and held her own against an admiral.

Okay so one more thing that I’m sure has been talked about but I haven’t seen talked about is the fact that Imu’s name backwards is Umi, which means Sea in Japanese (Thank You Yu-Gi-Oh!). With the mentions of the secret treasure of Marejois and Imu’s name being related to such a big force in the One Piece world, she has to command some all powerful power, maybe even a sea fruit or something like that. Or hold some relation to why Devil Fruit User’s can’t  swim. 

Arriving at the last page and basically all throughout mentions of the Void Century, I always have one panel flashing in front of my eyes. This one:

“The answers you will arrive at may be different from ours…” This statement always screamed to me that the answer of the true history will not be as clear cut as we wanted. As in the way that we see the Celestial Dragons to be villains might not be what’s actually reflected by history. While it is interesting Oda highlighted York’s greed right before this, I still think the Celestial Dragons could have had a good reason to take down the Ancient Kingdom. (If anyone’s watched TTGL, I’m thinking along the lines of the whole Spiral/Anti-Spiral thing if you know what I mean). And with the main bad guy having some relation to a sympathetic party, I feel like Oda is setting the stage for some real twists and turns. There are a few other options, such as Imu being in a love with Lili, and Lili leaving to start Amazon Lily (P.S. Imu could’ve totally done that in her down time and returned) or Imu being Lily’s child, but we still need more information. All this chapter leaves us with is more questions. And with a break week next, we’re just gonna have to wait. 

[pitgritted]

𝐆𝐄𝐓 𝐓𝐎 𝐊𝐍𝐎𝐖 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐀𝐔𝐓𝐇𝐎𝐑.

𝐧𝐚𝐦𝐞.  jojo . you can call me any variation of it really .

𝐩𝐫𝐨𝐧𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐬.   she/her .

𝐩𝐫𝐞𝐟𝐞𝐫𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐞 𝐨𝐟 𝐜𝐨𝐦𝐦𝐮𝐧𝐢𝐜𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧. discord is the best way to reach me ! ims are manageable , but the time gap between responding to messages are a pain in the ass . sometimes i don't even get them ...

𝐧𝐚𝐦𝐞 𝐨𝐟 𝐦𝐨𝐬𝐭 𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐢𝐯𝐞 𝐦𝐮𝐬𝐞(𝐬). sett is actually my currently &. only active muse !

𝐞𝐱𝐩𝐞𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐞/𝐡𝐨𝐰 𝐥𝐨𝐧𝐠 (𝐦𝐨𝐧𝐭𝐡𝐬/𝐲𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐬?). i've been one to enjoy writing ever since i was a child . i even made my elementary school teacher literally weep tears at my short little novel i wrote about some character i made up expressing shame . so you could say ... almost all my life . I haven't started to actively write a character until middle school . i'm gonna go with 9+ years .

𝐩𝐥𝐚𝐭𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐦𝐬 𝐲𝐨𝐮’𝐯𝐞 𝐮𝐬𝐞𝐝. tumblr is currently my only platform . i used to have platforms like wattpad or quotev when i was younger .  

𝐛𝐞𝐬𝐭 𝐞𝐱𝐩𝐞𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐞.   genuinely when i meet people who are now my friends . especially since i'm not a very social person &. my social anxiety tends to lead me to assume the wrong impressions . but i make an effort to not let it reign over when i have interaction with others .

𝐫𝐩 𝐩𝐞𝐭 𝐩𝐞𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐬 / 𝐝𝐞𝐚𝐥𝐛𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐤𝐞𝐫𝐬. don't get me started . it pisses me off or makes me severely uncomfortable when i notice my media or graphics be used heavily as reference ... i spent many years of my life learning how to create psds &. graphics , because at the time , i was making below than average of an income to even ask someone to make " this " for me . it drives me insane how much time i've spent on an editing software to see it be replicated or repurposed on another account .

another one being when followers of mine ( who interact with another muse as i have ) compare writing &. tell me about it . i don't wanna hear what this person's interpretation is like versus mine . makes me uncomfortable &. insecure about how i write . don't try to glorify someone else's writing over the other on purpose .

additionally , when the mun tries to act like they are the only best iteration of the character . although it hasn't happened to me , i've seen it from a by standing party . learn to separate muse from the mun .

just have the respect &. etiquette when engaging with me &. many others really .

𝐟𝐥𝐮𝐟𝐟, 𝐚𝐧𝐠𝐬𝐭, 𝐨𝐫 𝐬𝐦𝐮𝐭. i don't have a preference . really . all of them are good writing material . although suggestive writing would be a rare thread if it's not someone i feel comfortable writing with . fluff &. angst are free all around .

𝐩𝐥𝐨𝐭𝐬 𝐨𝐫 𝐦𝐞𝐦𝐞𝐬. i tend to do both . as i am someone who genuinely sucks at plotting first , i try to gain ideas from the person who desires to engage with my muse . &. i usually develop an idea based off a rough draft of the interaction . if i can't seem to find a sustainable idea for plotting , i will usually repost memes from it's source .

𝐥𝐨𝐧𝐠 𝐨𝐫 𝐬𝐡𝐨𝐫𝐭 𝐫𝐞𝐩𝐥𝐢𝐞𝐬. both . there's no in between . more often i will have threads longer than others , but they take longer . shorter threads are usually the ones posted far more faster .

𝐛𝐞𝐬𝐭 𝐭𝐢𝐦𝐞 𝐭𝐨 𝐰𝐫𝐢𝐭𝐞.  well i go strictly by MST . so the best time for me to write is towards 10 AM my time or reaching closer to the afternoon if i'm not working on classes or doing work .

𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐦𝐮𝐬𝐞(𝐬). apart from being stubborn &. wanting to crack the heads of people who infuriate me or bully my friends , no . definitely not . sett is a literal criminal . he's much too bold &. loud meanwhile i am timid &. quiet . 

tagged by : @cwarscars .

tagging : @burntscars , @weldlune , @fourt , @uppance , @windchaser , @witchcraftandburialdirt , &. @unforgivenn .

[mickmundy]

wait can you please info dump a bit about animatronics (not fnaf)? i wanna hear what you've got 👀

HOLY SHIT WAIT REALLY...... omg now im so shy....... i mean i have so much...... theyve been an interest of mine since i was Small... i think this also stems from my love of "Unsettling Toys" in general (i collect old rushton/general rubber faced toys from the 20s-80s too)!!! also full disclosure IF i had been a kid when fn*f would have come out i would have been obsessed with it most likely. so no hate to it (but Lots of hate to the piece of shit creator LOL)!

if i wasn't so bad at math i'dve been an engineer.. its my dream to work on them (literally any, not just d*sney, though it sucks how few are left in Mainstream Settings outside of the parks!) because i love their workings and the process of how they're made and operated!! buuut at the risk of sounding like a wikipedia article i won't get into that and i'll do my best to keep it short ! under a cut anyway just because i dont want to be annoying ;-;

mm just a quick tw i will be posting pictures of old/tarnished/out of service anima's below and i don't want to scare anyone! but the tone of the thread is Very Loving so no scary content/facts here! <3

i REALLY love the pizzaria/General Eatery Establishment ones in their heydays (i would have loved to have seen the showbiz pizza palace ones ;-; they are So endearing to me...). theres loots of iterations of the showbiz ones so keeping it brief, i really like the wolf pack 5:

the tropical bear, the wolf in a suit, the sweet-looking fox are all pretty predictable likes for me, but this one specifically is extra cool to me since it was apparently loosely inspired by rocky horror! and aahhh something that i really wish i could have seen was when they had a yogi bear collaboration!! ;-; hana barbara was a massive part of my childhood so combining two interests like that would have probably made my Child Head explode LOL. but look at how cute they are! and how BIG yogi is!! AAHH!! as far as i'm aware these never saw the light of day outside of test runs at just a few small locations, but i would haev loved to see them in motion! ;-;

and of course i absolutely adore the circus world pizzaria ones, OUWAAA ;-; their faces were just too darling! even disassembled animatronics always look so gorgeous to me... look at her dainty golden necklace.. and her little fangs! so beautiful! truly works of art!!!

another genre of my favorites are actually ones that aren't "tied down", too!! the dinosaur at disney world that can walk around the parks was SUPER cool (though ive never seen it in person), but i really love the older ones since i don't think they get as much love as d*sneys and i Firmly believe they have souls and you should treat them kindly because if they dont kill you for being Cruel i will. y__y but anyway!

elsie!! she is SO precious very important to me... if youve known me for longer than five minutes you know i love cows, bulls and bovine in general (and horses... <3) so this one should come as no surprise. her voice also just prickles my skin in just the right way.. its very soothing to me! she was a portable animatronic (but honestly maybe more like a puppet!) that could be operated to interact with guests and was used to pitch borden's dairy products back in the day! here's some choice pictures of her, isnt she gorgeous!! ;-;

of course i could make a whole separate post on JUST my love for the disney animatronics just because they were the ones i readily had access too knowledge-wise. i didn't have internet at home growing up so i didn't find out about a lot of these until way later! ;;-;; or if i just so happened to find out about them through weird Word Of Mouth or "hey dutch you like creepy shit! check this out!" and it would be the most darling sensational little creatures ive ever seen in my life... <3 ANYWAY here are some of my favorite disney ones! quick disclaimer that i am Very Critical of The Rat and this is not an endorsement to the company's past (and present lol) Shitty Behavior!

small world and the tiki room are probably my favorite attractions to this day just because i love the history behind the makings of them and the animatronics themselves; the showgirl birds in the tiki room and the singing flowers... wow! and i could go on and on about the incredible textile work alice davis did on the small world dolls! did you know that its a small world was originally made in support for unicef? and the dolls need haircuts every now and then, too! hehe! each piece of clothing down to the shoes was handmade and while its quite dated by this point in time i can't help but hold a soft spot for it. i'm probably one of the few people who still love the song, too!

i'd additionally like to praise the animatronics for 20,000 leagues under the sea (SO devastated i never got to ride it!); the sea monsters and the legendary kraken!! AAHH!! so very iconic and amazing feats of engineering, especially when grappling with water at the time!! seeing these abandoned and ultimately totally stripped down and tossed in landfills (yes. landfills lol) makes me want to cry. i would have taken all of these little darlings home with me!! ;-; ridethroughs of this are of shoddy quality for multiple reasons, some of which were the fault of poor ride maintenance but it's to be expected given the nature of the ride.

some other ones i'd like to note are the america sings animatronics, who were eventually repurposed into splash mountain background characters (and YES i am glad they are finally retiring and letting princess tiana have her extremely overdue spotlight!! i am SO excited for the new patf ride!!). i think the gators are so handsome!! >//u//< but i also love the details on the hens/chickens. the feathers look so plush and perfectly capture that Cartoonish texture Over-exaggeration SO flawlessly!! look at their "fingers"! so dainty!

ANYWAY SORRY THATS MY THOUGHTS ON THAT i have a lot more that i could go into detail about and more Fun Facts (never ride a theme park ride with me. i will spend the entire time talking about animatronics and Fun Facts) but i won't bore u with them. thank you so much for even asking me this!! this is my first anon ouwaa!! ;;; <333

ALSOOOOO my favorite fnaf animatronics for your troubles. i know nothing about the actual lore nor do i particularly care about it. buuut i feel like i owe it to my inner child since i would have loved this franchise if it had been around when i was a kid (there would be no bigger Insister that They Have Souls!!!!!!! other than me lmao) these just make my brain go brrrzzzwrow!!

IF ANYONE ACTUALLY READ THIS ILYSM ACTUALLY AND I OWE U EVERYTHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[rainbowgod666]

This. This is a point that should be brought up as much as possible

Look, i get it. I was born in

F i v e

and my autism meant that i saw the world differenti as a kid. A girl wanted to play soccer? She looks kinda bulky. Lets put her in either defense or as a goalkeeper! Gay people? I mean its weird. But they're not harming anybody so whats the deal if theyre different?

And then i grew up

And my best life years were sweeped by COVID-19

I saw family memebers die or get ill, but mostly nothing bad happened

We all have our internalized trauma, im lucky 95% of it is just me looking at them and going "yeah i need to go to the psychiatrist" and the reaction is always "dude how much anxiety is there (points at me) and why?", its really healthy i swear

Started doing analysis on "adults" and the result was always the same

Constantly screaming regardless of mood. They look at your/others toys and go "so much money spent...". You try doing anything on the PC/Phone? Its harmful! But alas, they never explain why. And even when they do, they dont seem to "make a point", so to speak. You never know for WHAT theyre gonna get angry, but after all this time the protocol is the same: Assume they will get mad. They never do when they should anyway

Adults are almost "backwards" in a way. Maybe its my personal experiences but i LITERALLY almost cannot imagine for the life of me two adults talking WITHOUT screaming at eachother like dogs.

Its TIRING. Ok? Like yeah I gotta do homework and all that but after im done WHAT, exactly, should i do? Like i can do some errands to "get my ass up from that chair" (which kinda makes sense, luckily for them) but after that? "Draw a little bit" yeah sure, but heres the thing. ALL THE THINGS I WANNA DRAW ARE SET AS "WORK", im not "playing" anymore, no its classified as "work" so you finally

Shut Up.

This is why "the current generation" listens to you in any way. Because we all collectively want the adults to Shut Up And Sit Near Us While Were Playing. This isnt limited to families! Look at america in LITERALLY ANY WAY, even just- taking a fucking compass and figuring out Where Is America According To Where I Am, and what do you see?

Violence, and all scholars here at tumblr can attest to the "Violence for Violence is the Rule Of Beasts". We are DESPERATE.

The common Man is ANXIOUS when it shouldnt. Look at all those posts that say "we may be lazy pieces of shit, but to our ancestors we are all the highest of kings" and think to yourself: How, and i can't stress this enough, The Fuck did we end up like this? You may reference the "mouse utopia" experiment but other than that the material is pretty fucking sparse

We all have had those times at school with yugioh/bakugan/beyblade

Where are they now.

Huh?

...

E x a c t l y .

Not to reference H:TP, but we're sick and in pain. We literally cant do this anymore. Growing up was supposed to be either cool or Just A Thing That Happens. But now?

Its that one scene in rick and morty where theyre having a massive breakdown, and that scene describes how puberty has been going for what im guessing is Anybody Young Enough to Be Almost Out Of It. Its already annoying that youre more hormones than human at that point, but nowdays? The world is an endless tornado of crack crap and malfunctioning "head honchos" that might as well have no heads at all! Its the downward spiral that EmpLemon talks about (its kind of his thing anyway like mine is being an all-encompassing stain on all fandoms that i know of) and yet, AND YET-!

Nobody is doing ANYTHING ever. We have problems like inequality global warming and all that, and the supposed "best state" is contorting itself into the reason there is a Separation Of Church And State section in the "how to make a country" rulebook because they think that "undesirables" (either LGBTQ people or addicts that genuinely want some help) want to turn their children into undesirables

Ironic. The "think of the children" motto is exactly the one thing we shouldnt have done to those poor kids.

They will live sheltered, unhealthy lives where their every whim is fulfilled regardless of what it IS. And once they go out in the real world they will think the others are the weird ones just because they dont bow to them. Even more ironic is this entire thing boils over into the concept of the Karen. A hateful being that is entitled to everything, but alas she is just what happens when a spoiled child isnt "fixed"

Do we... deserve this?

Is humanity just THAT fucked up, or we still have a chance... no because- i have looked at america for a long time. The so called "patriots" are some of the foulest people imaginable, and yet the "debauched godless deviants" are just guys that are Plainer Than White Bread but oh they have a rainbow pin so theyre gonna go to megalovania super hyperspace radioactive hell or something

The chain is gradual and month-based

For adults is perfect child - whining teen - useless adult

"My childhood was so awesome. Kids today don't even know!"

Isn't a flex.

It's a lament.

More people should understand that.

[rachelsfandommess]

Sorry this is going to be really long! 🫢🫢I just read all your books in record time. I was stalking @rookieoneil because CHENPEZ (no because she literally has so many stories my gay little heart screams) 😹 and I stumbled across your books. So then I went down a rabbit hole of you and Missesmom on AO3 …the book is one for the road, just the three of us. Anyways so I read the two of those first then I went into your series!!! Oh. IM OBSESSED WITH YOU🙀 freaking talent.!

I’m going to be honest I was weary about the Tim/Welsey bit because Tim screams straight man but as I was reading your book i forgot he wasn’t actually gay😹

But anyways I love your book sooooo much.

I had a few questions

1. Will we see a scene where Tim tries to leave after the whole Ray situation then Angela and Welsey comfort Lucy and help them all get back together

2. Would you ever write a Chenpez book? Even a short one chapter one? ☝️

3. This isn’t really about your book but did writing help make connections online? Cause I wanna build my relationships online and I wanna try writing

4. Will Angela and Wesley’s parents find out about the foursome?

Anyways I don’t want to bother you too much 🙈 so goodnight! And have a great writing adventure!!! I’ll keeep reading whatever you write ✍️

Aww, I love asks so a long one is awesome!!

@rookieoneil is amazing and I ADORE her stories! She's the best at Chenpez! Also Missesmom and her story "You, Me, and Her", which is the start of the "Just the Three of Us" series, was the first Rookie fanfic I read and I was hooked!

I was (and still am) super nervous writing Tim/Wesley scenes because they are both very hetero in the show but honestly, I try to be as true to their onscreen personas as possible while adding in what makes them mine. If that makes sense?

Now, to answer your questions!

I had someone ask this right after 6x06 aired and at the time I wasn't sure I could write something like that. I'm still not sure I could do it just because my characters are a lot more open with each other (or at least I like to think they are). I may have to try it and see if they let me write it. So, who knows?

I might! I'm a big believer that Tim and Lucy & Angela and Wesley are soulmates so separating them is hard for me, but I might. And if not, we all know who the queen of Chenpez is!!

Writing definitely has helped me make connections here online! I've made some great connections here on Tumblr but also on Twitter! And if you want to write, do it!

I have played with that idea and honestly, I'm pretty sure Patrice knows at this point since she's got the kids anytime the foursome needs a date night! I'm not sure how Angela's mom would deal with it, though. I think if I write about any kids coming into the group (which is a whole post on it's own) then we'll see more of Patrice Evers and Emilia Lopez!

It's no bother and anytime you want to send me an ask, please do!! If you wanna see something from the foursome I will add it to my always growing list of prompts for them!

And if you want to see what I'm currently working on, you can check out my new Chenford story, "seeing the signs"!

Thank you for the ask!!

[u-know-too-much]

Can somebody explain to me what im feeling. Like I have trouble making friends, as in I tend to hold peopke at an arm's length, sure i can know people but I find it hard getting closer with them. I made new friends in my college, and my best friend (someone ik for a long time na) also made friends of her own i met them too, but my best friend also got to know my friends and are getting closer with them. Since we're two from two different blocks. It's not that im that opposed to the idea but i dont think me and her (my bsf) friends really click that well, i just dont really desire getting close with them. Mu bsf even told me in the beginning of the term when i still had heavy adjustment eissues that she didnt mind me hanging out with her friends but shed prefrr us having separate friend groups. And now that doesnt seem to be in effect. It just feels isolating, i just want my own circle of friends. I just dont know i feel uncomfortable and insecure about the fact that she already has her close knit circle and shes making friends with mine too, im js really uncomfy eith big friend groups theyre not my thjng, its a ruke of thumb never to let friend groups cross no? Like she knows so many people she doesnt find it hard to conmect with any of them, and its so disheartening to know that i know three people and all of them are also friends with my bsf. Even my friend from far away wanted to know them like...am i destined to just float around like this never anchoring enough importance to anyone, why cant i just easily be great or likable or friendly? Why cant i be natural at this? Im just so off. I dont really want to know anyone she knows, and i dont want anyone i know to know her. I appreciate it and everything but id js like them to know each other by name at least but id like to keep some boundary. Im not really askinf to know anyone she knows, she introduces them to me and expects me to do the same i appreciate thr connections but im not really one who wishes to come close to people like that. Ive never been the type. Im js someone who hopes that anyone who gravitatea and wishes to stay will stay...

Wspecially now that my bsf also likes one of my friends, like im not going to tell yoj to do anything, those are your feelings. Youre responsible for making decisions for yourself and what you think is best for you and every one around you. It wont be my lack of forwsight that's the problem, it's hers.

Am i toxic for all of this i feel like im being irrational. But its been bubbling over its all im ever thinking about. It's like my insecurities of not being likable enough or social and almost friendless just keeps on being pushed to bits. I just want my own separate space too, keep circles from clashing, compartmentalised. Is my kindset wrong? I feel like im not bejng that clear headed ab9ut this...

[sorcererslittledragon]

For me this is Harry Potter.

I would be dead without those books easily a dozen times over. And i mean that literally.

I cannot tell you how many times in my life i have been at my wits end only for a fic or a book to pull me out of the depths. The number of times tge information in a book helped keep me safe or allowed me to help someone else. Im very privelidged to have the perspective to see how my life has improved the lives of other people, my partners and kiddo would all be dead without me.

ALL Of That is owed to my ability to read. And those books are the reason i can read. I had no interest in learning to read as a little kid. First grade i couldnt read most doctor seuss books, i could barely read his beginner reader books. By the end of that summer i read at a 3rd grade level and by the end of 2nd grade at a 6th grade level. Highschool level by the end of 3rd. And i was reading my parents college books in fourth grade with high levels of recall and a SOLID ability to understand them.

All because my parents read me the first book in 1st grade and i decided i didnt want to wait on them to read the rest of the books. So i taught myself to read them.

I used to average over a thousand pages of text a day in highschool. I have probably read hundreds of millions of words in my life. And only a few thousand of those cannot be attributed to those books.

They taught me to read. And ever since, my life has BEEN reading.

Rowling is a TERF. Full stop. I'm not going to list all of the other things shes done because its 11PM, im tired, and there is too much to list, and the terf one is honestly pretty big and has absolutely killed people by her actions. Actions she has taken and funded because of those books. She likes to claim that anyone that likes her work agrees with her. Personally im fond of Death Of The Author and i live in the land of fanfiction. So, shes wrong. Entitled to her opinion, but wrong. The real problem is that buying harry potter anything tends to give her more money. Which she uses to fund a hate movement dedicated to the death and criminalization of people like me and my family. Needless to say i WILL NOT let her get any of my money.

So i buy used. I keep an eye out. I buy fanwork where i can, thrift where i cant. Because thats resistance. Because i will NEVER be able to fully separate the harm her little empire has caused from the life it has saved. Because every time a queer genderfluid enby reads those books and finds hope. Every time a trans woman buys them pointedly second hand. Every time anyone that has been harmed by the actions of that person engages with her work and doesmt give her money we refute everything she believes in and stands for. We claw a series that, YEAH its got a LOT of fucked up shit (pick ANYTHING and wait thirty years and you will find something.), MEANS THE WORLD to so many people back from her.

Because the author is dead and I say that this series saves trans lives.

Because it saved MINE.

I recently watched a video about a creator who did a bad thing and the allegations against said creator, and at the end of the video, the person making the video started listing all the media on their shelf that had been partially or totally ruined for them because the creator did a bad thing. I understand not giving a living person money. I also think it's a lot healthier to reconcile the possibility that many, most, or even all of the media you enjoy will have had at least one person working on it that did, said, or believed very bad things and be at peace with that. Dumping fandoms, stuff that you own that you've already paid for, and just stopping yourself from enjoying things you once loved every time this happens could definitely make you afraid to enjoy anything and feel the need to 'vet' creators and put undue pressure on them. If you genuinely can't enjoy a piece of media anymore, that sucks but it can't be helped. But if you still get joy from it and you're shaming yourself for it--especially if you're just doing things like making fanart, writing fics, talking about the thing with other fans, and not even spending money on official merch that will get back to said creator idk. That's not helping anyone. And the thing is, this will keep happening with popular pieces of media. It's not going to stop, you're not going to be able to predict who is a bad or good person based on the work that they've made.

[st4rryskiesc0]

The October-November con chronicles

That last post had me thinking about all the convention moments running around in the little brain of mine, so im posting them all there. MY BLOG MY POSTS!!!

FanX

I met a mumbo jumbo and I remember my big ear wings was in their face in the photo and i felt so bad. At least they had a little pesky bird plush they let me hold!!!

I was exhausted and nervous and saw a quackity cosplayer and so I ran up to them and said "oh my god i love your cosplay it looks so good!!" and they had friends around them and i said "all your lcosplays look so good oh my god its just so good all of you" and i just kept rambling because i was just so tired and didnt know how to human and they looked so awkward and they gave me a little casino coin as a gift and i felt so bad so im sorry if you ever see this quackity cosplayer in the pit :sob:

I met a tango and we stood in the middle of the stands area and he came up and shook my hand and we just kept shaking hands while we talked it was so fun !

THERE WERE SO MANY DREAM SMP COSPLAYERS MY GOD!!! all of them were so good though

I met a skeppy and I was like "oh my god have you found a badboyhalo yet?" THEIR FRIEND WAS BAD SOBBING CRYING THROWING UP I DIDNT EVEN REALIZE THEY WERE THERE!!! we laughed about it and moved on so it was okay :3

i met a double life impulse and Bdubs and i asked them "so ive noticed most people this year that are matching cosplay are partners, are you guys partners or just friends??" because i was trying to get a grasp on the FanX cosplayers economy and norms if that makes sense??? they were going as just friends they both had separate partners i was so embarassed sobbnig crying they understood though it wasnt a big deal

Anime Banzai

As soon as I got there I saw a wilbur soot cosplayer and went up to say hi and THERE WAS A CODFATHER JIMMY THERE!!! They recognized my Etho cosplay as *etho* and not kakashi and we just hung out the entire day it was amazing

When I first got there my spirit halloween kakashi mask was too tight because duh spirit halloween and you could see my entire mouth outline it was HORRIBLE i took back ups just in case but my only picture with codfather jimmy is with my too-tight kakashi mask and it kinda sucks ;w; it's alright though, we had so much fun it doesnt really matter

There was this little girl outside where there was a DJ type thing and she danced and the DJ danced with her and it was so cute. One of the singers from the Idol competition earlier came up and taught her how to do some dances and it was absolutely adorable, I loved it

This little kid also came up to me, codfather, and their friend cosplaying as toadette (? im not sure, i didnt ask what exactly they were all i knew was that it was amazing cosplay) with their little pochita stuffie they got and made gave us a bonk on the head with him and it was incredible and adorable

The idol competition was so cool but the announcer was ABWHEYGUTF it was... strange... between every performance they said "can i get an uwu?" it was horrible SOBBING CRYING it was still so fun though, he was very charming besides for that whole fiasco

during that same cosplay ocmpetition i didnt really know how to cheer???? i dont know, same thing as Fanx where I was exhausted and nervous and i just completely forgot how to person

this older guy came up to me and said "okay whats with the canada??" because for my etho cosplay I had a canada patch on my arm and I had to explain to him "im so sorry im not kakashi its a completely different character" and he walked away so confused and i felt so bad because he was an older lad and i felt like id just blown his mind and it was so awkward

thats it, fanx and anime banzai were so fun and im so glad I went :DD i met so many fun people and everyone was so nice !!

[tears-of-boredom]

ok finished life is strange true colors. probably gonna be spoilers in this. so, i dont know if its because i was expecting to not like the ending, but i didnt like it. ended up really angry at the ending. tbh the whole vibe of the story was weird. my vibes didnt match its vibes. reminds me a lot of tell me why in a sense. with the siblings being reunited after both were separated when young and so the foster care system fucked them up even worse. and they can only begin to heal once they get out of it. and they investigate a family member's death. and the character models never seem to actually be touching anything around them. kind of like trying to get your barbie to hold something that didnt have that small finger ring. but the difference is that i like tell me why. maybe its just because the emotions matched mine more. idk. i wish we got to meet izzy. oh and yeah im not gonna even do the bisexual thing.

idk just left me angry and feeling shitty. but ig something happened outside of the game at the same time so that might contribute to my mood too. but man. i didnt even get to cry. and no one even went after someone in a fit of unbridled rage.... i mean,, of their own choosing you know? i wanted alex to walk into the black horse and just charge jed with a knife. and it is so fucking annoying because everytime i saw jed, i was thinking about how happy i am that for once the old man who the community trusts didnt do some horrible shit. like oh my god, i wasnt even fucking surprised when he pulled the gun, i was just so disappointed. i fucking hate that trope. so much. let old people be fucking good people for once, who arent trying to hide their past at all costs. like oh my god, let a main character actually get a father figure into their lives without them being a liar and a coward. and sorry but why the fuck did the game even give you an option on whether or not to forgive him?? like, yeah i could've fucking forgave him for being a bit too proud and making a horrible mistake because of that, but who the fuck fucking is forgiving him for all the shit he did to keep the secret. he didnt intentionally kill those miners, but by creating this lie about being a hero, and putting everything on keeping it up, he killed someone. and to be honest, i would not be surprised if there were more. and why the fuck did they make alex see herself in him? whatever her "gift" canonically is, she did not choose it. the monster she is ashamed of was something she did not choose. but jed made a decision. he hates himself because of a choice he made. neither of those things are less real or,, anything. they are just different. pretty fundamentally. hating yourself for something you cant change, and hating yourself over something you can change. oh my god i hated the ending. and hated how unlike me alex was. despite there being so many similarities between us. that flashback about the guitar, when shes imagining gabe and her at the orphanage. it hit me quite hard. i wonder how many kids have thought that. because i sure have. i wasnt even there for that long. but everynight, when i wasn't allowed to do anything but lay in my bed,, i think i thought "they cannot be so stupid to do this to me with sincere intentions." but,, i wasnt stupid myself. i knew that they were genuinely trying to help with all the restrictions. so eventually i concluded that they're stupid as fuck and know nothing. but they think they know better. the worst fucking combination ever. impossible to argue against people like that. usually they are like cops too. if you make them question the rules, they just fall back on "well thats still how it is (and there's no changing that)". adults love to obey authority and not question anything. and i would understand that if it was just a choice for an individual, but they affect a lot of other people by being like this. young people. but thats just how it is right. adults fuck up kids because they dont want to challenge anything, and then those kids grow up to be afraid of challenges too.

im really tired. i cant really tell if im even making sense. im gonna shut of my pc now.