#two blogs while on anon

[fanfiction-fantasies]

HEY ULTRAKILL FANDOM

This idea has been rattling in my brain for days now. Enjoy.

Gabriel x Reader, hurt/no comfort.

An angel, severed from the Creator's light because of a lost battle. Dying slowly, it would only take hours for Gabriel's life to be extinguished. Even so, before heading off to correct his supposed mistake, he seeks out his love, the one that holds his heart so gently. A spirit of a fallen human, one unfairly denied entrance to paradise. Warm and loving and bright, everything an angel should have been, everything he was not any longer.

He see the beloved spirit, waiting for him like always, and he feels his heart ache as he shares the news of his imminent demise. The light has been torn from him, he can't live without it. The burning fury is gone.

Instead, the spirit asks if it can be replaced, even if just for a few moments. If a furnace is still intact, why not simply add a different fuel? Gabriel scoffs, unable to think of such blasphemy, even after everything that has been taken from him.

"Our Lord's light cannot be replaced. I am doomed, love."

"...No. I won't accept that."

"What are you-? What!? No! Don't do that!"

The angel tries to remove their beloved hands from his chest, but their form has already started to shift. White flames slowly envelop the little spirit, blurring the form he loved so much.

"You can't! You- You wretch! Blasphemous being! Let go!"

Insults and anger did nothing to make his beloved stop. The flames burned ever brighter, slowly melting into his chest... until all he could feel was love.

He fell to his knees, sobbing pitifully. He reached, grasping at empty air. His beloved was no longer there. He could feel every ounce of love directed towards him, filling him from his fingertips all the way to his glowing wings.

Warm and loving and bright... everything an angel should have been.

[psalmsofpsychosis]

"#Batman resists his own insanity so it spreads to e v e r y t h i n g around him"

You can't just say this and not elaborate in great detail. PLEASE elaborate oh my God. I do agree but I want to hear every single thought you have about this topic.

Btw, I'm the same Anon who asked -- or not really asked but more so talked -- about Batman and Joker's soulmate sort of bond.

AND WHAT DO YOU MEAN WITH "COMBINING JOKER'S HEAD WITH BATMAN'S BODY"???????

I was thinking along the lines of the concept version and how they could never be satisfied like this, united in one body. What is the result of mixing chaos and order? What is the result of mixing the act of forgetting the past and fixating on it? What do you get through combining the ideology of making everything matter and taking all meaning away?

The result is that the pure concepts become stained and dull, pushed away from their original function, losing their purpose to oppose each other.

Becoming one entity is the act of becoming complete (concepts being stained) and losing the thing that made them them. Batman and Joker were never meant to unite in this way with overlapping voices, finishing each others thoughts and sentences and it SHOWS. I'm in love with their grotesque obsession with each other that borders on love and punishment. Their desire to win and conquer the other for good but never being able to because losing one side takes away the purpose of the other.

That's why I'm so, so, SO disappointed with how the Batman Who Laughs turned out. Where are my identity crises? Plural, because this could never be an one-and-done kind of deal. They became OneTM, inentionally or not, but BeforeTM, they were always wondering what it would be like. Batman could try to get closer to Joker's mental state but never fully experience it, same with Joker. But now they are OneTM and then what? Batman is just the Joker with Bruce's memories and face. I can't begin to describe how boring that is. That's like if DC made a "Deadpool kills the Marvel Universe" story only they used Joker instead of Deadpool.

Do you see my vision? Can you feel my pain? I wanted to psychoanalyse that asshole with my amateurish psychology knowledge but they only gave us a watered down Joker who makes other Batmen less interesting upon contact. WHERE ARE THE IDENTITY CRISES?? WHERE IS THE DIFFICULTY IN MAKING A DECISION?? WHERE ARE THE LENGTHY MONOLOGUES ARGUING BACK AND FORTH OR CONTRADICTING EACH OTHER ALL THE TIME??? The Batman Who Laughs is basically Two Face but without the wall seperating Harvey and Two Face. Joker!Batman should be unable to do anything or constantly switch between Bruce and Joker or save one life and then turn around and kill it. Like, where is the complexity? Why the hell is that guy only a murder machine?? That was neither Joker nor Batman's whole purpose??

Tell me all your thoughts, my friend, while I'm here spinning in circles and going insane. I'll never get out of this alive, you'll still find me ruminating on this on my deathbed.

I swear, if you give an absolute banger of an answer again, I'll come and start living in your walls.

Have a nice day!! :)

ANON LOVE OF MY LIFE, i'm shoveling all the insides of my walls out as we speak, you can move in by Wednesday morning—

Like, the way i felt every single word you said in my bones. You are so right, and there are a couple different points here and it's gonna get longer than usual so i'll separate each thought thread to avoid drowning in lé brain soup.

• Re: batman resisting his own insanity, i feel like i have simultaneously talked about this in 7986 different ways and haven't said anything about it at all 😂 possibly most of it has been discord ramblings. Long story short, the spine of his narrative to me is that he actively resists his own humanity and in extension of it, his evil. He wants to be good. But there's also immense psychological/emotional/physical price we pay whenever we make these kind of choices; whatever we disown and banish to our subconscious, we project out into the world and unto the people around us. The load you refuse to carry will be carried by the people around you, because at the end of the day /someone/ has to carry it, it doesn't just disappear into ether. So, in a way, for Batman to remain good, to remain a hero, someone else has to be bad. The extent in which Batman keeps his goodness "pure and untainted" dictates the horrors created around him— and particularly the creation of Joker. I say creation because the existence of Batman as a concept absolutely necessitates the existence of Joker. In a way Batman does create him, and it's true that with Batman gone Joker and half the evil in Gotham would be gone too, not because Batman is an evil presence— but precisely because he disowns his own evil.

And the thing is, in the specific context of Joker, it has become this almost loving, adoring symbiotic relationship; Joker has willingly shaped himself to fit the outline of an evil that Batman needs to defeat, he has become the sin that Batman can overcome so he can stay a saint. I actually have a draft on this that i never finished, a meta about how all the coloring choices in Joker's design eerily resemble the different color stages of a wound and the bruising after, how Batman almost feels like Jesus with Joker as his side wound, Joker being the price he pays and the pain he goes through for his martyrdom in order to stay pure, for his idealogy to have any form of meaning and significance, Joker being his very own holy suffering.

We fundamentally understand reality in form of contrasts, internal ones, external ones. As you very well pointed out, without an innate sense of contrast, we cease to have any form of coherent grasp on different concepts, and they start to sort of become noise, they become nothing. Would you truly understand what a day was and grasp it as a concept if it wasn't followed by a night? So like, what i'm saying is, people around Bruce/Batman become what he needs because they love him and they want to help him keep his narrative, the structure of his psyche intact. They help him stay 'him' by taking on the burden of what he doesn't want to be, he subconsciously shapes them in the image of what he needs to uphold his identity as a good person. This is why Alfred becomes Joker to save him, this is why Selina is the more socially acceptable pretty Joker that Bruce can actually marry and bring to his family, this is why Joker and Batman feel like they can never escape their narrative, their roles and their performance. It's the reason the moment Batman lurches to kill The Riddler in "the war of jokes and riddles", Joker stops his knife with his hand. It's their defined roles, and the greatest act of love that noone except Joker would show him. Joker says "I'm the sacrifice. I'm the evil, i'm the one who kills, i have made this choice so you can make yours. You're the good one. If you become evil, it renders both your efforts and my sacrifice meaningless, and i can not allow that to happen." And it's a truly fascinating dynamic really, for all that Joker has and hasn't done throughout the Batmanverse history, when it comes to Batman he's irredeemably selfless. Everything he does regarding Batman is to keep Batman's sense of goodness and heroism intact, and in this context he's more pure than him. Everyone around Batman wants him to kill, perhaps rightfully so, they mean well. But Joker says "i'll bear all the unbearable evil so you dont have to, and we both acutely understand that without my existence you mean nothing. I will be the monster so you dont have to." And honest to god there's a heartbreaking affection to this, something noone else will ever be willing or want to offer to Bruce, not to this extent.

in 'the war of jokes and riddles' Bruce tells Selina that "what separates him from utter evil is a hand on his knife. Joker's hand." like bro, he knows. In a deeply twisted and gutwrenching way Bruce knows that noone loves him the way Joker does.

• Re: combining Joker and Batman's heads and bodies, i was thinking.... two concepts maybe?? 👀 one is more like the Dullahan myth, in which Batman loses his head but he isn't carrying it, Joker steals it. And then Joker loses his head and Batman has to keep it and he's forced to use it. It'd be an insanely fun concept; the Dullahan myth can be interpreted as the idea of death of self by supposedly losing all that would make you human; your thoughts and memories and logic, etc. Except that you still have a heart, and a body, and they're not exactly cooperative. It'd be fun to have Joker's mind trying to tame Batman's heart and body, each fighting and singing their own song, same for Batman. A version of the myth has Dullahan carrying a human spine in one hand, and i mean, the possibilities are endless!

But also another concept would be: two frankenstein monsters lmaooo, same sense of discordent internal landscape, same sense of ideological tension and conflict, but also someone's gotta [tw mentions of gore] chop chop them and sew their body parts together, and that can be another interesting element added to their fucked up dynamic ✨️ it can also be Joker as Dr Frankensten and he sews parts of himself to Batman in order to save him!

• Re: Batman Who Laughs, oh girl (gn), i have nothing to add that you haven't already said more beautifully than me. There's so much emotional nuance and complex philosophy that could've gone into that concept, it's certainly one of the hardest Batman story variations to pull off, and weirdly enough, the people who dont directly aim for "Batman becomes Joker/Joker becomes Batman" stories often tell a better more intricate tale about that transformation than the people who straight up shoot for the concept. One of the things that always sends a chill down my spine is the ending of Batman: Europa, in which Joker is terrified and screaming as Batman laughs and lurches for him; that's the dynamic, that's the Batman who laughs, and the most unsettling part of it is that, Batman doesn't change. He doesn't have to. On a core level he is quite frankly a bit fucked up, it's not a stretch for Batman to be evil, and that's why his goodness is meaningful. Cue Nietsche's quote, "Of all evil I deem you capable: Therefore I want good from you. Verily, I have often laughed at the weaklings who thought themselves good because they had no claws." Batman is not a good guy entirely, and that makes his goodness a conscious choice with so much weight and worth and significance. I dont think a lot of DC people understand this.

With Batman Who Laughs, the name kinda sums up the take unfortunately; it's a superficial interpretation that falls flat on its own face because the writers couldn't be assed to explore how a chemical combination of Batman and Joker's narrative would unfold. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ as with any potent chemical reaction, the mixture is highly unstable and unpredictable, and that's the fucking fun of it. There's gotta be tension. I do think Batman and Joker can very well mix, i do think they can make a seamless fusion, but i dont trust any canon DC writers to handle the characterization well in a way that doesn't bore you out of your fucking mind. You gotta make a new person and you gotta capitalise on the core components both Batman and Joker share; their incessant sense of idealism, their need for purity, their volatile emotions and their aggression, their need to individuate from their context and deviate from the norm, take the third way out narrative wise, their philosophical and intellectual bend, their immense grief, their need to be oh so special and different 😂 they actually have a whole lot in common, this is why they're perfect enemies!

But yeah, writing that personality fusion is very hard because it's such an emotionally complex context and most DC writers have not felt a single emotion in the past 35 years aflhdtdhlf

Anyway yep i love your brain so SO much Anon, hope you have a wonderful day ❤️💕 and dont forget to tell me what ya think!!

[starlightkun]

the taeil situation is truly heartbreaking. i had to get off twitter because reading all the horrible things he did genuinely made me sick to my stomach. i genuinely felt like i was going to throw up. i cried and ate my feelings so im feeling a little bit more settled now but i just feel disgusted that i supported him these past few years when all this was going on. he was one of my favourite members too.

- ✨ anon

yeah i genuinely feel sick to my stomach still. im on my lunch break rn and just have started cleaning up my blog. i hope he rots in jail (and hell) and the victim(s) can find peace one day

i understand feeling disgusted or betrayed for supporting him while all this was going on, but there was no way we couldve known at the time, so try not to turn that shame on yourself. take care of yourself too

[m0e-ru]

deep in your gsa sl au tag rn it's AWESOME i really liked izanami anyway but this is making me appreciate them more i wish i could send asks from side blogs. hi kai. this is so funny it's like i'm seeing my ni no kuni blog from the outside. shakes your hand. researcher solidarity - ruby

AHAHAUAHAHA WELCOME TO MY GAS STATION HII RUBYY writing this at a delirious 11pm state where i have to leave the hosue by 9 to get to the edge of the city for a class at 12 or 11 im not sure i havent gotten an email yet

im so glad i get to be the guy thats like you in a parallel universe so you see how people feel when they go to YOUR blog . it;s like a magical experience and sit there watching a mad scientist hammer screws into a contraption and it actually somehow works and youre in awe that they thought of doing that in the first place. i wish i could send asks through sides too . let's shake hands forever 🤝🤝🤝🤝🤝🤝🤝🤝🤝🤝

speaking of forever i havent been able to stop thinking about that stupid au for 4 YEARS !!!<- recent anniversary . so if you want to talk about it (foreboding tone) my discord's always open if you want to go deeper down my rabbit hole (you can ask about just teddie if you want 👍 i oculd explain the lore from the ground up or i could share literally official media from books to spinoffs to drama cds ifyoud like )

[dragonloanshark]

in a way i’m glad old school tumblr discourse still exists somewhere on this site. keep it away from me though

[onepiece-polls]

I love your polls and it’s great you try to be on both sides to give fair chance to everyone, but the way you talked about shanks/buggy is crazy They’re fine together but in canon they’re brothers and your shipping googles got so tight you actually sounded like you could believe they’re anywhere close to canon which is u know stupid af

lmao, okay, this came out of nowhere 😂 Like... I talked about that months ago. But okay.

Anyway, Shuggy is canon. They're making out behind you right now.

[textingtroublesanswers]

(I had to reread to check back, and I completely flipped the twins descriptions in my head (≧∇≦)/ I'm gonna have to revisit that (　-̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥᷄◞ω◟-̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥᷅ ) go back and fix my drawings)

Hm, so you just went from average to above average, and you became more comfortable in your skin in the process. That sounds like a win-win scenario to me! Hehehehe

I'm glad you got the chance to become who you were meant to be.

-🦖

"Average to above average? Oh, nein, I would say I was far, far below average at the time. Really, it was rather embarrassing." He shakes his head.

[thenixkat]

me, a furry, when a creator doesn't put much effort into worldbuilding with the anthros in a setting: Coward. Also, free real estate for me

tinkering with a few ideas for the kobolds in Dungeon Meshi. There's some wild canid social structure stuff and denning/hunting habits I know off the top of my head to use and will probably look at some super social wild canines like painted dogs and dholes to use as well as dig around with some actual irl kobold folklore

[coockie8]

I feel like way too many people feel they need to have an opinion about every single piece of discourse in existence.

You know, sometimes you can just be a silent observer as the on-fire dumpster slowly passes you by in the flood water... You don't have to have an opinion on it :/

[mishkakagehishka]

Because of his mission ☠️ ofc he has to be nice and caring towards ashley or that mans job is DONE. You're taking this as flirting because you're a teenager, you'll know the difference when you become an adult.

https://www.tumblr.com/mishkakagehishka/726855001942753280/and-ashley-and-leon-flirt-a-lot-more-in-the-remake?source=share

I've got no fears on this website bc whenever i get dumb asks like this they always get info i have literally listed in my bio wrong

[lollybliz]

Hey, do you have any proof or screenshots about the Predestrogen aphobia thing? I'm not saying I don't believe you, I just genuinely did NOT know she was aphobic. It would be nice to have proof so that people have even more reasons not to support her /gen

I wish I did, for the sake of giving you a clear answer, but I don't collect screenshots like that on principle, so i'm afraid I've got nothing. I remember I'd been following her for maybe 6 months, and I think she'd responded to an anon with a joke about virginity that made the hair on my neck stand up, and went through her blog searching the terms I tend to use to check blogs' stances; ace, asexual, asexy, acehet, that sort of thing, alongside a bunch of others. It can be useful to check if a blog treats transfems differently from transmascs, for example. I found enough posts in contexts that made me uncomfortable, and few enough supportive posts, that I felt it best to unfollow and stay away for my own comfort.

I'm staunchly against calling people out, i think it's a gross practice that discourages people from learning and growing and becoming better versions of themselves, so I'm saying none of this in the interest of encouraging anyone to support or not support anyone else, I'm answering nonny's question as best as I can, and stating that i Do think it can be good to double check blogs you follow, especially big blogs, to see if they consider you a person. The world shouldn't be like that. but we do be stuck in it.

[sargetblu]

There's other safe places, I'm sure! You a very good and honorable fighter for helping him, y'know. I'm certain he'll be very appreciative of it. -Chef Anon

I put him in the enemy Soldier’s room.

There’s a lot of torn up books on the floor?

The Red Soldier is too big and didn’t see me.

The Demoman will be strong and well rested when I kill him repeatedly during battle!

[mini-games]

(ooc: oops sorry a bit late)

Hm, well that would make sense. If you are able to recall some of my memories, then I think I know the reason why, even if you may not know.

...What do you mean you 'may know why'? The only reason I could think of is if we share our memory files, and the chances of that are pretty low.

[unproduciblesmackdown]

one in a million when i watch smthing in the horror genre and don't end up disappointed to/and/or pissed off about it so like "also yeah i liked it. ooo" is like relative to that an off the charts rave review of media of the millennium. also i did think about mh a lot along the way so would recommend its affect/effect if you like mh's horror too

[mtsworkshop]

Matching Leon and Hop icons in Stratosfear #5  by @fivepointpalettes for an anonymous requester! Please credit if using, like/reblogs appreciated as well!

[utterlyazriel]

Hi dear I must tell you that you’re such a deeply conveying author and I truly feel the weight of what you write. I wish you could experience your writing the way I have. I was also wondering do you take requests? And if yes then are they open? Have a lovely day!

oh…. this is so nice 🥹 that’s such a kind compliment and i. god i actually don’t even know how to be normal about it 😭 i guarantee you that i put so much effort into almost every sentence & word choice so hearing you feel the weight of it is just!! gah! makes it all worth it!! thank u so much mwah mwah mwah

i do take requests! technically they are open but i’m looking to finish whom the shadows sing for first (top priority 🫡) and then i’ll scrounge the inbox for the ideas lurking in there. there’s a couple i already have but ur very welcome to send in one!