#tw self destructive

[itspixthecrazybitch]

Tw gore, body horror, self destructive ideation

I want to reach through my skin and grab my ribs and pull them one by one until they crack and keep pulling until they’re gone and I can finally get rid of this pressure in my chest.

[lolipoptable]

"The Fallen Angel" by Alexandre Cabanel except it's Rodger Gizanis.

[obscurestrauma]

I crave self-destruction

[angeldustanalog]

*spends entire therapy session talking about debilitating substance use issues, hypersexual self harm, suicidal ideation, in between random bursts of crying and wildly inappropriate making jokes about trauma trying shit to break the tension*

what my therapist writes down for the session: ‘canon-typical behavior; nothing of note’

[an3m1ctw1nk]

blood

pry the nails off my fingers , until you cannot look any longer . cover my complexion with gore & horror , until your heartbeat grows stronger . i beg of you , slice my skull in two . until you cannot help but gaze into my soulless eyes . it shall never stop . i will never want it to . we shall pray for it to never end !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i will bleed.................................................................................. ...............................and......bleed........................................................ ...........from..............................................head............................................ to toe.

written: 12/22/18 @ 12:19 am

[1ncend1ary]

lol

[chasingthin]

every time i think i got a hang of restricting my food intake again, i mess it up by eating more then i set out to. i feel so gross.

i know ive done this before so i can do it again, i just can’t help but wonder where the hell my self control went

[itspixthecrazybitch]

I thought that shit all the time

I have a distinct memory of laying in my bed as a kid and wishing with all my heart that I would get hurt. That I would get into a bad car crash or I'd disappear. So my parents would cry and realize they didn't cherish me enough.

I find it sad that younger me thought she had to get hurt to feel loved.

[hermholland]

So it seems to be a "drink red wine as a metaphorical way of bypassing my bleeding fixation so that I don't self harm just to purge myself of these intolerable emotions" sort of night

[a-hospital--for-souls]

"It's all in your head." - Thank you Janette, that's why it's called mental illness. It cannot be in my ass.

[imanimp]

Feeling so suicidal i cant even move

Later ill play some zelda

But its so fucking hard

I really wanna die today

[itspixthecrazybitch]

Haha maybe I should give in and not eat until i absolutely have to and only eat until i feel like i can stop instead of trying to gain back the weight I lost so I can not look like a rotting corpse. I don’t really want to get better I don’t think. I want to be worse I want to hurt myself I want people to notice and care

[lolipoptable]

Masochist

more extremely deranged rodger, been having fun with dark gory themes and sinister connotations lately. rodger is, indeed, a masochist, and also very off his rocker. if that wasn't obvious lol

[mysticdragon3md3]

I Was Stupid...So Stupid... by Danny Motta

[zozoubbb]

idk just maybe im not a shithead toxic person and i should not suffer and hurt myself because of that thought. maybe my mind is just fucked up

[injuredsoullessfrog]