#tw for suicidal thoughts

[uzi-vents]

tw major vent under cut‼️‼️

containing s3lf h3rm, su!cidal thoughts/attempts, self hatred, depressive episodes/depressive thoughts, e3ting disorder, dissociative thoughts/ dissociation, not feeling real? dehumanization? (not sure abt the last 3 sry.

[heckyeahcolinbaker]

I really didn't want to say anything due to keeping up a happy front, but I've had enough.

BCP council are not helpful one bit, every time I chase them up on applications for financial aid— *crickets* Just the same jargon over and over.

For context, I've been signed off work for 2 months through no fault of my own, my health has been rapidly declining to the point I struggle to leave the house most days. I've been having multiple tests to try and determine what is wrong with me, and my sick pay is due to run out. I'm also now having to use a stick to keep myself balanced. I also use the local food banks and community places. I've put all events on hold as I can no longer afford to go.

I'm struggling to afford rent and I'm going to come up short for this months rent which is due in a week. And still no sign of financial help from the very people who said they would help me, they've seen me at my lowest crying my eyes out in the office. I'm having suicidal thoughts, it's horrible. I don't want to lose the roof over my head.

If anybody can help or at least share this, I would be forever grateful.

Links to help;

[commonzinnia]

death isnt enough. i need to never have existed

[rainywhispersblog]

[blueskittlesart]

Now that you're gone

[snuffysbox]

The canon heart event that made me want to do these comics to begin with 🌧️

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[uzi-vents]

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TW // Suicidal Thoughts

BGM- End Titles - The Last Guardian

ACT 1

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Spot the One Piece reference! ☺️

So, yeah, this segment is very dear to me on a personal level, so I hope you guys enjoy it as much as I enjoyed drawing it. These updates are taking so long due to the backgrounds and extra characters, but this time, the backgrounds are simplified along with the colour palette, so hopefully the next update isn’t too far off! I know last year I took a month long break, but I have been managing breaks between updates, so this time it won’t be necessary. My goal is to have this comic done by April. Props if I have it done before then!

[even-disco-baby]

THOUGHT GAINED: INFERNAL ENGINES

PROBLEM

The world is ending. You know it, your neighbor knows it, the dealer knows it, the jailer knows it, the king and all his men know it. All one has to do is look around to see it— the future is curdling into something pale and incorporeal. The infernal machine that is this stupid world is going to blow, sooner rather than later. So what are you doing? Why are you still here? Why is anyone still here?

SOLUTION

You are doing the only thing worth doing. You are living. *Why,* you ask? Try and remember now. Remember your mother’s hand on your shoulder. Remember the taste of a fresh catch. Remember the times when you were kind to the dogs in the valley and they did not bare their teeth. Remember the weight of a child on your shoulders. Remember the stars throwing their light against the wall of sodium and smog. Remember singing until your throat was raw. Remember crying just as loudly and publicly, and the gentleness with which someone opened your curled fist and pressed a handkerchief into your palm. Crying, laughing, running, eating, screaming, haunting, loving, fighting, fighting, fighting. The fight fuels you, and you fuel the fight. You run yourself ragged just for a chance to keep running. You never stop. You cannot stop. The world depends on it. *You* are the infernal engine. You are the world. And, simply put: you want to live.

[commonzinnia]

taking naps because i hate feeling and hope to never wake up