#tw dental work

[rainbowcrowley]

i dodged a root canal today and had the best dentist experience ever, yay

at least some positive news, regarding all my ongoing health issues atm gjfkdgdkl

[readysetyeet]

Toothache hell, part two: why arent the meds working

[lynne-monstr]

sometimes the true spirit of being a grownup is going to the awful doctors appointments and then coming home and rewarding yourself with a new cocktail and something for dinner you've never cooked before

[robinruns]

What a day. Oof.

(editing Robin here, this got long, sticking it under a cut)

I couldn't get up to get a workout in... or make lunch for myself... or breakfast. I did pack my gym bag with the intention of going to the gym after work because it is both hot (summer) and the air quality is garbage (Canada blowing smoke on us). First hour of work was literally one of the most excruciatingly boring meetings I've had to sit through. We got a massive software update and it will taking used to since so many things are just like second nature to me. There are lots of bugs still that kinda make me question why they weren't sorted out in the literal years this has been in development. It's gonna be even more of a cluster fuck tomorrow I think because we have to do the end of the month work. Oh and the fuckin window washers were there so I think I lost a solid hour and a half right off the top this morning. Ugh.

Not having a lunch meant I had to go to the grocery store for lunch. Going to the grocery store meant going out in the gross haze, and then of course, bad choices were made. Bad choices that involve getting a big bag of chocolates and then eating like 90% of it, so my therapist will be hearing about that on... whatever fuckin day I have therapy again. Next Thursday? I dunno. I had to cancel my appointment this week because I had to take my car to the mechanic. Then karma came around and I got my massage appointment (that was supposed to be this afternoon) canceled on me. Whatever. It's not like it wasn't already rescheduled once.

So with a gut full of chocolate, almonds, and bad choices, I went home instead of the gym. Well not directly home, I stopped off at the library and got the book I placed on hold last week. I dunno how long I have it for though. Whoops. My mom says the shortest time that you can have a book checked out is typically 2 weeks, so I'm gonna try to have it done in two weeks.

With all the commotion this morning I completely forgot about Frank's reverb sale until about 10:30 and of course like everything was gone. Oh well. I did get the We Didn't Start the Fire (1989-2023) (Fall Out Boy's Version) (from the Vault) 7" vinyl though. And the Benadryl Subreddit 7" from LS Dunes as well the other day. And new Taking Back Sunday is coming on Friday. Small glimmers of hope on the horizon.

I just feel mentally and emotionally spent this week and we're only halfway through. Tumblr hasn't been the refuge it sometimes is, so I deleted the app from my phone with the intention of just clearing my head from it for a while. I get notifs of asks and I'm like "Oh great, what method of suicide will the anons be suggesting now? Will they be creative this time, or go with an old standby?" Fun times.

I lowkey (highkey) hate that I'm hungry right now. Like I know mentally that I have had a disgusting and inappropriate amount of food this afternoon, but sadly chocolates are not filling. The self loathing is high. The desire to do something desperate is high. The knowledge that my clothes won't fit well is weighing (ha) down on me like crazy and it just makes me panic and again, makes me want to overcorrect in the other direction. How did I end up on the mailing list for 75 Hard? Probably another time like this. But maybe it's what I need? But do they account for dangerously hazardous weather with their outdoor workout requirement? Like? I get the idea of getting out in the rain or cold, but like wildfire smoke? Eh.

So the last few days have not been fun. Could be worse (NOT A SUGGETSION UNIVERSE), but sure as hell could be better.

[anonymouspuzzler]

I'm in the middle of my final projects for school which are kicking my dang ass!! naturally this means i dissociated the other day and wrote another 10k word Smile for Me fic. I hope you all enjoy the results of my hubris

[dabilove27]

Iiiiiiii do not want to go to the dentist today

[ssamorganhotchner]

y’all i’ve been up for 20+ hours bc of a toothache and my god i can’t wait to go to the dentist 😭

[zinniajones]

In communion with the judgment snake

[madnessismylover]

Tw: negative

Wish you could like... sue your depressed for all the time and money it costs to take care of it and anything else that results from it.

I never wanted depression so why do I need to pay for the things that make me not want to off myself? (Pills/therapy/etc.)

For the rest of my life I'll need to pay for the things that are gonna keep me alive because of something I cannot control. I can't just tell my brain 'hey, work properly so we don't wanna fucking die'

If I hadn't been depressed in school I would've planned ahead, I would have been better than where I am today.

I never thought I'd get to 18 and I'm gonna be 26 in April. I don't blame past me because they weren't doing well. Unmedicated. I don't wanna go back to that. It was scary. Actively thinking it's easier to die is fucking terrifying.

Living is so fucking expensive.

[unorthodox-soundwave]

Hot New Diet Tip:

Go to the dentist over a dozen times in 4 months and your appetite will be pretty much gone by the end of it

[thethingything]

our mouth definitely feels worse than after the previous dentist appointment which I guess makes sense because they had to inject anaesthetic 3 times in multiple places and I think in the roughly 12 hours it ended up taking to fully wear off, we chewed up the inside of our lip and cheek a bunch and now I think there's some swelling, but there's also like, a weird slightly numb feeling that isn't actual numbness but keeps making me briefly think it is.

I don't know how deep they inject the anaesthetic but touching our jawbone is painful in one specific spot around where I know the needle went in so I guess it was probably pretty deep? either way I do appreciate that the dentist warned us that area would be pretty tender and that she uses numbing gel before injecting stuff.

it sucks having a ridiculously painful wisdom tooth on one side and a bunch of pain and sensitivity from the injections and brief attempt at pulling a tooth on the other side though and it is making it kinda hard to eat properly

[nartothelar]

opening this up one more time! 3 slots

emergency quick sketch comms (half body/bust). I need to pay for something really quick so these will be very simply colored (minimal to no shading) and expected to be done in a day or two at most; minimal changes

3 slots; $30 each ($10+ for additional character; 1 pokemon included free). ocs and ships welcome

[skellseer]

me when I accidentally pierce my skin with a sewing needle: let’s try not to do that again :D

me when I even THINK of a medical syringe needle: HDBDDRKKSSGETITAWAYFROMME

[prozac-shaped-urn]

saw the dentist today. a lot of work has to be done but thankfully most of it can wait until it starts to fall apart completely if i keep everything clean.

bought a waterpik so i can (hopefully!) reverse some developing periodontal pockets and clean under my cracking maryland bridge better. when that fails i'll possibly need a root canal if there's been decay but definitely a standard bridge. obvs i'm keeping that bitch as long as possible.

will need to get a tiiiiiiny baby cavity (my first one in 30 years of having adult teeth!) filled soon-ish. doc says it's a 2/10 on the emergency scale but it's small atm and things that are small are easily cleaned out. two molars are under a cavity watch.

my molar implant could benefit from a gum graft.

my gums are receding in a few places but they aren't terrible. gotta keep 'em healthy to delay more recession.

my roots are small but my teeth are strONK. clearly! i've never had a cavity before.

can't do jack shit about my crooked incisors except file down the veneers. the bone has descended and y'know somethin BONES DON'T MOVE BACK UP. whatevs. i wouldn't be me without a fucked up smile.

FUN!!!!! :))))

[ynseeun]

have to keep telling myself if i can just get through today i have a sunmi album tonight