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The hell are you acting so surprised for, Bruh??? After what you just did?
#Trying to understand#I’m short circuiting#My BP is rising#ikevil alfons#Why??? Can I look inside your brain please?#Yes#yes I know. He’s a villain. You don’t need to tell me. I’mma shut up now.
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I hate looking into autism and schizotaxia because psychologists both treat them as opposites with opposite treatments, even saying things like autistic traits "protecting" against schizophorenia. But then also saying that if you're autistic you're more prone to psychosis and that there is significant overlap between things like ASD and STPD. Making things confusing being like "ASD and schizotaxia are opposites and cannot coexist and their treatments must be opposite. Except autistic people are more prone to being schizotaxic but schizotaxic people are not more prone to being autistic". It's so confusing, especially when like. They mention enhanced sensory sensitivity being a "protection" against schizophrenic symptoms but our higher sensory sensitivity ties directly into us experiencing what seems to be STPD or at the least incredibly close to it. Like experiencing sensory overload and getting very delusional about it even if we logically know it's sensory overload (double bookkeeping) pretty regularly and not in an episodic way. What about us both being very literal and very metaphoric in our thinking both making communication more difficult co existing with each other even though things like hyper- and hypo-mentalism being supposedly opposite. Are we freaks? Are we misinterpreting one as the other? Is any of this research even still going to be accurate in 10 or so years considering ASD and schizophrenia were originally considered the fucking same not all that long ago and now they're treated as polar opposites despite others we've met who seem to experience both? WTF happens then?
#psychological#not explicitly anti psych or pro psych post just frustrated#trying to understand#rant#vent#personal
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Twenties, I'm living in the twenties,
where a social media app. is a valuable commodity,
and the youth shout out their preferred identity,
while traditional values are becoming empty,
twenties, I'm living in the twenties,
where words have changed to soften the blow,
and the safe space is the hip place to go,
creativity has become numb and artificial,
and future predictions are still abysmal,
contrary opinion is now hate speech,
and the lived experience is something to preach,
with rising numbers in depression, rejection and suicide,
and the lack of ambition demands a free ride,
swiping right for a good time,
rising body counts seen as a victimless crime,
alas, wedding bells no longer chime,
hedonistic youth boast of the new paradigm,
entertainment is remade and re-imagined,
with history constantly being re-fashioned,
and the new celluloid heros no longer suffer,
innate perfection has made them much more tougher,
so many children without fathers,
single mothers never get flowers,
masculine role models have now become anathema,
today's children filled with trauma,
twenties, I'm living in the twenties,
I ponder these things as I'm getting old,
how did life become so brutal and cold,
whatever happened to moms apple pie,
because traditions and values have become lies.
#my post#my poem#spilled words#my poetry#poems and poetry#spilled thoughts#poetry#poem#rhyme#new poem#society/community#life today#trying to understand
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I'm trying to understand a life . . . I'm trying to piece together the fragments of an incomprehensible being and to remember. Do you know that I can't even remember her face? Try as I may, it will not be conjured. I can tell you what she looked like; I can recite a description of her features, part by part, but I cannot evoke the whole face.
Siri Hustvedt, from The Blindfold
#forgetting#loss#memory#trying to understand#incomprehensible#quotes#lit#words#excerpts#quote#literature#siri hustvedt#the blindfold
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What do goth people do at shows
Do they dance to that music
How
#trying to understand#i get singing along and u can dance to the rock goth but#bela legosi's dead doesnt have much lyrics for example
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please i love you i'm begging you bring back suspension of disbelief bring back trusting the audience like. i cannot handle any more dialogue that sounds like a legal document. "hello, i am here to talk to you about the incident from a few minutes ago, because i feel you might be unwell, and i am invested in your personal wellbeing." "thank you, i am unwell because the incident was hurtful to me due to my childhood, which was bad." I CANT!!!!
do you know how many people are mad that authors use "growled" as a word for "said"? it's just poetics! they do not literally mean "growled," it's just a common replacement for "said with force but in a low tone." it's normal! do you hear me!! help me i love you please let me out of here!!!
#i am so sick of writers having to anticipate the most boring#bad-faith readings of their work. i am like - if you use cheese as a currency#okay! as long as the world makes sense to me: cool. cheese tax. moving on.#my job as the reader is to suspend my disbelief and say okay! i am so sick of like#fanfiction authors having to write dissertations#because they had an interesting idea they'd like to try out!!!#just write it! if it doesn't make sense that's someone else's problem!!!#PS OP is autistic. yes sometimes i take things literally at first glance. then i think about it lol#this is so clearly not about accessibility etc. it's about like. girl even i an autistic person#am able to understand ''they probably didn't mean his eyes darkened LITERALLY''
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Peace and love
#pink posts#i saw a tweet that was like “i see other people's art” --> i get discouraged#i understand that seeing art that is prettier than yours can be discouraging but why not twist that a bit?#why does it look prettier to you? is it the colors#is it the textures they used? the brushes?#study them and try to put your spin on it#and maybe you'll find your art beautiful as well
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the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again
#yeehaw#1k#5k#10k#posts that got cursed. blasted. im making these tag updates after... 19 hours?#also i have been told it should say speech loss bc nonverbal specifically refers to the permanent state. did not know that!#unfortunately i fear it is so far past containment that even if i edited it now it would do very little. but noted for future reference#edit 2: nvm enough ppl have come to rb it from me directly that i changed the wording a bit. hopefully this makes sense#also. in case anyone is curious. though i doubt anyone who is commenting these things will check the original tags#1) my friend did not do this on purpose in any way. it was not intended to distract me or to hit on me. im a lesbian hes a gay man. cmon now#he felt very bad about it afterwards. i thought it was hilarious but it was very embarrassed and apologetic#2) “why didn't he use 🫵🏼?” didn't exist yet. “why didn't he use 🆗?” dunno! we'd been using a lot of hand emojis. 👌🏼 is an ok sign#like it makes sense. it was just a silly mixup. also No i did not invent 👉🏼👌🏼 as a gesture meaning sex. do you live under a rock#3) nonspeaking episodes are a recurring thing in my life and have been since i was born. this is not a quirky one-time thing#it is a pervasive issue that is very frustrating to both myself and the people i am trying to communicate with. in which trying to speak is#extremely distressing and causes very genuine anguish. this post is not me making light of it it's just a funny thing that happened once#it's no different than if i post about a funny thing that happened in conjunction w a physical disability. it's just me talking abt my life#i don't mind character tags tho. those can be entertaining. i don't know what any of you are talking about#Except the ppl who have said this is pego/ryu or wang/xian. those people i understand and respect#if you use it as a writing prompt that's fine but send it to me. i want to see it#aaaand i think that's it. everyday im tempted to turn off rbs on it. it hasn't even been a week
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can we stop pretending like it’s so super easy for trans men to pass. “oh just put on a baggy shirt and cut your hair-“ it literally doesn’t work like that and I refuse to believe you actually think it’s that easy
#I do as much as I can pre t and I still get misgendered constantly#it’s to be expected and I understand#but I wish people would stop making it out like it’s so easy to pass#bc it’s not!#and when you talk about how easy it is it a) makes people feel like they must not be trying hard enough and that’s why they don’t pass#and b) undermines the difficulties experienced by trans men#trans#lgbtq#ftm#trans man#transgender#transmasc#transgender man#trans pride#donnieisaprettyboy#ftm problems
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Last part whoo!!!
PART 1 / PART 2 / PART 3 / PART 4
#I should clarify that I’ll be continuing to work on this au#this is just the final part to the intro essentially#thank you everyone so much for reading as well!!!#it’s been really cool to see that I was firstly able to make a comic at all#but also that everyone seemed to actually understand what I was trying to convey#like it was dumped directly from my brain and somehow we’ve ended up on the same page#so that’s cool :)#my art#gravity falls#twins in time au#Stan pines#Stanley pines#Stanford pines#ford pines
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Trying to discuss politics with some on the mommy boards.
It's actually not going as poorly as I thought.
It's utterly lacking logic and reason, but it's civil.
It's interesting to see how they explain that Trump says violent things (they quoted some jokes he made that just sound like jokes guys make) and therefore someone got violent and tried to kill him.
Because it isn't a justification of violence to say he is racist, just like Hitler and an existential threat to democracy.
Which, I guess I understand. It's hard to take part in speech like that and then turn around and condemn it. It makes sense to them and they think, well, I would never try to kill him therefore no one would.
Except also any white person is just waiting to hurt and oppress anyone not like them.
So since the shooter was white, the logic holds. 🤔
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hometown slang
#svsss fanart#i love the idea of binghe trying to teach mbj slang that he also doesn’t understand#like oh yeah just throw out a couple pogs. he’ll love that#the scum villain's self saving system#svsss#moshang#mobei jun#shang qinghua#sqh#mbj#luo binghe#my art
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Death looms over Vanny's shoulder in FNAF..
#myart#chloesimagination#comic#fnaf#five nights at freddy's#fnaf fanart#fnaf vanessa#fnaf vanny#nightmare marionette#security breach#fnaf help wanted#horror art#nightmarionne#I like the idea nightmarionne is like a symbol of death#seeing their appearances in the games are pretty scattered#and their images shows up around tragedy#they are more of a watcher of it a witness#so I wanted to show this idea off with Vanessa#Vanessa being awoken from her daze#trying to understand what’s going on#only for it to slowly process the damage she has caused#frozen in fear over her own mind#a silent watcher looms over her shoulder#I love drawing Vanessa’s story out#I don’t think there’s been enough are depicting the things she’s probably gone thru
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People on here are always like "fuck capitalism, why can't things be weird anymore" and then write up a whole dissertation about how the biggest IPs need to change to be weirder.
Like, you are so close. You are so close to getting the point. "Big" IPs *can only exist because they are normal*. They will *never* be weird. They will *never* do what you want. Go find some smaller IPs. Bring back discovery. Bring back never having heard of a book before you buy it. Bring back watching obscure anime online that none of your friends know about. Bring back trying new things, even if they're bad or cheaply made. That is how you get *weird*.
#if y'all want some obscure recs i got em#but understand that centralized will never be weird#weird exists because it appeals to a few#mainstream exists because it tries to appeal to everyone by boiling out individuality#it is impossible for the weird to become mainstream because that would inherently make it *not weird*#stop trying to shift the things you like into the capitalism model#break the capitalism model#fiction#fandom#stories#books#reading
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"must a story have conflict?" yes. hope this helps <3
#this is about many things but also none of them in particular lmfao#truly what not understanding how conflict operates does to a mf#me vs my executive dysfunction trying to focus enough to finish reading my book this weekend is a conflict.#like good lord
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"The text appears to be a mix of poetic fragments, personal reflections, and seemingly random thoughts. Here's an interpretation that attempts to capture the essence of the various themes: --- In the delicate dance of life, like silk vines or milk brooms, we find ourselves swaying, leaning one way then another, exchanging moments of connection. Letting our eyes drink in the world, there's a recurring sense of yearning. For some, a cherished item becomes a lifeline, a comfort toy to cling to amidst the challenges of life. Perhaps it's a form of cheating, seeking solace in familiarity, especially after seven years in Scotland, immersed in the world of books. Friendships blossom in fields of innocence, where communication becomes a multisensory journey. We dive into the depths of wisdom and love, seeking connection to creative consciousness. In the core of communities, structures solidify, shaping our reality. Yet, amidst this beauty, there lurks the shadow of darkness. The Maenads, once innocent followers of Dionysus, were consumed by primal urges, committing unspeakable acts in their intoxicated frenzy. Amidst the chaos, questions arise. Can we truly understand another's language? Do we fail to grasp the intricacies of love? The seven deadly sins loom large, tempting us with their allure. In the stream of consciousness, red and plastic mingle, reflecting the complexities of life. Silence swells, a reminder of the unspoken truths that lie beneath the surface. Sometimes, the desire to escape overwhelms us. We entertain thoughts of self-harm, seeking relief from the burdens of existence. Yet, amidst the chaos, there's a longing for balance, a yearning for something more. It's in these moments of vulnerability that we turn to a higher power, pleading for guidance, for solace, for understanding. --- This interpretation attempts to weave together the various themes and imagery present in the text, capturing its depth and complexity. Perhaps it's a form of cheating, seeking solace in familiarity, especially after seven years in Scotland, immersed in the world of books. Friendships blossom in fields of innocence, where communication becomes a multisensory journey. We dive into the depths of wisdom and love, seeking connection to creative consciousness. In the core of communities, structures solidify, shaping our reality. In the end, amidst the tumult of existence, one truth remains clear: it's in the juxtaposition of the natural and the synthetic, the popular and the peculiar, that true beauty is found."
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