#trying to pin down vibes

[boxwinebaddie]

why the hell am i at work the idea factory in my brain is whirring so fast right now holy shit

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

some Lights Out au scribbles. thinking about Sally... thinking about her A Lot... shhhh she's sleeping<3

[sforzesco]

THE BROTHERS PAOLO AND VITELLOZZO VITELLI

man. the fucking. cycles of violence going on here. war, condottieri brothers, the execution of paolo vitelli (but the on the matter of guilt: questionable! no proof besides the absence of potential violence, but what conspiracy-betrayal wants to leave behind proof? torture and execute him anyway. maybe machiavelli has a point! unfortunately you left a surviving brother), the congiura della magione, all of it coming together at the strage di senigallia. just blood and gore and war all the way down, never stopping for a breather, already on to it's next battlefield. also malaria is there!

in other news! it turns out if you want to draw a comic about the strage di senigallia, you have to figure out designs for all the people in the room, but if you draw vitellozzo, you also have to draw his brother because he's like. there. in a dead way. something something vitellozzo's desire to avenge his brother manifesting in his desire to brutalize florence for their role in his brother's death.

that said, I did not want to draw military armor for an illustration that was partially designed to test out some splatter brushes. in the future though….I will have to revisit that visual…..

[rabbits-of-negative-euphoria]

pros of women's fastidious passion for clothes: lots of info on historical fashion

cons: all the info is on women's fashion

[astranauticus]

tbh if i really had to articulate the difference between yoo joonghyuk and kim dokja to me because both of them drive me absolutely insane but it's like. i want to draw yoo joonghyuk i want to put kim dokja in a little terrarium and carry him in my pocket. yjh gives me endless art ideas kdj gives me absolutely deranged analysis-adjacent thoughts i cannot possibly hope to articulate

[mejomonster]

It is a feature and not a bug that nearly everyone in the blank files is queer. i do completely forget that though, until straight ppl mention they may read my book

[sysig]

Working on some designs for one of my oldest OCs, “Cure” (Patreon)

I also managed to track down some of her initial concept sketches from 2018 - why 2018 considering I called her one of my oldest OCs?

Well, her design has always been rather elusive, even more so since she spent so much time in my head without being brought to paper - even these sketches make mention of it!

Pretty sure she got “Cure” in 2018 too - starting to take form!

[edge-oftheworld]

Hi! I like so much your blog and i was reading the ttpd playlist with 5sos song and i was wondering, why do you choose Red Desert for the depression part?

I kinda see the reasons but i want know your reasons, please <3

hey anon!! Thank you so much, it means a lot to know people like my blog!

The decision to put red desert on the depression playlist was an interesting one!! And one that’s always up for refute too, I’m not the expert on which song goes where I’ve just got my best guess to give. Basically, to me it’s a typical 5sos song: looks all fun and cathartic but the more you listen to it you see the way it hints to darker things. And with the premise being ‘red red desert heal our blues’ it has me thinking of a time where you know something is wrong, and you’re now doing something to try feel better but the feeling better hasn’t actually happened yet. ‘Demons we’re running from theyre begging to stay’ embodies ‘old habits die screaming’ perfectly and ‘won’t you leave all your fears at the edge of the world’ implies being in the thick of it but also the very beginnings of regaining autonomy amidst the chaos. There’s desperation but also hope in ‘tell me won’t you pack up all your bags, stay true to north’ which kinda reminds me of os/co but ‘I’ve been asleep so long, wasting away’ is very much a depression thing to me when you’re tired of feeling and you go numb instead. Then the premise of the desert setting as a destination is like, I’m not gonna be overwhelmed by life there, I have a chance to feel things and have them catch up to me somewhere safe where I feel small against the expanse of nothingness and my problems do too—the acceptance hasn’t quite come but it’s on its way.

[ruvviks]

like when it would come down to it he would be decent enough to talk to as just a regular student he's kind and charming but there are just so little instances of him having a normal ass conversation with someone normal. he only ever got involved with insane freaks like him. he would publicly have sexually charged arguments with nick. jen and him would yell profanities at each other from other ends of the hallway. if you had to do a group project with him he would say a total of 10 words during your first class together then hand in his part of the project within the first two days and then ghost the group chat for the rest of the project's runtime

[monster-noises]

I love second hand book shops, I got to them frequently and always leave with Something and have a good time just peakin around

But i gotta say

It's one of the Worst spots for me in terms of imposter syndrome

I feel like everyone's uneasey with my presence as though i'm a stranger who just stumbled into their inner sanctum and they're.. they're gunna let me stay but they're gunna be weirded out the whole time and breath a sigh of relief when the Strange Unwelcome Freak Leaves

It also happens at record shops and sometimes at small antique shops or cons+festivals

Just this immediate foreboding of being Angrily Tolerated in a Space I Don't Belong

[cordycepsbian]

"human" leif or something

[kozzax]

i miss you ao3 i miss you so very much. im being so brave. i woke up today without a morning story to read and went to bed last night without a bedtime story. i miss you ao3. i love you ao3. i understand why its taken so long to come back but i will be here as soon as you are.

[talentforlying]

kind of want to change my icon for the Aesthetic but i love my little man in the shadows.

[3416]

I noticed you have a wide range of teams you post about.

Are you die hard fans of them all? Or you just enjoy hockey so you enjoy watching any team?

What are your top 5 favorite players and/ or teams?

Thanks Bestie ❤️

hey there!!!

honestly, i'm only die hard for the leafs right now tbh, but as someone still relatively new to the sport, i'm just super curious about the whole league and trying to get a feel n vibe for each team and the players.. i try to tune into games i think could be interesting or teams i like or when i'm bored, which turns out to be a lot!!

i'd say at this point in the season, i'm pretty much rooting for the leafs, kraken, pens, and then the underdogs of most games tbh.... i'm rooting for the downfall of eastern conference teams that are doing too well like bruins, devils, canes, rangers, bolts. i still enjoy plenty of players from all those teams regardless but THE LEAFS PATH TO VICTORY IS MOST IMPORTANT TO ME.

as for players... i mean i enjoy lots of them but some of my non leaf favs are quinn hughes, leon draisaitl, jason robertson, all of the kraken tbh, mika zibanejad, matthew tkachuk, pierre luc dubois, juuse saros, andrei kuzmenko, tim stutzle, and honestly lots lots more i could jsut keep naming them lol. but quinn and leon are prob my fave faves that aren't leafs (and now rasmus sandin too :( )

[cerbreus]

Been thinking about ways to approach mapping for my 5 yr old personal project and i’m completely enamored with the idea of the little clan of cartographers embroidering/beading like... coded maps on their clothing or inside of their jackets. Producing fully readable maps in the post apocalypse when traveling solo, and encountering hostile travelers and communities, is a pretty bad idea- anybody who can read your maps can misuse them (hunt down marked friendly communities). So having like... maps coded by the symbolism of stitch types and patterns, what trinkets you sew into the patterns (beads, scavenged trinkets, rocks). The idea of something that just looks pretty to everybody else, but holds a huge amount of information for the ones who know the language is so cool to me! also the idea that it’s like... a living map- spliced together from ones passed down by other ppl, and the like... map as a whole is just essentially a fancy quilt. Fun to think about :-)

[thatsuhboldchoice]

me trying to connect every single person of interest involved in the development of geology as a science at the beginning of the 19th century so i can write a play about them