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mari!! sending lots of love and hugs! i hope you have (had?) the best time in london! mwah! 🩵🙌🏻🫂
Addiiiii love💖💖 thank youuu so much!!
Having a blast, rn waiting for Much Ado to begin🤭
Have a wonderful, well deserved relaxed weekend BIG HUG!!!🫂
#trying to keep my shit together#third row in one of the prettiest theatres & about to see Tom Hayley and Mason🫡#asks#friends💖💖
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Bruce Wayne had a child that was somehow kidnapped right out of the hospital just hours after being born. He of them ever stopped looking despite how cold the trail had grown.
Years later there is some rouge attack and a civilian child was injured and taken to the hospital. Bruce does a DNA test on the blood found at the scene and concludes that the child is actually his long lost kid.
Dani was planning to sneak out of the hospital the moment the doctors stopped looking at her. Then Bruce Wayne of all people comes in and claims that she is his long lost child. She knows that this is very impossible because she is a clone, but Bruce won't listen to her and she really doesn't want to explain the clone thing to a "normal" stranger.
This does brings up a lot of questions about how Danny ended up living with the Fentons though.
#I think Selina is the best choice for a mom here purely because I think she and Dani would be amazing together#They would get on like a house on fire. Danny is more Bruce's son but Dani? Oh she is very much Selina's daughter. You feel me?#For this plot to work either Danny or Dani needs to be trans because Bruce would notice if his missing kid is a different sex#I have no real preference which but if we make Dani the trans one we can explain why she is so short for her age (puberty blockers)#Damian is gender affirming for Dani by telling her that he is “still the only blood son.” Dani holding back tears “Thanks bro.”#Danny would be older than Damian. But Dani isn't Danny and thus isn't as old as Bruce thinks she is. She and Damian are the same age (kinda#BUT she is oh so willing to lie and accept this fake age PURELY so she can be “older” than Damian. which pisses him off#when the truth comes out he absolutely abuses the fact that he is actually the older one to be a little shit#Dani keeps trying to run away but even with her powers she somehow keeps getting caught and dragged back#The bats are trying so hard to figure out where Dani has been all this time but she refuses to give straight answers#How DID Danny end up with the Fentons? IDK but I think the LOA is involved somehow#How does Danny feel about this realization? I am not sure about that either. I think at first he wants not part in a rich guy's life#Maybe he changes his mind later. It depends on how good you want the fentons to be as parents i guess#bruce wayne#batman#batfam#danny phantom#dc comics#dc x dp#dc x dp crossover#dc#dpxdc#dp x dc crossover#dp x dc prompt#dp x dc au#dp#dani phantom#my post#dose this one exist yet? There are so many bio kind Danny fics but not enough with Dani interacting with the bat fam
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It’s been 4 days since I drew any of my self ships.

#like yeah I drew a few f/os and fankids#even drew some stuff with my original characters#but nothing with my f/o(s) and my self inserts together#and trust me I’ve been trying for days!!#I keep thinking that maybe I’ll get new crushes since I been rewatching old childhood shows and that it’ll get my creative juices flowing#but I keep stressing myself out about it#that I keep jumping around too much#like I keep disappearing offline lately and then every time I return some drama is going on in the self ship community#and then I’m just confused as hell because no one really tells me anything#I’m just left in the dark#and maybe folks just assume I already know when this shit is happening but no#and then I feel kinda left out#which then I feel like I’m not close enough with people to know what’s happening in the community#which I guess I mostly blame myself that I don’t interact with others much because I’ll post something and then disappear out of nervousnes#and I’m always too scared to interact with any fandom to try to make friends with others who are into the same things#fearing I’ll be looked at like a freak for self shipping#hence why I usually only interact first with other self shippers compaired to those who don’t#well self ship#I didn’t mean for this to turn into a vent#it’s like 4am I should be sleeping#but I mostly feel just… numb#where I wouldn’t say it’s my depression acting up again (it was at first)#but I do feel like I’ve been on autopilot lately#💬 chy chatter 💬#ventish#vent
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inho and gihun song pt. 2 (as a ship or not, works perfectly for their canon dynamic)
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#squid game#squid game season 2#seong gi hun#hwang in ho#the frantman#player 456#doesnt have to be the ship btw#tagging it just because#457#inhun#me doing art#break your halo is literally their song okay#im not even kissing#it works so well#''i'll break your halo when you try to rise above me'' ''i'll show you my own hell. i could reach right down and pull you up''#''if i could change this life i would make things right. i would keep my shit together''#tell me that doesnt fit inho#if at least one person shares my vision i have succeded#(next song that i will relate to them is 'rainbows' from marry me a little btw. just as a hint haha)
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I just have this strong inkling that Sylus is gonna be a strongly multi-layered character. Like yes, he is a villain, and probably with good reason. Considering how the current timeline/story is so deeply woven with the myths and other phenomena we may not know of yet, it's likely that Sylus is this anomaly who exists to bring an unexpected sequence of events that hasn't been foretold by any prophecy or past life.
Knowing that Xavier's role has allusions to time and time traveling (the current timeline we play in is the past), he's essentially breaking that prophetic rule, in a way. Going back to the main timeline to try and save the MC, destroying the protocores in Onichynus' possession...
But everything that Xavier's purpose is, maybe Sylus has exceeded that already or intends to, at least. Since he's been watching the MC this whole time, and has seen her with Xavier/Lumiere... the central rivalry will transpire between those two. I can also see a rivalry between Rafayel and Sylus, only because Raf seems to have the deeper connections when it comes to networking and who does what, etc. (And with Zayne who became a cardiac surgeon with the intention of saving MC, it's likely a tense rivalry between him and Sylus would gradually turn into something of neutral ground.)
Anyway, my point of it all is: Sylus will break the pattern. Whatever curse there is that has been placed on MC, his existence seeks to rid of that curse by any means possible. I do truly believe he wants to let the world burn for her, and the protocore experimentation serves a greater purpose of trying to save her...
#again all purely speculation#not even sure if i got any of the lore right#can you blame me for that though because this shit is so convoluted i can't even keep up or try to piece it together anymore#however i think we're underestimating just how powerful sylus is#like y'all..... let's really think about it and sit with it for a second!!!!#the last time i put out a prediction for a game it actually came true though so this is a bit sus on my end#putting my spiritual prowess into all of this frfr#sylus#love and deepspace#love & deepspace#lnds sylus#sylus love and deepspace#lads
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i have this headcanon where long story short stanley gains consciousness but the narrator hasn’t, and once stanley does something stupid (goes so far out of bounds the narrator is left to his own devices to get him back in bounds lol) it knocks the narrator into consciousness
and when he resets and realizes he’s not being dictated by code anymore the narrator is PISSED
like how DARE you make it so i’m having actual thoughts. i can remember more than 20 seconds ago and ITS ALL YOUR FAULT. now i have to deal with wants and desires instead of just following a script for eternity! kys!!!!!!!!
#this is one of my favorite headcanons of mine it’s very in depth and i wanna make a fic about it#<- does not write#<- does not know how to make a fanfic#i’ve been trying for MONTHS to get my casino au to work out but it won’t come together#i have no clue what they would do past a certain point#i think about it daily like how can i move the story forward#i’ve tried making stanley kill himself i’ve tried making stanley get roofied ive tried stanley trying to get his life together#the narrator doesn’t do shit in this au he just tries to keep his routine the same#and fails because he’s head over heals for a man who hasn’t had access to a shower for months#tsp#stanley parable#the stanley parable#moth rambles
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maybe if i just put these screenshots together youll understand why i think their relationship just Works so well as it pertains to the characters and themes of S4 in general
neither of them know what theyre doing, but theyre figuring it out Together. the old ways are dead. and together theyll build a new future thats worth fighting for
#twdg#violentine#clems “i dont know” paired with violets “lets figure it out together”. screaming crying throwing up#clem never knew what she was doing!! she was just trying her best!! and now shes tired as SHIT!!! she wants a break 😭!!!#vi helps take that weight off by supporting her as much as she does (which is A LOT!! and clem supports her in return. they grow together)#that bit in the woods where instead of getting grossed out by the guts vi crouches down to ajs level and keeps the situation calm#and she looks up to clem and gives her a little smile. and clem just relaxes and smiles back !! DO YOU UNDERSTAND !!!#clem being anxious about her reaction. violet putting her at ease. clem getting to Relax for 2 seconds. they help each other CHILL 😭#ALSO why their walk home talking about ericson and renaming it and imagining what they could add to it is just so good narratively#they turned that prison into their HOME!! a place worth fighting for!!!#tenn wanting to help rebuild. vi saying Everyone will :') its a home for ALL OF THEM 😭 its about the COMMUNITY !!!#this is also why i think the friends route still works but theres just even more Juice with the romance. even ignoring minnie#violets “you better not disappear on me”. friended clems “ok” to romanced clems “i promise”#in a season about building a home and a family that second one just hits harder you know? and like above with the learning to dance#i just feel like their romantic relationship specifically fits into the overall themes of the game the strongest and elevates it#me talking at the wall (tumblr drafts)#all of my friends who have played twdg are too normie so i gotta make posts like this instead. or i'll die#wont somebody analyze narrative with me#it speaks
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Glad I've got my little travel Eevee attached to my bag today
Poor little guy's gonna have a bald spot on his head, i keep petting him so much
#at cardiac rehab waiting for things to start and trying to keep my shit together#struggling!!!#eevee#pokemon#mod post
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A silly guide on how I draw normal Riolu vs My sona
#Riolu#Doodle#The Mod#Do not use my sona thanks#Just wanted to give a silly doodle while I ramble#I admittedly made the last few daily pieces as basically a progression of my eyes for the last ~1.5 years#Keeping up with everything became harder because of my eyes#I only talked about this briefly on my main twitter#I was diagnosed with keratoconus#My eyes got worse over time#so I was squinting constantly and would get headaches trying to focus my eyes to draw or play half the games I did#it sucked. I slept a lot to get rid of pain and I felt like I couldnt do my normal work so it kept piling#I had surgery + got RGP Contacts to help me see normally this year tho!#So I can finally get my shit together and have been slowly trying to get everything going/sorted#Just to like... explain where I disappeared to#Ofc Its hard to do anything art or reading without my contacts in#tbh i didnt even know until December lol so it went for awhile and thought my prescription went from good to shit#so i took a minor break from social media to keep where my eyes used online to mainly discord
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Having to block everyone who has "wincest dni" in their bio not because I ship wincest (because I have come to the conclusion that I actually don't) but because I do think it'd be fun to poke around at the very real weirdness of their relationship that I've noticed in the show so far. And I'm 99% sure that my poking around will get seen as shipping.
#andiv3r rambles#incest mention#stupid because i Don't ship them. i dont want them to kiss or whatever i just think they're Weird and would like to acknowledge that#and maybe play around with it . and try to figure out what the fuck is going on.#but nobody in any fandom wants to play anymorree#like im sorry they're weird. im sorry they got repeatedly assumed to be a couple just within the first and second season#and then compared to bonnie and clyde. and then !#. “an old married couple.”#and also there was the “just brothers” comment which i've spent so long ranting about that i'm sure all my friends are sick of hearing about#how what i'm sure was some writer's intention of doubling down on the “look they're SO not having weird gay incestuous feelings for one#another“#MAJORLY backfired and instead implied that the incest was more of a possibility. whereas just about ANY other phrasing wouldn't have.#i dunno. i dunno! once again i don't ship them . but i do think they're weird about one another. codependent maybe? dean specifically says#that he couldn't continue living if sam dies. they both try to sell their own souls to keep the other one alive#which again!! doesnt imply incest necessarily!! but it does imply Weirdness! they ARE weird!#probably a lot to do with their upbringing. but like. they are Weird. they behave strangely and act like they Need one another#which is Not normal for a sibling bond 👍#but yeah . yeah i'm rambling now. it's whatever.#tl;dr i don't ship them but their relationship is Canonically Weird And Abnormal and i think it's unfair to ask me to ignore that#and just go “haha they're so Brother. they're so Regular Normal Sibling.” because they're Not#they have that sibling bond that makes me go “aha#these are clearly brothers“#but then they say and do shit that makes me just want to grab the nearest person and scream ARE YOU SEEING THIS SHIT#WHAT DO YOU MEAN “she knows your weakness. it's me” STOP SAYING THINGS LIKE THAT TO YOUR BROTHER. THAT'S NOT NORMAL!!!!#. ahem. anyway. yeah. sorry#i can't wait till i get to later seasons and castiel shows up because i've heard im going to Like him#and also because Gay People#but for now i'm rotating sam and dean around in my mind in a microwave and Wishing i could put them in therapy together#because they Need to learn how to not be so strange and odd about one another in an unhealthy way
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The bertholdt hoover fandom is dying rt if youd wipe the sweat from his brow like if youd give him a warm glass of milk
#coming over here to my fucking reibert saved url from 2014 on my old blog because im going crazy thinking about bertholdt my beloved#my right hand arm. man. my confidant. my best friend. my silly rabbit.#bro my EVERYTHINGGGGGG#i loved him when i thought he did all that unprompted idgaf i will love him to my dying days#i was with him (and reiner) thru the dark ages where they had just fucked off in the manga after unsuccessfully kidnapping eren and they#didnt show up until literal years later. i stopped reading once they left i couldnt go on w/o them!!!!!!#the only info we had was that they predicted the damn weather based off how he slept!!! u have no idea the loyalty i have to this man (and#reiner and annie) but omfg. omfg. its so bad. just watched s2 for the first time in my LIFE and im losing my SHIT#idk if i can keep watching & the only snk i read after they left was their reppearance and then i immediately stopped again when he DIED!!!!#so we'll see if i can cope with continuing on. probably not tbh. anyway i 🩷 bertholdt. most tragic figure ever. right there next to annie –#and reiner. they were literal kids who were sent out to kill thousands and then live amongst the suffering they alone caused –#and had to wake up each day and face their comrades their peers their friends and know they had to keep going and deliver everyone to –#their demise. no one else could ever understand that burden ✋️. meanwhile reiner has a literal mental breakdown from the stress and develops#a dissociative disorder and annie isolates herself and bertholdt has to try to keep it together. the fucking TRAGEDYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!! seeing#bertl's face when reiner talks about goinf home. the hope the grief the despair. ☝️ i need to die.#knowing he fcking died is the worst part. take literally anyone else omg theyre ready to go. free my man.
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the rituals are intricate and very comical
#idk what to focus on here. ron my guy dont you worry yourself about anything ❤️#your jealousy and resentment will lead you to make a mistake so big next year that it knocks enough sense into you for a lifetime#🔮 you will finally recognise your role as the glue that holds the trio together and you will vow to never abandon them again#only then will the circumstances be right for you discover that they both love you and need you��� as much as you love and need them 🔮☝️#that being said i did clock how flustered harry’s compliment made hermione and additionally#how harry blushed hearing hermione describe his romantic appeal.. id get scared too if i were ron. with or without inferiority complex#Also undeniably ron must agree with hermione that harry is ‘fanciable’ as fuck. or he wouldnt feel this threatened#also him gagging on his food after hearing someone verbalise this fact DHJDJ. you could of course chalk it all up to his crush on hermione#or you could add the very interesting layer of his own perception of harry to it#bc as i have wisely stated before in a previous post. ‘hee is obsessed with that harry kid’ <- i could write essays on this#but it boils down to the thin line between ‘i want to be that person’ and ‘i want to be WITH that person’#a very well known phenomenon amongst the members of the ‘in gay love with my best friend’ community#you can’t make this shit up. i don’t even have to try that hard to see romionarry in everything they just literally keep doing the work 4me#hp6#romionarry
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"Why do you sound so surprised at that?"
#biohazards art#ff7#cloud strife#also hi yes im tagging all the silhouettes i am free of shame (they are in order)#sephiroth#genesis rhapsodos#angeal hewley#zack fair#aerith gainsborough#tifa lockhart#was doing this in between stuff and im glad i finally had the time to finish it!#i wont tag individual ships bc oh my fucking god that would be so many tags im already trying to keep this shit together#anyways the lifestream/gaia is in fact talking over in him the second panel :)#the kin bullshit
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kinda sad to me that there's no truck bombing aus where bobby was on the truck and he's the one who gets crushed........
#i almost said it was crazy there was none but actually it unfortunately makes sense#people are too obsessed with buck and his traumas and whatnot to switch it up#which isnt necessarily a bad thing buuuut#i just noticed people often take other characters traumas slash storylines and give it to buck...#anyways think of the bobby and athena angst here#newly engaged bathena and bobby gets horribly injured#would he heal similar to how buck did or would his be much harder and maybe a worse outcome#would he be lucky to keep his leg or go back to work ...#its like his back injury all over again#this is just constantly on my mind like the freddie storyline could have been more#he was actively trying to kill bobby and athena....#could have easily turned into a jonah like plot where he kidnaps them both ... or one of them as leverage for the other...#or if there was more confrontation between them...#anyways this is a missed opportunity guys#if i could get my shit together and write this would be on the list but the chances of that happening are slim#cursed to come up with interesting ideas but no ability to write them ...#bobby nash#athena grant#bathena
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sorry for only saying this type of shit lately but i kinda wanna drive a car straight into a brick wall at the highest speed possible
#trying to keep it together so bad because i already know the problems and solutions and whatnot but i cannot do anything#i desperately just need to do something. accomplish any task. actually several would be nice. but i cannot stand just letting life go by#while i watch other people have the things i want. or even metaphorically living my dream like. that should be me why am i settling for thi#i hate even talking about this because i feel so stupid when i know it's not even a real tangible problem and that i actually DO have real#problems to tackle and the ability to do so but i'm choosing to be upset over the stupidest things i could possibly be sad about#and i can't even be sad about it in a normal way i'm cycling through like several different reactions to smth that isn't even real#or if it is real i literally do not have tanglible evidence for it one way or another like i'm driving myself insane for no reason#i can't even get catharsis because all i'm doing is digging a deeper hole for something i never should've gone back into in the first place#because i KNOW how i am i KNOW how i react to things and i still chose to do it lmao.#and i continue to choose to go through this shit instead of actively trying to change my life because... i'm lazy? and stupid? idk#negative self-talk isn't gonna get me to do anything either so let's just say i'm feeling particularly unmotivated like usual#i hated being a teenager but i really do miss when all my problems just amounted to 'someone was mean to me on tumblr today :(' or i failed#a test in chemistry or something. like i yearn for that simplicity becasue at this point all i'm doing is ruining my own life LMAO#i'm too scared to live i'm too scared to die so i just sit here and fantasize that life could be amazing if i wait#and i'll magically get everything i've ever wanted if i just wait long enough. and i know it isn't true and i still wait for it to happen.#because honestly like. i think deep down i am just convinced i will fail at anything i do when that shouldn't be what scares me.#what scares me should be never even allowing myself to fail because i never tried to do anything at all with myself or my life#like. wake the fuck up. get off your ass and put in the effort. learn some skills. gain independence and stability and discipline and do it#just live please i'm begging you just live so i can be happy don't i deserve to be happy... why am i not letting myself be happy#i'm literally keeping myself trapped in this negative feedback loop ON PURPOSE because teehee shiny toy#and it doesn't matter if the love is real it doesn't matter how i feel like i'm just using it as a distraction i can't say it's motivation#because it's barely motivated me at all. i have to start being realistic. 25 & just realizing you actually have to participate in your life#anyways. i've cried i've agonized i've pictured killing myself in 30 different ways. i think the only way i'm gonna feel better is#to just actually try this time without giving up. wish me luck
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/ A reminder to never expect me to be fully updated on lore and know all the minuscule 9487548957894 details of a character's story and their surroundings, I'm empty as men came to this world and can only vouch for my muses through love (also bc I cannot remember things rip)
#;ooc#ooc#i thrive only by love.... (crying because my memory is the size of a peanut)#this is a safe space for not knowing jack shit!!; let's learn.... together!!!!#i remember i started my very first f.ate blog with n.ero and knew close to nothing about how the world of f.ate worked#i was like wtf is a g.rand order!?!? what are they ordering!!!#like im not joking i was winging it so hard until i got the hang of what f.go was#i only knew i liked her grandiose personality and was interested in learning about emperor nero and history thats all#i tend to beat myself a lot of times over not knowing stuff; feeling like im not 'worthy enough' to write x character#or because i see there are too many people pulling out such cool detailed headcanons im like#'oh man... what could i possibly talk about that hasn't been brought out before? its so pointless!'#BUT NO BROTHER :POINTING EMOJI: write whoever tickles your heart#its okay if at the end you coulndt find the muse; but at least you tasted the juice! u could decide for yourself and not the#i.ntrusive thoughts#like yessir i try my best to keep up but! it is as it is;#drilling in my head that not knowing the most about a muse doesnt demerit my love for them#and that i dont have to know everything to feel worthy enough to write them or like them
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