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msflora-lynn · 1 month ago

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Nightmares [Dad!AU]

Okay I'm consumed by the "Primarch having kid" AU. You guys broke me and now I'm gonna write one for Magnus, where he comforts his kid!

Word count: 830 words.

Warnings: None, this is cute and wholesome fiC NOTHING BAD HAPPENS!!

“Father.”

(Y/N)’s small voice echoed inside the grand master bedroom. Their tiny head peeked through the heavy, ornate door, searching for their father. They found him seated at his desk, immersed in a book. The Crimson King—Magnus—preferred spending his quiet moments reading or exploring what he called “the Great Ocean.”

“Yes, my child?” Magnus turned his head, his crimson eyes softening at the sight of them shyly peeking into the room. “Why are you awake at this hour? I can sense your mind is unsettled.”

“I had a nightmare,�� (Y/N) admitted, leaving the doorway and running toward him. They clung to his right leg, burying their face in his thigh. “I dreamed you were gone! You weren’t here with me! I don’t know why, but you disappeared, and I couldn’t find you!”

Magnus’s stern yet compassionate expression remained unchanged as he scooped his child into his arms, placing them gently on his lap. “And you’re afraid of losing me?”

Tears stained (Y/N)’s cheeks, and their lips quivered as they nestled against his neck. “Yes! I don’t want to lose you! Promise me you won’t leave! Promise you’ll stay with me!”

Magnus, known for his immense power and knowledge, was a figure (Y/N) always believed to be invincible. The idea of losing him had never crossed their mind before. But now, the fear of him vanishing—of their father leaving them behind—gnawed at their heart.

“(Y/N),” he said softly, his tone soothing. “I know exactly what will help calm you.”

He made a book float from his desk and held it as he carried (Y/N) to the bed. Sitting down, he began to weave a story using his powers, animating the scenes within the book.

The projection came to life, illuminating the room with a gentle glow. It began with a depiction of the universe’s creation—a grand explosion birthing a planet, and the early life that began to thrive on Prospero.

“Look at these little creatures,” Magnus said, pointing to the projection of strange, ancient animals. “They used to roam this planet long ago. Do you see how life flourished?”

The projection fast-forwarded, showing natural disasters, extinction events, and evolution. Magnus narrated as the creatures vanished, their remains transforming into dust and compost that nurtured new life.

“From death comes life,” he explained. “Nothing lasts forever. All things end, returning to dust. But from that dust, life always begins anew.”

(Y/N) watched as the scene shifted to a limping animal, weakened and dying. Its body eventually returned to the earth, feeding the plants around it.

“All is dust... in the end?” they asked, their voice trembling.

“Yes,” Magnus replied. “But from dust, comes life.”

He gently patted their head, noticing their eyes growing heavy. The soft glow of the projection was lulling them to sleep.

“But I don’t want you to turn to dust or go away,” (Y/N) murmured, their voice barely above a whisper.

Magnus smiled faintly, brushing a stray strand of their hair from their face. “You are strong, my child. Even if one day the universe collapses and the stars explode, taking me away, you will be okay. I believe in you.”

To reassure them, Magnus conjured another scene: a projection of himself as a small child.

“Is that... you?” (Y/N) asked, their curiosity momentarily keeping them awake.

“It is,” he said with a nod. “When I first arrived on this planet, I was just as small and confused as you. I knew my purpose, but I was alone. I didn’t know anyone, and no one knew me. Yet, I pushed forward. I learned, I grew, and I thrived.”

Magnus noticed them struggling to keep their eyes open, though they were mesmerized by the soft, glowing imagery.

“Did you ever miss your father? The Emperor?” they asked sleepily, correcting themselves.

“I did,” Magnus admitted. “Our communication was limited, but when we spoke, it felt wonderful. Still, I knew I couldn’t depend on him. The achievements here on Prospero were the result of my own hands, and the efforts of the people who live here. If I had stayed a sad child, lost in loneliness, I would not have accomplished anything.”

“But I’m not strong like you,” (Y/N) whispered, clutching his robe.

“Even when it feels like the world is ending, you will be okay,” Magnus reassured them, gently stroking their hair. He dimmed the projection, transforming it into a serene display of softly glowing stars sprinkled across the room. “And if tomorrow is my end, you will still be okay.”

(Y/N)’s small fingers held his hand as they finally drifted off to sleep.

Magnus watched them for a moment, then considered returning to his studies. But instead, he lay down beside them, pulling the blanket over them both.

He rarely indulged in moments like this, wanting (Y/N) to grow strong and independent. Yet tonight, they had been brave enough to seek his comfort, and he would be a good, loving father. Tonight, he would stay by their side to make them feel safe.

#warhammer 40k #fanfic #magnus the red #wh40k #hey so i actually lost my tablet pen and now im trying to keep my shit together and filling the time by writing fanfic

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dazzle02 · 2 months ago

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Fiona and Lip vs Mickey (They did not hate him or treat him unfairly!!)

People love to claim Fiona and Lip were always super unfair to Mickey and I need to get all this out. I said in my last post that I would make this post at some point, and so I'm doing it now because I need to get it out.

I'll start with Lip.

So during the first 3 seasons Lip was the only one who knew about Ian and Mickey. And he was always pretty supportive about it really. At the end of S3 he made one comment to Ian about how the good thing about falling for Mickey was that you could always do better. Was that necessarily nice? No. But I never actually even took it as Lip truly not liking Mickey for Ian. Just as that thing people often do when their friend/sibling goes through a breakup. Trying to make him feel better, and adding in a little trash talk about the person who hurt them. But also, their relationship hadn't exactly been the most healthy. I love Gallavich, but we can all acknowledge that, right? Mickey had beaten Ian up just a couple episodes before that. Also, Lip very rarely got to see them together pre season 4. And when he did, they were pretending there was nothing going on because Mickey didn't know Lip knew. Lip literally saw Mickey walk off to go have sex with Angie while Ian was right there. And sure, he would've likely been told some of the better stuff about their relationship (if it can even be called that in 1-3?) but for the most part he only got to see the bad, and also the bad was what Ian was gonna talk more about because that was when he needed to get things out. So yeah, Lip may have had a little bit of hesitance towards their relationship at that point in time.

And same in early S4 when he asked Ian if it was really a good idea that Mickey was still at the house. That wasn't anything actually against Mickey as a person, that was about the situation and the fact that he knows how much everything hurt Ian.

Also, he knew about Mickey being gay since S1 and Mickey never even suspected he knew anything until S4 when Lip had to hint at it to try and get him to say whether he'd heard from Ian. Lip knew that wasn't something he was supposed to know, and so he only knew it when he and Ian were alone.

In S4 when Lip was looking for Ian, Mickey was the first person he asked after Debbie and Carl. And he didn't push. He just asked if he'd heard from him, the only thing I'd say could be classed as pushing was his "are you really gonna make me spell it out?" about his and Ian's relationship. And even that he quickly backed off from. Then he said he'd let Mickey know what kind of trouble Ian was in once he found out. (And by telling Mandy what was going on, he did...)

Season 5 is where it gets interesting and where I see the most shit about Lip being unfair to Mickey.

We see Lip and Fiona go to Mickey to ask him to try and talk to Ian about going to see a Doctor, they explain the symptoms of Bipolar they're seeing in Ian. They mention Monica to point out that they know what they're talking about. (We also see that Lip is actually amused by Mickey when he's beating that guy up and yelling up to his wife...) And Mickey ignores them. And that must've been SO frustrating and scary for them. But they don't hold it against him, because they understand!

Then we see Mickey go to Lip and ask about the doctor after the debacle with the suitcases. And Lip is visibly worried, but when Mickey tells him things are okay, he believes him. Or he doesn't quite believe him, but he doesn't push. And this is something I often see people think the opposite of. People often seem to believe that Lip will push Mickey over Ian's Bipolar, that he won't let him handle it himself and just insert himself in and not trust Mickey has things handled. And honestly, after this I wouldn't have blamed him if that was true. But it's just NOT.

Then we really get into it. Episode 5 happens. Ian hasn't come home and Mickey goes to find him and learns he left the club with some other guy and he's pissed. But he can't get to Ian, so he goes after Lip. (Just like in 1x03...) He and his brothers invite Lip to join them in their shooting stolen guns at a window thing, then try and leave him to take the fall. They literally could've destroyed his entire life. And look, Lip was an adult and made the choice to join them. But at the end of the day, Mickey was angry at Ian and tried to take that out on Lip. AND IT IS NEVER MENTIONED AGAIN! Lip never holds it against him. He could've. Maybe even should've. But he doesn't.

Because the very next episode is when Ian has taken Yevgeny and Lip goes to the Milkovich house with Fiona and is totally fine with both Mickey and Iggy and it's like nothing happened. And the car scenes!

Mickey apologises because he realises that he should've listened to Fiona and Lip when they told him that Ian needed help. And Lip responds that yes, he should've. Because he should have. Then proceeds to let him know it can get worse. But then the second car scene, once they have Ian. Lip tells Mickey that he did his best. That he knows he tried, and that that's more than most people would do. With no prompting. Literally the episode before this, Mickey and his brothers had tried to set him up for a crime they'd committed and didn't apologise or anything, and yet Lip is so quick to assure him he did okay. Despite the fact that he likely does have some anger at the fact that he didn't listen to them from the start.

Then when he and Fiona are going to pick Ian up from the hospital, he says he thought Mickey would be there. Lip can see how much Mickey loves Ian. He was surprised he wasn't there.

That deleted scene from after Ian didn't go to Mexico with Mickey next. "People say "You always went a little loco when Mickey was around." THAT LINE WASN'T ANYTHING ABOUT IAN'S BIPOLAR OR THE WAY MICKEY HANDLED IT! It was a "I know how in love with Mickey you are and how much you'd do to be with him." That wasn't a criticism of Mickey. And Lip saying he doesn't think he should've gone wasn't either. It was just that he didn't wanna lose his brother, and that he also knew it likely wouldn't be good for his health. (Which I talked about in my last post...)

In Season 10 when Ian tells Lip he thinks Mickey killed Paula, Lip's response is that of course he should lie to the police and say that Mickey was there all night.

Lip literally tells Ian he thinks he should marry Mickey the next episode, but only when he's ready. That first he needs to figure out why he doesn't want to at that moment. And he was right. Ian was so clearly going through something at that point in time, struggling with his feelings of worthiness and about his Bipolar and legally binding Mickey to that for the rest of his life.

And then along with everyone else Lip does everything in his power to make the wedding happen. Which, yes the wedding is also his brother's. But you don't go that far to make sure your brother gets to marry someone you don't approve of or like.

In S11 there's the "family only" moment, but I get what Lip meant there. It wasn't that he didn't consider Mickey to be family, it was that he felt the conversation should only be the Gallagher siblings. This was their childhood home, it was a discussion between them. He also told Tami to back off. The "What so Mickey's family but Tami isn't" thing also didn't come off as a criticism of Mickey being family to me, more as a "Tami is the mother of my child, marriage isn't the only way to become family." But I get that might just be me.

And they butt heads a lot, I get that. But at the end of the day, Lip does approve of Mickey. I'd even go as far as to say he likes and cares about him.

Now onto Fiona.

Let's start with the fact that she had no idea anything was even going on between them until suddenly Mickey was living in their house. And she never really said anything about it. Just had a little confusion about it.

The real starting point is when she realised Ian was Bipolar. People claim she did a bad job at explaining it to Mickey and made it sound like something that could never be stabilised in any way and that the only answer was hospitalisation. But like, she was terrified too. Her little brother who she loves is in a depressive episode and she's just realised he's likely Bipolar and the only experience she has of it is her mother. Monica. She was absolutely terrified because the last experience she had with Monica at that point in time was her slitting her wrists in the kitchen. Her entire childhood was totally chaotic because Monica wasn't taking her meds. (Plus everything with Frank, and I'll always say he's far worse!! But this isn't about him...) She has never experienced someone actually being able to live a good life with bipolar where they're not just hurting everyone around them. And of course she was getting frustrated, because even though logically she would've understood that Mickey just doesn't know anything about Bipolar, it likely felt like he was invalidating her trauma. ("Depressed? We all get fucking depressed." "He's depressed we'll cheer him up." "I'll hide the knives until he perks up.") Not only would that feel like he was just saying "it can't be that bad, you're overreacting and I can fix this." but also some of these things are likely things she'd thought or said about Monica when she was younger. Trying to cheer her up when she's depressed, trying to downplay it a bit to help herself deal. But she knows from experience that's not how it works. And she's terrified because now it's her little brother.

But she agrees to let Mickey take care of him. She can see how much this means to him, that he's determined and that he's not going to let her get him to a doctor. (Even though legally she could've as he was still underage and she was his legal guardian...)

And people also seem to think that the Gallaghers just abandoned Ian with the Milkoviches while he was depressed and didn't help out or anything, but the scene of her and Ian going for that run together doesn't feel that way at all to me. I've always felt they'd go to see him whenever they could and do what they could to help out. But at the end of the day, he was at the Milkovich house and they couldn't just be there at all times. (Just another criticism I see a lot that I hate...)

As I said in Lip's section, they go to see Mickey to talk to him about getting Ian to see a Doctor, and he refuses.

At the end of the episode when Ian shows up to their pool party Fiona immediately asks where Mickey is. Which means that she not only either extended the invite to Mickey to come too, or just assumed he would, but also cared enough to ask after him when he didn't show.

In episode 2, Mandy asks Mickey if they should call Fiona when Ian's planning to go kill a bunch of homophobes. (This unintentional foreshadowing to Gay Jesus though...) Mickey immediately says no because she'll take him to a Shrink. Again, I get that's scary, but that was what he needed.

Mickey finally calls her when Ian takes Yevgeny and she immediately goes over there and calls Lip too. She also doesn't lay any blame at Mickey's feet. There's no getting annoyed that he didn't listen to them when they warned him. Just need to find Ian.

She smiles when Mickey calls himself Ian's boyfriend in the next episode when they're going to visit him. She's comforting towards him when Ian leaves after the visit by assuring him that he's just sedated and adjusting to meds and that it'll be okay. But doesn't push. Then later tells Gus that she thinks it was really hard for Mickey.

Here's the part where she gets the most criticism though. "I thought Mickey would be here." "I didn't." THIS WAS NOT ANYTHING AGAINST MICKEY! She had seen how hard the visit was for him. She saw his reaction and how freaked out he was. This wasn't her saying "I didn't think he'd come because he doesn't actually care about Ian and he's the worst!" No! It was her saying "I didn't think he'd come because I saw how much it hurt him seeing him like that and haven't heard from him since." Also, she wasn't wrong. He wasn't there. Like, we know why. He was struggling with everything and that is understandable. But why is Fiona just so awful for believing something that turned out to be true?

Then of course Mickey came back and all was good. And Fiona wasn't surprised by that. She never held it against him that he wasn't there to pick Ian up. There was no animosity. He offered to help her out with Carl's Court outfit stuff, she just asked if he could use an iron and then they walked off together to go do that and possibly talk or whatever.

Then Mickey was still just walking about the house like it was his own after Ian was arrested. This was totally normal to Fiona. There was no question whether Mickey would be going with them to see Ian in Military Prison. When they got back she was fine with leaving him with Debbie and Liam as if it was totally normal.

And I spoke about her line in S7 about how Mickey would set a match to Ian's life in my last post. But I'll say it again here. It wasn't about Mickey as a person or his relationship with Ian. It was about the fact that Mickey was literally a fugitive. He'd just escaped Prison and was a fugitive. Ian could not have been in a relationship with him at that time without destroying his entire life. Without losing his job. Without losing his family due to the fact that he would also now be a fugitive and wouldn't be able to have contact with them. Going with Mickey would cost him everything. She was right. He would've set a match to Ian's life. And he kinda did. To me it was never about her thinking Mickey was bad for Ian. She knew how much they love each other and she saw how good for each other they could be. But at that point in time, they couldn't have had a good relationship. The circumstances were too bad. She didn't want that life for Ian. Constantly looking over his shoulder because the Police were looking for him, always on the run, never able to really see his family.

They didn't have many interactions, but a lot of them were during a time where both were terrified for Ian and wanted to handle it in different ways. Both came from places of love. But Fiona's also came from a place of experience, while Mickey's came from a place of inexperience.

#shameless #shameless us #fiona gallagher #lip gallagher #mickey milkovich #criticising the act of pitting characters against each other #lip and fiona didn't treat mickey like shit #or unfairly #in fact they handled things better than i would've #if my brother was clearly unwell and his partner was actively keeping me from getting him help i'd never want them near him again #mickey milkovich critical #i guess?#not really but i wanna be safe #i love him #i really do #but i am fed up of so many narratives surrounding him #especially when it comes to the gallaghers #and i am getting it all out there #he was not always a victim of everyone #stop putting characters down just to bring your favourite up #stop victimising characters at the expense of making everyone else out to be the worst #it's what makes me end up hating characters #and not the ones you're making out to be the worst #there are characters i actively hate now just because their fans try to paint everyone else out to be awful to them #because people claiming one character is perfect makes me more critical of them #and then sometimes it gets to the point where all that mixed together just makes me hate them #and i don't think i'm the only one

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