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“Oh No” / Avengers: Assemble (explicit lyrics)
i made another fanvideo for a bingo fill, this time for square Y4 / “starting a new team” for @cap-ironman stony bingo round 2
#stony#marvel#the avengers#fanvid#mcu edit#girl talk#mashup#tony stark#steve rogers#loki#video#my edit#(been trying to get the hang of this software -- still working out some things)#(this weekend i learned that there are more transitions to choose from than basic cross fades -- tyvm youtube tutorial makers)#(so i went back and redid this one before releasing it 🙏 *so* much better now)
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Humanformers IDW1 Arcee and Galvatron were child stars
#you know because they were gladiators in canon#objectified for entertainments#not allowed freedom#not getting to mingle with children their age#always at the whims of adults#galvatron internalized all the wrong things and now keep trying to get the glory of those days back#but managing himself now#doesn't care who he has to step on#arcee was always criticized for being weird and rude (austistic)#she was happy to fade into obscurity#but her transition made it to the news and suddenly everyone had an opinion on that#coupled with her doctor being the fucking worst she had an atrocious time so you can imagine how she reacted to the public (justified)#this may or may not be inspired by oshi no ko#quetzal rambles tf
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PUNISHMENT - HYUNJU
pairing: professor!hyunju x ftm!reader
synopsis: Math isn't the only thing that's hard.
content warnings: 18+, teacher x student, blowjob, pre-transition hyunju, face fucking, slight choking, facial
word count: 1.4k
The lecture hall was eerily quiet as the last of your classmates filed out, their chatter fading into the hallway. You stayed behind, clutching your bag strap tightly, watching as Professor Hyunju erased the board with calm, methodical strokes. The squeak of the chalk against the surface was still fresh in your ears, the sound mixing with the rapid beat of your heart.
You’d known this conversation was coming. Her sharp eyes had been following you all semester, and not just in the way that professors check in on their struggling students. There was something in her gaze—something that made your stomach flip, even as you avoided eye contact. You couldn’t decide if it was intimidation, curiosity, or something darker that kept your nerves on edge every time she called your name in class.
“Wait here,” she had said earlier, her tone even but leaving no room for argument. It wasn’t a request.
Now, you stood awkwardly by the door, your feet refusing to move any closer. She hadn’t said much else, letting the silence grow heavy as she finished erasing the board and organized her papers into a neat stack. The tension was suffocating, the space between you filled with all the words you were too afraid to say.
Finally, she turned to face you, leaning casually against her desk, arms crossed over her chest. Her sharp, fitted blazer and pencil skirt made her look more like a corporate CEO than a college professor. Her presence was commanding, the kind that drew your eyes even when you didn’t want to look.
“Close the door,” she said simply, her voice cutting through the air like a blade.
You hesitated for a moment, then obeyed, the click of the door shutting making you flinch. When you turned back to her, her gaze was fixed on you—steady, unwavering, and entirely unreadable.
“You know why you’re here,” she said, her tone calm but tinged with disappointment.
You swallowed hard, nodding. “I’m failing.”
“Failing doesn’t begin to cover it,” she replied, raising an eyebrow. “You’re barely scraping by, and if this keeps up, you won’t pass my class—or this semester.”
Her words hit like a punch to the gut, even though you already knew the truth. You shifted your weight from one foot to the other, your cheeks flushing with embarrassment.
“I… I’m trying,” you muttered, your voice barely above a whisper.
“Are you?” she asked, her sharp tone cutting through your feeble excuse. “Because from where I’m standing, it doesn’t look like it.”
You flinched, your gaze dropping to the floor. It wasn’t like you hadn’t been trying, but between juggling other classes, working part-time, and dealing with the weight of everything else in your life, something had to give. Unfortunately, it had been this class—and she wasn’t letting you forget it.
Her heels clicked softly as she stepped closer, the sound echoing in the empty room. You froze as the scent of her faint perfume wafted toward you, a subtle mix of floral and spice that made your head spin.
“You’re capable of so much more,” she said, her voice softening slightly. “But you’re not putting in the effort. That’s not just disappointing—it’s unacceptable.”
The way she said it, her words laced with both criticism and something almost… personal, made your throat tighten. You hated how small you felt under her gaze, like you were back in high school, getting scolded by a teacher. But this wasn’t high school, and she wasn’t just any teacher.
Hyunju had a presence that couldn’t be ignored, a charisma that made her stand out even in a room full of people. It was more than her looks—though you’d be lying if you said her sharp features, immaculate style, and piercing eyes didn’t make your chest tighten every time you saw her. It was the way she carried herself, the quiet confidence that demanded respect and made you want to prove yourself to her, even if you weren’t sure why.
And now, standing here alone with her, that presence was overwhelming. It pressed against you, making the room feel smaller, making it impossible to think straight.
“Do you want to fix this?” she asked, her voice dropping just enough to send a shiver down your spine.
You nodded quickly, desperate to end the suffocating silence. “Yes. I do. I’ll do better, I promise.”
Her lips curved into a faint smile, but it wasn’t comforting. If anything, it made your heart race for all the wrong reasons. She stepped closer, her eyes never leaving yours, and you felt your knees weaken under the weight of her attention.
“Good,” she murmured. “Because I’d hate to think you were wasting my time.”
Her words lingered, heavy with something unspoken, as the air between you grew charged. You couldn’t look away from her, even as every instinct screamed at you to run. This wasn’t just a lecture anymore—it was something far more dangerous.
She stepped closer, her heels clicking softly against the tiled floor. The scent of her perfume—something subtle but intoxicating—filled the air, and you suddenly found it hard to breathe.
“You don’t take yourself seriously,” she continued, her voice dropping to a softer, almost teasing tone. “And that makes me wonder… should I take you seriously?”
Your eyes snapped up to meet hers, your heart racing at the implication in her words. There was something in her gaze now, something darker, something… playful.
“I-I’m trying,” you stammered, your words faltering under her piercing stare.
“Are you?” she asked, her lips curving into a faint smirk. “Because from where I’m standing, it looks like you’ve been waiting for someone to put you in your place.”
Her words hung in the air, charged and heavy, and you felt your knees weaken. She took another step forward, close enough now that you could feel the warmth radiating from her.
“Do you want me to put you in your place?” she asked, her voice barely above a whisper, her eyes boring into yours.
Your breath hitched, and before you could think, you nodded.
That was all she needed. Her hand shot out, gripping your chin firmly but not painfully, tilting your face up to hers. “Good,” she murmured, her breath ghosting over your lips. “Then pay attention.”
Her lips crashed against yours, and for a moment, the world stopped. Her kiss was fierce, commanding, leaving no room for hesitation or doubt. You melted against her, your bag slipping from your shoulder as your hands found her waist.
She didn’t pull away, deepening the kiss instead, her other hand threading through your hair and tugging just enough to make you gasp. The sound seemed to please her because she smirked against your lips before pulling back, her eyes blazing with satisfaction.
“You do want your grades to improve, yes?”, she daunted, her gaze never leaving yours.
“Yes professor,” you mumbled, eyes staring up into her own.
Wordlessly, she pulled up her skirt and slid down her panties to reveal her aching cock. You marveled at the sight before she gently pushed you onto your knees.
With a look of understanding, you took her length in your hands, slowly pumping it up and down before giving kitty licks to the angry red tip.
You slowly wrapped your lips around the head, before trying to take her whole. Your hand fondled over the parts that your mouth couldn’t reach, while your other hand went to the hem of your waistband, sliding through your boxers to reach your leaking cunt.
As you took her deeper in your throat, you rubbed circles over your clit frantically, trying to bring a release to you both.
When you finally managed to swallow her whole, she let out a breathy moan before grabbing you hair and moving your head back and forth herself.
“Breathe through your nose m’love, that’s it…”she cooed, gazing lovingly at your watering eyes.
Soon, she felt herself at the brink of a climax, so she released the grip on your hair, only for her to come undone all over your face, strings of pearly white essence sticking to you. Your ministrations over your clit had worked, making you arch your back as you came with a loud groan, staining your boxers.
The professor gently but firmly held your chin, forcing you to face her.
“Maybe now you’ll start listening,” she teased, her thumb brushing over your bottom lip. “You’ll do better, won’t you?”
You nodded breathlessly, the words catching in your throat.
“Good,” she said, stepping back but not before trailing her fingers along your jawline. “Because if you don’t, we’ll have to do this again. And next time, I won’t be so forgiving.”

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I ALMOST SHIFTED - (SUCCESS STORY)
hello everyone!
my heart is still racing as i type this, but i just got the closest i’ve ever been to shifting completely. while awake! i think! so here’s what i did…
1) i laid down and listened to music.
this was the first way i was going to shift simply because i didn’t want to fall asleep, and i wanted to feel my surroundings change. this caused me to hyperfocus on the 3d, and then i got frustrated. so i gave up.
after that, i laid on my side and got on my phone LOL. i opened tumblr bc i saw that emma / @hrrtshape posted, and i was curious about it. it was a choose a pile post, and it was focused on your shifting/manifesting journey. i’ll link it here.
the pile i chose was the cake! and i don’t specifically remember what the blurb said, but it did motivate me to lay down and try again just cause. so i did!
2) i laid down (again) and listened to my shifting sub playlist.
i specifically listened to a void state subliminal (you can find that in my most recent ask! i’ll link that here) and laid on my side. my main focus this time was on my breathing. i let go of everything happening around me, any and all distractions both in my mind and outside my body. i also incorporated emma’s anti method into this as well!
at first, i just thought it was going to be the same as last time. but i kept at it! soon enough, i had moved on from simply being in my cr.
i’m not sure when the transition happened, but i was in a dream of some sort. i’m pretty sure i was me in my obx dr, and i was walking around a bedroom trying to plug in a record player. i was listening to my favorite dungeons and dragons podcast, and i remember humming / singing a specific part of dancing through life from wicked…
then i realized i was dreaming, even though i was awake. i know i didn’t shift fully at that point because while it did feel real, it felt almost like a lucid dream. but i knew i was awake because i could hear my breathing in the background of the dream.
once i realized i was “dreaming”, i thought to myself…
“am i in the void state?”
and considering how i couldn’t feel my body at all, couldn’t sense anything apart from the scene happening in front of me, and i knew i was still awake…i answered that question with a yes.
suddenly, the dream starts fading away. almost as if i was waking up. but instead of becoming aware of any reality, i was surrounded by nothingness.
so, i affirmed one time that i was in my outer banks dr.
before this, the subliminal i was listening to was the only thing i could focus on, but then that went away. it made this loud screeching sound, though i think that was because i leaned on my headphones too hard (happens when the noise cancelling feature is on, which it was).
then i hear wind blowing around my ears like i’m in the middle of a tornado, getting swept up off my feet and whisked away to another place.
i could still hear myself breathing, and i could hear how my breathing picked up out of panic. i knew what was happening, of course, but my ears are sensitive. the wind went away and came back, then it came back even louder, and i realized i wanted to get out.
it took a second, but i moved away, and suddenly i was back here. sitting like nothing just happened.
so fucking surreal dude. i can’t wait to do it again!
but it didn’t take much for me to get there, and it didn’t take much for me to almost shift the last time this exact thing happened.
sighhh i’m so close. we’re so close friends. we’re so close!!
also sorry if this is kinda messy i’m just writing thoughts down
END OF POST - HAPPY SHIFTING!
#vshiftsss#val’s rants#shiftblr#reality shifting#shifting blog#shifting realities#shifting#shifting antis dni#shifting community#shiftingrealities#shifters#desired reality#outer banks dr#black shifters#shifting reality#reality shift#shifting motivation#shifting methods#shifting diary#shifting stories#shifting success#shifting storytime#shifting subliminal#shifting affirmations
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feeling soft so here's some domestic sevika thoughts!
domestic!sevika whose mind can't stop thinking about returning home to you the moment she steps out of the house for work. an instantly sigh of relief when her keys clank against the wooden table, scurrying off her heavy boots and making a beeline to wherever you could be. who without a fail allows herself to fall into your grasp, feeling all her muscles and aches fade away.
domestic!sevika who actually loves your sunday resets. waking up at the ass crack of dawn to be a few of the first at the markets, running any other errands that need to be completed while the two of you are out. making it back home before the true morning-afternoon rush happens. transitioning into the soft hum of music that plays throughout the house after putting the groceries away to begin the real reset of cleaning; the two of you having a system of sevika handling the kitchen and bathroom while you handle doing laundry (she hates folding clothes) and doing the main picking up in the living space.
domestic!sevika who becomes mush the moment you hand subconsciously finds its way into her hair, nails scratching at her scalp.
domestic!sevika who repays the actions you do for her. like the mind numbing back and body rubs you give her often, she does the best she can with one hand. always grumbling a "shut up" whenever you try to push her hand away saying that you're fine—she doesn't need to do this for you, as if she doesn't catch the way you wince when you roll your shoulder.
domestic!sevika who thanks you with a coy gaped smile (and yes, it's reserved for just you) every time you pick her glasses off the bridge of her nose to clean them.
domestic!sevika who loves how in sync you routines are. specifically your guys' nighttime routine. before she didn't have much of a nighttime routine, but now she has things stacked up for her; a shower (the two of you have together), washing her face—learning about the importance of skincare from you, getting her a gentle cleanser (because apparently she has sensitive skin?), a nice moisturizer, and a heavy duty spf for the daytime—brushing her teeth with you standing next her, playing a game of eye tag in the mirror with her. routinely plopping into bed to await the weight of your body onto top of hers; the only way she can peacefully fall asleep.
domestic!sevika who is actually not a bad cook. she had to learn how to cook since she's been on her own for the majority of her life, and throughout those years she perfected simple hearty meals, mostly stews, that you have come to love since being with her. without a fail one of her stews is the meal you request whenever the big question of "what's for dinner?" pops up, she obliges and the two of you enjoy the warm meal on the couch with each other talking about how your days went.
domestic!sevika who is on cloud nine whenever you refer to her as your husband or husbutch. she never thought she'd be able to see herself in such a predicament, a fucking good one at that. and she never thought she'd be one for labels, but hearing how easily those titles roll off the tip of your tongue it makes her rethink everything.
#𓊆 𝓐 writes. 𓊇#sevikaྀི txt.#sevika#sevika arcane#sevika fluff#sevika x reader#sevika x female reader#arcane#lesbian
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𝙏𝙚𝙖𝙘𝙝 𝙈𝙚 | 𝙋.𝙅.

pairing — bf! park jongseong x (f) reader
synopsis — you stop by jay’s studio to visit him and end up with him teaching you how to play the guitar. what you also end up with is his fingers inside you.
genre — smut
warnings — lower case intended, minors dni, cursing, making out, grinding, fingering, choking, cum eating, name calling (slut), lmk if there more!
w.c — 1.1k
a/n — i was planning on making it longer but i had another one shot coming soon so i’m finishing that one up. lmk what you think of this drabble! not proofread!
masterlist here!
the soft hum of a guitar filled the air as you stepped into the studio. jay was sitting on a stool, his fingers dancing effortlessly over the strings. the notes he played were soothing and intricate, creating a beautiful melody that resonated throughout the room. he looked up and smiled when he saw you, his eyes lighting up with a mix of surprise and joy.
"hey, I didn't expect you to drop by.” he said, setting his guitar down for a moment.
you smiled back, feeling a flutter in your chest, "I was curious to see you in action. plus, I was hoping you could teach me a few things."
jay's grin widened, his excitement palpable. "i'd love to.”
you walked over to him, and he handed you the guitar. his hands were warm as they guided yours to the correct positions on the strings. he explained each chord with patience, his voice soothing and encouraging.
"okay, this is a g chord," he said, placing your fingers on the frets. "now, press down firmly and strum."
you strummed the chord, and a pleasant sound resonated from the guitar. jay’s eyes sparkled with pride. "see? you're a natural."
as you continued to practice, jay moved closer, his presence comforting and alluring. he showed you how to transition between chords smoothly, his fingers occasionally brushing against yours making you flustered. each time you made a mistake, he was quick to reassure you.
"it’s all about practice," he said, his voice gentle. "everyone starts somewhere."
you nodded, feeling more confident with each passing minute. the studio seemed to fade away as you focused on the guitar and jay's guidance.
"now, let's try a simple melody," jay suggested, his enthusiasm infectious. he played a few notes, demonstrating the sequence. "give it a shot."
you followed his lead, your fingers moving hesitantly at first. but with jay's encouragement, you soon found a rhythm. the melody was simple, but to you, it felt like an achievement.
"you’re doing amazing," jay said, giving you a gentle squeeze on the shoulder. "we should do this more often."
you looked up at him, your heart swelling with gratitude, but you felt another feeling from the way he squeezed your shoulder with a gaze you couldn’t describe, "i’d like that."
as the session went on, you couldn’t help but watch jays fingers as they strum softly against the guitar. you felt your heart pang when he used his two fingers to slide up the string (yk what i’m talking about). you shook your head and cursed at yourself for thinking like that in a heartfelt moment. jay then looked up at you with a grin.
"You're a quick learner," he said, his eyes twinkling. you felt a faint hotness upon your cheeks and looked away.
“w-well thanks to you.” you stuttered. jay hummed and stood up making you stare at him confused. slowly he leaned into your space causing you to back up against the desk.
“i’m not stupid baby. i see how you looked at my fingers. what were you thinking?” jay muttered. you felt yourself getting embarrassed and put your hands on his chest.
“i-i wasn’t trying too make it weird-“ “then you should be ashamed for making it like that.” he cut you off. you gasped when you felt one of his hands creep against you waist, gripping it softly.
“well don’t back out now. tell me what you were thinking.” he smirked. you whimpered when he suddenly lifted your skirt up revealing your wet panties.
“seongie-“ “tell me. what were you thinking when i was playing the guitar?” he suddenly snapped.
“y-your fingers. they looked g-good.” you whined when you finally felt him dip his hand in your underwear.
he started off slowly by rubbing your wet folds, the sound of stickiness and wetness filling the air. you moaned in pleasure and tried to grind, but that earned a slap on the thigh from jay.
“you like my fingers? like it when they’re deep in your pussy?” he rasped out. you cried out when he circled your bud making you arch your back. he lifted you up swiftly and set you on the desk.
“seongie please! i want your fingers.” you moaned. jay smirk never faltered even when he shoved his fingers in you without warning.
you let out a silent moan feeling his thick long fingers stuffed in your pussy. you wrapped your arms around his neck.
“oh fuck! m’there!” you gasped. jay pace was deep and slow causing you to shiver in pleasure. your legs shaking beside his waist.
“such a slut for me. you’re lucky it’s soundproof.” jay commented. you nodded your head dumbly and tried grinding on his fingers. he stopped your movement making you groan.
“you’re not gonna cum until i tell you too. understand?” he said. you shook your head in disagreement.
“seongie no-“ “then you’re not cumming at all.”
you whined and sniffled, feeling his fingers still stuffed inside you. you nodded your head, “fine okay!”
he smiled and started moving his fingers again but this time faster. you gasped and cried when he angled his fingers deeper, “oh my god jay!” you screamed.
you felt your climax coming and repeatedly tapped his shoulder. he ignored you and continued to abuse your pussy. you felt your body shake as tears fell down your face. jay kissed your tears away and wrapped his free hand around your neck, slightly squeezing.
“remember what i said.” he spoke. you whimpered and nodded. your climax so close and yet so far. jay groaned when he felt your pussy squeeze around his fingers. fuck, he wanted to fuck you so bad.
“j-jay please. i’ve been good.” you sighed. jay stared at you for a few minutes before humming.
“go ahead.” was all he said before you finally came. your orgasm coming hard. you let out a shaky moan when he slowly pulled out.
you panted harshly, your back laying against the cold wall. you gasped when you watched jay out his fingers in his mouth, licking all your cum. he winked at you teasingly and kissed you. you let out a sigh feeling your slick in your mouth.
he broke the kiss and softly kissed your forehead, “we have to go now before i cum in my pants.” he said. you giggled and stood up. you felt your cum in your underwear and pouted.
“you should’ve taken my underwear off.” you complained.
jay grabbed your hand, “don’t worry. i’ll clean you up when we get home with other things.” he smiled before sticking out his tongue causing you to gasp and slap his chest. the only thing you got back was his beautiful laugh.
#park jongseong x you#park jongseong x reader#park jongseong#jay x reader#jay x you#jay x y/n#enhypen jay#enhypen jongseong#enha jay#enha jongseong#enha#enha smau#enha smut#enha x reader#enhypen#enha fluff#enha imagines#enha scenarios#enhypen smut#enhypen masterlist#kpop fluff#kpop smut
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Ascended Fanboy
inspired by a suggestion from @innermostthoughtsartappreciation
James stood in front of the mirror, disappointed with what he saw. He looked just like he always did — same greasy brown mullet, same patchy neckbeard, same unhealthily pale skin, same flabby body. The only part of him that had changed since he'd last gazed upon his reflection was his brand-new tattoo.
It was a simple drawing of his favorite character from his favorite anime. He'd gotten it in an attempt to stand out — and while it did stand out, it was mostly in a negative way. Evidently, many people found it "distasteful" and "unfit for a member of polite society." It didn't even help him connect with other fans of the anime!
But that wasn't even the biggest issue with the tattoo. No, the real reason James was standing shirtless in front of his bedroom mirror was that the skin around the ill-advised tattoo was rapidly becoming discolored. Starting a few inches from the borders of the tattoo, his vanilla-white skin abruptly transitioned to dark chocolate. Strangely, the tattoo itself also seemed to be affected, the anime girl's blue hair and bulging eyes dissolving into swirling black lines.
"Ugh, I knew there was something funky about that tattoo parlor," James sneered to his extensive collection of cartoon memorabilia, Funko pops, and body pillows.
They, of course, did not respond. They wouldn't have done so normally, because they were inanimate objects, but right now they were slowly but surely fading out of existence, which made things a lot harder for them.
But James didn't notice that tiny little detail, because right before his eyes, the discoloration was starting to spread. Inch by inch, his white skin was darkening, darkening. He rubbed a hand over the changed skin, but it didn't feel any different from regular skin. That probably ruled out skin cancer, at least. Small mercies. Although, come to think of it, he did feel a little tingling at the tattoo site...
That small sensation was all the warning he had before his entire body erupted. He could feel every muscle, every bone in his body rippling and reshaping, from his masculinizing head to his rapidly growing toes. It felt like a swarm of bees had taken up residence inside him, but it was the most pleasurable feeling he'd ever experienced.
He rose in height and shrank in width — but not by too much, because his rolls of fat were being converted into mounds of muscle: Bulging biceps, wide lats, meaty quads... His stomach collapsed in on itself, melting away into a perfect inverted triangle garnished with six cobblestone abs. He still had tits, but now they were pecs instead of moobs.
The changes had mostly avoided James' face, but that would soon be corrected. There was no reason for the Black Adonis he was becoming to have the head of a white geek, after all. Melanating skin and masculinizing muscle converged around his neck and spread up from there. His Adam's apple became more prominent, deepening his voice to a sensual baritone. His lips plumpened up, and his nose flattened out, and a thick black mustache emerged between them. His neckbeard tamed itself into a short, tasteful beard. His hair was undergoing rapid improvements as well — coiling up and receding into his skin until his mullet had been replaced by a textured fade.
Comparatively, the final changes were tame. Stained sweatpants shifted into gym shorts that left nothing to the imagination. A gold chain appeared around his neck, not hanging but resting comfortably in the groove between his pecs. He blinked, and suddenly he had piercings in his ears and nose.
James stared at himself in the mirror, dumbfounded. Where a dumpy, overweight white man had once stood, in his place was a prime specimen of Black manliness. He blinked rapidly, trying to understand what had just happened, but when he opened his eyes again, he was Jamari.
He liked being Jamari a lot better, he realized. Not only was he a rich and famous athlete, but he also had much better taste in tattoos. Better taste in general, Jamari conceded, nodding in approval at his surroundings, which had transformed from a nerd's wet dream to an expensive private gym. His previous body had been optimized for pirating anime and playing Paradox games, but this new one was optimized for working out, winning national championships, and posting thirst traps for his millions of horny followers.
Raising his bicep up to his head, Jamari attempted to find the tattoo that had started it all. But there was no sign of the anime girl, just tasteful calligraphy in the same style as the art engraved in the rest of his body. What was the character's name again? What had she even looked like? He couldn't remember. All his previous nerdy fandom knowledge was fading away, but it had been replaced by expertise in sports, exercise, and celebrity culture — more than a fair trade.
Jamari gave the mirror one last smirk. Damn, he looked fine today. His adoring fans would not be disappointed with what they saw.

#male tf#male transformation#mental transformation#mental tf#personality change#race tf#race change#racial tf#racial change#nerd to jock#jock tf
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Super Random Astro Observations Pt. III
view more astro observations here🔽
Super Random Astro Observations
Super Random Astro Observations Pt II
( i am not an astrologer just a silly girl that knows a lot about astrology🤓)



˚✧ lowkey though in my astrology journey ive learned to lower expectations for how you think something can go even if given the “perfect” synastry aspects or soulmate indicators. any of it honestly. lunar return charts do not work perfectly for every month. sometimes even transits aren’t even really felt strongly. what i’m trying to say is see things as opportunities not finalities.
˚✧ this man i know is a leo rising & i swear he looks like this 🦁
˚✧ progressed moon conjuct jupiter when i had a life altering event!
˚✧ transit 8h Northnode conjucted my chart ruler , trine my natal pluto, transit 8h chiron conjuncted my natal sun sun, transit 1h mercury square natal 4h pluto- When I had another life altering event that essentially changed dynamics within how i relate to others in my family.
˚✧ vertex in 8th house in my lunar return chart when i lost my virginity☠️
˚✧ currently have the sun & moon in my 12th house lunar return chart & am absolutely going through it😭😭😭 edit: also going through a mental breakthrough tho which might have something to do with 1h pluto in that same chart so…🙏
˚✧ transit chiron conjuct my natal sun when i was in just the most terrible mood imaginable…
˚✧ transit venus conjuct my natal jupiter the day i met a romantic partner!!
˚✧ i also had vertex ,chiron ,& north node in my 7h lunar return chart when i met them too!
˚✧ okay but the month i had north node and both saturn & neptune retrograding in my 7th house i could not stop thinking ab my ex & eventually ended up texting him😭
˚✧ this is random but is in my head bc ive been watching bob ross videos lately LOL. but i was wondering why he had so much success and after looking at his chart, i feel like like it could possibly be linked to his libra stellium. he had libra mercury, neptune ,& mars. It definitely feels like he would have an ambition for beauty , making something beautiful, an “eye” for beautiful things , or speaking in a beautiful way.



˚✧ i can also say that with south node currently transiting my 1st house as a virgo rising starting literally yesterday i already feel like this weight of feeling like i have to be perfect and appear as such is fading 100%. big on embracing imperfection….🤔
˚✧ so another instance where i had a partners moon square my mercury (their moon was in my 5h) he was like super lovey with me to the point of love bombing , but it just made me feel kind of smothered/awkward when he would make like grand romantic gestures. (his natal moon was also in 7h🫢)
˚✧ a transformative relationship came to me when the asc dc angles were in my natal 1st/7th houses in my lunar return chart!!
˚✧ i definitely recommend doing “solar return synastry charts” between you and those close to you as i think it provides valuable insight on what events occur between you or others in that year! A chart between me and my best friend showed her jupiter in the 10th house squaring my 12h moon, 6h venus ,& 6h saturn in the src.It showed how she has started to work more hours thus having less time to talk to me everyday or as consistently as possible making me feel kind of like :/ bc i want to talk to my bff!!! This showed up 3 months before my birthday so i def agree with solar return energy showing up early.
˚✧ ive said it before but i will say it again when you meet someone of your rising sign they are essentially mirroring you BADDD. especially if you share placements together.
#astro community#astro placements#astrology observations#astro observations#astrology#astro#astro notes#astroloji#transits#solar return#love transits#relationship astrology#astrology aspects#predictive astrology#astrology transits#lunar return chart#leo rising#progressed chart#libra#8h placements#birth chart#lunar return#solar return chart#solar return chart observations#virgo rising#libra sun#libra stellium#vertex
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Are there such things as minor gods? Things like how Aphrodite is the main goddess of love and related things, but the Erotes are all gods and goddesses of more specific parts of Aphrodite's domain.
There are entities that come to represent a concept in their local community. The less people who know and venerate them, the less powerful they are. There are many names for boosted creatures: saints, partially ascended, demigods, etc. The world is massive and each part has its own culture.
Twilight was already growing taller and longer before Celestia supercharged the process and made her into a Godling. Godlings cannot go back to how they were before, but they can try their hardest to remove themself from the concept of their godhood and hope they don't grow any further.
An example of a venerated creature would be Rain Shine, matriarch of the Kirin and Conduit of Silence. She is taller and more powerful than the other kirin, but no one thinks of her as a god.
Hierarchy of Ascension
Patron
This pony (or griffin or dragon etc) is known for their association with a certain trait, concept, material, area, personality, etc. You wouldn't yet call this their "domain" and most people are unaware there is anything magical going on.
Rarity - fashion. She is well known as a fashionista, and her garments give an extra sparkle of inspiration and self love to their wearers. There are many of these in the world.
Zecora - exotic wilderness. Everyone thinks of her as foreign and strange but capable and kind. She is adept at using folk remedies and navigating the Everfree Forest with ease.
Spearhead - Subjective art. This royal guard-turned-artist builds strange compositions that many ponies find confusing. But he is skilled at evoking emotion with seemingly random shapes.
Conduit
People who are changed by their domain, and have notable power relating to it.
Rain Shine - Silence. She is more powerful when no one is speaking. Her magic caused already health-compromised kirin to lose their voices.
Trouble Shoes - Bad luck. Thought of as being a massive clumsy screwup, that is what he became.
Fleur de Lis and others with a similar build - We will have to do more research on their actual domain.
Sassy Saddles - conduit of sweatshops apparently
Thorax - Leadership that values the people rather than the self
Shining Armor - Protection
Bastian
Significant changes and powerful magic that can last through the ages. Lifespans extended but they are still mortal. Physical changes tend to manifest during highly magical moments, and can fade afterward. Known by hundreds of mortals.
The Pillars of Equestria, and later, the bearers of the Elements of Harmony.
Pinkie Pie - Chaos
Harbinger
Extremely powerful creatures who are on their way to a natural ascension to godhood. They Can be killed, but if their power continues to grow they will become immortal. They can start to take on other domains as people attribute more concepts to them. Known by millions of mortals.
Sombra - He has his own chapter, to be released.
Queen Chrysalis - Terrified Reverence. Ruling through fear. Selfishness and taxes. She thinks she is the Harbinger of love, of course.
Tirek - Habinger of helplessness. He makes everyone feel terrified and unable to act.
Dragon Lord - Powerful and massive leader of dragons. This is a form of near-godhood that can be transferred from one dragon lord to the next. Usually this transition is peaceful, with the old lord announcing the new one to dragons of the world. But history is stained with the blood of battles for the title. The Lord is whoever dragons believe to be their ruler. One historically successful way to achieve this belief is to kill the old one. Thankfully, modern dragon law includes term limits.
Deity
Alicorn Post | Gods Tag
Immortal beings that are many many times their original size. Massive, powerful magic that is interwoven into the fabric of reality. Gods have multiple concepts in their domains, usually related to each other in some way. This includes "positive" gods taking on "negative" traits as part of their domain.
Known by hundreds of millions to billions of mortals.
Discord - Chaos and disharmony. He is a dimensional interloper that has gained notoriety and thus power in this dimension as well as his own.
Celestia - The sun, sky, and daytime. Main Post | Tag
Drawback: Burns
Luna - The moon, the night, and dreams. Main Post | Tag
Drawback: Nightmares
Twilight (future) - Friendship and connection. Main Post | Tag
Cadance - Romantic love and family. Main Post | Tag
Boabab (oc) - Life. The beginning, the planet
Novo - The Ocean
Godling
Godlings are creatures who have been ascended through the acts of another god. They have skipped the slow growing power gain. Instead, they manifest godlike traits while still keeping their small size. The God who ascended them will usually announce the new Godling to their followers, which immediately gains the Godling a congregation and begins their ascent rapidly. They have varying levels of power and control over their domain.
Twilight (current day) - Friendship.
Cadance (formerly) - Romantic Love
Cozy Glow (temporary) - Chaos
Sunburst - Unknown. Main Post | Tag
Flurry Heart (current day, born as a godling) - Unknown
Of course, this is just putting names to the laws of magic that govern our world. And magic, as we know, does not follow rules we try to set. If you were to ask a lorekeeper from the other side of the world or in the ocean, you would hear very different interpretations of the same system.
#skyscraper gods#mlp au#skyscraper gods lore#ssg gods#ssg alicorns#ssg magic#ssg worldbuilding#worldbuilding#my little pony au#pantheon building#idk what to tag this as lol#long post
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right chord. ☆ myg
first of all i dedicate this oneshot to @kithtaehyung who reminded me of this wip in this ask and inspired me to finish it up so tysm ryen 💜
cross-posted to ao3 here
tags: yoongi x gender-neutral reader, fluff, set in the genius lab, i was trying to channel all the cozy energy for this fic and i hope it shows
word count: 1.1k
“Alright, now put your ring finger on this string.” Yoongi gently directs your fingers to the right places.
You strum the note a bit harsh and the sound comes out strange. Yoongi flinches, but doesn’t raise his voice. “Maybe try strumming it a bit softer.”
When you texted him saying you were on your way to his studio with some food, you didn’t expect him to ask you to stay.
But here you are, two hours later, curled up in a chair sitting next to him, with his favorite guitar in your hands, learning chords from songs he’s still working on, months after having come up with their melodies.
He takes his time when he writes music. You can tell he respects and appreciates his craft. It’s partly why you wanted to learn the guitar.
Also, you wanted an excuse to see him more.
“Yeah, sorry about that. Okay. Softer.”
It’s quite dim in the studio, the only real bright light coming from his computer, that’s currently playing the screensaver animation. The whirr of the computers serves as ambient sound as you try strumming again, with less force this time.
“You got it. Do you want to try a few more chords?”
You nod rapidly. “Yes, please. Only if you want me to stay longer, though. I’m not the fastest learner.”
“I wouldn’t have asked you if I wanted you to leave. Besides, no matter what speed you progress at, you’re still progressing. Take as much time to learn as you want.”
You can hear the rain start to patter outside while Yoongi teaches you some more chords. Your eyes dart from the neck of the guitar, making sure your fingers are on the right frets, to the body of the guitar, where your other hand waits to strum all the strings.
“You’re getting a lot quicker with your chord transitions, maybe I’ll have you do the lead guitar on my next album.”
You stare at him with wide eyes. He can almost see the big cartoon tears welling at the corners of your eyes. “I’m not ready yet!”
“I was just kidding, love. I wouldn’t put that much stress on you all of a sudden. That’s why I have my guitarist.” He chuckles, his hand rubbing slow circles on your kneecap.
You try a chord progression you heard him strum last night, so focused on getting your fingers on the right strings that you don’t notice Yoongi smiling at your effort.
It’s the little moments like these that he cherishes the most, quiet times spent together.
“Did I do it right? I think I got it right.”
He hums, gazing fondly at you. “You remember chords well.”
Your cheeks warm at the compliment. “Thanks. I try my best.”
You feel content sitting with him tonight. It’s a nice contrast to the busy lives you both lead.
Then Yoongi’s phone buzzes. He picks it up and swipes the notification away.
“Is everything alright?”
He nods. “Yeah, it’s just work. I have some songs to finish for my album and one of the guys on the production team just sent me a little melody.”
“Cool,” you grin, “are you allowed to share details about the album, or… do I have to wait for the release date like everyone else?”
“Uhh…” he scratches his head, clicking through files on his computer at an insanely rapid pace. “Well, I could show you this song. It’s almost done, there’s just a few little things I need to perfect on it.”
You sit up, intrigued, and watch as he clicks open a file. “What’s the song called?”
“It’s called AMYGDALA.”
The audio starts up, the guitar and melody smoothly melding into Yoongi’s verse. You listen attentively, eyes glued to the screen. Your head bops slightly to the beat while you process the lyrics, and when the final notes fade out and the last Save me out of here, please get me out of here echo into silence, you gasp. “Wow, that was- that was really good.”
“Yeah? You like the song?”
“It’s fantastic. It’s really… open. Deep. Vulnerable, in a sense. It’s- I really like it.”
Yoongi’s smile grows when you share your feelings on the melody and the lyrics. He appreciates all the nice things you have to say about his music, he always has.
You take his hand in yours and give it a gentle squeeze. “I’m happy that you’re happy, you know. It’s nice to see you like this. Sometimes, when you’d come home from the studio, you looked sad and angry, but you don’t look like that anymore. You look… satisfied, I guess. Like you’re free.”
“I am, in a way,” he squeezes your hand back, “I’ve said everything I needed to say. I used this persona to get all my rage out, but I don’t have that rage in me anymore. Now I can move on to another side of me.”
You both sit in silence for a moment, just enjoying each other’s presence, the feel of his warm hand holding yours tightly, the sound of the computer fan whirring quietly and its dim light as it goes back into its screensaver animation, the smell of the lit vanilla candle on the desk.
“Did you want me to show you a sample from another song on the album?”
Your eyes widen. “You would?”
“Yeah. I think you’ll like this one. I wrote it and I thought of you.”
Yoongi opens another file. “This one comes before the pre-release single on the album. It’s called SDL.”
You listen attentively to the drum beat and the smooth synth, and when he presses pause, you give him a thumbs-up with your free hand, the one he isn’t currently holding. He hasn’t let go of your hand the entire time, and you doubt he will.
“I like it, it sounds a bit more romantic than your usual style. I just know when you add the lyrics it’s going to sound even better.”
“Thanks,” he smiles, sounding a little flustered.
You love showering him with praise, because his reactions are always silly. You recall the day you announced your feelings for him and he simply started yelling.
Also, he deserves every single compliment in the world.
He clicks at the screen for a bit, distracted, still holding your hand.
“Have I told you that you look really handsome with longer hair?”You watch with amusement as he avoids the statement entirely, his eyes darting to the wall.
“‘Cause you look really handsome with longer hair,” you continue with a playful grin.
He still doesn’t reply and instead squeezes your hand again.
“Alright, alright, I’ll stop,” you chuckle, “but you know I love you, right?”
“Yeah. Me too.”
by the way i was originally planning on posting this for yoongi's bday so this is my belated bday gift for my yoongi 🎉
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i was pondering upon what i could request and i have such a good req
okay so joao x barca femini player where they got tg during his time at barca, anyways since he’s on international break reader goes and surprises him at the match and he plays really badly until he sees her and yeah
ok now thinking of it it’s underwhelming but when it came to my mind it was good 💔

surprise
pairing: joão felix x reader
summary: in which you surprise your boyfriend by showing up at one of his matches
warnings: none
tagged: @barcapix, @universefcb, @nngkay, @joaosnovia, @ilovebarcaaaa, lmk if you want to be added to the taglist!
a/n: hey bby, i’m sorry this is so short. i’m js stressed about tests and i wanted to get this out for you but i can rewrite it again when i have more time!💗
it had been a crazy few months for joão. after his time at barcelona, he had spent a short stint at chelsea before being loaned to ac milan. the constant transition between teams and countries was starting to take a toll. but amidst all the changes, there was one thing that kept him grounded: you.
you, a standout player for barcelona femini, had your own busy schedule, and the distance between you and joão seemed to grow with each passing week. still, you tried to stay connected through calls, texts, and late-night chats, but nothing quite filled the void of being with him.
when you found out that joão’s national team match was taking place in denmark, you decided you couldn’t miss it. this was your chance to surprise him, to remind him that no matter where he was, you would always be there cheering him on. so, you secretly booked your trip and arrived in denmark, the cold air biting at your skin as you made your way to the stadium.
the game was set to kick off, and as the players took to the pitch, you found your seat in the stands. you didn’t want to distract him before the match, so you stayed low-key, hoping he wouldn’t spot you too soon. but as you watched him jog onto the field, you couldn’t help but feel that familiar ache in your chest. the distance between you both had been hard, and seeing him there, playing for his country, only made you miss him more.
the match began, and joão seemed off. hewasn’t playing like himself—his touch was heavy, his passes sloppy, and his frustration was evident. you could see him getting increasingly irritated with himself. you knew he was under a lot of pressure, trying to prove himself at ac milan, but this was different. he was clearly distracted, his mind elsewhere. the coach on the sideline was visibly frustrated, shouting instructions at him.
it was painful to watch, and your heart ached for him. you wanted to be there, to hold him, to tell him it was going to be okay. but all you could do was sit there and hope he would find his rhythm.
then, it happened.
joão glanced up, scanning the crowd as if looking for something. and that’s when his eyes locked onto you. for a brief moment, everything else on the pitch faded away. it was as if time had frozen. the noise of the crowd, the pressure of the game—it all melted into nothing. all he could see was you.
you were there. in denmark. just for him.
his heart skipped a beat, and suddenly, the fog that had clouded his game lifted. the frustration, the self-doubt—all of it vanished in an instant. he felt a surge of energy, the kind of clarity only you could bring him.
the very next moment, his game shifted. a quick pass to a teammate, a perfectly timed run, and then, a beautiful through ball that cut through the defense like a blade. before anyone could react, he was charging toward the goal. the keeper came out, but joão wasn’t fazed. with a calm finish, he slotted the ball into the net.
the crowd erupted, but joão didn’t celebrate with the usual wild gestures. no, this time, his eyes were immediately on you. there you were, smiling, your eyes full of pride. it was like nothing else mattered anymore.
without thinking, he ran toward the sideline, raising his arms in the air, but his focus never left you. when he reached the edge of the pitch, he blew you a kiss, his heart full of joy and relief. the smile on his face spoke volumes—he had needed you more than he realized.
you smiled back, your heart swelling with affection. he had done it. he was back in the game, and it was all because you were there.
as he jogged back into position, he glanced at you one more time, his eyes sparkling. the game was far from over, but in that moment, it felt like everything had fallen into place.
#footballer x reader#football imagine#football#joao felix#joao felix x reader#joao felix imagine#joao felix fluff#joao felix x y/n
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hi sorry i don’t go here anymore but i feel a lot of things about the tommyinnit video and i have a lot of bit ideas and i just. i need to make a numbered list
1. obsessed with how his go to story was always “kids in school bullied me for minecraft videos” (bad, awful, sorry this happened) and not “i specifically asked for my teachers to play my minecraft let’s plays in the middle of science”. this is soooo positive and kind and affectionate because this is both something i do now (lie abt personal stories on the internet) and something i repeatedly did as a kid (deliberately got myself into Embarrassing Situations trying to mix internet and irl. i have stories too thomas….)
2. his middle name is michael. LOSER. whos name is michael. only. losers
3. i was like “wow foolish and quackity are in here a lot” until i realized that he Cannot Show Anyone Else. 75% of dsmp clips contain at least One racist and/or convicted felon
4. this guy Cannot keep fading to black and sighing. every transition it’s another fucking fade to black. Please just cut to black please just cut please just cut please please please please
5. THE TOMMY NEG CAMEO……. suddenly it was 2021 and i was on twitter at 4am and my moot was asking me if i hated philza and cheated on my girlfriend bc a random swiftie faked messages with me to be in a joke group chat i was in that dr*am got added to but never actually joined. sorry this isn’t about me but hey that was Fucking wild
6. TOMMYINNIT HAS HAD TWO GIRLFRIENDS???? I AM 20 YEARS OLD GAY AND HOT AND HES HAD 200% MORE PLAY???????? sorry. Sorry.
7. i fuck w the djo! I am crying real human tears though
8. he found himself thru stand up comedy…….. be yourself because then you’ll get more views…………. he is so wise……. i must become the most famous man in nottingham…………..
that’s all. i don’t think half of these classify as bits. this is like a React video but on tumblr which is somehow worse than a react video. doesn’t matter. It’s all love
#tommyinnit#tom simons#shutupmac#numbered list#recovering inniter#mcyt#dsmp#dream smp#^for dnis. Sorry back to cartoon yaoi and The Horrors now#edited to fix my Numbered List. i had two fours on there and that Simply would not do#The Recollections
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Lost in the woods AU Once a upon a time when you was younger. They got lost in the woods at girl scout camp. Being the loner of the girl scout group no one quite noticed that you have disappeared. Crying on one of the many dirt paths you meet young cryptid sun and moon. With their help you return safely back to your girl scout group but curious about the cryptids you would continously seek them out. Over that month you and the cryptid boys forge a friendship. But as all good things it must come to an end. But you promised you would come back soon but soon they fade into just a long forgotten memory.
Fast forward you are celebrating that Vanessa has graduated Park Ranger training and is now a Park Ranger at Fazbear's nature park; that used to be the girl scout camp you went to as a young child. (can't say national because they are a for profit.) But Vanessa has been acting strangely ever since she started the training but Vanessa would never do anything shady....right? Unfortunately your naivety your good friend Vanessa is planning to sacrifice you to her good lord and savior Springtrap. close ups and tidbits
Cryptid Sun: 🎇The more "nicer" of the two. 🎇He hides toys in his chest cavity to help try to calm down children. He tried it with Y/N but it just made Y/N more confused and panicked. 🎇Can summon fire sprites from his chest cavity. Often times this would be how he guides lost hikers/children back to their camps versus showing himself. 🎇When angry his face will be engulfed in flames. but do not fret he will be fine once he cools down his temper. This rarely happens but moon is very good at pushing his buttons. 🎇is the less upset one out of the two of them of Y/N not remembering them. 🎇 Him and moon learned how to speak and write through reading the horse books left at the girl scout camp. So they have an unusual amount of knowledge about horses. 🎇Can sense what is happening through the forest through the roots and can travel through the roots to whatever location he pleases at the National Park.
Cryptid Moon: 🌙The more "aggressive" one of the two. (he just thinks he is just blunt and to the point.) 🌙He is currently trying to fly under the radar ever since a hiker stumbled upon him feasting on his meal. (whether it was human or not is up for debate. Ask him and he will just chuckle.) 🌙His wings got singed back when Sun couldn't control his fire sprites. He got back on him by putting a bunch of termites in his bed. 🌙Is the more upset one out of the two that Y/N forgot them. Especially when they grabbed Y/N to play with them in the sky for Y/N to panic and get dropped in the lake by accident. 🌙Moon was the first cryptid for Y/N to stumble upon when they were young as well as adults. 🌙Moon is a huge sucker for anything sweet whether they would like to admit it or not is up for debate. 🌙If Moon is the one guiding hikers back he would usually scare them in the direction they need to go. but with children he tries his best to make himself not as threatening(doesn't work half the time) and guide them while holding hands. (big softie)
Y/N: 🐈⬛ remember sun and moon a bit but more of just chalking it up to imaginary friends. They do have a birthmark on their neck which he showed to sun and moon as kids. but in general very secretive about it. 🐈⬛is in transitioning and uses he/they pronouns. 🐈⬛very prideful of their pitiful t-stache. but a stache is a stache. 🐈⬛has a HUGE fear of heights which is why they panicked when Moon picked them up like they were besties. 🐈⬛gets easily lost so it constantly keeps getting lost in the woods. and Vanessa's cryptic directions aren't helping him at all. 🐈⬛is training as well to be a park ranger like Vanessa. He has known Vanessa for a few years before she started acting very secretive and a bit unstable. 🐈⬛is a lot more chill with Sun but that might change after he stumbles upon Sun enjoying a meal. they are slightly terrified of both but Sun and moon just want to hang out with their bestie(?).
#fnaf daycare attendant#fnaf moondrop#fnaf sundrop#fnaf security breach#daycare attendant x y/n#fnaf lost in the woods au#lost in the woods#teetharts#forgive me about the typos i am not very good at writing.#lost in the woods au
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I finished my book in the tub this evening and upon reading the last paragraph, like a crescendo quiet tears streamed down my cheeks dimly illuminated by the screen of my MacBook sitting atop the toilet. I have my Spotify opened up to display the songs in fullscreen, the white ceramic tiles of the bathroom wall reflect the changing songs. The air swollen with steam from my pre-shower. I sit still in the bath and imagine that my body has disappeared and all that’s left is phantom sensations from memories. I close my eyes, raise my wet hands and cover my face as my silent tears ease into quiet sobs. My chest rises falls in and out of the water. I can feel the pulse of my heartbeat throughout my body, in my cheeks especially. Outside of the small bathroom window above the toilet the sky fades ambiently to twilight leaving me a shadow soaking in now, luke warm water. I think about the hard day I had and how I went to the bathroom during a rush at work to stop myself from being overwhelmed with mysterious emotion and the tears that threatened my eyes. There is something incredibly grounding about holding yourself while you cry, simulating the act of external empathy. It’s also very lonely.
These are my final tears of the new year, that will be washed away with the bath water once I drain it. An uninteional cleansing but a much needed end cap to the year. I’ve debated writing about my year but when I do I become overwhelmed with everything and nothing, simultaneously. A year is a lot to compile into thoughtful intimate words. There are many days that have passed like any other, tangled within one another. Yet, somehow everyday has felt like something important. I listen to S.Maharba’s ‘For Someone’ and am struck but the words that murmur while the song transitions to the next, “Oh god, we have forgotten things we have never known…”
I try on my new black lace garter belt I was gifted for Christmas in the privacy of the bathroom in the dim light. For some reason I’m moved by the object and feel it’s a preliminary to the new year…I do not try to make sense of the feeling but allow myself to accept this lace token and its ominousness.
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i love my guitarist side — han hyeongjun
tiktok trend fluff
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“junhan, come here for a second,” you call, barely containing your excitement as you queue up the video.
he shuffles over, his guitar still slung across his shoulder, looking a little suspicious. “what are you up to?”
“just sit,” you say, grinning as you pat the spot next to you.
he gives you a side-eye but obeys, plopping down beside you. you’re practically bouncing as you press play, and he leans in to watch.
the video starts innocently enough— cute pictures of guitar, then slowly transitioning to pictures of you with the caption,
i love my guitarist side.
the music swells as the caption reappears:
but you don’t play guitar.
his brows furrow slightly, lips twitching like he’s trying to figure it out. but then the video cuts—right to him.
a clip of him shredding his guitar on stage. another of him practicing in the dorm, hair a little messy, head down in full concentration. the camera zooms in on his hands, and the final shot? a candid you took of him in the practice room, bathed in golden light, tuning his guitar like it’s the most natural thing in the world.
the screen fades to black, and you’re biting your lip, waiting for his reaction.
he doesn’t say anything at first, just stares at the screen, blinking. you watch his ears turn red before the rest of his face catches up, his hand automatically coming up to rub the back of his neck.
“wait,” he finally says, voice soft, “this is about me?”
you nod, grinning. “yup,” emphasizing the p. “you’re my guitarist side, duh.”
his lips part slightly like he wants to say something, but all that comes out is a quiet, “oh,” he looks down, then back at you, his gaze flickering between your face and the laptop like he’s still processing, “you made this?”
“yeah,” you nudge his shoulder playfully and proudly adds, “the one and only.”
there’s a pause, and then he lets out a small laugh, covering his mouth with his hand. his ears are bright red now, and you can tell he’s absolutely flustered.
“you’re insane,” he mutters, shaking his head.
“insanely sweet, uh-huh.” you correct, nodding your head as if you’re really agreeing with yourself.
he glances at you, and you swear his smile is the softest thing you’ve ever seen.
“you really think that?” he asks quietly, the teasing tone gone.
“think what?”
“that… i’m, like… part of you.”
his voice is so shy it almost breaks you. you lean back, trying to play it cool despite the sudden urge to squish his face. “well, yeah. obviously. you’re my guitarist, aren’t you?”
he doesn’t respond right away, just looks down at his hands like he’s trying to hide how much he’s smiling. he combs back his hair and licks his lips; actions that you notice he always does when he’s flustered. and then, finally, he looks up, with his eyes meeting yours. there’s this quiet intensity that makes your heart skip. “i like that,” he murmurs, voice soft but steady. “i think you’re part of me, too.”
it’s your turn to be flustered now, heat rushing to your cheeks as you look away. “OKAY,” while you’re not entirely sure why, you said that so defensively, and then added, “STOP.”
“what?” he asks, grinning now, voice teasing again. “you started it.”
“i regret everything.”
“no, you don’t,” he says, leaning closer to nudge your shoulder like you did earlier.
and when you peek through your fingers, his expression is so warm and fond that you know he’s right. you definitely don’t.
thank god for being chronically online and for not having anything else to do.
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© oddaesthetin 2024
ughh i just noticed there’s no junhan inner thoughts ughhh (lmao). i made it my goal to always include a peek of the male pov bcs honestly y not. it helps my delusions. not even a week yet and univ ruined my brain already.
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