#truly in my feelings rn
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yk im reaaaaal tired of people acting like cities are inherently less racist/bigoted and completely writing off all rural areas as racist/homophobic monoliths with nothing worth saving. where is the empathy for these communities?
to say fuck rural areas and whatever else, youre saying fuck my family, my friends, their families, and all the people of color who call these places home. these communities that are already incredibly neglected but people dont care about these towns/villages/rural areas or the people in them, they just want some feeling of superiority over the “unintelligent hillbillies”
like of course racism and bigotry exists! im a black nonbinary queer who lived in small towns in central illinois for 20+ years, this isnt naivety, i know bigotry well but the thing is it exists everywhere, including cities. to act as if it’s exclusive to rural areas is disingenuous and i can smell the classism a mile away. this isnt even touching on the queer communities in cities right now but the same applies to it too.
this is also not touching on media which almost solely represents these places as truly irredeemable.
so again, i understand they arent perfect and there is much work to do but i understand these places in an intimate way that the people who want to write us as unsalvageable cannot( white liberals i am especially looking at you). i have plenty of nightmare stories: being pulled over by cops after school just got out and i didnt even make it off the high school’s property, addictions and violence thats taken friends and family, but i can also talk about the way the most community ive ever felt to this day, outside of my own family, was in the trailer park my friend levi lived in, walking through the woods identifying plants and animals and animal tracks with friends, hanging out in abandoned trailers in the middle of nothing teaching each other guitar, the farm my grandpa had and all the joy and wonder that brought me. i cant talk of the good without also speaking of the bad but thats just life isnt it?
im in my feelings and i know for sure im not saying anything someone hasnt before, maybe im saying nothing at all, but though i live in a city currently, i will never stop loving my little ol mining town in the rust belt and the rural areas that raised me and the ones that are home to the people considered disposable, uneducated, and unworthy of grace or help. im just exhausted from constantly having to experience the contempt people have for rural communities.
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love it when people draw aus differently so some ideas for art styles and designs
ink belongs to comyet fresh belongs to loverofpiggies dream + nightmare belong to joku-blog
#utmv#undertale#my art#ink sans#fresh sans#nightmare sans#dream sans#dreamtale#i wrote a lot moree for this post but i just woke up and deleted it instead of hitting send and im not typing it out again#truly love how other people draw sanses. i love you utmv fandom most of the time#especially the two fresh artists that use a pixel brush to draw that is beautiful he looks awesome how does it feel to be so right#pixel art is the move 4 him i think ‼️ described as a 90s piece of trash and so many games that came out in the 90s r pixelated#also wanted to make nightmare’s face + limbs darker and it reminded me of color point cats#so i made dream look vagely like a flame point cat too…. maybe next time i wont blend it#i did a doodle before bed of them both as cats i love cats. my cat is right next to me rn
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tried really hard to capture some of his whimsy
#this truly is a practice piece i wanted to try practicing both capturing likeness and drawing a smile#and honestly got so frustrated and kind of gave up and did whatever after strugling with the face so much like i didn't even try with the#clothes anymore and just simplified but they ended up looking better than the face maybe bc i wasn't trying so hard lmao#but i had fun he's occupying so much of my brainspace rn unfortunately#and i really tried to capture xiao zhan's likeness and his beautiful smile :) and i think in the end it worked out ok? like wei wuxian's#whimsy is there i think. like still need to refine and all that to better capture all that but first attempt!#long tags but i really was going through something#he's my bestie my beloved <3 silly little guy <3#wei wuxian#wei ying#mdzs#grandmaster of demonic cultivation#the untamed#wei wuxian fanart#mdzs fanart#the untamed fanart#my art#digital art#<- i always feel weird putting so many tags but also feel the need to try to accurately categorise#in a bewitched state currently. like it really is dire for me#posted and immediately deleted and posted again. tumblr fucked up my colours </3 it still turns green when i upload </3 can't fix it </3
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WIPs
#so i finished all the pieces. all 21. and then i thought 'oh wouldnt it be nice if the artbook was like the storybook in the movie'#so now im. making a few storybook pages. yknow. on a whim. dw its only 5 its only 5 more pages#if ppl say im normal they are LYING. im CRAYZEE. ouggghghgh this is so FUN its so funky to work w the story palette it pops so hard#gotta do text tweaking prob in ID rather than PS so i have access to kerning adj but this works for placeholding rn#but yea. heaert haert heyart emojee. i gotta talk to my friend so i can brush up on how to open a shop but this is happening#i hope other chars have creators who are this obnoxiously crazy for them bc i truly feel like silver is my fuel. he keeps me going#my inspirtation the light of my life the object of all my creativity he is eternal#twst#twisted wonderland#twst silver#lilia vanrouge#suntails#the sleeping beauty vibes will never get better than this <3 love that movie#the rest of diasomnia is on pg 4 im excited. All of them. the guys
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you ever just have a lot, a LOT of feelings all at once about a character and not even remotely enough words or brainpower to FORM the words to describe everything you're feeling. so it feels like you may explode. yeah
#sorry i got really into my feelings about mark hoffman again#the very specific version of him in my brain that i really really wish i had the time and energy to properly share with you guys#saw#well until i muster the energy to explode all of my feelings out into a fic. if you want to TRY and understand#know that my three biggest hoffman fic insps right now are as follows#your best kept secret hoffman. a series of mistakes hoffman. and rushed like a dreadful wind hoffman.#there is a very clear throughline just know i am extremely emotionally compromised rn#thinking about theee fics vs the canon path hoffman spirals down#something something the absolute tragedy of watching a man's descent into madness#the transformation of a man into a monster#and what could have saved him from himself and kramer's corruption#sorry i'm rambling so much oh my god i was just having such a crying fit out of nowhere about this#do you think he could feel it happening. do you think he was aware he was losing his mind.#the script version of him fucks with me so bad. the crazed rankings and the longer hair and him not being well kept anymore#it's impossible to think he didn't know he was deteriorating#fuuuck okay i need to either chill or write a whole longfic rn#i project on that guy so much i truly don't know if i could properly write my vision of him#until i do something more substantial the full extent of my hoffman exists for me and my boyfriend only. they get me like no one else#well ginny and jenna also get me. please read best kept secret and a series of mistakes Oh My God#where am i going with this. i like tag rambling actually this is a nice way to do it without forcing EVERYONE to read my delirium#anyways if you've read all of this i think i love you? feel free to dm me about hoffman and my very specific headcanons and aus#maybe soon i'll try and start writing my fics about this tragic man#i could never say any of this on twitter btw they'd string me up for my opinions on him as a sad wet beast who could have been fixed#if only he hadn't been weaponized first#god i'm too tired to even be as embarrassed about this as i should be. thought i unlearned cringe already#but i've been spending way too much time on twitter and they HAAATE hoffman there#rip. i know it's not that serious but i'm sensitive rn and hate feeling lonely in my thoughts#ok bye for real otherwise i'll never shut up. i might tag ramble more often bc this was therapeutic in a way i needed badly#cat chat
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NO MORE ASSOCIATING THINGS WITH FEMMES ONLY BECAUSE THEY ARE PINK!HYPERFEM FEMMES ARE GREAT AND I LOVE YOU CAMPY FEMMES WHO EMBODY PINK BUT ALSO JESUS CHRIST CAN YOU GUYS NOT GO MORE THAN ONE DAY W/O TRYING TO SHOEHORN FEMMES INTO BEING ONLY PINK UWU BABIES. I AM FEMME AS IN GRASS AS IN DIRT AS IN TREE BARK AS IN WEEDS SPROUTING THROUGH THE SIDEWALK CEMENT. FEMME AS IN GENDER NONCONFORMITY AS IN FUCK YOU MY FEMININITY IS WHAT *I* SAY IT IS. FEMME AS IN DEPTH AND DARKNESS AND WARMTH AND TERROR. FEMME AS IN CAVES. FEMME AS IN LIGHTNING. FEMME AS IN AN AMALGAMATION OF TRAITS THAT I HAVE DECIDED ARE FEMININE REGARDLESS OF WHAT SOCIETY SAYS. FUCK IS IT THAT HARD TO UNDERSTAND?!???
#personal#i am emotional yes#over the years ive had this blog I've made a few posts abt being femme#nd whether they're serious or jokey..... inevitably someone in the tags goes “ohhh yeah bc pink”#or in the case of what inspired this post: someone going “what about the pink ones” on my praying mantis post#and im just.#sick of it. im sick of femme being equated to pink and frilly girlie behaviors.#im sick of femme being equated to skirts and heels. to makeup. to skincare. to pristine nails exactly almond shaped.#im sick of ppl acting like All femmes aspire to this shit. im sick of femms being reduced to this shit.#and i love pink! i love pink! my phone theme is quite literally just black and pink all over.#im just. so tired of any expression of Femme identity being shoehorned into being a Specific type of femininity#especially as someone who DOES get dysphoric wearing skirts. wearing dresses. embodying the femme aesthetic yall are so set on making#if u guys wanna rb this i truly dont care#i just needed to scream#and this is one small thing#but the 2nd largest category of anon hate i have gotten since making this blog is str8 up homophobia from other “queer” folks#saying i cant be femme bc of how i present. calling me slurs (and using them as such) bc they cant understand femme as anything but that#my wife and i have our users in our personal discord server set as 2 different things of anon hate ive gotten#i have had OTHER FEMMES tell me i am not femme. femmes who Know im femme who still call me butch. femmes who ive corrected and been blocked#-by bc of it. the number 1 largest demographic of queerfolk who have me blocked rn is TME femmes who embody pink also#and i dont think its a coincidence at all. (and i know this bc i go to try and follow these ppl bc they get rbed on my dash & i cant)#and ik their blogs arent deleted bc some of them don't block my wife (tall. white. butch) and it cant be politics cause her and i rb#a lot of the same political shit (fuck. i think she rbs More than i do even. this is genuinely mainly a nsft blog)#and usually i don't say anything but im having a bad day so i get to be angry about this and if anyone fucking tries me i will block u#idc if we've been mutuals 4ever. im judt so tired of feeling like i am not Enough as a femme bc i dont embody this shit#im sick of this lameass lip service to he/him gnc femmes etc when the thin white 50s housewife femme is still what is preferred and loved#im sick of this lamesss lip service when y'all feel entitled to theorizing on other femmes genders bc u cant conceptualize a femme who does#wanna be hypetfeminine. im sick of it. im sick of it. im sick of it.#celebrity bun
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You are not who I raised. Oh, that is all I am, mother.
#mary and george#maryandgeorgeedit#mary & george#perioddramaedit#nicholas galitzine#userninz#chrissiewatts#usersteen#usergayppl#usermegsb#mine*#mary and george spoilers#and thats on acting!!!!!!#sad pathetic little george you will always be loved#the way his whole demeanor changed throughout was incredible to watch#i need some awards to be won i'm so serious rn#and the way nick described it: having to play the manipulator and the manipulated at the same time#i Get It now. truly#not many people have that talent to make you feel that way about a inherently bad person#cant believe nick just fell into acting my god
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A study on Lance's underrated role on the team. Pt 4
Pidge
It is a common interpretation to see Pidge and Lance's relationship as very sibling like, and I can see why.
Since the very first episode we see Lance being very perceptive of her.
It is funny how bossy Lance is in the simulator, but he does care about his team following safety measures.
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After they crash the simulator and Iverson badmouths the Kerberos Mission crew, Lance prevents Pidge from going off and getting in more trouble.
And this ends with him in the end of Iverson's irritation, reminding him he is in this class because the best pilot left. This visibly affects him but later we see he doesn't harbor any ill feelings against his team.
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He plans on taking Pidge with them for a fun night in town, and he is being a rebellious teen here but also keeps mentioning how important it is for the trio to bond as a team.
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Later in the roof, is his observation about Pidge's strong reactions to any mention of Kerberos and his insistance that they need to bond as a team that convince Pidge to tell then about what she was investigating.
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And it may seem that Lance is using the "team bonding" as a excuse to just hang out but it is something he mentions constantly and Pidge has noticed it. We see in a flashback of Pidge's first meeting with them that Lance was eager to welcome them into the team and get to know their new member.
And even if Pidge blew them off quite rudely, Lance still tried to include them.
In the comics, Pidge mentions "team work" and "team awareness" as some of Lance's strenghts. So Lance being heavily team oriented has not gone unnoticed by her.
Back in the topic of perception, the rooftop was not the only moment we had of Lance being observant of Pidge's behaviour.
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In the Game Show, Lance had trouble recalling Rolo's name, but had the detail that Pidge liked Beezer very present.
And it's Lance's awareness of Pidge's behaviour and her absence around Rover that made him realise that robot was an impostor.
Speaking of "The Fall of the Castle of Lions", is in that episode where Pidge reveals she is thinking of leaving Voltron, and while she is the one with a made up mind Hunk also expresses his desire to leave and being unsure of being in the team. Allura herself says "This team is falling apart." It takes Lance getting hurt for the team to spring to action and that helps both of the members being hesitant in staying reach an understanding of the importance of being a Paladin. Pidge in particular since she realises she has not being present for her team that much (Lance and Hunk) but she is willing to help them now.
Even by accident, Lance helps the team stay together.
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This episode also has the moment where a hurt and weak Lance shots Sendak to get him to drop Pidge. Later it's implied that Lance doesn't remember this moment, so he was barely conscious.
Again, a barely conscious and weak Lance decided to use his remaining strenghts to help his friend in peril.
This is not the only moment we see Lance being protective of Pidge, in later seasons, where the team gets captured by Zethrid and Ezor. To get them to talk, Zethrid assumes the paladins have a soft spot for "the small one".
She is right, but the first (and only one) to react in that moment is Lance.
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We also see this protectiveness in more subtle ways, in the episodes where they are talking about the possibility of getting Sam Holt back.
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At first he looks on board with giving Lotor because of his personal grievances with him, but then understands how serious Pidge is about this and even looks a worried at her outburst.
And then, when Zarkon double crosses them and doesn't give Sam back, Lance is the first to react and tells the team to go down and help.
Lance just really dislikes seeing his friends in any kind of distress.
And I know I said Keith and Allura's parts were going to be the longest but turns out that the 10 pic limit is still my enemy and there is still some things I want to talk about related to Lance and Pidge interactions.
[Part 1] [Part 2] [Part 3]
#voltron#voltron legendary defender#voltron meta#lance mcclain#vld lance#pidge holt#this post are just making me remember why i love my boy so much#truly in lance brainrot rn#also this part gave me such trouble wtf#every part feels very shippy ngl#lance just cares too much#he loves his team gdi#the team mom lance agenda
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My human John design :>
I just love him so much
I need everyone to know that his eyes are based on this post I made, I don't think I fully got the image across here but I need everyone to see the vision with me
#my beautiful wife#my beautiful gorgeous wife#i truly believe in my heart of hearts that if he ever gets a human body he will be the most gorgeous man alive#finally got to draw him with his mesmerizing honey colored eyes <3<3<3#john malevolent#john doe#john doe malevolent#malevolent#malevolent podcast#malevolent fanart#human john doe#to be continued#...maybe#I didn't feel like doing line art rn so if I end up finishing it that's all im gonna do
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a quick message of gratitude! 💌 thank you for all the love on vernon x rockstar!reader, or catch you when i can. of all my work, it's the one i've seen the most referenced in 2024 wrappeds & the like, which i remain immensely humbled by. extra parts on this verse coming soon. ♡
#── ᵎᵎ ✦ yapping#[ it's very rare for a writer to feel like the work they put into a story -- ]#[ -- is proportional to the reception it receives. and i think that's a bit of how i feel -- ]#[ w/cywic!!! it is truly my baby and everyone has been so kind in receiving it ☹️ ]#[ i am very happy ab that. if i were to stop creating rn WHICH I WON'T . ]#[ cywic being associated to xinganhao wouldn't be a bad way to go !! yknow ]#[ as always: gratitude to rockstar!anon WHOSE ASK I TEARED UP OVER BTW ]#[ holding it hostage bc of the request hehe but ur message will see the light of day ]#[ back to regular programming i promise i promise ]#[ but i saw cywic in AT LEAST 5 difft wraps and :“) it just got mee ]#[ love this couple love this verse and i love everyone who has looked on to it kindly ]#[ OKAY ENOUGH. more hashtag Real content soon haha ily ]
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Waiting for Evershine be like-
anywho now that I'm alive and free, I can't wait for Evershine AHHH
This is my main governor, June… in sandrock form LMAO
Geez I wonder who she likes- 🐑
#my time at sandrock#mtas Avery#mtae Avery#my time at evershine#mtas#mtae#gifset#ima tell yall rn I feel crazy thinkin about evershine#URGHHH I’m just so excited AND IM SO HAPPY TO HAVE SO MANY FRIENDS TO PLAY WITH NOW AKDHAJAK#so much has happened this year it’s crazy…#I still got a lot of sandrock stuff try to finish but evershine is truly in my mind#URGH I thought I wouldn’t love another MTA game like I did for sandrock but I’m just loving the premise of evershine…#HEHEEEE
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everybody! quick! tell me what aro joy means to you <2
#i will go first. breaking the boundaries set in place by the systems of love and romance is so cool#and i feel like it opens up so many possibilities.#like i've said in a poem before aromanticism to me is not a lack of anything it's an opening of the world before me...#it is also! the fact that i have had to contend with the thought of a future living my life alone#and now i am not only at peace with it but so happy with the idea. so overjoyed at the thought of spending my life with myself.#self esteem and delight and choosing what you want and making a life that is really and truly your own#without society's expectations changing it and without someone else's expectations changing it#AND. being sexy as fuck. aromanticism to me#if you don't feel aro joy rn you are not allowed to bemoan the experience on this post. i care dearly for you but go find another post.#before you do that though. take a second and look through the notes... hopefully people will have put some good stuff in there...#it is hard to get to the point of aromanticism bringing you joy sometimes BUT. by fucking god you can get there.#and it is so so fantastic...#aromantic#aromanticism#arospec#talking#aspec#aroace#aro positivity#aro joy#aromantic positivity
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i don’t even fucking care
#house md#house spoilers#hilson#the fact that house is consistently selfish. that he’s an addict. he’s always in pain#but he gave up his vicodin for wilson. mind you the pain in his thigh must have been excruciating#bc consistently whenever he’s extremely stressed or worried the pain gets worse#but wilson is still his priority. he put wilson above the burning pain god man😭#him giving up his freedom HIS LIFE for someone who has less than half a year to live like oh my god#the love house has for wilson actually makes me sick bc even outside of the cancer arc house has done things for wilsons sake#like almost killing himself just to help him and amber. drugging him at that one conference from s6#he’s an asshole often times but he truly is the only constant in his life. they both are for each other#i actually feel sick. im not on everybody dies yet (im on the c word rn) but god idk how im gonna get thru this😭#5x13 big baby#8x19 the c word#1x01 everybody lies#8x22 everybody dies#7x15 bombshells#8x21 holding on#where the quotes are from btw#sorry for the essay in tags
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heyyyy guys not to be cringe and self promo but i updated my inprnt and added a couple gravity falls things :') here's the link to my shop if you're interested! there's also a sale going on sitewide!
#i always feel so stupid doing promo but i've had a couple people ask so.#ask and you shall receive smth smth#thanks for all the love guys it's truly overwhelming 🫶🫶#i'm just having a good time rn but seeing you guys ALSO enjoy my self indulgence is nice :'))#we're all suckers for the fake family#okay off to work on zine stuff bye bye#mods talks shit#self promo
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i think my friend of 4 years is abt to confess to me soon
#HUUUUGE SLOWBURN BRO#👹👹👹#i mean#i like him too its just a bit messy#cuz me n my ex ebded not too long ago so☝🏼#im working ofc on myself but truth be tood#i liked that friend for a long time#weve had a fwb moment for a hot#minute#but above all truly#i feel safe n heard n not judged n thats whats important to me#☝🏼🤞🏼#anyways#its a lot rn#BUT#WELL SEE HOW IT GOES#MWAH#💓💓💓💓💓#[‹ moshi : posts ›]
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When you stumble upon old photos from high school and you get that weird feeling that this was simultaneously just last week and an entirely different life, you know what i mean? It feels so close and at the same time so far away from your current life...
#god!!! such a strange feeling#all those moments with friends and classmates. i have no idea what most of these people are doing rn#but we shared such a significant era of our lives. teenage years.#and i also got to see my first love again in these 🫶#i hope he's well i haven't seen him in so long 💖#he truly was the cutest and prettiest boy of them all i always had good taste 😌😌#and there was my first crush there too#also cute but not that much and not as important to me#nostalgia hitting#let me have my moment i'll be fine in a few minutes#tbd
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