#troubled child industry tw

[compassionatereminders]

And to those who don't know, Paris Hilton was a victim of the Troubled Teen Industry in her late teens and spent literal years in horribly abusive institutions based on hard labor where the conditions LITERALLY killed people. So when she did her "lol I don't need to know what work is because I'm pretty" or whatever later on as a young adult, that was mainly because she wasn't ready to face that trauma publicly because she was literally forced to work her fucking ass off in the most literal physical sense of the word for years

[kimberlyborelli]

My Story:

As a child I experienced already a lot.

September 2014: I started to visit a different school. I struggled with learning, my chronical sickness and bullying.

Winter 2014: I started to visit the social worker & counsler at school because my problems turned out worse. But sadly these counseling sessions weren't helpful at all. I had to visit a psychiatrist for further treatment. It was tried to fix my problems but sadly it wasn't helpful. I developed suicidal thoughts because I was that frustrated. The psychiatrist decided to try some medications. The psychiatrist explained. The first two weeks it could show some side effects. But two weeks after I took the first pill: I developed a serious rare side effect. My parents asked the psychiatrist but she just said: It will pass by soon. But the issue didn't passed by...It got worse.

Autumn 2015: I had a mental breakdown on my way to school. I was sent to a hospital by the ambulance and received tranquelizers to be more compliant. In the hospital I was in a strong delirium. A psychiatrist was talking to me and said: I should be sent to a therapeutic facility.

At the facility (third floor, the secluded ward): The bathrooms were locked. Everytime when someone had to use the bathroom we had to ask for permission and wait til it's unlocked. But often there were times where the staff refused to unlock the door. No makeup was allowed. Also there were some patients who were treated better. I wasn't allowed to have hair ties in my room. In both floors where I was spent my time there was the rule of Silence Time (stay in your room and remain silent). Also books were controlled. I spent the first days in solitary confinement (I was allowed to leave my room and talk to others after the isolation. But it was monitored about topics. When you critized the staff you got punished.) Shaving wasn't allowed. Deodorants weren't allowed. Questions/Suggestions were ignored by the staff. Once I had a short anxiety episode some of the staff made fun of me. The only right ting what they did: To stop my medications. At the third floor I didn't received any therapy (They told my parents I'm attending a program). The only situation where I had something therapy-related I'd got a questionaire. I also was told being too fat for having an ED. Well, I was underweight. I was once allowed to attend a group activity at the third floor. It was about crafting. After I left the room, one of the staff teared my crafting work apart and threw it away.

First floor, ward with "less stricter" rules: After over one week where I tried to behave. I was shifted to the first floor. I shared my room with a girl (and we became friends). Also the staff noticed that and weren't happy about that. We both were in seperate classes in school. The classes were more like: Just do something school related and try to look busy. We both had seperate therapy programs. In the "silence time" we were in our room together. But we just talked and didn't cared about the rule. One hour before bedtime you have to be in your room and remain silent to get ready for bed. We both had different bedtimes. But mostly I went with her in our room and we still chatted together during she got ready for bed. During bedtime we weren't allowed to talk. But we still talked to each other and we got scolded and punished once. The bathroom got locked next time. I was shifted to another room and I was forced to sleep on the floor. She was shifted to a single room and was in solitary confinement. At the first floor I received some therapy. The group therapy was very strange. We received a behavior diagram and it was used for behavior modification.

The Ending: At the end my parents got me out finally. The staff tried to sent me to another facility. My therapist told me and my parents were too overwhelmed and want to send me away. And to my parents he told: I don't want to see my parents anymore.

[a-troubled-bird]

today being the 5 year anniversary of the worst april fools joke ever (me being sent to a residential treatment center for over a year) has got me thinking about how much that place, and other programs within the troubled teen industry, have fucked me up.

i’m just now seeing how rotten the entire system was and is. it’s hard to even confront that idea for me right now; that it was bad, actually. it’s like a knotted mess of trauma and shame and confusion i’m only just starting to untangle.

i’m learning how to rebuild myself after being systematically broken down by adults who were supposed to help me, who had absolute control over my life, who liked to punish kids for fun. i’m trying to catch up on the childhood i missed out on, and how to grow past the hurt. it’s hard as hell. but i’m trying.

anyway. wanted to start a blog to talk about it, since it’s so hard to find people who relate irl. don’t know how much i’ll use it. we shall see

[rosestraumablog]

My Experience in The Troubled Teen Industry PT.1

I'm just going to flat out say it,

The name of this program is "Innercept" it is in Coeur d'Alene Idaho and it is abusive.

fair warning, my space key is broken and this was a few years ago now and due to my dissociative disorder I have blocked some of it out. However I swear everything I tell you is real.

TW: child abuse, psychological torture, neglect, SH/Cutting, (this is for all parts not just this one)

If you go to there website you see smiling faces, this is far from the truth.

they promise a full recovery after 90 days minimum there.

It started off bad and it kept getting worse, on October 8th around 3:30am I was dragged out of my bed in a psychiatric unit in Texas by people I would later know as "Goons". They pushed me into the back of a car and told me that if I fought them I'd spend the next 30 hours in the back of that van driving to "Residential" in Coeur d'Alene Idaho. If I didn't fight them we would take a plane there.

Disoriented and confused (having just woken up) I made the choice to not fight.

So we took the roughly 6 and a half hour flight. Once we landed the goons picked up a rental car for the final leg of the journey into hell.

Looking around at the scenery out the windows my first thought was how beautiful it was, we had flown into Spokane Washington and driven the rest of the way in the car, so we were surrounded by picturesque mountains and forests.

We arrived at the offices of the program and after a brief intake I got driven up to the house by a staff member.

Immediately upon getting there I was escorted inside by the staff member. I was told to go down a set of steps in the house down to the basement. Little did I know this is where I'd spend the next week.

This is part one, it's late and I'm tired and the hard stuff feels to difficult right now to talk about.

[limetimo]

Saw a post about this and went looking. Never heard of Trails Carolina camp before. hey what the fuck

[everlocked]

so sad about the way that autistic girls often get treated by the mental healthcare system 😞 i was in and out of hospitals from the age of 12 and i mostly got told i was “just a brat” who didn’t really want help and just wanted attention, or that there was something wrong but they didn’t know what and i’d just get perpetually passed around to different psychiatrists. eventually ended up being sent to one of those abusive wilderness camps for 7 months

the lady doing my assessment has shown me so much kindness and it’s just absolutely crazy that my meltdown behaviour as a teen was completely dismissed and not seen for what it was. the system abuses autistic kids so badly, if someone had just helped me like i was begging all the professionals to, maybe i wouldn’t have ended up in a camp being abused

[angeldustanalog]

i like to make sure that my most fucked up blogs still have tti related posts that link back to my main because i want people to know the effects and i think im a really good example of the efficacy :3

[childrensrightsrehumanrights]

Tw child abuse

[petalpathic]

"And one day, your name didn't make me smile anymore."

You are a star. A sensation. Everybody loves you.

And get this;

You're cast in a hit tv-show called "Encore", it's a sweet small-town story about a group of kids unlikely to hang out, finding each other one day in an oddly specific circumstance, where they find out how alike they really are.

Cliche? Probably. But, the people you met on set changed your life.

You're a lot like your on-screen character in that way.

Anyways, you're big and it's crazy, unlike anything you could ever imagine. Cameras, interviews, fans, autographs, blah blah blah.

And then,

you die.

FEATURES

-come back to life

-say hello (and bye, then hello again) to Hollywood

-5 potential suitors mmmm....(two female, two male, one secret)

-watch as everyone you've loved loses themselves in grief

-play as female, male, or nb

-maybe try not to die again okay? for all our sakes?

This game is just supposed to be fun! This is my first IF, and while I can be serious, I'd like this to be a fun little project to escape to (for you and for me).

But... this is also Hollywood we're talking about...so there might be some heavy topics unsuitable for some readers.

TW for: mentions and uses and abusing of substances (drugs), sexual harrassment of a major character, optional sexual content (not extremely explicit, it'll probably be pretty vague), implied death of a major character (besides MC), and maybe more.

That list (as well as this intro page) will be updated as I write and flesh out some character bgs.

MAIN ROs

Vanessa "Nessa" Villanueva | F | SHE/HER

The "It Girl". She was cold when you met her but she’s even colder and emotionally unavailable than ever.

romance-able by all genders

Kate Santos | F | SHE/HER

She is awkward, but not shy. Her dark and sarcastic humor get her in some trouble with the more conservative of people.

romance-able by all genders

Kyle "Ky" Taylor-Hara | M | HE/HIM

The model and heartthrob, Ky Taylor-Hara. He came into the cast with the last season and you’ve known him to be soft-spoken and quiet.

romance-able by all genders

Austin Arison | M | HE/HIM

Austin was a child actor and has been in the industry for as long as he can remember. Being in "Encore" was the only time he felt like he actually wanted to act.

romance-able by all genders

LINKS

DEMO TBA | PINTEREST | RO APPEARANCES |

Asks are always welcome and encouraged!! Please ask about my silly little game <3

[wolfiafuntime]

About The Cultists II

How some members of the Temple of Liyue joined the cult, what they do at the cult, and where they went when they were told to leave.

Ft. Baizhu, Beidou, Childe, Chongyun, Ganyu, Hu Tao, Keqing, Ningguang, Paimon, Qiqi, Shenhe, Xiangling, Xiao, Xingqiu, Xinyan, Yanfei, Yaoyao, Yelan, Yun Jin, Zhongli, and LORE

Tw: Cults, kids being in cults, physical abuse, neglect, violence, degredation(?), and Zhongli before his Yandere Era

Published: September 4, 2023

Words: 1,860 (1,817 w/o the names)

Pages: 5.6 (5.3 w/o the names)

Baizhu Bubu: Was introduced to the cult while searching for his missing daughter, and joined them shortly after discovering they saved her life. Spends his time performing check-ups on his fellow members, and if any medicine is required, then he'll give it to them at a seventy-five percent discount. Often lets his snake, Changsheng, wander about the Temple of Liyue. When told to move, he got a two-bedroom apartment for him and Qiqi, which is not only near his job, but also near a park. Currently owns and works as the sole doctor of the Bubu clinic, and is also the owner of the Bubu Pharmacy across the street.

Beidou Crux: Was introduced to the cult by Ningguang and Ganyu after her seventh time going to court, and joined shortly after losing her boating license. She spent a lot of time getting back on her feet, and mainly contributed by fishing up food for her fellow Believers. Eventually, she got her boating license back, started working on a shipping boat named the SS Alcor, and quickly climbed her way up to captain. She spends most of her time on that boat, and because of that, she's allowed to stay in the Temple of Liyue when she's in Teyvat City. Still gets in legal trouble, but oddly, her punishments are far lighter now...

'Childe Stutter': Was introduced to the cult when his team was instructed to investigate it. Originally infiltrated through a contact in the Church of Sneznhaya, and while his teammates were there, he slowly started to be swayed by the cult's beliefs. Thankfully, just as he realized this, his team leader decided to disperse the team throughout the different compounds, and he was sent to the Temple of Liyue. Currently works as a bank teller for a company named Northland Bank. After being told to get his own place, he got a house a few blocks away from Zhongli's new house.

Chongyun Yang: Was introduced to the cult through his Aunt Shenhe, but didn't join until he decided to run away from his abusive family. Spends his time trying to spread the word of Their Grace, which he mostly does by bringing peace to someplace or another. Never moved out of the Temple due to his age.

Ganyu Qilin: Was introduced to the cult by Rex Lapis himself during her college years, and joined shortly after mother did. Spends her time organizing various things, like food orders, taxes, and events, for not only the Temple of Liyue, but most of the other compounds as well. After her mother was turned into an Adeptus, she gained the title of 'Half-Adeptus'. Works as a secretary for the Keqing Yuheng at a city and urban planning company named Yuehai Industries. Due to her half-human status, she was not allowed to stay on the compound, so she moved into an apartment between her job and the Temple.

Hu Tao Wangsheng: Was introduced to the cult by Baizhu, but didn't join until after losing her grandfather. Spends her time trying to convince her fellow members to die, so they can finally meet Their Grace, planning how to convince, or just playing pranks on them. Also spends her time trying to get grieving families to join the cult. Works as the Director of the Wangsheng Funeral Parlor. When she was told to move out, she got a suburbian house in between her job and the Temple.

Keqing Yuheng: Was introduced to the cult by Ganyu, and only joined because Ganyu did. At first spent her time trying to subtly convince Ganyu to leave the cult with her, but similarly to Childe, has come to believe in Them. Still dislikes Visions, though, unlike her opinions of Their Grace, she has been open about this from the start. Spends her time training the teens and children of the cult with various physical exercises. Currently works as the CEO of an urban and city planning company named Yuehai Industries. Currently lives next to Ganyu.

Ningguang Tianquan: Was introduced to the cult by Rex Lapis himself during her college years, and joined when he convinced her it would help her with her money troubles. After joining the cult, she dedicated all of her time to it. And after learning that Rex Lapis was looking for representatives for his children, she tried her hardest to become one of them. But bittersweetly, was only rewarded the position of High Priestess. As the High Priestess of the Temple, she did not have to leave and get her own place, so she didn't. She currently works as a Judge at the Jade Courthouse.

Payton Paimon Via: Was introduced to the cult by her Aunt Lumine, just minutes before she moved into the Church of Mondstadt. Has spent five years there, but has yet to recieve a vision, due to the elders not knowing what Vision to give her. Is currently moving from compound to compound with her dad.

Qiqi Bubu: Was saved by a Temple of Liyue sub-faction named The Adepti, but didn't join until a few months later when she was reunited with her father Baizhu, partially due to the severity of the injuries she suffered. Spends a lot of her time either around the other children, physically exorcising to improve her bodily function, or mentally exercising to improve her short-term memory. Currently lives in an apartment in Teyvat City with her dad.

Shenhe Yin: Was saved by Cloud Retainer, a member of the Temple of Liyue's Adepti sub-faction, when she was a teen. Spends her time training to become an Adepti- a task that, when accomplished, will make her the first non-original member of the cult to gain such a rank. Because she's no longer a teen and not yet an Adepti, when Rex Lapis told everyone to find there own homes, she was forbidden from living in The Temple of Liyue or the Adeptal Domain. She was only permitted a few months to get a job- and she eventually found one as a Medium. Currently lives in a studio apartment in Teyvat City.

Xiangling Wanmin: Was introduced to the cult by Beidou, who talked her into joining over the course of a few months. Spends most of her time either cooking for the cult, coming up with new things to cook for them, or foraging and/or hunting for ingredients. Also spends a lot of time with a baby bear with downsyndrome that she adopted and named Guoba. Was forced to leave him with the cult when she had to move out. Currently lives with Xinyan and Yun Jin in an apartment nearby her job, Wanmin Restaurant, which she's the Restauranteur of.

Xiao Wangshuu: Was introduced to the cult by Rex Lapis during his teen years, and joined to escape his abusive father. His fighting prowess got him rewarded the title of Adeptus, and later got him the title of Yaksha- a council of five meant to lead the Adeptus. Sadly, the his fellow members were driven mad and murdered each other, and one of them mysteriously disappeared. As an Adeptus, he's one of the few to know Rex Lapis is safe and healthy. Also as an Adeptus, he was permitted to stay on the original compound chosen for The Creator's Grace, which has now been renamed to the Adeptal Domain. Although he doesn't; opting to spend his nights in a treehouse hidden nearby the Temple of Liyue.

Xingqiu Feiyun: Was introduced to the cult by Chongyun. And not wanting his friend to be living alone with strangers, he half-lied to, half-talked his parents into letting him follow his friend. But quickly fell in love with the dedicated yet simple people of the compound, and soon started to believe in Their Grace. Spends a lot of his time reading, or hanging out with the other teens and kids. Due to his age, he never had to move out of the Temple of Liyue.

Xinyan Rock: Was introduced to the cult by her friend Xiangling, but didn't join until Xiangling convinced her it would ease the numerous troubles in her life. Spends her time making or playing music for her fellow Worshippers. Currently works as a musician on YouTube and Twitch, and makes her money by streaming concerts. Currently lives in an apartment building together with Xiangling and Yun Jin.

Yanfei Xiezhi: Was introduced to the cult by her father, but didn't join until after she befriended Eula from the Church of Mondstadt. Almost joined the Church of Mondstadt, too, until she learned of the unfair rules in the Temple of Liyue. That, combined with her father being a member there, convinced her to change courses, so she could, at the very least, advise her fellow Believers on what to do. Currently works as a legal adviser for Xiezhi & Kuki General Law Firm, and currently lives in an apartment with her friend Eula, and Eula's friend Amber.

Yaoyao Rambler: Is the second child to be born into the cult, and the first one to be born with Adeptus blood, due to her mother being Streetward Rambler. Recently got her Dendro Vision, finally making her an official member of the cult. Spends most of her time hanging out with various members of the Temple of Liyue. Was allowed to stay at the Temple of Liyue due to her age, but not allowed to stay at the Adeptal Domain due to only having one Adeptus parent.

Yelan Yansheng: Was introduced to the cult by Ningguang, after serving as an anonymous informant for some of her lawyers. Joined shortly after making a deal with Ningguang to continue helping with legal cases. Spends a lot of her time with a fake smile on, helping cultists she's slowly starting to agree with... Works as the owner of the Yansheng Casino, although is seldom recognized when she's there. When she was told to move out, she had her Casino renovated so she could live there.

Yun Jin Heyu: Was introduced to the cult by Xinyan, and joined when she convinced her it would help free her from her sheltered childhood. Spends her time either performing for her fellow members, or writing new performances, thanks to them unintentionally inspiring her. Works as the head writer and performer at Heyu Opera House. Offers a fifty percent discount to all members of The Creator's Grace, so long as they contact her beforehand. Currently lives with her friend Xinyan, and Xinyan's friend Xiangling.

Zhongli Xiangsheng: Is currently hating his life. He's managed to kidnap you, and has you trapped in his basement (why did you trust him?). Hates that he has to make you food (he gives you one half-assed sandwich a day). Hates that he has to take out your waist (the basement has no toilet; you're being forced to poop and pee in a trashbag with no trashcan). His only relief is when he takes out his anger on you-- and he's starting to hate that, too (You feel like you're going insane)...

Series Masterlist | Lamo Regular Masterlist

@yandere-city-deactivated2023081 (what do I do when someone who wanted to be tagged deactivated their account?)

@resident-cryptid (sorry this is late! My internet went out just before I pressed 'post'!)

[egopathic]

links to a couple websites to check out in relation to the troubled teen industry and anti institutionalization

(heavy tw for child abuse and torture, neglect, death, religious abuse, sexual abuse, ableism, racism and conversion therapy)

- we warned them

- unsilenced

- troubled teens subreddit

- teens for profit

- breaking code silence

[kimberlyborelli]

Researches

On March 12, 2024: I started to do researches about the facility, where I was sent to several years ago.

The facility is still running and is still offering programs for children and teenagers.

In the first phase I started with researches.

I started to look at the website of this facility...

[nosilhovette]

❀ *◦ christian yu. demiboy. he/they. pansexual and panromantic. ⇝ hey, isn’t that lee "bastian" sebastian ( nickname: erebus )? i think that the thirty year old from melbourne, australia works as owner of wrench it, cashier at dracula's coffin club, and member of the bastards, but outside of that people describe them as a symphony in an empty ballroom, bruises colouring your knuckles in blue and purple, taking a punch with a grin, scattered shards of a broken mirror, an aura of black following your every move, tenderness buried under the rubble. i hear they are capricious & cunning, but they are also known to be resolute & sharp-witted. consider giving them a visit at their home in kingpin trailer park, and get to know why they’re called the serpent. stats / pinterest

disclaimer: most, but not all, of the gifs found on this blog are mine, made from scratch. please do not save, repost, use or claim as your own.

BASICS

full name: lee sebastian

age: 30 years old

date of birth: march 22, 1994

hometown: melbourne, australia

gender: demiboy

pronouns: he/they

sexuality: pansexual/panromantic

occupation: owner of wrench it, cashier at dracula's coffin club

spoken languages: korean, english, american sign language

parents: unknown

siblings: unknown

BACKGROUND

TWS for implied abuse, mental illness, religion & substance abuse

sebastian's story begins in melbourne, australia, born at exactly 3:33 am ... to two extremely devout catholics. their child being born at ( in their beliefs ) a time that symbolized satanism brought great unrest, which would in turn be the very reason they abandoned him just years later. convinced that their son was possessed by the evil entity, or was the devil himself, when in actuality he was just a child who needed to be nurtured, their love turned to hate.

having gone so far as to have him exorcised, it was only a matter of time before they abandoned him, only six years old at the time. dissociative amnesia caused the more traumatic memories and their aftermaths to be lost in the depths of his mind; when he came back, he was in a ward of the foster care system. the life of torment he lived was over, but he couldn't escape the ghosts of it that haunted him, a permanent reminder burned onto his skin in the shape of a crucifix.

they called this child who'd forgotten his own name ezra, which was what he went by from that point on. the rest of his upbringing was spent in the foster care system, relocated more times than he could keep track of, never finding a place to call home, or a family to call his own.

harbouring a reputation, most of his peers thought of him in the same way his parents did. he wasn't an outgoing or obedient child, and his tendency to get into trouble only got worse in his teenage years. the black sheep of each home and social circle, sebastian's life was spent almost entirely alone; his only companion being the stray kitten that wandered the premises.

inevitably aging out of foster care, sebastian was faced with many more challenges. without any guidance or resources, he ended up in sydney with the feline, homeless for some time before getting recruited into a gang. there was much better company to be in, but it got him off of the streets and gave him some sort of purpose. he was, however, a snake in the grass. after a year of doing the dirty work and being shoved around, he sold the gang out, discreetly running off with the funds and taking off to seoul, south korea.

having changed his name before setting off, lee sebastian was finally born, and his life could finally begin. in time, he'd be swooped into the music industry, where he was finally thought of as something other than damned. the group achieved great success, and during this period, he began to explore his gender identity, ultimately discovering himself to be a demiboy, identifying as such going forward.

the waters grew rough late 2016, when symptoms of his very neglected mental health worsened. he began stray from the path and taint his idol image ( a concept that he hated ) – the life wasn't as perfect as it seemed. past habits returned, and substance abuse became a coping mechanism when times were especially tough. soon enough, he'd find himself back in the pits of hell.

bastian's inevitable departure from the industry was explosive and def left a mark. leaving the members behind, just as what had been done with the gang all those years ago ( except staying in touch this time ), bastian all but disappeared as he relocated to anchorage, alaska. while many didn't take what he accused the label of seriously, it came just 6 months before its shut down, following the situation with nikolai's group in 2017.

eventually finding a new place of belonging, bastian became a member of the bastards; the second gang he'd be a part of, but it was far less bullshit he'd have to put up with than the former. anchorage came to be his home, as fucked up and shrouded in mystery as it was, and this time, he wouldn't run away.

HEADCANONS

bastian still struggles with episodes of memory gaps and disassociation, and is diagnosed with a dissociative disorder that he does seek therapy / take medication for, as well as for his personality disorder.

even though he ditched the industry a long time ago, he still makes music of his own today as a creative outlet and is professionally known as bash, though he's more off the radar these days with a smaller but devoted fanbase.

was in a long-term relationship (with some off and on's) with nikolai up until recently. even though they're just friends now, he'll always be his first priority.

personality wise, may come across as cold and unwelcoming at first ( resting bitch face and being covered in tattoos probably doesn't help this ), but below that iciness is just a fucking dork. a grumpy but loveable one. he means well!!! generally speaking, he is easy enough to get along with if you don't mind that he's brutally honest and a little rough around the edges

he is notttt a patient person by any means. impatience is probably one of his biggest flaws, along with impulsivity which gets him in fucked up situations; they don't have time for any bullshit. the type of person to just walk away in the middle of a conversation if it's deemed a waste of time. also has a short fuse. sometimes u just gotta be like let's get u to bed grandpa FDHGJFDH

as a result of trauma, he has one white blind eye.

still has the cat from when he aged out of the foster system!!! she is 11 years old now and is a lil seal point siamese named danbi. loves her to death. has another siamese mix, a 4 year old named Jimothy that was adopted with nikolai – they coparent him. also has a black german shepherd named loki!!!

just another #mess added to the roster tbh. we love him

[reversecreek]

welcome to marina, LANA JAMESON ( woman, she/her ) ! they are a TWENTY SIX year old who has lived on the island for THREE YEARS. word on the street is they’re currently living in TOWER HILL and works as a INSTAGRAM / EDITORIAL MODEL. everyone also says they look a lot like SADIE SOVERALL. what do you think?

PINTEREST

“below the stage the seats are empty. the theatre is dark. why do you keep acting?” — Charles Bukowski, Come On In!: New Poems

HISTORY:

lana grew up in a big house in albany, NY. i picture it w dark oak floors n lots of light furniture. albums framed on walls. mayb some rolling stone covers too frm way bk when of the bands her dad’s label signed. kind of like… a rock star palace w no evidence of children at all. i think i described it best in one of lana’s self paras once when i said the garden ws “as lavish as it was unloved”

lana’s mum victoria (vic) ws a music journalist w a pretty fruitful career ahead of her when she met lana’s dad richard (rich). his record label ws jst starting out, founded on the coattails of his rich best friend’s (jensen peters) investment w his other best friend (who he jst calls knoxville). it rocketed to success when they signed poppy injects, a rock band w an electric stage presence, n victoria ws drawn to the glitz n glamour of a man tht ws at the helm of his aspiring industry. their love ws very impulsive, all or nothing right frm the start, n it ws almost like she ws mre in love w his accomplishments n what he represented than him

anyway so jameson records repped a few big rock bands bk in the eighties, altho poppy injects r who they’re mostly known fr, namely bc of hw brightly they crashed n burned. they were a big chart success bt the lead singer hd quite an intense struggle w heroin (wsnt rly subtle abt it either while he ws in the public eye as u cn probably imagine frm such an on-the-nose band name) n he ws always in n out of the papers. it eventually brought down his career n it ws a big publicity nightmare

lana pretty much… grew up around figures like this throughout childhood. rly troubled characters who wld kind of… b extremely volatile n destructive abt their troubles. the jameson house was kind of an open one as welcoming clients went n a lot of parties took place there. a lot of the time musicians wld b snorting lines in the kitchen when she wnted to grab a bowl of cereal fr breakfast n it was just. a very strange environment fr a child to grow up in

her parents always kind of jst… didn’t like her much. her older brother caleb ws unplanned bt they sort of welcomed the surprise more bt… quickly realised they weren’t cut out fr parenthood n then when lana came as another surprise 3 yrs later they didn’t even try to hide their resentment abt the situation. her mum ws actually booked in to have an abortion bt cldnt go through with it at the last minute. once when lana asked her why shes so cold towards her she jst turned her head frm her dresser, looked at her, told her abt this n said “idk why i didn’t go”. lana didn’t kno wht to say to tht so she jst left her room n closed the door

(dissociation tw) bc of this growing up lana adopted this weird like…. she didn’t rly kno what it ws bt it ws a delusion of sorts where she thought she ws a ghost. she’d jst sort of… drift around the halls w noone acknowledging her n sometimes she ws jst convinced she wsnt actually there or they cldnt see her n she ws jst haunting the house frm a previous family

the one saving grace tho tht sort of?? gt her thru this n made her feel Seen ws caleb. lana quite genuinely hs always thought the sun shines out of her older brothers ass like she jst thinks. hes the best person in the entire world. wld b rly bewildered if anyone questioned tht. he wld always look out for her in the zoo they called a home n cut the crusts off her sandwiches (he’d cook fr them most of the time bc their parents were too busy/didn’t care to) n sometimes wld even sleep at the bottom of her bed curled up like a guard dog. it ws always lana n caleb n his best friend tommy against the world in tht house (tommy lived next door n was always over bc he had very strict parents including a military father tht he found suffocating)

SO when caleb n tommy announced tht they’d signed up to the army lana ws understandably…….. completely blindsided. she ws rly upset tht they were leaving bt she tried not to b mad at them n made them promise theyd b safe n back as soon as possible. she even asked if they cld somehow take her w them n they were jst like :/ it doesn’t work that way luv x

(death tw, ptsd tw, grief tw, trauma tw, hospitalisation tw, drugs tw) anyway caleb ended up getting discharged under grounds of severe ptsd when he witnessed tommy die in an explosion tht took place in a shock raid. caleb returned home sans tommy bt he was never the same after tht. he’s been in and out of hospital twice nw n he’s currently dipped off the radar after starting to use. lana kind of felt like two of her brothers died out there in a way n jst like tht it wasn’t them vs the world any mre, it was jst her. she doesn’t talk abt this tho. when she feels the urge to cry she usually jst smiles

ANYWAY whew tht rly…. took a dark turn there….. chuckles nervously at hw sad lana’s life is bt it’s fine it’s all fINE!!!!!!! ok. so on a mre lighthearted note the jameson family r pretty well off n bc of her relation to such a big music industry figure she’s hung out w a fair few relatively high rep ppl thru her teens. mostly kids of celebrities n stuff like tht. she amassed kind of an instagram following mainly fr her style (lots of fur cuff trimmed jackets bt then also jst…. a wild combination of everything honestly. pastel faux fur coats, seventies style platforms, flame red cowboy boots, pink fishnet tights n glitter used like highlight Everywhere) n bc she’s undeniably Very Pretty

(trauma tw) after caleb got back he was rly withdrawn n depressed. he shut lana out n was kind of harsh to her a lot of the time, always telling her to leave him alone or pushing her away. it didnt help either tht lana had a rly traumatic experience w some of her dad’s colleagues at the label when she ws 16 n he was away n she cldnt even tell him abt it once he was bk bc of his own traumas. she kind of jst shut it all in n kept it to herself

(hypersexuality tw) this obviously?? made her spiral a lot. she was already a girl tht loved sex (she’d only rly done foreplay before tho) but since her trauma it got…. completely out of hand. it got to a point where she couldnt rly go 2 days without it, probably not even 1. her lowest point has probably been scrolling thru craiglist for anonymous encounters n meeting up w strangers on there fr a quick fuck jst for the thrill even tho it’s insanely dangerous n she cld wind up getting herself killed. it’s v clear at this point tht she has a sex addiction whether she’s ever admitted it or not. it kind of… almost mingled w tht same feeling she used to get when she ws younger of being a ghost?? like she jst. only rly feels Real when she’s being touched

ummm DISASTROUS romantic history honestly... riddled w beastly men and intense situationships n toxic cheating dynamics just. a lot.

went to uni for ballet n joining a travelling dance company bt. was kicked out fr excessive inebriation tht got in the way of her rehearsal times etc. now she just kind of insta models n does a few editorial shoots for realisation par n lingerie brands n such

PERSONALITY:

always smells vaguely of wild cherries or strawberry starburst or jst the candy aisle in general. if she ws a vinyl record she’d b this one n she’d only play good vibrations by the beach boys, dancing on my own by robyn, play that funky music by wild cherry, femme fatale by the velvet underground n (i can’t get no) satisfaction by the rolling stones 

growing up lana was always a huge social butterfly. knew everyone n everyone knew her. she ws one of those girls tht ws kind of impossible to ignore or forget. very animated, always made u feel like u were the centre of the universe whenever she spoke to u, always made it feel like u were best friends even if ud only spoken to her once. 

deliberately puts on tht kind of Magnetic Alluring Act tht femme fatales wear in movies w most ppl. kind of…. is always playing A Role of the person tht she wants to b seen as. womanhood as nonconsensual performance. chameleons to situations. feels like she’s performed as the vivacious n fun loving Lana Jameson fr so long tht she doesn’t rly kno who she is beneath tht bt she isn’t too keen to find out

she’s always been rly spontaneous n adventurous. always doing something weird n wild every weekend. she has ten thousand ridiculously absurd n chaotic stories

uncontrollably flirty. boundlessly confident. cld make a joke out a paper bag n her comedy is sometimes surreal / absurd. she tends to laugh when she feels like crying n has a smile brighter than a ray of texas sunshine

always dapples her fingers thru the breeze when she’s driving in a car w the window down. she almost always has some sort of sweet on her, whether it’s sour haribo cherries or strawberry lollipops

she adores david bowie n prince n madonna n anyone tht’s a vintage style icon w little care fr what ppl think

she’s had like 8472493874 ‘relationships’ n 99% of them haven't lasted beyond a month / hav been terrible / hav seen her being treated badly / she’s cheated on them

ummmm ya lets plot sexies

[scmantic]

is that RISH SHAH? oh, no, that’s NICO BAJWA, a TWENTY-SIX year old MUSICIAN who uses HE/HIM pronouns. they currently live in QUILIPUÉ, and the character they identify with most is KUZCO FROM THE EMPEROR’S NEW GROOVE. hopefully they find their own little paradise here in el país de los poetas! 

BASICS

full name: nico rahul bajwa  hometown: los angeles, ca  sexuality: heterosexual  birthday: august 15  zodiac: leo sun, capricorn moon, taurus rising  height: 5’11”  languages spoken: english, some spanish marital status: single  children: none  traits: creative, confident, charming, dramatic, selfish, pretentious  career claims: lany (discography), danny l. harle (producing and composing)

HISTORY tw brief mention of car accident

born to a business mogul and his socialite wife, nico is an only child (and it's obvious) who was doted on from the moment he was born

he never wanted for anything, was spoiled beyond belief, and was definitely never told no

he was raised primarily by nannies and his mom, time with his dad was precious — he traveled a lot and nico didn't get to see him

time that WAS spent with his dad was usually on a yacht in ibiza or a high rise in dubai (very chill) where nico learned that the world truly was HIS oyster

he started playing around with music in middle school, taking lessons for piano and violin and teaching himself drums and guitar

he quickly became drawn to experimental pop and dance music (thus danny l. harle claim... producer of charli xcx and caroline polachek among others)

he started out composing and producing in high school and working with artists that his dad helped connect him to (nepo baby but IS actually good at what he does, duality)

he also started writing his own stuff and instead of going to college, started to release his own solo music

his music quickly gained popularity and he kept it up AND kept up producing

he got into some trouble last year at a big industry party and had to pay a LOT for property damage (accidentally drove his car into a pool)

so he decided it would be best to drop off the scene for awhile and has been chilling in chile for the past few months; he's still making music and being an idiot, but more In Hidden

PERSONALITY

uhhhhh a narcissist, thinks the sun rises and sets for him, god's gift to earth

he IS talented and good at music, but sometimes hard to see past the fact that he is an asshole fr

party boy, playboy... dumbass boy

very very charming, like you may not initially notice the sheer amount of cockiness because he is laying the charm on thick, but talk to him for too long and you can tell you're being schmoozed

not trustworthy, not a very good friend (unless you like things to be paid for, because that he will do)

feel sorry for any woman that has ever dated him because he may spend money on you, but he will not be putting in any emotional labor

sings a lot of sad boy breakup songs, but mostly because he has a distorted view of WHY and HOW his relationships fell apart — gaslighting himself and others!

if i had to pick a good quality? he IS funny

and he is hot

there, two good qualities

WC found here pinterest found here

[sevenciircles]

alright, i've officially added the poll winner Apple to my muse list! however, the second highest amount of votes was a tie! for both Josh AND Kiki. sooo i added them both! so here are some headcanons/background to introduce y'all to them

Apple comes from a poorer family in the Lust ring, to two failed musicians who tried to gain popularity.

As such, they pushed their dreams onto young Apple, beginning to train her in music, dance, and acting at a very young age.

She was raised by total. stage. parents.

They pretty much micromanaged her interests, what she wore, how she did her hair, etc. She wasn't even really allowed to hang out with other kids, as she was homeschooled.

However, she did long for a different life.

As she grew older, Apple became more and more rebellious. She loved music, but she hated being pushed by her parents and their total control freak nature.

So, eventually, Apple got a new tattoo. The snake in the Garden of Eden around an apple. Symbolizing how she was going to chose to embrace herself rather than her parent's image.

They naturally freaked out, but Apple decided to go anyways.

Eventually, she met Verosika and was encouraged to audition to be part of her group, and she got it.

Apple is cheery a lot of the time and isn't the smartest person around. However, she is very skilled at music and dance. She did start training from a young age, after all.

Apple is pansexual but homoromantic.

She has self esteem issues, mainly due to her parents telling her she's trash without them. She still believes it.

Adores sweets.

Apple isn't easily embarrassed. She has no shame.

She's fairly easy going, unless she thinks someone is trying to control her and then she'll go bananas.

Has a fondness for hair care.

tw for self harm

Josh, like Apple, comes from a poor family. However, unlike Apple, he has an older brother, Jesse. (The bouncer from the Ozzie's episode.)

Jesse was very much the golden child, while Josh was sort of the ignored one. Jesse was the apple of their parent's eye, while Josh often had to fight to be recognized.

It didn't help that Jesse seemed to be more talented in everything than him. Jesse was more popular in school, could get any date he wanted, play any sport ever, and teachers loved him. Josh, however, was only good at running, got okay grades, and was a bit of a delinquent.

Josh and Jesse had a good relationship, but Josh was secretly resentful of his older brother. If only because being the younger sibling wasn't fun.

He began feeling so overshadowed that he was tired of pretending everything was fine. Josh began acting out more, getting into more trouble.

Eventually, Jesse and Josh graduated high school a year apart from another. With Jesse having job offers and Josh having nothing.

Josh, like many incubi, ended up turning to sex work because he knew it was the only thing he was really good at.

He spent a number of years that way, working in the sex industry and eventually becoming pretty successful. But really, he was a dime a dozen.

Giving into more of his destructive urges, Josh began to become more reckless and wild, harming himself

However, one day, everything changed.

He met someone while he was on the curb smoking, who took pity on him and decided to unofficially take him under their wing.

They began meeting up for sex, but eventually this demon began to teach him skills that would change his life.

The guitar.

Josh found himself channeling all that negative energy through his music, writing songs and playing the guitar.

He began to feel like he could really shine, and he grew to be really passionate about his music. Josh ended up becoming more mellow and chill, seeking out therapy even.

Verosika actually recruited him personally after hearing him perform at a bar, and after a few drinks, he said 'why not'.

Now, he primary writes the music to Verosika's lyrics and plays whatever instruments she needs.

Josh has reconnected with Jesse, and the two frequently talk.

He's really chill now, a stark contrast to his earlier demeanor. It really is night and day.

Josh really likes the beach, and would rather be there than in the city.

His favorite type of music is either rock or jazz.

Music helped pick up his confidence, and he's now fairly self confident.

Tends to try and protect younger demons or his other friends, he cares deeply for people.

Must be at a level 30 friend to unlock another emotion from him other than chill.

Any hole is a goal. Although leans more towards men.

Unlike my previous two, Kiki comes from a wealthy family.

However, her parents both knew that as a lower class of demon, their wealth was fragile and their prosperous business could fall at any minute.

This meant that their children had to be trained to be the perfect little heirs and heiresses.

And the picture of refinement.

Kiki, being the oldest of four, had the most pressure on her. Being the heiress to their company, she was expected to be perfect at all times.

While Apple's parents were desperate and emotional regarding her upbringing, Kiki's were cold and efficient.

This was how things had been for generations, as such her parents raised Kiki the way they had been raised.

With the parents being the total Gods, that she was to obey without question.

Kiki was schooled by private tutors, enrolled in ettiqute classes, and given business training.

As such, she learned to turn off her emotions and only focus on being proper and ladylike. The thought of rebelling never entered her mind at all.

That all changed when she was 17, and Kiki was allowed to go to a Lilith concert.

There, Kiki could see for the first time that a demoness could be graceful, ladylike, but also so filled with emotion and passion. She began to get a kind of hero worship for Lilith, researching all about her.

She found out that the Queen was so much more than what she appeared. She was a performer, an activist, so much more than a figurehead.

Kiki began thinking that she wanted to be more.

So, she began to secretly practice her singing. It turns out, she was actually really, really good.

However, she still kept up with the ettiqute classes her parents made her attend.

It wasn't until she was 25 that Kiki finally gathered the courage to leave both of her parents, and there was a huge fight.

She ended up disowned, however, a few weeks later of living on the streets, she found out her parents never altered their will. Kiki was the inheritator of a sizable chunk of their estate.

So, she took all that money and made a life for herself. Singing whenever she wanted and overall learning how to finally live.

She eventually auditioned for Verosika's group, and ended up getting in.

Nowadays, when she's not performing with Verosika, she's having hook ups for fun.

Kiki is a bitch. She isn't really to her friends, but to everyone else, she's a meanie. It's how she was brought up, and she doesn't really see the need to change that part of herself. It helps her survive.

Has expensive tastes, but isn't a snob.

She still maintains her very sophisticated demeanor, but retools it to a more seductive and coy attitude instead.

Did not go to her parent's funeral.

Gets along well with her siblings, is proud that they have taken over the company so well.

Doesn't like the human world much, Hell is perfectly fine.

Enjoys animals.