#substance abuse tw

[ineffablecabbage]

Addicts being confronted, ER vs. The Pitt.

ER 6.22 "Mayday" & The Pitt 1.15 "9.00 P.M."

[blitzwhore]

So. Stolas is an alcoholic. That much is very clear at this point in the show and has been for a while now. He binge-drinks to cope with depression and with his life problems at large.

What's interesting is that he's far from the only character in Blitzø's life who is an alcoholic. In fact, substance abuse seems to be a recurring theme in the show. At least three other people Blitzø was or is really close with (potentially four, if we count his father) have struggled with substance abuse: Verosika, Barbie, and Fizz.

And the show has made a very clear point that both Verosika and Barbie have been in rehab. Not just that, but it's also emphasised that they're both still struggling with addiction (Verosika still drinks at her concerts, "clutches onto Beelzejuice bottles like they're the last cock in hell", and writes magazine articles about binge drinking being sexy; Barbie still peddles heroine, though not H8). Clearly, for both of them, this is an ongoing issue presently in the show.

So, with all of that being said, I recently saw someone theorise that, in a future season, Stolas is going to go to rehab, too.

I thought it was certainly a possibility, and one that I would personally love to see explored. So I've been thinking about it... and I remembered this:

The beginning of Unhappy Campers, and Blitzø breaking into rehab to go visit Barbie.

Now, I think a lot of people (myself included) felt surprised and a bit disappointed the first time we watched this episode, because our initial assumption was that Blitzø was trying to visit Stolas. It just made sense! Stolas was hospitalised right at the end of the previous episode and texted Blitzø that he could visit if he wanted to. (At this point, we also didn't know Blitzø had trauma surrounding visiting loved ones at hospitals). And suddenly they hit us with Blitzø seeking out Barbie out of the blue? So many of us were left wondering... why? Yeah, people have mentioned that maybe feeling like he could've lost Stolas prompted Blitzø to try to mend a different broken relationship, one that he felt he had more chances of fixing. But the timing, as well as the non-immediate revelation that it's Barbie he's looking for, is still... strikingly suspicious, isn't it?

And just now, after all this time, it hit me.

What if this is foreshadowing?

What if, all along, they were telling us Blitzø will visit Stolas at the hospital in the future... when Stolas is in rehab?

[wheatnoodle]

TW//

substance abuse, addiction, self medicating

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eddie munson does not trust steve harrington.

more specifically, eddie munson does not trust steve harrington to be driving his sheep.

now don’t get him wrong, eddie likes steve, he really does! they get along wonderfully and spend a lot of time together since dustin brought them together. thats not the problem.

the problem is that when billy hargrove rocked harrington’s shit a few years back, eddie gained a new customer. a customer who asked for “something stronger” because weed wasn’t helping his migraines and his night terrors.

when robin notices eddie staring daggers into the side of steve’s head because he watches him wipe his nose on his hand as he steps out of the bathroom, she tells him it’s a nervous motion to calm himself down. eddie doesn’t buy it for a second.

he stares at steve all night. waiting for his nose to start bleeding or to catch a glimpse of something dusty on his hand or around his nostrils. but he doesn’t say anything though. at least not until it starts getting close to curfew and steve is standing from the couch.

“alright, kiddos! time to pack up before your parents start to panic,” he claps his hands together before reaching into his front right pocket for his car keys. eddie’s up in an instant with a nervous smile, ignoring the groans of protest in the wheeler basement to focus on steve.

“hey, why don’t i drive the rats home? you- you said you’ve got an early shift, right? go home, go to sleep.” he hopes he sounds convincing. eddie shoves his hands in his back pockets, awkwardly rocking back and forth on his feet. steve’s brows pull together in confusion and he lets out a chuckle.

“it’s alright, man. you drove them, i can take them back,” steve says and shakes his head. eddie has to stop himself from rolling his eyes.

“i just mean, you seemed tired during the movie. sort of…nodding off…” eddie can see the tension in steve’s body. his jaw clicks closed behind his lips and he’s suddenly staring at eddie with a stronger intensity than he would like.

“i’m fine, munson,” steve says firmly, quiet for only eddie. eddie holds his ground. this isn’t king steve, this is just steve. there’s nothing to cower from.

“steve,” he says softy, almost pleadingly, “i’m not okay with you driving them tired.”

“i’m. fine,” steve punctuates. his eyes are wide, hurt, as they flick between eddie’s. he knows he won’t back down.

“steve.”

after a few beats of silence, steve scoffs and turns on his heel. without even a goodbye to the group, he’s out of the basement and out the door.

eddie turns back to the party who’s staring at him like he has three heads.

“…okay. rats, buckley, let’s head out.”

[pumpkinrootbeer]

I do NOT want to start discourse in your inbox and it's not like. fully fair or equal comparison. but it bothers me how many people on twitter were like "lets boo Mikko and he betrayed us and I despise him now" in comparison with the massive cheers Val still gets when he scores.

OKAY BUT... alright hold on

Okay we're safe down here NO DISCOURSE CAN TOUCH ME!!!! but I agree with you 100%. We have a man who at minimum has cost us the playoffs two years in a row (I understand he struggles with substance abuse, I don't hold that against him at all. But his absence hurt us bad, both years) and at worse potentially trafficked a woman and assaulted her. That's.. horrific. That's genuinely like the most upsetting thing to me about this organization, and Avs fans (not the lb we are all normal and beautiful and perfect) still love him!! The same Avs fans (again it's Twitter and Reddit fans) that hate Mikko love nichushkin! HOW!? WHY!? like okay say you have no morals or whatever, you don't care about Val harming a woman. Whatever a lot of sports fans suck. But how is Mikko, a player already not on our team, getting traded by a different team more of a betrayal than a player single handedly costing us the cup?

[mosscreeper-ao3]

Wow I love James so much. I can’t wait to spend October documenting his descent into substance abuse.

[maskednerd]

[kycken]

[Continued from HERE.]

@rxsolvx:

It was strange that so many years of his life had been so violent, and now he was almost entirely unused to it. He broke up fights in the shop, he hadn't lost his muscle, but when they'd come for him he'd struggled in a way he wouldn't have when he was younger. He was scared, he had realised far too quickly, and panic was hard to fight through. He'd still fought back with everything he had. It just wasn't enough. As soon as the drugs had entered his system it was over for him. Still, it wasn't the first thing his mind went to as he regained consciousness. The bed beneath him was comfortable and he could hear Koko's voice... He could feel his lips against his face. It had been so long, but there had been plenty of dreams in the time since they'd parted. "That's... Not what you call me.." He groaned, for a moment believing he was simply criticising his dreaming mind. Most people called him Seishu now, surely his brain was just getting confused. But as he shifted and his mind tried to catch up through the haze that had settled over it, he frowned. His arm was heavy and when he moved it he heard something metal. It was difficult to understand but he knew something was very wrong. "Koko...? What is...?"

"I thought you'd be happier to hear me use your first name... The proper one, anyway-" Hajime laughs softly, cupping the slope of the blonde's cheek and stroking his thumb across the plush cushion of his partner's lower lip.

"Well, if you prefer 'Inupi'... That always was the classic, just between us, right?"

It's nice being like this...

Kokonoi's sprawled out on his side and resting his chin against the heel of his hand, the opposite toying with a lock of golden hair that frames Seishu's jawline and the length of his pale neck. Always so pretty, effortlessly so. This is the way things should have been from the beginning.

"Ah, I almost forgot-" he remarks suddenly, pulling away to rifle through a small prescription bottle. There's a rolling, multi-tiered cart beside the bed- Various medications, syringes, and bottles of liquid neatly organized by type and effect.

"Open up, Inupi- Say 'aaahn'... " he encourages, rolling a small white pill between his thumb and forefinger.

"You might get depressed being in the same room so long, so taking escitalopram in regular doses will keep your mood stabilized. We can always go out once you're more accustomed to the situation, of course, but- It's really much safer to ensure you don't develop a chemical imbalance."

[wildfairies]

Would you be comfortable sharing more about your Infamous MC?

i would love to 😈🙈🖤 this is gracer glass, lead singer of [tbd]

her legal name is grace robak. in kindergarten, there were three graces in her class, and going by "grace r" evolved into gracer. so she's always gone by gracer, but uses a fake surname

1000% has undiagnosed adhd. incapable of thinking ahead

is the biggest flirt & romances everyone but gets very vulnerable and sad around seven

has a very hard lesson to learn that natural talent can only take her so far and she will eventually have to get it together and take her career more seriously

was a theater kid until high school. playing belle in beauty and the beast in 8th grade remains one of her greatest accomplishments

generally over-the-top friendly and extroverted but has a mean streak. incredibly petty

hates her negligent parents. the source of her substance abuse issues

loves music but not as much as she loves attention

[unkledeath]

bound, ghost, midnight for ezra! 👀

OC Asks

YEEEEHAW okay I'm putting these under a cut because this is gonna get A. long and B. probably pretty gnarly. (Any potential nastiness will be CWed in the tags.)

bound: Has your OC ever been imprisoned or captured? What happened? How did they get out? Did the experience leave any scars?

Ezra's been captured more than once in his long, storied history of adventuring. Most of it has been pretty low stakes stuff he was able to talk himself out of, but his last experience with it was by far the worst.

It started about two months into his relationship with Gortash, who offered Ez a place to stay since he didn't have a stable residence at the time. What started off as a cozy little sugar daddy type of situation got ugly fast, and his wealthy arms dealer boyfriend turned out to- shockingly -be an obsessive control freak. It only got worse after they found out they were the respective chosen of enemy gods, and Gort put Ezra under constant surveillance to make sure his new pet canary wasn't singing his secrets to anyone else.

He finally managed to escape after several months of what amounted to house arrest, waiting until Gortash was out of the city on a business trip. Fleeing to the one supportive person he knew, his on-and-off patron and half-brother Luca, he laid low at his home for a while as he tried to recover from the experience.

Gort eventually caught back up to him and tadpoled him for having the nerve to leave, but even before that the whole experience fucked Ezra up pretty badly. He's always valued his freedom above most things, and while the gilded cage he was kept in might not have been the worst by most standards, dealing with being watched and controlled was terrifying. So no physical scars from it, but definitely some mental ones.

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ghost: Who or what haunts your OC? What happened? How do they live with their ghosts?

His mother. Ezra's mom didn't handle motherhood, rejection, or the dire poverty he grew up in especially well, and his entire childhood was an extended lesson in learning how to placate her. She was his first lesson in presenting people with the version of himself that they wanted, and her violent mood swings molded him into the person he is today.

He was 12 when she died, and while finding her body and trying fruitlessly to find help for her was traumatic, it's not really what haunts him. Ezra feels much greater guilt over how relieved he was when he finally accepted that she was gone.

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midnight: What keeps your OC up at night? Do they have nightmares? Fears? Anxieties? What do they do in the small hours of the morning when they should be sleeping?

Ezra has gnarly nightmares. It's 50% home-grown trauma and 50% the natural consequence of letting an evil lich ride shotgun in his skull, but he is not a sound sleeper. He has a hard time falling asleep on his own, and the only thing that can really guarantee him a solid 8 hours is self-medicating. (Laudanum's his preferred method, but he's not averse to drinking himself unconscious either.)

When that's not an option, he keeps himself distracted. There's always songs to practice, new projects to write, plans to be made. Anything to fill his mind, because it's not a pleasant place to be when it's quiet.

[promptsforyourwhumpfic]

Whump Prompt #1317

Submitted by Anon - thanks!

A whumpee who got out, who got better.

A caregiver. who is so relieved the worst is over and whumpee may not be back to their old self, but they seem okay and on some days caregiver isn't even reminded of what happened…

Until they catch the whumpee indulging in old patterns. Maybe the whumpee secretly punishes themselves. Maybe whumpee lets it slip they see themselves as less than human. Maybe the indulge in the form of unhealthy relationships or substance abuse.

The caregivers whole world comes crashing down while whumpee completely undoes any progress before their eyes as they realize they got caught.

[jsbashirmd]

@lietwice sent:

"I thought I could handle it." ( garak after hiding his post-wire-removal headaches from julian and getting caught abusing drugs to deal with it! )

"... Oh." Julian had thought it was tragic before, but somehow, the tone of Garak's voice made it feel all the worse. "Addiction can be like that. It's not your fault that it got out of your control." He sat down, then reached out a hand to offer it to him. "I mean that. And I wish you'd come to me, but I don't think any less of you for this."

[lietwice]

thinking abt the episode second skin. there is absolutely no way that garak doesn't have some sort of breakdown after that. first sisko implies that he might have him kicked off the station, after acknowledging that it's the safest place for him. then he suggests he'll do that if garak doesn't help them. helping them then consists of going to cardassia, the one place he isn't allowed to go, the place that being away from is 'no life at all'. so he gets a little taste of home, a reminder of what he's missing, because he's literally being threatened with getting kicked off the station if he doesn't. then he has to go back to the station. and that's that. he just has to carry on with his life.

there are too many ways he could spiral from that. there's the possibility of a sudden increase in paranoia or a full blown psychotic episode, there's the drug addiction, there's the alcohol, there's the claustrophobia and panic attacks... so many possibilities.

what's also quite fun ( not fun. very much not fun for him. ) is that if he tries to explain, the truth kind of sounds like the sort of paranoid delusion he might have? that he's going to be kicked off the station and murdered if he doesn't do what he's told, that sisko is extorting him, that he was forced to go to cardassia, that they might make him do more things...

[mosscreeper-ao3]

Kosmo taking James’ whiskey and cigarettes because he noticed it makes Keith sad when James drinks and smokes.

[neonstatic]

alright i think the real problem is that i am rawdogging life. i suffer and despair and lose my marbles and then i. like. eat a box of donut holes. booooring! everything is awful and numb and lackluster. i've got to do smth else. to feel things more extremely. and since i'm not having crazy nasty freaky sex, i've got to start abusing substances!! there are no other options

[nekrotisch]

Cassandra & Lyrium

Cassandra has a complicated attachment to Lyrium. It wouldn't be described as an addiction, but it is definitely a dependency. She uses it, and feels a need for it, when about to face tough enemies, or when the battle is long and drawn out. For instance, she'd need it during Tear Stone Island, Weisshaupt, and other similar situation.

She does have moderate withdrawal after using it, but she can kick it within a few days, similar to a hang over.

[qverdia]

𝐌𝐔𝐒𝐄 𝐀𝐄𝐒𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐓𝐈𝐂 ; 𝐅𝐄𝐄𝐋𝐈𝐍𝐆𝐒; bold what applies, italic what sometimes applies. feel free to add on!  

𝐇𝐚𝐩𝐩𝐢𝐧𝐞𝐬𝐬. being unable to stop smiling. laughter. bear hugs. happy tears. waving arms around. dancing. contently sighing. eyes twinkling. laugh lines. childlike playfulness. skipping. talking more. affection. cracking more jokes than usual. gesturing more when talking. higher pitched voice. squealing. jumping around. clapping.

𝐒𝐚𝐝𝐧𝐞𝐬𝐬. tearing up. self-hugging. one-arm cross. an aching chest. scratchy throat. a runny nose. turning away. deep breaths. quivery smiles. crying. infantile sobbing. hands gripping each other or an object. covering mouth. puffy eyes. eyes appear red. voice breaking. a distant or empty stare. monotone voice. asking for comfort. faking a smile. crumbling. shaking. whimpering. depression. abusing an unhealthy habit. withdrawing from others. big teary eyes. doing something even if it could hurt them.

𝐀𝐧𝐠𝐞𝐫. furrowed brows. baring teeth. passive-aggressive comments. avoiding eye contact. sarcasm. headache. sore muscles. hiding clenched fists. irritability. jumping to conclusions. raising voice. going silent. demanding immediate action. keeping it all in until exploding. body tensing. making risky decisions. middle finger.

𝐅𝐞𝐚𝐫. wanting to flee or hide. what-ifs. images of what-could-be flashing in mind. uncontrollable trembling. rapid breathing. screaming. a skewed sense of time. irritability. keeping silent. denying fear. turning away from the cause . pretending to be brave. nail-biting. lip-biting. scratching skin. a joking tone but a voice that cracks. fainting. insomnia. panic attacks. exhaustion. substance abuse. tics. rushing adrenaline. face draining of colour. hair lifting on the back of the neck. feeling rooted to the spot. making body as small as possible. staring but not seeing. crying. a shrill voice. whispering. gripping something or someone. stuttering. flinching at noises. pleading.

𝐄𝐱𝐡𝐚𝐮𝐬𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧. constantly yawning. blurring words together. dark circles or lines under eyes. mood swings. hallucinations. calling people by the wrong name. dizziness. denying they’re tired. slow blinking. trouble concentrating. stumbling. leaning on a doorframe for support. sluggish movements. falling asleep someplace that isn’t a bed. becoming irritated by the smallest things. “i’m awake, i’m fine.” shaking so bad they spill their drink. fall asleep in their clothes. lay their head on the table because they’re so tired. passing out.