#trigger warning weight loss

[gettingthebestofyou]

Today I took my first dose of 5mg. I’ve been a little queasy, a mild headache, but so far so good.

Last week I tried the 2.5 in my stomach. No good. I had horrible cramps and nausea. I’ll be sticking to the leg for my injections from now on.

In four weeks on the 2.5, without changing my diet or exercise regimen, I’ve lost 7 lbs.

I’m the lightest I’ve been in almost two years.

It’s scary- because it seems too good to be true. Every time I weigh myself I’m afraid I’m imagining it, or that it’s somehow fake. I’m afraid it will stop or stall and I’ll be back where I started again, I’ll be back struggling for every pound, considering doing drastic, unsafe things just to lose weight. I don’t want to go back there.

But at the same time, this is a fucking relief.

I NEEDED something. My body was broken and I NEEDED medication. I couldn’t have done this on my own. I tried. I’ve been trying almost my whole life. I’ve been refocused and healthy and fucking BETTER for two years now and my weight still just went up.

Seeing that scale go down makes me want to cry. But it’s still fear and relief. It’s still mixed. I’m still so wary of the dosage and the side effects and making sure what I’m doing is sustainable so I can keep going when the shots end.

Four weeks in, when you think I’d feel happy, I’m just more afraid.

[stitchlesswitch]

Trigger Warning:

With all the new year resolutions around the corner shoving dieting down our throats, I am warning against “physician-guided weight loss programs” so it’ll involve dieting and eating disorders.

I was in kaisers weight loss program. It was extremely expensive, and extremely “effective.” It was a doctor-approved eating disorder. My health was not their number one priority. They were not concerned that I was in so much gastrointestinal agony, that I just flat out stopped eating because it hurt less to do so. This caused long term gastrointestinal problems, and four medical emergencies.

At my skinniest, I was becoming an ER regular AND I was still technically “overweight.” Skinny DOES NOT equal healthy. Now I’ve gained a lot of weight back. I also am able to exercise 2.5 hours a week (including running two miles a week) and cut my resting heart rate in half.

I’m sure there are many people who genuinely do benefit from such programs, and I’m sure ethical and credible medical weight loss programs exist. I just don’t want you to assume that if it’s coming from a doctor then it automatically must be safe for you. Doctors don’t always have your best interest in mind. It took a lot of financial loss and ER visits to learn this lesson and I don’t want you to make the same mistakes I did.

[dietmineralwater]

Me pulling the weirdest positions near food so I can see the nutrition labels without looking suspicious

[daughter-of-a-hungry-ghost]

If you develop an eating disorder when you are already thin to begin with, you go to the hospital.

If you develop an eating disorder when you are not thin to begin with, you are a success story.

So when I evaporated, of course everyone congratulated me on getting healthy.

Girls at school who never spoke to me before stopped me in the hallway to ask how I did it.

I say, “I am sick.”

They say, “No, you’re an inspiration.”

How could I not fall in love with my illness?

With becoming the kind of silhouette people are supposed to fall in love with?

Why would I ever want to stop being hungry when anorexia was the most interesting thing about me?

~When The Fat Girl Gets Skinny, Blythe Baird

[corpseofwhatcouldhavebeen]

Everything’s shit but at least I’m losing weight

[bobbabubblez]

I would literally trade in every gift I’m getting this year for my GW

[cherryflvrdbubbles]

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[igohungryforlove]

can someone make zero cal food please and thank you <3

[vearraarcade]

I WILL HAVE MY DREAM BODY IN 2024

I WILL HAVE MY DREAM BODY IN 2024

I WILL HAVE MY DREAM BODY IN 2024

I WILL HAVE MY DREAM BODY IN 2024

I WILL HAVE MY DREAM BODY IN 2024

I WILL HAVE MY DREAM BODY IN 2024

I WILL HAVE MY DREAM BODY IN 2024

I WILL HAVE MY DREAM BODY IN 2024

[bubbl3gum-btch]

A little thnspø for you <3

Manifesting this. 🖤

[isncbd]

ur choice.

no hate to any of these girls they’re all beautiful<33 but it’s always been such a motivation to me to stop being the f@t friend

[gettingthebestofyou]

So… thyroid is normal. Which…. I’m just tired of this.

In about 3 weeks I’ve lost 5 lbs. I won’t believe this is real, that this works and will keep me going to reach my goals, for a LONG time. Every time I step on a scale I make excuses.

Under 200. First big goal is to get under 200.

6 pounds to go.

It’s been 2 years since I’ve been that light.

[iwantbabymonkforreal]

Nobody talks about how hard it is to get 10k steps as a bed rotter😣

[dietmineralwater]

As long as your stomach is empty you're doing something right

[daughter-of-a-hungry-ghost]

Does anyone else have days where it feels like your ED is gone and you eat normally but then nighttime hits and you are just like… fuck.

[lovely-sk1n]

i’ve had such a hyper fixation these days on the way my thighs feel on me. its disgusting and it genuinely makes me feel as if there’s filth inside of me