#ana posting

[virginsu1cide]

Smoking cigarettes at night, my headphones and no calories, that's my f shit!

[shall-ey]

Daily reminder:

Skinny girls eat their salads🎀

Healthy, low cal, they make you don't wanna eat all day

[mxqxx]

Ugly sides.

Midnight

I’m standing in the kitchen

I’m proud of myself

I ate really little today

But I’m sick

I’m sick.

I binge

In the bathroom, everyone’s sleeping

Why

I feel

Horrible

I turn on the tap

The bathtub is filling up with water

I don’t care

I’m bent over the sink

My hand is up my throat

I’m sick.

I have to purge

Otherwise I might get fat.

It hurts

I chocked

Two times

I hope nobody can hear me

I don’t want anybody to hear me

I’m crying

My nose is runny

My throat hurts really bad

My spit is all over my hand

I don’t care

It’s gross

I’m gross

I feel dizzy after

I forgot about the pouring water

I forgot I didn’t care.

It was hot

Too hot

I stepped into the bathtub

Burning

But I didn’t care

I laid down

It felt unreal

I was disgusted by myself

I was disgusting.

I immersed myself in the water

My whole body

My whole face

The hot water went up my nose

Got in my eyes

It was uncomfortable

I didn’t care

My hair was wet and messy

My face too

Even messier

I got up to get the hairbrush

I didn’t have the strength to stand

I left the bathtub

Dizzy

I felt dizzy

I fell down

Wet

Exhausted

Cold

The floor was dirty

I was dirty.

I got up fast

I hope nobody heard me

I didn’t want anyone to hear me.

I grabbed the brush

I didn’t get better

I never get better.

Giddy

I felt giddy again

I tried my best to stand still

But I was too weak

I’m weak.

I don’t remember much

I fell to the ground

Again

Nevertheless, it was worse this time

I think i hit my head

The floor was dirty

Everything went black

It was my fault

I did this to myself

I did.

I woke up crying

I don’t know how long after

My head hurt

Ouch

Everything around was wet

My hair was messy and dirty

My face was grubby

My naked body was nasty

I was filthy.

I fell silent

I still cried

But silent

I hope nobody heard me

Even though I wanted someone to hear me

I needed.

I was too weak to get up

My head was spinning

I was nauseous

I felt like I’m about to puke

I got up

Back it the hot water

Yet it didn’t burn anymore

I sat

And cried

I couldn’t stand myself

My hair was everywhere

It’s been falling out more lately

I tried to clean myself up

I still felt dizzy

I spit in the water I sat in

It was revolting

I know

But I was too weak

I poured the water out

Washed my hair

Like normally

Ordinary

I continued to seat in an empty bathtub

Cleaned up my hair

From all over my body

Nearly cried again

Whilst touching my stomach

I felt fat

Disgusting

Ew.

I got up

Tried not to slip

Looked at the mess

Everything was wet

Dirty

Sloppy

Soggy

Unkempt

I was the mess.

I bruised my face

On the cheek

I hope nobody will see it

I don’t want anyone to see it.

I stopped crying

I realised what happened

Why?

I realised

I actually do care.

I wouldn’t do this if I didn’t.

Any of this.

I care.

[wypbos]

what keywords r yall using to find spo pics on pinterest??? i can’t find anything good unless i find a rabbit hole off a good pic 😭

[troloquia]

beautiful low c@l cabbage soup

Ingredients for a whole pot:

700g white cabbage (172)

80g edamame beans (98)

vegetable broth cube (12)

50g broccoli (18)

2 mushrooms (4)

50g urid dal/lentils (137)

sum: 441 (34,4 p)/per portion: 221 (17,2p)

Put everything in a pot, cover with water and let cook until done. Super easy, makes at least two portions, super filling and warming

[wypbos]

[hellokitty-simp]

🍓Rules diet November🍓

Max 600kcal

18:6 fast

500 ml water

5.000 steps

[bubbl3gum-btch]

Low calorie snack ideas

They are just cute, tasty and healthy <3

[mindrottinglystupid]

One of the Best doctors.

I fell asleep hard after we got home from the doctor's office hours ago. I had to take medicine so they could draw my blood, so I don't remember the full details of what happened, and the notes I tried to take are almost completely illegible. But I'll try nonetheless!

This particular doctor, Dr. Andrew Lee, also teaches students while he works, so there were at least 7 (seven) people in the room at all times. They mostly gave me space, though. He went and had me do blood work for everything that the other doctors hadn't already done (even though the other doctors said we had done everything, apparently they were lying) in the same building. The lady who drew my blood was so nice and helped me get where I needed to be. The room I was in was quite crowded with medical stuff, so it was hard to get around with my cane.

Dr. Lee was shocked by how long my other doctors had gone on without doing anything and by how they just kept trying the same things, expecting a different outcome (FINALLY!!!!!). He told his patients,

"If something isn't working for them, don't keep trying the same thing; find something else even if you don't typically use it for that. The only thing that matters is if it works."

And I was utterly in shock. I don't think I've ever heard any of my doctors say something like that before, and they definitely didn't show it.

He also wants us back after we go to the Rheumatologist since that's the competing diagnosis. Depending on what happens with my positive ANA results depends on what else we do with him.

He also gave us a reference to a place that helps people live with impaired vision and a Children's Hospital that can give me the nutrients I have trouble absorbing and keeping down (!!!!).

No other doctor has done anything like this before. This is what all doctors should be like. This is how every patient should be treated.

It infuriates me to no end that I have gone to over 25 different doctors, and none of them had once treated me anything close to how Dr. Lee did today.

[alita1111]

Drawing my goals

Puts my mind to rest

[wypbos]

starting the day off fucking fantastically!!! when i woke up my mom asked if i lost w€ight bc “my pants looked really big on me”

i said i didn’t know obvi but that feeling was so awesome sauce. its the first time since starting losing w€ight that anyone actually noticed. ugh i’m so happy