#trauma factory

[very-angy]

"I been quiet, but I think I gotta say it

Girl, I want you and it's you that I've been craving

I can see anticipation on your face, and I wanna taste it"

[pink-evilette]

fave album everrrrrr I will literally never get tired of it

[takeyoubytheheart]

[bunnieswithknives]

erm can we see more deer dale he's so silly

Deer Dale!!! Now with full antler face like I initially intended but could not figure out how to draw at the time

[anotherbummer]

Good Omens Season 3 Confirmed (trailer)

jk jk but could you imagine if any of this happened

I told myself I wouldn't go crazy working on this and then I ended up with 5 spreadsheets of dialogue trying to piece together this puzzle. Also I will need everyone to cut me some slack because I made this entire video on my phone while I was manic.

On that note, this trailer is largely based on 2 of my favorite Good Omens fics: Demonology and the Tri-Phasic Model of Trauma: An Integrative Approach by @mouseonamoose and Factory Settings by Anonymous. I love the idea of Crowley and Aziraphale having a therapist and it always reminded me of the character Dr. Linda Martin who plays the devil's therapist in the series Lucifer (Based on characters created by Neil Gaiman!) Also I tried really hard to hint at different parts of the Factory Setting story through clips, especially with clips of Crowley grabbing his glasses (which in this case would be Raphael wearing Crowley's glasses, which is a pretty big plot point in the story).

Lots of the audio clips and dialogue comes from the show itself (and a few clips from Lucifer), but I did comb through some clips of other shows that the actors were in, like Michael Sheen in Passengers, and David Tennant in Inside Man, etc. However the longer audio clips of "god" speaking are direct quotes from the Factory Setting fic (although I am almost certain that Raphael says them when he gets the Book of Life, So technically speaking, these lines are used out of context). I just ran the lines through a text to voice generator and then added a "godly/celestial" effect to it, which worked a lot better than I though it was going to. I had LOTS of potential dialogue I could have used but it didn't all fit super well together in the sense that it didn't either sound like the character speaking, or it didn't flow like a normal conversation. Believe me I tried, my phone can only do so much.

The music choice was obviously chosen on purpose, God Rest Ye Merry Gentlemen (Epic Mix) by Mark Petrie, for the purpose of pacing, I slowed it down slightly. I really liked the idea of using this song since the Factory Setting story partially revolves around "the second coming" baby and since we are nearing the Christmas season, it just seemed like sense to work on this now. The lyrics get pretty repetitive but I do wish I could have thrown in the "Fear not then, said the Angel. Let nothing you affright" verse somewhere in there.

Don't ask me to explain the actual plot of this I really just mashed two fanfics together and called it a day. I thinks that's all the notes I had.

[planetaryaether]

I swear I have the capacity to be normal about things. with that being said I have many thoughtsTM about today's JF2 episode (#29).

Duncan volunteering to send his black lotus to Rythian as well is something that can be so personal. To over analyze it, although he says it is in case "the first one gets lost" they have no reason to think that items wouldn't get to their destined locations, so the choice reads much more as a gesture of friendship. After the events of Flux Buddies (no spoilers) Duncan has had to learn to face the consequences of his own actions in a way that he simply had not during Blackrock - which at the end of the day was the thing that drove a wedge between him and Rythian.

By not being able to accept that his actions led to genuine harm (intended or not) to those he called his friends signaled to Rythian that he cannot trust others/especially Duncan again. This perceived threat of future betrayal combined with Rythian thinking that Zoey had joined forces with Duncan and the nuke reveal all served to retraumatize Rythian, placing a wedge in their relationship that has not been able to be addressed due to the end of Season 2 and Rythian deciding to give up on any relationship (friend or enemy) with Duncan ('the opposite of love is not hatred, it is indifference' etc etc).

So Rythian choosing to send this task to the JF2 crew, almost certainly knowing that Duncan is among them, shows that Rythian has been able to grow since we have last seen him. He has been able to finally process, at least to a degree, what he has been through and perhaps is able to understand why Duncan acted the way that he did - that he never meant to cause harm but was terrified for his own safety both in the old and tekket worlds.

Duncan being the one, in episode 28, to want to listen to the message (as well as including the purple flag 'for Rythian') shows how much he has also changed. That he also understands, at least to a degree, where Rythian was coming from and why he did what he did AND that he doesn't hold that against him. All of this happening independently from each other until now. Rythian made the first move at reconciliation with entrusting Duncan (and the others of course) with a task that was important to him (but at the same time it is a task with a low level of responsibility so that if Duncan did not want to accept this peace offering of sorts, no harm would come to Rythian/Zoey). And Duncan, by sending his black lotus after barry has already sent one, is a clear acceptance of that gesture. More than that, it is returning a peace offering of his own. (and to REALLY over analyze, sending flowers is a sign of an apology with black/dark lotus flowers in multiple cultures representing rebirth).

Even if we never get anything else Blackrock related (which I am of course not counting on getting anything more), this serves as a wonderful epilogue to their dynamic, especially with some of the main themes of Blackrock being about the cycle of violence and the question of 'can you heal from your traumas before they destroy what you care about most?' (mostly focusing on platonic/romantic relationships) with the answer being that 'your actions will change the relationship from what it otherwise would have been, but if and only if both parties want to heal the relationship and put in the necessary time and effort to do so, then the relationship can survive'. And here we are getting a sign that both of them are willing to do something to salvage their friendship. It will never be what it was in the Old World, but the friendship is not gone, it just has a new starting point.

[wildgeese98]

I'm so [insert indescribable emotion] about Gideon saying that Harrow doesn't love her... Like Gideon I know you never got an ounce of affection in your entire life and Harrow isn't very forthcoming about her feelings but we are only able to have this conversation because she did a diy lobotomy to save your soul. Yeah she's got the whole ancient corpse thing going on but she's got two hands.

[narniangirl1994]

Just read "Factory Settings" and it was such an incredible Good Omens fanfic! I really wish it wasn't authored by an anonymous account so that I could read more of this author's works. 😭 But regardless, I'm just glad I had the opportunity to read it and would recommend it to any other GO fans out there!

As a side note, another absolutely incredible Good Omens fic - that is similarly novel-length, centered more around Crowley, and very well written - that I read a little while ago and would HIGHLY recommend is Demonology and the Tri-Phasic Model of Trauma: An Integrative Approach by Nnm. Really can't recommend these two fics more!

[cartwheelingintotraffic]

Ares: I was pretty happy when you said you wanted to design and build the twin's cribs, but why is there only one ?

Ryker: Hehe... It's a surprise ;) Look closer...

Ares:...

Ares: Ryker ? Why is there a secret compartment in our baby's crib?

Ryker: So we can put the other one-

Ares: Absolutely not.

Ryker : But babe, look, it spins so we can rotate them-

Ares: ABSOLUTELY NOT.

[animalsoutloud]

You have the power to end their suffering.

[mothmanibuprofen]

TW: blood

Rainbow factory Rainbow Dash

Full image under cut

Then you sit upon your throne, and you roll your diamond dice...

...and you send us all to die in your Pegasus Device

[tragedia]

barely anyone's here right now, but i couldn't be here on the weekend after all, because i was busy making my friends cry in dnd.

[your-worst-boy]

"It's All About ME, Not YOU" by Greer Lankton

Few pieces have moved me as instantly as this installation by Greer Lankton...transness, to me, has always felt like a version of religion. And looking into the windows of this piece, I saw all the feelings I could never quite put into words, put into art.

Transness is holy suffering. It is being forced to reconcile the relationship between the flesh and the soul. It is, through this examination, finding what connects your spirit to the rest of humanity. It is cultivating a deep, transcendent empathy - in learning why we are so different, we simultaneously learn why we are all so connected.

What is it to be a man? What is it to be a woman? What is it to be a person?

What is it to be a human being?

What is it to exist as a pure essence placed into a vessel of flesh?

What is it to feel at conflict with one's vessel?

To be trans is to deconstruct one's physical and spiritual components, and figure out day by day, hour by hour, minute by minute, what YOUR truth is.

As played out as the butterfly metaphor is...I cannot think of a better analogy. It is deconstructing one's form, becoming a pool of the prior components, and over time rebuilding onesself to become what was always meant to be.

Many focus on either the caterpillar or the butterfly, but the mind boggling inner processes of the chrysalis are what makes it divine.

I cried looking at the crosses above Greer's head, in this depiction of her lying in bed sick, surrounded by substances and holy imagery. It reminded me of myself and my own issues with addiction, illness, and my strange relationship with spirituality.

It looked to me like she was being called home. What looked like mutilation and viscera to others, looked to me like the light and hope above Greer's head that kept her going. That was her TRUTH. Her holiness. Her Heaven.

[themoonunderstoodmydadjokes]

It’s almost 2 am….. taking bets to see if I’m actually gonna sleep or not 🫠

[muzetrigger]

Daybreak: On Orchid and Azalea

More notes on Daybreak. This time on the Orchid and Azalea Courts and their Drakes!

And please follow if you want to keep up with the overly elaborate world building I did for this campaign and my flash serial The Diary of Nana!

[delta-lethonomia]

Something I see a lot in media is this pervasive concept that trauma somehow is "good, actually", because it "hardens" people. An example would be Sansa Stark in Season 8 of Game of Thrones, with an offhanded comment about how if she hadn't been violently raped and abused she wouldn't have become as ruthless and pragmatic as she needed to be.

I won't argue that there isn't a grain of truth to it; long-term stressful situations can leave one very numb and utterly pragmatic as a survival mechanism in the short term. But this pragmatism isn't "smart", it's instinctive. It's short-sighted and narrow, prioritizing short-term safety over long-term consequences. And when it's over - when you can finally relax, and all those feelings bubble to the surface, and you work through it all one nightmare or sudden phobia at a time - it doesn't leave you stronger or more resilient. Honestly, I think it leaves you more sensitive and vulnerable than before. I won't say "ruined", but I feel that way sometimes.

I've spent the past 15 years as a caregiver in various ways for my parents (hot tip: don't.) through numerous bouts of breast and lung cancer, many, many strokes, sudden blindness, paralysis, hospice care, death... when COVID happened, it was a relief. I moved away just so I couldn't be guilted into acting the parent for my own mother anymore. Theoretically, I should be used to all this. Theoretically, I'm prepared and experienced.

Anyway my mom (71, stage 4 breast cancer for the last ~7 years) fractured her hip and lower spine last night. All I've been asked to do so far is look after her cat, but all I feel is dread and the increasing urge to vomit.