#trans vogel

[bellamer]

A crossover has been stirring in my mind with the boys not actually dying or they did die but their corpses or whatever was left of their corpses and or dna were taken and "reborn" by Blackwing. They're kinda like clones but have little or no recollection of their past lives. This happens right around when Vogel is captured and inducted into The Rowdy 3.

Basically, the boys are now part of Project Incubus.

At first the two groups fucking hate each other. Except for Marko and Vogel, they become pretty close right away.

Then they all become pretty close over time.

Cross and Dwayne get on pretty good terms, they play scrabble together. Martin and David don't like each other and often argue but they do see common ground sometimes so they end up not totally hating each other, Paul and Gripps have to be separated more often than not because they cause so much fucking chaos together.

They all have one thing in common though. They hate authority.

When Vogel is captured, that's when everything goes to shit in Project Blackwing and Project Incubus all together, and they all end up escaping. They end up going their separate ways but fate keeps bringing them back together so sometimes they do stick around with each other.

I'm incorporating the Vogel is trans headcanon into this too because I headcanon Marko as trans and just thought it would be nice.

Also, the boys finding out psychic vampires exist and trying to figure that shit out cuz "There's more than one type of vampire ?!?", them meeting Amanda and her not being afraid of them even if they're the blood sucky type of vampire so they immediately like her cuz "Damn, this bitch is hard core"

Don't know how they'd react to Dirk, Todd, Farah and the other characters though. I'll figure it out. Also The Boys being transported into that fairyland weird shit that happened in season 2 would be hysterical.

[the-dist-ortionist]

I've given up on art flr now so here's things near my head in my room saying happy trans day of visibility

[starberriemilk]

Sona thing, very personal. On a road to self discovery and self acceptace, its rough but. i think im getting there, slowly

[hjbirthdaywishes]

July 20, 2024

Happy 38 Birthday to Osric Chau.

[alysongreaves]

Welcome to Dorley Hall by Alyson Greaves is out now!

“a story so intimate and psyche-gripping I had to remind myself to breathe” TORREY PETERS

“this wildly original novel is a sly, subversive satire of toxic masculinity wrapped around the heartfelt story of a trans woman fighting to find genuine gender expression” LAYNE FARGO

“a morally complex and deeply humane novel that uses society’s biggest fears about gender to explore fundamental questions about how it affects us all.” RAE STOEVE

[thesiltverses]

Hello! I found the silt verses about three weeks ago and have listened to it several times since. I have a few things to say.

I absolutely adore that episode about the national grid workers. I think it’s my favorite episode of any podcast I’ve ever listened to. My favorite part of that first episode Paige is in is how she justifies not standing up for Vaughn, that cognitive dissonance that you wrote so well. This episode gives me what I wanted from that episode, the workers all banding together to stop the wasteful sacrifice of one of them. The actor who played the foreman did an incredible job as well. I think that having him discuss which of his workers he would sacrifice was such a significant moment, despite how brief it is. It cuts right to the big question that I took away from the podcast which is, “How much is someone willing to sacrifice in order to maintain their comfort?” And the utter disrespect of Glodditch (apologies for the spelling) refusing to cancel even the radio but asking grid workers to kill themselves for 200kw/h! Top tier episode.

I grew up in the south and went to college in Appalachia. I saw the disparity in technology and “advancement” if that makes sense that poverty brings, and the way you set up the world invokes that feeling in me again. You are an amazing world builder and storyteller.

I really enjoyed the cameos - I’m a big fan of malevolent/devisor, Old gods of Appalachia, and all of Jonny sims work, so hearing familiar voices was an absolute delight. Harlan Guthrie as an acolyte of the snuff gods might have been a bit too on the nose with some of the things that man writes, though… /pos

I’m transmasculine, and something that I really appreciate is how you manage to make a trans man do some objectively awful things, but still manage to make him a complex, full character that I was rooting for very frequently. Brother Faulkner is so, so important to me as a character. Paula Vogel has a play called “Indecent,” which is about the true story of a troupe of I believe German Jewish actors between the years of 1910ish and 1940s putting on a show called “God of Vengeance” by Sholem Asch, also a Jewish man. “God of Vengeance” has queer themes and received a lot of criticism from the Jewish community for showing Jewish folks in a “bad” light at a time when there was already so much hatred for Jewish people. Brother Faulkner being as complex and, in my opinion, malicious and cutthroat as he is at a time when trans people face so much bigotry, especially legislatively in the United States, brings this conversation about “God of Vengeance” up again for me. I also love how normalized non-binary people are in this world, without question. “Sibling this or that,” the hunter, adjudicator Shrew - big thanks from me for all of this.

All of this to say, I love this podcast. Can you talk more about the rhetorical gods? Is Babble one? What makes them one if they are, or why aren’t they? I’m fascinated by them. Can you talk more about the propaganda gods too?

Thank you so much for the thoughtful and kind words!

I'll check out Indecent, it sounds really interesting and I'm very glad to hear Faulkner works for you as a character. I think the topic of how to include and write queer characters who are capable of terrible things and thoughts (because, after all, these characters are human beings and not tutelary exemplars), within the context of both a rising movement of transphobia right now and centuries-old scapegoating / pathologising portrayals more generally, is a really knotty but a really important one, and I always want to make sure I'm approaching it with care and due responsibility as well as a sense of humility around the limitations of what, as a cis writer, I can actually achieve.

To that end, I don't want to ever take the audience response for granted, but I'm always really grateful to hear that the portrayal is working for a listener!

Propaganda gods: gods whose prayer-marks or ritual verses are fed directly to the enemy, enforcing destructive or sabotaging changes to reality (so rather than sending a destructive saint or angel to rampage over the foe, you might drop pamphlets or send radio messages to the enemy to 'convert' them).

Rhetorical gods: gods whose followers possess reality-warping powers of language itself (which is why 'rhetorical god' is a polite way of saying 'liar's god'). In other words, the paranoia around them comes partly down to the fact that a disciple like Val may appear to be a limitless shaper of new forms, rather than shaped into a limited form of their own, as a result of their worship.

[luxaofhesperides]

How am I to tell stories about life — Without becoming the eccentric Sámi Making jokes at my own expense — How I am to explain to them that the ruin is in my voice

Ædnan by Linnea Axelsson, trans. Saskia Vogel / Portrait of a young woman. The artist's sister Anna Hammershøi by Vilhelm Hammershoi (1885) / The Tempest by Peder Balke (1862)

[haveyoureadthistransbook]

Welcome to Dorley Hall by Alyson Greaves

goodreads

Mark Vogel is like the older brother Stefan Riley never had, until one day he disappears, and Stefan has to adapt to life without him. But, one year later, when he runs into a girl who looks near-identical to Mark, Stefan becomes obsessed. He discovers that other boys have disappeared, too, dozens over the years, most of them students of the Royal College of Saint Almsworth, many of them troubled or unruly before their disappearance.

What is happening to these boys? Who are the handful of women on campus who bear a striking resemblance to some of those who went missing? And what is the connection to the mysterious Dorley Hall?

Stefan works hard to get into the Royal College for one reason and one reason only: to find out exactly what happened to the women who live at Dorley Hall, and to get it to happen to him, too.

A closeted trans girl attempts to infiltrate a secret underground forced feminisation programme.

Mod opinion: I haven't read this book yet, but I got it in a trans book sale a year ago and I'm excited to check it out.

[fantastigasmical]

Steph Riley is a young closeted trans woman at the end of her rope. She's too poor to afford healthcare, transition via the NHS is hellish, and her conservative Christian parents certainly won't help.

She has one hope and only one: her vanished best friend. Mark Vogel was a slightly older teenager who lived across the street from her for some years. A few weeks after starting uni, he vanished. Two years later, Steph runs into a girl called Melissa who looks similar enough to Mark to be the sister he never had, and she clearly recognizes Steph too.

This gets her thinking. Was "Mark" like her? Did she cut off all ties to transition? So she gets to researching, and finds that the Dorley Hall dorm at the nearest university is kept by a private trust, meant to support disadvantaged women and nonbinary people. A lot of boys go missing around this university, and only boys. The patterns are subtle but things are adding up.

Steph logically concludes that Dorley has a secret private gender clinic meant to help girls like her. When drunk at a party with Christine Hale, a resident there, she explains her little hypothesis.

The next morning, Steph wakes up locked in a cell, head splitting from a nasty hangover, and a voice on an intercom is asking her what she knows. Her guess was completely logical and completely wrong. This place is somewhere between a rehab facility and a cult. How will she survive among… The Sisters of Dorley?

Thank you to @tinker-tanner on the Novelty Mug Society Discord for writing up this blurb for the book series The Sisters of Dorley. I'd highly recommend reading it. Its an interesting thriller and has had me hooked since I first saw it. I see a ton of people saying when they first read it they binged through the entire thing in a week because they couldn't put it down.

[carolinelikesdinner]

Would a trans person need to put down their deadname in the Register to be able to enter Fablehaven? With Errol Fisk (trans king) they put down Christopher Vogel, which was his given name.

[bookclub4m]

45 New & Forthcoming Indie Press Books by BIPOC Authors 

Every month Book Club for Masochists: A Readers’ Advisory Podcasts chooses a genre at random and we read and discuss books from that genre. We also put together book lists for each episode/genre that feature works by BIPOC (Black, Indigenous, & People of Colour) authors. All of the lists can be found here.

Fiction

Weird Black Girls: Stories by Elwin Cotman (AK Press)

False Idols: A Reluctant King Novel by K’Wan (Akashic Books)

Sister Deborah by Scholastique Mukasonga, translated by Mark Polizzotti (Archipelago Books)

Bad Land by Corinna Chong (Arsenal Pulp Press)

These Letters End in Tears by Musih Tedji Xaviere (Catapult)

The Coin by Yasmin Zaher (Catapult)

Cecilia by K-Ming Chang (Coffee House Press)

Fog & Car by Eugene Lim (Coffee House Press)

We’re Safe When We’re Alone by Nghiem Tran (Coffee House Press)

A Woman of Pleasure by Kiyoko Murata, translated by Juliet Winters Carpenter (Counterpoint Press)

Bad Seed by Gabriel Carle, translated by Heather Houde (Feminist Press)

The Default World by Naomi Kanakia (Feminist Press)

The Singularity by Balsam Karam, translated by Saskia Vogel (Feminist Press)

I'll Give You a Reason by Annell López (Feminist Press)

Tongueless by Lau Yee-Wa, translated by Jennifer Feeley (Feminist Press)

Outcaste by Sheila James (Goose Lane Editions)

Silken Gazelles by Jokha Alharthi, translated by Marilyn Booth (House of Anansi Press)

Dad, I Miss You by Nadia Sammurtok, illustrated by Simji Park (Inhabit Media)

Secrets of the Snakestone by Pia DasGupta (Nosy Crow)

The Burrow by Melanie Cheng (Tin House)

Masquerade by Mike Fu (Tin House)

The World With Its Mouth Open: Stories by Zahid Rafiq (Tin House)

I Love You So Much It's Killing Us Both by Mariah Stovall (Soft Skull Press)

Non-Fiction

RAPilates: Body and Mind Conditioning in the Digital Age by Chuck D and Kathy Lopez (Akashic Books)

All Our Ordinary Stories: A Multigenerational Family Odyssey by Teresa Wong (Arsenal Pulp Press)

Dispersals: On Plants, Borders, and Belonging by Jessica J. Lee (Catapult)

My Pisces Heart: A Black Immigrant's Search for Home Across Four Continents by Jennifer Neal  (Catapult)

Beyond the Mountains: An Immigrant's Inspiring Journey of Healing and Learning to Dance with the Universe by Deja Vu Prem (Catapult)

Out of the Sierra: A Story of Rarámuri Resistance by Victoria Blanco (Coffee House Press)

Thunder Song: Essays by Sasha LaPointe (Counterpoint Press)

Born to Walk: My Journey of Trials and Resilience by Alpha Nkuranga (Goose Lane Editions)

Jinny Yu (At Once/À La Fois) by Jinny Yu (Goose Lane Editions)

Log Off: Why Posting and Politics (Almost) Never Mix by Katherine Cross (LittlePuss Press)

Becoming Little Shell: A Landless Indian’s Journey Home by Chris La Tray (Milkweed Editions)

World of Wonders: In Praise of Fireflies, Whale Sharks, and Other Astonishments  by Aimee Nezhukumatathil (Milkweed Editions)

Opacities: On Writing and the Writing Life by Sofia Samatar (Soft Skull Press)

The Story Game by Shze-Hui Tjoa (Tin House)

Black Meme: The History of the Images That Make Us by Legacy Russell (Verso Books)

Poetry

i heard a crow before i was born by Jules Delorme (Goose Lane Editions)

We the Gathered Heat: Asian American and Pacific Islander Poetry, Performance, and Spoken Word edited by Franny Choi, Bao Phi, Noʻu Revilla, and Terisa Siagatonu (Haymarket Books)

A Map of My Want by Faylita Hicks (Haymarket Books)

[...] by Fady Joudah (Milkweed Editions)

Comics

A Witch’s Guide to Burning by Aminder Dhaliwal (Drawn & Quarterly)

Oba Electroplating Factory by Yoshiharu Tsuge (Drawn & Quarterly)

Lost at Windy River by  Jillian Dolan, Trina Rathgeber and Alina Pete (Orca Books)

[compneuropapers]

Interesting Papers for Week 35, 2023

Decoding Trans-Saccadic Prediction Error. Barne, L. C., Giordano, J., Collins, T., & Desantis, A. (2023). Journal of Neuroscience, 43(11), 1933–1939.

A cortical zoom-in operation underlies covert shifts of visual spatial attention. Bartsch, M. V., Merkel, C., Strumpf, H., Schoenfeld, M. A., Tsotsos, J. K., & Hopf, J.-M. (2023). Science Advances, 9(10).

Granger causality analysis for calcium transients in neuronal networks, challenges and improvements. Chen, X., Ginoux, F., Carbo-Tano, M., Mora, T., Walczak, A. M., & Wyart, C. (2023). eLife, 12, e81279.

Computational modeling of human multisensory spatial representation by a neural architecture. Domenici, N., Sanguineti, V., Morerio, P., Campus, C., Del Bue, A., Gori, M., & Murino, V. (2023). PLOS ONE, 18(3), e0280987.

Social signal learning of the waggle dance in honey bees. Dong, S., Lin, T., Nieh, J. C., & Tan, K. (2023). Science, 379(6636), 1015–1018.

Inferior temporal cortex leads prefrontal cortex in response to a violation of a learned sequence. Esmailpour, H., Raman, R., & Vogels, R. (2023). Cerebral Cortex, 33(6), 3124–3141.

Neural learning rules for generating flexible predictions and computing the successor representation. Fang, C., Aronov, D., Abbott, L., & Mackevicius, E. L. (2023). eLife, 12, e80680.

Dopamine error signal to actively cope with lack of expected reward. Ishino, S., Kamada, T., Sarpong, G. A., Kitano, J., Tsukasa, R., Mukohira, H., … Ogawa, M. (2023). Science Advances, 9(10).

Working memory control dynamics follow principles of spatial computing. Lundqvist, M., Brincat, S. L., Rose, J., Warden, M. R., Buschman, T. J., Miller, E. K., & Herman, P. (2023). Nature Communications, 14, 1429.

Variability in training unlocks generalization in visual perceptual learning through invariant representations. Manenti, G. L., Dizaji, A. S., & Schwiedrzik, C. M. (2023). Current Biology, 33(5), 817-826.e3.

Neuronal excitability as a regulator of circuit remodeling. Mayseless, O., Shapira, G., Rachad, E. Y., Fiala, A., & Schuldiner, O. (2023). Current Biology, 33(5), 981-989.e3.

Flexible tool set transport in Goffin’s cockatoos. Osuna-Mascaró, A. J., O’Hara, M., Folkertsma, R., Tebbich, S., Beck, S. R., & Auersperg, A. M. I. (2023). Current Biology, 33(5), 849-857.e4.

Dorsomedial prefrontal hypoexcitability underlies lost empathy in frontotemporal dementia. Phillips, H. L., Dai, H., Choi, S. Y., Jansen-West, K., Zajicek, A. S., Daly, L., … Yao, W.-D. (2023). Neuron, 111(6), 797-806.e6.

Flexible reuse of cortico-hippocampal representations during encoding and recall of naturalistic events. Reagh, Z. M., & Ranganath, C. (2023). Nature Communications, 14, 1279.

Temporal continuity shapes visual responses of macaque face patch neurons. Russ, B. E., Koyano, K. W., Day-Cooney, J., Perwez, N., & Leopold, D. A. (2023). Neuron, 111(6), 903-914.e3.

Dynamic attention signalling in V4: Relation to fast‐spiking/non‐fast‐spiking cell class and population coupling. Sachse, E. M., & Snyder, A. C. (2023). European Journal of Neuroscience, 57(6), 918–939.

A process model account of the role of dopamine in intertemporal choice. Soutschek, A., & Tobler, P. N. (2023). eLife, 12, e83734.

Model-Based Approach Shows ON Pathway Afferents Elicit a Transient Decrease of V1 Responses. St-Amand, D., & Baker, C. L. (2023). Journal of Neuroscience, 43(11), 1920–1932.

The connectome of an insect brain. Winding, M., Pedigo, B. D., Barnes, C. L., Patsolic, H. G., Park, Y., Kazimiers, T., … Zlatic, M. (2023). Science, 379(6636).

Spontaneous recovery of reward memory through active forgetting of extinction memory. Yang, Q., Zhou, J., Wang, L., Hu, W., Zhong, Y., & Li, Q. (2023). Current Biology, 33(5), 838-848.e3.

[lowbeyonder]

Big oof (positive)

So I recently started reading Welcome to Dorley Hall.

I have intense and complicated reactions to this book.

I'm only about a quarter of the way in and already everything else I try to say about it turns into an essay-length combination trauma dump and TMI oversharing, which I then delete and replace with "I have intense and complicated reactions to this book."

I also feel weird about outright "recommending" it? For one thing, I'm not done with it, and for another, I have no fucking idea how anyone would react to it who isn't a trans woman wired a fairly specific way. To anyone who is a trans woman wired a fairly specific way: I think you will have intense and complicated reactions to this book.

Anyway, I wanted to say something about it.

And I would give anything to see the timeline where I read this as a teen.

[transbookoftheday]

Welcome to Dorley Hall by Alyson Greaves

Mark Vogel is like the older brother Stefan Riley never had, until one day he disappears, and Stefan has to adapt to life without him. But, one year later, when he runs into a girl who looks near-identical to Mark, Stefan becomes obsessed. He discovers that other boys have disappeared, too, dozens over the years, most of them students of the Royal College of Saint Almsworth, many of them troubled or unruly before their disappearance.

What is happening to these boys? Who are the handful of women on campus who bear a striking resemblance to some of those who went missing? And what is the connection to the mysterious Dorley Hall?

Stefan works hard to get into the Royal College for one reason and one reason only: to find out exactly what happened to the women who live at Dorley Hall, and to get it to happen to him, too.

A closeted trans girl attempts to infiltrate a secret underground forced feminisation programme.

[hjbirthdaywishes]

July 20, 2023

Happy 37 Birthday to Osric Chau. 

[fierceawakening]

The other thing that I keep noticing when I look at gendercrit blogs (to see if they're generally as conciliatory as some present when they engage on That post. Mostly no, but I'm much more stridently anti-TERF in my own space so I don't know if I can really fault it) is endless references to how the transcult killed Michfest (a weeklong? gathering for lesbians in the woods that a lot of people went to as a kind of yearly pilgrimage, started in I think the '70s. Trans women were excluded, as they're not "women born women," and there was activism intended to change this policy. (Some trans women often went anyway, not disclosing at entry that they were trans. Usually the report was that people didn't ask, or that they seemed to tell but wink and look the other way.) Ultimately, rather than change the policy and allow trans women in, the owner of the land shut down the fest entirely. Don't ask me what year, I want to say 201something.)

I never went to Michfest or to Camp Trans myself, so I'm not claiming to be an insider, but I DID become RL friends with one of the people involved for a time, and hang out on some message boards where she and others did activism.

The goal, as I remember it, was NOT to kill Michfest. The idea was NEVER "exclusionist spaces must be destroyed." The goal was simply to get the policy rescinded so that trans women could attend the fest openly.

Perhaps naively, I think all of us believed that the policy would change if we kept up the pressure. I for one was NOT expecting, or even really considering, the possibility that Vogel might shut it down in the name of preserving her vision.

The reason I (and I think probably others, but I can't speak for them) thought this would work was that it had happened once before, some time in the '80s. Leatherdykes (lesbians who do BDSM) were originally excluded from Fest, on the theory that kinky people are violent and are reproducing patriarchal abuse.

At some point, people pressed for change and the result was the creation of a space called The Zone, where leatherdykes were welcome to freely express themselves. Outside of The Zone they were expected to not do or talk about kink stuff. (I'm not sure if they were required to not wear leather community type clothes or if that was okay.)

My assumption, and I think the assumption of some others?, was that what would most likely happen would be a The Zone like area, Camp Trans within the festival space, where trans people could freely mingle (including be naked or topless if they wanted, part of the reason exclusionists argued for exclusion. "Penises are triggering and I might see you have one") and discuss trans issues openly and people who didn't want to date, flirt, or hang out with trans lesbians weren't welcome to express that. Where outside of that space people would be able to more openly "have the trans debate" as they say.

I was not around for the whole history of the activism. It's possible that some people DID realize Vogel was likely to shut the whole fest down and were okay with that.

But that's not at all what I remember, so I just want to set the record straight from what I know.