#toxic rambles

[huginsmemory]

Been thinking about how Bill legitimately had a horrifying reason (the literal progressive disintegration of the nightmare realm that erases whatever it disintegrates from existence completely) to move himself and his crew into a new dimension. Like that's terrifying. And yet he never utilizes this to his favour. He could have been honest about this with Ford, and you KNOW as long as Bill didn't mention plans of overtaking the earth, Ford would've made the portal for him, both out of Ford's own interest and because Ford when faced with these big moral questions will pull through. But this is a card Bill NEVER plays because although he needs to leave the dimension, he cannot lose face. He can't put aside his pride and admit to the humility that he needs to flee from his dimension, that he's not actually all powerful. And so instead he pretends to be a muse and when Ford figures out something else is going on, instead of being open and humble and saying that his dimension is unravelling, Bill focuses on that he's going to over take earth, that he's actually been a monster all along, surprise Ford!

And part of it is definitely because Bill's built himself up on power and violence and to grovel and earnestly ask for help, to admit that he cannot stop the unraveling of his dimension completely invalidates that; showing vulnerability? Can't do that, even under the guise of lying to get his way. And part of it makes you wonder if it's also a form of self-sabotage, because underneath his deep denial Bill is guilty over what he occurred; he sees himself as a monster and so he'll be that monster, and having people recognize that feels good in the same way that pressing a bruise feels good. But it makes you wonder what would've happened if Bill even just was open about his dimension unravelling and had lied about overtaking the earth.

It's also interesting because although Bill has SOME charisma and can manipulate people decently well (as evidenced by his cult, and pandering to people's desires with Ford, Mabel and Blendin), he refuses to be vulnerable, refuses to not be true to his off-putting self, even when if he was just vulnerable of pretended to not be himself, to put aside the (false) pride he has in himself he would've gotten a portal by now. and part of me wonders if it's because it's this false pride that built on insecurity and denial on who he is he cannot drop that mask.

Further thoughts on this!

[chimpukampu]

Me seeing some old yet familiar usernames showing up on my feed

[wiggly-round-worm]

I think being possessed by Bill has permanent side effects, actually.

[annimoose]

When I see billford more than the other ships that shall not be named (nature is healing)

[rosefires20]

My brainrot today is thinking about just how incredible for a character Eowyn is.

Genuinely. The series might not have many female characters but the ones we do get go so fucking hard.

To me, Eowyn is literally the definition of defining being a woman for oneself. She rejects the roles she is given despite acknlowdging the importance and its mostly because she knows part of the reason is that she is a woman.

The reason why she is obsessed with Aragorn isn't because she loves him but because she wants what he has. She wants the freedom and courage and bravery that Aragorn has at every turn. She literally has multiple conversations during the Two Towers about how what she fears most is a cage. All this girl wants is the freedom to be and not be forced into a role. The best thing is that she literally gets that.

The segment of Return of the King about Eowyn and Faramir is literally about her piecing together what she truly wants. She doesn't want Aragorn. She wants freedom and the ability to choose. Faramir does nothing but encourage that in her. Their love story is literally one of the healthiest love stories I've seen in a long time because at the heart of it, their love is a place to return home to for both parties. Both go off to lead and help their people for a considerable amount of time before returning to each other but that does not diminish their bond. Even Faramir, I believe, falls in love with her bravery and dedication to her loved ones. The reason she went to Pelenor Fields and Gondor with the troops of Rohan was because she had things she wanted to fight for. She wanted to fight for herself, her people, and her loved ones. She is the one who protects Theoden after he is killed so that his body gets the treatment it deserves. She encourages Merry and helps him go to the battle because she sees her struggle in Merry. They feel helpless standing around when there are things to be doing.

Let's also not forget the fact that she was around Grima Wormtounge just as much as the King was. She was exposed to the same poison and awful words that eroded the king. It's even implied that her care for him is part of the reason why Theoden was savable when Gandalf showed up. She had the same power and bravery as everyone else even if she didn't see it in herself.

Then at the end of the day, SHE decides where she wants to go and what path she wants to walk. She walked the path of a warrior. The path of a princess/ruler. The path of a caretaker. But in the end she decides which elements truly mean something to her outside of gender definitions. That is what makes her character so incredible to me. In this she literally kills one of the biggest enemies in that battle with such a badass line.

[buddietommys]

"Do you think you'll kill for me one day?"

"Yes, of course I will my darling."

[hursheys]

i’m literally just speechless about this. i was so happy for seunghan’s return since i became a briize while he was on hiatus. it was hard to watch content cause i always love a group as a whole, so i just waited. when the announcement of his return was dropped, i was so excited cause i would finally see ot7 back together. why must toxic stans have to ruin everything, and why must companies have to bow down to their demands when you’ve already decided to bring him back? to any ot6 stan reading this, he apologised for more than enough. he was willing to move on from the past and continue making amends with his members supporting him. you all lack empathy cause how would you feel if your dreams and hopes were ruined without a chance to make up for it? i hope no one ever treats you ot6 briize with an ounce of the hate you threw at seunghan. even then, i’m sure you would lack the empathy and maturity to change.

[mossy-rot]

death note really is just like watching the worst polyam couple you've ever met

[gorgynei]

love lies bleeding is everything that cishets acted like saltburn was and more

[halemerry]

I can't stop thinking about the fact that Crowley's hands are acting as a barrier between them even as they're pulling Aziraphale closer. They never relax, not once, like he's afraid the moment he moves them this moment will slip through his fingers like sand. Even after Aziraphale starts to return it. There's tension and desperation in every line of his body in every beat of that kiss, even as Aziraphale presses them closer and tries to hold him around the awkward position Crowley has put them in, because he already knows. No matter how Aziraphale responds he knows how this ends. They both do. You can see it in their faces the moment they draw apart.

[celtrist]

It's okay to be emotional over a ship.

It's okay to be emotional over a ship. It's okay to be emotional over characters. It's okay to share grievances over a ship as much as it's okay to gush over a ship. It's okay to feel so overwhelmingly negatively over a ship just as much as it's okay to feel so overwhelmingly positive.

While it's always going to be better to focus on positives, it can also be just as good to let out any negatives you might have about something rather than bottling it in and, for some, feeling alone in your thoughts about it.

It is so, so, SO OKAY to be so heavy in emotions concerning a ship whether negative or positive because it means you're invested in the characters and their relationships. When spaces seem to allow only positivity when some people might have some negative thoughts on a ship, it really negates any conversations about it and even understanding sides of why someone may or may not ship something.

While understandable, there is a double standard between being negative and positive about ships (or portrayal of characters). If you feel overwhelmingly negative about something, "you need to go touch grass". If you feel overwhelmingly positive about something, "go at it queen". I would personally argue we all need to touch grass.

It is NOT okay to harass others. It is NOT okay to let your emotions dictate that you should attack somebody for LIKING a certain ship or DISLIKING a certain ship. Your emotions DO NOT dictate how OTHERS should feel.

It is okay to be negative about a character or ship as much as it's okay to be positive about them. Neither side of being for or against a ship is more virtuous than the others. It's okay to have some fucking emotions regardless if their positive or not, because it means you CARE about the media and the characters in it.

No, you should not revolve your whole online experience in negativity. Find positive in things you DO enjoy. But to brush off people who vehemently might dislike a character or ship as "losers with no lives" is to disregard a person's emotions on something. And if you do wanna think that mindset, congrats, people who obsessively love a character or ship are just the same by your logic. Obsession is obsession, regardless if it's negative or positive.

TL;DR, If it's okay to be overwhelmingly positive in liking something like a ship or character, it should be just as okay to be negative in disliking something like a ship or character. Just as long as it's not the ONLY thing you focus on and no one is actively being bullied, attacked, or harassed about it. And of course, either way, positive or negative, it is all fiction, and a real person should not be attacked or harassed for it. And if you don't want to indulge in negativity you might have, 100% valid. Both sides always need to take a step back into reality.

[edwinisms]

crystal palace surname von hoverkraft is a mean girl. and an empath. she’s toxic. she’s the most caring and empowering person on earth. she’s a skeptic. she’s a mystic who can see ghosts and read minds. she can and will have someone hit you with their car if you’re an asshole. she’s a high school dropout. she’s made out with at least two different supernatural entities. she probably knows paris hilton personally. she went missing under mysterious circumstances. she shoplifts for fun. she’s on pretty good terms with an ancient goddess. but above all else, she’s bisexual

[werenotacoupleyesyouare]

Theyre exes. I just know it

I have so many headcanons about these two pls ask me abt them I promise i won’t bite haha (IBITEIBITEIBITERAHHHHH)

[crows-of-buckets]

Rook: I'm really worried about Davrin and Lucanis, they keep arguing with one another... Its very bad Varric, what if it effects them in battle?

Varric, remembering that one time Fenris broke Ander's nose then took a knife in the back for him in the same night: I'm sure they'll be fine kid. They're barely even arguing if you ask me

[missholloween]

Hello LGBTQ+ community

[realbeefman]

wilson could fix house but house can't fix wilson. and this is the crux of their dynamic because house loves wilson for his terminal flaws - loves him because he eats neediness, not in spite of (the way wilson's wives love him). but house will never let wilson help him get better, not really, because if house is healthy and happy and emotionally fulfilled, he knows that means moving on. leaving wilson.

wilson has never been a consolation prize for house. wilson is the boulder house will lovingly try again and again to push up the hill, knowing he will fail, knowing the boulder will always roll down. house could recover, but recovery means wilson stops worrying about him. and who is sisyphus without his punishment? without his rock?