#total mood change ik

[sweet-lavender-nothing]

realized it was because I got my period lol oops

anyways I'm trying to see the good side of things, I'm trying to be more positive, I'm so fortunate to not have to worry about clothes fitting me anymore, here's a pic/ body check in a new shirt I got (literally on the last day before I got refunded omg) also 2nd thing I've gotten in xxs that's fit!!

excuse my crusty ass sweatpants I've had them for like 9 years they are barely surviving

and I'm also so happy my local grocery store had the milk and cookies zero sugar chobani because omg I could live of of only that and be happy aa

[donttouchtheneednoggle]

Was anyone gonna tell me birth control was this powerful???

[piease-iove-me]

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[ghostwritermia]

Jegulus x reader request?

Where the reader is also a quidditch player and basically she is in hufflepuff/ravenclaw and their team wins, but one of the boys get mad preferably regulus and reader gets upset james comforts her. Basically angst to fluff

P.s u don't have to do it, I hv been writing a poly moonwater for a week and haven't completed yet. Ik writing is hectic

Lots of Love, babe

Hi Hi! Sorry this took so long. I was in a writing slump...

Anyhoo. Here it is, I hope you enjoy!

totally didn't feed my overdramatic personality into this...

No warnings I can think of? Overthinking? Getting lost in your thoughts? Tears?

Poly!Jegulus x ravenclaw!reader

You were absolutely elated when you found out you had been assigned the captain position.

Sure, you were on a team that normally didn't win, but you were fine with that. You enjoyed the sport, the crowd, the family your team became, the community and environment.

It was the last game of the season and your team had finally won against Slytherin. Earlier in the season you had led your team to victory against Gryffindor. So, with one boyfriend left to beat, you had finally done it today, but apparently it had come with a price to pay.

As you were being crowded and tackled by your team you peeked over your best friend's shoulder, seeing Regulus storming off. And with that, your mood instantly dropped. 

You slipped an easy smile back onto your face as you hugged the rest of your team before slipping off into the changing tent and then back to your common room. 

You understand that Reg wanted to win his last game of the season, you did. But, it was your last game too, and only the second game you had been able to win that season. Shouldn't he be proud of you too?

When you finally made it back to your dorm, you quickly slipped into one of James's shirts (which were huge on you), and a pair of sleep shorts, before curling on in an armchair, pulling your knees to your chest and a blue fuzzy blanket up to your chin.

You didn't know how long you sat there. You also didn't know when James had slipped into the room, not even realizing he was there until he gently wiped tears away from under your eyes with the pads of his thumbs.

You startled, eyes lifting to meet his, to see sorrow swimming in his gaze. “You just gotta give him time, darling. You know how he gets about these things, he’ll come around.” James swiftly picks you up and takes your place in the armchair before resting you back into his lap.

You sighed, curling into his side, resting your forehead in the crook of his neck. “I know, it’s just hard sometimes.” You sniffle into his shirt, and he tugs you tighter against him.

“He will come around darling, I promise.” He says, leaving a gentle kiss to the top of your hair.

You lose track of time as you get comfortable, cuddling into James (stealing all of his warmth), yet he doesn’t complain. You smile into his shoulder as he starts running his fingers through your hair. You playfully bite his shoulder; he tugs on a strand of your hair in reprimand.

You had started to doze off when the door creaked open and James spotted Regulus’s head peek in. He gently tapped your shoulder and when he had gotten your attention, pointed to Regulus.

Your gaze met the stormy gray of Regulus’s before you looked away, finding a loose thread of your blanket far more interesting.

“Mon Amour, I’m so so sorry.” Regulus rushes over to you, crouching down in front of you. “My mind blanked, and I didn’t think before I walked away, and I’m so sorry.” He grabs your hand, pressing a kiss to the back of it before running his thumb along the back of it.

You frown, your eyebrows scrunching and slide out of James’s lap and onto the floor next to Reg. “It’s okay, my love. I understand what it’s like to have loads of pressure on your shoulders, I do too. It can overwhelm you at any moment; sometimes it can even come when we don’t want it too and take control of our actions.” You say wisely. “You had a moment, it happens to the best of us. You may be a wizard, but you are still a human. Bound to make mistakes for the rest of your life,” You remind dramatically, talking with your hands. Regulus laughs, his eyes lighting up again and grabs your hands, holding them stationary.

“I’m glad that you forgive me, mon amour, but you are over dramatic.” Your boyfriend dressed in green states.

You scoff as James slides down from the chair to sit with the two of you on the floor. “I love this make-up session you two are having, but you both are full of crap.” He tugs you both into his sides, one arm wrapped around each of you.

Regulus turns his head, biting James’s hand as you dramatically raise your hand before swatting him on the back of his head.

James quickly pulls his hand away from Regulus, retracting his hold from the two of you and holds the back of his head. “Hey!” You both turn your head and blink at him feigning innocence. “This is not attack James day.” 

He smiles, teeth flashing. You dramatically cover your eyes, faking passing out; falling back from your sitting position and onto your back. “Ah, too bright. Can’t see. James you’re blinding me, can’t you see? Because I sure can’t.”

“Regulus was right. You are so over dramatic.” James rolls his eyes before leaning towards you and pulling your hands away from your eyes and pulling you into him.

“I. Am. Not.” You pout, crossing your arms and leaning out of James’s embrace.

Regulus leans towards you smiling and kisses your forehead. “Yes you are.” He whispers, tackling you to the ground, tickling your sides. “You are dramatic, and I love you for it.” You grin and Regulus gives you a skeptical glance as you turn and smile at James.

Before Reg could blink he was pinned down to the ground; roles reversed. James had his arms pinned to the ground as you straddled his hip, returning the attack of tickles that he had been serving you.

“You lose, Reggie.” You state in a sing-song voice, giggling.

[inbarfink]

I mean, I (and others) did predict Fionna coming to the realization that ‘Simon being Ice King again is very very bad actually’ via watching IK’s old tapes - in a thematic reversal of Holly Jolly Secrets…. You know, Finn learned to like Ice King more after learning about Simon Petrikov and who he used to be, Fionna learned to like Simon Petrikov more after really learning about Ice King and who he used to be. 

But the thing that really stuck with me about how the show pulled it off is how… tame that video was. Compared to what the audience knows about how terrible Ice King could get. 

Most of the video Fionna saw was Ice King goofing off, with just the last clip giving her a tiny little taste of how prone he was to fits of anger and extreme misery

She didn’t get to see the videos of Ice King crying for literal hours on end, she didn’t get to see him throw tantrums that make him a legitimate danger for those around him, I don’t think she actually knows he used to kidnap and stalk women on a regular basis - but that’s okay, because she didn’t need to. That tiny little taste of Ice King’s misery and pain was really all she actually needed.

Because it really speaks to how little she actually understood of the Ice King’s situation before. How much seeing that one little clip of him back in “Prismo the Wishmaster'' gave her such a totally wrong impression of what Ice King was like

that just seeing him yell at Gunter and cry once is enough to make her totally reexamine all of her preconceived notions about him.

And it really speaks how despite her sometimes-childish attitude, Fionna really possesses a lot of emotional intelligence. Both in how quickly she correctly gauged that Ice King’s behavior in the last clip was a regular thing for him and probably not even his worst moment and that his anger was yet another expression of his being 'super-sad'

And how clearly her Second Thoughts about the Crown Plan didn’t start when she saw Ice King yell - they started when she saw how despite working so hard on getting himself Cursed again, Simon still couldn’t bear the idea of watching videos of Ice King’s ‘Good Times’.

Because as much as it was important for Fionna to really know Ice King in order to fathom just how terrible the Crown Plan was, it was also equally important for her to really know Simon as well.

When she was so dismissive toward Simon’s plight in the Prismo episode, and when she so eagerly and thoughtlessly jumped on the Crown Plan - she really knew nothing about either facets of his identity. She only got such a quick clip of Ice King actually in a good mood, and all she’s seen of Simon was him at his lowest point - rude, dismissive, screaming at her face, literally considering letting her whole world burn in his own depressive spiral. 

It’s only after they reached Farmworld and officially started to work towards the Crown Plan that Fionna really started to know who Simon Petrikov is when he’s not at rock bottom. That’s when she learned how intelligent

And dorky

And kind

And comforting 

And fatherly 

And a silly little hopeless romantic for his GF

he is. 

And they became real friends and she really grew fond of all of these things about him. So now, watching clips of Ice King… it takes her some time to process it, clearly, but it also bothers her how little of these traits that she likes about her friend and he likes about himself she can see in the crazy old Ice Wizard.

Seeing also how mad and sad he could be was just what clinched the deal for her, the last excuse she could find for why it was okay (“Maybe he really was happier like that?”) gone.

And that also relates to her more general anxieties about the Crown Plan from farther in the same episode.

Now that she’s seen how much being infused Magic changed Simon… It's no wonder she’s so worried about how Magic will change her and Cake and all of her loved ones.

And it’s not a totally unfounded fear. We’re still not exactly sure how bringing Magic back into Simon’s brain will affect Fionnaworld - but it will most likely work the same as it did the other way around? When Fionnaworld first lost its magic? So that will mean not only the people and the world will change physically, but their memories and minds will also be altered as if they always lived in the Magical World and never in the Mundane world Fionna remembers.

And that will kinda make them into different people. Gary Prince and Prince Gumball feel like the most obvious comparison. One is a literal god-king who seems to have at least a bit of the old Bubblegum Hubris problem

The other is just a humble little put-on Barista trying to make it big

Becoming Prince Gumball again would be in some way the ultimate fulfilment of Gary's dream - not just a Pastry Mansion but a whole Candy Kingdom! But... it would also mean giving up on all of the memories and experiences of ever having been Gary Prince. And... it's at least worth considering if it's worth it.

We know that Change doesn't have to be all bad, Cake the Cat will testify to that

I'm sure that from her perspective, having every bit of her memories wiped and replaced is worth it if she can keep her mind and ability to speak.

But Fionna's little Storytime with Simon, I think, really gave Fionna a look to how much his reminiscing is important to him

and really gave her a glimpse to how much people's history and memories effect who they are, and seeing this and seeing what ‘turning into a different and more magical person without your original memories’ did to Simon Petrikov

It’s really no wonder it makes Fionna worried.

[astropookie]

intrusive thoughts astro version

mamoru yamamoto

I’ve noticed earth mars in signs or degrees gets aroused when their sexual partner it’s having a good time, adding that’s because of them.

if asteroid rhiannon (16912) it’s about running away, what would happen if it’s on 12H. ik what about it but 😭 I can’t help it but point it out.

rhiannon (16912) conjunct mercury means escape from situations thanks to their persuasiveness

return venus conjunct natal venus -in venus return chart-: you’re finding your aesthetic/style you feel more comfortable and that vibes with your vibe 😝. also the energy of your sign/house and degree is PRESENT, that’s why during all that period of time you could feel too prideful without hesitation. mine was sag venus 11H 6° (virgo degree), i was feeling a little too optimistic or enthusiastic and cut out people. you’re being kind of truth to yourself?

natal jupiter square return pluto -in venus return chart-: you’re in a period of rebirth and thanks to your lucky nature -natal jupiter- you’re deciding not to end it. wanting it or not, you have this feeling of overcoming things.

when I used placidus system, my moon was in 1H, then I used whole sign system and my moon changed to 2H. for a while I preferred placidus bc I didn’t feel seen by the 2H moon chart. then I realized the 2H characteristics where in front of me the whole time. I wanted to feel understood, 1H moon was comforting the idea that I’m sensitive and feel emotions insanely deep. besides, 2H moon it’s about craving for comfort and security. I was only focused on the financial part, the stereotypical and superficial part. it’s a good thing to compare both charts to analyze how they can guide you.

uranus 12h in Eros persona chart shows u crave for intimacy 😭

idk why every time I end up getting stressed and bored about a friend is when I have mercury square their neptune. -reading note: she’s still my friend, we just have different point of views or forms to process information. the mercury part doubts constantly about others opinions and arguments and they see neptune as impulsive and kind of ignorant, bc their way of believing in things.

referring to the solar eclipse -April 8, 2024- my 3H has been affected -aquarius ascendant-, days after, out of nowhere -I havent had connection with them- I’ve received a voice message from the lilith person I was talking about on my posts, someone I used to be friends and distanced myself away from them. I decided to listened to it on the day of solar eclipse without thinking thinking about this coincidence -solar eclipse, 3H is affected-.

natal neptune sextile transiting venus: i felt like I was high even though I took my adhd pills 😭 I was so in peace? I felt emphatic? transits with your dominant planet have a huge effect on your mood. mine’s neptune and was sextile transiting venus.

I’ve noticed people with saturn 8H are kind of like a libra venus, in a way they’re afraid their love experience won’t be as they dreamed. saturn 8H creates restrictions on sexual attitudes and matters. imo 8H mix love and sexual desires, they need something that would drag them out of their secure space, they’re afraid. they’re late bloomers when’s about their first kiss or etc.

3H stellium at a distant, it’s giving introvert or distant vibes, they try to process things logically and could be a little slow to catch a joke?

I have a friend I thought was mean and in her energy💅, could be described as intimidated. she’s the opposite. when I saw her birth chart it made total sense, coming from an aquarius ascendant -saturn ruled like capricorn-, I had no clue she was a saturn ruled. it always surprises me how defined some rising’s energies can be presented.

sun 4H brings a sense of familiarity, even more when your mars is 4H, you feel more comfortable with them -sun 4H-, they remind you of your family or the vibes.

pisces 7H in solar return chart could tell you’re expecting a lover, doesn’t mean you’re having one 😭 i swear this solar return was like that, I meet a person and then proceed to imagine a relationship with them.

(*ᴗ͈ˬᴗ͈)ꕤ૮꒰ྀི⸝⸝> . <⸝⸝꒱ྀིა ∗ ࣪ ˖༺ ♡ ༻˖ ࣪ ∗ */ᐠ - ˕ -マ✩ (˶˃ᆺ˂˶)∗ ࣪

♡ Based on personal experience and I’ve analyzed in my surroundings.

♡ English is not my first language.

♡ I’m not a profesional astrologer.

Thank youu. baibaiii🫣🫶🏼💋

[imgae-insertshockedgasps-16]

ik it's cliche and whatever but getting appropriate amounts of sleep actually does change so much

i never believed it bc i have chronic fatigue, so when i wasn't feeling any more awake in the week or month i managed to scrape together i got really discouraged and just gave up and let what happened happen

but let me tell you

if you can manage a decent (which honestly just means between 5 and 10hrs in a somewhat consistent pattern) it rlly changes things

i'm not any less tired, i'm still chronically fatigued, but other changes have been huge

more stable moods, more stable appetite, more stable pain levels, more stable recall, more stable stimulation levels, more stable spoon count

did it completely fix anything? no

did it improve things enough to be noticable by me and the people around me? yes

i still have bad pain days/bad brain days/etc etc

but they tend to be slightly less often and slightly less severe

and lemme repeat

i am just as fatigued.

i am not any less tired.

but it's worth it for the other changes.

ps) it's totally okay if you can't get consistent sleep, or you only get a little sleep but consistently, or you can only sleep during the day, or literally anything. this post isn't to make anyone feel worse abt them selves

it's to inform other people who got discouraged or didn't believe it or just need a push in the right direction or what have you that HEY SLEEP ACTUALLY HELPS

remember not to hold yourself to someone else's standards, find out what works for you

[harlowsbby]

this request just popped in my mind if you would like to write it where the reader and jack have been dating in secret for like a year and she always asking him when they’re gonna go public and he always brushes it off and then a big event comes up and he’s avoiding the reader all day so she’s at home watching the event and jack pops out with a girl in the industry and says that’s his girlfriend and reader is heartbroken

ik it’s long sorry😭

All For Me

Dating in secret wasn’t really what you had in mind when you came into the relationship with Jack but you really had no other choice.

You loved Jack and he loved You and there wasn’t really much more to say. He told you even before the two of you made things official and put a title on anything that it’ll be a secret relationship.

At times you’d bring it up to him when the two of you would eventually let the world know that Jack was with somebody but he always brushed it off and say he’d talk about it later but later never came. It just go so tiring watching other girls that weren’t his fans messaging him or flirting with him whenever you were out in public, the sad thing about it all is that Jack didn’t even seem to care.

“Y/N? I think she like well asleep or something.” “Druski, who falls asleep standing up let’s be serious for once.” Mia came from behind him and snapped her fingers in your face, snapping you out of whatever trance you were just in.

“Are you good Y/N? You just totally spaced out.” You blinked a few times before nodding, “I’m okay Mia I was just thinking about some stuff that’s been bothering me is all.”

“Do you want to talk about it?” Mia knew how you felt with Jack and everything and she felt pity on you. Mia’s been your friend since high school and she knew how boy crazy you were back then and how badly you wanted a boyfriend, but now that you had one you honestly didn’t want one.

“No it’s okay Mia let’s just focus on the event yeah? If anything bothers me I’ll tell you.” Mia didn’t believe you for a second but she let it go and took your word for it. Tonight you were all out celebrating Jack’s success for the White Men Can’t Jump reboot.

While he was out probably entertaining women that tossed themselves at him, you of course were with Druski and all his other friends. You looked across the room watching how a few girls caressed and whispered things in Jack’s ear.

Gripping the plastic cup tight in your hand you didn’t even notice you ended up spilling anything till Druski said something. “Whoa, you just spilled that shit all over my shoes Y/N.” Druski cried out. “I’m sorry Druski I’ll get some paper towels.”

Jack heard all the commotion and looked over to where you all were, he saw you going towards the bathroom and excused himself from the conversation he was having.

“I just wanna go home.” You mumbled to yourself and leaned against the bathroom door, you didn’t even wanna be here tonight your mood has been off all morning. “Baby? Are you in here.” “Jack? This is the women’s restroom what are you doing in here.”

He shut and locked the door behind him, “Well I saw you walking over here, what happened with Druski? He’s out there complaining about his shoes.”

“Yeah I kinda spilled some wine on his shoes so I’ll probably have to get him another pair.” You quickly said and grabbed some paper towels, you went to walk around Jack to leave but he grabbed into your arm. “What’s wrong with you?” His eyebrows furrowed together, his much larger form was towering over your much smaller form.

“Nothing is wrong Jack.” He knew you better than that he knew when something was off about you, just by the way your whole entire attitude changed and how quiet you get. “Something is wrong and you’re going to tell me right here, and right now.”

“It’s just.” Biting your lip nervously you tried to avoid eye contact with Jack. “I just hate how nobody knows we’re together.”

Jack deeply sighed he didn’t feel like talking about this right now, he was having the time and night of his life just laughing and talking with all his friends. “Look Y/N, we’ve talked about this before when the time is right.” He was cut off. “When the time is right you’ll tell everyone yeah I’ve heard this all before.”

Jack frowned he didn’t want tonight to end badly. “Look baby how about you just come with me for the rest of the night.” Your eyes lit up. “Really?”

“Yeah baby we can’t hold hands but you can be behind me, does that sound good?” You smiled and nodded. “That sounds good now let’s go before Mia and Druski try finding me.”

The rest of the night went smoothly even though you weren’t as close to Jack for your liking at least you were near him, whenever nobody was looking you’d both brush your hands by one another and Jack a few times held your hand for a quick second.

You thought nobody was paying attention to the two of you or watching the two of you but paparazzi made sure they paid attention to every single detail.

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You woke up to the sound of people walking and things being moved around. “Jack, no that tie doesn’t match with that suit.” Metta’s voice filled the room.

Groaning you flipped over to the side and grabbed your phone seeing the time read 10am. “Why is everyone up so early?” Metta smiled over at you. “Remember today’s the red carpet and movie premier for White Men Can’t Jump.”

“That’s today? I thought it was yesterday.” She laughed. “No Y/N that was just the little pre party for it but I’m here because Jack doesn’t know how to style himself.”

Jack rolled his eyes at Metta and flipped her off when she wasn’t looking making you giggle. “Let’s be nice now Jack.” He crawled back into the bed with you and pulled the covers over the two of you. “You know I know how to dress baby.”

“I mean well last tour was kinda rough in the wardrobe area.” He gasped dramatically his mouth opening in shock. “Oh tell me how you really feel baby.” “I’m just playing with you Jack.”

It was quiet for a few minutes the two of you just enjoying the company of one another. His eyes were closed his chest rose and fell as he began to fall into another slumber. He looked so peaceful you didn’t even want to wake him but you had a question and needed an answer.

“Jack.” You mumbled. “Yeah baby.” He opened his blue eyes and stared into your eyes waiting for your answer. “Am I allowed to come with you to the premiere?” Biting your lip nervously you watched how the smile that was placed on his face disappeared. “Baby you already know that can’t happen.”

“Why not? It isn’t fair Jack and I’m getting sick of it. I’m you’re girlfriend I’m tired of you treating me like I’m some side piece you’re hiding.” You snapped you just couldn’t hold it in anymore you were beyond tired and over it. The both of you were now standing up that once sweet moment was not completely ruined.

“Y/N I’ve told you many times before when the time is right I’ll make it official but now isn’t the time.” Shaking your head at Jack you grabbed your purse and keys, he frowned watching you collect all your things. “Where are you going?”

“Home, I’m going home.” “Baby stop acting like that.” He went to grab ahold of your hand but you pulled it back. “No Jack I have ever right to feel the way I do. I think it’s best if we take some much needed space apart from one another right now.”

His frown deepened at your words he didn’t want space away from you. “Can we just talk about this later Y/N.” “No we can’t but I do hope you have fun tonight and stay safe. I’ll see you around Jack.”

He watched you walk out the door once you were gone he sunk into the chair. “What am I going to do.” He spoke to himself, there was a reason was to why he wasn’t making things official with you but he was scared to tell you that reason.

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“Damn so you’re really taking a break from lover boy?” You we’re now at Mia’s house she picked you up earlier that day at the hotel. The two of you were going to watch the red carpet for the premier at her house.

“A break is needed at least till he figures out what he wants or what he wants to do.” Mia felt sorry for you because she knew how much you loved Jack and having to put a limit on your love for him was something you weren’t okay with.

“Well I’m proud of you maybe now he’ll see just how dumb all of this really is.” You shrugged and leaned back against the couch and munched on a few chips.

“He just doesn’t get it I hate the way he brushes it off like it means nothing I honestly hate it so damn much. If I knew loving him was going to be like this I wouldn’t have even bothered.” Loving somebody wasn’t supposed to feel like a challenge but it did with Jack.

“Let’s just try and enjoy tonight I have some wine in the fridge if you want to get it.” Placing the bowl of chips down on the coffee table you went ahead and got the wine as well as two wine glasses.

You were mid pour when you heard Mia yelling. “Y/N, get your ass in here now!!” You nearly spilled the entire bottle, screwing the lid back on you made your way back into the living room. “What’s the problem Mia? I almost had a damn heart attack.”

“That’s the problem.” She pointed to the screen, you followed her finger to the direction she was pointing at. “Is that.” “That’s Jack and some random bitch on his arm.”

There was Jack on the tv but he had this up and coming rapper hanging on his arm. Her name was Ice Spice she was a good rapper and she was very gorgeous. “Turn it up.” You told Mia.

“Well if it isn’t Jack Harlow and Ice Spice how are the two of you tonight?” The interviewer smiled and placed the microphone in their faces. “We’re doing good.” Jack showed off his pearly white teeth into the camera. “So what’s going on here? Are the two of you dating or what’s going on.”

Ice Spice smiled up at Jack. “I mean do you wanna tell them Jack or should I?” “You can baby girl.” Ice turned back to the interviewer. “We are dating we figured this was the best way to announce it.” The interviewer coo’d as Jack leaned down and placed a kiss to Ice Spice’s lip.

You felt your blood boiling and your heart ripping into two pieces. “We love and find this so adorable but the other night Jack, you were seen holding hands with this women right here.” They pulled up a picture of Jack and You at the party the other night.

“How’d they get a picture of you? I thought no phones were allowed.” You shrugged. “I have no idea Mia.”

“So if you’re with Ice, who is this women right here?” Jack bit his bottom lip. “She’s just a friend she gets really bad anxiety so I was just holding her hand.” The interview squinted her eyes not really believing Jack. “If that’s the case how much in this picture it seemed as if you were reaching down to kiss her?”

Another picture of you two were shown on the screen, it was Jack leaning forward trying to help you get something out of your eye. “I was getting something out of her eye that’s all.” He said with a tight lipped smile. “So she doesn’t mean anything to you? Anything at all.”

“God so help me if some shit comes out of his mouth.” Mia mumbled. “No she doesn’t she’s just a friend and that’s all she’ll ever be. I have Spice and she’s the most wonderful women a man can ever ask for.” Spice and the interviewer coo’d.

“Can we get a little kiss for the fans?” Jack’s eyes always popped out of head, all of this was just for show he wasn’t really with Ice it’s what management thought was best to help get him for press. “I mean well-.” “Come on Jack I mean it shouldn’t be an issue since the two of you are together right?” The interviewer pressed on.

Ice looked up at Jack and shrugged her shoulders. Jack just mentally prayed that you’d be able to forgive him. “Give me a kiss baby.” You watched in horror has he bent down to kiss Ice, the way his lips locked so perfectly with her lips was enough to send you over the edge.

“I hate him, I hate him so damn much.” You cried out and turned off the tv and ran into the bathroom. “Wait, Y/N there has to be an explanation for all of this.” Mia went to follow after you but the door was slammed in her face.

You didn’t have any clue or idea what was going on or if Jack had completely lost his marbles or maybe he was done with you, maybe he got tired of your nagging ways and dumped you.

“Oh Jack, what are you doing my love.” All you did that night was cry, you cried your poor little heart out till you eventually cried yourself to sleep on the bathroom floor.

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[whistlebrox]

i saw that you posted (or reblogged tf if I remember) Geto w/ top surgery scars and now I want to hear you infodump to me about it because I'm all for this hc/au/crack crazy idea now

(I need to be asleep rn but idg2f's)

Youdont understand how insane I am about geto being trans. It makes sm sense 2 me with him constantly questioning his morality and allat is so me coded. As a trans person, u always gotta question why everything is, everything needs an answer. It's mostly 2 confirm and validate urself and the world around u. Another thing, didn't bro kill his parents? Js sayin....kinda a mood for trans characters.... even tho ik he ain't canonically trans I still think about it alot. I have alot of hc and ideas but for the most part I wanna keep em locked up for a fic I'm gonna write. Geto as a character is rply important 2 me, so I'll give him the highest honor I can bestow upon him

....

FAG SHIT.

Alr tho but on a real note, hcs i have relating 2 geto being trans is....

Geto had 2 work his ass of in his 1st year 2 rid of his dead name and being assigned 2 lady dorms and uniforms. The first person he told about being trans was yaga, and yaga being as based as he is helped him get reassigned 2 male and all things associated with it.

He's allowed 2 use male changing rooms and bathrooms no problem, but he still avoids using em at all costs. He changes in the men's room and not in the lockers, and he doesn't use the bathroom unless ABSOLUTELY NESSESARY.

He worked out alot alot 2 get the body he wanted, but I like 2 think that he's insecure about his waist being so snatched, so that's why he wears baggy pants. Best way 2 cover curves is baggy clothes and hard work.

Another thing

Gojo don't know he's trans. He's completely clueless. And yeah six eyes does alot and all that, but he can only see the flow of CE around the area and others. It's not like he has x ray vision and can see that geto don't have a dick. So, for the most part, geto is in the clear. Geto goes great lengths 2 avoid anything relating being shirtless or talking about his body when it comes 2 gojo. The 1st ine for obvious reasons and the second one in fear he'll say something that might give him away. He's clear since gojo doesn't have a lot of interest in working out or perving on people in the first place. It's not like gojo wants 2 see him naked or anything so yk.

Ofc at some point during 2nd year he told shoko about being trans only bc he forgot his pad and all the sudden it was THAT TIME OF THE MONTH. randomly in class it started but geto had totally forgot 2 prep and that he got periods in the first place. Shook didntcare and that didn't really suprised him, but he was still scared bc he thought "a pretty girl like shoko might be stuck up, and she's not one 2 soften up her opinion just because she's talking to a friend." (Objectively pretty girl = probably the most rude lady he'll ever face, and gojo also has this fear with women but times 10000)

I like 2 think that the higher ups are kinda bitches about the whole trans thing so they try and stop people from being able 2 have a smooth transition unless they have parental support. (Which for geto was awful but he alr had done all the shit before they started enforcing that rule. It didn't end up applying 2 him but it stressed him out a shit ton.)

He also prefers 2 deal with his injuries alone since it's easier for him 2 get undressed and deal with it himself without prying eyes. Gojo hates this since I like 2 think he wants 2 help geto with everything (in an annoying insufferable way).

Ok yap over lemme know if u wanna hear more hc. This is extremely unstructured yapping so none of this is in order dawg 🙏💀

[elliezst]

INTRO POST YAAAA IVE BEEN THINKING ABT DOINH THIS 4 A WHILE SO THAT YALL GET TO KNOW MEEEE SOOOO HERE IT IS!11!!1!!

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ELLIEZST // RATGARBAGE67 !!!!!!!!

im ratgarbage67 , i mostly go by the preferred name , Ellie , my irl name is Evelyn btw I don’t mind anyone referring me to my real name , I also have nicknames too [Crimson , Linnea , ashy , evie , fiore or jake yes ik I have alot 😭]

my bday is Feb 25 + im 14 , bigender aroace + pan and I use they/it pronouns , any is okay!! but plz prevent using xe pronouns on me plz my toxic ex partner made fun of me for having em once so I no longer use them no more

I listen to…

pengosolvent , goreshit , jack stauber , Alex g , Team mekano , lapfox trax , mitski , kikuo , vacations , maretu , system of a down , tv girl

My current interests!!!

Total Drama , disventure camp , vocaloid , bad parenting , pokemon , dandy’s world , sprunki , Happy tree friends , chikn nuggit , Reality Resort andddd exotic escapade + more , i also love object shows I barely watch em by now

based on my current interests , l’ll write some of my favs ONLY from my special interests , keep in mind i have ALOT

TOTAL DRAMA FAVS

chris mclean , don , Josh and chef [ALL SPECIAL INTERESTS!!!!] , I can’t even pick a fav contestant first all r my fave from all of the seasons man 😭

DISVENTURE CAMP FAVS

kristal mclean [SPECIAL INTEREST!!] , Emily campbell , Derek Johnson and Trevor mcgregor , fiore [SPECIAL INTEREST!!!!!] , lake , Jake , alec and Tess , Grett annndddddd aniika and molly , for carnival chaos , my favs r Isabel , jade , Diego , Spencer , Tristan , Natalia , Marissa and ted

CHIKN NUGGIT FAVS

I CAMT EVEN CHOOSE ONE All r my faves sighhh I love them all 😭, but my special favs r cofi , chee , fwench fwy and iscream , hawt Saus and bezel

SPRUNKI FAVS

wenda , gray , vineria , Pinki , brud , OWAKCX , clukr , funbot and mr fun computer

DANDY’S WORLD FAVS

shrimpo [#1 fav] , teagan , toodles , tisha , Shelly and vee , gigi , pebble and Rodger

I don’t have a Dni / dislikes list no more , if ur problematic in any way then I block freely

Ik i may sound sensitive but this is my only boundaries list sighhh , PLSSS REFRAIN FROM SAYING ANYTHING IN A DRY TONE ONLY AIMED AT ME ANYTIME I SAY SOMETHING !! , including the words that are used as dry tones the most “oh” “huh” “ok” “k” “i” “uhm” “um” “uh” “what” “wh” , and if it’s aimed only at me , please don’t do that…. I don’t liek it…. I get I’m sensitive and shit but seriouslu i don’t know why i react to them like this cause sometimes i always think if people r pissed off at me already when they say that but it also genuinely makes me uncomfortable and gave me a mood change , i get i said them too but like , i mean I don’t like when people say them to me unless it’s a mistake or wrong person , caps r okay!!! , jut pleasf don’t do them if it’s aimed only at me thanks !! , sorry yall this is my only boundaries list

MORE ABT ME!!!

Also links :33

my strawpage [updatinf it soon]

my tiktok

my rblx

[lambtotheslaughterr]

OH MY GOD OKAY. so i just binge-read the entire rise series and let me tell you, i left gagged each time. even right now as im writing this my emotions are running high. first let me just say.. i literally see whatever you write in my head and like another anon said, its like a whole ass tv show/film.

which brings me to sayyeds death... when i tell you that KILLED ME!!!

my eyes deadass pricked with tears and i wouldve had a whole sob sesh if i let them fall. but i was wearing a face mask so i couldnt (lol) i didnt even really fw sayyed like that (obvo, #rafegirly) but his death was so TRAUMATIC!! and highly charged??? the way it was literally the WORST way for him to go. readers fault x2!! (the map, her finger on the trigger) ik its not actuallyyy?? her fault?? but likeee i wouldve forgotten everything too 😭

and also the wayyy rafe was a fkn cunt for like the whole story but now that readers memory is gone hes deceptively sweet... and i feel my heart clenching because i want him SOO BAD even though he sucks obviously,, but hes so dominating and like the leader which is hot and he doesnt give a fuck about ANYONE!! there except for reader and its just like AGHHH i love the little sweet moments he has for her even if its like not really real haha. anywayssss im so excited to see how the rest of the series goes!!

you are suchh a talented writer and im SO SO SO Lucky to have stumbled upon your page.. genius!!! many kudos to youuu bae <3

okay you shut the FUCK up😭😭

i was having a hectic time at work w clients & read this & it totally changed my mood for the day.

this was amazing to read from beginning to end. feedback like this seriously means so much to us writers on here so THANK YOU for taking the time to share your love like this. it’s seriously so appreciated💛💛

i’m so lucky to have readers like you & many others who take the time to support me & SHARE that support with me. i really can’t tell you how much this means. so thank you thank you🥰

i’m so happy you’re loving Rise so far! i genuinely hope you enjoy where it’s about to go😜

[castlebyersafterdark]

tbh I agree with you and really like byler having a btm will top mike preference in their relationship! it's so sweet to me? idk how to explain why, like ik switching is common irl (i think?) but i also think they're allowed to enjoy a pref and i find this one so good for them bc then it's fun when mike's in the mood to btm sometime. mike enjoying topping just feels so right to me, like people might doubt him but nope here he is expertly driving his boy absolutely insane with pleasure with his dick 🥵

Agree agree agree!! It just... it's hard to explain why but it feels so accurate for them. And that's the thing - preferences are soooo realistic I just always hate anyone in fandom fighting about it so, find what you like but don't discredit others ideas. But yes. It is sweet! I especially like the idea that they have a standard arrangement but thinking about Mike asking Will for it instead because he needs something different, oh that's good. And I dually love confident Mike in the bedroom, so pleased and happy and proud to get Will off like this, it's all from him. Let me take care of you. Love a Will who gets completely devotion laced dicked down, it's all he wants. And switching is more common than you'd think, but it kinda plays out the way we're describing here. A preference but not a never or an always. Switching it up when the mood strikes. Because it's a totally different feeling and mindset, want to fuck or to get fucked. And the body wants what it wants but that can mean changing the norm, too.

[baby-girl-aaron-dessner]

I know this will probably be an unpopular opinion but her changing the lyrics for London boy and now so long London just gives me the biggest second hand embarrassment and the ik at the same time.

Yes I am aware that these are her songs and she can change them however she wants and not everything she does is for a man but this just tells me she is working extra time to prove she has moved on when she hasn’t.

To me she looks like she is over compensating for what seems to me like a shallow relationship.

I know it’s not my place to say but even if this relation goes on for a longer (my opinion they will end shortly after the end of her tour when actually has to spend prolonged time with him without the time for shows) this will never be a happy fulfilling relationship no matter what the shippers want to say.

She is clearly trying to prove that she has moved on from both matty and Joe but she clearly hasn’t to me.

And yes not everything she does is about a man but she is playing a game of “let’s see how i can show people I am happy and over my exes and how can I make them look bad” and I am over it

Sorry for the run on sentences but I am in a mood today and I need it this off my chest.

Your feelings are totally valid anon.

I get the same vibe from her relationship. It seems like a clear marketing strategy. It’s shallow. As she said, “I can show you lies” and “are you not entertained?!”

There’s no need to apologise. Feel free to rant to me whenever you need <3

Also, I didn’t see the changed lyrics for so long London?? What did she change?

[lillyspeakz]

I saw an ask regarding adhd just wanna give an advice bcs I suffer a lot from mental health including MDR if yk MDR then good else in short it's Major Depressive disorder not only this but I have trauma issues due to my past and like I have slight autism with panick disorder and anxiety disorder I panick a lot. Weeks before I was suffering from ADHD but it was not huge and no doctors will give someone antidepressants for ADHD they need to check like what it's for and for kind info there is no particular med for ADHD it's mainly treated by SNRI and SNRI stands for Serotonin–norepinephrine reuptake inhibitor it's bcs ADHD comes with depression as per ik like depression is the first thing and when it stays for year without any treatment it will cause other issues such as ADHD, panick disorder etc. ADHD is a disease where someone lacks from attention deficiency and it might be due to the person was sad and the brain is trying to focus on escape like yk. And there is no medicine which can fix particularly ADHD only like it will act on it moreover ADHD is caused bcs of a hormone named norepinephrine, this hormone gradually decreases due to some reason and when it happens our brain can't act normally this medicine contains some drugs which binds on the nerve receptors slowing down the absorption and there is the magic as the absorption slows down in the nerve there is excess hormone which remains in our brain and this helps not triggering ADHD. And same goes for Depression but it's bcs of lack of serotonin and lack of serotonin can cause other hormone to decrease bcs serotonin is a mood regulator, we basically have two hormone for happiness oxytocin and dopamine but Serotonin is like a commander for them controlling them if there is a lack of serotonin people will find difficulty to process emotion, causing mood swings including depression. So to keep it ok SSRI are used. SSRI stands for Serotonin Reuptake Inhibitor process is same but it got different drugs and this drugs are legal and safe and SSRI targets the serotonin receptor and it works in the same way like SNRI does.

So what I wanna say is not to blame the doctor bcs it totally depends on the patient on how they co-operate if they don't tell doctors openly what they are suffering from doctors aren't god that they will understand it. In my case at first I used to be afraid but i gradually gain confidence and right now my doctor is like a bestfriend for me I openly talk with him with any difficulty I am facing, and just months ago I used to take SNRI bcs I had slight ADHD it eventually got fixed but as my main issue is Depressions he gave me a better SNRI like a change and better one than my previous SSRI it's not bcs that med wasn't working it's bcs I was getting a bit dependant on it moreover he is a MD in General Medicine and he was a professor plus doctor in one of the most reputated medical College and hospital of our city where most reputated doctor of our state comes and it's a government hospital and college right now he is a professor and doctor in another well reputated Government Medical College and Hospital of our state.

And if this person have openly communicated with their doctor then I will say to change their doctor, but I still feel fishy about this as no doctor will give someone wrong medicine bcs it will literally result in cancellation of their license. Anyway not blaming anyone also if it's that person whom ik I won't mention their name for privacy then they can put an ask and i will give the doctor's number even though he doesn't do any private chambers unless for emergency or any close one the doctor is a good friend of my dad so that's why I can go for check up to him, I said this bcs that person ik also had this same disease anyway sorry for putting this long ask just wanna help people in need despite anything pls do post this ask.

You’re all good love, thank you for spreading awareness and helping!!

[sugar-omi]

aww I'm gonna miss the Cove icon but who's the lady? 030

help i got so confused for a sec i totally forgot i changed my pfp but then I realized n pls I've never closed genshin faster...

the cove icon is such a staple tho!!! I hope yall recognize me without it but I trust my regular horny posts will be all you need anyway LOL

altho it may or may not come back some time after October yk, I was just tryna get in the spooky mood n stuff hehe but we'll see bc I am Crazy over this lovely lady here

BUT ANYWAY IM SO GLAD YOU ASKED HEHE THIS IS MY LOVELY LADY, MY CURRENT BRAIN WORM THAT IS EATING ME AWAY:

well.. ngl she's nameless right now. but she is my 3rd baxter child, yes I'm still on that bc yall ruined me w baxters kids being colorful n shit n now I like to laugh abt his child's fashion choices becoming progressively more colorful n crazier than his....

BUT TO INTRODUCE MY GIRL A BITTTT (also I'm literally drawing smth else for her n I didn't expect to reveal her like this but... she's everything to me n I cranked this out in like 3-4 hours bc I'm crazy)

anyway, she's Very into gyaru fashion, specifically n mostly kogal and kuro

she's looks like a cinnamon roll, will beat your ass!!!, I'm thinking she does competitive ballroom dancing like baxter or she can at least dance well enough to wear you out n tell you you suck

she's sarcastic, has the worst RBF of the whole family. at least baxter n theo look like they're just smug flirty assholes n aurelia looks more approachable in comparison to this lovely lady here.

also she has a heart shaped freckle. it's faint n you can't even rlly tell here but it's under her eye (I realize all my baxters children have one under their eye but idc. I am ONTO SOMETHING)

anyway.. her n theo are besties and baxter has to check in at night bc they'll be in her room painting each others nails n doing nail extensions or dying her hair (its 2 toned if you havent guessed, ive seen it sm n im obsessed n so she had it okay) like go to SLEEP YOU HAVE SCHOOL TMRW!!!

just thought abt it. she's obsessed w true crime, food, makeup, and stationary videos, and the stardew valley/the sims

also just decided she is soon for the ladies. I'm thinking lesbian n demisexual, mmm

COVE IS HER FAVORITE UNCLE ITS CANON

don't ask how, just know that it's true.

hates pickles. she is me. she is my child... omg Aurelia likes pickles. I was gonna say theo but he's a ramble for another time omfg I am thinking SO MUCH

anyway... ik you didn't ask for a ramble abt my oc but I will take this and run w it okay

she is very introverted but when she picks friends you are now 4lifers okay you cannot get rid of her n why would you want to? you life was a mess before her. trust. /j /lh

she's like baxter so much in the way she worries n has insecurities n stuff, honestly I think she inherited the identity crisis thing baxter got going on over there

also is the youngest and very much an accident (just like aurelia, dw they're FINE everyone laughs abt baxters reaction now which I will make a bit of later bc I'm thinking many thoughts abt the boys finding out mc is preg) so she's a bit spoiled bc her siblings were at least 9 n loved her sm when she was born

(imagining theo passing her to you or baxter n running away when she had a dirty diaper... pls thats so funny)

ALSO VTUBERS SHE IS CRAZY OVER THEM

yeah she is so my child omfg okay IM DONE IM DONE IF YOU READ THIS I SRSLY LOVE YOU BC I SPIRALED

now ik what it's like to jump at any chance to talk abt your ocs n how fucking crazy it makes you.... I am unstoppable now

[stinkrascal]

A couple things I was wondering is how did you figure out you had BPD? I know there's a couple disorders that can often get diagnosed beforehand, so I guess how did you know there was more going on? Secondly, what kind of therapy do you feel was the most helpful, if any? I have issues keeping a therapist because they tuxedo mask away after realizing I already have CBT down (which only kind of helps me). Thank you for being open about BPD! I feel like there's so much unnecessary stigma.

hiiiiii!! sorry i didnt reply yesterday i spent all day writing my silly sims stories 😴 i will talk about my experience under the cut!! ty for being curious about it!! <3

umm tbh i was diagnosed in a really weird way lol. so, like, where i went to high school was a really conservative and religious town, and when i was a freshman in high school i was one of the only trans/lgbt kids that was vocally out at my school. there were more of them, my friend group was basically all lgbt ppl, but i was the only person in my school who would demand staff to call me a different name/use different pronouns. but anyways so my lgbt friend group was being bullied pretty badly so our school hired this counselor training in lgbt issues that would talk to us individually about our experiences as lgbt kids who were bullied and such. it was actually really cool you know! but anyways i was one of the students who had to participate in this and the lady who was talking to me realized that i was, like, a really troubled kid lol. and on top of that i was failing all my classes and i had been struggling in school my entire life (like consistently making report cards with at least 5/7 of the classes being failed type of shit) sooooo they basically had this like idk meeting with my parents? where they were super adamant that they take me to a doctor and put me into therapy bc i was struggling really badly and yeah. after that my parents put me into therapy and got in touch w a doctor and i got some treatment and eventually a bpd diagnosis. but yea it only happened cuz of my school forcing them to take me ha.

the truth is i didn't really suspect anything was wrong with me because the way i grew up, i thought everyone acted like me 🤷‍♂️ i think the only time i started really thinking i might have bpd was when i got my first boyfriend at 16, that's when my codependency and attachment issues really started to manifest, and those have always consistently been the bpd symptoms i struggle the most with. but even back then i didn't really know what bpd was, so it wasn't like i was specifically thinking i was suffering w bpd. more so that i knew something was Off about me but i couldn't really explain what it was

unfortunately i haven't gone to therapy in a long time :( and the last time i went it wasn't for bpd treatment at all. so i really can't say what could help you there in terms of therapy. i did group therapy during my bpd treatment but it didn't really help me much.

you're probably not gonna like this answer lmao but i use weed to medicate my intense mood swings and that helps a lot. also just being able to recognize when i need to cool off and being able to use my words to tell ppl that i need to be alone for a minute to clear my head, that helps too. basically just being mindful of ur changing emotions and giving yourself room to feel those emotions and allow them to pass u, without feeling guilt for this, and without projecting those emotions onto other ppl bc at the end of the day it isn't really anyone else's fault that u feel the way you do.

also just try to give ppl the benefit of the doubt in general, ik my bpd makes me SO sensitive like for example. ik we make jokes about this but you guys im not kidding, my favorite mutual reblogging a post from someone else instead of me hurts my feelings so bad some days i have to just log off and go cry about it. CRY ABOUT IT YOU GUYS! it's really awful and totally not grounded in reality 😭 but like it's there, it's something i experience and deal with, and it isn't anyone's fault that it happens, it's just the cards i was dealt with.

so instead of projecting that feeling onto my beloved mutuals and being like Ohhhhh so you actually hate me! You actually want me to kill myself! You've actually never cared about me ever, person I've had two conversations with in total! yeah instead of working myself up for something so silly... i just try to put myself in other ppls shoes, try to remember that when i do things it is not with malicious intent and most people are also not doing things with malicious intent. bc for me, my bpd tends to dehumanize ppl... they arent people with nuance and depth and complex and at times contradictory lives, theyre my Favorite Person, person who does no wrong, person who could never do any wrong no matter how hard they try, and that's dehumanizing, that's unfair to the person!! so by humanizing the other person, by remembering we are all people with rich inner lives and struggles and most of us just want to do our best even when we slip and fall... it helps calm me down from those spirals where im like, ohhhhh god everyone hates me because they didn't reblog a text post from meeeee!!! lol